#so like...fuck me for existing i guess???

[eh-fandomtrash]

This may shock people who are not interested in science and technology, but there are many different types of scientist in the world.

To add to this complexity a biologist is not necessarily a medical researcher, just as a physicist is not necessarily a specialist on the stars or the microscopic. This is why terms like astrophysicist and microbiologist and quantum physicist and, well, oncologist exist. Do we not all love the marine biologist meme? And we haven’t even started discussing geologists, chemists, or ecologists here to name a few…

And I have bemoaned many times (not on here) that our world would be further along technologically if they all had to talk to each other about their fields and breakthroughs regularly.

I want an artificial leaf so badly…

Anyway the human body is so stupid complex that even if someone does specialize in cancer sometimes they still down further and specialize only in ONE SPECIFIC type of cancer that arises in ONE SPECIFIC part of the body. The regionality of cancer is one of the things that makes it such a fucking pain in the ass, this is second only to its ability to say, “so I started over here, but I am going all the way over there to those cells that have nothing to do with me because fuck you I do what I want,” and go from being a bladder exclusive problem to a bladder and brain problem.

I guess my point is that scientists are a very diverse group and fuck cancer in particular.

oh dang, it's gonna take them even longer to get home in that

[Image description a news screenshot reading "Physicists make tiny model of Star Trek's USS Voyager that's smaller than a human hair"]

[moki-dokie]

there's been a bit of a Hot Topic going around bsky (and twt too i guess) about why my age group (particularly in the US) doesn't cook at home much anymore

and there's been a whole lot of takes ranging from dogshit to good and intelligent to total confusion from folks in other countries. neat stuff right. decided to throw my 2 cents in from my own perspective as part of the demographic.

the tldr of it being: there are *several* factors that make it not worth it nor cost efficient anymore where it once was. obviously that isn't gonna be the case for everyone, but it is the case for an overwhelming majority, me included. and this isn't even including, you know, a whole population of disabled people who are physically unable to cook for themselves but I sort of figured that was a given. but maybe not, considering...

then this absolute genius comes in

thank you buddy for having no reading comprehension and missing quite literally every single point i made that it isn't strictly about the dollar amount of the meal itself. like. okay??? good for you i guess.

sure, there will be some meals where that is very true. I could make a bigass pot of ham and beans that'll last me a whole week for about $10. hence why i added there will always be some meals cheaper to make at home. but that completely disregards every. other. point.

it is not, and has never been, about the direct cost of the meal itself. that's just one of a handful of reasons that factor into the whole conversation. there are going to be times that eating out will be more expensive price-wise, but when it checks off like 5 different boxes i couldn't fulfill myself for whatever reason, that price balances out. and we really are in an age where we're having to negotiate the worth of every action we take and every minute we spend on something. i don't know why thats such a hard concept for people to grasp.

legit nobody is arguing it *should* be this way. it shouldn't. we all recognize this. in the ideal world it would be both worth it and affordable to make every meal at home and leave eating out for special occasions, as was the case when i was growing up. and i totally get it that our parents, many of whom raised us by their lonesome, managed to do it fine so in theory we should be able to as well. sometimes, yeah, it really is a matter of sucking it up and doing it no matter how exhausted you might be. that's true for all facets of life tbh. but it shouldn't be that way all the time every time.

and, i don't know about the rest of you, but for us? it really was a whole fucking To Do to clip coupons and plan Shopping Day. I'd spend a couple hours clipping from a few different newspapers and the mail fliers we collected. then we organized them by store. then mom would plan out which stores we would go to for which items,the route we'd take since sometimes it meant going outside of town, the timeframe for everything since it was typically an all-day event. like, a whole day of planning and a whole day of executing JUST to grocery shop, and that was back in the 90s/00s. Inconvenient, yes, but still actually worth the trouble. couponing saved SO much money back then, especially if you knew the stores that would double them. coupons like those don't exist anymore. period. now the ones that do are like, pennies off or bogo deals and otherwise it's app this and app that for any sort of savings - which even then might only be like a meager 10% off the purchase. in no way is it worth my time and effort today to do the same thing we did when i was young.

anyway. so yeah. for a hell of a lot of us, sometimes going out to eat or ordering in is in fact the most worthwhile way, and sometimes even the most cost efficient way, to feed ourselves anymore.

