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Life is too short.
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(detail + ratio rambling under the cut >_>)
This is one of those "I need a break between my ten other illustrations, let me do a lil sketchy sketch :D" that got too ambitious etc. etc. I never want to see the color red again" moments. BUT!
I really, really like to explore Ratio's viscerality and what's happening between his brain and his nerves, like... all of this thorough control and discipline and he still has to breathe and react to himself and his surroundings, you know? His accomplishments are insane for "his age"* but he's going to run out of "age" at some point! His ambitions are so far reaching that he's not worried about getting doctorate degree Number Nine! Rather, his efforts are pointed outwards, into the universe, for the universe. As you know.
Speaking of his degrees, I had a half thought a while ago that we've seen him with two types of laurel pins.
One is him in his suuuuuper cute mother goose avatar (three leaves) and the other is the hat he's wearing everywhere else (eight leaves).
The thought was, "Aww, what if they're like commemorative pins counting the number of his degrees or whatever :)". Literally only because there's eight in the current one. This is kind of silly because then you'd HAVE to have an obscene number of degrees even for a normal person for your leaf pin to start looking like a laurel in the first place so scratch that BUT it's cute to think that it's still academic regalia. Something something I work in higher ed myself and it's like... it's like that.
The university goldsmith appreciates the job security.
I REMEMBER WHY I BROUGHT THAT UP. FOLLOWING the fantasy where more leaves = more knowledge!, in summary, even though Ratio seems to be a little beyond trying to get a prize every time he learns something now. But he does want to Keep Going. He can only Keep Going.
So I drew him in a bathtub full of an uncountable amount of gold leaves looking at the camera with an indescribable expression born from a hunger that will never be satiated lol DETAIL SHOT!
*Referenced only vaguely in a comment in the context of astonishment, but it could have easily have been "woah he's accomplished so much for his age (young)" as it could be "woah he looks good for his age (older)". There is no canon age and even then, reconciling standardized system time versus planetary time versus "does his particular breed of lizard human have the same lifespan as tumblr user nhura?" is a losing game for everyone involved! Here's what I think: I think he started going grey in his early twenties, whatever that means in spacefantasygame, and that that's very cute on him.
Do YOU think Ratio would be tempted by immortality???? Or would he MIND HIS BUSINESS
#dr ratio#dr. ratio#hsr fanart#veritas ratio#hsr#my art#SORRY FOR THE INSANE COLOR CHOICE I feel bad posting this in ratio circles because normal ratio art is pleasing on the eye.#blue and gold and white. some ivory. tan sometimes. like fresh air on a brisk day#not piss christ is what i'm saying#in my defense his eyes look like that anyway so this is actually Topical.#I want to talk about Ratio's self image and relationship to his own flesh but that's for another day. unless you ask me niceys#my art: hsr#honkai star rail#holding up a sign that says I LIKE THAT RATIO'S PHYSICAL BODY IS BOTH A CONTINUOUS PROJECT AND LABOR OF PERFECTION WHILST BEARING THE CONSE#THE CONSEQUENCES OF HIS EXTRAORDINARY LIFE#PART 3: why does ratio not have an art degree? it's simpler than you think.#okay i'm done BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I’d love to see JC cooking with JYL if it strikes your fancy.
Sibling bonding time!!!!
#katan art#mdzs#jiang cheng#jiang yanli#yunmeng siblings#wasn’t in the mood to try and draw any fancy hair pins for JYL so just pretend they’re there#also love people HC’ing her as being chubby/fat so I gave her some chub :)))#and also my small ass chin bc we love self-projection onto characters we love and admire :
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Mariella [Achromatic Loop / Blank Scripts AU]
#tsp blank scripts au#tsp achromatic loop au#the gorgeous beauty comes from achromatic loop#the deranged-looking one comes from blank scripts#tsp au#the stanley parable#the stanley parable ultra deluxe#tsp#tspud#tsp mariella#mariella tsp#my drawing museum#I have been insanely unmotivated the past few days#excuse the lack of updates about the OC / self insert event#I am simply dealing with burnout and already have finished illustrations ready for posting#I'm just waiting until I can gather enough to not worry about it#so here are some women [destress drawings lololol]#I keep forgetting to spare some time for myself#and not focus too much on projects and serious drawings
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YELLOW!!
cringe is dead! So I made an OC for Bill to work his trauma through. This is his current (many came before this one) therapist.
