#sometimes I do cry
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since you’re talking about languages. just wanted to say im thinking about cajun french again. my mon-mon knows it and I could technically ask her to teach me a few words but it’s different than growing up with it y’know?
Oh BOY do I know. it's like...we are going to spend the rest of our lives with this ache. There is no undoing the fact we did not learn our heritage languages as children. Learning it later in life, even if we become completely and entirely fluent, does not and cannot ever change that we had to work for it. That we had to recreate it and that we will never and cannot ever come close to what could have been
There's this hurdle when learning it too--at least in my experience--where you feel like an impostor. And there is so much shame--for something completely out of our control; we had no say in what languages we were taught as kids. I'm always straining and listening to what others say--how they've shortened words colloquially, what versions they use more (e.g. oraciones vs sentencias), because that ease and experience and familiarity in conversation in others is something I don't have. They own the language enough to shape it to themselves, and I'm just trying to keep up. It doesn't feel like my language, doesn't roll off my tongue. I don't dream in it.
But I could have. And it's so hard, maybe even impossible, to forget that. Even when you learn it
#heritage languages#quil's queries#moonlarked#that's not to say it's not worth it to learn heritage languages. learning it is very important to me#but oh. my god. is the hole in my life where my spanish should've been gaping wide open always#every time I speak it i'm aware of it#every time I hear it#every time I don't#somedays I want to scream. others to cry#sometimes I do cry#because the language was so close#my branch of the family was cut off from the language so recently it's still raw#it's /right there/#and i can see what I don't have. all the rest of my mexican family speaks it and grew up with it#it's just us who didn't#and with the family we /do/ have contact with. we're the only mexicans. actually the only non-white people#(ignoring the massively complicated is latine/hispanic non white question because in this instance we are comparitively)#so. suffice to say I have never had a strong connection to family or culture and it has royally fucked me up and I DO want to cry about#spanish
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the question, you see, is not ‘is it too ooc for this character to cry’ but rather ‘what circumstances would push this character to cry’
this is the whump wisdom, go forth and make that character cry
#gav gab#‘it’s sooooooo ooc to make that character cry’ no you see I think it is ooc#to put this character through absolute unimaginable hell physically and emotionally#and NOT let them cry about it#sometimes canon framing and media format and genre#limit the ability to let a character emotionally Feel all the insanely traumatic shit that’s happened to them#that doesn’t mean that in a different medium or genre exploring these things#it would be ooc for them to do so#send tweet. let those characters feel and emote. it’s not ooc or cringe and anyone who tells you it is is a reductive dick
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I call it despair, but I'm just overwhelmed and don't know what to do - so I hyperventilate
#sometimes i do cry#autistic#yeah beacuse what is autistic if not me?#ive come to learn that this is called an anxiety attack which previously just seemed like im crazy
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Mother says not to cry.
#stargate#sg-1#stargateedit#jack o'neill#richard dean anderson#s2#ep20#2.20#***edits#bless rda for this#because yes jack is very tough and very classically masculine#but he's like 'idk dude i cry all the time. it's the right thing to do sometimes.'#i love him so much i'm gonna barf
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not to demon post but like. sometimes i think about the "friends" label and the fact that it's a little bit of a haha in-joke but also... i mean. when dan said he didnt have a best friend for the first 18 years of his life he meant it yknow. like i do think that out of all the possible labels he's used, soulmates husbands arch enemies furniture who the fuck knows, best friends is amongst the most meaningful... if you never had a best friend and then met him and he stayed in that spot for fifteen years the fact that he's also the love of your life can maybe be just a bit of a bonus.
#dnp#dan and phil#phan#my point with this is that like. growing up not having a best friend is so devastating and isolating#not dating is whatever. not everyone dates. but it's expected that you have friends! it's expected that in 18 years you connect enough -#- with someone to call them Your Best Friend!#so idk. i think for dan to go 18 years without that. and then to click with phil so perfectly. sometimes i do think the best friend label -#- is actually the most meaningful out of the bunch. For Him.#i just think he's very very happy that the love of his life is his best friend and that his best friend is the love of his life.#anyways im gonna make myself cry. whatever LOSERS. whatever SOULMATES. WHO CARES. not me!!!!
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Hey, I need some advice. For anyone experienced with kids, how do you deal with young children with hyperactive ADHD. I’m doing well babysitting but I’m afraid of being a pushover and letting these two kids get away with too much, especially when they’re rough-housing.
