#so you can see why this post is just one big keyboard smash

[the-fab-fox]

Okay. So Imma just come out and say it.

Y'all who read fanfic. You. Need. To. Start. Commenting. On. Fics.

I have been told I'm a great writer. I've been told I'm spot-on with characterization. I've been told I'm great at making readers feel and experience what the characters are feeling and experiencing. Been told it's like the reader is in the room as everything plays out.

However, when I see that my fics have upwards of 1K hits and maybe 100-300 comments and maybe 40-100 kudos and not even hitting triple digits in the bookmarks/subscriptions to a fic... Well, what would you think in my shoes?

Most likely, if you're like me, you're thinking all kinds of negative things (especially if you have mental illness/ADHD/neurodivergency of some kind). Stuff like... Oh, those other people are just being nice (not fair to them so I try not to think this way but negative self talk doesn't play nice with me).

Or I think... Okay so they checked it out. They had to click on the fic for it to even register the hit, right? So why don't I at the very least have more kudos? That's the easiest option on there (though it's like a like on here; if you are gonna leave kudos please also leave a comment), right? So what was wrong with my fic that I don't have more kudos at least.

But then I get on here and see so many comments and reblogs on FANART (still not enough for them either though lbr). THE POINT IS... If you read a fic. If you read it and liked it, you all really need to start commenting.

It doesn't even have to be long paragraphs or quoting or any of the ✨ big comments ✨ stuff. You could leave an emoji that be showing me what my fic or update got you feeling. You can do keyboard smash. If the author asks for it, you can leave constructive criticism (but only if the author has actively asked for it; if they haven't or given you permission, then don't). You can absolutely do big comment things too.

One of my favorite type of comments to get are the quoting ones. You just copy/paste and then say what you liked about it or what it made you feel or your reaction to it. Things like that. I love when my readers tell me their fave parts in an update. Or quote a line and tell me their thoughts and feels. Just yes.

We are far too advanced in this day and age and fanfiction and fandom are wholly more accepting than it used to be but for some reason, comments and reactions have become almost non-existent compared to when I was 15. And I was... Pretty cringy in my writing back then but I can admit that. But every chapter I'd get at least 8-10 comments. A chapter!

Even earlier in my Twst series I was getting A LOT more comments and with every fic it seems to have dropped significantly.

To me, to my brain, that tells me that my writing is suddenly sucky or I lost my talent or I'm not actually as great a writer as I was told because then why aren't more people commenting.

You might try to argue and say you're shy. Do you comment on order things? Do you tack onto a reblog to put out some addition to the original post? Do you chat with people in the fandom? Do you comment on fanart?

Then what makes a fanfic any different? (This is not including smut fics because I get but necessarily wanting it tied back to you. But if you open ao3 in a browser you aren't logged into ao3 on, you can (as long as the author has allowed it) post a comment anonymously. Yeah!)

You might say oh well I don't have time to comment right now. But you had time to read the fic? You had time to reblog that shit post? You had time to comment on the tags on a fanart you really loved? Thing is, unless you want to write a long one, comments do not take that long to leave. They really don't.

If you're worried the author doesn't want to hear from you—I'll stop you right there. The author ABSOLUTELY wants to hear from you.

So now is the time to stop making excuses to be lazy. You are reading really great fan literature for free. The least you can do as a thank you and to show support is to COMMENT. ON. THE. FIC.

And if you wanna really make an author's day and help support them and their work, REC the fic. REC the Author's work list. You can do that to friends you know would like it or even better, make a post about the fics and link your recs.

It's really not that hard and we should not have to beg. Realize the blessing you have that fics you would enjoy exist for free and do your part. COMMENT.

[tohruies]

oh my gosh coco may i have a little 💌 if it is not much trouble, though no pressure — i will take this opportunity to say that i love how much of a kindhearted person you are, your positivity and lovely outlook you bring is so inspiring and always makes me want to be more cheerful myself 🥹🌸

i feel very grateful to be able to call you my friend, you are such a positive influence and so filled with love — anyone would be lucky to know you !!! thank you for always encouraging me to be more outgoing and coax me out of my shell more, even with things such as just speaking of my selfships — you have been so dear in making me feel more comfortable being myself here 😿✨ I LOVE YOU !!!

༼ﾉ ´༎ຶ ﹏ ༎ຶ༽ ﾉ *: ·ﾟ💌 <- tears because 😭😭😱😱😭😱 VANA!!!!!!!! 🥺🥺🥺

OH MY GOSH HELLO VANA!!!!!!!! 🥺🥺🥺 my cutie banana... i am trying so hard not to keyboard smash, i will answer you in a very distinguished and proper manner!!! crossing my legs and sitting up straight. oh my gosh 🥺 vana, so!! truthfully, i could write an entire master's thesis on why i love you LOL—i think the question that needs to be asked here is what isn't there to love about vana!! (the answer is nothing, obviously!!! 🤓☝️) i oft tell you how much i love when you share details about your day!! how it feels like i'm a plant sitting on your sill watching you go about... i know i have used that exact same analogy before hehe :3 you really do feel like such a friend to us all because of it, and i love how you have fostered a most welcoming and cosy vana valley for yourself and us, as well!! which is a true testament to how big and warm your heart is!! 🥺 and this is what i would like to talk lots about if that's okay!!

something you do vana that gets me very excited is when you get excited about your mutuals!!!!!! i love when you namedrop them in your posts and tags (this is embarrassing for me to admit... but sometimes when i am missing you i will go to your blog and search up my name so i can giggle over all the posts where you have mentioned me LOL I AM SO SORRY. IF THAT IS WEIRD 🥹) because it is like!!! you thought about them 🥺 enough to mention them in a silly little post! you thought about me! 🥺💗 vana thinks about me!!! 🙈 you remember the suvana song i recommended you 🥺 and you listen to it 🥺 that makes me SO HAPPY. and i know you do the same for your other friends too!!!!!! this is how you make the people around you feel so cared for and loved for 🥺💗🥺💗🥺 you remember and hold onto the kindness extended towards you and i think that is such a beautiful and wonderful thing 🥺 one of the many things i cherish so dearly about you!!!

wah... vana you are just so easy to love!!!!!!! 🥺🥺 you get excited over everything and it's funny how you say all these things about me... having a positive outlook and wanting to be more cheerful—because those are all things i find the most inspiring about you!!! SOBBLE BOBBLES, i think this is the beauty of friendship... learning from each other and lifting each other up NO NOW I'M CRYING. i won't cry. VANA you are such a darling presence on this app—even the mere thought of leading a vana-less tumblr existence is enough to make me miserable WAH i will not think about that 🥺 you are here now!! and you do so much for us in all the fics you provide and peppermint tea you share with us and how you tease your friends (I ALSO LOVE HOW FLUSTERED YOU GET WHEN YOUR FRIENDS MAKE FUN /AFF OF YOU HEHE >:3 it's the cutest thing in the world to me!!). i love suvana and wrivana and vanaxa (and... RANA INCOMING?! 🙈 keeping my fingers and toesies crossed hehe) and i love seeing you talk about your ships and how your special little guys give you the love you deserve 💗 i love how you feel like a home for your friends!!!!!! and i hope you can find the same comfort in us too 🥺 WE ALL ADORE YOU SO SO SO MUCH!!!!!! you have a heart of gold, and i hope sunday and wrio and anaxa and all of your friends and loved ones guard it and keep it safe forever ⭐️ you deserve only the sweetest things in life!!!!

[freakingoutthesquares]

Poptastic Words: Alexis, Portraits: Pulp Interviewed back-stage at the Highbury Garage, 15 May 1993 Catharsis Fanzine, Issue 4 Transcription: Acrylic Afternoons

"I'm Candida. Hello. I play keyboards." "I'm Jarvis. I'm the singer." "I'm Steve. I play bass." "I'm Russell. I play guitar and violin." "Therefore Nick's the drummer." sums up Candida.

And there you have Pulp - the world's greatest pop band. A band who have "been in Smash Hits" and have even had the honour of having one of that magazine's "Single of the Fortnight". Not that Jarvis can see the band ever being as big as, say, Take That or East 17.

"I can't see too many posters going up."

Pulp were formed by Jarvis whilst at school and the current line up has been together for about five years. But why did they all want to be in a band in the first place?

"I think we wanted to frustrate ourselves," says Candida.

"We're complete sado-masochists," backs up Nick.

Is it what you all always wanted to do?

"Yeah," confirms Jarvis. "I, kind of, wanted to do it at school. I used to imagine, when I was in the school's dinner queue, that I wouldn't have to queue up if I was famous. It's not particularly true. That's what I thought it would be like but it's not."

So, after deciding he wanted to be a pop star, Jarvis went to film school. Why?

"That was after we'd been doing the band for a while but I was disillusioned. We'd been messed around by loads of record companies and the final straw was when the bass player became a born again Christian and left the band. It all seemed a big mess. We didn't actually split the band up but I thought I ought to do something else cos it's all I'd been doing since I left school and I thought my brain was drying up. I thought I ought to do something else to keep it alive a bit."

Now it's 1993 and it's going to be a good year for Pulp. Their records are being picked up on - their last single 'Razzmatazz' got Single of the Week in Melody Maker - and it is rumoured that they have signed to Island Records.

"We're with them spiritually..."

"I don't think we've signed or anything," says Jarvis over Nick.

"...we're, kind of, engaged. It's been a long engagement."

"But long engagements are the best," stresses Russell.

Why do you think it's taken so long for Pulp to be appreciated (Pulp has been around in various forms for about fifteen years)?

Steve: "It's our turn."

