#someone has to leave first

[ashiqui]

THE POETS AND THE SINGERS AND THE AUTHORS WRITE ABOUT ROMANTIC LOVE WHEN IT ENDS. BUT NOBODY TELLS YOU HOW TO GET OVER A FRIEND. (x)

oscar wilde / antoine de saint-exupéry, the little prince / the social network (2010), dir. david fincher / @jspark3000 (x) / ocean vuong, thanksgiving 2006 / stephen king, the body / house of the dragon, 1x04 / @s4pphoiduser (x) / the fray, how to save a life / radiohead, life in a glasshouse / succession, 1x08 / @ritikajyala (x) / richard siken, the worm king’s lullaby / hozier (x) / hannibal, 3x04 / fredrik backman, us against you / maggie nelson, bluets

[glitter-stained]

I reject your narrative. I will not leave, I will not weep, I will not lose my heart in exchange for my life. I have my knife, my teeth, and all my unwise heart. Show me another version of the story.

[someverysmallpebbles]

So do we think Liam O'Brien is aware of The Worm King's Lullaby by Richard Siken because oh my god-

[antimonyandthyme]

had to sit with part 3 of ur time travel au for a good few minutes just. Breathing. god i love them so much that last bit took me out back and shot me i love you

ames huehuehue :(((((

all that time and yet never enough of it

[octoberbirdsreading]

well here comes tags to organise webweaves and they’re all really angsty cause I like acting like an edgy bitch

to haunt and be haunted - both the ghost and the house

i tried to be good - feeling unworthy

home is the first grave - never made it out of that house

the poison drips through - am I just like my parents

god loves you but not enough to save you - religious guilt

something is rotten inside me - the rot and the shame that comes with

always an angel never a god - never enough for anyone

to live for the hope of it all - wanting to live

all a ghost can do is haunt - ghosts of memories

we used to be friends - stranger I know everything about

this was always going to happen - doomed

everything i want so say I swallow - fear of judgment

I suffer in my loving and you know it - when loving hurts

someone has to leave first - abandonment issues

the earth was made for lovers - nature and life

i was born knowing you - soulmates of all kinds

we accept the love we think we deserve - worthy of love

everything i had i gave - wanting to fit in

here is my hand that will not harm you - learning to trust

can I dream for a few months more - chronic daydreamer

memories feel like weapons - old wounds ache

they see right through me - fear of being seen

i never grew up it’s getting so old - nostalgia and melancholia

what will it take for me to be cared for too - longing for love

when will I stop belonging to this hungry thing inside me - hunger

i don’t know why I can’t make people love me - not fitting in

to think that we could stay the same - bittersweet separations

you dangle on the leash of your own longing - you’re not the one holding the leash

[demaparbat-hp]

In your Spitfire AU, since Zuko is looking after Lu Ten II, what happened to Ursa?

Zuko is slightly older in the Spitfire AU. He was banished at fifteen, his head a little clearer and denial a little weaker than in canon. After his first look through the Air Temples, Zuko decides that if he can't find a myth, he might as well search for the next best thing.

Finding Ursa isn't easy, but in time he makes it to a secluded house in a near-forgotten part of the world. His mom is there, older and stronger and alive.

But she isn't alone.

And Zuko, as it turns out, didn't keep the best company during his search.

When Ursa is discovered and her secrets are laid bare for assassins (for Ozai) to find, she begs Zuko to take his little brother and run. She'll do anything it takes to protect her children, even if that means leaving them behind to keep a target off their back. Ursa diverts attention from them and allows Lu Ten's ancestry to be kept a secret. She orders Zuko not to follow her again, and disappears.

Zuko is left with a little three-year-old brother to raise and a mother he cannot hold onto.

[myiliterallyhavenolifegoals]

pouring one out for andy robinson, he's the real winner today

[stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage]

Every time I see someone earnestly say that Carver hates Hawke, I have to exercise such restraint to not scream.

Every day I get closer to writing a deep dive about him because that's my guy. He's so interesting. He feels so much. He tries so hard when talking to the other companions and some of the dynamics he has with them are so good. He can be so fucking funny and sweet and awkward. He so badly wants to be wanted and appreciated and to protect everyone he loves.

Carver Hawke, they could never make me hate you.

[thechy-fychannel]

y'all ever think abt how it was julie having the affair and it is even said multiple times that she was the one who left him, yet wilson was still the one who left their home and moved in with house. like. he couldn't bear to stay in their home alone. he immediately ran to house and stayed on his couch for weeks. suffered through his pranks and his laziness and his manipulation. telling him he wants him gone while sabotaging his attempts to leave. and he only left once he got a girlfriend again.

[thinkershipman]

SHAUNA SHIPMAN: AN ORESTEIA

[sloasis]

Just thinking about how Buck's biggest fear is ( probably ) being alone and having to watch his entire team and FAMILY be in absolute mortal danger and him not being able to do ANYTHING to get in there and save them is gonna break his heart in a million pieces .. he's already lost Eddie and Chris and he might just lose everyone else , his father figure , his brother in law , his other sister and his new friend . It'll just be him and Maddie against the world once again .

[mcytegg]

i miss mapicc bro, maybe the 10,000 wardens will provoke him to Do Something on ls 🥹

[starry-bi-sky]

pouring one out for luo binghe in my disciple SQQ fic, poor guy has taken a backseat here. we're nearly 30k words deep and he hasn't even shown his face once. it'll be much longer before he even actually talks to Shen Qingqiu.

