#so have I won? idk
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I've been so busy with real life things (baby, work things that have suddenly come up) that I've really been unable to engage online and dive into bg3 stuff
which makes me feel disconnected from my dash and mutuals
but on the other hand, I'm also completely oblivious to all the garbage fandom takes and arguments ✌️
#seeing people talking about the latest fandom bullshit and feeling like that meme of gina from b99#but I also really miss making gifs and rambly oc posts that get 0 notes tbh#so have I won? idk#shut up jessica
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before i get distracted by watching new wild life episodes again, here's some of my doodles from PerryRata's life series prediction whiteboard from before episode 1 of WL
! the boatboys one had an underlying sketch that someone put on the board as free to use - it's the thin yellow lines underneath the drawing. they didn't leave an @ anywhere but i did my best not to cover their signature, it's next to joel's head.
[Reblogs are great and help the artist, don't steal or trace, etc etc]
#life series#hermitcraft#mcyt#grian#ethoslab#joel smallishbeans#jimmy solidarity#solidaritygaming#smallishbeans#eefo#tangotek#skizzleman#cubfan135#impulsesv#bdubs#bdoubleo100#gtws#<- (hes in the passenger seat of the traffic life doodle)#fanart#mcyt art#whiteboard#life series fanart#trafficblr#mcytblr#life series spoilers#? i guess? because it mentions who hasnt won yet? idk#my art#wither grian#had to use older versions of screenshots for some of them to avoid having too much art from other people in there#(i mean its a whiteboard so ig youd expect it to be publicly viewable and potentially screenshot and posted when you draw there but...still
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obsessive
#did i put more effort into this than i needed to? yes. did i put myself through unnecessary pain drawing fighting scenes? yes#but i learned how to outline my strokes so maybe i won after all#i thought about it and i think it turned out ok drawing the eyes differently. like the way i usually draw em#although i dont know if that says much since i change my art style every couple weeks but eh#had fun playing with grayscale and limited palette. i want to do that more often dhghdg#although idk whens the next time i will have enough energy to commit to the bit and do.. this#theyre fucking stupid your honor. for every art we get of them acting dramatic and yearning (/pos) i make dumb shit like this#equivalent exchange girlies!#lego monkie kid#lmk#monkie kid#lmk shadowpeach#shadowpeach#lmk sun wukong#lmk swk#sun wukong#lmk macaque#lmk six eared macaque#six eared macaque#liu er mihou#my art#myart#doodles#comic#lmk monkey king#lmk fanart
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i'm sending this endless melody to a nameless you
#SKELETON ORCHESTRA AND LILIA I NEED YOU#project sekai#emunene#emu otori#nene kusanagi#pjsk#prsk#proseka#wxs cover wishlist copium.. 2!!#i have lots more of them i wanna draw but ill do st least one duet for each pair i think. maybe nnks next ive had one for them forever#Gyaaaa#Crying i have szks lunar new years art that idk how to render im missing the holiday. lord in heaven#Ik every leaker or whatever says this is going to mmj snd it probably will and i'll love the cover but still. emunene save me#wxs gets songs with nonsense lyrics its possible right Right right#i also wanted setsuna trip to go to emu in any duet but i looove the mnai cover so i won anways#Kind of too sleepy to do my usual. Sorry viewers who like reading theough my insane tags. Dont get covid it makes you sleep 13 hours a day#For the next month.#my friends saw me going nuts over this drawing actually and i gave up hard on nenes dress i just wanted to be done.. love how emus looks..#wait i actually can be insane in the tags THE WXS WORLDLINK SONG SJHDDYDJKYMY TGYAYDHUA!!! HAGSGYAAH!!!!! GY6;$;$;$;$;$ WHEHEHEHEHEH#WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH. Its so good please help. Wxs tetrad that illuminates the world save me.#why does the 2dmv have all of them under a WEDDING AROOOR WHY IS THERE A WEDDING BELL. CONGRATS ON POLYSHO MARRIAGE. HWATEVVRR!!!!!#wonderlands x showtime killing me taking damage augh Auughg akk akcghj
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having thoughts about the marinette and nathalie hug because like.