Jarvis: "We've been waiting in queue for a long time."

Steve: "It's like when you go to the Post Office and you want a stamp but you'll wait for everyone else to go."

Jarvis: "We're very polite y'see so we didn't push in."

Nick: "We wouldn't have that."

Jarvis: "So we waited our turn."

Did it get depressing in the meantime? "No," continues Jarvis. "There's always other things to do. If you choose to sit at home thinking, "Why aren't I famous?", then you would be quite a sad character. You can always ride your bike or something."

Did you think you'd be doing it this long when you first started?

"No. I would've been horrified. I always thought pop music was supposed to be quite instant. You didn't hang around for a decade. To be doing it for so long is very strange."

How did Pulp sound when you started?

"Awful."

"It was all feedback," explains Steve.

"Yeah," recalls Jarvis. "It was a noise. Not on purpose, or anything. It was just ineptitude. I started when I was young and we just couldn't play. We still can't play very well but I don't think that matters."

What does matter then?

"It's not what you can play, it's what you can say."

And what are Pulp saying?

"That's put you on the spot," cries Nick gleefully.

"Well, it's not that we've got something to say as in there's a big message for the world. U2 are trying to shake off that image now but before they were always doing the chest beating and coming up with their big slogans. It's not like that. Hopefully it's an accurate reflection of our lives."

In that case Pulp must lead very strange lives. The opening lines of 'Razzmatazz' were, "The trouble with your brother/he's always sleeping with your mother/and I know that your sister's missed her time again this month".

"I don't think they're seedy," states Jarvis. "They're just true to life. I think they're deadpan and down to earth. I don't think they're strange. Razzmatazz is a bit sad. Babies (the single before Razzmatazz... sample lyric: I wanna take you home/I wanna give you children) is just a thing you get up to when you are fourteen and certain things are still still taboo and you get into situations because of curiosity."

What does your mother think about your lyrics?

"I don't think she's bothered. She's not made any detrimental comments. She thinks the songs should be happier. I'd rather her take no notice actually because once I went round there at Christmas and she insisted on playing the record all the time when my relatives were there. It was embarrassing. Everyone comes up and pats you which isn't very good. Also, if you're on TV or radio at your mothers then it's very embarrassing."

"Shouldn't have your hair like that."

"Smile a bit more."

"Why don't you play some happy ones."

To get to know Pulp a little better we decided to ask each member of the band to describe the others. We allotted them one word per person. Below are the results.

Nick: Candida... petite. For Jarvis I'd say dishevelled. Steve is organised and Russ is er... too tough sometimes.

Candida: Nick's loud. Jarvis is temperamental. Steve is organised and Russell is good at business.

Jarvis: For Nick I would say... high. Candida is fluorescent. Steve is clean. Russell... I'd say feedback.

Steve: Nick is too loud. Candida is calm. Jarvis is unique and that's not a compliment. Ha Ha Ha. Russell is manic.

Russell: Nick is Jean Paul. Candida is toys. For Jarvis I'd say praying mantis and Steve I would say is a cigar.

During this game several compliments and disparaging remarks were handed out and taken with apparent ease and false stroppiness in turn. Pulp complimenting each other makes them happy, but what is the nicest thing an outsider could say about them?

"I don't know. I get embarrassed if people are nice to me," says Jarvis whilst Russell lines up the butts of his cigarettes in size order. "l find it hard to accept people being nice. I always think they' re after something."

"You're paranoid," offers Steve as an explanation. "l don't know why it is. It's like when you eat out at a restaurant, not that I do very often, but when I do I don't like the waiters always coming over and supposedly being nice. (Adopts slimey voice.) "Is everything O.K. for you sir?". I find that makes my flesh crawl. I'd rather they just give it to you and then let you eat and talk to whoever you're with."

"The nicest thing someone could do to you is put a plate of food down and walk away?" asks Russell incredulously.

"I don't mean just slap it down. Put it down, then go away. I don't want them hanging around with the violin in your ear. The niceness is a bit like that."

Do you also hate it when people are horrible to you Jarvis?

"Oh yeah. I like general blandness. Ha Ha Ha. If somebody comes up to you and says "You're great", it's nice but it's also..."

"...a conversation killer," finishes Russell.

"It's a northern thing as well," observes Steve. "In Sheffield no one Would ever go up and say, "I think you're great"."

"That's why," confirms Russell, "it's uncool. It's us that's wrong but..."

"The best compliment we get is if someone says we're alright. It's good to know that other people like you but you'd rather hear it second hand," explains Jarvis.

"The first time someone said it to us we thought we'd misheard them," says Nick.

"Do you know who we are?" adds Russell.

"Yeah," continues Nick. "l thought they'd got the wrong band."

You said earlier that you don't like people being mean to you - does criticism upset you?

"Well" says Jarvis with a pained expression, "if somebody writes something like, "He's a tall, lanky streak of piss with no discernible talent. How has he managed to delude himself for so many years?" you can't just go, "Oh, yeah. Fair enough, everybody's entitled to their own opinion"."

"Truth hurts. Ha Ha Ha." comments Steve.

"It's too bad they were right," agrees Russell rubbing more salt into Jarvis's wounds. "We do like people to like us. We're not just doing this for ourselves. We want people to like it."

"But we don't pander," warns Jarvis.

What do you think about the "Crimplene scene" which is the current press play thing? Does it bother you that you've been lumped into that?

"We started it," boasts Steve jokingly.

"I don't think it exists. It's not healthy," complains Jarvis. "No. Crimplene makes you sweat. We'd rather be the British cotton scene."

"It's true," supports Nick. "Avoid Crimplene at all costs."

"I like seventies bands like Denim. Is that the Crimplene scene?" asks Russell.

From what I've read, it's you, Suede, Saint Etienne etc.

"We used to get compared to Marc Almond and World Of Twist so..."

"If I was going to chose a scene to be associated with," remarks Steve, "it would be that one but it's not like we meet at Oxfam on a Saturday afternoon and fight over classic Crimplene. None of us like it."

"I still don't think it exists," says Jarvis persistently.

If there is a scene then Pulp are the leaders of the pack. They might not be the biggest, but they are the best. In terms of sex, glamour and everything that counts they are the only band you need to know. They leave the rest of their ilk in a trail of dust. The songs are gorgeous uplifting affairs with secret tales of suburban life as lyrics. It is pure genius.

"A lot of sexual perverts like us," offers Russell helpfully. "They write us strange letters. Post grunge and post shoe gazing there is a new sort of person on the streets and they like us. People in stripey tops quite like us."

"French people like us," announces Candida.

Do any of you ever get recognised in the streets?

"Yeah," states Jarvis. "I was saying to Russell the other day, that I've always had people taking notice of me in the streets in Sheffield - usually in a bad way. They called me names and things. It does still happen. In fact I nearly had a fight yesterday 'cos this boy decided to push me. But people have started to recognize me and be a bit more friendly now. It's strange 'cos I'm always getting ready to flinch when they come up and then they say something nice and catch me off guard."

What names did they call you?

"Because I've always worn glasses it just used to be someone famous with glasses. Elvis Costello, Buddy Holly. Just anybody who wore glasses. I used to have a beard for a bit and then I was called Rolf Harris all the time. They weren't very imaginative."

Well, those people were obviously mad. Jarvis is, without a doubt, a sex symbol for the nineties along with all the others in the band. At the gig that took place after this interview Jarvis was practically pulled off the stage by adoring females. O.K. - so we know they are attractive, but how sexy out of ten does each member of the band think he/she is?

"We're all going to say ten aren't we?" asks Candida.

"You might, but I wouldn't," retorts Steve.

"I think it changes during the day," decides Nick. "When you get up in the morning you're probably a minus. The later it gets the better it gets. If it's a good day you might peak at two."

"You just about make a two, Steve," jokes Jarvis.

"Anyone who says above seven has problems," says Steve wisely.

"You'd catch them playing with themselves in front of a mirror when you came in here," suggests Jarvis.

"That means you were about a nine in the van today, then, when we set off," says Steve whilst trying to wind up Jarvis.

"Yeah?"

"I didn't think you were a nine, you thought you were."

"Self-masturbation," adds Nick helpfully.

"That's another thing that other people have to decide upon," Jarvis remarks sensibly.

"Obviously it's nice if people do find you that way."

At this point Nick's brother enters the room and Russell starts loudly announcing that "this one goes up to eleven" if you twist the nipple and put a little shilling in the slot. Everyone has hysterics.

But, don't get me wrong, Pulp take what they do incredibly seriously. They are a deadly serious band. I know this because Nick told me four times. They are funny, the music is not. Pulp are also clever, sexy, glamorous, beautiful, talented, strange, normal, erotic, under-famous, unique, sleazy, stylish and every other compliment ever. If you feel the need to check out the high life or if you just need that extra sparkle - look no further than Pulp. They're the most fun you'll ever have.

You can write to Pulp at P.O. Box 87, Sheffield, S6 2YZ and you can become a Pulp person by sending £3 to the same address.

[imustbenuts]

How do you handle how low key racist toward Japan a lot of fandom is in favor of shoving only American cultural viewpoints into things? I'm so tired...

hm.... a loaded question. short answer for how i handle this:

I don't.

i just. don't. i don't even try to process what i know for sure is a bad take at all, and i make it a point to curate my online spaces as much as possible.