[savior-pallas-official]

Pallas here to be a bitch

Hi! I’m Pallas, and it took me a long time to get here…

So be grateful I guess?…

I don’t know?.. I was told I should come here because I belong here? Apparently I’m part of some stupid little mission that I really don’t care about, like I’m saving others? How? By existing. Honestly doesn’t seem that bad! Though I do get hella bad migraines. Or headaches, not use to being an alive being.

—————

Hello! Mod here, here’s some info for everyone since I’m trying to make a pinned post. (GASP????(let me be sarcastic))

Pallas is a roleplay blog for the spaceverse community! All the lore you need to know for this blog is that Pallas is three moons merged into one, but Pallas being their own alive being. Basically, Pallas is being used to save three souls with her own soul. Now she won’t die, yet.

(does that make sense? I’ll fix it later or smth)

Anons are welcomed to chat with her! Actually since this is a Roleplay blog, anons are kinda needed- So yes! Come here and start your own lore. Even if you’re not a member it doesn’t mean you can’t roleplay! You can come on and just be a bitch to Pallas! (Only rules are don’t be weird, mean too mod, and understand that there are times where I won’t allow something) you can also chat with the three souls (Rhea, Titania, Triton) 

Other gimmicks or roleplay blogs are allow to join in as well, same rules apply, except you can’t chat with the three, only notice their presence, no directly talking to them.

(YES YOU ANONS ARE ALLOWED TO CREATE YOUR OWN LORE AND JOIN IN ON THE FUN, BE A BITCH, BURN PALLAS, OR BE NICE AND SEND HER TO CALIFORNIA WHO CARES???? NOT ME)

General info about mod:

(Main blog: @not-decided-star)

Minor!! (That means don’t be fucking weird)

Aroace 

I go by all pronouns for I give don’t give a shit

Mentally unstable 

Probably has bpd but who knows

Uhhhhh there you go! Have fun and burn Pallas to the ground, it would be funny.

I will try to tag stuff correctly! So please correct me if I miss something or anything or that sorts.

[salty-we-never-got-mergana]

I gotta tell you that Arthur in fanfics is exponentially so much more nicer to Merlin than he is in the show. In the show, he's downright horrible to Merlin, especially in the beginning seasons, and honestly, it's pathetic how Merlin yearns for his approval. The relationship is akin to a loving abusive relationship where Merlin clearly must have Stockholm syndrome or the only reason he preens at Arthur's approval is both due to the Dragon's manipulation and deep down Merlin truly see Arthur as superior and thus any compliment from him makes him feel good since you know, he's just a peasant.

It kinda makes you wonder how Merthur even exists, but my guess is that it's all based on Merlin's one-sided devotion to Arthur and Arthur having a slight soft spot for Merlin despite treating him like a rag, albeit a very favored and somewhat treasured rag, but man get in the way of daddy's approval, he can make his threats alright.

In the Witch's Quickening, I almost kind of feel bad for Merlin for the trouble he falls under when he's trying to direct Arthur to the perpetrators but he's up against Morgana whom Arthur has affections for and Morgana is rather clever (despite how her abilities are questioned for and how apparently Mordred is hinted to be more powerful than her roll 🙄.

I mean, okay great he decides to take the blame for the stone because someone stole his keys but the way he treats Merlin, calling him an idiot all the time, hitting him, blaming him. Merlin is just his servant and Arthur treats him that way despite his loyalty. It's not even the heartwarming way some masters treat servants like they deserve devotion and loyalty

I'm sorry Arthur doesn't deserve Merlin's love and devotion and loyalty. He doesn't do anything to prove that beyond choosing to sacrifice his life in the unicorn test but that's after seeing how Merlin is determined to save his life too. Merlin has constantly stuck his neck and tried to save Arthur's life and Arthur being a decent human being tries to pay that back in fold but it's Merlin who instigate this relationship to make Arthur loyal to him. I know why Arthur is loyal to Merlin

But why is Merlin loyal to Arthur? The only answer is the Dragon but why does he just automatically believe in the Dragon who he hardly knows. In Season 1 episode 1, Merlin's skepticism about Arthur and dislike for him was completely justified. I really liked Merlin in Season 1.

But then he quickly starts liking Arthur and it's like why? Arthur works him to the bone. Even Merlin complains he does so much for Arthur with no thanks.