#ask you#personal#delete later#they’re good kids just very off the walls and screamy which I don’t mind#I generally have a lot of patience with kids who aren’t trying to be assholes#but the eldest brother teases the youngest a lot. and sometimes when I try to explain stuff their attention’s elsewhere#behavior wise they’ll cry or throw small tantrums if you deny them something they want#I’m just being very gentle and trying to explain why they can’t do or have xyz. or I give them something#new to play with to distract them#the good news is they like me. I’ve gotten them to nap#at one point the eldest got too rough and wasn’t listening to me so I barked his name and he immediately stopped and backed off#so that’s good too#but yeah i don’t really know how to explain to the eldest what the golden rule is#oh I showed them bluey too they liked bluey
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The stress was beginning to seep in. Your eyebags becoming more visible by the day. No one could tell you were more tired than the past week.
You were more quiet and less aggressive in your talking. You seem to have lost your spirit in a way, but of course, the man in the mask figured it out.
Ghost eyed you on the other side of the room. You were bobbing your head, nearly falling asleep before being shaken awake by the slight fall of your body.
You were being distracted by the lights and paid no mind to Ghost's wandering eyes.
It wasn't until around 2100 (9:00pm) when he knocked at your door. You weren't asleep yet. Your light was still on.
Opening the door you asked, "Is something wrong?"
You hadn't changed out of uniform and still seemed out of it.
"Why aren't you asleep?"
"Why are you awake?"
You snapped back at him. You weren't in the mood. You've been tolerable all day, no arguments or fights, but it's clear he came to ruin that.
He stared at you in silence. The mask made him more intimidating which caused you to fess up.
You ran your hands through you hair, frowning in disgust at the knots in your hair.
"Just some family problems is all."
"Losing sleep over your family?"
You sighed, "What do you need?"
"Need you to sleep so we could complete this mission."
"I'm not broken, I can still do the mission."
Silence permeated the hall, other than the occasional fizzle from that one light the base swears isn't broken or haunted.
"Can I come in?"
The door widened a foot further, allowing the masked man inside. You didn't understand why you would let him in. You don't let anyone in your room, at least, not for silly matters like this.
He followed you further into your room after shutting the door, and settled on the side of your bed. You didn't have time to question it before you fell.
Collapsing on the spot, Ghost caught you before the ground could do actual damage to your body.
I guess the sleep had caught up to you, just as Ghost had caught you.
Sleep truly is not for the weak. Stay healthy, guys.
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#did i use tolerable right cuz i prolly didnt but you know my mood be like this rn#i sometimes forget not all ppl know abt the 24 hr clock or as some of the americans call it the military clock#simon ghost riley#call of duty#cod#cod mw2#ghost simon riley#simon riley#simon riley x reader#simon riley x you#simon ghost x reader#simon ghost x you#ghost mw2#ghost x reader#x reader#x gn reader#gn reader#reader imagine#reader pronouns unstated#simon ghost riley x reader#simon riley call of duty#call of duty x reader#tired reader#reader faints#I made the reader faint because i was too lazy to continue cuz i am in fact tired rn just as reader is#synthe4u#synthe4u writing#gonna bawl and cry because i hate doing work but i will write stuff like this but the writing at that good#i love other ppls writings#remembering why i wrote like two other things jst bc one person is like keep up the writing
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HELLLOOOOO CHAT !! this is my formal apology for not posting art for like.. 3 ish months... school is actual ass and my art and motivation has suffered because of it,,,, however my artstyle continues to change every other week which is always fun
here is a funky shuichi painting i literally just finished!! (THAT WAS MEANT TO BE A RENDERING STUDY. I SPENT 7 HRS ON IT INSTEAD.) i hope you lot enjoy :3
#another post is incoming about asks and art asks#look out for it#shuichi saihara#danganronpa v3#drv3 art#my art#i figured out how to draw shuichis hair. this is big news.#guys i dont think ive ever rendered something like this before im so shocked by my own ability#danganronpa#MORE. ART. SOON.#im going to force myself to post things more often#its been so long ive got posting anxiety now oh goodness#i do NOT permit use for AI#i swear ill start crying#ps i might be starting commissions soon... if anyones interested... look out for a post sometime...
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im tired
#kib art#elizabeth was unintentionally singled out regarding the sprites#oopsie#artists on tumblr#digital artist#digital art#fnaf#fnaf 4#fnaf 4 crying child#elizabeth afton#micheal afton#cassidy afton#the crying child#crying child#five nights at freddy's#lotta color symbolism here#so much color symbolism#you cant convince me micheal WOULDNT wear socks w sandals#i might draw william and ms afton sometime#no promises#question for the tag readers; why do people think CCs name is garrett#im so sleepy#its 2 am#help
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Based on somewhat real events
I spent way too much time drawing this...
