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Desire
/dÉŞËzĘÉŞÉ/ noun A strong feeling of wanting to have something or wishing for something to happen.
!! WARNING !! smutty themes f!reader x aizawa.
âď¸ Aizawa's touch felt like a fresh breath, your bodies flush against each other. âď¸
Summary: You and Aizawa end up getting stuck in one of the storage rooms in the left wing- not frequently visited. The tension in the air and the lack of space result in something...more.
A/N: hehe :3
A song to enjoy while reading this: if u think i'm pretty ⏠Artemas
Your eyes fixated on Aizawa's back as his shoulders moved slightly with each step he took. He wasn't in that same old hero attire for once, since there was a press event today. You admired his chiselled figure that was poking through the white shirt and tight pants he was wearing. You swallowed, noticing how much bigger he was than you. The classrooms were running low on paper, which made Aizawa sigh and beckon you to follow him to the storage rooms to grab a few boxes of materials he needed.
Biting your bottom lip, you thought about how the last few weeks with Aizawa had been. Each moment was so warm, yet strangely sensual. It came so easily between you two. Lost in thought, you bumped into a wall- the wall making an 'oof' sound. Since when did walls make those kinds of sounds? Turns out, what you thought was a wall wasn't a wall at all.
"Still sore from yesterday, L/N?" He said smirking, referencing your sparring session. "Maybe." You said dryly, pouting while looking away. Aizawa responded by resting his hand on the small of your back. Your eyes made contact with his inky ones. He maintained the contact, tilting his head as if asking you if something was wrong. Swallowing, he turned away and continued walking in silence.
Aizawa switched on the light, commenting on how dusty it was In there. "Hold the door open for me, need space to get the boxes out," he mumbled, moving to the racks stacked with various boxes labelled with markers in bold lettering. You held the weighted grey door open, waiting for him to grab the materials he needed. Aizawa walked right into a rack, making the boxes tumble.
"Aizawa!" You exclaimed as you lunged forward in an attempt to pull him away. His body stumbled into yours. "I could have taken care of myself, L/N." Aizawa stated, just as a soft click was heard behind you two. You looked at him, whose mouth was slightly open out of shock. Well, this was awkward. You laughed nervously- "Oops?"
"I hope you do remember neither of us have the keys to open this door?" Aizawa stated, rolling his eyes. He tried moving around, your body now facing the door. Aizawa grit his teeth, throwing his head back in frustration. All this moving wasn't helping. The air felt stiff and heavy, the smell of cardboard boxes filling the air. Your chest pressed against the door, and his body clung to yours from behind- no space to move around now. Looking at the floor, you breathed out trying to think while tapping your heels on the floor anxiously.
The tension in the air could be cut with a knife. Aizawa breathed heavily into your ear, bringing you back to the present situation. "Stop moving." He commanded, his voice deeper than usual. You tried looking back to take a look at his face, but his fingers dug into the flesh on your hips. "I told you to stop moving." Aizawa breathed out, punctuating each word with a firm silence. He sounded like he was...out of breath? You didn't understand why, opening your mouth to say something sarcastic when you felt something poke your bottom half.
Aizawa pushed you forward, using his body. You pressed your hands on the shut door, trying to support yourself. He pushed into you, almost out of instinct, a moan slipping out of his mouth, smooth like honey. "I'm- sorry." Aizawa said, his hard-on pressed firm into your ass. "There's no space to mo-"
"You don't sound very sorry." You stated, trying to sound confident but just as nervous if not more than Aizawa. "L/NNhh-" Aizawa breathed into your ear, feeling around your pockets for your phone. "I think we're past last names now," you stated, out of breath yourself- unable to believe this was actually happening. Aizawa hummed, his hips pressed into yours as his hands patted your pockets. His breath was hot and heavy, the moment felt so intimate despite the awkwardness and lack of professionalism. Pulling your phone out, you rested your head against his chest as he switched on your phone. "Fuck." There's no signal here.
"I guess we're stuck here for a while then, aren't we?" You joked, pushing back at him.
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Guilty Pleasures ŕź jjk, kth (m) | chapter v
â Summary: Three years of being Seoul's power couple earns you nothing but a big fat divorce settlement and your face plaster on every gossip column around town. You're angry, hurt, and desperately want to move on, but worst of all? You're still in love with the man who started the whole mess, even though the most he can ever see you as is a friend. The renowned actor you've hired to be your company's new endorser seems to have a soft spot for you though. He's easy on the eyes, you'll admit, but who actually wants a divorcee like yourself? It's unrealistic really.
pairing: ex-husband ceo!jungkook x ceo!reader, actor!taehyung x ceo!reader
genre/AU: angst, smut, fluff, loverstoexesto ?, coworkers2?, unrequited love
Word count: 14k+
Warnings: oc and jk are both 30, Taehyung is 32, swearing, tornado of emotions, morally grey characters, mentions of toxic relationships, mentions of broken home/families, mean relatives, mentions of therapy, struggles of self-blame, regret, guilt, denial, self-deprecating in some areas etc., mentions of alcohol consumption, mentions of sexism in the media and business world, there is one scene depicting some physical violence (tame) , finally some fluff!, and I won't spoil any more
playlist: Unkiss Me, Apologize, Hate That I Love You, etc.
a/n: OMG....ignore the fact that this is releasing a month after ch. 4. đŤ i'm sorry. On the bright side, I'm VERY excited to share this with you AND this actually isnât the last chapter. Thereâs one more after! I hope you enjoy 𼰠ALSO, this is GP!Taehyung in this chapter (....đŽâđ¨)
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"This can't be right," you mutter to yourself for the umpteenth time, eyes heavily fixated on your laptop screen. You've been scrolling through the latest press releases all morning, a cup of tea growing cold beside you.
Ever since Jiminâs text last week, rumors about your ex-husband stepping down from his position at JeonX practically spread like wildfire, with nearly every journalist adding their individual spin on the matterâsome suggest personal issues, while others hint at possible disagreements within the company.
Despite the influx of information, however, it all remains too vague and inconclusive. An official statement from the company directly would help clear up speculations, but itâs been crickets. Their silence only makes you consider the validity of the rumors even more.
Why would they make such a critical leadership change right after their newest product launch though?
This question, among others, continuously swirl in the back of your mind and you find the entire predicament ironic. You used to be one of the first to know the ins and outs of the company, easily able to distinguish the truth. Now, you're left in the dark like everyone else, dependent on the media for answers.
Before your eyes have time to skim the next group of articles on your screen, your phone rings.
It's Taehyung.
âHey,â you answer casually, momentarily forgetting the significance of the call.
âMorning!â His voice is gravelly yet carries a cheerful tone. He seems quite upbeat for a foggy Saturday at 8 a.m. âAre you still okay to carpool to my parents' place today? Tan and I are on our way over.â
Dammit. Of course, this isnât just any old Saturdayâitâs the day of Taehyungâs family gathering. It had slipped your mind that you asked to ride together a few days prior. Given that it would be a five-hour long commute, driving separately seemed less convenient and enjoyable. Besides, youâd miss out on having Tan on your lap, his head poking out of the passenger-side window.
âYeah, Iâm good to go,â you reply, trying to sound more confident than you feel. âIâll be ready when you get here.â
âGreat! See you soon.â Taehyung hangs up, and you put your phone down with a deep breath.
To be blunt, you're still extremely nervous about the affair. Surely his family knows who you are and has seen their fair share of articles about you. So how will they react when you show up next to Taehyung at their family function? He says theyâll like you, but it's hard to accept.
Nonetheless, you know how important this family gathering is to him and how much he wants you to be there. Not only is it a family event, but itâs also a celebration of his recovery from a motorcycle accident that couldâve been much worse.
As you pour your cold cup of tea down the sink, you try to push away the unsettling mix of thoughts, focusing instead on the next task at handâ how you should dress. Prior conversations with Taehyung advise you that something polished would be ideal for the occasion, as his family appreciates a touch of elegance, yet your mind blanks on a tangible option. Surely, thereâs something in the back of your closet that would do the trick. Right?
WellâŚyouâre right-ish.
Upon searching through rows of hangers, arms growing tired, you finally find a somewhat suitable sundress. Youâre hoping it wonât look too casual, but you donât seem to have a better alternative with your closet currently overtaken by work clothes.
Wasting no further time, you quickly slip the dress over your head and observe how it fits in the mirror. Not bad, you think, before deciding on a few complimentary jewelry pieces. The saving grace of this choice of clothing is that it can easily be dolled up, which is exactly whatâs needed today.
Soon, you hear the muffling of an engine and when you peek through your bedroom window, youâre unsurprised to see Taehyungâs car pull into the driveway with a very excited Tan poking his head out from the backseat. A small smile forms on your lips at the sight.
Sparing one final look in the mirror, you slide into your shoes, toss your bag over a shoulder, and head outside to meet them.
âHey!â Per usual, you're met with a warm smile as you hop into Taehyung's car but before you can return the greeting, Tan bounds onto your lap, tail wagging eagerly. âGod, Iâm so sorry about him,â Taehyung reaches for his dog, but you quickly reassure him itâs alright.
âIâm happy to see you too, Tan,â you laugh, petting him affectionately. Your focus then shifts over to Taehyung, "Thanks for coming to get me."
âOf course,â he replies, smile widening as he watches Tan settle into your lap. âIâm really glad youâre coming with me," he continues, pulling away from the curb. "My parents are looking forward to meeting you.â
You nod, trying to calm your fluttering nerves. âIâm looking forward to meeting them too.â This time, when you glance his way, you take in his attireâa crisp white button-up shirt, sleeves rolled to the elbows, and black dress pants. Itâs a classic look, yet it seems oddly refreshing on him. It's not like you expected Taehyung to look bad or anything; far from it, but did he always have to look this good? A queasy feeling soon settles in the pit of your stomach...maybe you should have worn something else.
Before you're able to fully turn away from him, Taehyung speaks up. âYou look really nice today,â he says softly, eyes lingering over your face and down your body before shyly refocusing on the road. âThat dress is beautiful on youâit really suits you.â
âOh, thank you,â you reply with a shy smile of your own, unexpectant of his comment. âYou donât look half bad yourself.â
Something about the subtle exchange of compliments stirs a bundle of nerves in both of you and even with averted eyes, neither of you finds it entirely unpleasant.
The rest of the drive is long, but luckily, soon fills with lighthearted conversation and laughter. It's become easier and easier to be around Taehyung, you think.
After more than a few bathroom breaksâmostly due to Tanâs persistent whiningâyou finally catch sight of Taehyungâs parentâs house.
Itâs even more picturesque than you imagined, with its charming architecture and well-tended garden. In the distance, the ocean glimmers, tying the scene perfectly together.
âI meant to mention earlier, but my parents have an oceanfront view,â Taehyung says casually, pulling up to the house. âWe can go down there later if youâd like. Itâs private access.â
âReally?â You glance over at him with anticipation, your excitement clear. You can already taste the saltiness of the water. âIf itâs really okay, Iâd love that.â
âItâs more than okay,â he assures with a smile. âIn fact, itâs a done deal. The best time to go is in the evening. We can even use the excuse that we need to take Tan for a little stroll if necessary. Family bonding can get a bit overwhelming without a few breaks.â He lets out a chuckle but stops when he notices your slightly demure expression.
âHey,â he turns to you with gentle eyes. âEverything okay?â
You blink, momentarily pulled from your thoughts. âOh, yeah, sorry. I was just thinking itâs been a while since Iâve gone to any kind of family affair. They know Iâm coming, right?â
Understanding your apprehension, Taehyung shifts the gear into park and places a light hand on your arm. âAbsolutely, and please believe me when I say theyâre more than ready and excited to meet you. Theyâve asked about you so many timesâIâm pretty sure Iâve lost count. I��m really happy youâre here with me too, so I hope you donât feel like youâre intruding because I promise youâre not at all. And if at any point you need a moment to yourself, take it. I want you to feel as comfortable as possible, and Iâm confident my family will want the same.â
With his hand on your arm, you find yourself wrapping yourself in the comfort of the gesture, nerves slowly easing in the process. âThanks, Tae,â you reply, feeling a tad lighter than before.
âAre you ready?â
You nod, signaling him to remove his hand to take the key out of the ignition. As his hand leaves your arm however, you feel a subtle, unexpected shiftâwishing the warmth of his touch could linger just a moment longer.
But hold up.
Since when did he affect you like this?
Dwelling on it further proves to be futile because before you can blink, the houseâs front door swings wide open, revealing an older, petite woman with a kind and inviting smile. You both step out of the car immediately, Tan happily trotting around the yard confidently.
The woman pulls Taehyung into a big hug once close enough, and itâs all the evidence you need to deduce that she must be his mother.
âWe were wondering where you were!â she starts. âEveryoneâs here except you.â Itâs a light scold, not that Taehyung minds from the giant grin spreading across his face.
âForgive me, Mom. I guess weâre fashionably late,â he replies.
Mrs. Kim looks up and down her son with adoration, hands still gripping his arms. âLook at you,â she coos, as if proud. âMy son is so handsome. Iâm so happy to see you here, healthy and well.â
âMom, this is __.â
Her eyes then shift to you, standing somewhat awkwardly beside them. If possible, her warm expression brightens even more, taking you by surprise.
âMy goodness, Iâm being so rude," she says, stepping toward you. "Itâs wonderful to finally meet you, honey. Are you okay with hugs?â
âSure.â You offer a sincere smile and embrace her. When you do, you feel a sense of peacefulness that you hadnât ever before, soothing any lingering tension. You canât help but assume that many of Taehyungâs qualities must come from her.
âIâm so pleased that my son brought you today,â she says, pulling back from the hug. She takes in your clothing as well. âYou're absolutely lovely, my dear. Doesn't this color work wonderfully on her?â She glances at Taehyung, who merely nods in agreement.
âYouâre the one who looks beautiful, Mrs. Kim,â you return the compliment, feeling a tad embarrassed by all the praise. âI love your earrings by the way. Are they jade?â
She nods, pleasantly. âThank you for noticing. Theyâre indeed jade. My husband gifted them to me for our anniversary last year. I told him he didnât need to get me anything, but that man is so persistent. Speaking of which, you should come inside and meet him.â She turns around at once and ushers you and Taehyung into the house. He allows you to go first.
As you follow Mrs. Kim up the steps, Tan bounds ahead excitedly. The aroma of delicious food fills the air the further you walk, and soon youâre greeted by a cozy, homey atmosphere.
Finally, you find Taehyungâs father in the kitchen, washing his hands at the sink. âHoney, Taehyungâs here and he brought __ with him.â Upon hearing your name, the man quickly dries his hands on a towel and extends a friendly hand your way, eyes twinkling.
