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Genuinely confused by the people who are confused that Venom: The Last Dance didn't end with Eddie and Venom making out/fucking nasty/screaming their love for each other from the roof tops.
Disclaimer: All of this is my opinion. Your feelings about the movie are valid. Just as mine are. We cool? Okay.
Guys. Venom sacrificed himself so that Eddie could live. Eddie was ready to die with him. Venom admitted to Eddie in the previous film that he loves him. Eddie is torn apart that Venom is gone. He literally says he needs Venom. Eddie goes to the Statue of Liberty for Venom. He makes a vow to never forget Venom.
I don't know what expectations some of you went into this movie with, but I don't view these films as queer bait. As a long time Venom and Symbrock fan, I left Venom: The Last Dance feeling very bittersweet but ultimately happy. The ending to me was like a love letter to a dearly beloved that is no longer around.
(Yes, the montage was cheesy. Yes, I loved it anyway. Sue me).
Maybe it's just my greysexual ass speaking, but I viewed this movie as a tragic love story. I didn't need to see Eddie and Venom making out to know they loved each other. To me, Venom sacrificing himself and Eddie whispering "Buddy?" only to be devastated when he realizes Venom is truly gone-that shit right there is love.
If you needed Sony to make their relationship even more explicitly obvious in an even more overt way so that the straights in the back can finally admit they see what we see, I'm sorry you didn't get that.
As for me, I'm content with what we got. I've read the comics, I know Symbrock is canon. I don't need an explicit scene of them fucking. And I don't need a straight person to validate what I already know.
#dreamer talks#venom 3#venom 3 spoilers#venom the last dance#venom the last dance spoilers#you're still valid if you didn't like the movie#I just think some of y'all might have had#some extremely high expectations#that were never going to happen#but hey#that's what the comics and AO3 are for ;)#symbrock
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2023 Las Vegas Grand Prix - Qualifiying - Fernando Alonso
#half asleep making these istg#yayyyy p9? idk ig i expected him to do better#old man asleep at the wheel whats new 😴#he was very quick w this interview i wonder if he was eager to get to bed#i certainly am rn#f1#formula 1#fernando alonso#2023 las vegas gp#(i wish i could atop feeling insecure abt my gifs. i do it for fun.)#(of course i want them to look somewhat good but i get a bit ill over it)#(there was somw drama on here at some point that made me want to completely stop posting then ngl)#(cause like what is the point if im not as good as others ig :/ this is kinda vague posting but it made me so uncomfortable)#(as i said. i do it for fun in quick time bcs yay jsut wanna post smth i found cute)#(but ever sincce that thing happened its just made me extremely self critical and insecure abt posting)#(idk why im saying this. kinda repressing the urge tk be like 'SRY THESE ARE TERRIBLE. YEAH.')#(i need to sleep. but i often feel like this literally every time i post now bcs some people get on their high horse and ruin people's fun)#(iykyk ig. its smth bothering me lately. but i hate to act so morose. but i still feel bad abt the quality sometimes. i guess.)#we do a little bit of f1
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as the day goes on, the pit of dread in my stomach grows deeper
#💢.butcher#🫀.vents#expecting an email about court results#I feel pretty sick about it honestly#extremely concerned that if he gets sentenced worse because of us he'll come after us#which is impossible but he already tried to fuck with us using his family and shit so who knows#I'm not going anywhere without a weapon#I'd buy a gun if I could#I know that our roommate would straight up kill the guy if he came near us though#I told her the whole story and she had a look like “oh yeah I'll kill him if needed”#we're probably fine#we live in a high rise#our roommate has a dog which is some level of protection#and also many family members close by who all know his face and what he did#whatever#I'm just trying not to think about it
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tangle is so fun because she is a juxtaposition of something collected and contained with something loose and free and in motion
she’s a rough brawler but she has a stance and a style. she’s impulsive and thrillseeking, but she wraps her arms in sports tape to protect them, a precaution. she longs for adventure and action but she will always need to come to rest at home with friends. she’s bouncy and restless, but she’s an intent listener and considerate. she’s got months of off-and-on experience fighting badniks, but is still so new to real Adventure.
and while there’s plenty of traits sonic and tangle share, you can’t reduce her to ‘girl sonic’ without neglecting something of her own characterization. she fundamentally wants something different out of life than sonic does, because she doesn’t need to be anchorless; she isn’t a backpacker, sleeping somewhere new every night. she’s more like a goose, or a frigate bird; flying free for ages and ages, knowing she wants to go somewhere, until time comes to call her back to her origin.