(or at least, i do on very very rare occasions if i feel arsed enough to hop on my keyboard to smashing out a more educated post about it based on my own understanding. more on this in a bit.)

if i go into a fandom tag and i see rampant nonsense, such as during the 1st two months of fire emblem engage's release or some incredible pumpkin spice latte takes, and i feel like it's just too much bc im getting angry, i just disengage. i might read if i feel like it, but if its too hostile i don't add to the conversation. i leave. i don't pass go bc i have waaaay better things to do than potentially engage in a conversation im already not happy to have.

in some occasions i even block. if i feel like someone is being a dipshit in the posts i make with their tags even, i block.

and i suspect im not the only one. how often do you see asians who reside outside of the west actively partake in fandom discussions? its such a drain of energy when it goes bad. most asians are working faaaaar longer hours than the average westerner in the average office setting. i mean, fuck, man. if i want to have fun, im not coming to a place i know i wont be having much. (ofc we are all having it bad. the point is: limited energy is a big factor for why going against the general set consensus is a bad idea)

i've been dealing with this for the past 10 years. minimum. it has always been like this. it has ever always been like this everywhere.

soooome fandoms are chiller than others for sure. but i dont actively participate in fandoms bc: im tired and my attention hops all over the place.

im ALSO gonna drag proship antis DNI into this ramble bc i believe strongly this culture is an evolution of the old 'your fave is problematic' culture mixed with puritanism culture and i hate it. i hate it bc it gets applied to everywhere, even in a japanese/asian culture space where people in fandoms are generally more "you stay in your lane i stay in mine, we're all freaks, just dont break any laws or be terrible". understand that east asian society in general is collective compared to western's more individualistic one, which reinforces that lane thinking. so all these high moral showing-off is just a big pissing contest to me.

in fact its such a pissing contest i actively refuse to follow people who have DNIs in their profiles. id have more respect for those who can say 'i dont like xyz, its not my cup of tea'. its a normal response, i think.

and im done ranting about my personal feelings :v. some practical advice from my dumb of ass:

a person knows what they know

a person doesnt know what they dont know (ignorance)

a person cannot be taught what they dont want to know (willful ignorance)

a willfully ignorant person is not anyone's job to directly fix. only they can check themselves.

hostility begets more hostility. anger is an addictive emotion. block and move on if someone is consistently being annoying/a pos online, its not worth the mental bandwidth

a person wants to know what they know they don't know (curiosity)

if theres something educational worth sharing that can be communicated in a digestible way, it is sometimes worth it. people like reading, but more importantly, communicating. be that with the OP or their own group.

and also, im not immune to any of the behaviors i dont like above myself. there are also limits in what i know. :v hypocritical of me lmao

[justalildumpling]

can you describe ur relationship with ur moots using different kpop idol ship dynamics?

(hopefully that makes sense!!😣)

wait i actually love this prompt HELLO??? also, i only chose the mutuals i talk to on a regular basis and feel like i know well enough for this so im so sorry if i didn't mention you😭

@sungbeam ⎯ nct mark & haechan (aka soulmates)

if we haven’t advertised about this enough already, beam and i are certified soulmates like😐 like mahyuck we literally tease each other about our side hoes (*COUGH ch*ngm*n) but we will never hesitate tell each other how much we mean to each other. idk if mark had ever exclusively mentioned this about haechan but i truly believe beam and i were cosmic coincidences (soulmates) like i feel at home with her, she is my safe space

@polarisjisung ⎯ nct mark & yuta (24/7 flirting)

idek how to tell y’all, its literally playful flirts back and forth😭 and like yuta, hua wins most of the time…. literally bf who? but literally i would say our friendship is so wholesome tho, like if we were to meet irl i can imagine us like that one yuta and mark date at the restaurant

@wuahae ⎯ tbz sunwoo & changmin (menaces to society)

it just works. if u guys see our messages to each other it’s literally keyboard smashes and screaming about some random topic😭 we both take turns insulting each other tbh but 🥰lovingly🥰 but also like.... i don't think we can mentally and emotionally go without talking to each other everyday like idk what to tell u we literally are stuck together. ok but jokes aside, i feel like sunwoo clicked with changmin really well and have a deep trust in him just like i feel towards cat

@jaeminvore ⎯ nct haechan & johnny (the enablers)

we’re like… enablers of the inner chaos of each other. literally i could have the most feral thought and nics would be the first to be like yes😁👍👍 just like johnny constantly defending haechan HAHAHHAH

@winterchimez ⎯ tbz jacob & sunwoo (gentle mother with her chaotic ass child)

can i just say how much i adore ally like😭 she is so big sister energy but also like mother energy at the same time!! i feel like with jacob and sunwoo, ally is both very concerned.... towards my chaotic ass irl actions but also like entertained at the same time OAFOEF LOOK- she is my mum (in the non weirdest way possible) period.

@zzoguri ⎯ tba sunwoo & new (tom and jerry)

admittedly... i like teasing moni. why? well,,,, i love them that's why😁 ok. but, like chanhee and sunwoo's relationship i feel like our relationship is the perfect balance of very fun but also very deep at the same time. like we could literally be swearing at each other when playing game pigeon💀 but then could be venting about personal things the next second. i feel like sunwoo can really rely on chanhee for advice or hardships which reminded me of moni💗

@from-izzy ⎯ tbz sunwoo & eric (sibling energy)

i contemplated putting jaemin and jeno down but i feel like izzy and i give off more sibling energy then old married couple JBEWOFOWF i always have fun talking to izzy on vc like i miss her presence if we haven't spoken in a while even tho we might not outright say it

@invuwrld ⎯ tbz younghoon & new (the biggest cheerleaders)

can i just say mona is literally the biggest hypewoman? like. post a pic on deoboyznet and i can bet ur ass mona will be the first one to reply and it will literally make my day LIKE HEAISNPI?!?!?! and i would literally not hesitate to do the same for her. hoon and chanhee seem to hype each other up all the time and their interactions were always so cute to me just like ours hehe

@jaehunnyy ⎯ riize shotaro & sungchan (pair of besties)

IF CHIP ISNT THE IRL VER OF SHOTARO IDK WHO IS because girl. she is literally the sweetest human being ever and just like shotaro, she took me into her arms the day we met and i have never left since

@mosviqu ⎯ svt hoshi & shinee taemin

i always looked up to bar when it came to writing and still do, like i have such high respect for her and still fangirling that we're moots OIUBQOEUFBOW but like hoshi and taemin, i would like to say that we're getting closer hehe

bonus:

@/wuahae @/zzoguri ⎯ tbz new, q & sunwoo

istg there's just chaos when we're together like idek what to tell you. HEAVY EMPHASIS on when we play crazy 8 SKSJSJSJSJ like last time, cat and i literally ganged up on moni😭 like we all love each other but we will literally bicker all the time OIHFOIGHWE (not to mention the fact that we genuinely have attachment issues.......) LITERALLY SOULMATES!!!! (the pattern confirmed everyone)

[metalbvcky]

Answer the questions and tag five fanfiction authors you know!

tagged by @sarahowritesostucky, thank you lovely!! 💖💖 no pressure tagging: @late-to-the-party-81 @sparkagrace @bittersweet-in-boston @otpcutie @apple-writes

🍓 How did you get into writing fanfiction?

I feel like that's asking "how did you join Tumblr" it just happened 😂

🍇How many fandoms have you written in?

One, technically, which is nothing compared to others but I enjoy exploring my ideas with the MCU and its characters. I'm not sure I'd get the same feeling with other fandoms, like say, supernatural.

🍈How many years have you been writing fanfiction?

It'll be four this summer. Again, not long, but considering I denied myself as being a writer for several years? That's progress and growth.

🍎Do you read or write more fanfiction?

It depends on the muse and all sorts of other things. Sometimes I'm punching out oneshot after oneshot, while other times I'll be focused on a longfic and will read in between and stuff. Like currently!

🍌What is one way you've improved as a writer?

Writing more. Reading more. Writing more again. But also letting go of sticking to a strict outline. I'm a planster. I'll plan the major things, but everything else is made up as I go.

🍑Do you have any bad habits as a writer?

I'll often start or continue writing a scene and will find myself stuck, thinking it's the end of the world, and then realize my whole issue is a few lines above what I'm trying to make work. Happens so often you'd like I would be used to it by now.

🍍 What's the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?

I don't know about weird, but I've been doing a ton of medical research for my future doctor/patient AU. I've searched around for all sorts of things lol even for a sentence that I'll likely not end up using.

🍉What's your favourite type of comment to receive on your work?

Keyboard smashes. Long detailed comments about the plot/relationship/pining/etc. Comments that mention a tiny detail I included, those are the best when people notice them. But also, any comment.

🍐What's the most fringe trope/topic you write about?

Crack fics? I don't think I write a lot of outlandish stuff, at least I wouldn't consider them to be 😂

🥭What is the hardest type of story for you to write?

Uhhh... *stares blankly at my open doc* Ones with big plot. I love it, it makes the story even more fun to write, but MAN plot can be tricky. Catch me saying "Did everyone see that? Because I will not be doing it again" like Captain Jack Sparrow when I finish a longfic, and then immediately start planning another one to write.

🍏What is the easiest type?

Short oneshots with hardly any plot. Which isn't often because almost everything I write ends up being longer than I anticipated.

🍑Where do you do your writing? What platform? When?

Docs. I used to use Smartedit Writer and organize by chapters, but ehhhh I just throw ideas onto a separate doc and go from there. Why plan extensively when my characters will do a 180 on me all the time? And almost always at night, sometimes during the day when time/the muse allows me.

🍋What is something you've been too nervous/intimidated to write, but would love to write one day?

I was just thinking about this recently. I have never written a post TWS recovery fic. It's on my 'to write' bucket list, so I hope to tackle a lengthy canon fic one of these days. I love reading canon fics where they're on missions and the plot is centered around HYDRA or some other big bad, I feel like those are trickier to write than AUs. But everyone has their strengths and weaknesses, and I know coming up with detailed worlds/world building isn't a walk in the park for some.