âHello, __! Iâm glad you could come today. Weâve heard so much about you.â
âLikewise,â you reply, âThank you for welcoming me into your home. Itâs gorgeous in here.â
âWell, we have our son to thank.â He directs his attention to Taehyung, reaching out and patting his son on the back with a proud smile. âHe bought this house for us after all. Heâs a good son.â
What?
You glance at Taehyung in surprise, intrigued to learn more about this new bit of information. However, seemingly flustered by the comment, you decide itâs better to save it for another time. His mother is quick to step in.
âTaehyung, dear, why donât you show __ around and introduce her to everyone?â she suggests smoothly. âTheyâre all in the living room. Weâll gather everyone to have lunch soon.â
Taehyung nods at the suggestion and begins leading you through the house, until you reach the living room at the end of the hall. The room is even larger than you anticipated upon entering, its high ceilings finished with a delicate glass chandelier. A grand piano sits in the far corner as well where a number of children huddle together, each taking turns playing a few notes.
One by one, Taehyung starts introducing you to his relatives and despite your initial apprehension, each person you meet greets you with nothing but warmth and kindness. Not even a single person shows discomfort towards you or makes a dig into your personal life (though youâre certain theyâre well aware of who you are). Itâs no wonder Taehyung boasts about his family so oftenâthey truly are a close-knit and respectable group of people.
At least, thatâs what you think until Taehyung asks, âWhere's Auntie and Uncle? I havenât seen them yet.â
One of Taehyungâs cousins looks a bit hesitant before replying, âOh, Tae, Iâm sorry, but we havenât heard anything from them so they might not be coming today. Maybe they had last-minute plans. Itâs a bit of a shame, really.â
An odd silence settles over the room at this, conversations lower in volume, and a few knowing glances are exchanged among relatives. The abrupt shift seems to throw a wrench into your previous statement of closeness since, evidently, the absence of Taehyungâs aunt and uncle casts a dark shadow over the cheerful gathering.
Sensing an awkward lull, Taehyung tries to lighten the mood with a bright smile. âWell, Iâm sure weâll still have a great time. Iâm just happy to see everyone here.â He gently redirects the conversation to something more upbeat, attempting to remedy the unusual tension.
Just then, a small figure bursts into the room, capturing everyoneâs attention.
A little girl, no more than six or seven years old, runs straight toward Taehyung with arms outstretched. âTaetae!â she shouts, using the affectionate nickname as she latches herself around his legs.
Taehyung's face breaks into possibly the happiest grin youâve seen in response as he kneels to lift her up effortlessly, holding her close as she giggles. âHey, sweetheart! I missed you!â His voice is filled with affection, though thereâs a hint of shock as well.
Eagerly, the little girl secures her arms around his neck. âI missed you too! Mommy and Daddy said we might not be able to come, but here we are!â
âWell, I'm so glad! Have you been a good girl for your parents?â he asks with a playful tone.
The little girl nods vigorously. âYes! Iâve been helping Mommy with so much lately.â
âGood job!â Taehyung says, giving her a high five.
Youâre unsure exactly how the two relate, but the longer you watch the interaction unfold, the more evident it becomes that Taehyungâs a natural at connecting with children. His playful demeanor and patience make it clear that he has a special way with them. Itâs heartwarming to see, quite honestly.
âTaetae, whoâs she?â the little girl asks suddenly, her big, curious eyes setting on you.
Taehyung smiles and gestures for you to come closer. âThis is __. Sheâs my friend.â He looks at you and adds, âThis is my little cousin Eun-ha. Weâre quite close.â
âHi, Eun-ha,â you greet with a soft smile. âItâs so nice to meet you.â
She doesnât return your greeting, but rather leans into Taehyungâs ear and whispers something you canât quite hear.
Taehyung chuckles softly, though it does little to conceal your curiosity. âNo, Eun-ha,â he says, shaking his head. âWe donât kiss like in my movies. But yes, she's very pretty.â
Though you wish otherwise, your surprise is barely hidden as you process the revelation.
âWhy not?â Eun-ha asks, puzzled. âYou kiss lots of pretty people in the movies.â
Flustered, Taehyung clears his throat. âWhoâs letting you watch my shows? Youâre a little young for those I think.â
âShe likes to watch them when she canât see you,â a new voice interjects.
Following the voice, you see two adults entering the roomâ Taehyungâs aunt and uncle. Their expressions are clearly stiff and somewhat distant, a stark contrast to the warmth of the rest of the family.
âWell, I guess itâs okay then,â Taehyung responds, maintaining his usual beaming smile. âAuntie, Uncle, itâs good to see you.â
His aunt and uncle offer polite but somewhat curt greetings.
âGlad to see youâre alright, Taehyung,â his aunt says, her tone lacking warmth.
âHello,â his uncle adds, his expression neutral. âI see youâve brought a guest.â He nods toward you.
âYes, this is __,â Taehyung introduces you, âSheâs a friend of mine and a colleague as well.â
The pair glance at you briefly, their eyes betraying a lack of interest.
âNice to meet you,â his aunt says, though the thickness in her tone suggests otherwise.
âLikewise,â you respond, trying to match their formality with a friendly smile.
âYou know, when I heard my nephew was bringing a guest, I wasnât quite sure what to expect,â she continues, though the implication is unclear.
âIâm sorry?â you ask, trying to grasp her meaning.
âMy apologies. I work as an editor for a journalism outlet, so Iâve come across your name before,â she explains. âItâs always interesting to see people in person after reading about them. I canât say I ever imagined having the opportunity today.â
âOh,â you say, trying to keep your composure. âI hope the coverage has been accurate.â You know they havenât been, aside from a couple of progressive news outlets. Based on her rigid stare, you donât think she belongs to either of them.
âTheyâre accurate most of the time,â she replies, her eyes narrowing slightly. âAlthough, there are alwaysâŚdifferent perspectives on such matters.â
You offer a polite, tight-lipped smile in response. Despite your best efforts to remain composed, however, your hands unconsciously clench into fists at your sides, indicating your bubbling discomfort.
âWell, Iâm sure those articles are just one side of the coin,â Taehyung chimes in, attempting to smooth over the conversation. âIâm of the mindset that you really donât know a person until you spend time with them. And I can assure you, those overpriced tabloids have it all wrong.â He shoots you a reassuring look.
In the midst of it all, Taehyungâs father steps into the room, oblivious to the tension. âAlright everyone, itâs time to eat!â he announces, his voice carrying a cheerful note. âLetâs gather around now.â
Neither you nor Taehyungâs aunt speak another word to each other as you follow his father into the dining room. You take a deep breath along the way, an attempt to steady yourself.
As lunch begins, Taehyungâs father stands at the head of the table, a broad smile on his face as he raises a glass.
âWe want to thank everyone for being here today to celebrate Taehyungâs recovery,â he begins, his voice filled with heartfelt sincerity. âWeâre grateful for this family and for the love and support that has carried us through. To Taehyung!â
âTo Taehyung!â everyone echoes, lifting their glasses in a unified cheer.
From then on, the meal progresses smoothly, with conversation gradually returning to pleasant topics. Dishes are passed around, and laughter helps lighten the mood. Taehyungâs parents share stories of their journey together, their voices rich with wisdom and nostalgia. As you listen, you get a glimpse of the morals that have shaped their family. Itâs so different from your own upbringing, and you feel honored to be a part of it today.
Yet it's still difficult to ignore the lingering heaviness in your chest from your earlier interaction with Taehyungâs aunt. Even now, her sour expression is directed your way, though she seems to withhold her remarks, perhaps due to Mr. and Mrs. Kimâs presence.
Donât take this personally, you repeat in your head. Thereâs likely some underlying history or traditional views being projected onto you. This isnât really about youâŚdon't take it personally.
Midway through the meal, Taehyungâs mother intrigues everyone by pulling out a collection of old photographs. She begins sharing the backstories of various childhood photos of Taehyung, the corners of her eyes crinkling with joy and amusement as she recounts each memory. Taehyung, visibly flustered, tries to hide his blush as his family teases him.
âOh, look at this one!â his mother exclaims, holding up a particularly old photo of a much younger Taehyung with a hilariously exaggerated hairstyle. âHe was so determined to be a rock star!â
The room bursts into laughter, and Taehyung grins sheepishly, his cheeks rosy. âIs this really necessary? I mean __âs hereâŚâ
âCome on, Tae, itâs cute!â you say with a smile, giving his arm a playful shove. As you do, Taehyungâs auntâs eyes widen slightly. Her gaze shifts sharply between you two, and a flicker of disapproval crosses her face. You stop your playfulness upon first notice, finding it hard to ignore.
âItâs embarrassing,â Taehyung retorts, unaware of his auntâs reaction.
âOh hush,â his mother replies with a warm smile. âLet a mother indulge in the memories of her children. Youâre all grown up now, and with your busy schedule, I hardly see you anymore.â
âAlright, fair point,â Taehyung concedes. âCarry on.â
When the meal winds down, Taehyungâs aunt clears her throat and speaks up. âIs everyone ready for dessert? Iâve baked a homemade cake,â she announces, tone carrying a hint of forced cheerfulness. Turning to you, she adds, âWould you mind assisting me in the kitchen, __? I could use an extra hand.â
Taehyung immediately offers to help, but his aunt insists on speaking with you alone, masking it as an opportunity to get to know you better.
Once youâre in the kitchen and away from prying eyes and ears, Taehyungâs auntâs demeanor shifts abruptly. She returns to her previous blunt and unreserved nature. âI need to be honest with you,â she begins, her voice low and steely. âI donât think you should be here.â
Her words sting, yet a part of you canât help but wonder if thereâs some merit to them.
âI know this is a family event, and Iâm sorry if it seems like Iâm intruding. Taehyung invited me.â
âNo, thatâs not what I meant,â she dismisses, venom lacing her tone. âI mean, you shouldnât be here with Taehyung.â
âIâm not sure what youâre referring toââ
âOh please, donât pretend I donât have eyes, Ms. __,â she interjects sharply. The use of your formal name sends a chill down your spine. âYou may be friends now, but I can see thereâs more going on beneath the surface. Unlike the rest of my family, I wonât just stand by and let it happen. So, if you think you can charm your way into my nephewâs life just like you did with that ex-husband of yours, then youâre mistaken. I wonât allow you to ruin his life.â
Ruin his life? You ruined Jungkookâs life and now you are about to ruin Taehyungâs? Confused and hurt, you finally realize the root of the matterâshe's convinced youâre a gold digger.
Youâre stunned by the accusation, struggling to find words as she continues. âThereâs nothing you can say to change my mind either. Even if the articles arenât exactly true, you still have a past, and Taehyung deserves betterâsomeone without all these complications. Donât you agree? Maybe if you hadnât been married before and were ten years younger, things might be different. But honestly? A woman your age should already have a family of her own.â
Silence falls heavily in the kitchen after her final words, the only sound being your labored breaths. Your throat goes dry and your hands clammy as some of your deepest insecurities take root, striking right at your core.
Itâs trueâyouâre 30 years old, divorced, and without children. Itâs a stark contrast to your peers.
Youâd always imagined your life turning out differently, but here you are, alone and without any kind of companionship. You werenât expecting to be reminded of it all today.
âI think youâve made yourself clear about how you feel,â a voice speaks up, and you think itâs yours, until you realize itâs much too deep.
Taehyungâs aunt looks momentarily stunned to see her nephew standing in the doorway, his expression a mixture of shock and anger. But she quickly regains her composure. âTaehyung, I was justââ
âPlease donât,â he interrupts, voice firm. âIf I had known you were going to be this cruel towards someone I deeply care about, then Iâm sorry I invited you.â
He steps closer, his gaze unwavering. âYou have no right to judge someone you donât know based on rumors and assumptions.â
His auntâs face softens, though her disapproval remains. âIâm only looking out for you. I donât want you to get hurt.â
âI donât need you to protect me from my own choices,â Taehyung replies, his voice calmer. âIâve made my own decisions, and __ is a part of that. If you canât respect that, then maybe you should reconsider how you approach these situations.â
Taehyungâs aunt stands silent for a moment, her gaze shifting between Taehyung and you. She seems to weigh his words before finally nodding and turning back towards the dining room, her displeasure still evident.
Taehyung turns to you, his face etched with worry. âAre you alright?â
You hesitate, unable to give a clear response. âI⌠I think I need some air,â you finally say.
âMaybe itâs time we take that walk down to the beach,â he suggests gently. âWhat do you think? Of course, if youâd prefer to go solo, thatâs completely your call too. Iâll understand either way.â
You nod, appreciating the idea. âIâd like you to come with me.â
âLet me grab Tan and we can head down,â Taehyung says with a reassuring smile.
The sound of the waves grows louder as you approach the ocean, providing a soothing backdrop to your racing thoughts. It's even more beautiful up close, you think, observing how the sun reflects off the water.
As you walk along the shore, Tan runs ahead, chasing the waves and barking playfully. The sight of him brings a small smile to your face, easing some of the heaviness in your chest.
Taehyung walks beside you, his presence peaceful, though neither of you are quick to speak.
Finally, after a few minutes pass, he breaks the silence.
âIâm really sorry about what happened back there," he says quietly. "My aunt's always had more traditional perspectives, but I didnât know how rigid theyâd gotten. Regardless of how she might've made you feel, I want you to know that youâre very important to me and I couldn't care less about what the public says. The rest of my family seems to love you too so far."
You take a deep breath, the salty air filling your lungs. âItâs not your fault, Taehyung. But thank you.â You pause, your face visibly conflicted. âTo be honest, Iâve heard variations of it before from other people. I just didnât expect her to be so⌠direct.â
He nods, turning to you with sincerity. âI know it was hurtful, and even though I didnât hear everything she said, you didnât deserve it. It's not true, either.â
You manage a small, tight-lipped smile, but it hardly matches how you feel inside. âWell,â you begin, continuing your walk, âsome of it's true, I think.â Taehyung looks at you with concern, though you struggle to hold his gaze.
âWanna sit?â he suggests lightly, gesturing to a spot on the beach with a clear view of the waves ahead. "Tan'll be fine to roam around on his own."
You nod slowly in reply, a gentle breeze caressing your face and feathering against your legs as you move.
Once you reach the area, you tuck the skirt of your dress beneath your thighs and take a seat on the soft sand. Taehyung sits down beside you.
âSo,â he starts again, his eyes never leaving your face, âwhatâs true?"
