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supercantaloupe · 1 year ago

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my roommate took me out to a fancy french bistro for dinner tonight and it was sooooo good. slightly embarrassed myself when the owner walked through the dining room and saw me chewing the last bit of meat from the bone of my lamb but i think i made up for it by chatting with him a little in french on our way out, he seemed so surprised and happy to hear someone else speaking french to him LOL

#sasha speaks #my roommate got a gift certificate to this place for graduation #and she was gonna use it with her boyfriend but. they broke up this summer #so she invited me out instead #it was sooo good. i started w a baby spinach salad w strawberries cranberries pecans ricotta salatta and vanilla (!!) dressing #and for my main i got roast rack of lamb with sauteed spinach carrot puree and fried sunchokes #and then we split a trio of creme brulees for dessert (vanilla chocolate and mango)#now i am home watching dropout and drinking tea. i am so happy #dinner was sooo good. i am so happy

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autisticandroids · 1 year ago

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FAMINE: That's one deep, dark nothing you've got there, Dean.

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dean and his father. dean and his family. dean and how bad it is.

(via @closetoyou1970)

#spn #vid #mind the warnings on this one for real #woe! fruit of my rewatch be upon ye.#pallas calls this my 'deangirl coming out vid' which honestly. true. but those who paid attention know i've always been a deangirl.#also. after this no more deanwinchester rilo kiley amvs I Pwomise #anyway. i'm not gonna give a full commentary here but a big reason why i chose this song is that the narrator #is essentially dismissing her own problems and instead watching the problems of someone else #and i kind of wanted to play with that theme. this is the parallels show so let's do some parallels. lots of things happen to characters #that are Like Dean somehow. either in personality or circumstance. that we know or can infer happen to him. but we don't see it bc it's #not sayable. not speakable. so like for an easy one. we see meg being tortured in caged heat. she also talks about apprenticing under #alastair just like dean. so i show her being tortured [in a way that is sexualized and demon-specific] and reacting how she does #because i invite the audience to imagine or interpret that this has also happened to dean at some point. we just don't see it #so there are many dean parallels in this video. some obvious. some subtle but textual. some products of my twisted mind. but that's the way #i am using them to make my argument.#oh also: dean voice sam's eyes going black is JUST like when he used to fight with dad and wouldn't listen to me when i told him not to.#i guess also the point is that because it's unsayable. dean can't say it. dean can't even acknowledge it. and so it bleeds through #into everything in his life #that's why it's important that the song narrator doesn't take her own problems seriously. dean doesn't either.

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aardvaark · 8 days ago

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even though i know the leverage team gets back together as soon as season 2 starts and we barely see any time of them being apart, it makes me unreasonably upset that they not only spent six months apart, but that they didn't know they'd all join back up eventually!! like wdym hardison spent months trying and failing to track down parker?? wdym parker gained a family and then spent half a year alone again?? wdym eliot had found a way to do some good or have some kind of purpose until it was suddenly over?? wdym nate & sophie had finally caught up with each other but came to realize that neither of them were in a place to have that relationship and spent months not knowing if that had been their last chance??

#leverage #leverageposting #especially parker and hardison. i get sad thinking about how she had adapted to maybe finally having people and then it was over #only for 6mo but as far as she knew it was probably forever #and then for hardison like. trying to track her down and failing. desperately trying to figure out how to find her. wondering if shes upset #that he hasnt contacted her. but also wondering if maybe she doesnt want to be found. maybe shes over him? maybe shes gone.#sophie at least evidently spent some of that time devising a way to get the team back together (and putting on a play)#the fact sophie managed to get an invite to parker while hardison couldnt find her is funny tho. i imagine soph had a different strategy.#trying to track her down means always being a step behind. id like to think soph instead predicted where parker *would* be.#wherever the shiniest thing to steal is. or that she set up a whole grift to both steal from a museum herself but also to entice parker to #steal from the museum and find a note hidden in the back of the most theft-worthy painting etc. idk.#but anyway hardison also looked so sad in the stork job when they briefly thought parker had run off ('trust me she is gone' 'whos gone?')#so actually losing her for 6mo + assuming it was probably forever is SO SAD #and parker not having her 'more than a team' team OW OUCH IM IN PAIN

