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emptymanuscript · 3 days ago
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So, probably in large part because I have a bit of a fascination with the philosophy of creative writing/art, I would argue that THAT is the permanence.
Yes, there's stuff like Plato's Republic that's been around 2400 years or so. But in majority, it's the above kind of thing. Something that is here for only a tiny flash of time and affects only a few people. But in a few of those few, some part of the story worms its way into the reader's soul. It resonates and echoes through them. Even if it's just an inch, it changes the course of their lives.
But that's the thing about a social species. We exist as a multi-body problem. One person changing their direction by even that an inch launches into the mass of us and caromes off into hundreds of other infinitesimal changes extending far beyond the author or touched audience.
The way one person thinks about love will, in turn, affect how they interact with others about love and slightly alter their pattern from the experience.
The literal story, the exact words and plot points, vanishes. It is the EFFECT they had, moving through the thought space of the populace in the same way that genetic and epigenetic evolution moves through the biological space of the population that is permanent.
No one will ever remember the first Homo Sapien Sapien (or Pan Narrans if you prefer) . In fact, there is a good argument that there's no such thing as the first modern human, that everything is a sort of snap shot of a fluctuating motion that we capture in arbitrary division. Which in no way counters the fact that Homo Sapien Sapien (or Pan Narrans) is an observably distinct species from the other Hominidae who are in turn obviously separable from the more general class of Primates and on out into all the other orders of life in the world.
The Permanence does not come from some distinct singularity that lasts forever. It is not an eternal individual example. It is the trend line that passes through from one place in time to another. It is how that evolving trait goes on to everyone else to change them into something else.
This is where Meme comes from. It is called that specifically to evoke the word Gene. With the idea that it is doing much the same thing. That it 'competes' (for lack of a better word) in the world for spreading through it even as it changes because the world and other Memes in turn affect it (which is why 'compete' isn't really the best word because a lot of 'success' is about cooperation with what else is out there) to make this kind of soup of interactions which just keep going.
Even in cases where the Memetic line dies out, it shapes the arena for the Memes that come after it. There isn't a tabula rasa. Fitness is in part determined by what is going on around it as it emerges. And there is a kind of physics to it, even if it is hard for us to understand. There is convergent evolution in Memes as well as Genes because there are basic strategies that have power to them. Probably because of how fit Memes shape the evolutionary space by shaping us.
For instance, in this case, the film makers who made Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind probably never read that self published book. And the fictional elements of the story go in a very different direction. But I vaguely remember that there are suggestions in it that Joel and Clementine are in a somewhat similar situation. That they keep purposely forgetting each other and in turn keep falling in love because of the forgetting. There is something in that Memetic code that has a resonance and can keep cropping up even from widely divergent sources.
Fiction, as opposed to just story, the purpose-made technological process of conveying story would also probably fall under the logical rules of Temes, extrapolated in turn from Memes as it was extrapolated from Genes, which has a replication advantage over the other two because it is not time constrained. Even now, if you want, you can go and find Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and recover it as if it is currently active in the arena. An even better example would be finding some much older piece of writing that again deals with transmitting this same idea. These things are buried but fully resurrectable.
While story, as a more general and complex category, isn't the same way. It's too amorphous. Because they leave impressions in the emotions and memories of the audience members the story resonates with, Memes can be resurrectable, too. In exactly the way above. It's not the full story, it's not the piece of fiction - the art(ifact) - or even a quote from it. It's the impressionistic evocation of the story remembered. It is the story of the resonance of the story. A Meme that carries the precious part of another Meme in the same way that our cells, determined by our genetic code, carry mitochondria which have their own DNA codes separate from ours.
Within this story above is the preserved the older memetic code as it resonated. It has essentially evolved through this reader as a space by coming to the audience - here in an individual representative - in its original form and passing out to all of us who see this and find it resonant and beautiful and wanting to in turn pass it on ourselves as a second generation audience.
Will it stick with us?
Who can say?
It is in a great play of competition and cooperation with all the other stuff in our minds and attention. It will change and affect us as it can and the final result will be far too complex to be tracked, let alone predicted. It's a thousands of bodies problem, using physics that we definitely do not entirely understand - even occasionally because of willful ignorance and disinformation on the part of those with an agenda.
But it will have a real effect.
That it passed through us and acted leaves that permanent change in the system that is separate from it, itself, as an eternal thing. It, the singular original, is already gone. Already lost. But the change it works in the world is still going and will continue in utterly unpredictable ways. That is the permanence. The ever passing effect going on between us all, far beyond what we can see.
One of the best stories I ever read as a child was a fantasy novel by some local dude selling books out of a suitcase on the sidewalk downtown, and I don't remember what it was called or who the author was, and it's so obscure that no matter how many elements I remember, I've never been able to find it through web searches. I only vaguely remember the story - it was a love story, something about a tower on an island and two characters on a quest to discover their forgotten past. They fall in love and at the end the only way to stay together is to allow themselves to forget again, and you realize that they're right where they started, in the exact same tower, and they're doomed to go on this same quest over and over again, never completed, but that also means they'll fall in love over and over again forever. And I remember how that ending blew up my little child brain into a million pieces.
I don't know what happened to the book, and I'll probably never read it again, but if you're somewhere out there and you were once selling fantasy novels from a suitcase on the sidewalk in the suburbs of Chicago, and if you ever felt like your writing never meant anything or went anywhere except a hundred copies you had printed yourself and sold for almost nothing, please know that your story buried itself in my young brain and has probably shaped my worldview in ways even I don't understand.
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cherrysolo · 20 hours ago
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I knew it, I know you.
yall have asked for a longer fic of this request, so here you go <3 instances where the reader comforts lu because of his back pain.
warnings: a wee bit of smut maybe angst too
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you had been dating luigi for a couple of years now, you knew him better than anyone else. you knew all of his behaviours, every time he was frustrated and had a pout on his face, or when he would use his hands to talk during arguments. you could read him like a book, which was handy when he didn’t want to communicate. especially after having a rough time with back pain and surgery complications, you wanted to be the best partner you could be.