my god.
marinette's just had her world turned inside out
she's just a kid and how's she supposed to carry all this alone and what is she supposed to do and what does she tell adrien?
and then, suddenly, there's someone there to share the burden. an adult. someone who has a reputation for getting things done
so maybe, just this once, everything doesn't have to balance on marinette's shoulders alone
but it's nathalie--who, sure, adrien obviously cares about. but not someone marinette's at all close to. certainly not someone she probably thinks of as warm or parental or even very trustworthy. maybe marinette's even started to put the pieces together--if gabriel was monarch, then mayura must have been...??
those doubts seem insignificant when she actually sees nathalie
the last time marinette saw her, she was dying. and now marinette knows what gabriel wished for--at least some of it. she knows he did one good thing in the end. that he finally, to some degree, put adrien first
then another horrible truth dawns on marinette: nathalie doesn't know--of course she was aware gabriel was dying, but she still doesn't know he's dead
marinette's probably already thought up a hundred different ways she might break the news to adrien--even if she discarded them all just as quickly. she hasn't thought at all about breaking the news to nathalie
what's she supposed to say? however complicated things were in the end, gabriel was obviously someone nathalie cared about
marinette struggles to find the words, but nathalie just knows. she already suspected, because how would she be here if gabriel was as well? and now the truth's written all over marinette's face
it's not just marinette who needs that hug--though nathalie would probably never admit it, which is why it's marinette who's running to her
how many weeks has adrien been gushing to nathalie about marinette? about how she's so creative and strong and compassionate and full of love
and in that moment, nathalie understands
#there are other aspects of this i didn't quite get to fit into this post#like how nathalie and marinette have both been fighting so hard to protect adrien from gabriel lately#but they've been fighting ALONE#and now they're together in this moment where... technically they kind of won the fight#but it FEELS like they've lost#also i guess idk technically if this is RIGHT after the wish was cast but that's how i'm interpreting it#anyways when i started this post i didn't expect it to get so long asjfbkdsjbfk#even though that doesn't make much sense because marinette is detransformed but later she's bug noire again when she talks to adrien...#also hahaha don't look at me i get so anxious posting analysis posts...#ml london special#london spoilers#miraculous ladybug#marinette dupain cheng#nathalie sancoeur
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suuuuper late pocky day akeshus ;w;
#akeshu#p5r#persona#art tag#i have been sooo tired for the past two weeks#this took so long akiren's hair changes partway through LOL#anyway he had it coming yanno#curiosity almost killed the cat :3c#is there even a way to win or lose ??#idk but these two dorks will make it competitive#anyway i think they both won :)))#can you guys tell which frame i put the most effort into HAHA#please pause to read the text as you need... it is... fast#there's not really a proper ending and i kinda messed up the timing to hold the last frame#but i am not remaking this again#but i DID learn that blender is goated#in my first draft i had a kabedon but that was taking too much effort to work out LOL#also sorry for magic pocky that changes sizes every frame
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If you don't answer, I'll take that as a yes.