(i say im pouring one out but in reality im sitting in my director's chair chewing on a cigar and wearing a beret as he tearily and unsuccessfully pleads with me for more scenes with Shen Qingqiu)

[pinacoladamatata]

you are SO SLOWLY selling me on gale/minthara the duality is just. *chef kiss*

is this anything?

[sotc]

Honestly tho, as much as I hate to say it, I personally think Illario betrayed Lucanis. I know he seemed really torn over Lucanis' death in The Wake buuuuut if you've read TN then you know Illario has been gunning after being the next First Talon. Caterina said the body they found wasn't her grandson because the face was altered with blood magic to look like Lucanis and had his clothing. What would be Zara's motivations to do that? Why would she give a damn besides someone who needs a coverup? A story? Who needs Lucanis out of the picture (again)? Isn't it convenient the moment she voices what she knows, when you return with Lucanis, she's suddenly gone? How did Zara manage to get so close? Stares into the camera.

Maybe Illario had a set up planned with Zara? Maybe Zara learned Lucanis' weakness was his cousin and she got to him through Illario? Was Illario more manipulable because of his envy and resentment? Hmm! 🤔💭 Part of me thinks (hopes) it's not that simple. I know Illario loves Lucanis. Maybe he was approached by Zara in some way and didn't want to betray him. Maybe the betrayal or the hand in Lucanis' death was unintended and accidental or perhaps even forced/unwilling and he realized Zara had also played him and could make him culpable. Maybe he truly was beat up over the events of what happened and Lucanis' death! If it did play out this way could Lucanis forgive him? 🤔💭

Anyways, just musings. thoughts. speculations.

[junejems]

Because I'm feeling a little brave tonight, I will also post some stuff I've been working on.

This is literally the first time I've ever posted my writing. (Unless you scroll back on this blog far enough and see the first smut I ever wrote LOL good luck finding it) (hint: it's definitely about a certain necromancer dkfjddkjf)

ANYWAY this isn't smut but I'm putting it beneath the read more because it's a bit of a wall-o-text. So. yeah. Here we gooooo

Two knocks and the door to Emmrich's quarters creaked open. Then- “Emmrich?” Rook’s voice floated up from below the stairs.

“Hello, dearest!” Emmrich leaned over the top of the stairs, smiling down at her.

“I found a new room, next to the library.”

“Really!”

“Full of weird old stuff. And!! No one else knows about it yet.”

Emmrich came down the stairs in record time.

“Oh, I also remembered that you’d told me how you enjoyed the view of The Fade from your balcony- well, the view from this room is really something. You’ll love it,” She promised.

A short while later, they descended the stairs on the right of the Library and without warning, the wall shifted, revealing a tunnel of light amidst various boxes stacked in the little room.

Rook had, at some point, taken Emmrich’s hand in her own.She looked back at him and smiled, open and unguarded. He returned her smile, squeezing her hand in his.

As they passed through what he assumed was a small, purposeful Fade tear strategically placed by the library, he simultaneously realized two truths: One, he would follow her anywhere. Two, whatever this was between them, it more than a passing fancy or a coupling brought on by proximity and the possible end of the world. How things might work out remained to be seen but Emmrich was committed to seeing it through.

They appeared to now be in a storeroom or office of some sort. The desk and chair indicated as much, anyway. He had intended to poke around, (so many artifacts!) but Rook had other ideas, it seemed. She promised they’d come back to thoroughly look over everything in the room.

She opened the door at the other end of the room and with a glance over her shoulder, beckoned him outside.

The view from the balcony just outside the hidden alcove was quite lovely. Emmrich said as much, but he barely had a chance to get the words out before Rook had grabbed his hand and pulled him back into the alcove.

“Rook, what are you-“ Amused, he let her direct him and found himself standing before her.

“So…I may have had an ulterior motive in bringing you here.” Her hands were toying with the buttons on his waist coat.

“I would have followed you anyway.”

That earned Emmrich a rare blushing smile from Rook. Honest compliments from him always seemed to bring out a coyness in her. It was endearing and if he was honest, more than a little alluring.

She took ahold of his hands, pulling him with her as she backed them into the wall. She placed his hands at her waist and then slid her own up his body until they came to a stop on his chest.

“I just wanted to get you alone, somewhere no one could find us.”

She had looked up at him then with a self-satisfied little smile; she wasn’t sorry at all, and well, neither was he. He knew when he was being seduced and he would let himself enjoy this moment. It had been some time since someone pursued him. He hadn’t realized how much he missed it until now.

Emmrich leaned closer to her, his heartbeat rising as she pressed the length of her body against his. Suddenly he had forgotten all about the artifacts.

“Well, you have me. Now the question is… what will you do with me?”

Reaching up, Rook slid a hand around the back of his neck, sending a thrill through right down his spine.

Her eyes fluttered shut as she briefly nuzzled her nose against his.

“Definitely kiss you.” And she did- a soft, slow press of her lips that lingered just long enough. “I wonder…do you think anyone could hear us from up here?”  

Emmrich felt her smile against his mouth.

“That…is a rather intriguing hypothesis.” He breathed, leaning in for another kiss. 

Rook gently nipped at his lower lip, causing a huff of laughter to escape him.

“Better start experimenting, then.”