🍇 what made you choose your username?

I didn't know what to name my Marvel sideblog when I was making it so... I just decided Bucky + metal arm + aw crap that name is taken = Metalbvcky 🤣

[sunmoonjune]

opening up notes bc i already know this is gonna be another chapter that serves and i need to keyboard smash all my feels

can i just start off by saying yun tapping bug's language or yun holding bug's hand or anything related to his hands has me reeling bc ive recently developed such a huge thing for them it's embarrassing aslfkdgsajg like they're so pretty it's illegal also apparently his hands are 21cm ??? like ??? my hands are probably the size of his palm someone hold me pls

im melting bug used to be so alert during her sleep she would subconsciously be waiting in fear of danger and she would rarely ever leave her good eye covered bUT NOw she's subconsciously reaching for physical contact and comfort from the boys AND THEN YOU'RE TELLING ME SHE'S ALSO COMPLETELY TRUSTING JONGHO TO PROTECT HER WHILE SHES ASLEEP OGM MY HERART

intermission to tell you just how much i love each and every single interaction that you put into each chapter bc they are such simple moments and actions that could easily be skipped over when thinking about the grand scheme of the plot but you always manage to highlight their significance in bug's journey of healing. ltm is the epitome of it's the little things in life ❤️

seeing bug curled on the floor next to san's bed was so cute but also so bittersweet. i think ateez need a new cavern where the whole floor is just bed so they can all be close and have cute puppy piles. also PLEASE HAHA not bug going 🥵🥵 seeing hongjoong's forearm muscles 💪💪 honestly though,,, same

my lack of vocab cannot express the amount of feels i got from bug finally giving captain his name symbol bc it's not even just 'hongjoong' but 'MY hongjoong' and it encompasses so many meanings like home and their heartbeats brb im ugly crying

Briefly, there’s a startling realization that they don’t change for you either. -> 👏WE👏LOVE👏CHARACTER👏DEVELOPMENT👏AND👏SELF👏LOVE 👏 i love the parallels revealed between hongjoong's and bug's past because hopefully bug can start to realise that she is also capable of displaying the scar on her face without worrying and finding love in this little family just like hongjoong has

woosan peering over the edge of the bed to look at bug and hongjoong only serves to reiterate my point that they need a nine-person mattress stat. and the way they giggled together like kids i swear they're the cutest

also my tag doesn't work idk why but it's okay bc i check your posts more religiously than i wake up for work so jks on tumblr 😎

AHHHH I LVOE YOU SO MUCH <333

the way my heart goes !!#!$!$! whenever I get a long ask after a new chapter is posted xD I love them SO MUCH <33

ok but yunho's hands are SO pretty,, I definitely have liked more than one TikTok of his hands so you're not alone xD

bug trusting jongho to guard her in her sleep <333 she really was sleeping for quite a bit of this chapter xD but that's okay, she needed it :'))

intermission to tell you that I love you SO MUCH <33 I'm so glad you guys don't mind the slow pacing with these little interactions! they might be considered filler in some stories but the slow progression is really important to me in this story :"D

also ateez should definitely just make a cave with just mattresses on the floor for one big bed xD they def need the cuddling space :}}

(and SAME bug, I too am weak for joong's forearm muscles xD)

MY hongjoong <333 crying screaming throwing up they love each other SO MUCH,, and joong's name symbol does indeed have the word for 'home' in it :") I was wondering if anyone would pick that up hehe >:D

also bug 🤝 hongjoong 🤝 zuko 🤝 having shitty father figures HAHA,, but yes bug's growing so much :")) finally beginning to realize that she is not her past and she can grow into her own person with ateez <3

woosan giggling like teenagers with crushes made me so happy I swear xD yeosang was done with their shit and just wanted to sleep HAHA

also I'm not quite sure why your tag doesn't show up :(( I've been poking around on tumblr but sometimes blog's just don't pop up when I try to tag them D: I hope I can get it sorted out tho! I'm glad that you were able to find the new chapter without it tho <3

[tavyliasin]

ALL OF THIS

Listen, creatives can so often be fragile creatures, and even the smallest bit of support can help take up back up to the peaks of our emotional rollercoaster of creation. More on that subject right here:

Beneath the cut - a quick note on the best ways to support creators and help them through art/writer's block!

Tiers of Support:

If you want to support creatives and give them a boost, there are different things you can do depending on your time and energy! I don't judge anyone for what they do or don't choose to do, I know there are plenty of reasons you may not have energy for a comment or might not even want to leave a visible like/share on NSFW content. That's ok! But if you do want to know what really helps creatives:

Level 1 - Likes/Kudos/Post Reactions

Quick click, show a little appreciation to chase the blues away~

Level 2 - Sharing

Either a basic quick share without comment, or better add a comment to it, a recommendation, a reason for your followers to visit the work and leave their own appreciation for it!

Level 3 - Short Comment

Even a feral keyboard smash to convey your excitement and appreciation can be an instant smile!

Level 4 - Long Comment

Giving a longer comment is even more of a boost - let the artist/writer know what it is you liked most about their work!

Level 5 - Extra Detailed Comment

God Tier and high effort but it is the most validating thing to see on our works! Give us a blow by blow breakdown. Analyse the posing, lighting, brush strokes, and art style. Pick out your favourite lines and plot points in fic and tell us how they made you feel. Essay-length comments have been known to boost creatives to the peak of their abilities, so if you have the time and energy to spend please consider this option!

Again, there's no pressure to do any of these, and we all know there are many reasons why you may not want to or might not be able to and that's ok! Just remember if you do want to know how to support your favourites, these are the things that really fill our hearts~

My love to all the creatives out there and to everyone who supports us in big or small ways <3

[curious-about-dramas]

The Heart Killers EP 9 - (text) reaction

I don't know why I get nervous on each new episode. Maybe it's because I feel so much is happening and I have some expectations, but since the show is so different from the novel, who knows what we'll get. And FirstKhaotung, JoongDunk, and P'Jojo always deliver. Also, I cannot wait to listen to First's song.

EDIT: I've finally managed to find some time to post this today, even if my reaction is from Wednesday, so 4 days ago. Adulting sucks.

PART 1 / 4

Seeing Bison breaking down like that in the recap still makes me feel a lot of things. Khaotung's acting skills are always impressive.

Seeing Kant and Bison so open with each other, especially Kant without his usual dark aura, is sooooo beautiful. The freedom the truth brought them is very palpable. I cannot wait for Fadel to get here too.

It's still scary to think that, now that Bison has let his guard down, he's so vulnerable about everything with Kant - and he's making himself more and more vulnerable with every "secret" he's telling Kant. And i'm sure Kant would never willingly betray Bison, but could you imagine if he were forced - like seriously forced in some way? Scary thoughts, go away!

Fun fact - P'Jojo just turned 40! Also, daddy - please no LMAO. LITA anyone?

"I don't want to go anywhere without you anymore. You're my home, Kant." My heart is literally melting, especially as a directioner. Alexa, please play Home by One Direction!

The way Bison is hugging Kant and snuggling on him on that bed, while Kant blissfully closes his eyes - this looks like the wholesomeness that's been missing for them. Very cute, indeed. But also, cannot wait for Fadel to arrive with some drama.

Why so much Christianity in this series though? It is curious, especially coming from such a Buddist country.

Dunk is soooooooo cute. Also, he repaired the car ;) He is Harry Potter after all. Or they could have just stolen/taken a radiator.

Who is that guy though? For a moment there he looked like Phuwin, LOL. Probably Fadel's ex.

Still worried about Kant, eh? Now that's a good friend. "I can't guarantee that." // "Can't you at least lie to make me feel better?" I feel like Fadel is trying to prepare Style for the worst, since he knows his brother.

Of course, ha has to go shopping for clothes. It's important when you're HELD HOSTAGE AT GUNPOINT … well, technically.

"You sure make a lot of requests. You think we're on a road trip or something?" Exactly, Fadel! You have the gun, show him who's the boss around here. (BTW I say this while I also know they WILL go shopping for clothes.)

Aaand he immediately won the argument! Kudos to you, Style.

Oooh, look at Fadel talking big and scary, but also, OMG Joong -- so gorgeous while he looks at Style shopping.

Can you enter a store with a helmet on like that though? I don't think you can here where I live, but maybe in Thailand you can.

Ok, first thing first - Dunk would probably look good wearing anything because that shirt is so not my cup of tea. And second, yeah Fadel, have you been observing him? How do you know about the stripes?

But like, why would anyone want to kill Style? Unless it's still somewhat related to Fadel. So, yeah, they're onto Fadel. Style seems pretty scared of real guns though - not as sure about him secretly being familiar with guns.

"How should we fight him?" (Insert cute keyboard smash, which I cannot replicate) Man, I love that I get them as charaters so much and also that they're so consistent with their personality. They feel like real people. Also, Fadel's face while Style asks that -- he's like, you silly, how on earth could you possibly help in this situation?

And he was hit. Who is it? Who?? F*ck, he escaped. That helmet was on really tight. EDIT: I've seen later people pointing out the spider web tattoo. I don't recall anyone with that tattoo though. Also, tattoos are so prominent in this series, they feel like a character on their own.

Style trying to be strong for Fadel, while bleeding so much. It's kinda surprising how he deals with that wound.

"Someone just landed" … who could that be? Ahaha. My guess is Bison realized immediately who is it, so he's telling Kant to hide for safety. Mmh, ok, maybe not.