I'm sorry but the last episode of the serious when Arthur finally, FINALLY, says Thanks you is just NOT enough for me.

Is there a fic where Arthur wakes up and realizes that he's been a dick to Merlin? Where he gets called out for being a fucking prat. I'd really like to read that fic.

On top of that, is there a fic where Merlin grows a fucking backbone and like actually does something about helping his people instead of spending all his time cleaning up after Arthur and wiping his fucking ungrateful ass. Honestly, Idk how Merlin puts up with that shit.

There's seriously a part of me the genuinely could care less about Arthur Pendragon in this show.

[doodler16]

Man. It really sucks nothing really became of DHORK. They're just kind of... there? Like at the end of Truth Seekers, it was implied that they would become a threat later on, but nothing has really happened with them minus them pairing up with the Cherubs for a brief time? Like there was a hint that IMP and Stolas fucked up majorly for showing themselves so brazenly, and that Agent 1 and Agent 2 got the hold over on them, but I guess Viv decided to drop that entire plot line or w/e. Honestly, that would've been a cool factor to been added at Mastermind. That all of the footage of demons existing making it's rounds in the mortal realm, which alerts the Sins, specifically Satan. On top of the whole Grimoire situation, but I guess they're just kind of... there? I felt like that could have added more stakes besides the whole Stolitz drama, but eh.

I really hope Vivziepop kills DHORKs off (more specifically Agent 1 and 2). Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind the concept of people in the government tracking down supernatural beings but Agent 1 and 2 aren’t that threatening and if IMP plus a Stolas (without his powers) can beat Andrealphus then I’m positive they will survive Agent 1 and 2’s attacks.

Like you mentioned Anon, they could’ve blackmailed IMP. Agent 1 and 2 could’ve been an indirect threat with the footage from Truth Seekers, I’m surprised that wasn’t brought up. IMP and Stolas forced to go to court and face the wrath of Satan because they not only traveled illegally on Earth for some period of time along with Stoliz’s “relationship” on the line.

Stolas gets punished by Satan which also makes Mammon an indirect threat and everything Vivziepop had previously established comes full circle in that court episode. We need more stakes in Helluva Boss, Anon.

[mythalism]

i think, anecdotally, canadians love to use land acknowledgments and Diversity(tm) a bit more than americans do, and have a degree of always pointing at the us and being like "well at least WE didn't do anything that fucked up! we're so much more enlightened and respectful 😌". and so any acknowledgment that racism exists, or that necessary societal change is often only brought by unpleasant disruption, or specifically that indigenous people live in terrible conditions because of colonization, is bracketed with this type of "but it's very complicated, and who's to say if there's a solution? we're thinking about it really hard, and holding space, and listening and learning, and maybe we will get to fixing it in like 50 years if people ask nicely" rhetoric. and there's a degree of apprehension that "land back" is a call for ethnic cleansing of settlers (somehow, despite this being both physically not possible and not actually anyone's demand) and that any movement towards that will be bad and overly radical.

which maps directly onto how bioware writes elves specifically haha. they'll sympathetically show how they're oppressed and living under the boot of a catholic church-esque entity, but then... ahhh noo, actually they had a very problematic pre-colonization culture, and they're too impractically fixated on the past and that prevents them from moving forward, and the church employees are sometimes trying their best and making amends, and the demands of the elven leadership are just too out there and violent... so really, it's very complicated. maybe it could be better to keep the status quo and only have Incremental Change, forever.

(they sort of didn't do this in the masked empire, but as always they had to throw in a bit about how Rude And Mean the dalish are. plus the ridiculously evil chevalier lore of each one randomly executing a few elves as a rite of passage, and then never mentioning that aspect again bc i guess it wasn't relevant to michel's story. as well as the insanely underwritten premise of what briala and celene's relationship actually was. there's ~toxic lesbians~, and then there's "extremely rich and powerful white noblewoman calls her younger servant class gf ugly for being dark skinned, lies to her for years, has her family and then entire community killed, then tries to seduce her back when she gets angry and leaves" lmao. i think weekes was going for a tragic morally grey starcrossed lovers to enemies vibe, but to me it was more of a horrific one-sided exploitation that the author did not seem to realize they were writing.)