for instance, you guys were hiking together in hawaii, and halfway through the hike you could tell the mood completely changed. every couple of steps, lu would kind of stretch his back, or even let out a groan. it was obvious he was struggling, “baby is everything okay?” you questioned quietly, not sure how to approach this. “all good,” giving you a shy smile. you could tell he was in pain, but trying to pull through. you guys have been wanting to do this trail for months but never found time, until today. “why don’t we just go home and rest, it’s getting kind of hot out here anyways,” you suggest trying not to pry. you were already breaking a sweat and luigi was shirtless, so maybe this was a good excuse to leave. you wanted to take care of him but not baby him either. “but we made it this far, why give up now?” he snaps back. “yeah, but you’re in pain, let’s go, if we don’t stop now you’ll regret it later,” you snap right back because you want him to take care of himself, and sometimes that includes rest. “I’ll be fine,” you give him a look, raising your eyebrows. “fine, let’s go, it won’t change anything though,” he sighs grabbing your hand to walk back to the car. “I know you’re pissed at me lu, but you need to take care of yourself. I worry about you,” pleading with him to understand your side. he squeezes your hand, knowing that he does care what you say. “thank you, baby, I know you care, sometimes I do push myself too much,” he leans over to kiss your forehead. you two end up cuddling on the couch for the rest of the evening, sometimes rest is not a bad thing.
another time is when you two are intimate, it can complicate how a night can play out. communication is everything to you guys when you’re together. sometimes you could tell instantly from the way luigi moves or his face twitches that his back is starting to bother him. you always motion for him to lay back and you take charge. straddling him and grinding your hips onto him. “hmmm why don’t I take care of you lu?” you smirk down to him. lowering yourself onto him, he groans out as if it’s a sense of relief. his hands immediately fall onto your hips, gripping onto you as you bounce up and down. “you’re such a good girl, taking care of me like this,” he’d moan out. attacking your neck with kisses, pleasure taking over the room. as you guys both reach your peak, a sense of gratitude fills luigi’s heart. even though you’re showing love (literally) switching up positions or doing things for lu’s comfort makes his heart swell.
the most common thing is showing small gestures of pda. if it’s small back rubs in public, lingering kisses of comfort, or just simple whispers of “are you okay?”. you’d hug lu from behind, and ask him how his back is feeling, if he needed any ibuprofen, or wanted to go home. you were scared of overbearing him, but your affection and worry made him feel loved. he loved the way you always looked out for him even in simple situations. after a long night out, or a workout that didn’t help, you’d give him a massage or cuddle with him to relax. it was just the little gestures that meant the most. you just wanted him to be happy and healthy, without the worry of his back pain.
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aninipanin1 · 2 days ago
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MY BUMBLEBEE
Notes: Nothing just pure fluff and a lil jealousy, This is Miss Manager Junior btw:> And I got this idea from MemeSuga01's book titler "Blue Lock Specials" Special 18 in Wattpad! Please check out their books and account. They make really good stories!
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"Bachira-san-"
"Y/N!!!!"
You were tackled with a hug that almost knocked the wind out of you. There were times like these where you remembered that Bachira was like the rest of the players in the facility, absolutely tall and built.
"Um...hi, how may I help you..?"
"Nothing! I just wanted to hug you!! You don't visit our stratum much anymore hmp!!"
He pouted, arms still around your neck as he happily cheered and tattled whatever was in his mind away. Seeing the excited look in Bachira's eyes made you quite happy and a bit guilty if you were to interrupt with whatever he was saying, so you nodded your head at whatever he was saying, even if it does not make sense at times.
As he talked, arms still around you, you started to let your eyes wonder about his features. You never noticed it, but the yellow in his hair was really bright and matched his pretty eyes. You think deep down that everyone has really pretty eyes, but the ones in the Blue Lock's facility take the cake, the variety of colors are all comparable to literal gems.
Bachira's looked like one of an amber, one preserved after so many years because of its shine and beauty. But it's not just beautiful but resilient as well, surviving whatever weather, temperature or disaster may occur around it. And it's not that far from Bachira's own story.
As you thought deeper, you then noticed how the black part of his hair mixed well with his yellow hair and eyes. He looks like a honeybee! Or even a-
"Bumblebee..." You ditzily whispered, not knowing you said it outloud, and unfortunately for you, Bachira heard it too.
"Eh? What did you say, Y/n-chan?" He tilted his head, his arms loosening a bit around your neck. Your ears and cheeks immediately flushed in embarrassment thay you said something so embarrassing out loud without a thought.
'Stupid Y/n...'
"Aww cmon Y/n-chan! What was it?"
"I..I said...you looked like a honeybee...I mean...I think you look closer to a bumblebee because of your personality! And because bumblebees are so chubby and cute and-" you covered your mouth, catching yourself talking too much again. There were moments like these where you would forget that you were talking to someone and you needed to filter out your words, and would instead talk their ears off with your unfiltered thoughts.
But, instead of being mad like you thought, Bachira's cheeks turned really pink before he hugged you even tighter than before.
"Aww Y/n-chan!! You're so cuteeee!! I like that nickname so much! I like it!" He cheered, jumping around as his arms were still around you making you a bit dizzy, before blinking at his words.
"Really? You don't mind I called you bumblebee?"
"Nope! I like it! Say, say, do you have nicknames like that for the others?" He asked, his smile still wide and the same but his eyes held some sort of hidden agenda. And he desperately wished that you only had a nickname for him and no one else.
"Uh nope! It just came out of me...!"
With that answer, his eyes became even brighter. He felt really special that you called him that, especially since bumblebee sounded so cute in his ears, giving him tingles on his heart.
"Sooo can you start calling me Bumblebee instead of Bachira-san?" He said excitedly, and you, being so oblivious at his hidden agenda immediately nodded at the idea. After all, you liked cute things and cute nicknames to your friends made you so happy and satisfied.
"Okay! You're my bumblebee from now on, Bachira-san!"
"Yay! I'm your bumblebee!!"
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What you did not expect however was the reaction that the supposed innocent and cute nickname you gave the yellow and brown-haired striker.
You currently joined the boys in eating their lunch. Every Sunday, all the boys would share a cafeteria to eat lunch together for the sanitization of the other's they use everyday and for better bonding moments too (althoug Ego hides the latter reason). Picking your food tray, you tried to find a good spot to sit and enjoy your food. As always most of the tables had a vacant seat (which most would leave open in hopes you'd choose their table and sit with them).
But, before you can find a seat, you found Bachira entering the cafeteria and him being him, immediately ran to you and greeted you. He looked to be happier than he usually is, and he was. Deep down, Bachira was quite happy and flustered at the nickname you gave him. Even if a few hours had passed and training had done and went, he still could not keep it off his mind.
He really liked the way your tongue said his name, but the tone, the sheepish mutter of the word "bumblebee," calling to him and him alone made him feel so jittery and excited in a different way that he ever felt before.
"Hi Y/n-chan!!"
"Hi Bachira-san! Are you going to eat yet?"
"Awww...why did you call me that?"
He pouted at you, a little disappointed that you did not call him the nickname you gave him. Mostly because he really did like it and wanted you to call him that always, but also because he knew that the rest of the boys were listening and wanted you to call him thay in front of them to indirectly tell them that he was really special to you.