You take a moment, watching the waves crash against the shore before forming a response. âItâs justâŚâ Your voice falters as you search for the right words. âIâm 30 years old. The natural course for someone my age is to have a family, a couple of kids, and of course, be married. Or at the very least, have a reliable romantic partner.â
âInstead,â you take a short breath, âit feels like Iâm living in a completely different reality from everyone else. Divorced from a big shot CEO, without children, and painted as some kind of spinster or gold digger for the media to exploit. Being a woman, there's really no in-between which makes it that much harder to overcome."
Upon finishing your thought, an unmistakable nervousness bubbles up within you. Had you just overshared? Were you too honest? Although unsettled, everything in you hopes that you didn't just overstep your boundaries with Taehyung, as the two of you hadn't had this deep of a conversation before. You find yourself holding your breath as he replies.
"To have all that unnecessary pressure placed on you is unfair,â he says quietly. âI canât imagine how tough it must be to feel disregarded and reduced to so little. I'm so sorry, __. I'm sorry that we gets so fixated on image and whatâs deemed proper that we often forget the real meaning behind things. I know it might be hard to believe, but thereâs more to your story than what others see or say. More than even you might think, too."
As if inevitable, your vision goes misty and a tear spills down your cheek upon hearing his words, though you're quick to wipe it away. It's not that the words themselves are monumental, but rather, they confirm the closeness of your relationship. Few people have ever understood or cared to understand you, so you had stopped expecting it altogether, especially after your divorce. Yet somehow, Taehyung always surprises you, being one of the few who truly does.
Feeling a bit more comfortable, you admit, "I know it's probably an overstatement, but I can't help but feel like I'm alone in ways that are hard to escape. Some days I just don't know what to do with it all. Does that make sense?"
âSweetheart,â Taehyung says softly, taking the hand you used to wipe your tears and lacing his fingers with yours. The warmth of his touch sends a comforting spark through you. Heâs never called you that before, and it feels unexpectedly intimateâalmost domestic, if you didnât know better.
âIt makes complete sense, especially given what you've gone through and still are. You donât ever have to feel alone anymore though,â he continues. âIâm here for you. You have Jimin and Namjoon too. And the three of us? Weâll always have your back.â
Your eyes soften as you meet his gaze. Heâs looking at you with such warmth and innocence, yet he hasnât fully grasped the weight of your words.
âI appreciate it,â you say gratefully. âItâs not all one-dimensional, though. When I say I feel alone, I mean relationally as well because, given my age and marital status, it's unlikely I'll find any real companionship. Iâm just considered âused goods' after all.â
âUsed goods? Who the hell said you're used?â Taehyungâs voice rises, not in anger but in genuine offense. Amid his reaction, his hand slips from yours.
âOur entire society?â you retort, raising your voice before lowering it again, realizing he means well. You pull your legs up to your chin and hug them. âIâm divorced, Tae. Iâm no beauty queen. Just used goods, as I said.â
You both stare out into the distance, falling into a brief silence.
âWell, I for one think youâre very gorgeous,â he says softly, still gazing ahead. âSo please, donât call yourself used. Youâre definitely not.â
âTaeââ
âDo you wish you were still married?â he interjects gently, eyes returning to yours, searching for the truth. He wants to add, To Jungkook? but keeps it to himself, not deeming it his business.
You take a moment to process his question before responding.
âSome days I do,â you admit. âNot just with anyone, though. Iâve already learned my lesson the hard way. Jimin tried setting me up with a few of his coworkers a while back, but I declined. Theyâre so far away that I doubt anything would work out. Plus, not to be harsh but who in their right mind would risk it with me anyway?â
âI mean...I would,â he replies almost immediately, insistence in his voice. There's no trace of bluff at all and for a moment, your heart feels like it's doing about a hundred somersaults in your chest. Taehyung's seriousness makes it seem like he means it in a deeper way, but it can't beâheâs merely speaking figuratively because of your closeness.
âOf course you would,â you reply, grabbing his hand again and smiling gratefully. âBecause you love me, right?â
You pose the question playfully, feeling your mood lift slightly, but Taehyungâs expression turns stunned, like a deer caught in headlights.
âI do,â he finally murmurs, deep and meaningful, a soft glimmer in his eyes. âI really do.â
"Hu-" you choke on your words, still trying to process his. You never finish, though, as Taehyung suddenly moves to stand up, a newfound cheekiness taking precedence over his face.
âCome on,â he says, âon a warm day like this, we should find a way to enjoy ourselves. Dance with me.â
âWhat?â you ask, though to be honest, you're not surprised by his spontaneity. âDancing is a no, Tae. You know I have zero rhythm.â
He doesnât reply to your argument but instead draws his phone from his pocket, tapping around until light jazz music starts playing. He turns up the volume as loud as he can before placing it on the ground beside you.
âWhat are you doing?â you watch as he begins swaying his body from side to side, snapping his fingers when the beat feels right.
âIâm dancing by myself since you refuse to get up.â
You laugh, âI happen to like it this way. You can be my source of entertainment.â You adjust yourself so your legs are stretched out in front of you, feet crossed as you lean back on your arms.
He chuckles and continues dancing in small circles. You feel a little guilty the longer you watch. But then...
â__,â he calls your name, low and raspy. He steps over towards you and leans down until he's face to face with you. You like the way the sun glows down on his face, and the thought crosses your mindâhe looks incredibly handsome. â__,â he calls your name again, and you realize you've been staring a little too long.
âSorry,â you reply. âSunâs making me dazed.â
He gives his usual boxy smile, and damn, why are you feeling so affected by him today? Itâs not usually this much.
âWill you please dance with me? I donât mind dancing by myself, but I prefer a partner.â He pouts and you know youâre done for.
âIâm not going to be good though,â you reply, reluctantly rising from your comfortable seated position. Taehyung pulls you into his hold the moment youâre on your feet. It's a little rougher than he meant, and your bodies accidentally collide in the process.
âShit, my bad,â he says, taking a small step back.
âItâs fine," you assure, doing the same but not before catching a whiff of his cologne. You can't quite place the scent, but itâs nice...really, really nice.
As the music continues to play, you both sway gently to the rhythm. Taehyungâs touch is warm and steady as he guides you through each simple step. You feel a strange sense of comfort and safety in his arms, and for a moment, it feels like the rest of the world fades away.
âI didnât realize you were such a good dancer,â you start. âYouâve been keeping secrets from me.â
He spins you gently, and you let out a surprised laugh, the sound mingling with the soft notes of the jazz music. âI had to take ballroom dancing lessons for a role I played years ago,â he replies smoothly, âbut I enjoyed it, so I kept it up.â When you come back to him, he holds you a little tighter, and the closeness feels more intimate and special than you anticipated.
âYouâre doing great, by the way,â he whispers, his breath warm against your ear. "Even with barely any practice."
âAll thanks to you,â you reply, a shy smile tugging at your lips. âI guess itâs kinda fun.â
âSee? Not so bad,â he says with a triumphant grin.
You glance towards the ocean, feeling a rush of spontaneity yourself. âThe water looks so inviting. We should go in.â
He quirks a brow, taking in both of your more formal attire. âDressed like this?â he asks.
You donât answer. Instead, you slide out of his hold and run towards the water, laughing and splashing him once heâs close enough behind you.
âHey! This was expensive!â he shouts, but there's no threat in his voice, only amusement.
âWell, you shouldnât have worn it around me then!â you tease, splashing him again.
Now nearly drenched, Taehyung huffs and bends down to scoop water into his palm. âYouâre gonna get itâŚâ You back away quickly, but he follows after you. âCome here, I have a very special gift for you __,â he says mischievously, water spilling from his hand as he chases you.
You both end up playing in the water for the next ten minutes, splashing and laughing until you find yourself regaining confidence. At some point, Taehyung unexpectedly tackles you from behind, his arms wrapping so tightly around your waist that no amount of movement would free you.
You find yourselves too lost in amusement to notice your closeness until small droplets of water begin falling from above.
"Was that rain?" You stop all movement, but his grip doesnât loosen. "Tae?" You call his name when it seems he doesnât register your question, twisting your head over your shoulder to peer at him.
âOhâŚum, sorry,â he finally stammers, a faint blush rising to his cheeks as he realizes the tight hold he has on you. His body flushes against your back.
âNo, itâs okayâŚâ you struggle to conceal a blush of your own, the warmth of his embrace a little overpowering. "So, I think we should head back. I'm pretty sure it's raining."
He nods and slowly unwraps his arms from around you. "I agree, but where's Tan?" His eyes frantically scan around the beach. "Tan!" he calls, and soon, two fluffy, slightly damp ears pop out from behind a rock.
"Aww," you exclaim, bending down to pick up the little dog when he trots over. "Look at him. We neglected the baby."
Taehyung snorts at your remark. "He'll be okay. It barely started."
You pretend to cover Tan's ears and shoot Taehyung a faux alarmed expression. "He can hear you, you know."
Taehyung chuckles and gently cups Tanâs face while he nestles in your arms, planting a soft kiss on the top of his head. âSorry, buddy,â he says with a grin. As he looks up, he catches a prolonged gaze in your eyes and raises an eyebrow. âWhat? You want one too?â
âOh, uhm, no,â you laugh, a bit nervously, shaking your head. âItâs just nice to see you so endearing.â You think back to how Taehyung had interacted so sweetly with his younger cousin, Eun-ha, earlier. Itâs a side of him you're finding increasingly appealing.
Taehyung's gaze softens as he replies, âI like to take care of those I love.â
Love, you repeat quietly to yourself. It sounds so different when he says it.
You smile and, side by side, head back to the house.
The faint drizzle of rain quickly turns into a downpour, with a flash of lightning illuminating the sky and thunder rumbling in the distance. Despite the potential inconvenience, Taehyungâs parents insist that it would be better for both of you to wait until morning to drive back.
"It isn't safe," his mom advises, fluffing a pillow in the guest bedroom. "The two of you can stay here for the night. Iâd offer the living room sofa too, but some of your cousins are staying over as well."
"Thanks, Mom," Taehyung replies, and when she leaves the room he casts a brief glance your way. âIâll sleep on the floor.â
âWhat? No, you can sleep in the bed with Tan." You pause, eyes scanning the room for an alternative spot. âThis chair looks pretty comfortable. Iâll grab a blanket and make do.â
"Okay no, Iâm not letting you sleep on that old, dusty chair and risk waking up with a giant kink in your neck.â Taehyung places his hands on his hips, his tone firm. âWhy donât we just sleep in the bed together? For some inexplicable reason, my parents chose to put a California King in here so there should be plenty of room. Iâll even sleep on top of the covers.â
âNo, it's fine. Tan needs his space."
âSweetheart." There it is again, that same petname from earlier. Why do you not seem to hate it? "Tan is so tiny heâll literally curl between us," he argues, though it does little to convince you.
âTae, I told you itâsââ
âAlright, Iâll take the chair then-â Taehyung starts to move toward it, but stubbornly, you block his path. There's no way he's sleeping on a chair when you're the guest here.
âYou will do no such thing!" Naturally, you place your hands on your hips. âThis is your homeâwell, your parent's home and I won't be subjecting you to sleep on something that small. Seriously Tae, I'd fit much better on it than you would given our height differences.â
A small, frustrated sigh escapes him as he counters, âI'd really rather you be comfortable, especially in an unfamiliar environment. So can we please stop arguing about this? Itâs really unnecessary. Either I take the chair or we both find a way to share the bed. You canât tell me you and Jimin never shared a bed before, and heâs your friend too!"
âYes, but thatâs different,â you insist. âJimin and I have been friends for years! Thereâs a strong trust built between us.â
âWhat do you mean by that? You donât trust me?â His face mirrors that of a sad, puppy-dog.
âTae, itâs not that at all,â you say softly, trying to sound reassuring. âI do trust you. Itâs just⌠I guess I just meant that Jimin and I have a long history together. Weâve grown very comfortable with each other in ways you and I havenât yet.â
Taehyungâs brows furrow in concern. âWhat are you really worried about, __?â
You shrug, feeling a bit flustered. âNothingâŚâ
Your mind immediately drifts back to the beachâhow he listened, held your hand gently, the way his eyes crinkled when he laughed, and what it felt like to be held so close under the rain. Everything felt so genuine, warm, and openly vulnerable.
You share similar feelings with Jimin, but they have limits as you are definitely only friends⌠best friends, to be precise. With Taehyung, you figured it would be the same; however, after today, you're realizing more and more how unsure you are of where the limits are (or where you want them to be), and it startles you.
But itâs not this alone that fuels your apprehension tonightâ thereâs something else.
âYou know I wonât do anything right?â Taehyung asks, his voice earnest. âI sleep with five pillows!â
You raise an eyebrow, a faint smile tugging at your lips despite yourself. âFive? What the hell, Tae? Are you a princess?â
âYes,â Taehyung says, more nonchalantly than expected, âbut stop deflecting. It sounds weird and a bit kinky, but why wonât you sleep in the bed with me?â
Should you tell him?
Your expression grows serious as you explain, âBecause it can be very intimate,â you murmur softly. âMaybe I'm overthinking it all, but the last time I shared a bed with someone it...uhm...it wasâŚâ
â...with your ex-husband,â Taehyung finishes for you, his tone gentle with understanding. His eyes soften as he looks at you.
âYesâŚâ you admit, your voice barely above a whisper. âItâs silly, but I havenât done it in a long time. Even Jimin and I havenât shared a bed in years.â
âIâm sorryâŚâ Taehyung says, his voice filled with genuine regret.
âTae, you donât have to be sorry,â you say, shaking your head. âItâs my own issue. Iâll just sleep on the chair, alright? Itâs only one night.â
âNot happening, youâll take the bed with Tan.â
âSeriously,â you start to protest, but heâs already moving toward the foot of the bed with determination in his eyes. He grabs the blanket from the end and rushes over to the chair with haste. You run after him, pulling at his arm, and both of you end up laughing, the tension gradually breaking.
âIt's been a very long day and I'm quite tired, __. How about turning off the lights, please?â He spreads out the blanket and settles into the chair with a satisfied sigh. Then, thereâs a loud creak followed by a distinct cracking sound.
âFuckââ Taehyung swears as the chair suddenly collapses under his weight. He rises from his seat, grimacing at the broken chair. âI knew it was old, but damn, I didnât think it was that old.â
âShit, please tell me this wasn't a family heirloom or something.â
âUh⌠I donât think so?â Taehyung scratches his head, looking sheepish. âIâll let my mom know in the morning. Itâll be fine, okay? No worries. But, um, Iâll sleep on the floor instead.â Taehyung then grabs a couple pillows and a blanket and starts forming a makeshift bed on the floor. While you watch him, your heart softens despite your exhaustion.