and in veilguard i suppose they tried to avoid the entire issue by mostly removing those aspects of the setting, so you no longer even have the somewhat well-observed depictions of oppression combined with Justin Trudeau Moments, it's just kind of empty.

anyway thank you for appreciating my very long ted talk! i left tumblr after the whole "popular bloggers mass reporting pro-palestine people for terrorism" thing (i can get that treatment for free irl, don't need that extra stress from the Fandom Webbed Site haha). i've just been drifting back to look at dragon age posts bc i was curious about veilguard. i didn't expect much from bioware but it was surprising that they just went even further into tone-deaf bizarre race allegories rather than reading 1 (one) nonfiction book in the years since dai, or hiring anybody from a different background who could weigh in. :')

wow this is seriously so fascinating and insightful and truly does give me a better understanding of both canada and bioware LMFAO so thank you so much for sharing seriously. you are welcome in my inbox for more ted talks anytime and now im just gonna leave this here to marinate on it further and hope other people read it because its fantastic. xoxo

[tealenko]

Bioware fooled me and I'm not even mad about it...

You see, I always go for the "golden retriever" kind of romance in fiction. I cannot help myself, give me a strong man with the heart of a puppy who excels in emotional intelligence and ufff, you got me good.

Yeah, give me a fluffy ship and oh boy, I'll sail with it for the rest of my life.

So, when I was about to play the new Dragon Age I was like: you know what? Let's break the pattern. For once I'm gonna choose the angsty romance, you never go for the bad boys (except with Reyes Vidal lol, but that's a topic for another post)

Anyways, I go for the one that has a demon inside of him, that usually does the trick, doesn't it? He's an assasin, I'm breaking him out of jail... Oh, and did I mention he has a fucking demon inside of him!? Cool, this is gonna be ansty as hell, no?

Well... No.

Turns out fucking Lucanis Dellamorte is the sweetest, earnest, kindest and romantic being in existence who, yes, happens to kill people on the side in between cups of coffee but: OH MY FUCKING GOD I SWEAR that Bioware wrote this shit knowing my taste and tbh I cannot complain about it (could've been longer, feel a bit robbed, but then again, a topic for another post)

So yeah. I'm 10000% down bad and madly in love with him... *cries in: could you talk to me? Your voice is a comfort* Another obsession to add to the list lol

Oh... man... I can't... I guess that's all then, this is already too long anyways. That final sex scene though, and the conversation before and after they bang, uf... top tier, seriously... In a: "you make me feel human" kind of level, which almost feels like a blasphemy to say lol

[vampire-biter]

I’m tired of regular animals being used for shifters.

IM SORRY DONT SHOOT ME

There’s just- such cool non existent animals you could use

SHIT YOU COULD USE EXTINCT ONES BRO??

And yet it’s just regular animals being used..

Like give me a dragon shifter in redacted

Fuck I might just make my angel soma be in a fanfic with them AS A DRAGON just so I can have this need fulfilled bro.

Everything else is the same, just other magic types added ON TOP of what we have yk?

More fantasy I guess..

(This au also comes with the half-blood thing I talked about before!!)

Like fairy’s, dragons, mermaids, sirens, cyclops, satyrs, YK?? LIKE PLEASE HEAR ME OUT…

ERIK REDACTED

MAKE SOME COOL ASS FANTASY UNIVERSE.

AND MY LIFE… IS YOURS!!!

[fortunatelyannoyingcrown]

R*pesand/Feyrat Stans roast time!!!

We all know Rapesand and Feyfoo's Stans are some of the most stupid people in the acotar fandom, lacking basic common sense and hypocrisy that can't be rivalled, but I have to make a special mention of this dumbass in particular, I found on reddit....

(I'm feeling especially mean today, and this is going to be a hypocrisy exposé so bear with me, when I give it to users like this one and others who exist to give a poor name to fans online and make me facepalm so hard)

You can clearly tell from responses like these that Feyrat Stans have the common sense and brain capacity of a fucking furniture, but just for dumbasses like Koalafied Captain, let me break down a couple of things:

a)Tamlin, as the high lord of an entire kingdom has the goddamn right to stop any civilian in his kingdom, who poses a threat to his soldiers, fighting his battle for him.Your bitch of a fave, Feyre, was doing exactly that, threatening to run into a fucking military operation, where she can't protect herself and also would be a bloody danger to everyone else.The fact that the bitch thought, she could just easily disobey the orders of a lord and endanger the lives of everyone else because she was whining about wanting to go out is quite possibly the most selfish thing anyone can ever do.It was trauma induced, but it was fucking selfish and Feyre, being unable to think about anyone else other than herself was peak selfishness full fucking stop.