Tilting your head, you were a little confused as to what he was talking about until you remembered the conversation you had with him earlier. Your eyes brightened at the memory and looked a bit apologetic for forgeting.
"Oh, I forgot...'m so sorry, Bachira-san- I mean, my bumblebee!"
Crickets and silence.
That was all that was heard in the cafeteria the moment you called Bachira the nickname. The conviction and softness in your voice when you called him along with the sweet meaning that the nickname held, with the addition of the 'my' in the beginning made it feel so personal and possessive.
It can even be a nickname one gives to their significant other. And that did not sit right with them.
"Eh..? Did I say something wrong?" You wondered as you sat beside Bachira in the large table most of your friends sat in, yes even people like Rin, Barou and Kunigami who didn't think they were 'friends.'
"No fair, why does he get a nickname, while I don't Y/n-chan?" Nagi said from the other side of your chair as he rested his head on your shoulder, looking up at you with his sleepy eyes that held some sort of hidden conviction and annoyance.
"Yeah, Nagi's right, Y/n-chan! I want a nickname too!" Hiori raised his hand.
"Me too! Me too!" Kurona pitched softly.
"When did you even start calling Bachira that, Y/n-chan?" Isagi asked, feeling the familiar green face of jealousy. The question made you smile softly, because you thought that the nickname was just for friends, finding it absolutely adorable.
"I was talking with Bachira-san earlier this morning, and I kinda uttered how he looked like a bumblebee because bumblebees are so cute, fuzzy and chubby and his personality feels like one! So we agreed his nickname from me will be bumblebee from now on. Isn't it cute?" The happy and satisfied look in your face lessened the annoyance they felt to the brunette striker who just ate happily beside you.
"Yeah, cute." Rin said, his tone hid a sassy and annoyed tone.
"Can I still get a nickname, Y/n-chan?" Nagi asked, his stubbornness shining through at such a trivial thing. But to him, it was less than trivial. He wanted a personalize nickname from you, one that felt special to him especially because it was coming from you.
"Eh really? Um okay...uh you can be Ice Bear from We Bare Bears! You remind me of him, Nagi-san!" You offered with a bright smile. Finding his snow white hair, tall build and lazy personality mirroring the cute bear character.
Nagi seemee satisfied enough with the nickname, finding it endearing, but most especially because it came from you.
"Yay...I'm your Ice Bear."
Everyone else frowned at that, even Bachira who wanted to be the only one who had a nickname. But, hey he was not selfish like thay so he just continued eating.
And with that, the rest of the guys on the table started to ask you for nicknames too. But instead of feeling overwhelmed, you felt so happy and excited in giving them the silliest and cutest nicknames your mind can think of. You feel like your inner kid (that you lack) was brought out by the moment, and well, you loved your friends so you were more than happy to give each of them a nickname!
"Um...Rin-san can be Keroppi...!"
The rest of the boys laughed at the comparison between Keroppi and Rin.
"Rin-chan is not cute at all like Keroppi!" Bachira laughed as the rest agreed, pissing Rin off.
"Hmm, I don't know why I called Rin-san Keroppi, but it just sounds right to me! My Keroppi!" At the final sentence, Rin's full cheeks from his food turned red in a snap, almost choking on his food due to being so flustered and shocked at the nickname.
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"Um, and this is ashi which means leg!"
You were currently holding a newspaper that Loki tried reading and explained what some of the worrd meant, since he was curious. But to your suprise, all the foreign players crowded next to you to listen to the explanation. Sure, they were not really thay ready to learn another language altogether, but they were curious and spending time with you at the same time was not exactly a bad combo.
On the field sat Lorenzo, Ness, Charles, Loki and Kaiser around you as you pointed at the words that was foreign to all of them as you slowly explained each of the symbol and what it meant. They were listening, well until Rin entered the field to look for you. And well, you made a mistake in acknowledging him in the new nickname you gave to them infront of the foreign players.
"Oh um sorry, my Keroppi! I'll start doing the laundry later!" As if clockwork anytime you used that word, Rin turned a bright red before leaving the field to try and cool off and try to find a way to not get flustered like a damn fuse everytime you use that nickname.
But, the rest of the players noticed the rather cute nickname and well, they were less than pleased and more envious.
"Ehhh why does Rin-Rin have a cute nickname from you but I don't? Y/n-chaaannn please give me one too!!" Charles said as he clung to your arm.
"Eh..?"
"I agree with the kid, Y/n." Michael said with a smirk. You felt like a trapped mouse under the expecting gaze of the players. Loki noticed this and sighed before hitting Charles's head which made the midfielder let out an 'ow.'
"Don't harass her, you fools. If she wants, she'll give us one. Geez."
"Uh thank you, Loki-san. But it's really fine! I'll give you guys nicknames too!" You started to think for one as they all watched you, then you looked at Charles and fangs when a genius strike hit your head.
"Charles-san can be Meowth from Pokemon!"
"Yey! I'm fine with that! Thank you, Y/n-chan!"
He said as he hugged you even tighter which just made you smile, but when you turned to Kaiser, you remembered a memory about the time Isagi was ranting to you about Kaiser.
"Yeah, and he even has that annoying rat-hair! I hate him SO much, Y/n-chan!"
The word rat repeated in your head, and a character appeared in your head, but before you can filter your thoughts into words, you said what you thought out loud.
"Jaq-jaq from Cinderella."
And well, the entire field ended up in laughter. Loud and hard laughter. Even Ness could not help the chuckle that left his mouth, remembering the familiar mouse character.
And well, that pissed Kaiser a bit. Which made you panic a bit.
"Oh, I'm so sorry Kaiser-san! I just remember Isagi-san calling you a rat and well...it ran in my mind..."
"HAHAHHAA IT FITS! HOLY SHIT IT FITS!" Lorenzo laughed and hugged his stomach which made Kaiser even angrier.
"Shut up! You are more of a rat than I am!"
"I'm sorry! Pfftt-" Loki said as he continued laughing, meanwhile Charles had tears in his eyes from laughter. Was it just from the nickname? Or even from the way you said it with such seriousness and conviction that made them laugh?
"Ehhh 'm so sorry, Kaiser-san..." you said, animated tears running down your face because, well an angry Kaiser was a scary Kaiser.
"Its fine, dear...but if just some of you will shut up!" He said with pointed looks at Lorenzo and Charles.
In the end, you settled with Kaiser being Cinnamoroll in your eyes. Finding his aesthetic and his hair color similar to the color scheme of the cute character.
ADDITIONAL TIME!
