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#central election ballot counting ongoing rn and it's so fucking funny#the ruling party is nationalistic + right wing and they won by a massive majority last term and they got too cocky#tenfold the Islamophobia and shit. oh and in the recent campaign the PM spoke about how he's 'sent by god himself to fulfill his mission'#i wish i was kidding... there's a bbc article on this#well yeah. so the opposition formed a coalition bloc for this election. and right now the difference in votes are *this* close#this is despite the nasty games in politics like vote buying and arresting people in opposition and kicking them out of parliament#they made some massive religious issue recently as a part of their political propaganda too but THEY LOST IN THAT AREA THIS TIME#god. the citizens are fucking tired of their shit. good for them#ngl the opposition isn't great either. and a coalition full of conflicting interests would mean an unstable government w no strong leader#so we're fucked either way#but glad to know democracy is alive and well in this country#this has been entertaining. the markets are crashing so i invested quite a bit on stocks lmao#megumi in the tags#indian elections#indian elections 2024#desi tag
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the lovers, reversed
(aka I'm still freaking out about Jou)
#art#ride kamens#i am about to go off on wild speculation so excuse me in advance#I HAVEN'T PLAYED THE EVENT YET so this could all be just absolutely nothing but i gotta get it out#(still debating if i wanna save the event for after i finish part 2 or not...)#this is my last chance to throw wacky theories out there okay#i've just. been thinking a lot about the riders the characters are based on and how they relate to their different classes#like the choices seemed SO random when they were first revealed but they do mostly make sense when you think about it#to the point where i actually do feel like i should've been able to call ooo for ambition. damnit.#however i did always feel like jou was a bit of an outlier and now i'm wondering if that's gonna be like...a thing#idk man just the fact that he's gonna have a special double card and bond henshin with taiten is nuts to me#especially since we're clearly on the verge of SOMETHING happening with soun and uryuu#what does it mean. WHAT DOES IT MEAN#what does this mean for the future of tower emblem#and it hasn't escaped me that there is no class associated with evolution (YET)#and thinking about who jou is based on i'm just like#(waves hands) YOU KNOW?!#(plus i'm still like WHAT DOES THIS MEAN FOR RUI AND HAYATE but that's a separate thing)#i'm gonna try and take my time and not rush through part 2 but i also am SO impatient#i gotta knooooow#given the way my predictions tend to go though i'm either 100% accidentally right about the dumbest thing#or jou is fine but leon fucking dies or something and i'm gonna throw my phone into a lake#HAVE FUN GUYS I GUESS
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the least they could do is make the next "oh no he's talking to other girls and i can't trust him to not cheat" storyline interesting and raise the severity of her behavior. we're all planning to root for her even if she murders at this point why not tie it in to the girl-on-girl hate too. perfect fandom-writers compromise
#like fuck's sake we're tired of this rigamarole either STOP IT or DO SOMETHING WITH IT FOR ONCE#IF THE WRITERS ARE SO OBSESSED WITH MAKING HER FUCK UP JUST SHOOT FOR THE MOON AT THIS POINT#but they never take risks! that's the whole thing with them! always the safest most cliche route FUCKING possible#anyway. they could not get me to care about the disabled girl in any way shape or form regardless.#and if cripples like me would care less if marinette beat blondie over the head with her own prosthetic clearly something is up#their track record representation-wise is just so vapid and soulless. because--again--they always play it obnoxiously safe#ml s6 spoilers#ml season 6#sillynette#miraculous marinette#marinette dupain cheng#mlb marinette#miraculous#wissym doodles
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jayvik canon so sayeth sir harry lloyd our greatest jayvik warrior
#jayvik#I LEAVE TO TAKE A SHOWER AND HARRY WAXES POETIC ABOUT HOW THEY HAVE THE CLOSEST RELATIONSHIP TWO HUMANS ARE CAPABLE OF#AND THAT THEY COULD BE LIVING IN A COTTAGE BY A STREAM POST CANON. OK#no but. truly. he described them so beautifully it was incredibly moving. and we fucking know he's under NDA so like. knowing that#he gave us everything#nothing never happens in this fandom. jayvik the loooong way. we're so getting smth for either june or november#'soul partners' 'could be married with four beautiful adopted children' OK#and reed chiming in in the comments with 'long story short jayvik canon' BRO HOW DOES IT FEEL TO WIN SO MUCH
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Okay but do you think the people who were really close to odysseus during the Trojan war had a running bet for when odysseus claimed to have a vision from Athena if it was true or not? Because half the time he was just lying about that.