Where is their boat, though? Since apparently you can come here only on boat.

Fadel doesn't want Kant anywhere near Style. So protective of you, Fadel. And for the person you will just kill, now that you found Bison.

Oooh, Fadel's only scar. Well, with their job being what it is, I'm sure they had to learn these things. It's not like they can go to a hospital.

He's also holding his hand ……….. yeah.

PART 2 / 4

Fadel looks so angry with himself - because he forgot the extra bullets in the car, because he couldn't protect Style. He's taken the role of big brother for so long, it's an instict by now. And he failed with the one person deep down he never wanted to fail. It's okay, sweetie, Style is big and strong.

"Dead, my ass. Am i looking at a damn ghost, then?" // "Fadewwwww" … so brotherly coded, while also being assassins. I love this.

Bison daring him to kill Style too. Well, it's fair, right?

They're thinking Ruerat, their target? I mean, to them it must make the most sense. Ok, yeah, do make sure. It's important.

Joong and Khaotung as brothers, with Joong as big brother … it feels so real. I love seeing them together. And I know Bison envied Kant's relationship with Babe, but because of the age gap that relationship feels more parent/child while Fadel and Bison are truly brothers. He really has nothing to envy.

Also, Kant and Style's friendship, teasing each other - so cute. "The power of love, alright." Well, he was not wrong.

First on his quest to kiss ALL of GMMTV's actors … well, he almost added Dunk.

Oh, Style, your fond is showing. He's sooooo in love.

Ok, let's be honest. That first punch was at least a little bit deserved.

Oh, Bison's gun is on Fadel, not Style! Do you have a dying wish, Kant?! What are you saying?

I feel like Fadel, asking why should he trust Kant now, is now clawing at straws to find a valid enough reason to not actually have to kill Style. He doesn't want/never wanted to kill Style; Kant maybe, but never Style.

Also, this is the second time Style is crying. And this time is for them - FadelStyle. And he looks really scared here.

So much laundry though … do they really need all that? Aren't they like using 2 beds?

KantBison are sooooo cute together. Some alone time, now that trust is not an issue anymore? I'm just saying. We've had NC scenes for basically all the first episodes and then nothing, especially KantBison.

PART 3 / 4

Oooh, some back story of their early assassin days -- thank you, P'Jojo! I was really curious about this. So, they were only 3.

Training them since young, smart lady. Also, Keen missing a shot, really?! Novel spoiler ahead [in the novel Keen was a sharpshooter basically]

Ok, that shot in the black and white scene was kinda obviously fake, oops.

Well, we kinda knew it was mommy and Keen, but now we definitely know. I do wonder how Keen traced Fadel in that store though. Car maybe?

LOL, the mafia boss lady has to hire someone else to kill her killers. It is funny.

"Maybe the one we hired two years ago." F*ck f*ck f*ck. If this is what i've read someone guessing as the back story of that person (Fadel's ex BEING just another killer hired by mommy dearest) … man, my heart goes to Fadel. No wonder his trust issues.

Well, boss mom sure has some cutting words for Keen.

Oh, calling dad! Such a good son, Style.

"I know you're good at making up stories." // "Kinda sounds like an insult." LOL

Bison wasn't even with them … and he told Style everything that Style already lived through and learned himself about Fadel. Oh, Fadel, love is coming at you, whether you're ready or not. Have fun, sweetie!

Shoot, the car deal! It's finally out -- the whole truth. "What did you just say?" It's better now than later though, Fadel.

Yeah, between the 4 of them Style had it best. He still has his father, his police record is clean, he's so beautiful he could have anything and anyone he wanted. And he still chose Fadel, even after learning about his real job, even on the run from the police, even on the run from who knows who else. I love that Fadel gets to experience this kind of love, especially since his only other real alternative was mommy's "gift".

Also, sort unrelated to current happenings - that mole on Joong's upper shoulder/clavicle is so sexy.

It's the second letter I'm seeing these days in Thai BL. The first one was from Your Sky and I love how it ended between those characters, go AuauSave! What - list of extended family?! LMAO

"Words are cheap. I'm only worth as much as one car to you." I knew the car thing was important! Fadel is sulking so much about being worth just ONE car to Style LOL.

LMAO, oh Style. Why does this - Style forcing Fadel to accept him - remind me of 10 Things I Hate About You? It's been too long since I've seen it. Still, missing accomplished!

"If we weren't fighting, what would you like to do to me?" Style loves being loved by Fadel - see how he's waiting for Fadel to come kiss him? Also seeing JoongDunk kiss with Dunk's hand on Joong's throat and them basically eating each other out feels so familiar and lovely and comforting. They should always be kissing - on screen that is, I'm trying not to be delulu here.

Also, their lips were so pale. I think they were freezing in that water. Yes, I think this part needs to watched twice in a row … for science.

PART 4 / 4

The truth is Fadel and Bison have lived for so long outside of the law, it's no longer natural for them. Of course Bison needs his revenge, his satisfaction over killing the person who killed his parents.

If this were an American TV series, you would know for sure the whole life they're daydreaming about will never happen. The problem is that this drama is so American inspired, oops.

Oh, he's asking about that photo, look at them comunicating … so mature.

"Two-ish years" what?! That's a lot of time. And the 1-million-dollar question - "why did you break up?"

The ex knew about mother, so maybe also Fadel's real job? No, not the job, ok. But if Fadel and this guy were together for a couple of years-ish, then he couldn't have been the one mother and Keen were talking a while back. So, does this mean that the other hired assassin really killed Fadel's ex - well, technically still lover?

Fadel's ex looks and acts like the total opposite of Style - a shy blushing mess, very cute with those dimples, always pending on Fadel's every word. It feels like Fadel was totally a care taker with him. Compare this to Style, who forced his way into Fadel's daily routine; who had basically no-strings-attached sex with Fadel, got punched by him, and still came back for more the next morning; who challenges him regularly; who's so sexy and provocative and he knows it. Literally day and night.

Did Fadel really think he got ghosted after two years?! Seriously? By that kind of person, too? "Maybe he was scared of me, thinking I'd kill him if he broke up with me." LOL, anything to say, Style? Since we're sharing truths tonight apparently. On a more serious note, I think I can understand much better now Fadel in EP4, the morning after. He had done everything in his power to push Style aways from him, including punghing him in the stomach after having sex together. And the next morning Style did not show up, for the first time in who knows how many days. And Fadel kept looking and looking and asking people around. For a moment it felt like he'd accomplished scaring Style. And then came Style, no fear what so ever. Of course, Fadel got scared with how much relief he was feeling ... and had to punish himself and Style.

"Pew, pew, pew!" Local assassin having fun … while also doing theraphy for boyfriend with PTSD. "That's how it sounds when the shooter's cute." You're so freaking cute, Bison!

What's with them going into the water fully clothed, though?

Perfect aim, Style? C'mon! Brothers vs friends, soooooooo cute!

I feel like Style's optimism is catching on Fadel. If only it were that simple, sweetie. I still feel jail is not out of the question.

OMG, Kant that was sooo sneaky of you -- very well scripted, if it was.

Can we just ignore all the other problems and end it all here? "And they lived happily ever after. END"

Oh, this is First's voice, right? His solo song. I also need to listen to that.

And the preview for next week - the brothers want to keep their boyfriends safe until they solve their problems, fair. Is that Bison having trouble with someone, fighting? Shoot, Fadel's angry. And help is needed, ok.

Oh, Joong's song on the outro -- I love that song. Joong sang it live the other day and I've watched the video on twitter like a million times already.

[theannoyeddragon82]

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[fumifooms]

The Penny x Atticus agenda was furthered in the post game and I’m so happy. I’m making this rarepair from my own two hands screenshotting every second of interaction and smashing my keyboard if I have to! 

Until someone else finds a better name or something, I’ll call this ship SewnEevee shipping! Since Penny clearly has a fondness for eevee and wears that big plush backpack of hers, and one of Atticus’ main interest is sewing and clothes! You could make really cute headcanons with that too, hehe

Now, the whole “my greatest treasure” is a very obvious and intense profession of affection, but that’s with whole team Star, so. Why do I ship these two in particular? Easy, just look at the screenshots! Atticus has this formal and old-fashioned way of speaking and uses titles frequently, but lordship titles? If I’m not mistaken she’s the only person he uses lord and lady with, and it’s not a one time nickname either; he uses it for her thrice (the only times he adresses her while knowing her identity in the whole game) which suggests it is the way he’ll be referring to her from then on. Idk about you but it sounds very flattering and romantic to me, it’s not don or comrade or such else- she’s special in the way he adresses people. It’s not exactly a term for equals like comrade is, nor shows some hierarchy like calling her boss, it’s truly an honorific. And then, the first thing he says to her after discovering her identity is “you’re pretty m’lady”, like, everyone else is like, normal greetings or “wow it’s nice seeing you” (you can see the lines here) but him? He goes the extra mile to say her appearance/presence is pleasing or rejuvenating or whatever. It stood out so much in the moment I immediately started shipping them lol. Also “oh noble and kind big boss” to me sounds like an even larger amount of simping than the others’ way of talking about Cassiopeia too lol. On the other hand, you could say that Penny has an equal amount of affection and care for every team Star member, and that that affection is of the same nature for every one, but!! See the post game interaction there??! Indeed, brethren, thy eyes are not mistaken. She worries for him most!! You could say that’s not necessarily a good thing and you’d be right, but it does mean she has him on the brain and in a way she cares for him most/in a special way compared to the others. But ho, ho-ho oh no that is not all, for!!!!! She calls him handsome too!!!!!! She’s so shocked she jumps back and goes “no, focus!! He might get hurt stop looking at his pretty eyelashes!!”. Mate do you know how often they call characters pretty in Pokemon? Once in a red moon. In this game, it’s Rika, Tulip and then Atticus. Like, wow ok. They be crushing on each other highkey. I’m honestly shook at how high of a level they made it canon. Also! Penny gets three post custscenes with the other team star members, one is with Giacomo and Ortega, one with Mela and Eri, and the other one is with Atticus alone! Team Star has 5 members (Penny excluded) so of course they were going to need to cut it uneven, but still, Atticus is the one given more or less more importance here! Also!!! Atticus is the only one she doesn’t have a nickname for, she calls him by his full name!! Coincidence??! I think not! Omfg guys she breaks her nickname convention for him and he calls her his lady they’re so special to each other…