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cak31ssuperi04 · 11 months ago

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fun fact: Them

#willos nation I have an important announcement to make #eyagh *disintegrates into powder and scatters into the wind forever*#that's all thank you for coming to my ted talk.#barbie mariposa #barbie mariposa and her butterfly fairy friends #barbie mariposa and the fairy princess #Had to attach a link to the last image because tumblr fucked the quality so bad #barbie #barbie movies #On a different note. They go on chore runs together. In my mind #I should've drawn that but you're going to hear it from me here instead #She invites him out on a laundry run to cut down on the being bored out of her mind and notices he's actually enthusiastic about it #Because like. Having grown up mostly sheltered and relatively(self-imposed or otherwise) isolated he #hadn't really had the experience of just Hanging Out very much #like hell yeah an excuse to leave the palace without having to deal with socializing with strangers. too much.#because she can deal with that. And i mean. he likes hanging out with her.#So she just keeps inviting him over for other menial chores. He's actually kindof competent at it and she really doesnt mind the extra help #cakeart #Also. also. She does poses for him. to draw. paint. whatever #Not in a weird way. in a figure drawing way. understand my vision. look me in the eye.#Artist/muse scenario in general. consider. consider. i'm correct #This post has been in my drafts since november it's not going to show up in the tags if I keep talking

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moeblob · 5 months ago

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I'm on an OC kick and also super indecisive so I spun a wheel (thank you for choosing for me, RNG).

Ricardo is a body guard and is bffs with Marlo. Ricardo's current job is watching after a celebrity's daughter who the public doesn't know even exists. She's just a teenage girl vibing with her mom and getting texts and calls from her dad (who loves her a whole lot and keeps her out of the spotlight very purposefully) and has this bodyguard and his weird friend. Marlo is just vibing with his best friend.

(Also Marlo would absolutely laugh if he heard Ricardo say "someone called me eye candy and it wasn't you and now I think you should call me that")

#my characters #i have an ask in my inbox that has me obsessively thinking about drawing fanart #but i just dont have the energy for what i want to draw for it #its been a rough day guys im dying (allergies and lacking sleep)#(why are allergies so bad today i ask after shoving my face into a cat while knowing im allergic to cats)#there are some prices i will always suffer and pay in life and the cat allergy is one of them you cant keep me away from a cat #im shoving my face in their fur and you CANT STOP ME FROM IT and also they kept bothering me #anyway i got to bed at like 6am after a lot of zoomies and restless legs and then #woke up with both cats in the guest bed with me and man i will not know peace for a few days #worth it tho bc i love them and i will take suffering if it means cattention #i dont really have much to say about the ocs tbh theyre just buddies being guys and then theres a teenage girl sometimes #and people suspect ricardo is her dad and she cant really say no my dads (celebrity) since thats the entire point of rico #so she makes sure its not troublesome for him to have people assume things like that and hes just #idc im in love with my best friend and hes not giving me any kids so not like anyone will start drama if im not with your mom #but he is also ! friends with the celebrity and his wife so he does just go on Family Outings with the wife and daughter #and sometimes marlo because the wife knows of him and invites him sometimes but she treats #rico and marlo like sons instead which is a bit weird to the daughter but she likes her weird fake brothers slash dad and question mark #marlo dyes his hair pink if that matters and has been doing so for a v long time