#the iliad#greek mythology#Odysseus#Then lying odysseus said “I'll tell you the truth”#He did have a lot of visions /being possessed by Athena moments that's true#But had an equal amount of moments where he was just straight up lying because a. They weren't listening to him#B. They were being stupid annoying#C. He felt like it#D. For a personal vendetta to get revenge on one of his comrades#This is a big part of why I'm headcanoning eurylochus thinking ody was lying about being athenas student in my precanon stuff#The other commanders (plus euro and polites) having bets on if this vision was real#Diomedes is judge because he's also in contact with Athena but what the others have not realized#Is that diomedes is also a shit head and does not have many opportunities to get back at his bullies#So while he does get confirmation from Athena he does just also straight up lie to the others to suit his own agendas#And nobody was more than mildly offended by odysseus doing this because unlike everybody else's visions (excluding dios)#It was generally the right call to make and the gods actually imparting wisdom instead of fucking with them to be dicks#And if it wasn't it was generally of either a. No consequences either way or b. Still the right strategic call#Everybody after odysseus had them reorder the camp to frame that one guy and then took way to much pleasure in stoning him to death:#So he made up that vision from Athena right? He definitely did that just to kill this guy yes?#Agamemnon: obviously but while we all liked that guy better odysseus is the better strategic so we're going to let it slide
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okay maybe a hot take but like. people going "spirk is canon now omg!!!" after that short film that just dropped - you do realize that like. it's not any more canon than it has been for like, forever, right?
they held hands and watched the sunset together. big whoop.
yes vulcans have a whole hand-holding thing, but like. kirk and spock have held hands before, this is not? any different? than any of that???
like people are out here screaming "OMG SPIRK IS CANON AFTER 57 YEARS" guys if holding hands and staring into each other eyes while the music swells is good enough to call it "canon" then spirk has been canon since the motion picture came out in 1979.
#to be clear: it was fine!#but like. this didn't 'make spirk canon'#either it's already been canon for like FORTY YEARS#or it's not actually canon#either way this short film didn't change anything?#so i don't know why people are freaking out#spirk#star trek#not tagging the hate rn#the thing with 'canon' is that it has to be UNDENIABLE#gene roddenberry literally invented a word so that spock could call kirk his lover without actually saying 'lover'#KIRK LITERALLY ONCE SAID THAT TO NOT SAVE SPOCK WOULD COST HIM HIS *SOUL*#and that wasn't fucking canon enough for some people#so y'know.#this isn't gonna change the minds of anyone who will claim that kirk and spock aren't gay and gene never intended it#and the people who already think it was there and intentional ALREADY HAVE MOUNTAINS OF EVIDENCE#quite frankly they need to either physically kiss on the lips in a way that no one can construe as pressured/mind controlled#or literally say out loud 'we're in gay romantic love with each other'#and EVEN THEN there will be people who don't believe it or insist it doesn't count because gene's dead!!!