#random rambling at midnight oclock#i love love love contrasting characters who are very similar but have important subtle distinctions#like sonic is very self-determined. he knows what he wants#tangle is not yet. shes chasing adventure because she knows thats how she’ll *find* what she wants#she chases whisper because she knows whisper is better with a friend around. but also because whisper is a gateway to adventure#she’ll even bind herself with structure and expectations if it means coming back to whisper#^ sonic didnt want to join the restoration even for amy. tangle stayed because jewel needed her even if she hated it#or even just because itd help jewel. jewel didnt necessarily need tangle - especially if tangle had the free time to cause Incidents#shes like. selfless for partially selfish reasons. she wants adventure so bad & helping ppl is an adventure#she obviously still cares about people and wants to help too. but still#shes also this mix of. very competent and frightening in ability & strength. but also never really put on a level with most of the main cas#extremely durable tail that can punch metal out + lengthen to any size or reach (at high speed too!!) + hulk loki toss people#plus above average ability/acrobatics + some durability cause she fell a ways in the portal tower arc finding sonic/amy/tails#but also. still not applied as much as she could be + often disadvantaged against characters like surge/mimic/guns#but like. she also was fighting off zombots for some period of time while getting 0% more infected; creatively using chairs & stools#i feel like being true to *that* tangle necessitates her having some sort of plan against surge if/when they clash again.#she DOES strategize even if it’s on the fly. and she does have a pretty good sense of where her own body is/isn’t Marinette clumsy#anyways. au where i rewrite tangle’s recent appearances in line with her characterization for the first ~30 issues#forever anytime i see tangle being characterized as a sonic fangirl im like ‘she wouldnt do that.’#she would ADMIRE sonic absolutely!! she would not Fangirl. they are different. issue 4 she was so chill abt meeting sonic#ive been awake too long….. goodnight
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Recent things.. mostly just writing screenshots lol
#There's a water problem in the apartment so thats been taking most of my attention lol.. the way maintenance happens here is just#this big long vague wait with no clear communication. You just send in a request to the apartment building and then you might hear from the#any weekday from 8am - 4pm any time after that. Sometimes it's quick but sometimes its like days before you hear anything. So then#you just have to be operating under the assumption that at any time during working hours you might get a call or a knock at the door#Like if you were expecting company at any time for a week straight ghjhj.. ANYWAY.. I've been working on making a little discord#server thing for the game maybe for playtesters to communicate in initially i guess but then also after it's out or... something like that.#no idea how all of that works. but you hear about people doing it. or something... Still not entirely sold on the idea since I'm not really#a big user of discord format speaking (like little chats and stuff) but.. again idk.. seems like.. common.. for things...(< socially odd#hermit fumbling through trying to imitate what '''normal''' people do/enjoy/desire lol..). Since I think my biggest issue is I am very bad#at socializing and thus marketing since a lot of that is social. The type to just google ''what do people do about games once they've#made them'' and just go after whatever the top 10 things apparently are hjbjhbjh... But like I said. still unsure it will be utilized. it#all feels very awkward to me. then again most things do. But that's what the ''overall progress'' screenshot is from. the little channel#where I've been posting updates to myself lol. Also ''coding'' in that being used very lightly consdering it's ren'py and I'm only using#the very bare bones most basic functionality of it lol. Extremely intense highly daunting master level coding such as ''if x then y''. gbjh#slacked on writing a lot due to the evil maintenance and such things... and just general... appointments... events... aughhhhhh#I think it's Goose Time here or something because nearly every day I hear big V shaped rows of geese flying by like multiple#times a day and they're so pretty and neat to watch. They've really inspired me somehow. Today it was rainy and gray skied and high winds#and cold (some of my favorite most beautiful weather) and I went out to check the mail and like 6 or 7 rows of geese fluttered#by in the air. I felt like that meme image of that guy that looks kind of weird (william dafoe??) and its like black and white and#he's looking up at something almost teary eyed wide eyed in awe.. The goose... those are my goose.. the universe sent those gooses just#for me and the high speed winds blowing my coat open and chilling my face... a tender platonic kiss from the world is often delivered#by way of chilly weather and bird formations.. peace and love on planet earth truly..#OH and of course.. boy with boy!!!! shout out to those little mcdonalds toy animal plushies from like 2006 or something. I found the#gray cat one and was like.. hrmm.. I have one of those as well (a real life gray cat). surely they're friends now.
