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"Which could mean nothing"
#digital art#my art#fanart#sometimes i hate my life#Y'know#kaboodle smp#ksmp#ksmp fanart#clownpierce#branzycraft#Branzy#clownzy
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the grew up around ppl older than them trying to grasp complex topics and situations pre teen to isolated and self absorbed older teen pipeline
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I should not be so bothered that someone hasn't replied to a message I sent them when last year they did and it was so eye-opening and I wish they hadn't fucked things up with our friendship/relationship by making such a crazy decision and I just wish things were so different.
Not even an acknowledgement and that just kills me. Do they hate me that much?
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Me, with a half-liter mug of extra strong black unsweetened coffee in one hand and a banana in the other: Today is going to be a good day. *immediately proceeds to spill all the coffee on the couch* Well, shit. *turns on the hairdryer to try to dry it. Hair dryer smokes and dies*
#madu grumbles#fucking hell#my coffe! noooo!#This is all just because I had one (01) moment of good luck yesterday morning#nature is healing#at the expense of my peace of mind and sanity but that's okay#sometimes I hate my life
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Look what we've become.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#Initially I wanted to do a 'Mutiny' quote to follow the 'Luck runs out' quote.#But the musical earworms demanded a different blood to be drawn. And I think it works just as well.#Alright. It's time to confess something. I really struggled with this comic. I didn't want to draw it. Then I didn't want to upload it.#Because I knew I would be here in the tags writing and backspacing for hours trying to articulate my thoughts.#I'm going to talk about death and grief in the tags today so this is your WARNING to look away if you aren't in a headspace for it.#Sometimes in media there are scenes and characters which land on topics so specific to your wounds that it reopens them all over again.#Because here's the truth. When you've known someone like this for nearly your whole life...it doesn't matter how bad the fight is.#You always think 'We'll always have time. One day this dust will settle and we'll rebuild the bridge.'#And then the fucker dies!!! He dies and suddenly there will never ever be time to repair the rift.#Someone you loved died thinking you hated them. And part of you did just a bit. But love and hate aren't mutually exclusive.#He's fucking dead and you are left with so many broken and unfinished pieces between the two of you.#Jiang Cheng loses Wei Wuxian thinking that WWX thought they hated each other.#He's a younger brother who will one day be older than the person he lost.#Who has no one else in the world who understands those feelings of love and hate and grief.#I can't be normal about this character. I don't think he even heals me. Zero catharsis to be gained here.#I just look at his sour grape ass and think 'shit that's a little too close to home.' JC is my discomfort character.#I'm probably going to regret being this vulnerable in the tags in like. An hour. So. sorry if you see this once and never again.#EDIT: Yeah sorry this took 4 hours to muster the courage to post. Surprise update!#EDIT 2: You guys were being too nice to me on my sad comic to point out the spelling error. I have fixed it now B'*)
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FUNFACT: just 1min after i told this story my family... i stepped onto a slug šš„°
i just got to be cursed
first i throw some nailpolish down on the tile floor which of course breaks and is not only all over the floor, on the couch but also my legs - and i mean like from between my toes up to just above my knees! then i rush to wash it off my legs because wtf.
(btw i couldn't find my glasses during that whole fuck-up.)
in the shower it doesn't get off (because i was busy cursing when that little fukker fell on the ground; and being clueless what i should clean first: the floor or my legs - so by the time i got in the shower it had already dried)
not at all cleaned up, i grab the paper towel thing. which drops to the floor unrolls for at least a meter. then i grab the nail polish remover. which i then almost drop too.
when i FINALLY REMOVED most of the nail polish. (while a fly tyrannised me, constantly sitting down on my head.) i go to throw out the paper towels. and just as i was pulling out the trash can... SOMETHING JUMPS ON MY FUCKING FOOT. i am convinced it was a MOUSE. ššš
so i go to get a mouse trap from the garage. the mouse trap is behind a huge spiderweb... i can't get the mouse trap to work. i go back. panicking that the mouse crawled into one of my shoes so i put them away.
AND ONE OF MY SHOES IS FUCKING MOULDING?! i really gave it no reason tošššššššššššššš
like excuse me what?! how can all of this happen in LESS THEN HALF AN HOUR?!!!!!
PS: no i don't live in a trash can of a house. it is a very nice pretty place. some kind of deity or a ghost just thought it would be funny to curse me.