And Tamlin only locked her up, after she repeatedly refused to heed his no, several times because, yes sweetie, it was dangerous AF for her to be involved in a military operation without any training of her powers.Even before that, Tamlin was perfectly okay with Feyre going out and doing whatever TF she wanted, all he needed was for her to take an escort with her, because guess what?SC was haunted by Amarantha's monsters, and it was bloody fucking dangerous for Feyre to be out on her own, especially as an untrained Fae.This basic concession being impossible for Feyre to accept, shows how immature, inconsiderate and frankly, stupid she is.And that is, along with the fact that, the bitch is unable to respect boundaries, as clear from how she can't accept a no, no matter what.Fuck her, a million times, just for that🖕🏾

And yes, Feyre stans, let's get back to your favorite master saviour, the one y'all claimed "freed Feyre"(Even though he r*ped her to make that happen).The only reason why R*pesand was able to "free her", was because he was literally keeping her in a fucking hidden city that no one knows about, and also, it was not being haunted therefore making it a safe place for Feyre to be.Lol,.that's not even on him, Velaris has been hidden for centuries, because of the work, his ancestors did, R*pesand as the high lord does fuck all for his court.He doesnt work, therefore having time to be all up in Feyre's business lol

So yeah, Feyre was trapped in Velaris, which is slightly bigger than Tamlin's mansion.Congrats Feyre, you officially moved from one place, you claimed was such a "prison" into a bigger one.🥴.

Let's not get into the whole abusive AF situation that was the pregnancy.

As for, the abuse "apologies" that we give that you keep whining about, babes, you need to look at your own responses.Whining about Tamlin losing control, when your fave did it twice, injuring the LoA, R*pesand does it constantly, with Nesta and everyone else, even going so far as to threaten to kill her, Feyfoo, being a disgusting murderous, genocidal c*nt, just like Amarantha, sexually abusing Lucien and destroying Tamlin's life out of spite, and guess what's even funnier?She did the exact same things to Nesta that she was crying about Tamlin doing to her, two books prior.Lol, what a sorry little hypocrite.

And guys, it is especially funny,.to read all of Koalafied Captain's responses, justifying Rhysand's abuse:

a)"Oh but, he was behaving like a Fae, whose mate was pregnant"- Oh so that justifies his abuse of Feyre and Nesta?

b)"Oh Rhys was so tortured and sexually abused wah wah"- well well well, look at how the abuse apologist is abuse apologizing right now🤣🤣🤣

Can everyone in the NC, do something, a magic ritual maybe, to grow a few brain cells in their High lady's head?Her critical thinking levels are not even zero, they are in the negatives at this point, and that doesn't bode well for the citizens of that court.

Because bitch, how are you going to claim, you were abused in a previous relationship, and move onto an even worse abuser.Feyre's such a stupid buffoon, I tell you🤣🤣🤣

As for the stans like the one in the ss, how much else, are you going to do and how much more are you going to embarass yourself, because you are so busy dickriding, a rapist like Rhysand.Do me a favour, and please fuck all the way off, and keep Tamlin's,name out of your bloody mouths

So yeah,to all the Feyre stans, who excuse that bitch's crimes against humanity.Spare me all the BS.Y'all don't have a leg to stand on here, not when your faves have committed much worse crimes, and have behaved even worse than Tamlin has ever done.Guess what bitches?Feyre was abusive towards Tamlin, Nesta and Lucien.

So, yeah cry me a river about us Tamlin Stans being "abuse apologists", lol when people like you exist, who are genocide/abuser/rape apologists to the fucking extreme.Also, I wish Tamlin had slapped the shit out of Feyre, atleast then the abuser tag on him would have been deserved, and I could happily watch bitches like you, whine about it for ages🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾...