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#I also keep seeing modern au aubrey-maturin art#that makes me wish I could draw and thereby contribute#unfortunately I can't even *write* modern aus generally. but I like transferring character dynamics from place to place in my brain#and I feel like I could do a university AU very nicely if I could do AUs at all#because I have had rowers in my class with as far as I could tell jack's exact personality#(unfortunately it has to be a US university AU because (a) that's what I know and (b) afaik nobody else does randomly assigned roommates)#(and I cannot pass up the opportunity for randomly assigned roommates.#OR RATHER#for 'you seem more or less human - quick let's request each other so we don't have to go into potluck'#I think that works best)#(but maybe they are both international students anyway. that works fine. & therefore extremely alarmed by potluck [can't say they're wrong]#sophie is a sorority girl. english major I think. and I can see her so clearly#(she's the part I want to draw)#she's not that into the high-octane social schedule her sorority expects her to have#but her pushy mother was a member and it is Unthinkable that sophie should not be#and a lot of the other girls are sweet :) so it's fine :) she says#feel like she has roommate issues (unlike her original self she is able to live away from mrs williams so this makes up for that)#so she's always over in jack and stephen's room. people who know her tangentially sometimes gossip about which one she's actually dating#(at that particular moment it is actually neither of them she's just hanging out with stephen)#diana freed from the shackles of 19th century womanhood creates even more and weirder drama than in canon#idk I just want to see the plot of post captain played out over text message#don't ask me HOW idk HOW i just want it#stephen is a biology major/pre-med obvs. if he can survive organic chemistry#jack is some kind of engineering major. I think he'd enjoy that with the math. diana has changed her major 7 times#(I don't know whether to put jack in rotc. I don't think it Actually actually fits - he's in the navy in canon because he's in the navy#not bc he's Inevitably Military In All Worlds. he would not want to do that if he didn't get to sail#but at the same time I find it hard to picture him not belonging to Discipline somehow.#it's more than a disinterested passion for cleanliness that drives him to wash stephen's mug for him that has had coffee and ramen in it#(and NOT in that order)#in the bathroom sink
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Obscure Howie detail I noticed recently was that in S2 or 3, there's a scene where he pretends to be an asshole to cover for someone else. After hearing Kim go on an emotional explaination about why his decision* is wrong, Howie says "Duly noted." as a way to immediately shut it down. This whole play out is him imitating meanness (He revokes it not even a minute later).
Now skip to S6 when he tries to explain the shitty situation he's in to his wife and how he's trying to handle it, trying to reconnect with her emotionally at the same time, all she says in response is "Duly noted."
This has some interesting implications, does it not?
*It wasn't his decision, it was someone else's but he was taking the rap for it.
#what we know about his relationship with his wife is extremely limited#we see all of one scene of the two of them together#and it lasts about a minute#all we can gleam from it is that she's very cold towards him#only willing to talk about business to him and purposefully snubs his three acts of love in that scene#also later he reveals hes been sleeping in the guest house for most of the year#we have no idea why any of this is the case. It's all up for interpretation.#but considering we don't see her at all until this final season nor a mention of her either#its likely their relationship has been strained for some time#from what little we do know of Howie we know he is deeply supportive and even self sacrificing when it comes to others#however he's also rather strict and has high expectations#it should also be noted that he's having therapy to deal with his trauma at this time too#food for thought#ship: peace and love#sunny speaks
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So my life is feeling like its on an upward swing since this is my final semester for my associates, I'm starting a new job real soon and also possibly have a really nice remote job if I hear back from a few places I recently applied to.
And it always terrifies me when good stuff starts happening.
Change is really hard for me especially when it feels like its all at once. With better pay comes the opportunity to leave my parent's house finally and move in with a girl who has lovingly stolen my heart. With my school behind me I can find better jobs even!
But at the same time, its just. So scary for me. What if I can't keep up my part of rent. What if my chronic pain or ADHD or other disabilities put a strain on someone I love to my core, and I end up making things worse because I get extremely emotional and will scream (at myself mostly) and panic during these high stress times (especially if money is involved)
I've had a 'safety net' of family members who barely tolerate the fake me I present myself as, and I know my mental health is going to be so much better when I'm not around them, but at the same time I need so much help sometimes. Family just happens to help in terms of shelter and food. It also doesn't help that the one other time I moved out it ended so so poorly that I'm still working through that trauma.