I just think they’d be good for each other, and cute together! Atticus obviously thinks highly of her and I can’t see why they wouldn’t get along swimmingly well when hanging out, especially if they share an interest like say plushies (and Penny could pirate animes for him for free and they could watch them together <3 because!! It’s mentioned that Penny likes binging them and Atticus is obvi into it, Naruto stan lol). They’re both introverted and are somewhat quiet, esp for Penny she’d enjoy his gentle and composed countenance more than the rowdier characters (which is canon esp if you look at the time they spent in Area Zero), and man. He’s so honest and direct and I think that she’d appreciate that a lot, seeming pretty blunt and no-nonsense herself. Also, he’s very capable of and confident about standing for himself and his friends, so I think once she realizes that more it’d ease her anxiety a bit. Atticus is just so gentlemanly and it’s highkey charming and idk she’s already a bit 😳 about him it wouldn’t take her much to full on pine imo. I wanna finish by saying: Some would call her judgy and mean for being worried for him bc he has an unconventional demeanor (and appearance) but I wanna reiterate that this is out of care and trauma from having been bullied herself: it’s being realistic, and she’s otherwise never shown any reluctance or dislike of his interests in the least so, there ain’t an argument to make here imo. Plus it literally got addressed and she set out to better herself on it, so.

[eoues]

##⠀ ⠀you can never trust anyone, not even your own best friend. thinking that this blind date would go smoothly like hu tao states, it didn’t. why? because the person she set you up with is currently your rival from college! and what’s even worse — he’s now the newest member of your favorite idol group 5KY! hopefully after this date you won’t see him anymore, right?

. ֺ۪ ⭒ ݂ CONTENT. enemies to friends to lovers, academic rivals to lovers, everyone is presumably 20-24, slight angst, fluff, mentions of drinking and smoking, cursing, slow burn, modern/college au, i use they/them for the reader, crack

. ֺ۪ ⭒ ݂ STATUS. jan 5 to, VERY slow updates, taglist is open! ON HOLD!

. ֺ۪ ⭒ ݂ NOTE. YAYA I FINALLY POSTED IT IM SO HAPPY!! anyways guys pls send me an ask or comment here if you want to be added to the taglist ‼️🔥 anything written will have a (‼️)

. ֺ۪ ⭒ ݂ IMPORTANT. most chapters will be smau. pictures, characters, etc do not belong to me, full full credits to its owners! again, very slow updates so pls be patient (this might be the only post i’ll try scheduling). reblogs are appreciated! most time stamps are completely off so just ignore them. this smau will contains lost of offensive language (nothing too bad), kms/kys jokes, etc so please be aware! some characters might even use tone indicators :)! also, lots of grammatical errors and lots of caps and smashing keyboard (i will try my best to proofread but i wont most of the time). titles, characters, chapters might change (since most isn’t that finalized lmao).

✦ ⠀⠀pookie bears / emo band / 5KY official acc

✦ ⠀⠀TABLE OF CONTENTS

one. where’s y/n???

two. want me to set up a blind?

three. big day for annoying people

four. i can trust her

five. hes so annoying

six. tba

✦ ⠀⠀TAGLIST! (if your user is in bold, it means i’m having trouble tagging you)

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[skips-is-asleep]

Everyone shut up this is trolls with autism part 2: fav stims/textures

These were getting really long so I may make a part 3 about comfort foods in a separate post

Aradia: obviously, her hair, she loves playing with it, braiding it adding things to it etc, but I bet when she was younger she was a Hair/shirt chewer and idk why but I feel like she'd also just like breaking things. Not smashing, but snapping pasta noodles, brittle bones, or sticks, that sort of thing. She has a chewy necklace, but it's not a tough grade one like Terezi needs. If she doesn't have something MEANT to be chewed, her shirts get holes in them. Also toe walker. Least favorite texture: when your hands have been wet for a really long time and your nails are all dried out

Tavros: he has jewelry that's for stimming, like bracelets with little spinny parts or that you take off and play with, but before that, it was rubber bracelets or hair ties that he'd never even use as intended. He has a fidget spinner and a pop socket too and you could pry them from his cold dead hands. Tavros is also very very good at shuffling cards because he just really likes the noise it makes when they all flutter together. Least favorite texture: course grade sandpaper

Sollux: pen clicking, leg bouncing, he fucks with his piercings even though he knows he's not supposed to. Often he doesn't even realize he's doing it until someone loses their mind at him for it and tells him to stop. Sometimes, if he can, he'll pull up a whole new word document/notepad and just start typing nonsense bc the act of typing on a keyboard or tapping on a screen just feels good. If anyone opened up one of these notepads, they'd just be random descriptions of what's around him or complete gibberish. Also see the link for other Sollux stim headcanons. Least favorite texture: every and all slimes

Karkat: Skin picking, absolutely, especially around his fingers. He copes by painting his nails and picking that off and it's saved his skin forever. But he also loves silicon toys, the little brush ones I mean, and anything meant to be taken apart and put back together, bonus points if it's those ones that make the little pop and click noises when you do so. Karkat also likes pop-its, yeah I said it, someone has to like them. Another link for more karkat (and more Sollux) headcanons Least favorite texture: metal + teeth

Nepeta: she's also a chewer, but she likes very hard things, nothing squishy. It's all bones, wood, plastic that kinda thing, her favorite is straws. She's also a big fan of messy crafts, like finger painting, getting her hands in the mud/shaving cream that kind of thing, she just likes being messy, making a mess but doesn't like cleaning it. Yeah and toe walking. Least favorite texture: tin foil

Kanaya: she doesn't sew AS a stim, but she does sew a really long running stitch, intentionally neglect to tie it off just so she can pull the thread out, insanely soothing to her. Also anything that's meant to be gently tapped against her face, like a makeup sponge or very soft rag is A++ Anything that jingles when she walks (jewelery but also heavily beaded fabrics) are perfect. She also loves running her nails over things, specifically tapping with them. Least favorite texture: burlap

Terezi: we've got another intense chewer. She sits right between aradia and Nepeta. They like hard things, but obviously hard as in crunchy. We knew they eat chalk but also ice, stale bread, that kind of thing, things meant to be eaten and crunchy. She's also the type to just draw all over herself with markers, the wet + cool sensation of markers going over skin is everything. least favorite texture: braille

Vriska: Hair, like moving it around/out of her hair constantly and dice. She plays with them, rolls them when theres no reason to, sometimes chews them but it's pretty rare and the oral fixation is only with dice. Idk what they're called, but the little game with the dice under the plastic dome and you push it and it pops the dice everywhere? Yeah. She also likes ripping/cutting paper a lot and will steal magazines to rip/cut them up. Least favorite texture: cotton balls

Equius: Equius is also a hair stimmer, softly brushing it. I think he *used* to hit himself in stressful situation but because he's so strong, that's obvi not an option anymore (that's why he has the battle bots) but he also just likes breaking things as in destroying them. In humanstuck, I think he regularly visits those places where you're put in a room with a bat just to smash old TV's and shit. Least favorite texture: rusty metal

Gamzee: definitely noise based stimming, his horns, little bells and squeaky toys, but also he loves just...watching wheels spin. Will sit for hours with his unicycle upside down watching the wheel go. Also beaded curtains. I think growing up on the beach, he'd also really like the texture of wet sand, touching it, walking barefoot on it, making imprints of it, that sort of thing. Least favorite texture: bugs with legs

Eridan: Spiny rings spiny rings spiny rings. At least half of his rings spin/click/or make some kind of noise, also just the sound of rings clinking on things is itself a stim. I think he likes those silicon brushes too, but he likes plucking them. Some of his books in his library aren't even meant to be read, he just will sit and turn the pages until he feels better. Idk if this counts a stim but I also think he copes by swimming to the deepest water he can stand and just laying there like a massive weighted blanket. Least favorite texture: wet paper

Feferi: hair, but also she has so many different fabrics in her outfit, they probably all have different textures that she likes touching. Feferi's a fan of squishy stuff, she likes slime, wet foods like puddings and jello. I'm sure they'd have slime that can be submerged in salt water, but above water she loves the very transparent jiggly slime. She also loves fucking with jelly fish and I bet she smacks the bulb on beluga whales for fun. Also assigned toe walker. Least favorite texture: concrete + bare feet

[smolla-than-a-bug]

tokrev boys with an s/o that likes to dress up

ft. takemichi, chifuyu, mikey, mitsuya, kokonoi

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content — gn!reader, koko gives v much sugar daddy/power couple vibes

notes — prompt from this post by @hoefordaddytoji ! IDK IF ITS A TUMBLR GLITCJ ON MY PHONE BUT WHY WERE THE BULLETPOINTS SO UGLY,,, anyway so i changed my hc format bc of that <\3 atp papayag na q maging kabet ni takemitchi sorry hina chz clout chasing lang loyal aq kay shinichiro mahal ko

-> TAKEMICHI is so embarrassed to be around you in public. Not because of you—no, never because of you—but because you’re always clean, creative, and styled to perfection while his outfits rank subpar on a good day. He knows you know it too. You’re just too polite to ever mention it, which he’s grateful for because it would for sure rip out a good chunk of what pride he has left.