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made that template for three :3 venchiya rundown!!! more in tags if u care
#i have lots of aus for us but this is the og venchiya au#where i have a studio and work downtown and they live downtown so i actually see them all the time#i would watch them from 3 stories up bc they intrigued me#always thought they were a cute couple but the red guy looked like he was being followed against his will even tho they did everything tgtr#heard a commotion one late night in the studio and saw the red guy beating the fuck out of someone in the alley across the street#locked eyes with black haired guy and he waved and smiled like a freak and i just kept drawing#started doing sketches of them when i was supposed to be working on bigger projects#passed by them one day on my way to work and black haired one said hello. i ignored him#one day i'm asked to give a private tour at the gallery and i come downstairs and it's them#red hair guy does not gaf#black haired guy asks thoughtful questions and seems to care about art but is a bit unsettling to me#i dont think much of it until he starts showing up more frequently and alone#the interactions are pleasant but i cant shake what i saw that one time so i tell security to be wary of him from then on#and i stop staying late in the studio for a few weeks#fast forward 8 months and we're not friends not dating but some secret third thing where i'm always at their apartment#we kiss cuddle and have sex but theres no labels but i refuse to see anyone else and i know neither of them are either#also to touch on takiishis sexuality he did not know that and doesnt gaf that is my conclusion after spending lots of time with him#his closet is in no way gendered he wears whatever he wants and if he gave af to label it he'd be nb#i think hes very cool and he intrigues me and i like going shopping with him and getting our nails done together#i stay at theirs a lot despite having my own place bc i like spending mornings with takiishi#and i assume if he didnt like to then he wouldnt sit at the table with me...or maybe hes just food motivated#i like his mystery#we are alone together in the mornings because endo goes to the gym in the morning and then he comes back all sweaty and sexy#ok ive exhausted everything i wanted to talk about thank u for ur time and for reading if u made it this far#mwah love u all#venchiya <3#wait also to be clear endo is still using random women's cards in this au i'm def not giving that man my money#LOL
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Republican Green Day fans just now realising American Idiot is about them has gotta be the funniest thing i've ever fucking seen. like my guy they are a pop punk band. they be popping and punking. they've BEEN popping and punking. who the fuck did u think they were talking about????????
#like what the fuck#how?????? how do u listen to American Idiot and know the lyrics and not go oh yeah no way these guys voted trump#media literacy please i'm begging u :')#context#Billy Joe recently held up a Trump mask with idiot written on it in a performance#and now Republican fans are like noooo!!!!!!! we're gonna boycott!!!!!!!!!!#ok?#good?#i wouldn't even necessarily call myself a Green Day fan i just like some of their songs and think they're cool#but i guarantee no one is complaining lmao like we don't want u here either dude boycott away#what did u THINK a punk was#certainly Green Day don't care that they're boycotting they're probably happy!!!!#i'd feel sick to my fucking stomach if my art was enjoyed by Republicans and i'm so serious#i make my art so that it makes conservatives uncomfortable and SO DO THEY#they literally could not have been more obvious if they tried what the fuck
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Sous la pergola courait en liseron sur toutes choses et sur les six infirmes le silence particulier des comploteurs fleuri du pavillon pâle et multiple des questions que l'on n'ose poser et qui attendent pour tomber le souffle du plus courageux. ("Le Café des Chasseurs", Daniel Boulanger)
my experience reading this sentence:
Sous la pergola courait en liseron sur toutes choses et sur les six infirmes le silence particulier des comploteurs
makes sense. this is a full sentence.
Sous la pergola courait en liseron sur toutes choses et sur les six infirmes le silence particulier des comploteurs fleuri du pavillon pâle
okay, maybe this makes sense? the silence particular to conspirators [which had] blossomed from the pale pavilion? kind of weird though...maybe it's related to the next part instead.
Sous la pergola courait en liseron sur toutes choses et sur les six infirmes le silence particulier des comploteurs fleuri du pavillon pâle et multiple
what
Sous la pergola courait en liseron sur toutes choses et sur les six infirmes le silence particulier des comploteurs fleuri du pavillon pâle et multiple des questions
WHAT????
richard coward translates this as
Beneath the pergola, convolvulus-like, the peculiar silence of the plotters spread over everything and over the six invalids, and the many questions that no one dared utter, and which waited to be asked for the breath of the bravest amongst them, fluttered above them like as many pale flags. (New Penguin Parallel Text Short Stories in French, p 115)
he also has an endnote after "courait" which reads
The subject of this verb is le silence particulier. Boulanger uses the inversion to convey stylistically the all-embracing secrecy of the meeting.
this is making me cuckoo. obviously the subject of courait is le silence particulier. what else could it possibly be!! that's the least confusing thing about the sentence!