Hurting the love of my life in any way fucking terrifies me. I want nothing but the best for her always always always. I just know I can't always be at my best, its impossible to be. I will break at some point and probably scream and cry about how things aren't going nearly to plan and I'm so weak so often I don't know if I can pull myself together fast enough to not hurt myself or her with my untrue words.
#I used to have (What I'm pretty sure now were autism) meltdowns so bad when I was younger.#I was always told I was selfish and that I can't expect to have x thing or y thing fixed#And I would scream and slam my hands against my legs and the ground#Its never been pretty#I just learned to cry before it gets to that point now and I just sob so fucking much#But if it feels like my life is over? I just. I just can't. I'll still scream and cry and pulp my legs bruised and hands bleeding#And showing my wife all of me includes all of these things I hate. This could happen if I move in with her#I haven't had a meltdown in a while from what I remember#It was probably right after I moved back in with my parents. And was pretty much coerced into an environment I felt extremely unsafe in.#tw self harm#jic cause I have mentioned beating myself#I haven't been close to a meltdown around my love at all tbh so maybe I'm scared for no reason. I mostly just cry because#Thats what happens when any emotion runs high#<- Girl who is currently crying typing all thid#also I hope no one reads hurting her as physically. I've never thrown a punch in my life. Well. I guess except at myself#Huh thats the first time I've thought of it that way. That sucks#I just know that 1. Being loud in general would not be nice to either of us. and 2. I can be a bitch! I can say some rancid shit!#And that would! Be fucking bad and hurt! And I so desperately don't want that#And I know accidentally hurting someone is something you need to expect when you're in a close relationship with someone#It still fucking sucks though#AUGH I just needed to type this all out I'n feeling better already. I'm just a scared girl so often.#I want to live more and more each day so I know I'll make it. Even if I do it scared. I guess I hope you see this honey#Since this is stuff I should be talking about with you#Getting my thoughts sorted though before talking is good though. The reason I type this on fucking tumblr is because it helps me think#Also being vulnerable and letting friends and mutuals and the like see all this is a chance for me to better myself I suppose#This has been a runa rant#runa diary#I have a habit of overthinking. Methinks#Honestly my current safety net of family has been pretty fucking bad#The one time I earned a little bit more money than I needed for bills I was basically stripped of a lot of it paying my folks rent
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#lowkey wanna delete those discussion posts because it feels like im presenting but no one's in the room#or if they are they're staring at me#the silence is incredibly awkward and i just wanna leave because it's so mortifying#hate that i dropped some bombshells in the story and there was like... very little reaction#or reactions during the whole update#so its like well shit what am i doing wrong#it doesn't make sense because the polls i made concerning the story got more of a response -- 16 people!!#maybe ppl like pushing button#i would just like some feedback or something; is that too much to ask for#yes i KNOW i shouldn't expect etc etc etc but come on#i dont think anyone's in the history of ever has come to my inbox about something story related or eagerly awaiting#anon is *extremely* on#or offering some perspective/picking up the proverbial bread crumbs/guessing on a future thing#i care a lot obviously#obviously everything's for me but on the other hand yknow *vague gesture*#it just feels like im just forcing it with all of the tzrs and everything and im *sure* it's annoying to someone#so idk man#it sucks that i wanna talk about shit but it feels like 'well anyway'#and maybe i am just too harsh on myself and maybe a little impatient and my expectations are too high for myself#i am having a bad brain time and i wish i can dunk this bitch into some water and scrub it#dw i'll be fine but it's just something that i noticed#vent post
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UHHH why the fuck is my head starting to twitch anyways i should probably work on that science assignment due soon like in an hour
#i take procrastination to an EXTREME FIRE EMOJI!!!#part of me wants to get a high education past k-12 but i partially dont believe im gonna get there if I keep doing THIS#off topic but. why is college so ominous#like i have to do a presentation on what my future career is gonna be (idk so i just made it up) and i just said#“yk what fake future me is gonna go to college” and i looked up colleges for that specific job i was gonna put in the assignment#and idk something abt the websites make me nervous like THIS is the places teachers expect me to go after k-12??? yikes#Also like. shit like college debt is SCARY i dont WANNA deal with ALLAT#idk why im talking abt this im not even like close to being in college but#lemme keep rambling#bc im procrastinating#younger me wanted to go to HARVARD WHAT WAS HE THINKING!!!!!#OR SOME IVY LEAUGE SCHOOL SOS#sometimes i think about “wait.. what if in the future I tried...” (this is probably not gonna happen k-12 school alone is killing me)#but idk#i need to find out what i wanna do in life after k-12 but i dont KNOW!! so many little things interest me but im so scared of choosing wron#my teachers are like “you should already know what youre gonna be in life!!” bitch i dont KNOW what im gonna do in life after k-12 edu#other than the fact im gonna transition and meet my qpp irl :3#me being an adult isnt technically close but dear LORD the fact that one day im gonna have to deal with ALLAT shudders#HOW DID I GET SO OFF TOPIC#HELPPPP#closet rambles again on tumblr
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the sandman diner episode? yeah.