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bondagebimbo · 12 days ago

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LOVE when the pharmacy decides to fucking dick around with my meds so badly that now I’m off my mood stabilizer, my pain meds, and my fucking birth control (in a few days) because they’re insisting I should have extra fucking bottles of each one and I DONT because they don’t let me pick up more than a one month supply of narcotics at a fucking time so do explain where these extra bottles are, hmm ????? and they didn’t have enough caplyta ordered last time to even give me my usual 3 months supply of that so … ???? get your fucking heads out of your asses and give me the fucking meds you owe me ??? like ??? but I’m in a nasty headspace right now so if I call the pharmacy this morning, I’m going to be that cunt ass customer they bitch about all day because this isn’t the first time they’ve done this. in fact, the first time, they straight up committed insurance fraud by marking one of my scripts as filled and picked up WHEN, IN REALITY, THEY FUCKING LOST THE SCRIPT AND HAD NO RECORD OF IT BEING FILLED OR PICKED UP IN THEIR SYSTEM, BUT YET, MARKED IT AS SUCH AND CHARGED MY INSURANCE AN ALMOST 8 GRAND FOR THE FUCKING 3 MONTHS OF MY MOOD STABILIZER THAT I. NEVER. RECEIVED. I’m genuinely about to report this entire pharmacy to the pharmacy board because I’m so fucking done with this place. it needs to be shut the fuck down because you’re telling me, out of an entire pharmacy, y’all share the same IQ point AND dead brain cell, collectively ??? then don’t fucking work in healthcare where people rely on you to know your shit and keep track of their fucking meds because you’re just constantly making shit worse on people since you can’t seem to not fuck around with these meds and not ‘lose’ scripts. fuck out of here.

and I’m pretty much out of weed, which is usually my back up pain management method, without the money to afford a delivery order by their cut off time to order in 3 hours because I just paid my fucking bills and have SOME to go towards it, but not enough for delivery to be free, and I’d still have to walk my ass to one of the ATM’s nearby because they don’t accept my bank as a prepaid method OR any of the cards I have on my person. 🫠

I can literally feel my back spasming and seizing on and off while I’m laying on my fucking side, I’ve had a migraine with a stupid ass aura for almost a week now because chronic migraines fucking suck and i was REALLY hoping this one would be over by now, my muscle inflammations that my pain meds are supposed to limit are already beginning to start their itching deep in my muscles so soon they’ll blossom into a whole fibromyalgia fucking episode and become entirely inflamed, my joints in my hands fucking hurt because of the dreary weather so I really need to get into a rheumatologist at some point soon as well and get that shit figured out, I’m nauseas as fuck from all the pain, and I’m moody, hormonal, and just feel like fucking death physically.

I’m just. I give up.

this shit is exhausting and painful and so mentally fucking taxing to constantly deal with and I just want a fucking break from all this fucking shit. I wish I could just … not exist … for even just a little while with how fucking painful existing actually feels right now 🫠😭

#i hate that CT weed is so fucking expensive #half a fucking ounce shouldn’t cost me $250 …….. not when I can go to MA and get an ounce for $108 after tax ……..#but I don’t have a way to MA because my fucking best friend. who made plans with me OVER THE WEEKEND. HER. SHE INITIATED THEM.#canceled on me last second even though I texted her early the night before when I know she would see it 🫠#nope instead she waited from the text I sent at 6:30pm until noon the next day to cancel because her period is kicking her ass #NOT FOR FUCKING NOTHING BUT SO THE HELL IS MINE ???? AND IM ANEMIC ??? AND DEALING WITH ALL THIS EXTRA PAIN ON TOP OF IT ????#and I know I’m being irrational and insensitive because pain tolerance is a sliding scale for everyone #but like fucking come on you do this 3 out of 4 times YOU make the plans to hang out and I’m fucking over it.#plus I’m the one that always pays for everything and does she ever even OFFER to hit me back for the COUNTLESS ounces of weed I’ve got her #all because she couldn’t afford it so I said I’d cover it and she never paid me back. I’ve bought her at least a grand’s worth of weed #just over the last couple months and she’s never ONCE offered to pay me back for a single one #like ……… I don’t expect it. I give if I have it. but you can’t even just offer ??? like the invitation to pay me back would be enough to no #leave m ragingly pissed off and feeling used as an atm again for yet another ‘friend’ because they don’t even OFFER to be considerate #of course I’d say not to worry about it but it doesn’t even cross your fucking head to ask if I want anything towards it #like the next time you get paid ??? when you go and spend your own money on weed that day but can’t reimburse me for anything IVE paid for #oh and I always have to give her gas money if I even simply just want to hang out because she’s always fucking broke somehow #and she works in healthcare like bitch I know what you make and you can’t play that you don’t have enough to get by or throw me 50 bucks #towards YOUR weed that I’m buying every once in a fucking while when I’m already paying for everything fucking else #I’m so angry and I know I’m being irrational and bitchy but this is what happens when you’re tripped off your meds cold turkey #and one of them is a mood stabilizer that makes it so you DONT feel this way about people and aren’t so bitter when you’re let down 🫠🫠🫠#because now my rejection sensitive dysphoria is going to be triggered even easier than usual and I’m just.#I actually fucking give up. I don’t even know what to do here. the pain going through my body is so fucking intense #I keep losing my train of thought because everything hurts and then every once in a while a DIFFERENT pain acts up and throws itself in too #I just. I just can’t fucking win.#I hate fucking struggling with my mental state like this when I’m off my meds.#and because I have to be a month without my stabilizer/pain management/birth control it’s going to take me ANOTHER month to get readjusted #to those in my body so I won’t feel normal again until nearly fucking mid to end January the earliest #and that’s fucking bullshit. I’m going to fucking **** myself by the time I get back on these fucking meds since it’ll take that long #fucking hell I just. I give up. I give in. I’m self isolating and cutting myself off from everyone because it’ll be in THEIR best interest #for me to do so when I can’t control my mind like this. I’m so tired of feeling so fucking shitty and I’ve only been off them for two days