#forcebookedit#arcarm#perfect 10 liners#forcebook#force jiratchapong#book kasidet#rum.gif#mjtag#usercassi#forathousandbyeol#userrelisa#esmetracks#bledit#thaidrama#boyslovesource#asianlgbtdrama#cinepix#tvarchive#fbkiss#i tried my best to get the speed right because i have a feud with slowmo but idk if i won the battle#anyway oh my GOD why does book keep doing that thing!!! where his lips follow the kiss like he doesn't want to stop!!!!!!#i mean if i'm being serious my theory is that he was directed to do that with theo and it's now been a subtle choice for other characters#my unserious theory is that book never wants to stop kissing force lmao#my respect for book's acting vs. my shipping goggles#either way i reap the benefits#love this kiss btw it's so much softer and sweeter than it has any business being
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everyone loves talking about the batshit worldbuilding in WoT but I feel like everybody tends to overlook the Vaguely Evil Elves From Another Dimension that have their own officially licensed chutes and ladders-esque board game that you Cannot Ever Win
#unless you're a 9 year old boy who's surrogate father just broke their entire reality#society when olver won snakes and foxes without cheating#the day I get my hands on a real life snakes and foxes game is the day that I can die happy#but idk I feel like everybody tends to overlook the aelfinn and the eelfinn in favor of like. the ogier and radioactive two rivers#and the many. many. m a n y. other insane worldbuilding Choices robert jordan made#which are all valid I mean WoT is fucking insane#but I think we should have more aelfinn and eelfinn appreciation on this webbed site#like they're so interesting!!!!!! there's so much to unpack!!!!!!!!!#vin speaks#wheel of time#wot book spoilers#wheel of time spoilers#wot spoilers#mat cauthon#the shadow rising#towers of midnight
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HAPPY LONDON N1 YALL!!! i can just feel this run of shows is going to be CRAZY. also if you haven’t realized hi it’s me juli titsthedamnseason and yes even under yet another new url i am hosting the surprise song game! the rules are simple: leave your guesses in the tags or replies and if you’re right i will give you a shoutout <3
i’m personally about to give the worst guesses ever but i already submitted them to mastermind so i feel like i have to stick with it. so im going imgonnagetyouback / better than revenge and robin / never grow up i definitely should be going with a london song or the black dog but hey. whatever
#i’ve won a lot lately anyway i can take a back seat now#also i really hope when she does robin it’s just by itself tbh#i’m such a mashup hater i’m sorry i don’t know why im like this#when i watch the performances they’re always amazing i don’t know why i insist on this negative mindset#I JUST WANT EACH SONG TO HAVE ITS MOMENT OKAY#also if now is when she plays the albatross and i don’t guess it that will be a double sting#mine#taylor swift#surprise song game#anyway i’m literally THRILLED to hear so long london on piano at some point in the next few days#i just hope it isn’t tomorrow because i AM a truther#i just felt these guesses in my bones and if she doesn’t play so long london n1 i plan on guessing it every night until she does#as well as the black dog#london boy….idk about that one though haha i guess we’ll see#also yes both my guesses are ttpd / speak now mashups. i didn’t plan this but alas
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#sabelina von slappy#IM STUCK ON THIS BOSS. I HATE THIS THING. BUT WHAT I HATE MORE IS THAT MY PS4 TAKES LITERALLY 2-3 MINUTES TO RELOAD EVERY TIME I DIE#IM NOT GOOD AT THE GAME AND IM SURE THAT COMES AS A SHOCK TO NO ONE#I DIE A LOT#SO MY ATTEMPT LASTS 5-10 SECONDS AND I THEN HAVE TO WAIT 3 MINS TO TRY AGAIN#IM IN PAIN. IDK IF ITS MY PS4....NO IT DEFINITELY IS.#RANG#UPDATE AT 8:54 PM EST ON JUNE 28 HE GOT FUCKED#I WON#GET FUCKED
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I know I've talked about bull and bear hybrid Bakugou, but has anyone ever talked about lion hybrid Bakugou???? I thought about this concept when I was still half asleep this morning but like,,,,
lion hybrid bakugou with his big ole head and even bigger mane of hair, all soft, colored like the sand you'd dig your toes into at the beach. he has a little scruff on his chin, but he never grows it out because he hates the upkeep of it.
he's always loud, growly yawns whenever you see him, his canines sharp and pointy when he opens his maw wide enough for you to peek in. he's so big and soft where it matters, lazes around all day everyday, and gets these big bursts of energy at the most random of moments. he's basically an overgrown cat basically
omg and he has this complex where he's just sooo high and mighty, like he's some king meant to be worshipped. but all you have to do is kiss his cheeks and rub a hand through his hair when he lays his big dumb head in your lap, and he's purring up a storm.