what is actually confusing is everything that happens after le silence particulier. fleuri is a past participle which i would think is acting as an adjective because there's no auxiliary. what's it modifying? silence? are we saying [le silence [particulier des comploteurs] [fleuri du pavillon pâle]]? and where is the pavillon pâle coming from? this is the first use of the word pavillon. the translator takes it as figurative language, which maybe it is, but i can't figure out what it's doing in the sentence because...
what the fuck is going on with multiple? if it's an adjective modifying pavillon, then shouldn't it (and pavillon!) be plural? like by definition?? the translator has clearly interpreted it this way by the inclusion of "many pale flags". however, i originally interpreted pavillon not as flag (flags have not been mentioned in the story at all so far) but as outbuilding, because on the previous page the pergola was described as having "murs aveugles" which the translator thought was odd because pergolas don't have walls, let alone windowless ones, so he thought maybe it was referring to an outbuilding. also, if multiple is somehow modifying pavillon despite the fact that they're both singular, everything up to and including multiple is a complete sentence. what is des questions and everything after it doing? that's a completely new noun phrase. what verb phrase is it part of?
at one point i was thinking, could multiple be a verb? but it would have to be a verb in the 3rd person singular present indicative (or i guess subjunctive), so it can't parallel courait. there are present indicative verbs in this sentence, but they're both in the subordinate clause after "des questions". the subject would either have to be le silence (which doesn't make sense because courait also has silence as the subject and is in the imparfait) or le pavillon, which doesn't make sense because there's an et in between pavillon and multiple.
i can't say the translation is incorrect because i don't understand the original sentence. but if i start from the translation and try to work backward, the biggest problem i run into isn't "many pale flags" (maybe le pavillon pâle et multiple could be a plural noun phrase stylistically?) but rather "fluttered". he's added a completely new main verb that doesn't exist in the original. and at first i was assuming that he was getting fluttered from fleuri somehow, but i can't make that make sense either semantically or syntactically which maybe is a skill issue, i don't know!!
if we try to line up the correspondences between original and translation by color:
Sous la pergola courait en liseron sur toutes choses et sur les six infirmes le silence particulier des comploteurs fleuri du pavillon pâle et multiple des questions que l'on n'ose poser et qui attendent pour tomber le souffle du plus courageux.
Beneath the pergola, convolvulus-like, the peculiar silence of the plotters spread over everything and over the six invalids, and the many questions that no one dared utter, and which waited to be asked for the breath of the bravest amongst them, fluttered above them like as many pale flags.
it does seem like fluttered and fleuri have to be related somehow. maybe fleuri is actually supposed to be fleurit (most of the story is in the passé simple)...but if des questions is the subject, it would have to be fleurirent because questions is plural. and it still seems pretty weird not to have a conjuction in the french (he's added "and" in the translation). and where did the "above them" come from in "fluttered above them"? i am losing my mind. what am i missing.
#french#this book is riddled with typos so maybe there's just a word missing or something???#that footnote is killing me though. i read the sentence and was like what the fuck? but never fear. there is a footnote.#and then the footnote was like '2+2=4 btw.' THANK YOU???? I'M AWARE?????#there are several other places in the book where i saw the translation and was like i don't know about that...#so i also don't have total confidence in the translator. because there were sentences i thought i could interpret in the french#and then saw his translation and was like i think the translator is full of shit actually#plus the way he describes one of the stories in the introduction made me question whether he understood what was happening#in that story. like maybe he was just trying to avoid spoilers? but also maybe he completely confused the characters??#so if i trusted the translation i would be like okay either there's a typo in the french or there's something happening stylistically#that is unfamiliar to me and over my head. but as it is i'm like what are you smoking richard coward#and also maybe there is a typo in the french? or maybe we're both bad at french. HARD 2 SAY#my posts#syntax#crossing my fingers one of my francophone followers will roll up and just casually drop another french expression cheat code#into the replies. like 'oh yeah this is [standard literary construction xyz]'#le temps de [inf] all over again#and i'll be like my hero 😍
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They're so sick for this
& was gonna originally leave it in the tags but then I liked it so why not:
I do think this parallel helps contextualize why Claudia's offer is there in the narrative beyond just characterization "she knows this is a loss the boys have experienced, and there is possible room to convince them," or beyond "I doubt they're going to bring Harrow back fully (if at all) so why tease it" and well: I think this parallel is exactly why.