#up until that point i was like yeah the show has some cool themes i like it enough to watch it#now im like actually this is the Best Show#tho i suspect i will be disappointed going forward. that episode has set my expectations extremely high for the rest of it#it has everything#friendly diner where something is increasingly Off. self contained character plots. gay people. 'Normal' people losing their shit#[insert that one tiktok here] 'sex. violence. murder'#wish babbles
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starting the war on christmas early by noticing this emote on the site formerly known as twitter
#its probably been there for years but i just noticed it today#im sorry if youre an enby who thinks this is cute but it is so so cringe to me#im stepping bravely forward to say: mx is dumb and i think we should strive for dropping these honorifics in english-language cultures#instead of making up a new woke gender neutral ones. call me crazy 🤷♂️#look im biased in northern MN/my family we never ms/maam/sir/mistered as an explicitly taught system of 'honoring' elders/#people in authority. i even went to a high school where the teachers went by first names (they changed that policy by junior year & it didn#go over well bc it turns out respect & trust are established by actions not titles)#i think its a silly system that only 'honors' class/racial/gender quantifiers vs if someones words/actions make them worthy of respect#unlike many places where it is EXTREMELY interwoven into the culture (oh the awkward encounters i had w entitled old men in the u.s. south#who were already rude to me but expected me to 'sir' them?? like maybe dont sexistly take the tools out of my fucking hands & take over my#work site i'd show you some respect david!!!!!)#'other languages have them tho. what would be call people?' 1) yeah so? and many do not. idc i am talking about stupid u.s. english & 2)#call people by their names maybe? or titles like doctor captain etc that have actual meaning behind the signifier other than Adult#anyway dysphoria over being in a place where i was required to be called ms was the final egg crack in realizing im trans so i have a lot t#say on the topic lol and also language is endlessly fascinating#also idk the original context of the react image its probably bad but its funny & i do not care!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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lack of communication and miscommunication kill me bro. especially when there's care involved, especially mutual care. COMMUNICATE WITH YOUR PERSON GODDAMMIT
#but i'm a hyprocite#because i can hardly bring myself to do it when there is the need#but god why is life so hard??#why are relationships so hard??????#nikita watches hometown: cha cha cha#also second hand embarassment is really hard for me#watching people kind of make a fool of themselves by being extremely naïve#setting really unrealistic high expectations and then inevitably feeling incredibly hurt when it all comes crashing down around your ears#i have to counsel my way through this#i have to keep reminding myself that character growth and development have to have a place to grow from#its so hard to watch though#because we see from all perspectives wider than each individual character does#and some characters have a very narrow pov for whatever reason it may be#inexperience#infatuation#theyre in the honeymoon phase of their relationship so i'm going to take several deep breaths and give them time#ok#GOD
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low functioning means you are incapable of basic activities of daily living (bADLs) such as:
bathing or showering, dressing, getting in and out of bed or a chair, walking, using the toilet, continence (which sometimes gets excluded) and eating.
I understand that people feel like high functioning hand waves away their struggles with employment or depression or burn out or sensory processing or learning disabilities but high functioning as a label wasn't meant to address that. It was meant to address what's listed above. If you are mostly capable of a good portion of these tasks then you are probably high functioning. I know it's not exactly comforting to hear but no matter how many times you change the labels to 'low support' or 'level one' and idk what else we will come up with people will still erase our struggles but I'd rather have someone assume 'high functioning means that girl doesn't need help' than have people like my uncle not have a label like low functioning that tells people he needs help.
Quick side note: Also notice on that list of basic ADLs things like verbality aren't listed? Nonverbal doesn't automatically mean incapable of bADLs it means non speaking! Many nonverbal are very capable of independence and deserve to use swear words on their AAC devices if they express the desire to!