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chainsawworld · 2 months ago

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I think ive been adopted..?

#gamer txt.#classmate with crutches made me her chaperone when we went out. fair enough #wanted to get me a bracelet with my name on it as thanks from the gift shop but there wasnt one so she got me a bff one instead #she invited herself to my house when she found out where i live. could be a joke but she has repeated it so im unsure #and now shes dragged me to a table to have lunch with her usual friend group #i swear the process is usually ah.. slower than this

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seven-oomen · 11 months ago

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Listen I get that you have BPD. I get that you have a mental illness. But that doesn't excuse rude or shitty behavior.

I kinda get why people are fed up with you.

#borderline personality disorder #bpd #actually mentally ill #this is specifically about #my friend with bpd who tried to invite multiple other people along even though today was supposed to be about us reconnecting #because she missed us and felt like we were growing apart #so me and our other friend went out of our ways to clear our agendas to see her today #and then she asked me last night if other people that i don't know well can come along today too #eh no? i have a chronic illnesses and i dont cope well with strangers #oh and she didnt even ask our other friend if it was okay #she just changed the plan without notifying him at all #so we cancelled #and she didn't even apologize to him for trying to invite people he didnt even know #like i get that you find it difficult to tell someone no sorry i have plans #i understand #but at LEAST ask both people you're meeting up with if it's okay to bring more people along?#instead of just springing that fact on him q #1.5 hours before meeting up #and then at least apologize for your behavior #but no #sorry but I'm kinda understanding why people are fed up with you at this point

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ladyofpembroke · 14 days ago

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Ughhhhhhhhhhhh

#feeling really guilty about going away during thanksgiving (even though I switched so I’d leave Thursday morning instead of Wednesday)#and I shouldn’t feel guilty because my whole family asked my mom not to invite people and she did anyway and I said if she did that that #that I would have to go away because it stresses me out too much to have people here and is completely unenjoyable #but the thing is I would love to be here if it was just our family

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ghostzzy · 1 month ago

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man. the fucking 4D chess.

