#someyhing wrong with me

[anpiels]

i understand sisyphus so dearly

[transfemzedaph]

google searchbwhat the fuck is wrong with me

[muzzlemouths]

spent last night thinking about how much i loved and missed canon dca and told myself i should write something about it and then immediately blacked out and wrote them as harpies instead. i think someyhing is wrong with me

[damnfandomproblems]

@ 4158

Like the replies saud its because they are "safe"

But the thing is if you dare write for anything else like DID for example people will tear you apart for it.

Even if you write something inspired by DID but its not actually DID

Not because they dont like the disorder, but because they dont like how you wrote it.

You cant write abount ptsd either. Alot of people tjink that if iy doesnt fit in to how they experience someyhing or how theybthink real people experience it then you are wrong and are fetishizing people with the disorder or dont respect those people at all.

It sucks especially becuase personally i love the concept of DID or endogeneic systems. The concept of having multiple people in your head for a variety of reasons and purposes.

Id loce to write it, but i dont write angst so i know that it doesnt matter how much research i put into it people would still rip me to shreds over it not being realistic or how i have no right to write about anytjing similar to it because i dont have them

Tldr its because fandom sucks and are realky defensive for no reason so no one wants to do anything out of whats considered "normal"

Posting since this is a response to a previous problem.

[saints-red]

whatever someyhings fuckinv wrong with me and idk what but who even cares

[juniusgirl]

The problem really isn't that you're ignorant about something, nor that you're skeptical when told someyhing different, it's that you insist you aren't to the point of anger when someone who knows more about it than you do points out what's wrong.

It's okay to be stupid, dude. I know people can be mean about it, including you, including me. My first instinct when i make a mistake is to call myself an idiot. But insisting you're right doesn't make you any more right, it prevents you from learning and actually getting less stupid.

The goal should be to be less stupid, not look less stupid.

[draqulung]

theres someyhing wrong with me..i had a dream about BRIAN QUINN this i getting out of hand like i hugged him then we went to my room and then i did something INAPPROPRIATE like im so confused idek. how could my brain come up with soemthing so vivid and amazing.

[faecelessfiend]

I'm aroace.

TW: venting

No, it's not that I "just haven't found rhe right person"

Or that I"m "Too young, and it's fine cus u also didn't feel atraction at my age"

It isin't "trauma from seeing my parents erratic and toxic relationship"

It isn't because my anti-depressant makes me have lower libido, I still have libido

Or that there is someyhing wrong with me.

Yeah I know I ""used to have crushes"", but it wad when I was 5 and though wanting to be best ftiends was a crush, the others were social pressure, I felt like I HAD to have a crush cus everyone had one

I know I "still feel love", being aroace doesn't mean I can't love, doesn't mean I don't want a relationship or the bonds formed

So, mom, when I come to you, crying because I am feelling wrong, because I feel like there is something wrong with me, feelling that I am missing something...

I don't wnt to hear that "I will get better", I want to hear that there is nothing wrong with me, with being who I am, I was not born wrong, I don't need fixing.

Please... it isin't too much to ask to be loved...

You promised me.

[pyrrhuria]

okay reality check i need to stop caring so hard about this game that it makes me feel physically ill there is someyhing wrong with me. my curse

everything is really awful in dndland guys. everhthing is really bad

[per1shed]

randomly thought about my breathing again yesterday evening and can’t stop obsessing over it now i literally slept maybe 2 hours last night bc i was awake BREATHING MANUALLY and sweating and being dizzy and panicky bc i can’t fucking stop and i know the more i try to stop the worse it will be so i’m just trying to accept it but i’m scared it won’t go away again GOD PLEASE

[midnineties]

dropped my cat off at the vet and they’re gonna call when they’re done checking on her... i am Big Worry

[lina-loves-chocolate]

I informed myself a bit about pension scheme and legal pension today and all I know now is that I will probably end up with 10,24€ each month minus some weird as taxes and simple question-> How do people afford existing?

Rents are expensive af, building your own house is expensive af, raising children is literally a financial meltdown, private care won't work as you can't afford living during your working years and you sure as hell won't be able to afford living during your pension. Like when I'm old enough for pension I will have to pay taxes on 100% of my legal pension, there are less tax allowances and it's likely that there is huge inflation till then

[tamariixs]

my mom is.. loving, i hope. but i think she always saw me as someyhing else, someyhing alien, some feral animal. at least thats what it felt like. my mom always was the one who is more loving and emotional, but also the one that did the most harm, said the most words, the one that cares, but seemingly in the wrong directions.

i want to think that my dad is loving too, bust most of my life hes been working. not even away, hes always there, in the same place, hes just not available. i liked him because he didnt say anything bad, he didnt harm me in any way, he never said too much. but, i guess, he just didnt say enough. enough for me to know him, really. but with him, i never felt alien, i never felt like another creature being observed. unless it involves my mom in someway.

my parents werent bad, they.. just werent good. i already came peace that i can never trust my mom with the bad things, but i still want to love my dad. i still dont want to belive that he thinks the same things, just a little more like me. i still love him.

dad, do you still love me?

dad, will you still play with me? will you still sit with me and show me everything?

dad, will you spend more time with me?

dad, will you still be the the one that i don't hate? please?

dad, am i still your daughter?

can i ever be your son?

dad, did you ever love me?

were you even different at all?

[maddestmewmew]

i think the weirdest way my anxiety manifests is my AWFUL fear of zoos and aquariums. i dont actually mind seeing animals and in fact love looking at animals doing their thing, and i really do like all the support zoos n aquariums give animals that couldnt survive in the wild for one reason or another !! however if i step foot in one i IMMEDIATELY break down. like. like im not kidding its an INSTANT panic attack . bc i have this HORRIBLE anxiety that im going to see an animal dead or dying, that something bad will happen while im there.

[jedijenkins]

me reading Dragonwatch finally: I'm really tired of hearing about Kendra's immortal horse boyfriend. Why can't Seth have a magical creature boyfriend?

Dragonwatch: has Calvin show up and declared his devotion to Seth

Me: PLEASE DONT BE EVIL AND PLEASE BE GAY

[astronomical-bagel]

twin twas for the something wrong with u but also congrats on doing the dishes

Ahshsndjdb thanks. For both of those things <3