But yeah, Ford finally saying thank you
A continuation (kinda)
#sometimes my skin smells too strongly and I hate it. I wanna crawl up and die. it's not that bad usually#only when I'm already overstimulated#there were 2 times where I was sick and I started crying and almost threw up because the smells were too strong#one time the smell of tge city. the other time it was roasted chicken. I still feel sick when I smell reheated chicken to this day#I'd love to have someone comfort me and rub my back in these moments but 1. I don't want anyone to touch me and#2. I feel like I don't deserve to be touched because it's an inconvenience to others#anyway enough about me. I am now projecting in these characters#I hate drawing their faces so much#gravity falls#stanford pines#ford pines#young stanford pines#stan pines#stanley pines#young stan pines#art#fanart#traditional art#comic#long post#watercolor#forgot to mention but I can't take a shower when the sun is still up except if I was swimming in a pool/sea. no specific reason I just can'#projecting to Ford because Stan would never feel like that :/ oh well#is this cringe? maybe. probably. do I care? no. not really#I'm self diagnosing myself with 'definitely something wrong but not further specified' because this can't be normal#btw sorry if this is disappointing. I tried my best (the first part is pretty neat imo)#wonder if anyone is gonna read all of these tags#is this the worst thing you've seen yet?#teen stan#teen ford
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Prompt 321
You know Content Warning? Lethal Company but youtube videoing?
Danny does that- just well, with the Zone. It’s not like it can be mapped out, what with people moving their Lairs and more lairs and islands constantly manifesting. And well, there’s so many things out here, and it’s not like he can be an astronaut.
So, he decided to make exploration logs for the Zone instead, alongside his friends and a doppelganger or two holding equipment. It’s great, and people can donate whenever he live streams so he’s getting income too.
He just erm, maybe should have double checked it was uploaded to just his dimension…
#Prompts#DCxDP#DPxDC#Danny Phantom Crossover#Do as many crossovers as you’d like#Sometimes it’s just him & sometimes he has his friends with him too#They make jokes about the hospital bills if one of them gets hurt (the ecto heals them)#The viewers do not know it’s a joke#Danny pointing at giant realms leviathan through the Speedster window: Let’s get closer!#Chat: PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD NO-#That one person: I will donate 100$ if you give it pets#Danny Cannot-Die Phantom: I mean for 100 bucks why not#Someone donating to Tucker: You keep your twink alive & it’s cute but ur a Furry Monsterfucker it’s very obvious#Tucker: I mean yeah I had an undead werewolf girlfriend for a bit in highschool I’m not hiding it#Sam in a screaming match with Overgrowth:#Chat: Yo what the fuck family drama did we just unlock#The heroes trying to track these young adults going to different dimensions/time travelling: *Screaming/Crying/Throwing Up*
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doodles during anthropology today
they wouldn’t leave my brain
#doctorsiren#ace attorney#simon blackquill#bobby fulbright#blackbright#ace attorney fanart#digital art#my art#procreate#doodle page#Bobby ily but you’re so hard to draw somehow?#if I do your hair slightly wrong it messes everything up and also you might end up looking like MVK oops BUIFHHFJI#I’m screaming crying#sometimes I just get hit with a random character fixation for a couple of days HIIFHIRJj
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Ford describing Bill as the sun, the center of his galaxy, not only shows a profound and deep love for Bill but also just how isolated he was in that relationship. Bill eventually got everyone Ford cared about to leave, punished him when he felt he was getting too close to other people. And when there's no other source of light, of course you think the one guy who stays around is the sun.
#billford#ford pines#bill cipher#stanford pines#rambles#ford actually makes me cry sometimes like GIRL#I get you#both of us are like icarus#burning ourselves getting close to the sun because we're so cold#and we're so desperate for the warmth#that we do it anyways
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Twin Things:
Based on this post by @here-comes-the-moose
Because honestly same Crosshair.
#sometimes i will do something and then my brain would go “echo would be disappointed in you”#and it'll ruin my day#i'll sit there crying for a bit and apologizing to echo#i am aware there is something wrong with me#but this quote was too hilarious to not draw#the tech crosshair and echo dynamic remains unmatched#i love those three so much#moose you have the best quotes i love them#tbb#the bad batch#tbb crosshair#tbb tech#tbb echo#my art#max's masterpieces
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totally canon (totally not)
#i need to stop drawing vader crying#or do i#he deserves it sometimes#leia organa#princess leia#darth vader#padme amidala#star wars#an art tag for convenience when searching my page guys <3
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Fanart for a certain scene in chapter 3 of Servant to a Different King by @tossawary that smacked me upside the head and said 'DRAW' (I am having such a good time, it is such a treat to read!)
#if tumbrl eats the image quality I'm going to cry but also if I size it down any further I will cry about THAT so we're gonna try this#and see what happens#plz fullview if the squished version looks like a mess#like it IS a mess I did not fully render everything because I got done with the faces and then like#remembered why I don't do full figure drawings ever#the reason is that I hate finishing things because it is Work and I have SO many ADHD brainweasels#sometimes I draw things#moshang#svsss#servant to a different king#by#tossawary#living a fanfic appreciation lifestyle#shang qinghua#mobei jun
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