D-SM5 did not hope for it to achieve any breakthroughs, but its ability to be calm and tranquil through anything turned out to be just what Bill needs
Reblogs Appreciated!!
BONUS DOODLE: (inspired by the energy @ckret2's bill doodles have)
#this is so self indulgent. it's great.#and soon i'm gonna use it to project my trauma onto bill!#therapy works! au#(working title)#bill's fish therapist#(will it have a name? at some point#probably)#the book of bill#the book of bill spoilers#gravity falls#bill cipher#theraprism#art#fanart
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I heard this feature was going to be in the DLC... Okno but the Zonai had such advanced technology. Maybe they had it? IDK.
Click for even worse quality
#tears of the kingdom#loz totk#totk#totk link#zelda totk#totk spoilers#just kidding#anyway#posting some general#LoZ#because my next project#is self indulging Niche and obscure#and i can't wait
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Idiots with the painted face, in the corner taking up space
(Inspired by this drawing of wedding gown Nya)
I think they would just chill. Talk about their lives, maybe. Brothers, lovers, friends, powers. How they got to this point. Terry steals a child because she can. Yk, the usual stuff. (Someone please tell them their weddings will go wrong (/pos) and they can somewhat go towards happiness afterwards. They desperately need it.)
#lego ninjago#ninjago#ninjago fanart#ninjago skybound#nya ninjago#ninjago nya#oc stuff#oc: terry#anyways#my queer babies… havin conversations…..#i should make more self indulgent crossover drawings with ninjago and my ocs.#some of them fit strangely well…#i also? i also forgot how much i like drawing my ocs#they are a joyride for sure#honestly? i’ll just start tagging them as if they were from a real show. i don’t gaf.#sob terry#terry sob#(< yes my main story project abbreviates to sob i find it beautiful too)#terry solis#cablart#cable doodls
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gonna be a bitch on main for a sec but i always find it really funny when folks say "why does this puff person waste their time and energy and skills making spite fic, they could be making original projects instead of tying themselves down to LO"
and i'm over here like
#it doesn't seem to occur to people that i can do more than one thing at the same time LMAO#i think people just tend to assume that i'm spending every hour of my day working on rekindled with zero room for anything else#and it's like no actually i do have hobbies and other projects that i'm working on LOL#and i do in fact have an end goal in mind with this#i know some folks assume that every big webcomic project is gonna be some “rest of your life” thing#and i get that because i was like that with time gate#but like. i do have an ending planned and i would like rekindled to be finished within the next couple years lmao#i'm not just indefinitely making shit up on the fly each week for the sake of updating 💀#it's called planning ahead so that i'm not spending the next 10+ years working on an endless project (again) 😆#self post
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the urge to change my url to valsiltverses so i can memorialise her vs. my conviction that living dead girl (which my url is a reference to) IS literally about VAL so why should i change it
#🐉#plus i think some people might kill me with hammers and knives if i change my url again. and id deserve it.#and i dont like how awkward valsiltverses is. i have 'liarsmessiah' too but i dont really want to call myself prophet of lies lol.#considering that one of my biggest self recovery projects has been unlearning compulsive lying as a trauma defence mechanism
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This project is officially out of hand - I swore 3 months ago that I won't expand it to clones territory, I really won't, and look where I am now! I also had to double down on Rex, if I'm here and have accepted defeat, as I finally got around to watching Rebels and I just love him so much with that beard, and his freckles omg TTnTT (I really really wouldn't mind seeing him in the Ahsoka show either, please)
The rest of the Mandalorian Star Wars meets Hades AU project is here
I've spent my sick day real productively, I believe :3