âAlright, enough,â you sigh, exasperated. âIf we keep this up, weâll just be going in circles all night. Letâs just share the bed, Tae. Itâs not worth you being uncomfortable.â
Taehyung looks up, concern written over his face. âAre you sure? I donât want you feeling uncomfortable either. Iâm happy toââ
âIâm sure,â you cut him off, doing your best not to overthink it. âYou're the one who'll be driving for five hours tomorrow anyway, so letâs just get some decent rest. It's okay, really.â
After a good long pause, you both end up climbing into the bed, each taking your own side as Tan curls himself at the foot of the bed. Taehyung reaches over to turn off the light, but despite the calmness of the room, you find yourself unable to sleep right away. Youâre unaware he feels similarly until he unexpectedly breaks the silence.
âAre you warm enough?â he asks quietly. âWe have more blankets if you need them.â
You turn slightly toward him. âIâm okay for now, but thanks for checking.â
He gives a soft, reassuring smile. âAlright. Just let me know if you need anything. Sleep well.â
âThanks, Tae.â You roll back onto your side and close your eyes. âYou too.â
As the night deepens, the storm outside continues its relentless drumming against the windows. At some point, Taehyung jolts awake to a faint but unmistakable sound.
He blinks groggily at first, adjusting to the dim light filtering through the curtains. Then he notices your restless movements and hears you murmuring softly in your sleep, a note of distress in your voice.
"__?" he asks quietly, still half-asleep. "Are you okay?"
When you donât respond, he shifts closer, concerned by the unease on your face. Seeing your share of the blankets has slipped off, he gently tugs them back over you, making sure they cover you comfortably.
Amid the movement, a muddled groan escapes your lipsâsomething between a whimper and a sigh, "Mmm⌠noâŚ"
It doesn't take a genius to figure out you must be having a nightmare of some sort. âItâs just a dream,â he whispers soothingly, brushing a stray hair from your face. âYouâre safe here with me.â
He gently takes your slightly trembling hand and holds it gently in his. âIâm right here, __,â he sighs softly. âNo matter what happens, Iâll always be here.â
Taehyung isnât sure how much time passes before your restlessness stops, but he stays awake, hand clutching yours until it does. Eventually, assuming youâve finally entered a more peaceful sleep, he releases your hand and rolls onto his side.
What he doesn't expect is for you to unconsciously follow him over, your body snuggling against his back. The warmth of your body against his is comforting, but he knows he can't let you stay there and risk any awkwardness in the morning. So with the utmost care, he rolls over to face you and gently adjusts your body until you're lying comfortably on your back again.
"I hope you'll be able to sleep better now," he whispers, his voice barely audible above the storm. "Goodnight."
Following the reunion, you and Taehyung part ways with mutual thank-yous and promises to see each other soon.
Time seems to vanish afterward as you find yourself increasingly buried under an endless pile of work projects. Apparently, over the weekend, a notable investor reached out to your company with hopes of setting up a meeting.
Namjoon is nearly tripping over his words when he relays the message to you.
"Can you believe it?" Your secretary stands within a foot from your desk, excitement evident in his voice. "They want to meet with us! This could be huge for our company."
You share his enthusiasm but your need to remain holistic in the matter tempers your ability to feel overly zealous. Meetings with investors always carry significant opportunities; however, there's no guarantee a deal will be struck. Truthfully, it depends on a number of factors, their level of interest outweighing them all.
Plus, every meeting requires extensive preparationâlate nights where you tirelessly hunch over your computer, perfecting every detail of the pitch and this one promises to be no different.
"Did they happen to mention a time or date for further discussion?" you ask, matter-of-factly. Namjoon nods, pulling out his phone.
"Yes, they suggested next Wednesday at 10 AM.â
You weigh the proposal in your mind. âThat should give us enough time to get everything in order, then,â you conclude. âPlease put it in our calendar and let them know weâll be ready to meet on that day.â
From then on, the remainder of your week unfolds exactly as you anticipateârelentless preparation, long nights, and meticulous planning until the small of your back aches for relief. One might say it's an exaggeration, but the only breaks you can afford are for primal necessities like eating, sleeping, and using the bathroom.
Even your weekend is spent within the walls of your home office, a far cry from previous weekends when you used to visit the book cafĂŠ or meet up with Taehyung.
Speaking of which, you havenât really gotten to see each other since his family gathering and though it was only a week ago, the lack of his presence leaves you feeling a bit disheartened. He replied to your text yesterday, but even so, it was briefâsomething about a new project or talk show interview was keeping him busy as well.
By the time Wednesday arrives, your neck is so riddled with the stress of the upcoming investor meeting that you can barely focus on your proposal notes. Everything in you hopes that the investors will be impressed enough to partner with you, but thinking about it does nothing except heighten your nervousness.
In search of some kind of solace, your mind wanders to Taehyung instead. The memory of the small dance you shared with him on the beach is once again vivid, as if it happened just moments agoâthe soft sand beneath your feet, the sound of the waves, and the way his gentle hands gripped around your waist.
But why does this memory, out of all the possibilities, feel so soothing?
You've been struggling to come to a plausible conclusion since the day it happened, yet deep down, you know itâs not as trivial as it seems. You miss it, your subconscious hums, you miss him.
Just then, Namjoon pokes his head into your office, signaling that the investors have arrived in the conference room. You send a curt nod in reply and gather your notes, refocusing your mind on the task at hand; everything else will have to wait.
Turns out, you might have been a bit too pessimistic about the investor meeting. Theyâre surprisingly pleased with your plans and proposals, nodding along to each of your points. However, their request for a day or two to reach a final decision catches you a tad off guard.
Rather than grapple with the uncertainty though, you decide to mentally prepare for whatever comes next... starting by decompressing at the bar downtown, a glass of their strongest alcohol in hand.
At first, finding a seat proves to be a challenge as you navigate through a sea of sweaty bodies. But luck, seemingly on your side, provides you with an empty chair at the far end of the bar. While you sit and order your drink, you can't help but wonder what Taehyung might be doing tonight. Should you text him to see if heâd join you, even if only for fifteen minutes?
Slipping your phone from the side pocket of your bag, you curse silently at your apparent haste. Your subconscious was rightâyou really have missed him, damn.
All at once, your thoughts are put to an abrupt stop when you take a quick glance around the bar, your gaze unprepared to land on two familiar silhouettes at the opposite endâNamjoon, with Taehyung next to him, drinks in hand. You donât know how you failed to notice them before. Theyâre laughing, clearly enjoying each otherâs company, and for a moment, your face lifts into a smile.
But that smile quickly fades when you catch sight of two women sauntering over to join them. Your initial joy is swiftly replaced by a sharp sting of jealousy and you chastise yourself for the feeling. Who are you to react this way? Taehyung can do whatever he wantsâwhy should you care who heâs out with?
Forcing yourself to shake off the feeling, you take a sip of your drink, but your gaze keeps drifting back to the group. Itâs obvious that the taller of the two women, arguably as stunning as Taehyung, is laser-focused on him, her hand brushing his arm lightly as she laughs at whatever joke heâs just told. Probably a dumb one, you think bitterly; it's obvious she's not just there for the humor and booze. It's strange to witness, as you've only known Taehyung to allow a few, select women to touch him so openlyâhis mother, his onscreen cast members, and you.
Okay __, stop, you scold yourself. This is a bad idea; youâre getting too involved for your own good. Hastily, you finish your drink and head out of the bar, the cool night air brushing against your skin. If Taehyung goes home with her, itâs none of your business.
You're barely a few feet outside the bar's door when you hear commotion echo from a nearby alley. Alarmed, you whip towards the noise, your eyes widening in disbelief. There, in the dim light, you see your ex-husband doubled over, clutching his stomach, while a shadowy figure stands in front of him, fist clenched.
Youâre not sure where the courage comes from, but within seconds, you're springing to action, racing towards the scene with a surge of adrenaline. âHey!â you shout as loudly as you can. The attacker glances back, frazzled, then bolts into the night, leaving Jungkook hunched against the alley wall.
âOh my god, are you okay?â you ask frantically, rushing to his side and helping him to his feet. He flinches away from your touch initially, his face a mix of panic and agony. âItâs me, Jungkook. It's __. Can you hear me? Itâs okay, Iâm here,â you reassure him the best you can, hoping to ease him.
Jungkook takes a few shaky breaths, body still weak as he struggles to hold himself up against the wall. His eyes are glazed, and he seems disoriented. âI⌠I didnât expect you,â he mutters, his voice strained.
Offering him an arm, you help him steady himself. âLetâs get you out of here, okay?â He nods weakly, and as you guide him towards the parking lot and into the light, you ask, "What happened back there? Do you need me to take you to the hospital?"
Jungkook sighs, wincing slightly. âNo, itâs... Iâm fine. He was just a kidâno more than 21. Angry, probably a little drunk, and accused me of being the reason his father got fired. At first, I was confused, but then I vaguely recognized him as being one of our employeeâs sons. Pretty sure it was my dad who fired hisâI was probably just an easier target."
You both fall into a contemplative silence as you continue walking. Of course Jungkook's father, the chairman of the company, would be behind this, you think. Previous times spent with him had shown you how ruthless he could be when it came to the "well-being" of his company. Whoever the kid was, he probably had a right to be angry, but physically taking it out on Jungkook wasnât justifiable by any means.
âYou sure you donât need a doctor?â you ask, glancing at him with concern.
He shakes his head dismissively, "Don't worry about me," he replies. "A couple of punches to the gut won't kill me. I think it's about time I head home though."
You nod in agreement. âWhere did you park?â
He points to a spot on the far left side of the parking lot, and you nearly groan at the sight. âDid you have to bring your bike tonight?â you ask, a hint of exasperation in your voice.
Jungkook gives a weak smile, understanding the inconvenience of the situation. âThought Iâd ride it in case I needed to get somewhere fast,â he replies, his voice strained but with a touch of humor.
"Come on," you say, walking him toward your car instead. "We might not be married anymore, but thereâs no way in hell I'm letting you ride your bike home in this condition. You can pick it up tomorrow."
Jungkook chuckles weakly. âDamn, and to think we were about to ride it together for old timesâ sake. You used to be pretty good with my motorcycle back when you were my girlfriend, __." You roll your eyes, patience thinning. If this is another one of his sexual advances, youâre long over it.
"Yeah, well, that was before Taehyungâs accident scared me half to death," you retort. "And for the record, I was never your girlfriend. We went from work partners straight to I do." You open the passenger door and help him into the seat, giving him a gentle shove. "Now sit tight and no more motorcycle talk."
Jungkook leans back and raises an eyebrow with a playful smirk. âWell, what are we gonna talk about then? Itâs a twenty-minute drive to my place.â
You slide into the driverâs seat and start the engine, giving him the go-ahead to enter his address into your carâs GPS. âAre you really whining already?â
As Jungkook taps away on the GPS, youâre suddenly reminded of a series of past car trips you shared with him. Itâs almost like dĂŠjĂ vu.
âSeriously, __,â he starts, allowing his playful demeanor to fade. âThank you for doing this for me. I know we⌠well, we arenât exactly on the best terms.â
From the corner of your eye, you observe the way he aimlessly stares out the window, unsure whether to meet your gaze.
"We may not be in the best place, but that doesnât mean Iâd just leave you there," you sigh, gripping the steering wheel tighter. A long pause follows afterward until the question that's been gnawing at you finally slips from your lips. "How's everything with the company?"
Seemingly unfazed, as if heâd been anticipating the question, Jungkook replies, âIâm guessing youâve heard the rumors.â
âHard not to,â you say, keeping your eyes on the road.
He takes a deep breath before continuing, "Well, it's um... it's a sabbatical. I know it's probably a shock, right? My father isnât too thrilled about it, so heâs delayed the official announcement until we reach a final consensus. But things have been... complicated. Our newest product launched recently, and itâs doing well, but now I think I need some time for myself. To take a step back.â
Well, shit.
Even with all the rumors, you never would have guessed in a million years that the truth of the matter was an impending sabbatical. Jungkook has always been the type to work himself until his hands bleed, so this is the last reason you expected to hear.
âIâm glad to hear youâre finally letting yourself have a break, but honestly, it doesnât sound like you at all. Feel free not to share, but what do you mean by âcomplicatedâ?â The way he frames it sounds almost ominous.
âYou really want to know?â He finally glances at you for the first time since getting into the car, his eyes carrying a hint of vulnerability.
âOnly if you want to share,â you reply cautiously.
He looks down at his hands, gathering his thoughts. âSo, remember when we last saw each other a few months back? Well, Iâve been reflecting a lot on our relationship since then. I know I wasnât fair to you, __, and I really wish I could take it all back. You never deserved any of it. I was incredibly selfish and Iâm truly sorry.â
You remain silent, thrown off by how quickly everything circles back to your fragile past together. Still, you allow him to speak.
"Before we parted ways, you suggested I see a professional, and⌠I thought I'd finally take your advice for once. Itâs strange because Iâd never gone before, butâŚâ
He pauses, searching for the right words. âIâm starting to understand a lot about myselfâwhy I react the way I do and how I handle things. Itâs been tough, but Iâm trying. I guess Iâm taking this sabbatical because I need to figure myself out, away from work, so I can be better and stop hurting people around me."
For the first time in a long time, as you listen to your ex-husband, you realize he's beginning to sound genuinely mature. If it's true that he's been seeing a therapist and taking a sabbatical to prioritize his well-being, then you're extremely proud of him.
Yet, a small part of you remains stubborn, wishing he had made these changes earlierâimagine where you might be now if he had.
âThank you for being open enough to share this with me," you respond slowly, careful not to misspeak. "Though Iâm still a little surprised, I have to say Iâm really proud of you for seeking help. Iâve been seeing someone as well, and it took me some time to settle in too, but I suppose thatâs part of the healing processâbeing uncomfortable to an extent. Weâve had our share of challenges with one another, but despite everything, Iâll always wish the best for you, Jungkookâincluding your health and mental well-being.â
As you pull into the driveway of his house, parking the car near the front door, Jungkook takes a deep breath and turns to you, visibly affected. "It means a lot that you'd say that, __," he starts hesitantly, hands fidgeting in his lap. "I know I've made a lot of mistakes, and I understand if you can't forgive me completely. But I want you to know that I am sorry. I wasnât fair to you and I'm not proud of my behavior at all."
You nod in response, a small, tight-lipped smile forming. His remorse for the past is finally sincere, yet even now, as he looks at you with those hopeful eyesâthe same ones you carried for months on endâyou know he's searching for more than just your forgiveness.
But this time, you donât think you can offer him more than that.
Because while you grew fond of him during your marriage, you've come to realize how unearned and misplaced that affection was. He broke your heart not once, but twice. And although you can never hate him, deep down, you can't ignore the lingering sting you feel when you're around him.
It's both sobering and eye-opening.