and and and lion hybrid bakugou whose tongue can feel so rough when he's feeling lazy about it, but somehow knows how to work it just right whenever he wants to lounge between your legs. gets so huffy and growly when you mumble that you can't cum anymore, just nudges your thighs a little wider with his shoulder as he nuzzles his nose against your mound. doesn't care to hear any of your complaining, because he's still eating and doesn't intend on finishing until he's ready.
omg and and lion hybrid bakugou whose favorite position is, of course, doggy style. but only because he gets to wrap your little dainty neck up in his powerful jaws and pin you there, likes how you whimper and shiver but go limp either way because you trust him with your life. he pins your arms beside your head and grunts so loud into your nape when he finally sinks his cock inside of you. he practically lays flat on top of you, just rutting his hips against your ass over and over until he knots you.
which is his favorite part because you two get to just lay there for what feel like hours, and you keep coming intermitally because he can't help but rut his hips a few more times, and hiss at the way his knot tugs at your clenching lips. sigh just lion hybrid bakugou who looks so mean and intimidating but he just loves you so much and can't get enough of you
#this got long sorry#but it had to be said!!!#I don't think ive ever seen someone do this before but if they have pls tell me#bc I wanna read more about it#I said the same for bear bkg and im so sad its not more popular to be written about a lot :(#anyway catch me in my hybrid lover era again LOL#first the whole bull farm and now this#and to think I got so tired of the idea bc so many people would come to me about it#sigh what a full circle moment lmfao#anyway I wrote this on my computer and I swear I wrote it faster here than I would have on the phone#typing on my phone gives me like motion sickness or something idk but I hate it#okay bye im gonna go write the fic that won in my last poll lol#—new treat in the streets! 🍫#bakugou treats! 🍬#tw: knots
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"—matsukawa, quit pushing me down, asshat!" "nah." "i will kick your shins bro do not test me—"
alt. ver. before the redraw (bc i still kinda like this 😔)
#a silly !#yumeship#matsukawa issei#haikyuu oc#hanamaki takahiro#haikyuu#mblue art#self insert#ocsona#seijohbros au#<— will b using this tag to refer to these shenanigans w my haikyuu ocsona for now 🫶#maybe in the near future i'll make a (tentative?) ref sheet for this new lil guy <3#(i say that knowing i havent made new/official ref sheets for my own utmv sonas lmfaooo 😔💔)#also yeah um dont mind the shading! or any anatomy mistake! i wanted this out of my head asap and move on to the next doodle</3#edit i redrew the guys; something in me said smt jst aint right so i changed their angles to be as close to my initial vision as possible--#--and the brain seemed to calm down after that lolz orz#idk if i conveyed it well but mattsun is supposed to look like he's really towering over my ocsona due to the camera angle lol#(ngl that little curve on mattsun's mouth was for the simp in me 😔--#--he was gonna have his usual :/ pout thing but that braincell won and took over /silly)#(ngl every time i look at matsukawa in this i get hit w 1-2hp dmg.)#(hes staring right at the camera/viewer. he looks. soft and . pogi. like cute-handsome. clutches my hair)#(gawddam bestfriends to lovers trope i can never escape from you shakes my fist)
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The thing I love about the ending of mha is not only that there's no conclusive "canon ship", but the way he ended it as sort of a new beginning, so anything could start to happen.
And specifically for bkdk, it's not canon but he gave us AN INCREDIBLE AMOUNT TO WORK WITH.
Katsuki leading the project to get Izuku a support suit so he could be a working hero again. Katsuki putting out a hand for izuku to take.
The forgone conclusion that Izuku and Katsuki will now be competing again as they ALWAYS WANTED. Their future could have them jockeying for rankings for the rest of their lives, constantly one upping each other, AND/OR they could become partners, or open their own agency!
The implication that Katsuki wanted a future WITH IZUKU so badly that he contributed a large chunk of his own money and resources to making it happen. That he MOST LIKELY was where they got a lot of the info on how the Quirks worked and how Izuku utilized them. Sure they have battle footage, but katsuki had intimate knowledge as Izukus closest person and sparring partner.