#star wars fanart#hades AU#tcw#the clone wars#tcw fanart#captain rex#ahsoka tano#ahsoka#commander cody#anakin skywalker#obi wan kenobi#luke skywalker#bo katan kryze#my art#sw fanart#I SWEAR I was so ready to exercise some self restraint here I SWEAR I WAS#but then my partner had the gall to spend his yearly quota of enabling on talking me through how seamlessly I could work them all into#this project and I TRUSTED HIM TO TALK ME OUT OF IT AND HE FAILED ME#Somebody please sign up as my impulse control because I don't actually have much more concrete plans than Ahsoka and old man Rex#also I had to give Luke's symbol to Obi Wan and I'm so mad#I ENJOYED DRAWING THESE SO MUCH THO TT^TT#they are so cute and round just look at them#Fun fact: Anakin and Luke share colours#as well as Boba and Cody and Rex I'm paying attention to these things!#and Ahsoka's symbol got recoloured so that Cody could have his 212th gold
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My BG3 run is quickly devolving into a messy dating sim (sorry)
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[[ All Croissant Adventures (chronological, desktop) ]]
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#also I panicked SO HARD because I'd seen a couple people say that dancing with Wyll-#even rejecting him- ruined the Gale romance and prevents it from happening and I didn't see that until after 2 more hours of gameplay#spoilers we're good#bg3#baldur's gate 3#bg3 spoilers#act II spoilers#croissant adventures#wyll#tav#gale#comics#we're coming up on my Big Project Comic and uh I hope you like it it's extremely self-indulgent lol#also have you even truly lived if you haven't slept in the same room as your crush while not being able to do anything about it#there's some free a2z lore for you#gale dekarios#breadweave
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What I mean to say is that our house is God.
#house of leaves#myhouse.wad#myhouse.pk3#this is actually the wip for some “self portrait” project i have to do for class but. i think its neat :3#art
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A Cut From Every Cloth
Series of vintage photo mockups to commemorate Tarsier Studios turning 20 this year, featuring the main members of their pantheon in cultural clothing
Outfit descriptions and references below
Little Nightmares
Six - Japanese hakama, haori, and hair ornaments Mono - Swedish Dalarna suit Runaway - Embroidered Baju Melayu with headwrap
LittleBigPlanet Vita and Tearaway Unfolded
Sunshine - 19th-century Yorkshire dress with bonnet and lace shawl Atoi - Scottish tartan kilt and flat cap Sean - Regency-era suit with cybernetic motifs Flounder - Ringmaster uniform with Russian punk rock motifs Marianne - French folk dress with gothic accessories Otis - Appalachian denim overalls with decorative trim
The Stretchers, Statik, and Fists of Plastic
Red medic - Mexican serape wrap and sombrero Blue medic - Zoot suit with fedora and metallic accessories Dr. Ingen - Victorian pinstripe suit Hero - Hainanese bamboo dance costume
The City of Metronome
Ten - Irish-inspired coordination with walking hat and Galway boots New - Bai and Hmong Hoa-inspired outfit with traditional headdress and Hong Kong embroidery
#I HAVE BEEN GRINDING ON THIS PROJECT FOR THE PAST MONTH.. AUGOAHGDK#I gave myself the personal deadline of july 1st because it’s what pops up when you search ‘tarsier studios founding’#no idea where that date came from because all reliable sources only give the year#regardless!! It’s the push I needed to finish this thing in the way I wanted#i needed another exercise in self-discipline aksdfkds after getting over the initial hurdle of starting i would get so excited abt progress#plus studying all these unique designs was rly fun and it pushed me out of my comfort zone (still had to add some personal touches tho)#i guess this is just my way of saying thank you to them for inspiring me and that I really look up to their work. iykyk#keiArt#tarsier studios#little nightmares#little nightmares 2#secrets of the maw#little big planet#littlebigplanet#little big planet vita#lbp#tearaway#tearaway unfolded#the stretchers#statik#statik institute of retention#city of metronome#the city of metronome#mono soup#ln six#ln mono#ln runaway#vintage#vintage photography#digital art
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ribbun animatic AHHHH
Really love how this turned out, never again😀👍
#This took 3 days…#...For something that only lasts 9 seconds#I screen recorded the thing and turn it into a gif#To get rid of the flipaclip watermark#work smarter not harder/j#I'll probably have to go back and fix some teenyyy mistakes now😔#didnt even noticed like the 1000th time i rewatched it#*sigh*#Im sorry if its cringe this is entirely self indulgent#Not sorry#ribbun#tadc gangle#tadc jax#the amazing digital circus#tadc animatic#gangle x jax#jax x gangle#Drew everything with a finger#I wanna k word myself now/lh#Useless fact: the name of the project is exactly the same as the heading:>