Spare me all of the fake righteous indignation about us "excusing abuse" when you sit there and excuse, every single one of R*pesand's abuse of Feyre, SA, medical abuse, physical abuse(he literally checks every single box lol, what a POS, SJM just kill him already), and Feyfoo's own abusive and controlling behaviour towards other people.I know I'm(and people like me are ) on the right side, when I am not defending war criminals, rapists and manipulative liars. Y'all should worry about yourself

[tiredandoptimistic]

@salt-drum yes! This haunts me! I literally just made a post talking about how the new information about Eleanor Blackthorn being a Rosewain implies that Eliza was her sister, Michael was her brother-in-law, and Jonathan was her nephew; but she still never checked in on Michael and Jonathan after Eliza's death! It would have been so fucking easy for her to prove that he had been murdered and replaced by Valentine, but I guess nobody wanted to see him.

Michael tends to be seen as a pretty good person by the fandom, and "The Evil We Love" definitely frames him as the one who had doubts about the Circle, and yet we know that he did stick around until at least 1989 thanks to "The Last Stand of the New York Institute," and in that story he participated in slaughtering the Whitelaw family (which is extra bonkers because those are literally Stephen's family and he joined in on the killing too, but that's a tangent for another day). Still, it looks like Michael was not at the Uprising in 1991, so he gave up on the Circle to some extent and wanted to focus on his wife and son. Cool. Then they all get murdered.

Valentine taking Michael's place worked perfectly, because everyone in the Circle wanted nothing to do with him. Aside from any personal reasons that might have existed, he was a reminder of what they'd all done. Maryse was mad at Luke for leaving them to die, I bet she would be pretty bitter at Michael too. The rest of them were banished, but he distanced himself enough to earn a cushy retirement at his family manor house. Amatis was literally living in Idris, she had known Michael since they were teenagers (at least), but he'd already gone along with Valentine's plan to force Stephen to divorce her, so I bet she wasn't too pleased with him. Then of course there's all the Shadowhunters who weren't in the Circle (like his sister-in-law and her family), but to them he was probably a fucking monster because of how deeply involved he was with Valentine. They didn't see his doubts, they just saw his actions. He got his peaceful seclusion, and everybody figured he was doing fine and didn't want to talk to him and face the potential for a more complicated reality.

Michael Wayland tried his best for his whole life, but in the end he'd alienated everyone around him to the point that nobody even noticed his death.

What I really enjoy about Luke and Maryse's interactions in City of Ashes is that they clearly grew up separate from each other. Both of them are in their late thirties, but they hold this image in their heads of who the other was when they were teenagers, when they were enthralled by Valentine's hateful rhetoric.

From how he describes them to Clary, it's clear that Luke looks down on the Lightwoods. He says that they were Valentine's closest lieutenants and the most dedicated to his doctrine, and yet he ignores the fact that he was Valentine's second-in-command for most of the Circle's existence. He knows that he had doubts at the time and then grew into a kind and accepting adult, but Robert and Maryse appeared dedicated to Valentine from the outside and have been separate from Luke ever since, so to him they must still be as cruel as they ever were. He sees himself as superior because he got out first, but forgets that he stuck around until Valentine literally told him to kill himself, while Robert and Maryse surrendered to the Clave voluntarily.

Then there's Maryse, who's still bitter over Luke's betrayal. Not because he turned against Valentine, but because he and Jocelyn set a trap that ended with every member of the Circle (other than the Lightwoods, Hodge, and Michael) being killed by the combined forces of the Clave and the Downworlders. Of course Maryse is being pretty hypocritical here, since she was fully in on the plan to murder a bunch of unarmed diplomats, but she does have a point that Luke and Jocelyn did nothing to protect their former friends. Their plan saved lives in the long run, but it resulted in far more bloodshed that night than Valentine's simple massacre.

After Valentine's supposed death, Jocelyn, Luke, Robert, and Maryse all went into a sort of retirement in New York City. For Luke and Jocelyn it was their mundane employment and for Maryse and Robert is was their place as Institute heads, but both couples spent fifteen years raising their kids and learning to be better people. By the time we see them in TMI, all four former circle members had come to terms with how atrocious Valentine had been and dedicated themselves to doing better with their adult lives, but since it happened in relative isolation, they all still remember each other as they were at age twenty. To Maryse, Luke is still the man who left his friends to die, and to Luke, Maryse is still the woman who stuck by a murderer until the end.

