#song: dopamine

[lyricallymnded]

dopamine // loveless & american dream machine

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

ADHD & listening to songs on repeat

Future ADHD

[exorcise-ingest-repeat]

sometimes i miss these losers

[dragon-of-timeless-blue]

REVOLUTION SONGS WITHOUT CONTEXT:

shitty meme that I made quickly because I had to get that out of my system

[keydekyie]

if you're not cranking up the volume on your favorite songs and imagining elaborate and epic music videos featuring your OCs then what are you even doing with your life???

[medicbrainrot]

you make me wish i could disappear

A/N: Soooo, it’s been a while, hey? Instead of studying for my immunology exam, or even going to bed at a reasonable time, I wrote 1460 words of angst/hurt/comfort instead. Apologies in advance for any poor writing, I’m running on not enough sleep and not enough dopamine, hence this new piece after months of nothing. Spoilers for MW3 kind of. Let me know what you guys think!

It’s the middle of the night; she suddenly bolts upright in bed panting heavily, her hair wild from sleep as she gasps, trying to hold back tears. She clutches at her chest as she tries to catch her breath, disoriented to her surroundings. Simon is currently asleep beside her, but begins to stir when he feels her moving and hears her gasping. He cracks open his eyes, alerted to his love’s distress. 

“Sweetheart? Are you alright?” He reaches up slowly as he sits up, trying not to startle her in her disoriented state. “What’s wrong?”

Still half asleep and half panicking, she turns to Simon and immediately starts conducting a trauma sweep, the muscle memory of her training kicking in as she checks him for injuries. 

Simon doesn’t fight the inspection, letting her check him with the understanding that it might take a bit for her to snap out of her frantic nightmare-induced state. He gently brushes his fingers across her cheek, hoping that the gentle touch will pull her back to wakefulness and help her feel safe again. 

“You’re okay, you’re safe here love. It’s just a nightmare.” He murmurs gently, cupping her face. 

Although still frantically checking Simon for injuries as she presses on his collarbone followed by his facial bones, she slowly starts coming back to a more coherent state, her frantic search slowing down as she calms down. 

With his other hand he gently reaches to rub up and down her back, looking at her with worried eyes. He takes one of her hands and places it on his chest, letting her feel his heartbeat. 

“Slow down babe, you’re okay. You’re fine, I’m fine. You can calm down.” He says softly, sliding his fingers from her face into her hair. 

He lets her get herself oriented, softly brushing her hair back as she rests her hand over his heart. “You’re okay, nothing’s wrong, I promise.”

“You’re alive.” She pants softly, the tears in her eyes threatening to spill.

“I’m safe, I promise.” He reassures her, rubbing her back in soothing motions. “It was just a nightmare, I’m right here.” He knows he needs to be gentle with her right now, she can be on edge for a while after a nightmare like this. 

She relaxes onto her knees a little bit, leaning into Simon’s shoulder as he pulls her close. He wraps his arms around her, pulling her into his lap, holding her tightly to give her the comfort she needs. He can tell she’s still tense, so he encourages her to lean into him as he soothes her. 

They sit there in charged silence, curled into each other as he gives her a few moments to gather her thoughts together. 

“Makarov came after the 141 again.” She sobs softly, pressing her face into Simon’s neck.

Simon knows exactly why she’s been having recurring nightmares about Makarov, he’s been having similar ones alongside her. They almost seem to take turns having fitful nights of sleep, interrupted by each other’s nightmares. 

He sighs, knowing there’s not much he can do at the moment except comfort her. “It’s okay, it’s over now. It was just a dream.” He turns his head to press a kiss to her forehead, hoping his touch soothes her frayed nerves. 

He lets her melt into him, his arms around her tightly enough to keep her pressed to him, his heartbeat thudding in his chest as he recalls the events of a few months ago. They simultaneously feel as if they happened yesterday, just like they feel as if they happened a lifetime ago. 