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in your head, in your head
#library of ruina#angela lor#project moon#cw eyestrain#this wasnot supposed to be an all day thing but ill take this and run isuppose#mspaint again ! on some sort of kick 👍 ive been listening to nothing but old emo rock all day. hashtag girl. self care. etc
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I love how people are only ever interested in defending Arya's right to be weird-looking. It's never defending her intelligence from people who claim she's incapable of thinking for herself, highlighting her importance to the plot and refusing to see her as just a prop, acknowledging how much of her story gets stolen and given to other characters, talking about her trauma or how often it gets erased and overlooked, seeing her as more than just an attack dog/bodyguard, etc. Nope. It's just a "why can't people let Arya be ugly/unconventional looking? :(" post every other week because people are, for whatever reason, obsessed with how Arya is visually perceived. One of the most misinterpreted characters yet the issue is only ever with her being portrayed as "too pretty" or the wrong "type" of pretty. This fandom will entirely rewrite a character's motivations, values, and role in the story to the point that they consider references to canon "hate" but! The true injustice to canon is we acknowledge that she is described as pretty several times. Arya simply existing as her pretty, important, and non-conforming self is too complex and confusing for people to comprehend 😔.
#arya stark#asoiaf#fandom nonsense#how can Arya be considered pretty?! she's literally non-conforming?? being pretty belongs to /feminine/ female characters...right? 😱#I feel like these people tell on themselves with how much they value beauty because they make it /such/ a big deal#when her self-esteem issues regarding being a lady are infinitely more relevant to her story (and more interesting to discuss)#her being mocked for having the Stark look is a supporting story element that also reinforces her being an outcast considering#her mother + all of her trueborn siblings have a southern look and she was raised with southern standards#not to mention her non-conformity and often messy appearance heavily impacted how her looks were perceived#George writes Arya's non-conformity as parallel to traditional femininity so it makes sense that beauty is one of those aspects he subverts#(also why it makes sense that her future includes accepting her identity as a Lady while redefining the role but that's off topic)#this is why you need to look at the writing instead of judging based on the /type/ of character you think Arya is#and! it's truly not that serious 😭 I'm sure it will be a plot point eventually but it's not 98% of her story like these people pretend#Arya is such an interesting + well-written character but we constantly get people rewriting her and nonsense discourse around her looks#such rich material and all you can say is that she's an /odd-looking feral gremlin/ and I'm supposed to take your opinion seriously#at this point the obsession with Arya being /weird/ looking has to be some projection of personal self-esteem issues#there's no way /this/ is the hill you're willing to die on with all the terrible takes about Arya from this fandom#wish people who didn't care about her would just stop bringing her up so we could have our discussions about her in peace
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i've seen model steve harrington aus. i've seen child steve harrington aus. i present: child model steve harrington
note: this came from my own desperate need to see this conceptualized and i SWEAR i've searched, i just can't find any content with child model steve so. :(
bc little steve harrington was remarkably cherub-like. his large brown eyes and soft pout ensured endless cooing and fussing from his mom's friends. and when he blushed and ducked his head in shyness, they only complimented him more. when he got home that day, his mom smiled at him.
so steve decided that he would put up with the cheek pinching and the squealing. he sat upright in his chair, sitting on his hands so he wouldn't fidget and ruin the image. because he'd do anything to keep his mom smiling at him. if he was being particularly good that day, she'd let him lay his head on her lap on the drive back home.
