#so i cant use it without anxiety :^)

[cherrycreamsicle]

I need to watch rottmnt again so bad but using our smart TV makes me anxious and I can't watch video on my laptop for that same reason. And also I'd rather die than download Netflix to my phone. Do you see my dilemma

[tea-earl-grey]

there's something so dismal about how so much of tv fandom's energy nowadays seems to go towards trying to prove to big corporations that their show is good enough to save. like whenever a new episode or series comes out it's "remember to watch it all in 24 hours or it won't get renewed!" "play it on repeat for a month or else it'll become another piece of lost media!" "don't stop talking and posting about it during the hiatus or else this season that's already in production might not air!" "if this tag trends on twitter for long enough we might get eight episodes instead of six!!!" it feels less like we're enjoying a show that so many people worked hard on and more like we're trying to create rituals to please the gods (which replace gods with The Algorithm and you're not far off).

like i haven't even been involved in fandom for that long but even just seven or so years ago if a show did well enough that it was nominated for awards and trending on twitter and having well attended comic con panels then it would be renewed for at least a season or two. and back then being renewed for another season meant "we're for sure going to get a new season next year!" with almost no possibility of cancelation. and even shows that did just okay ratings wise would easily get 5+ seasons.

and it was more fun. when i was watching Doctor Who or Arrowverse or whatever in 2014 i could enjoy and critique the media itself instead of constantly being nervous about whether the next season will be cashed in for nostalgia bait or have its episode count cut or be postponed for three years or just outright canceled because it was slightly less popular than last year. like the fandom would still stress out over potential bad narrative choices or whatever but we would also get excited about the future.

maybe it's just my own perceptions but i just tend to find myself favoring fandoms for shows (or at least eras, i'm looking at you Doctor Who) that have been completed. i like Good Omens and Our Flag Means Death and Strange New Worlds and Percy Jackson and the Olympians and the latest Doctor Who era but i just find it hard to get invested when there's so much anxiety around if there will be a future to those shows and so much of the fandom activity revolves around that anxiety. and then as a result when the show does end for good (whether through cancelation or design) the fandom starts to fade away too because so much of it was based on the temptation of The Future.

and i'm also quick to admit that production in pre-streaming era shows had their own problems (once popular shows running for 15 seasons and jumping the shark just because it's a cash cow, tampered down diversity in the interest of "popular appeal", the whole quantity over quality issue, etc) but at least the fandoms were more optimistic and focused on the story itself instead of just being angry about the eternal potential of cancelation or outright deletion.

(also there are obviously much larger issues to the streaming model re: residuals and everything else brought up during the wga and sag strikes but that's all been said much more coherently so i'm just speaking from my own perspective as a fan. and even then there's still definite overlap between the fandom anxiety over renewal and the real world economic anxiety for people involved with production over "will we have a job/be paid". it's far too early to tell but i really hope the strikes will help to solve this problem.)

[etoilesbienne]

after havjng my water finally fixed i webt and Chipped my stupid fucking tooth

[bunnihearted]

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[scarletanpan]

Scavenging thru the damaged merchandise they make me store in my fucking trunk to use their battery powered lights bc who's gonna fuckin know and we might not get power back for a week, miles of road on every side of our neighborhood have power lines completely knocked over by huge trees

[toxooz]

ALSOOOOOOO i Finally got to ride a skateboard at the skatepark with bf n friends for the first time ever yesterday and i feel so 👀👀👌👌👌💯💯💯 i managed to be able to balance and push around and stop without falling and it was fun tbh!! i can see getting muscle memory and improvement by doing it consistently 😤 i just hope this aint too short of a phase for everyone so i can hopefully get me own board soon 🙏

[cherry-shipping]

yawn. im going to bed but i wanted to say that im thinking of maybe MAYBE doing something REALLY TERRIFYING. and writing some selfship stuff. which ive never done before…… but i think IF i do then ill do it in thhe format of a screenplay because then i wont have to worry about futzing with all those other words. ive never written before though but id like to have some of my daydreams saved somehow and theyre too long to draw, and stuff……. also it might be good for my crippling performance anxiety. so thats a bonus

[anotherpapercut]

people acting like there isn't still very much an active stigma against cannibas and cannibas users is going to be my joker origin story

when i go to the doctor they still put cannibas use under the tab "substance abuse". not even just substance use. it is fully assumed that people who use cannabis, even as a prescription medication, are abusing it. just because you're friends with a couple of dumbass stoners doesn't mean that we've abandoned the idea as a culture that weed is a bad and scary and dangerous and highly addictive drug that will ruin your life if you use it once

[plasmamembranes]

I am being urged to get on medication but the thing about that is doctors love to put me on cocktails of multiple meds at once. the last time I was taking medicine I was literally on Lamictal, Risperdal, trazodone, Buspirone, and one other one, I always get it mixed up but I think it was seroquel. I think that's just too fucking much?? I don't think I'm THAT nuts??? and there's never any easing into it, I'm handed all of them at once and told to get started. and any objections or questions are dismissed. what's wrong with starting out with like one or two. and do I really need a fucking antipsychotic?

[specters]

anxiety really can ruin your life like no joke. it isn't just "haha you can't order your food at mcdonalds or talk on the phone hehe loser" stuff (btw that shit also sucks idk why you like to make fun of people with anxiety like do you feel better about yourself do you feel superior yet 🤨) like i physically cannot leave my house without having a panic attack rn. i can't bring myself to talk to other people most days. i struggle to try new things and meet new people bc not knowing the outcome gives me such debilitating anxiety that i can hardly stand it like it's destroying me SERIOUSLY

[donaviolet]

Started dating the neurodivergent boy yesterday!! He proposed to me on a haloween party and we kissed behind my silly witch hat :33

We are now officially Anxiety Girlboss and ADHD Malewife

[silverislander]

if someone else shows more than two indications that they like a thing that's a good, normal way to tell they like that thing, which is normal, because people like things. but if I have more than two indications of liking a thing that means i am irrevocably obsessed with the thing in a way that deserves mockery actually. this is a worldview that makes sense

[goodnightwindy]

hiii guys i am once again having medical anxiety

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

[enbysorcerer]

I hate having OCD.

Every time it gets to where I think I am managing and can at least pretend to be normal, something comes up and nope. Not normal.

[robouiop]

poor little meow meow battle

harry du bois versus my dog