I just think it's very interesting that there are so few survivors of the Circle left in 2007, and barely any of them communicate with each other at all. Amatis was left alone in Idris, Hodge felt so abandoned by the Clave that he went back to Valentine, Robert and Maryse trapped themselves in a loveless marriage rather than give up the illusion of stability they'd built for their kids, Luke and Jocelyn denied their past until it came to find them, and Michael was killed with his family in a scheme that would never have worked if a single person came to check up on him in the ten years Valentine inhabited his life. They could have found a community through this common experience, but instead they saw each other as monsters for the things they all did.

[variablejabberwocky]

my body is doing a weird thing and the more data i collect the more its looking like a symptom of my medical concerns/needs being ignored by doctors for ~35+

because all the things i've been doing to self-treat other pre-existing issues is stuff that makes THIS current issue worse. but those things ARE helping the other, older, conditions. and i'm having to self-treat because i couldn't get any doc to take those issues seriously and/or provide any treatment for them

so like....im just boned

mega-boned, even

and not in any fun ways

...oh and of course stress makes it worse, because of course it does

[sadisthetic]

the madness frustration loneliness of the dissonance of a mismatch of the rotten heart to the rest

allosexual aromantic swag happy pride *peaces out*

[giulliadella]

Someone liked this and I remembered that this exists.

I ACTUALLY FORGOT I STARTED THIS COMIC WHAT THE FUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!

Well, it's not a fun fact that crippling depression can fuck up your memories and I guess it happened. This winter actually destroyed me. I guess I'll publish this little page some days soon. I forgot this comic exists, I don't think I'll ever finish it tbh, but the first page is so cute, I'd love to post it!

The first page of Bill's Backstory comic is done, but you want me to complete the entire comic before publishing it. I doubt that I'll manage to milk out that much motivation especially because my depression is at the high and also the exams in january are approaching, so have a little spoiler free teaser:

In case anyone else has depression, baby Bill is looking at you and he's amazed at how beautiful and complex your 3D form is <3

[marypsue]

Man, it's cool and all if you see a metaphor for marginalisation in the monstrous, and if you want the power fantasy of 'what if you could just eat anybody who threatened you/pissed you off'. Me too.

However, as soon as you start saying 'no, these monsters are a 1:1 on Specific Marginalised Group, and you have to treat them in the fiction like they are directly representative of real human members of the marginalised group', BUT you also, in the fiction, make them hurt/kill/eat humans? And then try to shame me, your audience, for noticing or engaging with the bit where they kill people, because you made them directly representative of a real-world marginalised group? You have lost me, and also, I think, the plot.

[thankstothe]

One liners the sequel

[thewoollyviking]

Idk, I just don’t find beauty in that. Rose fought so hard to grow past the awful world she was born into, had to make painful choices, loved the people who formed her new family but ultimately never found any reason to love herself before dying… only for her son to just shove her portrait away because he can’t even bear to look at her. That screams mean spirited.

Rose deserved better than that.

And your broader point about Steven struggling to communicate his issues… like, we spent 5 seasons and a movie before this where Steven was able to talk to other people about their pain. He saw how they would avoid talking things out and how that only made that pain linger.

And by Future, the gems are clearly so ready to flip the script and talk to him and his pain.

And he completely avoids them before turning around and being angry that they won’t help him.

Like… bro…

It just rubbed me the wrong way.

Surprise, the intentionally frustrating, unsatisfying ending is frustrating and unsatisfying.

I don’t see why we get the fairy tale happy ending where Steven can magically convince his space grandmas to stop being abusive but Rose has to settle for “everyone either just feels uncomfortable thinking about you or fucking hate you”

I guess consequences only exist in this show when your name is Rose Quartz

Random thought, but do you guys think that Rose, if she could see the way the diamonds responded to losing her – Blue being in such misery and unable to move on several millennia later, Yellow wanting to destroy everything that reminds her of their missing diamond because it hurts so much to think of her and she can’t bear to feel, and White locking herself in her head to never interact with anyone face to face when she presumably appeared in person for discussions with the other diamonds and events – that she’d feel any way about that?

I know(though in a much less extreme sense) what it’s like to feel unloved by your family, when their idea of what’s best for you is heavily dependent on you being on your best behavior. Rose seems to have had a tendency to not realize people were hurt until it was too late, but she cared. Would she realize how much she meant to the other diamonds? Would she cry for the relationship she left behind, even knowing it was unhealthy?