#first a mouse then a spider then a slug#are you kidding me?!#sometimes i hate my life#(see? i only said 'sometimes' i am so proud of me)#turtely's op#turtely#funny#funny posts#kinda#lol
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i feel like social media has warped peopleās perception of conflict in relationships by making you think that any minor fuck up is the end of the world and everyone is secretly a narcissist manipulator with sinister motives, because actually in real life you just say āiām sorry, that was a bad thing, i shouldnāt have done thatā and the other person says āthank you for apologisingā and then thatās the end of it
#ramble#i hate that it took until my 20s to realise that i canāt go through my life just trying not to hurt people. because it will happen#it just does happen sometimes#and you have to drop out of the tiktok school of āiām incapable of doing anything wrong ever and everyone else is the problemā#and get comfortable with making mistakes and learning from them#youāre fine. itās fine#disclaimer obviously this doesnāt mean you donāt have to try to be kind or considerate anymore as long as you apologise. use your brain
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āBut I am very poorly today & very stupid & hate everyone & everythingā
- Charles Darwin. Letter to Charles Lyell, 1 October 1861
#Darwin#quotes#famous quotes#Charles Darwin#always remember that everyone has bad days sometimes#even the people who look like they are productive beyond human capacity#sometimes itās important to just acknowledge it and see that there are good things to come#but right now is just shit#anyway I have a flu or something#and right now I hate everyone and everything#and my immune system most of all#and the parents who send their sick and contagious kids to daycare#and the evolution of viruses#who tbh have absolutely no business to be wreaking such havoc on the more organised domains of life#about me#sorry to be a downer#your usual frog-related content will resume after a brief intermission#I realise that posting quotes is super cringe#sorry about that#at least some of you probably havenāt seen this quote before#so youāve learned something today#and Iāve gotten to vent#win-win?
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Mostly Hiring manager, but HR manager and PR manager too
#elden ring#elden ring varre#white mask varre#varre#white faced varre#tarnished#tarnished oc#varre x tarnished#tw; blood#suggestive#no jokes or humor this time sorry#just Varre being Varre#I know I usually stick to humor stuff but this clawed through my brain like an eldritch horror#I actually hate 5/11 Varre faces I drew here but I did my best#sometimes homeboy is gonna look like a lil gremlin and thereās nothing I can do about it#but also those other 6 /11 faces are the best Iāve ever done so Iāll take it#never been more clear to me how I unconsciously push myself to do harder things#like we got crazy hand angles with defined knuckles and fingernails#we got the upward angle face that doesnāt look like shit#we got form fitting lighting that is passable#semi accurate fabric physics#did I not give a fuck about the BG#yes#but Iām here for Varre sex appeal not rendering bricks#also misericorde magically changes scale throughout the whole comic#lmao oops#most detailed environmental lighting Iāve done too#Christ the lengths I go to for deranged fictional men#at the very least I feel like the dialogue isnāt ooc#me fighting for my life to make sure Varre looks like the same damn character between each panel
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Today I bring you a simple 07 study cuz I wanted to
#not necessarily Nate#but can be#soooooo#nate as male07#or jyst#male07#for any enjoyers out there#half life#oooo getting refs for him was hard i hate meme culture sometimes#i just wanna doodle him like genuinely#but it be like that#anyway i smooch him#but also i shake him in my tight grip
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Cool awesome reminder that you donāt need amazing technical skill to be a good artist/storyteller
#I still compare myself to other people but also like. Damn. What if I donāt need to#Thatās literally what working with other people is for . so you can fill in for eachother and make an awesome thing :)#Reminder that Toby Fox is not a skilled visual artist LOL he makes concept art in mspaint#Ik Heās more of a composer / character writer but you know what I mean. He works with other people to bring those ideas to life#You donāt have to be good at everything !!#Txt#art#I say this because rendering pieces of art takes me dozens of hours and itās literally so much work and I hate it sometimes#Ok then make a simple stylistic choice instead of doing a giant painting !! it will still carry the same or maybe even greater impact#I still want to make awesome giant beautiful pieces of art (illustration) but alas I donāt have infinite energy#I usually only make sketches instead and that doesnāt mean theyāre unfinished. Maybe thatās just all theyāre meant to be#Until I change my mind at least š©·#Adhd#Honestly anything that gets your idea across is good enough. Depends on the idea
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need the historical romance girlies to go back to their roots and read forever amber (1944)