But yeah you might think high functioning erases your issues but the labels aren't focused on things like employment or driving skills or grocery shopping. They're focused on your ability to dress yourself without wearing your clothes the wrong way because you were confused or because you can't figure out how to put on an outfit or find your clothes.
If anyone here honestly holds the belief low functioning people have it easier then you need to wake the fuck up
my fellow low support needs/"high functioning"/level 1 autistics, please stop treating support needs labels like a personal attack on your struggles.
low support needs doesn't mean no support needs. low support needs doesn't mean you don't struggle. low support needs doesn't mean you can't be disabled by your autism. low support needs doesn't mean you can't have speech difficulties or severe sensory issues or bad symptom days.
all that low support needs/level 1 means is that you can usually complete activities of daily living with minimal assistance. [pt: on average, you have relatively lower support needs than some other autistic people.]
i know sometimes it may seem like these labels are erasing your struggles, i used to feel the same way. but the reality is that medium and high support needs autistics feel a lot worse when we keep calling these labels "unnecessary" but excluding the people who most need them from the conversation entirely.
#actually autistic#autism#high functioning autism#level 1 autism#lsn autism#low support needs autism#aspie#late diagnosed autistic#aspergers#(i don't like functioning labels or aspergers/aspie but i'm using them to reach my target audience)#This tag and the tags underneath are Phantombunker's not asters#Low functioning autism exists#Maybe the labels should be changed but low support needs/level one still ends up making it sound like we don't struggle#But getting rid of the labels is a bad idea!#Some people really need them!#Functioning labels aren't meant to capture all the struggles a disabled person might face#They're meant to gauge who will need the most attention inorder to survive#They don't capture being incapable of holding down a job or having no friends#But at the same time#Most high functioning people (emphasis on most not all) when given proper help can indeed do most things#Meanwhile low functioning people even with a ton of help might very well still need 24/7 care or more extreme assistance#And that's okay! But they're absolutely has to a be a label#Autism is sometimes a guy with dyslexia and sensory issues who still lives with his parents but won't die if expected to take care of --#--himself for a week#But autism can also be a man who can't bathe alone because he'll either drown himself or boil himself alive because he doesn't know any--#--better and he can't be left alone for too long because he won't eat or use the bathroom or dress himself without help#So we need a label to differentiate the levels of struggle
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#horrid day. try again tomorrow.#between overthinking every little thing i feel or do or say & anxiety beinf extremely high#to physical pain giving me hell & just not feeling well#& then just power outages ruining my plans & everything#& then this. fucking. dread i feel abt somehow causing problems on accident. or aomehow fucking things up & feeling like.#i’m walking on eggshells with MYSELF#over analyzing every single little thing i say or so to where i end up in this nasty loop of worsening anxiety#this feeling also that anything i say or do will be taken wrong bc for some reason thats been a thing today too#hell on earth. its exhausting.#i cant even at least sleep because its fucking humid as fuck too.#& my body doesnt handle that kinda weather well it feels horrid so its just…#i really dont wanna go to work tomorrow i just want a self care day or somethn atp bc no#idk im just barely handling anything well rn.#shoulda expected this mess from the moment i woke up & felt this anxiety & dread idk#maybe im just getting too caught up in my head.#i wish i could just go wandering get lost in the city or wander my neighborhood or. something. take my mind off how haywire its going over#quite literally EVERYTHING. & also ig certain memories too but we’re not touching that#just tired of this shit. & wishing i had a means of grounding myself.#tbd i suppose. idk.#ishtar rambles ;#im kinda just falling apart emotionally but is finee#emotional state falling apart faster than a nature valley granola bar AYYY
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Throwback to the time I got so out of my mind stoned that when my dog yawned I had a moment of dawning horror and incomprehension as I watched a bizarre sort of flesh-worm slowly creep out of her open mouth and I could physically feel my brain's cogs turning trying to recognize what I was looking at
Until I remembered dogs have tongues
#it was the sort of high where you forget who you are and where you are moment by moment#i tried doing my weekly watching game of thrones session with my friend recently while this sort of high#(i had never seen it before so she and i have been getting together to watch and i'm on season 5 after like 3 months)#it was. an experience#i was acutely aware i was watching a tv show and all the people were actors. i also kept expecting it to turn into a comedy#bc everything was extremely funny to me for some reason. some dude would get stabbed and i'd be like LMAOOOOO#i also feel like i can see through characters' intentions in that state for some reason#like someone will say something that normally i'd accept at face value but in that state i'll be like ☝️THAT MAN IS LYING and be right
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