So, rather than reversing into old emotions, you simply say, "I believe you, Jungkook, and I think with time I'll be able to forgive you. If thereâs ever a time when youâre in dire need of help, like tonight, Iâll do my best to be there. Iâm afraid thatâs as far as we can go, though."
Itâs written all over his face that itâs not what he was hoping to hear, but respectfully, he doesnât press further.
"I understand," he says, fingers reaching to for the passenger door handle. "Thank you again for being there for me tonight, and for driving me home. Please feel free to reach out if you ever need me as well. I hope for the best for you too, however and with whoever you choose."
The two of you exchange a brief look of gratitude before he finally pulls the door open and steps out of the car, making his way to his front door.
"Have a good night, and rest up," you call out to him. He smiles, gives a wave, and heads inside.
As you slowly back out of the driveway, you sigh, leaving only one person ruminating in your mind: Taehyung.
Then, inevitably, images of the stunning woman at the bar with him intrude your thoughts, stirring a deep, unsettling emotion within you.
Does it really matter that much who he's out with?
Are you really that jealous about it?
Mentally, you go back and forth as if plucking petals from a large sunflower⌠Yes. No. Yes. No. UntilâSilence.
You can't seem to give a straight answer. It's like the closer you and Taehyung grow, the more undefinable and knotted your feelings become. Yet, the further apart you are, the more unnatural it feels...
Well, your indecisiveness doesnât get any better by Friday because, finally, after what feels like an eternity, you and Taehyung have plans.
Youâre heading out for dinner at a restaurant of his choosing tonight, as he insisted you go somewhere new. Where could it be? You have no clue, and while surprises arenât usually your thing, his enthusiasm when you confirmed plans earlier has left you intrigued. Thereâs also this faint, inexplicably giddy feeling in your stomach that wonât go away, coinciding with a slight nervousness.
With such a seemingly important occasion, you find yourself in front of your bedroom mirror, twisting from side to side in whatâs probably the fifth outfit youâve tried on. But nothing seems to fit quite right. Youâre feeling especially frustrated to be frank, as something that usually takes you twenty minutes is turning into a whole hour.
You end up tossing one final dress over your headâa bit more elegant for the occasion, but itâs one of the few items you own that accentuates your body down to the last detail. The dress hugs around your waist and falls just above your knees, its rich color perfectly complementing your skin tone. But isnât it a little revealing? The neckline dips down further than you remember.
Crapâthe alarm on your phone suddenly chimes, reminding you that Taehyung's arriving in ten minutes. You're running out of time.
"Youâre being ridiculous. Itâll be fine,â you reassure yourself, smoothing down the skirt of the dress. âYou're just friends. He wonât care.â
âFriendsâ stings more than you anticipated, leaving a bitter aftertaste and a deflated feeling in your chest.
Nevertheless, you give yourself one last look in the mirror, apply a quick swipe of lipstick, and head downstairs. Just as you finish slipping on your shoes and grabbing your purse from the coat rack, the doorbell rings, causing your heart to leap from your chest.
Deciding to rip it off like a band-aid, you toss open the door, and there he isâstanding on your doorstep with his signature boxy grin and gently tousled raven hair. Taehyung's dressed in a tailored blazer and matching slacks over a crisp white t-shirt, and you find yourself at a complete loss for words as if youâve forgotten what itâs like to be around him.
Maybe itâs something in the air, but he appears equally stunned, looking you up and down with wide eyes. His gaze soon softens into admiration as he takes in your entire appearance. âWow,â he chokes, clearly impressed. âYou look amazing.â
You feel a rush of warmth at his compliment and muster all your strength to keep from looking away flustered. âThank you,â your voice wavers slightly. âYou look pretty great yourself.â
Tongue in cheek, he replies with a playful smirk, âI was hoping youâd say that,â which prompts you to lightly punch him in the arm.
âDon't be arrogant.â
He chuckles, rubbing his arm with a grin. âShall we head out?â
You nod and step outside, locking the door behind you.
The drive to the restaurant is a brief one, and you're immediately struck by the charm of its exterior when you arriveâstone walls, covered with vines of ivy and warm glowing lanterns. Inside is even more beautiful, with wooden shelves lined with old books and bottles of fine wine wrapping around the room. You're starting to understand why Taehyung was so insistent on bringing you here; the place perfectly reflects his taste and, unexpectedly, yours as well.
One of the hosts leads you to a deep mahogany table after confirming your reservation. The closer you get to it, the more you notice the crisp white linens and small tealight candles that sit on top, setting a romantic scene. If you had to describe the feeling, it would be as though youâve been transported straight to a quaint corner of France.
"So, what do you think?â Seated across from you, Taehyung looks at you with bated breath. His fingers fidget with the edge of the table, nervously anticipating your verdict.
âHonestly? Itâs so charming,â you reply, glancing around in awe. âI didnât even realize we had a place like this around.â
At this, his demeanor relaxes, and a pleased smile spreads across his face. âItâs a bit hidden, but once I found it, it quickly became one of my favorite spots.â He pauses, then adds, âThis is actually the same restaurant I wanted to take you to months ago, before my accident.â
âWhat? Youâre serious?â you blink in shock as the realization slowly sinks in. You take another look around the restaurantâthe rows of books, the bottles of wine, the elegant dining atmosphereâand suddenly, it all makes sense. How did you miss it before? âIâm sorry we didnât come sooner,â you say softly, regretful of having turned down his offer before.
âItâs okay,â Taehyung's quick to reassure you, reaching out to lightly touch your hand. âWhat matters is that weâre here now. And honestly, Iâm just happy to finally share it with you.â He gives you a warm smile, and immediately, you feel a small lump form in the back of your throat.
âThank you for bringing us here tonight,â you say, âItâs wonderful, and Iâm really glad we could make it up.â
âOf course,â he replies, âI thought it was a place weâd both enjoy.â
Everything about his responses seems to carry a heightened level of endearment and attentiveness, as if thereâs more hidden beneath them.
Perhaps selfishly, you also sense thereâs something uniquely special about this nightâsomething you believe only exists between the two of you. So, when Taehyung retracts his hand, you feel a fleeting instinct to reach out and grasp it again, but you stop yourself short.
What are you thinking? This isnât a date.
Needing a distraction, you grab the menu and start scanning the options.
Taehyung sees the way your gaze drifts and tilts his head, a concerned expression on his face. âEverything alright?â he asks gently.
You nod, forcing a smile. âYeah,â you reply, trying to sound casual. âI'm just getting pretty hungry with all the food I smell.â
He chuckles, "Same here," then picks up a menu of his own.
The two of you sit in silence for the next few minutes, fixated on the food and wine list. You find yourself stealing glances at him from time to time, and unbeknownst to you, he does the same.
After the waiter takes your orders, Taehyung leans forward, resting his chin on his palm. âHowâs everything at work been? Iâve been meaning to ask.â
Your face lights up at this. âHighs and lows," you reply, voice brightening, "but we got some exciting news today. I met with a potential investor earlier this week, and theyâve agreed to partner with the company. Itâs a big win for us!â
Sharing your enthusiasm, Taehyung raises his wine glass, implicating you to follow suit. âThis calls for a toast,â he says. âI know it must have meant long nights for you, but Iâm so glad they recognized the value of you and your work. Seriously, __, you should be incredibly proud of this!"
You clink your glass with his, a light chuckle escaping you. There's something uniquely satisfying about sharing even the smallest things with him.
The conversation flows more comfortably from there, with Taehyung eagerly asking about the details of your new partnership. You reciprocate by asking about his current work projects, and soon, you both get lost in discussion, naturally causing your conversation to grow increasingly spontaneous. By the time your food arrives, the two of you must have easily covered fifty topics.
With the evening gradually becoming one of the most enjoyable youâve had, the initial butterflies you felt at the start almost fade away... almost. That is, until you near the end of the meal and Taehyung looks at you with a seriousness in his eyes.
âIâm really glad we could do this tonight," he says, "Weâve both been so caught up with work lately that we havenât had much time to spend together⌠Iâve missed it."
"Missed..." The simple six-letter word echoes in the back of your mind in a hushed murmur. It feels nice knowing you arenât the only one affected by the recent distance.
âMe too,â you reply, more breathy than intended. Before you can fully process your words, you find yourself adding, âIâve missed you a lot myself.â
A flush of embarrassment twists in your stomach the moment the words leave your mouth. You shouldnât have said it like thatâit almost sounded like⌠pining? God, you canât even blame it on the alcohol at this point; you barely had one full glass of wine. Contrary to what you'd expect, Taehyung looks at you with a hint of shyness.
âYou know,â he begins, briefly eyeing your dress, âyou really do look great tonight. Iâve been a bit worried these past couple of weeks, seeing how much you work and how little sleep you get. But now⌠I'm relieved to see you looking so well.â
You blush. If only he saw you before tonightâgreasy hair, bloodshot eyes, and oversized sweats on, you think. Evidently, tonight was an exception.
"I guess I've been worried about you too if Iâm being honest,â you admit, shifting slightly in your seat. "The last time we saw each other was at your family reunion. It feels like it was ages ago for some odd reason."
âI know what you mean,â he says softly, gaze lingering on yours a moment longer than usual. âItâs strange going so long without seeing each other. It feelsâŚunnatural.â
All at once, you pause, unsure if you heard right. Did Taehyung really say "unnatural"? Itâs exactly how youâve felt about the distance this entire time, but you hadnât expected him to feel the same. Your mind struggles to process the sheer coincidence and its possible implicationsâwas there something more to your relationship than you had realized?
While you try to make sense of it all, Taehyungâs raspy voice pulls you back to the present. âWell, uh, we should probably head out,â he suggests lightly, breaking the silence. You nod in agreement, though it does little to deter you from your thoughts.
You find yourself fidgeting with the hem of your dress the entire drive back, occasionally glancing at Taehyung in silence. His hands grip the steering wheel tightly, eyes focused on the road, yet you couldâve sworn his mouth parted at one point as if he was about to say something. But then, he held back. You wonder what he mightâve wanted to say, but youâre no betterâhesitant to breathe a word yourself.
Why are neither of you speaking all of a sudden? It feels tense and unfamiliar.
In what feels like a blink of an eye, you're standing at your front door again, Taehyung close beside you. The space between you feels smaller this time, with unspoken words still lingering, but itâs clear that despite having your keys in hand, neither of you are ready to part ways just yet.
â__?â He speaks first, voice barely above a whisper.
âYes?â You respond, turning to face him fully.
Taehyung takes a deep breath when you do, his usual warmth replaced by a heavy, unreadable expression. âThere- there's something thatâs been on my mind,â he begins, voice trembling slightly. âI've been going back and forth tonight on whether or not to tell you."
âOkay, what is it?â you ask, pulse quickening.
âItâs about us..." He hesitates, gnawing on his bottom lip slightly before continuing. "Earlier tonight, when I said I've missed being able to see you, I wasnât lying. If anything, it was likely an understatement because, no matter how busy I was, I kept thinking about youâour time at my parents' place, and how you always came to visit me when I was in the hospital."
He pauses, his fist clenching nervously.
"Iâve realized since then that maybe the reason why is because somehowâŚyou've always been more than a friend to me,â he confesses softly.
Searching your face for a reaction, Taehyung mistakes your blank expression for discomfort. Little does he know, however, that your stillness is merely due to shock, as every nerve in your body threatens to awaken. It feels surreal, you think. Sure, you had a small inkling that tonight felt different and Taehyung was sweeter than usual, but eighty percent of you chalked it up as nothing more than overthinking or projection.
Now, you realize how short-sighted youâve been, convincing yourself that you could only ever be friends and denying the rest when it's been quite the opposite.
âIâm sorry," he adds sheepishly. "It must be a lot to take in. I donât want to lose you or our friendship, but with my feelings growing, I think Iâll always want more. I thought it would be better for you to know.â
You see the sincerity in his eyes as he speaks, and though he patiently waits for your response, youâre unsure where to start. Itâs not that you question Taehyungâs genuineness or intentions, or that you donât reciprocate his feelingsâyou havenât shared such a deep connection with someone in a long time, if ever.
Rather, itâs the years of a mostly apathetic marriage that leave you feeling wary.
What would a relationship with Taehyung be like?
Would you truly love each other?
For how long?
What startles you most is the possibility that if you and Taehyung really do this and it doesnât work out, youâll be left even more devastated than before.
When you finally speak, your voice wavers slightly. âTo tell you the truth, a big part of me is relieved that you told me all of this,â you admit slowly, your hands clammy. âI thought I sensed a shift between us at your parents' and again this evening. But I also thought I was reading too much into things, convinced it was just us getting closer as friends do."
"I guess what Iâm trying to say is that I was wrong because I've been wanting more with you too," you continue. "It's like the further away we are, the worse I seem to feel, and I can't help but wonder what it would look like if we were more than friends. The thought scares me as much as it excites me, thoughâŚfor reasons I'm sure you already know."
You're uneasy about how he'll react until, all at once, his eyes fill with warmth and his hands gently reach for yours, thumbs rubbing soothing circles on the backs.
âDo you remember when we were at the beach and you asked whoâd risk it for you?â Taehyung asks. You nod, recalling the exact moment. âYou also asked if I loved you, and I agreed to both that day. I didnât realize how much those words would come full circle, but I meant it then, and I mean it now. I will love you, __, in the way you've always meant to be. I'm pretty sure I'm at least halfway in love with you already, and not just because we're friends."
Wordless, you stand facing each other, your hands still held in his, eyes steady in the brisk night air. His gaze then drifts from your eyes to your lips and back again. The movement is subtle, but in that brief moment, you let your eyes fall to his lips as well.
Taehyungâs waiting for your answer, but you canât stop thinking of what would happen if you justâŚ
Adrenaline takes over from there, and before you fully process it, youâre leaning in to close the distance between you, pressing your lips to his. The sudden touch catches Taehyung off guard, but he quickly responds with gentle, tender kisses. A soft smile tugs at his lips as he deepens the embrace, one hand finding its way to your face while the other rests on your back, pulling you closer.
Sooner than you realize, he begins deepening the kiss as well, eliciting small, breathy moans. At this point, you can feel the tent forming in his trousers, but he makes no move to grind into you yet. Rather, the hands that grip around you tighten, not enough to hurt, but enough that your body pushes further against his firmer chest. You suspect your back will meet the hard surface of your front door within the next three seconds, allowing your entire neighborhood a show, but before then, you're interrupted by a subtle stirring in the pit of your stomach.
"Wait, I'm sorry-" you suddenly break the kiss, a rush of nerves returning. Itâs been a long time since youâve shared such meaningful kisses with someone, and the intensity of it has you feeling overwhelmed. "I'm so sorry," you repeat.