For starters, there's the sheer difference in presentation that help to contrast and compare Callum and Claudia as characters. More importantly for next season, I think, is that it ties together Claudia wanting to save her father is what led to her working with Aaravos in the first place versus Callum wanting to free Rayla's parents likely being something that is just going to put him further on Aaravos' dark path of destiny for him, if not outright lead to disaster. The road to ruin is paved with good intentions, after all - even if he's being selfless about it because it's not even for himself or one of his direct loved ones, but purely by proxy
#tdp#the dragon prince#dragons liveblogs#it's like poetry it rhymes#where can i put it down?#show me a garden that's bursting into life#callum x claudia#personal fave#idk why it only hit NOW just how similar these are#i think it's bc claudia is offering as a manipulation tactic &#callum is 100 genuine (maybe too genuine) and rayla would never dare Ask but. who knows#either way We're So Fucked#5x09#tag ramble#parallels#5x04
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Aromantic Squad I need your help because words fail me. Describe the difference between a Normal Friendship, a Squish (a crush but for desire to be homies), and a QPR (if that's thing you do/consider). Thank you.
#aromantic#arospec#aro#i can give context but its kind of roundabout so long story short:#i made new friends from an audition (longer story) (im a pro-thespian) (yes im a loser) and they do NOT get it#and im trying to explain it but it keeps getting back to 'but isnt that a boyfriend?'#NO thats a HOMIE. and one of them is asexual so my 'romance is just sexy friendship' bit didnt work either bcuz he was like#then whats friends with benefits. I DONT KNOW I just go here.#anyway tbc theyre all chill. we're pro theatre kids okay this is a safe space.#but i just. can't articulate it.#and im irish so it usually just turns into me saying something riddled with catholic guilt in the middle and we get off track#these are british ppl btw theyre so lame. but in a cool friend way. whatever you dont need my fucking autobio just rb the post#im allergic to shutting the fuck up
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You're the sole reason why I've become enamored with the kitsune boys these past few days lol. Thank you, I think?
I can't stop thinking about their heights tho like omfg, you've got this near 7 foot tall giant, tall af Haru and then the munchkin that is Aki lol. I'm wondering how they'd react to a partner that's even shorter than that, like 4'10, 4'11 lil marshmallow?
Aw shucks, you're too sweet
Welcome to fox boy hell! <3
but 2 a quick asides,
when I heard that Fuyu was like seven feet tall I used my own height plus the difference between mine and his to see if cha boy could even clear my doors-- he could barely
recently I was at work and a manager was resetting a shelf and I was like 'wait, hold on, you can't put that product up that high, no one's gonna be able to reach it' (she's very tall) and she was like 'wait, okay, you try and get it from this height then-- how taller are you btw??' '5 foot 5' queue her looking at me like 'GIRL, YOU ARE NOT 5 FOOT 5'
we ended up calling over the shortest people who were working to test the theory and she goes 'Guys, Emma thinks she's 5 foot 5' which eventually lead to a debate of my height between me and them where they ended up getting a tape measure and measuring me.......... I am apparently 5''3........ (in my words 'man, fuck y'all, I hate you guys, I'm going on my lunch break <:''c') (...........also yes I did test the theory later that night by myself.... I am 5''3......)
so in conclusion Fuyu could not actually clear the doorways in my home lmao....
...also I am shorter than all Kitsune...