The fact that A PROPOSAL, A RING, AND A WEDDING WOULD HAVE BEEN CHEAPER.
Like there are so many little ideas buzzing around my head and it's not fair that I don't even have enough time to sit down with them for post epilogue fics 😅
And I want to know more about that suit. I hope they animate it more in the anime when the time comes bc I do want a little super suit fanservice.
#bakudeku#bnha spoilers#bkdk#post epilogue bkdk#like horikoshi gave us a HUGE BLANK CHECK#for us to draw our own conclusions#and the katsuki funding the suit thing alone is just SO RICH#the SUBTEXT HERE#holy crap#idk if a canon ending for them would have been this rewarding#i love this partnof the ending fr#no one won but i feel like we won???#stay winning#izuku as a sensei is great#but now with this twist of getting to be a pro hero again#like it opens a lot of interesting doors#particularly with like teamups#ranking#and then whatever the hell he has with kacchan#also we can make up for ourselves if they live with each other or move in together#the possibilities are endless
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I offer memes for one of my favourite fics (written by @lets-try-some-writing)
I made them simply because they wer funny in my head :D
orginal photos and flat colors under cut
flat colors
and og photos
-and rambling as usual, and weird/crack ideas that I don't regret in the slightest; you have been warned XD
I saw this slav totem somewhere on tumblr and my first thought was: "Autoway, Ironhide and Springer". At the same time I knew this would be very out of character for them in the middle of war.
My excuse why I did draw it in the end? One: How could I not to XD; and Two: Since orginal circumstances were not suitable, they didn't have a chance to be young and do stupid stuff. And then it enlightend me: WHAT IF THEY COULD?! And so I present to you a glimps of "these 3 were born after the war with quintessons" timeline. I decided to shove them into either some military high school or just military, but not on the war front, after all they are still warframes.
This "alt timeline" (if I can even call it that XD) exists solely for this one meme, just me having a thought "what if they could be teenagers and annoy their sergeant (what if it was Kup >:) ) without major consequences (e.g. cleaning washracks for a month instead of having your helm blown of). And the funniest thing, I have absolutley no idea what else to do with this concept, exept maybe the RGB trio being a menace in th military (I am not downloading tiktok so terrible yt compilations must suffice, sorry <:) )
For lamborgini twins - I really wanted do do something for -back then a brand new- chapter 43, but again Auto just didn't fit in there, be it scale or how things played out in the story, and so Prowl was shoved here against his will. This is probably how Sentinel views them and why he sent Autoway there, my only excuse XD.
And Whirl is here solely for laughs, gigles and "what if he met the twins" scenario XD. If they met somwhere just before discovering the ring I'm guessing they would get along like a house on fire XD
#i as usual have to many ideas so yet ANOTHER totem is waiting in wip's#but at this point i'll just shove it into -whenever that will be- batch nr2 of memes#yes the 4th totem also include whirl XD#idk why but this totem is just way to funny for me XD#like you can put just about anyone in here-change expresions a little AND IT'LL WORK#and i regret nothing#slav totem#meme redraw#transformers#maccadam#my art#springer#ironhide#sideswipe#sunstreaker#prowl#whirl#sentinel prime#fic fanart#memes but as redraw i want to believe these count as fanart#and as usual the desire to ad light and not leave flat colors have won again
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hello rain world tumblr
an offering
#rain world#rw downpour#rw spoilers#rw slugcat#rw fanart#rw monk#rw survivor#rw hunter#rw gourmand#rw artificer#rw rivulet#rw spearmaster#rw saint#fun fact I did all of these in one day#extra fun fact I have carpal tunnel#the autism won today#I did not#art#digital art#artist#digital artist#artists on tumblr#my art#I had so many cool symbolic ideas#but idk how to explain#except riv gourm arti and saint are based on the lizards they share a trait w#and like using karma symbols#it’s really cool and big brained I swear
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how to stay with you (steddie ficlet)
written for @steddieangstyaugust day 29: future, and also inspired by this post i saw ages ago
1474 words | rated t | cw: unhappy ending
When Steve and Eddie first got together, they had been young and in love and that’s all that had mattered. At 19 and 20 the realities of the future seemed so far away, so caught up in each other in each present moment that it almost felt like they would never grow up, like time would never pass and they would never have anything to worry about. Conversations of ‘what ifs’ and potential issues were brushed aside, anything that wasn’t an immediate problem dismissed with a kiss and a carefree “we’ll cross that bridge when we come to it.” There was no need for premature concern when surely nothing would ever be so big as to come between them. Because they were it for each other, weren’t they? They were forever, and forever seemed so easy when forever was young.