He shifts their bodies across the bed so that he can adjust them from sitting into laying down, encouraging her to rest her weary body on his. He keeps her curled onto him, running his hand up and down her back to try and comfort her. 

After several moments of sniffling, she finally bursts into tears, breaking the silence in the room. “I’m scared….”

As soon as she starts crying, he knows she’s one step closer to getting it out of her system for the night. This is a recurring event, and he knows how to comfort her so that they can eventually both fall back asleep. He gently rubs the back of her head, encouraging her to let it out. 

“I’m here, everything is okay sweetheart, I’m here. You’re safe here.”

He holds her tight to his chest, knowing that all he can do right now is comfort her. It’s easy for him to do so, he knows her like no one else. He allows her to press herself into him and cry, letting out intense sobs as she processes the nightmare and the events that caused it. 

After several minutes of intense crying, it seems she’s gotten through the worst of the breakdown. She continues crying, but a little less intense, eventually shifting to sniffles instead of sobs. 

He kisses her forehead again as the tears start slowing down, his comforting touch doing its job of calming her down as she cries it out. “It’s okay love, it’s okay. You’re safe here with me.” He whispers soothingly.

“I miss Johnny.” She sniffles into Simon’s neck. “He’d laugh if he saw us like this.”

“He called it from the beginning, didn’t he?” Simon agrees softly, holding her a little tighter. He knows Johnny’s death had hit her extremely hard, the two of them having become fast friends upon the formation of the Task Force.  “I miss him too. I just know he’d be teasing us about being right.”

“It was cruel of the universe to not let him see he was right.” She sniffles softly.

“I’m sure he knows love, I’m sure he knows.” Simon chuckles softly. 

A few more moments pass before Simon nudges her with his shoulder. “Are you feeling a little better?” He asks gently as he swipes his thumbs across her cheekbones. 

She nods, sniffling away a few remaining tears. “I was just thinking.”

“About?” He inquires hesitantly.

“The first time you kissed me.” She mumbles.

Simon recalls the incident in question. It had been her birthday, just before midnight to the next day. They had gone out for a quiet dinner to celebrate, neither of them being in a particular mood to do so, but using it as a reason to get off base. 

On the walk up to her door, Simon had finally gathered up the courage to kiss her, but she had started crying after he did so. 

“I’d be lying if I said I didn’t remember the moment. It was certainly… unique. Had I’d known you’d cry, I might have held off.” He says softly still inwardly cringing at the idea that he’d made her cry. “You never did explain why you cried…”

After the tears started, she had bid a hasty goodnight and shut the door in Simon’s face rather abruptly. Things had been a little awkward afterwards, but upon her insistence, Simon eventually accepted that it wasn’t necessarily his fault she’d shed tears. 

“It’s kind of silly now, in retrospect.” She mumbles into Simon’s shoulder. “Before… Makarov… There was one night Johnny and I had gotten a little drunk, and he’d bet me that you’d wait until something like my birthday to kiss me.” She sniffles, trying to clear her nose. “When you kissed me, I remembered that bet and the memory kind of startled me, because it felt like Johnny was shouting ‘I told you so!’ from the afterlife or something. So I guess I owe him a drink the next time I see him.”

Simon chuckles slightly at the explanation, relieved that her tears hadn’t been exactly his fault. “He was right on target with that one. I didn’t think I’d have the guts to do it, but I’m glad I did.”

They lapse into a comfortable silence, the warmth of the bed helping them both feel a little more relaxed after tonight’s ordeal. 

She yawns, the adrenaline from the nightmare finally starting to wear off. “Sorry for manhandling you earlier.” 

“It’s alright, it was just a nightmare, it can be incredibly disorienting sometimes. I’m just glad you’re feeling a little better.” He smooths his hand across her hair before pulling the blankets back around them. 