but everything changed at his father's birthday gala. a nearly eight year old steve harrington sat prim and proper in his seat, but a smile lit up his face--his cheeks round and his dimples showing up. he raised his hand up to cover his giggle, but he couldn't help but laugh at some silly old man with a loose toupee. then he sees his mom approaching, and his face quickly smooths over, going back to the more polite smile he usually adopted when it came to these events.
he'd ruined it. he hadn't continued being the sweet boy his mom wanted. but then, she smiles at him. and introduces him to the man behind her, who says he's a designer. the man holds out his hand, but when steve puts his hand into his palm, he doesn't shake it. the man simply holds his hand, his eyes scanning steve's face. steve tries not to squirm under the attention. but the man nods and smiles at his mom, and he gives two brief cheek kisses to steve, whispering in his ear "you're going to be a star, darling." steve looks at his mom, confused, but she waves him off to continue talking to the man.
a few months later, steve's mom whisks him off on a trip to france. and steve is so excited to go, nearly vibrating in his seat as the airplane prepares to take off. but instead of the eiffel tower and the seine, steve is taken to a studio. he's posed and changed. once again, he's being fussed over, but instead of wealthy socialites, gossiping make-up artists squeal over him. he's "perfect for the shoot" and "the most darling little boy." steve doesn't understand, but his mom is still smiling, so he lets the nice ladies brush powder over his face.
and he looks in the mirror. his hair is a little more tousled and his lips have a slight tint to them and his eyes seem to take up much of his face. he's put into new clothes, and he feels like a doll in their hands. and when he's put in front of the camera, he simply follows the photographer's directions. afterwards, he's bundled into the car and his mom can't stop gushing about how good he was.
apparently, he's a natural. and then she goes back to fussing over him, focusing more on appearance than his behavior now. but she takes him out shopping and they eat at an upscale restaurant along the champs-elysses. and steve is happy.
and then they go back home, and his mom is so much stricter than before. she has him try out all kinds of different hair products, determined to find the best combination to keep it looking shiny and soft. she controls his food intake and what he wears and makes him use weird creams and serums on his face. but this is what makes his mom happy, so he's happy to let her.
his mom is also on the phone a lot more lately, whispering harshly about the quality of brands and steve just assumes she's being picky about the clothes she buys. later, his mom picks him up and holds him, and asks if he'd like to move to italy. she looks at him intently and it's obvious what answer she wants, so steve nods. she smiles and holds him close, and it's the most loved steve has felt in a while.
so they move to italy, and suddenly steve is a lot more busy. he's put in front of more cameras for more people he doesn't know. but he's smiling and pouting and doing whatever they want him to do. his compliant attitude and polite nature have photographers and designers alike singing his praises, and steve always looks to his mom for approval. but she's been arguing with his dad a lot lately, so she's upset more often than not. but that's okay, the make-up artists are always kind to him.
but then one day, his mom takes a phone call in the middle of the shoot. and when it finishes, she's gone. steve goes back in, close to tears, but the make-up artists still hanging around look after him until a car is sent to pick him up. this becomes a trend. and eventually, steve goes alone to his shoots. he's always taken care of by the crew and someone is always there to pick him up, but it's not fun without his mom there.
but he knows that she's always enjoyed him taking pictures, so he continues to do so, hoping that she'll come watch him again sometime soon. and he busies himself with befriending the chatty make-up artists and the bossy photographers and the eccentric designers. and he's such a cute little thing that they can't help but dote on him.
steve is never catapulted into child stardom, as his mom is picky with his jobs, only choosing luxury brands and well known designers for him. but within the industry, they call him the "little prince."
and then steve is catapulted into puberty, but his intense skin regimen prevents him from getting acne, save for the occasional zit. and his diet and religious exercise schedule help maintain his look. and he's still doing remarkably well, especially now that he's fully aware that he is a Model.
and steve has truly grown into his looks. with time, he's grown more comfortable in front of the camera and made numerous friends. nearly all of them are older than him, but they're fun and loud and it fills up the space that normally surrounds him. and they're the ones who get him hooked on american movies. steve remembers living in america, but he's been in milan so long that everything he recalls is vague.