BLUE LOCK TV COMMENT SECTION:
User01: Awww but Kaiser fits the first nickname better🥺
Reply:
-> user02: right?! My favourite part of today's episode AHAHHAHA
User03: I want more behind the scenes moment wth?! Cmon editors and directors! I wanna see more of these moments lmao
User04: I don't think the Blue Lockers themselves, the directors and even the editors can deny that theyre all whipped for Miss Manager
-> User06: I super agree! Like, anyone with eyes can see that Miss Manager built herself a reverse harem in that place
User05: Nagi as Ice Bear is actually a really good nickname for him, but the Keroppi with Rin took me out for a bit LMAO maybe his behind the scenes personality is a bit more different to be guaranteed that nickname?
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LMAO THIS ONE TOOK ME OUT but like help me out here, I wanna use these nicknames in the futhre so please do comment what you think the nicknames for the other Blue Lock players can be because I legit ran out of brainjuice just to think about it. But also, in the future Additional times I wiuld be putting the Blue Lock TV commment section buuut as a twist, I would be using some of my followers' username (if thats fine with you guys huhu) as the usernames, it would be used as some sort of shoutout and all, but also as a small thank you for all of you!
Blue Lock is WRITTEN by Kaneshiro Muneyuki and ILLUSTRATED by Nomura Yusuke. All credits to the both of them.
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frowerssx2 · 3 days ago
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I'm gonna do this for all my three boys:
Luke, Delcan and Jupiter
If anyone asks this
That would be great, thank you so much!
Nah, I'm good
I'm probably going to do something that will be incredibly stupid and reckless. So for you're safety, it's best if you don't.
2. (is a random person)
Awkwardly laughs
You f***ing what
Laughs sarcastically, then asks if that is the worst you can do
3.
Thank you (smiles bright as the sun but he's dying inside)
Why would you get me this?
He literally wouldn't know what to do, so he would just accept it with an awkward thank you (he tries to hide it but it is obvious he hates the gift and everyone knows it)
4.
Oh wow, you didn't have to! Let's party!
Immediately walks out (he hates crowds)
Is shocked at first but has fun in the end
5. (this is a random person)
Wonders what he did wrong and if he can fix it
Awesome, we're done here then *walks off*
Okay?
6.
What have I done wrong?! 😭
Ingores them back. Unless it's August (his lover) then he'd freak out and wonder what he did.
If it's Magnifico, he'll panic and try to ask what he did wrong and how he can fix it. If it's someone else, he doesn't have the energy to care. He's been ignored half of his life so one more person won't affect him that much
7.
Not bothered in the slightest
Why would you do this to me?
*sighs dramatically* then deals with it in a forcefully patient manner
8.
No problem, just tell me what you would like me to do and I'll get right to it 😊
I'd rather not. Can't someone else do it?
*Takes a deep breath to calm himself* what would you like me to do?
9.
For Hieronymous? Of course, I'll help! 😊
For August? Alright, I'll try
No problem, tell Magnifico not to worry I've got this
10.
Agrees then struggles to find an outfit and can't decide on his make-up.
Do we have to go? (August: yes, beloved) fiinnee
Of course, I'll come with you, you try and stop me🙂 Now, is it casual or formal wear?
11.
Is overjoyed that Hieronymous took time off work to spend time with him, eats everything and talks 90% of the time
Declan and August wouldn't go to a restaurant. They are extremely private about their relationship and would prefer to stay home and have a picnic in front of the fire.
Oh wow! Look at this place, I am so underdressed! Can we sit next to the window? I wanna try everything! Do they have cookies?? (Magnifico: I'm afraid not) Aww ☹️
12.
What? In what way? How can I be better? Please, can I do anything to fix something?
I know, I know and I'm sorry. Can we talk about it?
I am? I-I don't mean to be, I'm sorry. Do you want to talk about it?
13.
Feels stupidly special but laughs at Hieronymous and his big words/
Spends around a week to write one back
Cherishes it and puts it with the collection he's made then writes one back the same day
14.
Hieronymous is what?! Why are you telling me now?! What am I meant to do now?!
August is what? ..... in that case, tomorrow you'll be announcing my death
Haha, he's not going to be like that for long...I'm going to steal that Necromancy book from the villains and I'm going to bring him back.
15.
🤣🤣😂 you should have gotten pointers from Donald
Yeah, you're going to clean up this mess. I'm not involved
And why exactly would any of this be funny?!
16.
What is it? What's wrong?
Oh thank god, I can breathe now I was sure I'd have a panic attack if I stayed out there any longer
What have I done now?
17.
none of them would tell the secret unless it would cause harm to someone or if it about someone who has committed a crime.
18. (is a random person)
hunts them down to furiously scream at them
And people wonder why I keep shit to myself
Is extremely petty so does it back
19.
All three boys will panic if any of their lovers say this.
20. (is a random person)
You're going to regret that Hieronymous no!
Starts a fight that he has an 80% chance of winning
Immediately punches back and breaks the person's nose. Afterward, he is totally ready for a bigger fight
☆ — oc questions: reactions. by @ricesinspo, tag me if using!
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how would your character react if someone did these things? consider their personality and behavior, as well as who is doing it and why.
alternatively, ask game: send me a question + 2 characters
offered to help them on something they can do on their own
jokingly made fun of them
gave them a gift they didn't want
threw them a surprise party
told them "i don't care about you"
kept ignoring them
brought lots of attention to them
asked them to perform in front of an audience, like right now, without prep
asked them to do something they're uncomfortable with, "oh, but you have to do it, for [loved one]!"
invited them to a social gathering
took them to a fancy restaurant
told them they're a bad friend / partner / ...
wrote them a poem
died two weeks ago (they only found out now)
pulled a prank on them that went very wrong
pulled them aside from the crowd
told them a secret
exposed something about them that should've been kept private
told them "we need to talk."
punched them
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messrsrarchives · 14 hours ago
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You’re starting to act just like your fascist Reggie—censoring others and trying to dictate what can and cannot be discussed in fandom. Telling people they can’t talk about politics because you, living in a first-world country, can’t handle it? You’re the one using real-world politics to justify a fictional ship with a fascist. Have you thought about how people who are genuinely anti-fascist might also dislike it in fiction? You can’t control fandom. If you want to like fascist characters, then just own it. While fiction might not feel like reality to you, for many, it is reality. Have you considered that the characters and headcanons you enjoy might reflect deeply personal experiences for others? Not everyone has the privilege to separate fiction from reality like you do.
hi feed, this message was brought to you by someone who has clearly never interacted with me ever !