#my dad calls and says one of my brothers is potentially sick and is like. do u still wanna get dinner.#and it’s like. well. not if me & my gramma are gonna get sick.#so then it’s like. do i go to dinner with just my gramma?#the only reason i saw my mom yesterday instead of today is because i had plans w my dad & co.#but if she finds out my plans changed and i COULDVE seen her after all she would be hurt.#so i can invite her & my other gramma too?? make it a double gramma & mom bday dinner?#even tho they are on opposite sides of the family they get along okay?? so maybe it’ll be fine???#AYGH. I HATE WHEN PLANS CHANGE!! IM TOO AUTISTIC FOR THIS….#izzy.txt

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flufflecat · 1 year ago

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pov you're any of the baldurs gate villains and you look outside your evil tower to see this standing at the gates waiting to slaughter your entire army

#baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #baldurs gate #look out everybody. a real heartthrob is comin through #I'm obsessed with my companions trying to do some romantic cutscene and profess their love #and then the camera cuts to my character standing there blankly in this outfit #and then I reject them. you just got rejected by a certified clown. how does it feel #I'm doing a no romance run bc my character is aroace and the companions just won't leave me be #my girl is just too gosh darn desirable #her name is Kyllü btw #she's a recreation of my first dnd character <333 #I've been wearing the blazer of benevolence since act 1 even though I'm not playing a bard and therefore its useless #I took off a much more useful helmet to put on the no-effect cap and bells instead #and then of course we've got the helldusk boots to pull the whole look together #I can't get over the fact that enemies keep inviting me into their evil towers and camps and fortresses though #I have a 100% invited-in/slaughtering-everyone ratio #I'm gonna start passing out flyers to the bad guys to give them a fair warning of the mistake they're about to make #gortash just invited me to his inauguration so guess who's next on my list #bg3 tav #kyllü Swifly #ocs #fluffle art

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momoruuus-portfolio · 7 months ago

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Feathers and Filigree

Galatea, the porcelain warforged, is @toasted-buguette's character, and Milo is another friend's (I am his number 1 fan)

alts under cut

#dnd #dnd art #dnd character #dungeons and dragons #art #digital illustration #artists on tumblr #Rifts of Chaos #Me when my bestie dies and so I create a whole ballad for him and it allows me to cry for the first time in my short existence #but then it turns out he's ALIVE and he invites us to throw another coup but it goes horribly and I die instead and so my other bestie #is horrified and it's revealed that my life force is held within a ring and so my bestie feels betrayed a little bit and asks my husk if #she doesn't trust us #anyways I'm not any of these characters #I just watched it happened and let me tell you. The cry I crode

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bitchthefuck1 · 10 months ago

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We as a society need to acknowledge the psychological toll of being the only woman in a friend group willing to argue back when the guys start saying sexist shit. I deserve financial compensation.

#I'm out here in the trenches with zero backup and the only prize i get is a text from a girlfriend after the fact saying i was right but she #didn't have the energy to argue it #someone give me a fucking medal #like in any other context I'd straight up stop hanging out with these people but i can't for Reasons so instead every few months i have to #undergo psychological terrorism over a group meal #it has actually been such a good demonstration of how men will prioritize patriarchal alliance over anything else bc this is a group of #people ive known for years and that i see weekly and the way they will throw me under the fucking bus to agree with a random guy someone #invited that none of them actually know is genuinely insane. good to know exactly how little you value me as an individual 👍#actually tho I can't describe to you how fucking depressing it is to watch a male friend say something lightly misogynistic and then when #you provide the slightest bit of pushback they just all start to join in and double down and then because none of your other female friends #are willing to speak out they start to get more emboldened and the situation spirals a bit and you're literally standing there getting #dogged on as you're forced to confront the fact that on a fundamental level they dont see you as a real person

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ghostlyheart · 2 months ago

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I feel like the secret to making fun ttrpg characters if you're not an actor, writer, creative, etc. (speaking from personal experience) is honestly to just shamelessly crib from the world around you. Which can be the fiction that inspires you but also just like, look outside. Pick a random name from a gravestone and imagine what their life might have been like based on the limited context clues of their birthplace and time period. Or find a real historical figure that interests you and do that but a bit to the left. I personally find it much easier to start with the bones of a character's upbringing and occupation and imagine what "kind of person" might result from that situation than to come up with a completely new personality that I need to find a way to fit into the established world. Tweak and transplant into the 1920s/Middle Earth/the year 2352 as needed. I guarantee a 100% success rate 50% of the time

