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jojo-the-puppy · 4 days ago

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i think i haven't been this alone in my whole life, wow, like i think this is the year that i do it, i just need to figure out how

#i keep forgetting my meds sort of in an attempt to make em last bc i am Running Out #and don't have any more money so i can't buy em rn #and boy oh boy is my mental health taking a turn for the worst!#i wanna erase my whole online identity and then die #like for real die #even if i deleted my tumblr my fansly and my discord like #how many ppl who supposedly care about me would notice?#none #they don't even notice me when i try to reach out #like I'm here actively asking for help bc i cant take it #and they ignore me #while i never did #it hurts to see the ppl you were there for at their worst act like you don't exist #and ignore you when you actually need them #so why try #i should just end things #they won't have to purposefully ignore me anymore #and i won't be in pain ever again #win win #ignore me I'm suicidal and considering so many extremes #none of u can help me #and the ones who could won't #so whateverrrrr #delete later

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my-mt-heart · 1 year ago

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Their chemistry is a fucking goldmine. Nothing else comes close.

#so why try #caryl #carol peletier #melissa mcbride #darylneedscarol

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sweetdreamspootypie · 11 months ago

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Trying to take and enjoy the opportunity to achieve an adulting milestone goal of mine

But being confronted by the fact that doing so inherently involves my parents are participants and witnesses so regardless of how much or little I try or care, the only guarantee is criticism, with anything I'm proud of going entirely unnoticed and disregarded as unimportant

So

Hard to muster the motivation for the effort

When the internal voice is just "why bother, nobody gives a shit" (except me) (so why put myself in that position) (because the point of the goal is to move beyond the past limitations imposed by my parents) (growth is a really annoying process) (hey at least I know H's mum will say something nice)

#Ventpost #I am tired but still need to do things #If it's worth doing at all I don't wanna do it half-assed #Bc that will just prove my parents right #Don't want to give them reason #But it's hard looking around and know regardless of how much I do actually genuinely try #There is always going to be something for them to notice as my failure #So why try #Again #Because I want to #But #And thus the circle continues #My life #Using Tumblr as a diary #I need to write a real diary #I forget so much #I want to remember that we do things together

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rubarb69 · 1 year ago

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Theres something so special about cutting your own hair; maybe it is uneven and choppy, and maybe it does frame your face poorly. But its still uniquely yours. Self actualization or something

#poetry #something about trans joy #maybe #idk #only you have to wake up with yourself every day #be happy with who that person is #plus. the choppy at-home look is in.... right?#and like if you say you slay and serve then you will. even if your hair is a botched mess #infact it might add to it #its a silly goofy element #ive spent my whole life being considerate #being palatable #and even still #people are disgusted by me #so why try #why not be myself 100% of the time #if people are gonna call me a freak i might as well put on a show

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butchfalin · 1 year ago

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

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zytes · 1 year ago

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this manatee looks like it’s in a skyrim loading screen

#lol good luck finding all of the photoshopped versions in the rb history. ‘manatee restored’ is still my favorite of all time #misc #I encourage anyone dyslexic to try rotating him in your mind. I can’t do that; which is why I’m asking you to.#also: a bunch of tags are surprised this isn’t ‘shopped #it’s the lighting. backlit by the sun (which is diffused through the water) but also forelit artificially #the artificial light - a flash pack or something - casts a hard shadow under the creatures arm #which normally wouldn’t be possible if backlit by the SUN; you’d see a less-hard/more-fragmented shadow above water #as light sources ‘compete’ in a sense - and since there aren’t any light sources which can outshine the literal sun #it looks a bit weird when the darkest shadow is being cast from any other origin point - which is what’s essentially happening here #I don’t know the mechanics of how light travels through water; but I know the effect is substantial even with relatively short distances #also: it’s been balanced and color corrected by the author of the photo - who made deliberate choices to bring out the full potential #so it’s not like it’s a fresh and untouched export #but the kind of ‘tacked on’ appearance of the creature is a result of the lighting conditions within the image

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donnieisaprettyboy · 7 months ago

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can we stop pretending like it’s so super easy for trans men to pass. “oh just put on a baggy shirt and cut your hair-“ it literally doesn’t work like that and I refuse to believe you actually think it’s that easy

#I do as much as I can pre t and I still get misgendered constantly #it’s to be expected and I understand #but I wish people would stop making it out like it’s so easy to pass #bc it’s not!#and when you talk about how easy it is it a) makes people feel like they must not be trying hard enough and that’s why they don’t pass #and b) undermines the difficulties experienced by trans men #trans #lgbtq #ftm #trans man #transgender #transmasc #transgender man #trans pride #donnieisaprettyboy #ftm problems

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soothedcerberus · 1 year ago

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Does anybody remember Dragon Tales? 🥺

#pbs kids #dragon tales #nostalgia #my art #artists on tumblr #sketchbook #watercolors #doodle #was my third fav show on the network next to sagwa and clifford #insects #bugs #i went through like 7 pages trying to draw cassie lol no idea why she was so hard to get down

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napping-sapphic · 4 months ago

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take your clothes off and get on the bed what no we aren’t having sex right now we’re cuddling and pressing every inch of skin together as close as possible for the next six hours

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #sometimes you just need to be CLOSE ya know #also i went to bed really early last night and slept So Well #and i just woek up and im still realllll sleepy #which is why i seized the chance to post this #because i get too shy and embarrassed to whenever i try to do it when im not half asleep #pointign and laughing at fully awake me rn🫵#lmao loser ass🫵🫵🫵#now it’s posted and there’s nothing you can do about it #im gay and i like sleeping

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kawareo · 1 month ago

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My only new year's resolution is to leave more comments on AO3

#i know i am writing pretty much solely to get a response atp #like sure i write cause i want to but i wouldnt be bothering to post if i would be screaming into the void yknow?#so why not try and pay that feeling forward #ao3 #ao3 comments

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gibbearish · 1 year ago

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love when ppl defend the aggressive monetization of the internet with "what, do you just expect it to be free and them not make a profit???" like. yeah that would be really nice actually i would love that:)! thanks for asking