But the time did pass and they did grow up, and now the bridges they thought they’d never come to are looming before them, fast approaching.
At 25 and 26, they sit at the dinner table in the one-bedroom apartment they’ve lived in for years and Eddie tells Steve about the life-changing phone call he just received. The Hollywood music producer he’s been in sporadic contact with finally wants to finalize a plan and work with Eddie’s band officially, and Eddie is so excited he’s practically vibrating as he rambles to Steve about the album he’ll make and the tours he might go on and how they’re gonna have to start looking for places in LA soon because they have to be local and the producer wants to get started on this by the end of next month. He expects Steve to be excited too, to match his grin and maybe hold hands and bounce around the kitchen with him, but his boyfriend’s expression only falls further and further into a frown with every word Eddie speaks.
“Eddie-” Steve interrupts him, his voice far too serious. “I don’t want to move to LA.”
Eddie’s buzzing energy freezes, stopping short. “What?”
Steve repeats, “I don’t want to move to LA.”
“But-” Eddie frowns. “I was always going to move to LA, that was always my plan. You knew that.”
“Yeah, I-I know. But we always said we’d just cross that bridge when we came to it.”
“Well, we’re coming to it now. So, why don’t you want to move?”
“I don’t want to uproot our life here. And I don’t want to end up having to wait around in a strange city while you’re off on tours all the time.”
“You wouldn’t, you’d come with me.”
Steve shakes his head. “I can’t live like that. And what about when we have kids? That’s no way to-”
“Wait, Steve-” It’s Eddie’s turn to interrupt, all trace of his previous excitement gone, having dropped like a stone into his gut instead. “I don’t want kids. Like, ever.”
Something fractures in Steve’s eyes as he stares at him, almost hurt. “What? Why did you never say anything? You knew- I’ve always wanted kids, Eddie, you’ve always known that.”
“Yeah, I know, I just-” Eddie’s mouth feels too dry and his tongue too heavy as he wets his lips and shrugs guiltily. “I mean, we always said we’d just cr-”
“-cross that bridge when we came to it, yeah,” Steve sighs, a dejected sort of exhale that slouches in his shoulder as if the full weight of this conversation has suddenly settled upon them.
Eddie feels it too, feels them sinking somewhere they can’t come back from. “Is that, uh- is that a dealbreaker for you?”
“Kind of, yeah,” Steve admits, and he looks at Eddie like it devastates him to do so, emotion swimming in his eyes and straining his voice. “Is me not wanting to move to LA a dealbreaker for you?”
Eddie swallows thickly. “Kind of, yeah.”
“Would you ever change your mind?” Steve asks, a last ditch hope. “About kids, or any of it?”
“No,” Eddie says; though he hates to watch the last of the light drain from Steve’s face, he can’t lie to him. “Would you?”
“No,” Steve answers in a barely managed whisper.
Eddie takes a deep breath, and it shakes. His vision blurs. He says, “Then this isn’t going to work, is it?”
Steve stares at him with glassy eyes, like he’s watching Eddie become a ghost right in front of him. His voice breaks as he speaks, “You mean we’re not going to work.”