#im fond of the d&d character that i've played the longest because of all the good game memories but at certain points #she just kind of felt like Nothing to me. she's a sneaky quiet vaguely sarcastic rogue (hello archetype) that was born out of my fear #of joining a new game group that had already been playing for months before i was invited in. all i wanted was to fade into the background #and observe because of how nervous i was. over the course of the game she grew and changed a bit #but at a certain level will always kind of feel like an automaton i was using to get access to the world. it was hard to find her inner lif #on the other hand! i just played a character based entirely on a ridiculous philosophy pun and had a blast. this was also a new group #i was nervous but! going in i felt like i understood a bit more how this person would react to the environment bc i knew where he came from #so basically. context -> character instead of character -> context #this probably doesnt work for everyone and im certain there's an academic and much better phrased version of what im getting at out there #but im just reflecting on my own ~journey~ as a player and how i've dealt with the hurdles of being a person who is both into ttrpgs #while also So Scared of looking ridiculous lol #also i cant stress enough fun for YOU. be a team player but also your number one priority should be having a cool time #and if you feel like you're being pigeonholed into a character that you dont enjoy playing. hit da bricks

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anaalnathrakhs · 7 months ago

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btw my mom said it. she said it to me looking me in the eyes. i told her about how difficult it was for me to get through those family reunions, and she admitted it was very important to her, important enough that she was just going to do it anyway.

#i know there are compromises out there #and i'm not going to live w them my whole life so i'll be out fairly soon all things considered #and i'm trying to be understanding when people's priorities aren't the same as mine #but i uh. would be lying if i said it doesn't hurt a little wittle bit.#i'm gonna keep handling it because i've been an asshole to my parents for long enough #i largely owe them that. cooperating and spending time with them and engaging in what matters to them.#but then she's says things like ''but whenever you move out you'll still be part of the family and invited if you want uwu''#it's just ?????? okay thanks ???? perhaps you could also try seeing things from my point of view perhaps????#it's all circling back to that. they have a very weird way to ''help'' me #throwback to them trying to cure my depression with amusement parks #when i would have liked a little less of that and a little more help and understanding #it feels like they're trying to put bandaids on a cancer #''you don't ask for help'' okay no help is coming. i am not being helped.#the system can't help me cause there's no damn beds no damn professionals no damn time to help everyone #the people around me can't help me because it's not their job or within their wheelhouse to help me #and they've got their own shit to deal with #on that note #i was discussing stuff with my mom #and i mentionned it was indeed pretty difficult to manage your time when you had to deal with school and friends and your parents #and she was like ''deal with your parents???? what do you have to deal with????''#oh i don't KNOW maybe that i'm officially an associate of my dad and i have to help out w events and some accounting #or maybe i have to pay back the fucking years i spent being an ungrateful child now i do everything you expect me to and it's exhausting #maybe that you constantly remind me i am living in YOUR house by touching my shit instead of letting me deal with shit at my own pace #maybe the fact that despite everything i care about you and i want us to have a good relationship and that takes WORK and i'm exhausted #maybe the fact that you keep giving me advice that is unproductive misguided misunderstanding etc etc #and cold comfort after you did something you knew to be difficult for me #how you keep encouraging shit that i don't want and am unhappy with because it's the ''normal'' way #how you raised me from childhood to be an empty shell in a family of empty shells #broadcasting my misery #vent

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coachbeards · 4 months ago

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actually scratch my last post. teen sassy going to the olympics...summer 1992,,,, bringing rebecca with her to spain to a) have fun and b) get rebecca's mind off of the previous september

#sassy being there when they caught paul still stands out to me #sassy inviting rebecca to the olympics in SPAIN with her i know they were two teenage girls having a good time #sassy just doesn't seem like the person to carry it into her adulthood bc. she's sassy.#i think way too much abt sassy collins btw #sassy giving up swimming because not to be cliche but. it was probably Not her dream and instead her parents/coach's #and she wanted to go to school to become a therapist so it was an act of rebellion to give up swimming #she studied at the bar where rebecca worked btw. always was right there with her books and papers

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