When Taehyung sees you arenât backing away but rather standing completely still, he settles his hands around your waist, gently drawing you further into a soft embrace. "You don't need to apologize," he assures. "I'm the one who took it further than I should've when I want this to be comfortable for both of us.â
You take a small breath, "You didn't do anything wrong, Tae, I'm just a little nervous due the newness of everything. I think Iâd be best if we wait before going any further tonightâŚ.but Iâm also not ready for you to leave yet. Is there any way you could maybe come in for a bit? To lounge?â
Taehyung nods, âI completely understand wanting to wait. The last thing I want to do is rush anything.â Concerned about possibly pressuring you, he adds, "Are you sure about me coming in though? It's getting late and I don't want to keep you up."
"Please," you murmur, "just for a little while, if you can.â
âOkay," he agrees, thumbs brushing lightly against your sides, "I can stay."
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how do you think Hazbin Hotel characters would react to a demon with butterfly wings?
The main Hazbin cast x Butterfly demon reader
Part 2 >
A/N: This wasn't really specific with what charas specifically, so I'm just doing the main cast. I'll do a part 2 with more characters, though, if it's wanted (sorry)
Reader's wings are written as colourful and proportionate to their body, so they are pretty big.
Realised there's a 10 image limit per post, which is bs. Isn't how i normally would have liked it to be aesthetically bc of that đ
Cw: Sfw, slightly suggestive stuff in Angel's, reference to decapitation and cannibalism đ, kinda a bit angsty in Angel's and Vaggie's, gn! Reader
Charlie
- Charlie would be absolutely delighted by you, no doubt about it.
- She wants nothing more than to be in a place that's vividly colourful and (assuming reader is a somewhat colourful butterfly demon) you'd be that for her.
- She also probably just really really likes butterflies in general though, let's be real.
- I can imagine her just staring at your wings with absolutely starry eyes while complimenting them.
- "They're so pretty ohhh my gosh!"
- I imagine her being lightly jealous, she'd love to have wings like a butterfly.
- Would probably ask if she can touch, and look somewhat sad when told no due to how it would cause your scales to come off. (Assuming reader's wings are the same as normal butterfly wings)
- It may get somewhat uncomfortable if you don't like attention, she would definitely fixate heavily on them. Tell her to stop though and it's making you feel weird and she will tone it down though.
- If not, though, enjoy the attention you're gonna be getting from Charlie over them.
Vaggie
- Vaggie would likely be a bit uncomfortable about seeing demons with wings in general due to her history - let alone you with beautiful, delicate ones.
- I think she'd secretly be hiding some angst and jealously about your wings ngl.
- When she sees Charlie fawning over them though oh boy.
- Yeah she's not gonna be happy about them then. She doesn't blame you or anything for how she's feeling as it's her issue and she knows that, but it still hurts quite a bit - especially in the beginning.
- It gets less and less bad though the more she gets used to it, she kind of just becomes 'meh' about it - especially if you ask Charlie to stop being so gaga about them.
- When she gets her wings back, though, I think she'd come to think they are cool. A normal level appreciation though.
- I can half see you two helping each other out with your wings down the line if you two get closer though.
- There are some things that come with upkeep so wings don't become damaged and stuff, so the people who also have wings? Allies 100%.
Angel
- I'm gonna be fr, the first time your wings come out he's probably gonna be panicked due to his baggage.
- Especially if it happens when you're angry.
- He's probably gonna need reassurance you aren't gonna try hurt him tbh.
- As sad as it is, his trauma would definitely play a part in his initial perception of them.
- After he recovers a bit and stops immediately going into fight or flight and seeing you =/= Val though, the switch up is insane.
- He would be all over you about them.
- I can imagine him calling you a bunch of butterfly related petnames.
- If you remember the 'make those wings flap' comments he made about Husk, its gonna be that on a hundred.
- Even if it's just joking flirting about them, it's gonna be constant because he thinks they are beautiful and it's a lot of material considering you're a butterfly and he's a spider.
- I feel like he would touch them at some point without really thinking and pull his hand back to see your scales have rubbed off onto his hand and go ''oh shit.''
Husk
- I don't think he'd have much of a reaction to it at all - at least not initially.
- Of course he acknowledges that they are very pretty, but he won't comment upon it much at all unlike the others.
- Possibly may make reference to it when crafting bitter statements directed towards you, though.
- Down the line, if you grow closer to him, I can see him as actually being concerned about your wings.
- They are extremely eye-catching and unique for a being in hell, and due to that, it could lead demons to actively target you
- Whether with overt aggressive intentions to take your wings and sell them, or with more covert problems like you being scouted for modelling (ie. By Velvette)
- I can see Vaggie and you trying to set up a wing maintenance group and trying to include him in it. Him being vehemently against it to a level that's almost comedic.
- You eventually convince him even though he's complaining the whole way through it. (He is lying and actually enjoys it).
Pentious
- He wouldn't like them at all in the beginning.
- They're big and bulky and get in the way of everything, including him.
- The amount of times he's accidentally fallen due to 'tripping' on your giant ass wings is greatly irritating and embarrassing to him.
- Possibly thinks you keep trying to kill him by tripping him.
- Could also see his 'hair' (idk how to properly refer to it, haha), accidentally brushing up against your wings with how expressive it is and getting your scales all over him.
- Basically, he doesn't like them because he's clumsy but will take it out on you.
- I also get the vibe he'd be jealous because of how eye-catching they are.
- In his mind, if he had wings like that, then he'd surely have been acknowledged by the Vees in some way.
- If you change your habits with your wings to be conscious of him not being able to walk normally and start getting onto better terms, though, he will likely become appreciative of them and stop being so pissy about them.
- They are very cool looking to him, and once his poor attitude wears off about them, he'll come to admit that.
Alastor
- He'd actually be somewhat weary of you in the beginning.
- It's nature's law that creatures that do not bother to hide themselves are not to be messed with - especially in a place like hell of all places.
- When he sees that you just happen to be particularly colourful, he drops that, though.
- He'd honestly probably be thinking of what it would be like to eat a demon like you after confirming you are, in fact, not poisonous or dangerous at all.
- He doesn't much care all that much for the intrinsic beauty of things as long as they aren't utterly ugly, and as long as they aren't obnoxious and in your face.
- Depending on how bright and vibrant they are and how much attention you bring to them, he may actually dislike them.
- If not, though, he acknowledges they are nice to look at, but again, doesn't really care about them outside of theorising how they would be to eat.
- Would probably make comments about how he could "just eat your wings up," or ask you about how you taste just to try to freak you out.
Niffty
- When she sees them, her eyes grow wide in a mixture of surprise and awe. At the exact same time, an unhinged smirk spreads across her face.
- She then proceeds to leap at you, scissors or whatever sharp object is closest to her raised at your wings.
- She'd be absolutely trying to take a piece out of them for her 'collection' đ
- You're gonna need medical attention after she's done with you because she's hellbent.
- Her obsessiveness over your wings would vary depending on your gender but either way, she'd be trying to get a piece of them for herself.
- Definitely abnormal level of appreciation of them in the absolute worst way.
- If you can get her to stop instantly trying to cut off parts of them, she's still constantly trying to touch them. You need to complain about your scales every damn time she tries to reach out to touch it without fail.
- it's like your wings are a beacon, and she's the insect gunning for it ironically.
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Reader who has an oral fixation and Luke is all to happy to help her with it.
fixation
pairing; luke alvez x fem!reader
summary; luke likes to help you out whenever he can ;)
warnings; MINORS DO NO INTERACT 18+, oral sex (m recieving), brief mention of f recieving oral, reader has an oral fixation, brief mention of p in v, dom!luke, sub!reader, kind of self-indulgent
notes; i saw this ask and uhm, immediately had to do it. i was gonna try and downplay it but i literally have an oral fixation and it's honestly so annoying to deal with but i feel like luke as a bf would make it so much better <3 this is a short and sweet like fluffy/smutty one-shot so please enjoy <3
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From the moment that you joined the BAU, Luke suspected you had an oral fixation. There was hardly a time where you werenât eating, chewing gum or a pen or drinking something and chewing on the end of a straw. But nobody commented on it.
Well, except once, after too many glasses of wine at Rossiâs house, Spencer had called you out on it after you made a joke about biting. You often liked to mumble that you âwere gonna bite someoneâ if you were in a bad mood or something had pissed you off. It was like a reflex phrase for you and when Reid called you out on it, you had gone rigid.
He noticed that you tried to curb your tendencies for a few weeks after that incident before you returned back to always having something to bite on. It wasnât a bad thing. At least, Luke didnât think so and so, when your relationship became romantic, he was always more than happy to help you out in whatever way he could.
He kept gum for you in the car or his bag. He kept mints or Jolly Ranchers or any sort of hard candy in his jacket pockets so that he could give them to you at a momentâs notice. It was an unspoken thing between the two of you and you were incredibly appreciative of him. And well, the oral fixation bled into other aspects of your life that Luke was more than willing to help you with.
Like, right now, he had had his head between your legs, pulling orgasms from you while you whined and keened. Your hands had gripped his arm as he made it hard to think straight but after pulling two or three orgasms from you, he let his lips trail back up your stomach. You were breathing heavily, hands clawing to hold any part of him and after watching him between your legs, you wanted to get between his.
âLuke,â You begged softly, tugging at him to come closer to you. He shifted, his hard cock resting heavy on your stomach as he rested his forehead against yours. Your hands moved to rest against his face, fingers scritching his stubble as you let out a breathy whine.
âTell me what you want,â He said as his hand moved to brush down your cheeks. Your eyes reopened, hazy from the bliss but you knew what you wanted.
âNeed you in my mouth, please,â You began and Luke seemed a little hesitant. You didnât give him a chance to speak again though, âI can- I can pull away before you cum but I just need you in my mouth, please, baby. Please, I just- I want you in my mouth. Thatâs all I want. Just for a little bit, wanna make you feel good too, please, please,â You quickly devolved into senseless begging as you looked up at him. He groaned softly, finding it so hard to deny when your voice was so high-pitched and whiny like that.
âOkay, okay.â He gave in and the grin that spread across your face was worth it. He knew that your mind was pleasure-addled but he also knew that there was hardly a time where you didnât desperately want to take him into your mouth. He slipped off the top of you and you clambered off the bed. Your legs were wobbly but you managed to control both yourself and him. You reached out for him and tugged him to the edge of the bed. His cock was hard and pre-cum dripped from the head and you couldnât help the way you bit your lip.
You sank to your knees and let your kisses trail up from the crook of his knee. They were sloppy and wet, all teeth and lips as you nipped at the skin the closer you got. His thigh muscles were so strong and you loved kissing and gently biting against them. It made Luke squirm as he tried to keep his hands to himself. This was about you. Your lips trailed from his thigh up to his stomach before you pulled back, admiring his happy trail.
âLove you,â You mumbled before you took a gentle hold of his dick. You spat into the palm of your hand before wrapping it around him. You pumped once or twice and when you were sure that he was ready, you leant forward and kissed the tip of his cock. He let out a breathy groan at the sensation before you let your mouth take him in.
You hollowed your cheeks out and the way his cock stretched your mouth open, how he sat hot and heavy on your tongue. It short-circuited your brain and made it hard to concentrate but you were quick to get to work.
However, sucking his dick wasnât the only way Luke satisfied your oral fixation. Heâd be fucking you, nice and deep and slow and his hand would rest against your throat. He would never squeeze but the presence was enough to bring tantalizing pleasure up your spine. Just the power and control he had over you, did something to you. But he knew you liked to have something in your mouth and while he thrusted into you, he let his hand from your neck move up. His thumb would run across your bottom lip and gently pull your mouth open before he slipped his thumb past your lips and teeth. You would whine and keen at the sensation, sucking his thumb like you would his cock. It was embarrassing how messy you would get just from that action alone.
Luke loved it. He loved being able to fulfill that need in whatever way that you needed and it was hard to deny how gorgeous you looked with his cock - or fingers - in your mouth.
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Gale x Tav Enemies to Lovers Part VIII/8
I'm cooking with gas now folks, I am locked in so I hope you enjoy this journey - if I have enough juice I'll try to extend it through the entire game arc.
Content Warning: Bullying, Anxiety, Language, Herbs (lol)
âFucking finally,â Karlach huffed, dropping a majority of their belongings and rations. Without her, Laeâzel and Shadowheart, Tav wasnât sure they would have made it to the Underdark. The men were utterly useless in this regard and so was she. She had many strengths - strength was not among them. âIâm not sorting through whatâs what so come and find your own things. Gale whatâs for dinner? Iâm starving. No⌠I need to lie down.âÂ
âAs always, I am deeply in your debt my good Lady,â Tav watched as Gale bowed to Karlach and collected his things from her then winked, âIâll be sure to make your favorite.â A pang shot through her - not one of desire or even anger.Â
It was jealousy. She scoffed, rolling her eyes at her own behavior. Donât be ridiculous, she chided, Karlach is your friend and Gale is allowed to talk with whomever he pleases⌠theyâve been spending a lot of time together⌠besides, you know who Karlach fancies and itâs certainly not Gale⌠you have no right to be angry after AstarionâŚÂ
Her stomach twisted uncomfortably and she turned away as hot bile rose in her gut. She shook it off and began to unpack her things.Â
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The Underdark. She had studied its existence extensively in her time at Blackstaff and was both horrified and fascinated by its unfamiliar terrain. Their instructor would pull at the fabric of the Weave to make intricate conjurations of the Underdarkâs dangerous creatures, wild mushrooms, and native fauna. Some was so startling to her that at the time she was plagued with night terrors. How embarrassing it felt to have night terrors as a teen. It had been engrained so deep that the fear still dug at her skin and she felt the surge of fight or flight acutely. Â
Gale had been in that class with her.Â
That grounded her a bit, the memory of his âknow-it-allâ attitude getting him a severe bind. Gale had famously confused the Duergar and Drow and when their instructor, Flhem, tried to gently correct him, Gale persisted. What Gale didnât realize at the time was that other than Flhem being an expert on the Underdark, Tavâs father was also an expeditionist there.Â
She was intimately familiar with the Underdark and had an insatiable curiosity for it. The obsession took hold when she was wracked with panic that her father wouldnât return from a journey. Tav turned to her fixation on learning in order to soothe her nerves. If she learned everything she could, she could imagine every possible scenario and outcome so she couldnât be surprised.Â
A wave of guilt rose in her when the rest of the memory unfolded. After Galeâs soliloquy, Tav tapped on his shoulder (he was sat in front of her) and she said smugly, âGale⌠I thought you were smarter than that,â all while pulling at the threads of the Weave to manifest replicas of the Duegar and Drow, âOr did you miss the readings? If you look to page 27...â She said while the class held its breath, âthere are a number of distinctions between the two races⌠height being prominent among them.â As she spoke the final word, the two conjurations stood before the class and Gale flipped to the page. She inhaled deeply when she recalled the look on his face when the entire class - including Flhem - burst into laughter. Have you always been so cruel⌠you wretched thing⌠the memory weighed heavily on her, and she fingered her amulet.Â
He hadn't even said anything in retort. Gale had just quietly shut the book and had turned to look back at her before he left the room. The look he gave was one she would never forget. It made her sick.