#forever amber#kathleen winsor#it's SO serious y'all. five star book and it didn't even have to make me cry i'm going to think about it for the rest of my life#amber is the ubermensch of unlikable female characters and i am obsessed with her. worst woman in the world. wife city.#there's a terrifying section set during the plague where she has to nurse her Main Lover (horrible dude. hate his guts) back to life#two of the nurses sent to help die of plague then right when the horrible man gets better amber also gets sick#so they get a third nurse who is willing to murder them both to get their money so horrible dude murders her first#the plague section is soooo tense and scary it's almost a novella in itself. wonderful writing and detail#kathleen winsor read 365 books about restoration england and was painting diagrams of houses and dresses#ma'am i'm sorry i think i have to retroactively make you take the autism test. incredible devotion to history#there's also a great bit where amber murders her abusive third husband (out of four) and disguises it with the fire of london#literally what else can you want from a book#lit#sometimes i make stuff
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sometimes i scroll thru my tumblr dash & think to myself with a bit of awe how lucky i am to be surrounded by a world full of beautiful ppl doing beautiful things. & yeah no there's no punchline to this one actually. i just love u
#i hate the internet a lot of the time but honestly it's quite breathtaking that i can find with a few clicks people who are passionate about#the same things as me! and people proudly being passionate about things i never knew existed!#people creating things and people making jokes and people talking and people loving what they love with their entire heart & soul#its just. its good to see. it makes me feel better.#this post is brought to u by all the talented artists i follow and my online friends#sometimes joy is made of tiny interactions with people u will never meet. someone shows me their art and i say it's beautiful. it changed#my life. and then we go on living#hope#š
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nice one, saiki! that sure is true!
#supporting the gf#hes so silly#the disastrous life of saiki k#saiki kusou no psi nan#saiki kusuo#kusuo saiki#kusuo#saiki#saiki k#my girlfriend#saiki fanart#art#shitpost#tiktok#tiktok scares me#saiki get off tiktok what the fuck i hate you#mimi draws sometimes
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sometimes its really obvious how much people dont actually believe presentation=/=gender when they see their nonbinary friend go from extremely masculine to relaxing back into femininity once theyre comfortable with their gender and every time they call it detransitioning with zero indication thats what their friend is calling it. i dont know how to tell you this but sometimes you present a certain way for social reasons and not because thats how you actually feel. sometimes you experience dysphoria about your body that is actually related to how people view you and not how you feel about your body. i really dont think its that uncommon for trans people to swing really hard in one direction for the affirmation and then relax back into a different presentation once they are more comfortable in their gender
#txt#gekkering#idk how to word this but genuinely if you see your friend growing more comfortable in their body and presentation and assume theyre detransi#tioning without them telling you that you should be ashamed and i hope your friend finds someone who is more accepting of experiences they d#dont personally relate to#butch trans women exist femme trans men exist and very masculine AND very feminine nonbinary people exist#i hated my body most of all when i focused on how other people view me. and before anyone accuses me of anything not that you need to but i#do have other dysphoria but its not NEARLY as severe as when i was younger and was obsessed with how other people gendered me#and if that does still bother you thats okay im not saying people who arent bothered by being misgendered are unreasonable or should get ove#r it or anything#but THATS why sometimes your dysphoria from when you first came out can drastically contradict the way you present later in life#such as transmasc people no longer wanting to bind or transfem people no longer wanting to tuck
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doodles
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#itadori yuuji#fushiguro megumi#ryoumen sukuna#fanart#jjk fanart#yuuji#megumi#sukuna#not gonna tag gumi vocaloid but thats who that is . fr the uninitiated. the yowamushi mont blanc herself <3#tbh re: megu>gumi at this point i feel like i am screaming into the void . yelling at a wall etc etc#i know i will never change fandom opinion on the go-to nicknames#but just know that when yall call megumi 'gumi' . gumi vocaloid is all i think of . she doesnt go here >:(#using gumi fr megumi just leaves a weird taste in my mouth . n i know most of it is likely bc of the context i... normally see it used in.#but i digress. if i can convince even a single soul to adopt the megu agenda into their life i will count that a victory#anyway midway through the megu/gumi drawing i got hit with a wave of I Hate My Art Style#so i did a doodley sketch sheet and im cured now#sometimes just doing a bunch of drawings to convince yourself u can draw Works !! who knew !!!#also has been a while since i drew sukuna i think !! hes so silly#i also just realized he and fushiguro mewgumi r making the same face FHGSDFHSDK Unintentional!!!!!!!!!#i tried going fr a slightly Different Style(tm) with the sheet but i think i ended up sticking to old habits fGHFGHSH#maybe its a smiiidge more realistic??? who can say#either way it felt good to keep things rough n sketchy like i was doing a while back#and now it is . 3am .
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