WDYMMM "telling people they can't talk about politics" 😭😭 i fear that's my ENTIRE niche across two social media platforms. i fear my entire thing is politics in a fandom space + the real world. i fear that's literally what i'm known for. what 😖
i was gonna ignore this but i have so many receipts that i thought okay ! finna answer ! why not, let's entertain this <3 (below the cut because it's long)
assuming that this is a response to this post where, after watching elon perform two nazi salutes on stage, i said "hey! maybe you should stop calling people in fandom nazis for reading about a fictional character!"
what i alsooo said on that post is that it's important to discuss politics in literature (see here: doing a masters degree in english literature + politics <3). because absolutely! the DEs are crafted in a way that reflects historic events and absolutely, that's something we can discuss!
what we should also discuss is that whilst art imitiates life and life imitates art, the two do not directly reflect one another - if i read about wizards, i am not a wizard. if i read a crime book, i am not a detective. and if i read fanfic about regulus black? i am not a facist.
in regards to the censorship comment: this here is an entireeee video i made about censorship and puritanical views in fandom spaces and why this is a Bad Thing To Do (though i fear you will disagree with it because i am saying that people can read and write whatever but alas, no censorship here x)
using real world politics to justify a ship? no, not at all. i do not think ships in fandom need to be "justified" because, again, they are fiction. can they be discussed? absolutely! my tiktok is @/messrsrobyn and you will find countless videos where i dissect fandom, characters and ships. again, this is kind of my whole thing <33 nice to meet you <33 but rather for me? that post was made as a building up of (1) the mass of people in fandom during the tiktok ban saying that words have meaning when american writers say british words "wrong", but throw buzzwords around like it's nothing and (2) this is a place for escapism and safety, which is needed now more than ever and whilst discussions about politics are important, this? this ask? this is not a discussion. this is hostility, much like people just commenting "nazi" with nothing else on a jegulus post.
discussions can be had! absolutely! my entire thing is discussions in fandom. but right now i'm trying to discuss this when you have given me nothing to work with but false claims and hostility - see how this doesn't work? but alas, i'll try :)
do people read jegulus and think "wow i love voldemort and the death eaters!!! i agree with what the did here :D" or do they read jegulus and enjoy the complexity that comes with a character like him? do they enjoy how, with a character with such little canon lore, people explore things? or yk what, do they sometimes read him as a muggle where none of this matter because there's do DEs? yeah, because it's fiction. and liking a fictional character does not have repercussions on the real world.
calling someone a facist/nazi only for teading about fictional characters does - it is so incredibly important that we read immoral literature. i'm rambling now but i'm not even talking just about fandom. we NEED books that discuss these topics and we need to explore the characters within them. we NEED politics and immorality and everything like that in books because that is how we learn, understand, and prevent. reading them does make you immoral - see here: queer books being banned in the us for containing "immoral themes" and main characters doing things they deem had and awful alongside INCREDIBLYYYY important books like the handmaids tale, to kill a mockingbird, 1984, fahrenheit 451 etc etc.
we need to read these. we need to engage with them.
but in a fandom space, we also need to acknowledge that these are not real people. these are fictional characters and there's a big difference between engaging with a character because you are justifying their actions, and engaging with a character because you enjoy Exploring their character and Understanding them in as many ways as possible 🙂↕️
but we agree!! whilst fiction may not feel like reality to some people, to many it is! so have we considered that when people come to escape from the real world for a bit, or people have family members lost to past regimes; are about to enter 4 years of another regime or are holding their breath waiting for european elections to see if another far-right populist party gets in, it might sucklk to have this thrown around?
imagine dealing with alllll of that in reality, not knowing what on earth is going to happen tomorrow or what the future holds for you and the people you love, and then being called a facist online because you read about Fictional Character Regulus Black. whilst your life literally crumbles apart because of it. you are now being called the same thing that the man oppressing you and everyone you love is, because you read FanFiction.
and then finally ahem:
"not everyone has the privilege to separate fiction from reality like you do"
if you click here, you will find a tumblr post i made about this exact thing :D about how we can't separate fiction from reality
see here also: a post about the books jkr publishes under the robert galbraith pseudonym and about how we, again, cannot separate fiction from reality.
if you click here you will find my jkr playlist on tiktok which has videos in about how, again, we cannot separate fiction from reality.
what we also can't do, mind you is call someone a facist for reading a fictional character.
there is big difference between "hey! this character has facist undertones if applied irl, we could discuss this!" and "You Are A Facist For Reading It"
instead of coming and ranting to someone who has spoken extensivelyyyy about politics in this fandom space - both with fandom material and with elections, gaza, the uk riots etc etc - and is a huge advocate of dicussions and debates, put this energy into something productive.
like actual facists. real world politics and what you could be doing at a local level to help reduce the harm of Actual Facists that are in power right now. not people taking a break from Actual Facism to read fanfiction.
ta x
(p.s i'm a homeless, chronically-ill, gay, trans man. what privilege do i have in THISSS fandom space of JK ROWLINGSSSSS worlds, to separate reality from fiction? 😭)
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HAII can you write about sae byeok, reader had a stressfull day and sae help her cum, love ur writting btw 😽
Good girl🫦
Featuring: Kang Sae Byeok x Reader(f)
Summary: she decided to help you after a hard day!
Warning: NSFW
A/N: Thank you very much for this wonderful order!!
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You returned home later in the evening. You are very tired at work, many of your colleagues got sick and all their work fell on you with a large load. You had hope that at least you would be paid for extra work, otherwise it would be unfair.
You entered your modest apartment with Sae Byeok, it was very quiet, you realized that the girl was most likely lying in the room and reading a book or even fell asleep.
You took off your heels and quietly entered the bedroom where your girlfriend was lying reading a book.
- You're back, I was already starting to worry. - she said, putting the book aside and looking at your tired face.
- Many of my colleagues got sick and gave me all their work, I didn't even have time to write to you. I'm so angry, it's just horrible! I don't have to do anything for them at all, God forbid they won't pay me! - you said irritably, you didn't even have the strength to change clothes, Sae Byeok watched you with sympathy.
- I see you're very tired. Usually after work you run straight to the shower.
- I'm so tired..sorry..I'll get some rest and will definitely take a shower and change my clothes. - after your words, your girlfriend carefully climbed on you, you were very surprised by her behavior.
- What are you doing?
- I want to help you relax. - she said without a drop of embarrassment, it turned you on even more.
- And what are you going to do?
- You'll find out now. Close your eyes and enjoy. - you listened to her, closing your eyes, your sensitivity increased even more, Sae Byeok knew about it. That's why she suggested it.
She came down to your hips, gently lifting your pencil skirt. She had a view of your black lace panties, she put two fingers to your pussy through the fabric of panties, you immediately moaned from the action.
- You're already wet, honey. Now don't think about work and colleagues, think only about me, okay? - having said that, she pressed harder on your clitoris, you just nodded convulsively, but it was enough for her.