Suddenly she felt something graze her back and she jumped, swinging her arm to strike.Â
Astarionâs hand caught hers and he rose a brow. A grin spread across his face. âMy, my, somebodyâs on edge this evening." Tav huffed, her entire body rigid from the start. She shut her eyes and took another breath to steady herself. âOh,â Astarion said more seriously, âAre you alright, Darling? Can I get you something?âÂ
Tav tilted her head curiously. Astarion? Going out of his way to ask something nice? Assuming she heard him incorrectly, she said, âNothing a bit of Hafling Root canât fix.âÂ
âOh?â He said in a sing-song voice, âLooking to get a little stoned this evening? Far be it from me to keep you from your appetites. Ugh,â he straightened his shirt, picking a piece of lint off his sleeve. âI wish I could still experience that. Iâm afraid Iâd need an entire field to feel a damn thing. Enjoy for the both of us,â he looked at her and brushed her cheek with the back of his hand, his voice low. âMaybe Iâll join you, still.. keep you company.â Â
Tav felt the familiar rush of arousal flood her when Astationâs hand brushed her cheek. Although they had little in common and she wasnât sure if she even trusted him, biology was a strange experience. In that same moment, her eyes locked on Galeâs - his gaze an abyss that was almost wild. The same one that made her sick all those years ago. Â
She took a sharp breath and neither she nor Gale blinked. She fell into the void of his eyes, hypnotized. Had he cast hold person on her? Astarionâs voice pulled her abruptly back into her body, âWell.. you know where to find me.â Â
When Tav turned back to look for Gale he was gone.Â
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On the Acceptance of Unsteady Ground
Throughout this whole dive into turtle world, I've been very conscious of just how LITTLE access to information I have. I'm relying so heavily on English translations and platforms, and most of these are from turtles, so I'm fully aware I'm getting a biased perspective.
I've tried to read stuff from solos or even just neutral third-parties. The neutral parties don't have much depth of information, though, and I found solos heavy on accusations and declarations but light on actual...evidence. And they sometimes use some really nasty rhetoric against the idea that gg and dd might be gay.
Don't get me wrong, turtles get weird too. There's plenty of clearly false rumors, deceptively edited videos, silly stretches of logic, weird ideas of what how people in a relationship would act, etc. But there's at least enough English-speaking turtles that I can find some who are giving open and, as far as I can tell, accurate information (honestly, I find tumblr turtledom better at that then other platforms). I haven't really found a similar pocket of solo fans.
I'm also aware that there's always going to be a limit on how much I can know. I don't speak the language, so I'm always relying on translators. I have limited access to Weibo (even putting aside the language barrier, I'm in text confirmation limbo in actually getting an account), and I have little familiarity with the culture. I don't get a lot of the jokes or references, and stuff may strike me, an English-speaking American, differently than it would someone in China.
Add on top of that the fact that I'm trying to find out purposely obscured information about two celebrities, and, yeah, I'm fully aware that I'm on unsteady ground here. I can do my best, but I'm never going to know anything for certain.
But I've become okay with that.
It took a while. The dissatisfaction with the unknown (and unknowable) is what drove a lot of my early fixation and subsequent fall into the turtle pit. But now, especially after laying out my thoughts, I've reached a zen place with it. I'm 100% certain ggdd were together during filming/promo, and I'm 95% certain they're still together (I had this at 85% originally, but then the whole dd being sick and gg changing his schedule thing happened and I'm just...welp, guess I'm in this confidence interval, then).
Just having that certainty means I can enjoy updates from them without anguishing about "proof" or uncertainty. Oh, gg took the day off on dd's birthday? That's really sweet! I'm not gonna fuss about if it's coincidence ENOUGH to convince me, because I'm already convinced. It's a good place to be.
I typically don't care about celebrities. In fact, I've long been bewildered by celebrity culture here in the US, and I've often been actively annoyed when people assume/expect me to have opinions on things celebrities do. I'm the nerd who doesn't get why the actors get all the attention when the writer or director would be much more interesting.
So the fact that I've gone all fangirlish over two celebrities is bizarre to me, and I appreciate the irony. Well done, me. I attribute some of it to just being able to watch the bts and see their early interactions play out like a story. I find stories compelling, and both gg and dd are charismatic, attractive and have great chemistry. Whatever disdain I have for celebs, I do love a romance.
In my foray into the ggdd world, though, I've also had to learn more about c-ent, and y'all. It's nuts. Like, US entertainment is nuts too, but c-ent ratchets it up to 11. I've been in fandom a long time, and I thought I'd seen some weird stuff, but it's got nothing on c-ent. Just wrapping my head around the culture these guys are in took a lot of learning.
But I appreciate being able to dive into this culture and this country, because I knew very little about China beyond the antagonistic politics. It's been refreshing to get a view on life on the ground in China to humanize the folks there and get a clearer picture of the country.
I started this thing bc I had been spending so much time on Youtube watching clips, and I had thoughts and opinions and nowhere to put them. I already had a tumblr that I use to lurk on some fandoms and I had started following turtles too. I figured tumblr would be a decent place to splurge out my thoughts, so I set up a throwaway account to do so.
I get the vibe that a lot of new turtles come to bjyx through the same route I took? They watch The Untamed on Netflix. They get curious about the show and start watching some clips on YT. Next thing you know, they have 3 playlists full of purported "proof of love" and they need a whiteboard to connect everything together and their wife thinks they've gone completely bonkers supports them in all their oddities.
Like, I was really confused by turtles at first. I was just trying to watch bts videos on YouTube and I didn't know what bjyx meant, but the videos with the label were weird and had strange disclaimers that they were "only for turtles" and I had no clue what that even meant.
My confusion continued as I tried to read more. The fake story disclaimer convention is hella confusing as an outsider, and my first impression was that turtles were kinda crazy. The videos I saw gave overviews of candies without context, and some of them explicitly said they were proof of Yizhan love while still having that fake story disclaimer. Basically, it was a big confusing environment, and it's why I resisted buying into bjyx so hard for so long. It all seemed delulu.
But in reading more, I guess part of that is the point? Recognizing that gg and dd are in a vulnerable position should their relationship ever come out, having so much noise to muddy the waters makes a twisted, clownish sense. I don't know who came up with that convention or if it just kinda happened (is it a normal thing in c-ent? I don't know enough about celebrity fandoms), but hats off, I guess.
With the supertopic recently hitting 4 million active fans, there's something heartening about such a depth of support for the guys. I'm not naive enough to think all 4 million (plus international fans) are allies to LGBT folk in general, but it surely means something to ggdd to have that sort of support for their relationship. Honestly, it means something to me, as a random gay chick on the other side of the world, to see a gay couple get that kinda of support behind them.
I started watching the bts because I was afraid there'd be a lot of cynical homophobia on the set or some evidence of all the male cast being icked out by the whole thing. Instead, I got gg, who was so passionate about WWX being gay. I love that everybody knew they were telling a love story with as explicitly as they could get away with. I love that the guys wanted more Wangxian scenes and that the cast and crew made "everyday is everyday" jokes in a non-mocking way. I'm glad that the whole shoot seemed like such a positive environment for the cast and crew to being themselves and tell a type of story that they may not be able to be involved with ever again.
So, yes, this is my zen turtle place. When I set up a soapbox for myself, I didn't think too much about the fact that people would respond, but I'm so grateful to have had a chance to talk to some other turtles! Everybody is lovely and thank you for sharing my enthusiasm.
Like I said in the beginning, I don't have the time to keep super-active in the long-term. I had intended to write up my thoughts and poof away. But I do also plan to keep up with gg and dd and turtles, so instead I'm just gonna leave off with the potential for further posts down the line.
I'm not gonna be incredibly active, so please don't expect frequent updates or interactions from me. But if I have more Yizhan thoughts I'll pop up again with a post (I mean, I do have lots more thoughts, but nothing energizing enough to write about), or I'll leave a comment somewhere if I have something I simply must say. I'm also open to responding to asks about the timeline or anything else. And if I ever do stumble across anything groundbreaking with regards to the timeline, I'll probably add that in, because I'm particular about things being complete.
So thanks for being so welcoming! It's been a joy to clown around and make up completely fictional stories with everybody here. đ¤Ąđ˘đđź
#yizhan#bjyx#gg and dd keep being ridiculous and it makes me ridiculous#also always gonna read moar fanfic#rooting for them#waiting for that tell-all book
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Soldier Boy
Word count: 1,761
Prompt: December 25th, 1957 Elvis Presley receives his draft papers moments after his Engagement
Warning: None so far
Note: This may become a series
Chapter 2
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December 25th, 1957 Graceland,
âOh, isnât it stunning!âCecelia exclaimed, her eyes sparkling as they fixated on the engagement ring that adorned her finger. The radiant pink garnet caught the light, casting soft, rosy hues that danced across her skin. âHow on earth did you find such a unique gem? she inquired, her voice filled with wonder. Deep down, she knew that even if Elvis had presented her with a simple candy ring, she would have cherished it just the same, the meaning behind the gesture far outweighing the material value."Ya know, I ask myself that every day just lookin' at'cha." He kissed her cheek. Their loved ones looked on, captivated by the radiant joy of the newly engaged couple, who had been basking in the warm glow of their exciting new chapter together.
âWhatâs all this excitement about?â Alfonso asked, stepping inside from the chilly air. His cheeks were flushed from both the frosty temperature and the smoke of the cigarette he had just been smoking outside, despite knowing he really shouldnât indulge in such habits. The warmth of the house enveloped him, contrasting sharply with the biting cold he had left behind, but the thrill of whatever was happening inside stirred his curiosity. He glanced around the room, trying to catch a glimpse of what had everyone so animated.
"Daddy, we're engaged!" Cecelia giggled as her father looked between the pair. Elvis had a crooked smile, while Cecelia beamed with a wide grin. "It's about time," Alfonso said, patting Elvis on the back, "You treat my little dumplin' good ya hear," Alfonso smirked as Elvis gulped but shook his head, "Everythang okay my boy?" Alfonso asked. Typically, Elvis would have had a clever remark ready, but this time, he appeared somewhat lost in thought.
"I'm doing okay, so you just go ahead and enjoy yourself," Elvis said with a friendly smile. At that moment, Alfonso tipped his hat, a gesture of camaraderie. "If you ever want to have a good chat, country boy to countryman, I'm right here for you," he added, his voice warm and inviting. "Thanks," he replied, feeling grateful for his kindness.
Sitting by the gleaming white grand piano, Elvis drew in a deep, shaky breath, the weight of the moment settling heavily on his shoulders. He fished around in his pocket, pulling out a few crumpled papers that seemed to carry the burden of his unspoken thoughts. His heart raced at the realization that he would soon have to break difficult news to the two most important women in his life: his mother, Gladys, and his beloved Cecelia. As he mulled over the impending conversation, he glanced up, and his heart momentarily lifted at the sight before him.
Cecelia sat on the plush sofa in the living room, the dim winter sunlight filtering through the window, casting a warm glow on her hair as she laughed effortlessly with Gladys and Denise. Their voices danced through the air. The sight of the three women so engrossed in their lively chatter, filled him with joy and trepidation. A soft, genuine smile spread across his face, momentarily pushing aside his worries as he observed the warmth and connection they shared. These were his three favorite ladies, a source of comfort and strength in a world that often felt chaotic.
"So, what colors are we thinking for the wedding?" Gladys asked eagerly, her voice filled with excitement as she leaned forward, anticipation dancing in her eyes. She was keen to hear Ceceliaâs thoughts.
Denise quickly interjected, feigning seriousness as she raised her hand dramatically, "And please, for the love of everything beautiful, do not say pink!" Her tone was light-hearted, but there was an unmistakable edge of genuine concern behind her words.
Cecelia let out a soft sigh, a blend of exasperation and amusement washing over her. âWell,â she began, her brow furrowing slightly as she considered her options, âI was thinking of a soft pink, something delicate, like the blush of dawn paired with a rich, inviting blue, reminiscent of the evening sky.â Her voice grew more animated with each description, prompting Gladys and Denise to lean in closer, intrigued by the imagery that swirled around in Ceceliaâs mind.
She paused, a warm smile appearing as she continued, âBut honestly, I donât care what the color scheme is. The most important thing for me is that Elvis is there to celebrate this moment.â A dreamy look crossed her face as she added, âWe could even get married right there on Beale Street, surrounded by music and laughter, and that would mean the world to me.â Her heart swelled at the thought of the day, underscoring her belief that love and companionship outweighed any hue or theme.
"You love him don't'cha."
"Mama Presley, I love you with all my heart," she gleamed.
"Not to interrupt, but, um... Mama, I have some news to tell you... alone." Elvis said pulling his mother into the secluded piano room,
"Elvis what's this about..."
"Well, mama... I-I... got drafted..." As those three words hung in the air, Gladys felt the very foundation of her world begin to crumble beneath her feet. A deep ache settled in her chest, a familiar pain that she knew she was powerless to change, yet it stung fiercely nonetheless. Her thoughts spiraled into a dark abyss of fear. She simply couldn't fathom the possibility of losing another son. With her heart racing, she choked out the question, "Does Cece know...?" Tears streamed down her cheeks, warm and bitter, as she confronted the crushing weight of uncertainty and loss.
"Is everything okay?" Cecelia asked, her voice trembling slightly as she noticed the stack of papers clenched tightly in his hands. A sense of dread settled in her stomach.
"Cece..." he began, his voice barely above a whisper, filled with unspoken pain.
"Please tell me those papers arenât what I think they are..." Her voice broke as tears spilled down her cheeks, glistening in the dim light of the room.
Elvis felt a heaviness in his chest, unable to meet her gaze. Whenever Cecelia or his mother cried, it pierced his heart, leaving him feeling helpless. He looked away, his thoughts racing, unsure of how to respond to the overwhelming emotion flooding the space between them.
Cecelia's brow furrowed with concern as she studied Elvis's face. "They are..." she started, hesitating as she tried to find the right words.
"And are you going..." Gladys pressed, but Elvis nodded slowly, cutting her off with a gentle affirmation.