ANYWAYS
Aki:
Thinks it's cute and low key loves that there is someone shorter than him
10000% believes it adds to your charm
loves being the big spoon
loves being able to bear hug you
loves to scoop you up in a hug
Haru:
Also thinks it's cute
thinks your very precious
loves having this sweet little love to tower over when he kabedons you
loves to pick you up--- bear hug, bridal carry, just straight up off the ground
teases you about it but honestly FUCKIN LOVES IT
WILL rest his chin or arm on your head/shoulders
his precious little love
will DEF put things on high shelves to tease/mess with you/as a power move
also to see you reach for it lol
Fuyu:
PROTECTIVE
also a little worried about how he towers over you so much
constantly worried he might crush you if he puts too much weight on you
will get things off of high places for you without being asked
will treat you a bit like your delicate and fragile sometimes
is a little embrassed with the height difference between you two
but mostly just thinks it's cute
you're his sweet little mochi
little dumpling
tiny snow drop <3
#bear text#blush blush game#blush blush#bear talks#bb game#sad panda studios#kitsune bundle#haru#fuyu#aki#aki blush blush#blush blush aki#haru blush blush#blush blush haru#blush blush fuyu#fuyu blush blush#also just so we're clear it was just playful teasing#we joke around a lot at my job#we were mostly just having a laugh but it was a bitch of a way to find out that I either have been marking my height wrong all this time an#everyone who ever needed my height for document purposes just went along with it#or that I shrank and I'm getting to the age when you start to get a little shorter#33 seems too young to be shrinking already but I also have grey hairs already so fuck me I guess#...when I started this blog I was taller than Aki by an inch and now I'm shorter than him by one how time makes fools of us all
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I really truly don't get this whole bucktommy and buddie rivalry.. I mean I love buddie and I really like bucktommy and don't understand the problem of liking and rooting for both. yeah, at the same time. what happened, everyone forgot about multishipping? why can't two ships coexist in peace??
#will buck end up with tommy or eddie I feel like we're gonna win either way#we still have this beautiful buckley-diaz family either it's platonic or romantic#and we have queer representation we all wanted so much#bi buck supremacy#you all need to chill the fuck out with this ship war#this is stupid and I choose peace in my multishipping bubble#bonus brownie points if you say fuck it and ship all three of them#cause buck have two hands and two men so why choose??#i just want buck to be happy#and whole firefam to be happy#AND tommy to stay in the show no matter what happens with his relationship with buck#don't you dare to take away this man from me#don't you dare#buck/eddie/tommy#911 abc#evan buckley#bi evan buckley#eddie diaz#tommy kinard#bucktommy#buddie#multishipping
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Hearing that music again was like coming home god I wish I'd been able to watch it live I would've gone insane
#okami sequel#okami#okami 2#i bet i would've recognised it from the music alone#the change in art style probably would've thrown me#but the second that divine instruments appeared i would've Known#in hindsight maybe it's good i didn't know about it because i would've screamed and woken everyone up#but god. GOD. the ENERGY i would've had if I'd seen the reveal live#okay okay okay okay okay okay okay okay okay okay okay okay okay#okay okay. okay.#not used to the art style but it's the original developer i believe so i have faith. I'm going to hope.#I'm sure it'll be gorgeous and I'll get used to it#either way idc they can change the art style as much as they want I'm just glad we're getting a sequel at long last AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#I'm normal I'm normal I'm normal I'm normal I'm normal I'm normal I'm normal I'm normal I'm normal I'm normal I'm normal I'm normal I'm norm#who am i kidding I'm not normal about this in the fucking slightest WE'RE GETTING AN OKAMI SEQUELLLLL#WHO COULD BE NORMAL ABOUT THAT#BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK#THAT'S THE SOUND OF ME SPAMMING THE BARK BUTTON. IN THE SEQUEL. BECAUSE WE'RE GETTING A FUCKING SEQUEL!!!!!!#BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK#oh look she speaks
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And thus, with the passing of 24 hours, Caeru's ambition truly comes to an end. Major Nemesis spoilers below the cut- we're talking endgame ambition business here. Mostly on a character RP front.
The Doomed Scientist made quite a few... choice decisions, in the end. Killing Cups once and for all, recording his story as one of grief-
And sparing what little remained of Mr Mirrors, leaving it free to roam Parabola as it sees fit.
Some of them, he can explain. Others, he's still left to feel... discontent.
Cups needed to die. That much was certain from the start. It was a tyrant, as all Masters are, and complicit in the bargaining and eventual destruction of four (potentially five) cities, as all Masters are. It was an obstacle. A murderer. A petty monster that felt no remorse even on its deathbed, and it went out of its way to ruin multiple lives just because it felt owed its own sick and twisted idea of revenge.