She slowly took off the unnecessary black cloth, as if she was in no hurry. Then she took a pose so that her face was at your pussy, her hot breath in this place literally makes you cum, but you endure, because this is just the beginning. She runs her tongue over your folds, gently, fearing to hurt somehow, then the turn comes your clitoris, she seems to play with it with her tongue, licking and sucking it, you can't say anything, you just moan from these incredible sensations. But Sae Byeok is not going to stop there. She sticks her tongue into your hole, as if stretching it in front of something else.
- Bear with it, honey, it's still early. - she says sweetly when she moved her face away from your pussy, putting two fingers to the entrance at once.
- Okay.. - you answered briefly, to which she smiled.
She inserted two fingers at once. The movements were different. First slow and smooth, then sharp and fast. Her fingers were very dexterous, so she fucked you with them better than any dick.
While Sae Byeok was fucking you with her fingers, she approached your red face and kissed your lips. You could feel the taste of your juices on your lips.
- Good girl, will you cum for me? - she gently said in your ear.
- Yes..
- Cum pronouncing my name, honey. - you nodded and she began to fuck you faster, kissing you on the neck and chest.
You didn't last long, in a couple of minutes you cum on her hand, shouting her name.
- I have a good girl. - she said teasingly, licking the fingers that were in your sperm.
Then after a little rest, you went to the shower, Sae Byeok kept you company, taking care of you, and then you both fell asleep in each other's tender arms.
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MASTERLIST for #fangdokja prompts
♡ Book for Authors. Ink & Insight (I&I): From Dead Dove to Daydreams.
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♡ Banner Story. He’s your family, but he doesn’t act like it.
📖 #fangdokja Prompts Masterlist Disclaimer
Welcome, Readers! This collection is curated for fictional writing inspiration and features dark, controversial, and taboo themes. Please read the following carefully before engaging:
⚠️ Content Warnings
🔸 Themes include non-con, incest, rape, torture, stalking, and other dark/taboo topics. 🔸 Suitable only for mature audiences who can separate fiction from reality.
❌ Disclaimer
🔹 This masterlist is for fictional purposes only—as writing prompts and creative resources. 🔹 The content does not reflect my personal beliefs or endorse harmful real-life behaviors. 🔹 Many posts are sourced from real-life thirst/porn blogs, but they are reframed here solely for fictional writing inspiration.
🛑 Your Responsibility
🧠 Ensure you’re in a healthy mindset before engaging with these prompts.
✍️ Use the content responsibly for writing and always include appropriate warnings if you share your work.
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Proceed with caution and enjoy responsibly! 💀📚
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♡ Banner Story. 🔞You’re his project, and he’s determined to get you right.
#fangdokja favs Prompts
Bondage Art
Relationships are quite simple
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♡ Banner Story. 🔞"I don't need your love, I need your submission."
Age Gap Prompts
hearing "I'm so proud of you"
i luv getting high
need to be taken advantage
one more second without a father
Photography collage
psychological abuse
the age gap being older
they say I'm too young to love you
you have no idea how much i wanna be fucked by old pervs
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♡ Banner Story. He was a knight of light… until you turned his world dark.
Brat Taming Prompts
No no, keep that attitude, baby.
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♡ Banner Story. She wasn't looking for love, but love wasn't asking for permission.
Conditioning Prompts
"wow, you actually like this shit?"
At least I am better than those fucker who degrade you for your looks, size and color.
control what i eat n what i wear
emotional manipulation
destroying a curious little girl.
Letting you cum, but only from riding my boots.
showing her a video of how her throat looks like with my cock
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♡ Banner Story. In a world where no one cares, he’s the one who notices you… and that’s frightening.
Daddy Issues Prompts
dad who starves you all day
I'm literally you're abuser.
The first thing I thought when I turned 18
want people to think you’re my dad
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♡ Banner Story. Trust no one. Not even yourself.
Degradation Prompts
commanding her not to cum,
Didn’t your mom tell you not to talk to strangers online?
I will hold you down and force you to take it
if i wanna make you my bitch,
need to abuse a sick, pathetic, worthless little whore
shove your fingers down my throat
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♡ Banner Story. He doesn’t love like anyone else—he loves you like you’re the last thing that matters.
Dumbification Prompts
Dumbification with someone that is actually smart outside
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♡ Banner Story. He doesn’t need your trust—he just needs your surrender.
Intoxication Prompts
“take another hit”
POV: you’re strapped to a chair, toy on high,
Praising you for every hit so you smoke yourself braindead.
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♡ Banner Story. 🔞When he says you're his treasure, he means it—he’ll spill blood, even yours, to keep it.
Masochist Prompts
he wouldn’t hit me if he didn’t care about me
getting yelled at until i cry ?
i get so attached to the smallest bits of attention
i’m so pathetic
i romanticize abuse
It doesn't matter if it hurts, huh?
make me apologize for things i didn’t even do
make me starve
Pretty please? ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ
sick men who get off to traumatizing you
Take my abuse with love.
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♡ Banner Story. He’ll destroy you—because that’s how much he loves you.
Non-Con Prompts
"Easy, baby" as I push your thrashing torso back to the ground.
All I want to do is drug a good whore
Forcing himself inside me
If you actually wanted me to stop angel
If you're a silly little thing who gets off on the idea of big, mean perverts
It feels so good baby.
Oh baby I know it hurts
When I say I have a rape kink, I don’t mean CNC,
You wanna fuck a serial killer so bad.
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♡ Banner Story. You’re his sister, but to him, you’re everything he’ll never let go of.
Older Brother Prompts
Arguing with your big brother
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♡ Banner Story. 🔞Will you scream? Or will you beg?
Sadism Prompts
“I am not wet.”
A mutual craving between us.
i like my men mentally ill
I want to give you my address after brutalizing you.
If I slap your face,
older men with a superiority complex
Pulling your head back with a fist full of your hair
Treating a whore as whore
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♡ Banner Story. Two hearts, one unspoken promise—forever best friends.
Somnophilia Prompts
I just want to drug you
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♡ Banner Story. The predator never leaves empty-handed.
Torture Prompts
Collar and Chains
Darling, There is no "stopping."
I want a basement pet.
Groping your ass so you can't feel the needle.
Tying your hands behind your back and forcing a gas mask bong
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Ok no everyone shut up I need to yell. Hand of the Emperor CHANGED ME AS A HUMAN. I am INSUFFERABLE about these books and these charactors but LISTEN (spoilers ish)
His Radiency is a All Powerful God Emperor who is SO MISERABLE HE HATES IT he's trapped and he's basically slowly dying inside because he cannot be touched or looked at directly or treated as a person or have opinions OR
AND THEN HE MEETS KIP
Kip, who is isolated from his family and his culture and juggling his pride and beliefs and assimilation and wants to change the world and SEES His Radiency, and believes in him and loves him and finally, FINALLY, offers the first key to all the locks on his guilded cage.
