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[gripping the sink] perfectionism does not help me avoid embarrassment or shame. perfectionism is in itself a form of shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame

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yall are def the weirdos here for looking at a picture of kids you drew and unprompted going "but what if people think they fuck"

Usually I don't answer these kind of asks but this is such a funny thing to say unprompted. The cool thing about being an artist with free will is that as your art takes shape you might notice certain themes stand out and choose whether to explore them or not. Is thinking about incest in the context of 2 codependent dehumanized brothers in an isolated military environment so far fetched? I clarified that wasn't my intent because as the OP I would handle it differently if it was- tagging and such- because these are serious subjects and I always label direct subject matter for those who want to avoid a theme or topic or depiction. That's still the only thing I worry about being misconstrued. Sorta fascinated by your implication that considering how people interpret my art means I'm a secret incestual COCSA fan or something it must suck to be that paranoid

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wrong inside

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at the end of the day i think the online digital artist community has for a very long time operated on a set of like unspoken handshake rules generally enforced by social pressure which (despite being positioned on a moral & pseudolegal plane) have very little overlap with what is legal or illegal (de facto or de jure) but which have Everything to do with figuring The Artist as a universal would-be petit bourgeois auteur, reflected through these rules' emphasis on (1) the moral necessity of The Artist's unwavering & eternal power over their own art (& its reception) as articulated via informal pseudo-IP mechanisms (no reposting, dont tag as me/kin/id, dont use as your pfp, dont draw my oc), (2) the moral mandate toward Constant Self-Improvement (generally meaning adopting more of the conventional signifiers of "Good Art" eg realism) (admonition of "tracing" even for practice, artists who do things that are "not conducive to improvement" being fair game for mockery), & (3) attempting to induce in observers (often through guilt) a social pressure to further the ambitions of such artists ("you need to reblog/share, not just like", "you MUST commission 1 million artists immediately", "it's rude to express anything other than praise for any piece of art")

like these all (in tandem with SEO etc) boil down to attempting to lay the groundwork for an imagined future state of self-employment emanating out of one's (semi-)hobbyist artistry (& to obstruct anything perceived as interfering with that fantasy or its actuation). it's sort of like hiring a team of accountants on the assumption that youre going to win the lottery someday, like if it were in another context we'd effortlessly recognize it for the meritocratic grindset shit that it is. & none of this is even remotely conducive to the production of good art lmao

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people have been tagging this as cad bane and sure that can be cad bane but that was supposed to be a random zabrak smuggler. I thought it would be funny if his hat is stuck on cause of the horns

there's actually a cigarette quota for 12 year olds on nar shadaa

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there's actually a cigarette quota for 12 year olds on nar shadaa

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computer should I finish and post the slightly absurdist boba fett and aurra sing comic I started or will it look like I think child abuse is funny. computer I need answers

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𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐑 𝐁𝐀𝐃𝐆𝐄𝐒 [𝟏/𝟑]

In a competition, what matters mostly is the end goal—to achieve the highest prize possible for the sake of glory and pride. But what's often overlooked are the countless small contributions that would enable one party to make it there. Hence in Delta Squad Week, we also celebrate Creators who've dedicated their time and work of mind to complete 6 prompts at most!

Ruus'alor means 'sergeant' in the Mandalorian tongue; a person bestowed with the responsibility of leading a squad, like our own Sergeant RC-1138, by all means a leader and coordinator of the smallest unit in an army. Small, yet valuable. Congratulations for your badge, troopers!

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beyond anything else the number 1 reason why I think making my digital drawing a career would kill me is having to censor and curate my art social media for market interests. the idea of having to make everything clean and organized and Product and Hireable fills me with alien dread. I see a cute corporate-ish comic about an art studio internship with that goldilocks "just enough style to be distinctive but not too much to be uncommodifiable" art style and promptly feel like throwing up. idk there's probably something wrong with me

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i really really love your mereel okay thats all have a great day <3

thank you!! I will try 🫡

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and ofc the plain version

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proud?

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he's been on the holonet too much...

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this is only taking so long because I insist on accurate blood spatter. guh

this painting shit is so much work

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once i beat the depression and the burnout and the anxiety and the loneliness and the exhaustion and the guilt and the awkwardness and the apathy and the low income and the chronic illness and the impatience and the vulnerability and the creative block and the capitalism and the cruelty THEN you'll see

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in some aspects tumblr users see a like but no reblog in the same way a business sees piracy as lost income

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this painting shit is so much work