“Yeah…” Eddie confirms, and it shatters his heart. “I’m so sorry, Stevie.” He reaches for Steve’s hands across the table. “I love you more than anything, I really do, but I won’t give up on my dream, and I can’t ask you to give up on yours either.”
“No you’re right.” Steve breath shudders. His eyes fall to their joined hands and he blinks rapidly, the way he does when he’s trying hard not to cry. He squeezes Eddie’s hands tight, desperate for something to hold on to even as he agrees, “We want different things, incompatible things. I don’t want to hold you back.”
“Exactly…I don’t want to hold you back,” Eddie echoes in barely more than a whisper, afraid if he tries to speak any louder he’ll break into tears.
Steve does break then, a sob escaping from his throat as if it’d clawed its way free, tears spilling from his eyes. Such a cry activates an instinct in Eddie that sends him leaping to his feet and pulling Steve into a hug within seconds.
“I’m so sorry,” he says again. His chest aches and he really wishes this wasn’t happening, hates that he knows that it has to.
“Me too,” Steve manages, head buried in Eddie’s shoulder. There’s no bitterness in it, only heavy acceptance. He knows it too.
They both know there’s no solving this, no compromise they could find that wouldn’t inevitably fester into resentment and regret. Because Steve wants to settle down and Eddie wants to fly - but Eddie isn’t built for the ground, nor is Steve for the sky, and there’s no common place left between them where they could both survive. It’s over.
So they mourn together while they still have each other to take comfort in, clinging tight to what they’re losing, just one last time. Eddie's crying now too, his tears streaming silently down his cheeks in counterbalance to Steve’s sniffly mumbling.
“I don't want to lose you,” Steve mutters. “Are you sure? Are you sure?”
And Eddie cries quietly into the crook of his neck that he doesn't want to lose him either, and he's sorry, so sorry.
When the worst of their sobs subside, they reach the bargaining stage of their grief, and they pull apart just enough to talk properly while still holding onto each other. Eddie swears he'll keep in touch, says he still wants to be a part of Steve's life. Steve makes him promise to send him postcards of all the amazing places he'll go to on tours and to invite him to shows whenever he's nearby. Eddie tells him to invite him to the wedding when - when, he emphasizes as Steve starts to shake his head - Steve falls in love again and finds someone who can give him the life he wants.
At that, Steve sniffles out a laugh, wet and humorless. “That would be cruel,” he says.
“I never said I’d actually show up,” Eddie clarifies, giving an equally complicated smile and bringing a hand up to cup his cheek. “I just want to know. I want to know that you're happy, even if it can't be with me.”
Steve closes his eyes - another tear or two leaks out - and turns his face into Eddie's hand. In a whisper, he agrees, “Okay.”
They decide it would be best for Eddie to leave as soon as possible. Since they've already concluded they won't last, there's no reason for them to stay in the same apartment even just one more night. It would only hurt more in the end.
With a sort of dissociated detachment, Eddie packs up his things, separating his life from Steve’s one piece of clothing and decorations at a time. It's all he can do not to start crying again.
As Eddie turns to leave for the last time, Steve grabs his arm, impulsive, desperate, and begs him for one more kiss. So Eddie turns around and indulges him. He tastes the salt of their tears on their lips, clutching at Steve's waist and tangling a hand in his hair as they both kiss each other like they know they never will again. Eddie savors every bitter taste, memorizes every sweet feeling.
And then they’re out of time and Eddie's out the door, his whole future ahead of him and his heart cracked right in half.
#ik angst with a happy ending won the poll by a landslide but unfortunately i ran out of time sorry y'all#on vacation with sporadic wifi rn so this is a scheduled post#MIGHT make a part two with a happier ending (or at the very least a more hopeful one) once i'm home and have more time and internet#so watch out for that possibly.#or not idk yet#steddie#steddie ficlet#steddie fanfiction#steddie fanfic#steddie fic#steve harrington#eddie munson#steddie angst#steddie angsty august#future fic#stranger things#ficlet#mine
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