Kip is the first person to meet His eyes in Hundreds of Years and it cracks Him open to the core.
They work together for HUNDREDS OF YEARS they make the world a better place TOGETHER they can't TOUCH OR TALK AS EQUALS BUT THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO FUCKING DESPERATELY even though neither can risk putting words to those thoughts.
And THEN BOOK TWO HAPPENS AND ALL THE RULES HAVE CHANGED AND THEY HAVE BOTH CHANGED BUT THAT CORE LOVE AND DEVOTION IS THE SAME AND EVEN MORE
Kip is Literally His Radiency's Hands, his way of touching a world that can only see him as untouchable divinty, his safe harbour, his guiding light, the keeper of his fire.
ALSO Kip is ace in a way that made me feel so seen I Cried At Work when I read it and that just adds to it?
These books are just. What if I opens a door for you that you couldnt see or touch? What if I changed the world in tiny, ordinary ways that meant you could suddenly breath again? And what if, at the same time, you offered me Reason and Support and Unflinching Belief that I Would Succeed when no one else has ever believed. What if that belief in me and my culture offers opportunities for other that did not exist before. What if simple small choices fundementally alter the bedrock of our world and we made them on the small chance of bring just moment of joy to each other.
What if I asked you for Impossible Peace and you gave it to me?
Everyone should read these books please they fundenmentally changed my brain chemistry.
(Also YES they are qqp and the other couples are I DONT CARE THEY DESERVE THEIR SPOTLIGHT THEY ARE JUST AS VALID)
Character, book, and author names under the cut
Cliopher “Kip” M'dang/His Radiancy- The Hands of the Emperor by Victoria Goddard
Mo Rigen/Lu Xu- Tianbao Fuyao Lu by Fei Tian Ye Xiang 
Simon Snow/Tyrannus Basilton (Baz) Grimm-Pitch- Carry On by Rainbow Rowell
Nico di Angelo/Will Solace- The Sun and the Star by Rick Riordan
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nedlittle · 5 months ago
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need the historical romance girlies to go back to their roots and read forever amber (1944)
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fromtheseventhhell · 1 year ago
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Arya watched them die and did nothing. What good did it do you to be brave? One of the women picked for questioning had tried to be brave, but she had died screaming like all the rest. There were no brave people on that march, only scared and hungry ones. (Arya VI, ACOK)
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The night she was caught, the Lannister men had been nameless strangers with faces as alike as their nasal helms, but she'd come to know them all. You had to know who was lazy and who was cruel, who was smart and who was stupid. You had to learn that even though the one they called Shitmouth had the foulest tongue she'd ever heard, he'd give you an extra piece of bread if you asked, while jolly old Chiswyck and soft-spoken Raff would just give you the back of their hand. (Arya VI, ACOK)
Arya: *restrains herself from acting out when captured by the Mountain and his men because she knows fighting back/being brave wouldn't accomplish anything*
Arya: *takes note of the temperments of several Lannister guards so that she can learn how to navigate around their behavior*
Fandom: Arya is a feral idiot with no self-control uwu 🤗
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unproduciblesmackdown · 6 months ago
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no context no details "these days ppl can't Work Through Conflicts or they don't Try hard enough & this is why Communities are broken :(" how is it meaningfully different from "look at the divorce rates Today vs in the '50s :( everyone just throws marriages away. Women aren't having Kids everyone just throws Families away"
"oh these days people can think about their experiences as Trauma or Abuse simply if they Want to :( you can't even talk to anyone anymore, if you make them uncomfortable (through no fault of your own. they're too sensitive & i'm simply always Being Normal) they'll be crying victim :(" how is this meaningfully different from "ugh how can a man talk to a coworker woman anymore or even look at her. how can men try to flirt with and date women anymore :( everythinnng's misogyny ohh harassment assault oppression because you breathed in her direction :("
#i don't even value the No Context ''community'' as necessarily worthier than these Marriages & Nuclear Families#if preserving any group as a community means like ''this person doesn't want any contact w/this other person?#what Disposability Politics they're engaging in :( foregone conclusion they must 'forgive' to maintain community :)''#then what tf is this community trying to be. if it can be destroyed by the truth...if it must be maintained by kindly facilitating abuse...#even setting [abuse] aside like so do you think anyone Can't insist someone else can't have interpersonal access to them for any/no reason#if you think it's for No Good Reason then like. what Connection do you think you might succeed in reclaiming there?#z for zachariah book ending. no scenario where Anything should be ''preserved'' via authoritative enforcement (much of any other kind?)#now thinking of aplatonic people. the ''friendships'' i had where Someone decides we're friends now & i'm Mean for being like tf?#other Stock ''Friendly'' Activities that if someone initiates it's Mean to refuse. presumptions it's Unfriendly to not live up to or w/e tf#then multiple Friendships where someone's abusive. won't take No for a [i don't want to give you a shoulder massage] Will be demeaning#not meaningfully different from [ways romantic relationships are supposed to work] or [family] or [coworkers] or [classmates] orrrr#again like ''social skills'' is to neurodivergence as ''financial literacy'' is to impoverishment#''Just be normal'' like which people / what experiences / whose voices must be Excluded for a ''Just Being Normal :)'' situation#community MUST be good like uh must family? marriage? romance? love? friendship? What community. what family. etc#''ugh Everyone can call Everything trauma/abuse'' that's right. we can consider context always. ohh Everything's sexist now smhhh....#ohhh i can't even uncritically say words i always say with 0 sense of malice or harm w/o some rword crying Ableism#no not Literal rword haha. Gay As In So Stupice lol. you don't call rworded ppl rwords it's bad taste etc theoffice.png
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floral-hex · 1 year ago
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Writing is stupid! It’s dumb! It doesn’t make any sense! It’s all just jumbles that don’t mean anything and I hate it forever goodbye!