It killed his first love. It looked him in the eyes and he knew what it had done and he knew from the start it was going to die.
Perhaps, in the end, it knew too. And yet it still pleaded, and wanted to live, and-
It made a bargain.
A bargain Caeru didn't take.
Not because he didn't want to. Gods, he wanted to. He wanted it. He wanted it more than anything else in the world. To have Greylu back, to give him the gift of life, of love, to show him the wonders of the Neath and the beauty of the correspondence and all of the people Caeru has met and loved and found home with along the way-
But. He couldn't.
Because Cups was a monster. And no matter what, it deserved to die. And he could not, in good conscience, allow it to live.
Even if sparing it meant everything he's ever wanted.
So he's left here, now. With a bloodied traveling coat, and a bloodsoaked knife, and a favor finally fulfilled.
And nothing to live for. No resurrected lover, no charming visits to Helicon, no slow dances in the living room, no memories to rebuild and lives to live and he won't live again-
Nothing. All he has is a coat born of obligation, not to his love, but to people he's never even met. To lives he's never even touched. To a paramour, still alive, with hair of rose-pink, who doesn't even remember her own brother's existence.
Cups didn't die for Caeru's sake. Cups died for the sake of all who wanted it dead. For the revenger's court, and the ghost screaming in his ear, and the reckoning that will not be postponed indefinitely.
And Caeru, who acted as a tool to carry out their wills? Who all but betrayed his own lover, just to satisfy a cause he never knew existed?
All Caeru is left with, is regret. Regret-
-And grief.
#yin-thoughts#fallen london#fallen london spoilers#nemesis spoilers#so! nemesis huh!#i have. a lot of thoughts#overall i think heart's desire remains closest to my heart#but that's almost certainly bc of the obvious ''you always remember your first'' bias#there's a lot of problems with nemesis that have been talked to death by other people way more eloquently than i could ever express#(the big notable stopgates littered throughout. the weird pacing at the end. the fact you never meet your actual nemesis til the finale)#but overall i still liked it a lot!! i loved it actually!!! it singlehandedly made me like cups as a master!!!!#not because of anything nemesis actually DID mind you. i just really liked making up things about it#in place of nemesis. actually featuring it.#which could either be a plus or a minus against the ambition depending on what angle you look at it from#but. yeah. i'd say i enjoyed it. i enjoyed it a whole bunch#and now that ive played 2 out of the 4 ambitions and my FL hyperfixation evidently isnt letting up#it's safe to say we're all here for the long haul#tune in (insert miscellaneous time in the future) for when i finally after like a year and a quarter#get to find out what the fuck truly goes down in light fingers#and also keep an eye out for that caeru-centric fic ive been unsubtly alluding to and still need to write.#ive got a whole outline for it and it's. well#you'll all see when (if?) i finish it#i have some ideas abt how i wanna play around with the nemesis endings + what they mean to caeru#(and i do mean endings as in both of them)#and it all may seem. insane. when we get there#but i swear i have a direction plotted in my head#i swear#scoundrelventures#<- the scoundrel isnt mentioned At All in this post but that works as a general FL oc lore tag
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Coming atcha in this incredible sweater I inherited from my late grandfather
#spitblaze says things#im so sad i never got a chance to ask him to take me clothes shopping before his health went down the tubes and i figured myself out#i kinda feel that way with grief anyway. a lot of oughta coulda woulda shoulda. feeling like i squandered my time with them#that it wasnt meaningful enough. that we didnt form enough of a connection#but whatever its too late now. just gotta keep it in mind moving forwards. making connections and reaching out to ppl is So Fucking Hard#but its worth it and i KNOW its worth it and im tired of feeling like i never truly got to know someone before it was too late#im very bad at initiating conversations. im trying to work on it but starting shit is the hardest thing in the world for me#if we're friends and havent talked in a while feel free to reach our#like. maybe nor right this minute its like 11 and ive spent all day either driving or with family. im wiped#but yknow#see. him face#ftm#transmasc#nonbinary#transmasculine
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