She takes a deep breath, letting the warmth of Simon’s embrace comfort her. He tucks the blankets around them, settling into the bed as they get sleepy again. He continues rubbing his hand up and down her back a little longer as she drifts off to sleep, feeling at ease that he’s there to comfort her. 

He presses one last kiss to her head before drifting off to sleep himself, comforted by the fact that his lover is safe in his arms. 

A/N: Thanks for reading! Likes, reblogs, and feedback are always appreciated! (Requests are also still open)

Masterlist

[askdacast]

EVERYBODY ALL BONKLE FANS SHUT UP STOP WHAT YOU’RE DOING AND WATCH THIS IMMEDIATELY

THEY OPENED UP BIONICLE DAY 2023 WITH VAKAMA (YES) NARRATING AFTER 20 YEARS OF MASK OF LIGHT AND BELOVED BIONICLE S#%&POSTER ESSENGER & CRYOSHELL’S BANGER NEW SONG

[alex-the-anxious-2]

i'm cooking

ok guys i'm riding the brainrot and trying to make a marble hornets friday night funkin mod so i gotta know, do i make Boyfriend [little blue boy who sings] Jay? Or does he stay little blue boy?

also, tim's pose sketches so far,, if u think i should change anything lmk! i feel like his down pose might be a little lame? unsure

i am perfectly aware i might not get much of a response seeing as this is literally such a niche BUT.

[targarrus]

pure dopamine

[facefullofsadness]

OH MY CUNTTNRNJEJDJSJSJSJS BITCHHHHH THE WAY I SCREAMED LIKE I WAS DYING WHEN THESE DROPPED OH MY GAWKKKKK

yeah crawling out of my hole js to drool over this like minjeong is CRAZYZHSHSUDJDK

also!!! solo songs are officially dropping on the 9th so!!! now I'm required by law to drop synk solo song series 🤷‍♀️ they've been too impatient waiting for me so they had to take matters in their own hands

[sillyabtmusic]

Dopamine - Xion

[paperlovesadness]

Sometimes I feel like I'm just psychotic, connecting all these red threads on my mind's wall (and maybe I am).

But... But... Tell me you don't see it too.

[kikmessenger]

i’ve been eating way more food these days which has been a big goal for me and now suddenly im in a good mood after work……?? what’s gonna happen guys 😨

[lxvenderjewel]

angel tears

shoutout to @falling-raine for inspiring this one, your fic was heartwrenching I loved kt. the fic

if you look at the clouds

all dark and gray

and you wonder what 

happened to the day

the sun was shining

the sky was blue

the birds were singing

now darkened too

an angel sits

somewhere up there

he’s all alone

and no one cares

he pastes a smile

and walks along

memories of

a nightingale's song

and finally when

he gets the time

he writes and writes

for every line

his eyes fill up

with angel tears

and when they spill

the whole world hears

[valyrfia]

google search how to fight adhd to do chores that shouldve been done weeks ago

if you're struggling to start doing it (i have this problem) for me works to start accidentally. like when you can't call to someone and you accidentally press the call so you're panicking but well the call is started and now you can't quit you have to deal with it.

when doing chores you have the same thing like you pretend... idk you want to take the other thing but accidentally make a mistake and grab a mop? so you already took it why not to start cleaning? this may sound fucked up but... it works.

also i can heavily recommend to NOT start from something that is hard to do. it doesn't work this way. people with adhd need time to gain enough serotonin. you start with something that is easy, for example, putting the things on their place (it may vary from person to person, i'm talking about my experience, please remember it). doing this stuff you have a thought like "hey i've done it! i've already done a part! that was easy!" and you're brain sees the result and gives you serotonin. so you gradually increase the difficulty and to the point of most difficult you have enough mental strength to make it.

(it's kinda like harvesting kinetic energy in F1 car to overtake)

hope it helps!

this helps a ton actually, thank you so much! The thinking of dopamine/serotoning like ERS in an F1 car is actually a great analogy which makes a ton of sense in my brain. Thank you <3