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strwbrymlkshake · 2 years ago
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LOVE ME THE MOST THE MOST YOU POSSIBLY CAN!!!!!! LOVE ME THE MOST I NEED TO BE THE ONLY THING IN YOUR MIND
#mine#🎸#vibrating at immense speeds rn ajskwkfllflwncf the MOST THE MOST ever#the only thing in your mind i need to be the BEST the most loved augh im not doing anything wrong but its still not ENOUGH#why cant i be satisfied. but at the same time LOVE ME MORE AND MORE AND MORE UNTIL LITERALLY NOTHING ELSE EXISTS#i need to add more fuel to the fire of our love but i dont know what to do exactly... clearly mentioning the issue didnt work#idk i literally want him to kill me or something i need to be consumed by love. ah all of our mutual friends are quickly going to#learn how fucking mentally ill i can get. im not ready for them to but if hes telling them these things then theyre gonna KNOW#love me more more more i thought you used to be scared of how much you loved me. obsess over me again!!!!!!#if im not the one doing anything wrong what is the problem. what is preventing you from loving me the most you possibly can!!!#if its something with me I'll just kill that part of me. ugh he wouldnt want me partaking in unhealthy thoughts like this#so what is there to do? i need to drown in the grain silo of love. there isnt enough to drown in rn though... i cant just#make him love me more. an evil oriented solution would be to make everyone hate him so he just loves me but thats a horrible thing to do#and id feel bad about it forever. so im not gonna do THAT i want him to be happy. but even when hes happy he isnt loving me intensely#i need to be desired i need to be ripped open like a phone book –_–#everyone is learning how insane abt him i am and its kind of embarrassing. well my feelings i guess. it is embarrassing to have feelings#if this whole situation was an asmr youd be listening to it willingly. but its NOT arent you supposed to like me like this#im overthinking this hes probably just depressed which is making it difficult to be insane
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cruelsister-moved2 · 2 years ago
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I think people have confused the fact that it's definitely possible to go "look this magical guy told me these are the rules so now you all have to obey" with believing that religion is intrinsically just that. and it's like they just discount the possibility that anyone has ever earnestly believed in a higher authority or genuinely had a mystical experience or whatever. the thing is if you actually observe how religious people behave, especially if you look outside of like evangelical megachurch pastors who are clearly just grifting, it immediately becomes pretty hard to ignore that.
for every example of religion maintaining inequality u have muslim charities successfully preventing FGM by informing muslim communities who perpetrate it that it's haram, sikhs opposing casteism, early christians fighting gender inequality etc etc etc + on an individual level literally countless people who have fought against poverty and oppression on the basis of religious belief. like... IS it really something specific about religion or is it the fact that hegemony will naturally pick up and spread whatever supports it and suppress whatever doesn't?because the same can also be said of like... music... so are u going to say music is just a tool of the elite or whatever? bc it definitely can be. but it's equally a tool for resisting oppression and also just a significant part of the human experience.
aren't we meant to be postmodernists now like i think maybe things sometimes do just happen sometimes. what Society does with it after the fact is another question, but if you look at the history of religion I'm surprised if you don't come away with some awareness that genuine belief in some sort of authority or mechanism which is outside of human control can be something very transformative. like the fundamental innovation of the torah was to say that every human life is equal to every other human life in opposition to the code of hammurabi which said that some people's life = other people's pocket change. only a power which comes from somewhere outside human society would be able to ensure that law was applied fairly and equally to all rather than manipulated on the whim of the human with the most power to enforce it. if the "abrahamic" religions can be said to have anything in common at all, it's probably a call to humbleness and the value of every human being. much to think about!!!!
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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 2 years ago
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the vitriolic hatred most people have for things that look weird is so upsetting to me sometimes :(
#update in my search for bristleworm names i came across a newscast from a few years ago where#some fisherman pulled up a big bearded firewormnin their net and shared a video of it#and the whole newscast was ppl being like 'ewww what is that thing' 'if i pulled that up in my net id kill it'#'im never going in the water again ew ew'#like. guyes. its a fucking worm#and its. not even that big. AND its not even native to texas one just got washed thru currents from the Mediterranean (supposedly)#like. shut upppppppppp its just a worm#i see that SO much w ocean stuff specifically snd its like.... its not actually that scary. come onnnn.#its sooo much more fascinating than anything else. and lo and behold the ONE (1) scientist they talked to#was immediately like wow thats incredible and started asking questions. like. aaughrhrghh idk.#its only 8am ive been up for like 3 hours im rlly tired i dont have words yet.#but can we stop immediately wanting to kill every sea creature that gets pulled onto land by mistake. can we stop. youre so annoying.#youre not cute for going ewwwww gross youre just. ignorant and frustrating. head in hands. theyre not some alien monster.#its literally a worm#its a worm! thats all it is! its a worm with unique adaptations to help it survive in a harsh environment#and just because you think it looks weird doesnt mean it deserves to die#ARUGHGHGHHH ppl that dont listen to scientists make me insane. ppl that blatantly ignore science make me SO isnane.#go read a book. go look at a picture of a worm.#GO TO A FUCKIGNGG AQUARIUM FOR CHRISTS SAKE. do u KNOW how many of these bitches ive pulled out of tanks??? theyre everywhere.#and yes we killed them but like. not bc theyre ugly and gross but because too many of them become a pest species#and will literally kill all ur fish. its a balance. like literally everything else in nature. we kept a lot of them!#becasue when a fish dies theyre one of the most efficient decomposers and theyre an incredible help wirh water quality.#we had a tang die in a place that was completely inaccessible to us without breaking a huge coral colony so we couldnt get to it.#letting a dead fish sit in a tank is a death sentence for that tank usually. but we had enough bridtle worms to eat it#thay thing was gone in like a day. with only a minor spike in ammonia. it was insane.#anyway. sorry. got heated abt worms.
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newvegascowboy · 2 years ago
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#not fallout#kal talks#ok to preface this is a POSI VENT#it just might get a little heavy#i tend to be a Little Personal on here and im going to be a lil more personal. im thinky thoughts#but man... its been a year since literally the lowest point in my life#like last march. i will say. was... really bad for me mentally. i wont go much deeper than that but maybe some of you remember.#im much much better now but i will say i was a little wary as this month and anniversary approached because i was afraid basically#(the actual anniversary passed last week and i didnt notice)#but ive managed to do soo much growing and healing from where i was last year like it is honestly astonishing#im definitely not the same person i was when i couldn't even honestly confront myself#in a way i think what happened last year was one of the best things to happen to me#it doesn't mean that nothing bad will ever happen in the future but it does mean that i survived that and i can survive whatever else#happens too#healing isnt linear i know that. like obviously im going to have setbacks and some days im incredibly whiny and bitchy#like October/November were suuuper hard on me mentally#but again - still here!#still alive and still putting laundry away and taking baths and reading books and doing art#And its almost SUMMER again!#and god i want to live this summer.#and its kind of funny how...when you think you want to die just saying thr words 'i want to live' feels like...idk. it feels like something#but i want to live#and i want to go hike at zion and i want to eat watermelon and i want to sit in the sun and paint red rocks#i wanted to die last year and it felt so real i could have but im still here and i want to live and do things while im here#that's all i guess#life's hard. its a bitch and then you die. but there are some pretty good parts to it too and every summer i remember why
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