but he watches them and falls in love with the american high school experience. so when he finally catches his mom off the phone and actually in the house, steve asks if he can go to school in america. and his mom laughs. but steve keeps asking, which devolves into begging. and his mother snaps, slapping him across the face and calling him ungrateful. she cries and begs for forgiveness, cowed into shame by steve's desperate attempt to hold back tears.
and so she lets him go to school in hawkins, indiana. an odd choice, but his parents just so happened to own a property there. (in truth, both of his parents expected him to change his mind within the year). but steve finds his place at hawkins high, because even though nobody in hawkins has ever heard of versace, steve is pretty. he's pretty and charming and he knows the right thing to say. after all, he's spent his whole life perfecting his mask.
and even if his mom ended up moving back home with his dad, leaving steve all alone in that big empty house, steve is happy. he's finally hanging out with people his age and high school is so far removed from the glitz and glam of the fashion industry. and he's settled and content with tommy and carol by his side. while he misses his friends back in milan, steve finds himself longing for the clothes more often. hawkins was certainly the opposite of milan, what with the nearest mall being two hours away and only equipped with a macy's and jcpenny.
through it all, steve is determined to be normal. he laughs along with jokes he doesn't quite get and rolls his eyes at carol's cue, and he joins the swim team. and he joins the basketball team. and he goes to parties and kisses girls and wears dumb little polos with his letterman jacket and does everything that he saw in the movies.
but nancy wheeler is different. steve can't forget his time in italy and who he is and was, and he's reminded of his old life in everyone and everything in hawkins. but not nancy wheeler. she's all hawkins and all his. and then the upside down happens.
and then nancy wheeler breaks his heart.
even after three years, his parents continue to ask when he'll go back to modeling, but he's different now. the upside down and billy hargrove beat that starry eyed little kid who thrived in the spotlight. and nancy wheeler proved that adoration and love is fleeting, so what would even be the point of trying anymore? his dad was a little more approving of steve's retirement/hiatus, saying that steve must want to go to college so he can take over the family business.
but when steve doesn't get into college, he's once again badgered by his mom to go back. but he's grown and changed and he's not sure that he can pretend anymore, so he says no. and they cut him off. enter: scoops era.
the measly scoops salary is not nearly enough to cover all of the new bills and expenses steve has, but he's not willing to leave hawkins. so he reaches out to his friends back in italy, and they refer him to their american connections. steve doesn't model at the same level as before, but he poses for a couple of zines and one artist who got a little too handsy at his exhibition. but he's able to make it through until the mall blows up.
this routine continues and he starts working at family video with robin at his side, but he keeps his side job a secret from the kids, using the excuse of visiting his parents to leave town for his shoots. he's not ashamed, but he knows he wouldn't "be normal" anymore if they found out.
but how does he explain his near mental breakdown at the sight of his healing demobat scars. they're raised and ugly, ruining what should have been a perfect body. and even though he uses scar cream everyday, they refuse to fade away completely. and how could anyone stand to be near such an ugly thing when all his life, steve was meant to be pretty? after all, love and adoration is fleeting.
#steve harrington#give me grace i literally do not know how to verbalize all of my thoughts about this#child model au#imagining them finding out bc jonathan or will was interested in some photography art exhibition and steve is literally the centerpiece#everyone FREAKING OUT#robin knew bc OFC robin knew#steve feeling too self conscious to keep his old ads but he knows his mom keeps a record in her office#dustin screaming crying punching the wall YOUVE BEEN FAMOUS THIS WHOLE TIME... AND DIDNT TELL ME....#mike wheeler feeling ill bc is steve actually kind of cool....#italian steve harrington#because OF COURSE italian steve harrington#eddie munson asking steve if he'd ever consider doing playboy#steve going into a very serious answer about his career projection and actually that's an insult eddie. do u know who i am#and eddie is like yeah ur the centerfold in my heart baby#and then steve gets it#to be so clear. steve's mom DOES love him but she's also extremely selfish#that's why she feels bad when she slaps him and concedes to his request#but once she gets over the initial guilt she's like but he was a STAR i was the mother of a STAR
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