He’ll spend hours upon hours just staring at his closet of poorly folded tees that basically have the same design and different colors of the same pair of shorts only to still not be ready to go by the time you arrive. When he asks you for your opinion, to help him out so he can match your level, you do the best you can to mix up an outfit specifically for him and maybe even take hum out shopping if it would make him feel better. (It would, and he’d happily carry all the shopping bags.)

You told him you’d find the perfect combo that encapsulates the “Takemitchi charm,” and it warms his heart seeing you rummaging through his things in such a focused manner because there’s nothing you’re more passionate about than fashion and lending a helping hand.

-> CHIFUYU is your personal hypeman and number one supporter! He is genuinely so in awe of the outfits you manage to put together because they each seem to be entirely unique from one another while at the same time highlighting your best features. Strike a few poses in front of him and you’ll notice the sparkles in his eyes.

Send a single picture of your outfit of the day, and not a minute later, he’s already spamming your phone with messages. Praising comments, various reaction pics with exaggerated heart eyes, emoji spams, and keyboard smashes—Chifuyu does it all, and he genuinely means them. If you send more than one picture without context, he already knows you can’t decide which one is better to post, and he suddenly feels an overwhelming sense of duty over his newfound responsibility. Of course, you look great in everything so it puts a bit of stress onto him, but he’ll puff out his chest and examine each photo carefully and pick out which one is best.

Ask him to take your photos! (He’s itching to take hundreds.) He’ll stretch and squat just to get the perfect angle, and he’ll act like a real professional photographer, tipping you on how to work your shoulders and praising you for every pose. Expect him to snap lots of pictures of you when you’re not looking though.

-> MIKEY doesn’t care what you wear as long as you’re happy, but he knows that not everyone has a kind attitude towards style enthusiasts, which especially applies to bitter elderly folk. He has told you to “Dress however you like. I can fight.” before and will say it again on the occasion that you become discouraged due to spiteful looks or comments from others. In public, it’s like you’re this big-shot celebrity and he’s like your civilian boyfriend (and low-key bodyguard).

His most functional love language is protecting his loved ones, and that includes your mental and emotional state. Usually, an empty stare from him does the trick of scaring the judgy eyes away, but some people are persistent. If it ever goes past the staring, you can bet Mikey will be up and out of his chair in a heartbeat, menacingly asking the perpetrator/s “Is there a problem here?”

But apart from that, it really gets to him when he sees you so proud of yourself, so happy and cheerful. He’ll let you drag him around from store to store when you go shopping together, but ultimately, he’d prefer walking behind you so he can watch over you entirely. And when he does this, he gets to see you purely in your element. He doesn’t ever realize it, but the way his expression softens and his smile is one of content is something everyone can see.

-> MITSUYA is the one you go to for a second opinion. He knows color theory, of course he’d know a fit that does or doesn’t work. If you ask him, he’ll give you a detailed response too. Constructive criticism is the way to go, and he always has his own suggestions to achieve the style you want if you’re having difficulty. But he won’t say anything unless you ask him to because if it works for you, then it works!

Got a problem with one of your pants? Mitsuya’ll take care of it. He’d volunteer to tailor your clothes and fix them the exact way you want it. Why would you need to pay to tailor your clothes when you can have him do it in exchange for kisses instead? You can trust him. He’ll only make the best fixes for you. Maybe in a future where he grows up to be a fashion designer, you can work in tandem with him. He’s already blushing at the thought of a future with you.

One thing he loves about your enthusiasm for clothes, other than the fact that you work so well together, is that Mana and Luna are just as eager to see you. They always get so excited about the different colors of your pants and the intricate designs on your blouses. They light up so fast whenever they know you’re gonna spend some time with them, and Mitsuya can’t love you enough for it.

-> KOKONOI likes to sit back and watch the show. We know the guy is loaded, and what better to spend all his hard-earned cash than on you? He loves how you’re always up for a shopping spree, for he earns to spend. He likes giving you bundles of cash or his black card because he likes that it’s being put to use, and his pride only grows because it’s you and you know that he knows he’s never going to have trouble with money.

It’s sort of like a victory show for him when he has you model the new items in your collection from your most recent shopping trip funded by him. He’ll be sitting back on the sofa with a leg crossed over the other, eyes watching you above the rim of his glass as you give him a 360 of your outfit. He doesn’t bother hiding the fact that he’s checking you out. Why should he? You look amazing, and you should know that. (But only from him. If he catches another pair of eyes on you, it’s on sight.)

He’ll dress up to match, too. Who doesn’t love a coordinated couple? Once, Koko caught a Tiktok user, who films strangers’ everyday streetwear, with a camera pointed directly at you both. He smirked before staring directly at the camera, moving an arm on your waist to pull you close, almost possessively. He leaned down to whisper into your ear, letting you know you’re being filmed, only for the cameraman to be greeted with both of your fierce gazes as you walked by.

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[active-mind-15]

Thanks for the tag! Here's my bingo card for you. I got bingo in like 4 different directions, LMFAO.

And just like you, I'll elaborate on all the boxes I crossed off. Since you said I'm new to you, I'll try and give you as much info as I can on my personal writing experience. I think I'll go row by row for this, starting from the left side.

-When I first started writing, I was on Fanfiction.net. I still have that account and recently updated a fic on there (Accidental Siblings), but I still gotta get back to/clean up some of my other old fics on there.

-Yep, still got an AO3. I cross-posted some of my FFN fics there, but now more than half of the works there are AO3-exclusive.

-I distinctly remember beta-reading for a friend back in the day, but it was so long ago I don't even remember what the fic was called. First and only time I beta-read, though.

-All of my fics are un-beta'd. We die like men.

-The very first fic I ever wrote was basically a self-insert even though I tried to play it off like it wasn't. It was a Pokémon fic that I wrote when I was like 15. But eventually, as time went on, I thought it was too cringey and deleted it off not only FFN but my hard drive, too. I couldn't even show the fic to you if I wanted to. It's gone for good 😭. There was also another fic of mine that I wrote soon after deleting my first one, which is a KNB episodic style one-shot collection that is nothing but self-indulgent. I still need to clean that one up, though, so I won't share it just yet.

-Keyboard smashing is what I do. More so on Twitter, but if I see something that really just causes me to go crazy then imma show it. If it's a fic that I really like, I'll also write a big ass essay in the comments about all the things I like about it.

-Oh yeah, there have been multiple occasions where I wanted to leave kudos, but I apparently already had. Some works are just that good.

-Not only is Fluff most of what I read, but it's most of what I write as well. Fluff is a BIG part of my works because I don't do well seeing people suffer. Especially since a lot of my early works were Akashi-centric. I was tired of seeing this boy be miserable, so I was like, "Why can't we just have a story where he's not miserable for once?" and so I wrote it. I enjoy the warm feelings I get inside when someone gets the love and affection they deserve, whether that's platonic, romantic, or otherwise. This is also why I'm a sucker for Hurt/Comfort fics, too.

-The M/M I wrote was more of an unfinished premise, but I just wanted to try writing romance for once since I never do. But idk if I'll ever expand on what I wrote because I have no thoughts about where I would take that plot, and I'm also busy with other stories.

-I do believe fanfiction is a legitimate genre and is an integral pillar of literature. It deserves its flowers.

-As stated in my bingo card, I write mainly for KNB and BTS. My BTS stuff is more popular, though, for reasons I'm sure are obvious to you.

-The amount of research that goes into some fics of mine is actually kind of insane. Some of it involves Google searches that I hope the FBI isn't looking at, and the other part is watching things related to the topic at hand. Like for Accidental Siblings, my research on the behaviors of children for that fic led me to watch a British ongoing docuseries called 'The Secret Life of 4, 5, and 6-year-olds' just to see the kinds of things kids that age did and talked about. It's a genuinely good program, too. I'd recommend it.

-I ALWAYS keep an outline for writing. I actually have notebooks for all the fics I write. It's usually one fic to one notebook, unless it's one-shots. Then I do multiple one-shots to one notebook. Whenever I have chapter outlines to write or miscellaneous world-building I want to make note of, I just write it down. And then, when the time comes to write a chapter, I look back at my notes. Usually, my outlines are just chronological bullet points of events I want to happen in the chapter. Sometimes, I may write down specific dialogue I want to use or specific details I want to make mention of. And then when I get to writing the chapters, it's simply going by the outline and then filling in the blanks with my imagination.

-I don't "anxiously" wait for feedback these days, but back then, I was FEENING for attention. Comments on my work would make me so happy. They still do! But since I update very sporadically, I understand that I may not get feedback as often as I used to. And that's fine! When it comes to fics, I'm fairly intrinsically motivated. So even if I get no feedback, I won't stop putting my work out there.

-Back when I was updating for Accidental Siblings more frequently, @clubakashi, whose fanart inspired me to make the pic, ended up drawing Akashi and baby Bokushi and then posting it! There were also people submitting to them too talking about their own headcanons for the fic, which was cool to see.

-I have several unpublished stories and even more unfinished ones. I think I have 6 fics that are still ongoing. The rest are one-shots. But I have a few unfinished new fic ideas in my USB that have yet to be released to the public.

-I'm a perfectionist by nature, so editing and formatting is always a grueling experience because I care too much about little details that nobody will even notice/care about.

-I always get ideas in the middle of the night. Especially because I sometimes like to role-play scenarios in my head to see if they'd work in my fics. I may even go as far as physically acting something out or saying a line of dialogue to see if it would fit.

-My ongoing fics are the ones that receive the most attention, but my one-shots are what I hope would get more attention because I still worked hard to write them. Both for BTS and KNB.

But yeah, I think I elaborated on all of my points. I hope you were able to get to know me better through this bingo sheet! Thanks again for the tag! 💜

I felt implicitly tagged by @lilypheria. Here's the template too.

It may seem like I only write KnB these days but I don't consider myself to be done with my SPOP comics yet.

Tagging all my writer friends but I'm going to mention @active-mind-15 because you're kind of new to me. But I really want to hear about all my writer mutuals and followers. By the way if you've written one unfinished fic or tried to start to write your ideas but can't, or haven't written for years, or have any other struggle that makes you feel invalid, you count as a writer.

Going to elaborate under the cut because I felt like it.

My old account was FinFanFun, a Finnish site I used mostly for reading Facebook wall fics about that which should not be named.

AO3 is where I publish my KnB fics though I've considered branching out to see if there's still some fandom corners I haven't reached.

I'm slowly introducing myself to writing smut but the only story I've published has been called mild and soft smut or smut-ish, and I doubt the rest will be much different.

I frequently beta-read for friends, though fanfiction is the minority.

I used to have two beta-readers but they're unable to do it anymore so all my fics rely solely on me for now, which makes me really anxious sometimes. I am pretty desperate for a new beta-reader so if KagaKuro and a million words of "homework" doesn't frighten you, please jump into an adventure with me!

All my fics are self-indulgent in that they're what I want to see play out in the story. They are not personal fantasies, or necessarily what I want to see in real life, but it's what I envision for these characters.

I'm always reading old favourite fics again and I need to branch out actually.

If I'm in need of a short fic to read I will probably pick fluff.

Have written m/m and f/f (and m/? and m/f) but honestly it's weird to put them in the same category when m/m is so overrepresented.

I'm not actually sure if I consider fanfiction as a genre or rather a medium, because all genres exist inside fanfiction. Medium is probably more true but I seem to have checked it anyway because I feel like the point here is whether fanfiction is valid literature and that it is.

I don't know if two fandoms with one being dormant would be considered multifandom so maybe no.

I do anxiously wait for feedback since I'm very community oriented but I'm also very introverted and internally motivated so the lack of it doesn't discourage me. I have patience and I can wait for connection for years and years. Not that lack of connection doesn't affect me, of course it does, but giving up is just a very antithetical concept to my beliefs and life.

I have one on-going long KnB story and one unfinished She-Ra fic that is waiting for a better time. Which is an exception since I tend to finish what I start before moving on.

Editing fanfiction is actually not as bad as editing original fiction because I put much less pressure on myself, partially because you can always edit your fic again.

Always listening to hours long conversations in my head between characters when I'm trying to sleep. They're really bad at shutting up and I'm supposed to remember this stuff in the morning?

I was mildly drunk for ten days straight to write Anything Can Happen. Haven't done that since but it was really fun.

My main KnB storyline gets most of my attention. It's just my thing, I pour everything into it.

I didn't check 'wants to be a professional writer' because after three traditionally published books I consider myself to be that already. I actually went the other way around than seems to be the norm: I was an original fiction writer first and then branched out to fanfiction in my twenties. I can see it greatly affects how I write fic, and it's probably the main reason I feel like a bit of an outsider.

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First, i love your blog! Second, this fandom really loves angst huh! I wanted to request something along the lines of R x lena, where reader finds out/thinks kara has feelings for Lena, and that Lena will leave her once she finds out. BUT, lena doesnt, she stays and chooses R (which I feel like never happens in this angsty requests haha) thanks!!

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Summary: Y/N has some insecurities after finding out that Kara likes her girlfriend, Lena. Lena is there to reassure her.

Authors Note: Thank you and thanks for requesting!

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Y/N had been involved in the DEO after since she was little, with her father being an agent there, and throughout all her years, nothing and no one was able to throw her off course.

Until Lena came along.

As soon as she saw the tall, dark brunette with thick red lipstick, enter the room and instantly take charge, for the first time in her career, Y/N was severely distracted. Despite the paperwork she was filling out and how determined she had been to finish, Y/N found herself unable to keep her eyes locked on her computer, and instead her gaze trailed after the dashing woman.

Every time Lena neared her desk, Y/N found herself frozen in her seat, the thoughts vanishing from her head and being replaced by fluffy clouds of nothing-ness, only able to concentrate on Lena’s lovely perfume. 

It seemed that she wasn’t doing a very good job of hiding her newfound crush (not that she was actively trying to hide it), because when the DEO had Lena assemble a team of agents to help her with her research, Alex had eagerly suggested Y/N to be one of the agents in that group. 

The moment she heard her name her palms slapped down on the keyboard in surprise and her head popped up, eyes frantic to adjust to whatever she was now being involved with. “Huh?” Was her ‘elegant’ response. 

Alex did not bother to conceal her smirk. “Y/N, you’re going to be apart of Lena’s team,” she said, and when Lena gracefully turned to her, lips curling into a big smile, Y/N felt butterflies swarm her stomach, bouncing around inside. 

The rest was history: by the end of the week, Lena had asked Y/N out on a date, and by the end of the month, they were dating. Y/N had Alex to thank for their relationship and it only strengthened her already close friendship with Alex and, by extension Alex’s younger sister, Kara - also known as Supergirl. 

When Lena and Y/N had gotten more serious, Kara revealed that she was Supergirl, and the couple began going to Kara’s superfriends game nights. 

Their relationship was blooming and Y/N had never been at a happier time in her life. A wonderful, committed girlfriend, a steady job she loved, and amazing and supportive friends. Everything was going great, so when Y/N started to notice Kara hanging out with Lena more and more often, she was in a blissfully ignorant state and did not notice what was actually happening. 

Well, she didn’t notice at first, but when she was going to drop off some papers with Alex who had been training with Kara at the moment, she overheard the sisters’ conversation just before she walked into the room. 

“Alex, I just don’t know what to do.”

“You don’t do anything, Kara . . . I mean, Lena is in love with Y/N.” 

“I know, I know, it’s just so hard seeing them together! Honestly, I think I may be in love with Lena . . .” 

Y/N stopped listening at that point, and instead turning around on her heels, dropping the paperwork on Alex’s desk before sinking into her own seat. She absentmindedly checked her email, not focusing as a gloomy cloud settled in her stomach, almost causing nausea.

As she begin to recall the past couple weeks, Y/N internally facepalmed. It had been so obvious! With how Kara constantly stood next to Lena, found excuses to touch her arm or her hand, laughed at everything she said, and constantly complimented her.

How had she not noticed? And more importantly — how did Lena not notice?!

Shit, did Lena notice?

No, that was silly . . .

But she had to - it was clear as day!

Did she . . . Why didn’t she stop it?

Did she enjoy it?

Did she feel the same way?

Shit, shit, shit!

A feeling of dread overcame and smashed her previous happiness like a large and powerful wave crashing onto a beach. Y/N forced herself to take deep breaths as her mind went into a frenzy, trying and failing to come up with some other reasonable explanation for this.

But she couldn’t convince herself of any other one, so for the next couple days, her behavior had changed drastically. Y/N kept to herself, only spoke when someone was directly speaking to her, and had done her best to avoid Kara and Lena — which was difficult since she lived with Lena.

When the girlfriends were spending their weekend night at their home, Lena finally had a change to confront Y/N.

“Y/N, can I ask you something?”

Y/N’s eyes were trained on the television screen which was showing a movie they had both seen a thousand times. She made no indication of having heard her girlfriend.

“Y/N.”

It took a few moments, but finally her eyes slowly moved away from the team, yet it didn’t meet Lena’s eyes. “Sure,” she murmured.

“There’s something wrong, Y/N, I can tell. Can you tell me what it is?”

The next seconds were agonizingly slow.

“N-nothing is wrong.”

“Y/N, please, I just want to help,” Lena persisted.

Another agonizing couple of seconds.

“Please don’t leave me for her.”

A loud sob left Y/N’s parted lips as she curled forward, wrapping her arms around herself, dipping her head and trembling.

Lena had not expected this and sat up, drawing her eyebrows together. “What? For who?” She demanded, and bit her lip as she hadn’t intended to be so, well, demanding.

“K-Kara. She likes you. And she’s been showing it for weeks and you haven’t stopped her. I-I can’t compete with Supergirl,” Y/N sniffled.

Lena blinked, processing this. After a couple moments, the only sound filling the air being the dull T.V and Y/N’s sniffs, Lena moved closer to her girlfriend.

“No, Y/N, Kara cannot compete with you,” Lena corrected softly.

Y/N slowly picked her head up, and when she turned her head to face her girlfriend, the brunette saw how puffy and red her eyes were.

Lena continued. “I’m so sorry, Y/N, I didn’t notice that she liked me at all - I swear. And I don’t return her feelings. I only love you.”

Y/N’s trembles stopped. “Really?” She asked, and when Lena nodded she happily gasped and then added, “Oh, Len, I’m sorry for thinking that you would like her — I just love you so much and I don’t want to lose you.”

Lena shook her head. “Don’t apologize. You have nothing to apologize for,” she said, before thinking and then leaning forward, locking Y/N’s lips with a kiss, which she gladly returned.

The couple continued on their night, snuggling and trying a movie that none of them had watched before. They fell asleep on the couch, Lena’s arms wrapped around Y/N.

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