"For how long?" Her voice trembled slightly as she continued. "And where will you be going?"
Elvis took a deep breath, his eyes drifting to the floor for a moment. "Three years," he finally said, his voice steady but filled with an underlying heaviness. "Germany⌠I-Iâll write to you every day, I promise." He sighed, the weight of the upcoming separation evident in his expression.
"Just promise me," he added earnestly, looking from Cecelia to Gladys, "that you'll take care of each other, and of Dodger too." As he made the request, a small, warm smile broke through his anxious demeanor, shared between him and Gladys, hinting at their unbreakable bond even in the face of uncertainty.
As the sun dipped below the horizon and the last echoes of laughter and conversation faded into the night, Cecelia found herself alone in the cozy kitchen. The remnants of a lively gathering still lingered, the smell of the eveningâs feast, scattered utensils, and half-empty plates told the tale of a joyful gathering. With a contented sigh, she rolled up her sleeves, ready to tackle the mess.
Beneath the warm glow of the overhead lights, her mind began to shift gears. Rather than feeling overwhelmed by the cleanup, she felt a familiar tug towards the comforting ritual of baking. It had become her method of coping with stress, an intimate ritual that transformed chaos into something delightful. She gathered her ingredients: flour, sugar, and eggs, intending to whip up a batch of cookies that would fill the home with warmth and sweetness.
As she meticulously measured out each component, the rhythmic sound of her mixing bowl seemed to drown out the remnants of the chaos from earlier. The kitchen filled with the soothing scents of vanilla and chocolate as she creamed the butter and sugar, her mind drifting peacefully with each fold of the dough. In these moments, amid the solitude and the gentle whir of the oven, Cecelia found solace, allowing her worries to melt away like the chocolate she was about to stir in.
"Are you okay?" Elvis asked gently, settling behind Cecelia, his voice laced with concern. She turned her head slightly, feeling his warmth, but he quickly added, "And before you say yes, I couldn't help but notice you just dropped an eggshell into your batter."
Cecelia let out a resigned sigh, her shoulders slumping as she faced him. The mixing bowl, once brimming with a creamy, sweet mixture, suddenly felt heavy with her worries. "No, I'm not okay," she admitted, her voice trembling slightly. "I'm worried about you, and you know that."
She paused, her heart racing as she thought of the dangers he faced. "I can't lose you out there," she said, her lips quivering, betraying the anxiety that clutched at her.
"Ceceâ" he began, his tone soothing, but she cut him off, a surge of emotion bubbling to the surface.
"As your best friend and as your fiancĂŠe, I just..." Her words faltered, the weight of love and fear pressing down on her.
Elvis smiled softly, leaning in to kiss her neck, and she couldn't help but giggle despite herself. "You stop that..." she replied, trying to regain her composure.
"And you listen to me," he insisted, his gaze earnest. "I'll be back in your arms right before you know it."
She searched his eyes for reassurance, her heart aching with the impermanence of his words. "Promise..." she whispered, holding onto the hope that it wouldnât just be a fleeting moment.
"Promise," he affirmed, the corners of his mouth lifting in a warm smile as he watched her resume her baking, carefully spooning the batter onto the wax paper. The kitchen, filled with the sweet scent of vanilla and sugar, felt like a cocoon against the uncertainties of the world outside.
"Aht! Aht! these are for tomorrow..." Cecelia swatted at his hand, "You have to go to bed,"
"I think you mean we darlin." He scooped her up as her laughter reminded him things would never be the same after tonight.
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Day 18: Mirror sex
Pairing: Poly!recoms x Recom!reader (can be read as character x reader)
Word count: 1.5k
A/N: Trying to get the other prompts out asap. Also, I'm curious, do you guys think my kinktober headcanons fit the Recoms? Or not? or would you change certain things about how I write them? And what do you guys think of my characterization?
Kinktober masterlist
đ Recom Miles Quaritch Miles would look incredibly attractive fucking you from behind, but what about doing it in front of a mirror? His abs would be flexing, and drops of sweat would be racing down the side of his face. It's like he's relentlessly pounding you while all you can do is moan and whimper like the passionate lover you are. He would grab your hair and force you to watch as he fucks you. He would whisper things in your ear like, "Look at yourself while I make love to you" or "You look so beautiful like this, my darling." You would appear disheveled, with your hair tousled in all directions, bite marks scattered across your body, and dark purple marks on your thighs and neck. But in his eyes, you would look like a heavenly being sent from above. He would hold your arms behind your back with one hand and have another hand in your hair while he admires the movement of your ass with each forceful thrust. "That's it, my love, just like that, make love to me." You would push your hips back against his while gazing at him through the mirror. You observe as his perfectly sculpted face contorts in pleasure as you bring him to climax, and in return, he gives you the release you desire.
đ Recom Lyle Wainfleet Lyle enjoys watching himself disappear inside of you in the steamy Recom gym mirrors. He loves hearing your pleasurable sounds and the way you respond when he takes you from behind. The reflection of your bodies entwined on his cock is a sight that drives him wild. Your effort to keep your eyes open and connected with him, despite the lewdness of it all, is incredibly arousing to Lyle. Every time you moan his name, it sends him over the edge. He loves seeing your jaw drop in pleasure and feeling your hands desperately gripping his thighs for stability. Lyle would have you spread your legs wide and position yourselves near one of the full-length mirrors. This way, he can hit different spots and press you against the mirror if he desires. He showers you with praise for being so good and obedient, never tearing your eyes away from your reflection. As he indulges in the moment, Lyle lets out soft hums and moans, leaving marks on your shoulder in the form of hickeys.
đŹ Recom Z-dog You're seated with your back to her chest, nestled between her legs. There's a mirror right in front of you. You're completely bare, exposed, and she's gently pleasuring you with her hand. Whenever you close your eyes or look away, she pauses until you're gazing at your own reflection again. "Look at how stunning you are," she whispers in your ear. She continues her actions, showering you with compliments, moving her hand at an excruciatingly slow pace as you breathe heavily, your eyes half-closed, fixated on the mirror. Eventually, she picks up the pace, skillfully working your body like only she knows how, always ensuring your eyes are open, focused on your own reflection throughout. She insists on making you watch as you reach climax, releasing all over her fingers, your face flushed. Z-dog adores you, she adores your physique, and she wants to ensure you can fully appreciate your own sexiness.
𼽠Recom Walker She's skilled at stimulating you with her fingers. Her fingers are lengthy and slender, allowing her to reach deep and stimulate your pleasure spot effortlessly. Walker enjoys watching herself finger you in the mirror from behind, with her chin resting on your shoulder. Her groans of pleasure are so arousing that your legs spread involuntarily, and her attractive smirk only adds to the excitement.
đ Recom Mansk Itâs a sight to behold in the bathroom mirror, the way he holds you close. He moves his hips slowly, one hand spread wide across your lower belly, the other resting in the curve between your breasts, keeping you connected to his chest. You observe as he makes love to you, taking his time and showing his ownership, causing your eyelids to flutter with each deep thrust. "You belong to me, my love," he whispers in your ear, his fingertips gently tracing up your chest. "You understand that, right?" Your words of affection are whispered as his hand delicately covers your throat, so tender and gentle. His thumb strokes a gentle rhythm against your pulse as he thrusts deeply into your warm, velvety cunt. "You are completely mine."
𧯠Recom Prager "That's my good kitten," Prager says with a smirk as you moan beneath him, tears of pleasure welling up in your eyes. You've lost count of how many times you've climaxed tonight, but you're not complaining. Prager has kept you on the edge of ecstasy all night long, and he's enjoyed every moment of it. With your bodies facing the mirror, he's watched every reaction, every moan, every whine. He loves seeing you in your full glory, with nothing hidden from view. And he's not done yet - he thrusts into you once more, desperate to see that look on your face just one more time.
âď¸ Recom Ja You're lying on your bed, completely vulnerable, facing the mirror propped up against the closet doors across the room. He jumps on you, kissing and exploring your body, teasing and pleasuring you. He positions himself behind you, using his strong thighs as a seat for you to move up and down. "Look at yourself, see how beautiful you are. See yourself as I see you," he insists, making you blush even more. Whenever you try to look away from the mirror, he grabs your jaw, forcing you to watch as he intensifies your pleasure. "See those amazing breasts bounce," he growls in your ear. "They look even better when they bounce in my face." "Watch my cock, my love, see how eager your cunt is for it," he moans. "Watch it - going in and out, you're getting wet, darling." "Look at your little clit. Does it want attention?" He teases, with a condescending tone as he rubs your clit. He enjoys making you watch yourself cum. "Oh, you're getting close? I can tell. Your pussy is gripping me so tight. Watch yourself cum, love. It's the most beautiful thing," You can't help but stare into the reflection of your own eyes, mouth hanging open and nothing but incoherent moans escaping. He praises you, slowing down the intense rhythm of your movements to help you come down. Mirror sex quickly becomes a weekly ritual.
𧢠Recom Brown When he gazes into the mirror, his focus is usually on himself. However, when he's with you in front of one, his attention is solely on your body. He takes in every inch of you, positioning you in a way that allows him to fully appreciate the sight of you while he's inside you. It's a sight that he finds absolutely mesmerizing and one that he could never tire of. If you're not comfortable with mirror sex, he won't pressure you into it. Instead, he'll work to build your confidence and reassure you of your beauty. He understands that it's not for everyone, but if you're willing to give it a try, he'll put in the effort to make it an enjoyable experience for both of you. What's surprising is that he's not just into mirror sex, but he's also full of praise. Despite his severe personality, he's quick to shower you with compliments and encouragement. He wants you to feel confident and comfortable with him, and he's more than willing to reciprocate the praise. In short, mirror sex may not be for everyone, but with him, it's an experience that's worth trying. He'll make sure that you feel comfortable and confident, and he'll show you just how great it can be.
đż Recom Lopez Lopez has a firm grip on your throat, his fingers clasping your jaw tightly. He's making you look at yourself in the mirror, taking in your flushed face and glazed eyes, as well as your bouncing breasts as he effortlessly thrusts into you. You feel even more embarrassed as you try to turn away from your disheveled appearance. Lopez, however, urges you on, cooing and nibbling at your neck while meeting your gaze in the mirror. "Come on, Mami," he whispers, "see yourself the way I do."
âď¸ Recom Fike Fike loves fucking you in front of a mirror. he loves seeing his cock slide in and out of you and he loves that youâre seeing how beautiful you look while heâs fucking you. Definitely the type to take it slow and sensually when heâs fucking you in front of the mirror. He gets totally lost in watching you watch yourself in the mirror. Heâs kinda in a daze and he doesnât notice anything else but you. The others definitely walked in on you guys more than a few times.
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Aaron Hotchner x reader (virgin/innocent reader)
Part 4
Part 3 can be found here
Warnings: fingering, oral fem receiving, unprotected sex, angst with Haley, cursing, some alcohol use, angst in general kinda
Word Count: 5.4k
The day Jack went home, Aaron called Haley beforehand to tell her they needed to talk. You were down the hall with Jack, cleaning up his room with him, helping him organize everything the way it had been prior. You often helped him get ready to go back home, he usually asked you to.
"The next time I come to your house, can we make donuts? I saw a video on YouTube and it looks really easy," Jack often helped you in the kitchenâthe two of you were always baking treats for Aaron to take on cases, and to enjoy with the two of you when he came home. Haley's newfound attitude had put a damper on the time you'd usually be spending with himâbut hopefully Aaron could convince Haley that you weren't so bad after all.
"As long as your mom is okay with it," you didn't want to crush his spirits, but you were planning from this moment forward to run everything by Haley so you didn't step on any toes.
"I'll ask her when I get home! I have to get your picture too!"
A moment later, Aaron was coming down the hall to collect the two of you so you could leave. Aaron's hand found yours, so instead of getting in the car as he put Jack in his seat, you stood behind him as he worked. Once he had Jack's door closed, he turned to you.
"When we get to Haley's, let me do the talking, that way she gets mad at me, not you."
You nodded, sighing heavily. You didn't want Aaron to be the target of her fury either, and that also meant you were completely unable to defend yourself against anything she might have to say to you in return.
Aaron hated how much this was hurting you. Haley was already unhappy on the phone, and it would only get worse when the two of you arrived to talk. Aaron knew Haley well enough to know she wouldn't make this easy for him, or you, but he had to try.
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45 minutes later, you were seated on Haley's patio in a chair next to Aaron. Haley was sitting across from you while Jack stayed inside with Haley's sister Jessica, who seemed much more pleasant by far. She'd greeted you with a warm smile, and even shot Haley a sideways glance when Haley refused to acknowledge you.
"There's nothing in our divorce agreement that says he's allowed to stay with your girlfriend," she spat, getting straight to the point. You did as Aaron asked and sat quietly, your hands folded neatly in your lap.
"There's also not a single word about him coming home if I have a case," he countered, knowing that was an arrangement she'd decided out of nowhere just to try and get back at him.
"Does she even know anything about taking care of a kid, Aaron? He's on a schedule, I can't have some random stranger you're sleeping with this monthâ"
Aaron cut her off quickly, his voice calm yet stern.
"That's really rich coming from youâhow many random strangers did he see when you were sleeping around during our marriage, Haley?"
You brain was fixated on what she had saidâhad there been many women before you? Secrets he was keeping because he was embarrassed? He'd only ever told you about Haley, but they'd been apart for two and a half years when you metâthat gave him plenty of time to do whatever he wanted.
"You honestly think that little of me, Aaron? Jack never saw a thing on my end," she defended, turning on the tearsâAaron's posture immediately changed when she started to cry; he softened visibly, moving his hands to the table, almost as if he wanted to reach out and comfort her.
"IâI shouldn't have said that, Haley. I'm sorry. I just don't understand why you're changing your mind now. We've been together nearly a year. She's a part of Jack's life," Haley sniffled, wiping her eyes before she said anything else. You felt as powerless as ever, watching her play Aaron like a fiddle.
"You don't even live togetherâhe bounces around enough between my place and yours. He doesn't need another place to get used to."
Haley was finding any excuse in the world to keep Jack away from you. Aaron felt like he was running out of optionsâthere wasn't a clear solution, not one that Haley would agree to anyway.
"She's not going anywhere, Haley. I'm not letting you take this away from me," Aaron was exasperated, feeling like he was being pulled around on a string, still controlled by Haley long after their relationship had ended.
"I'm not budging on this, Aaron. Unless you want to fight me in court, Jack comes home when you get a case. End of discussion."
She stood from the table and opened the door leading inside, signifying that the conversation was over and that the two of you needed to leave. Jack came rushing from his room, running right up to you and Aaron. He gave you both a big hug before turning his attention to you.
"I can't find your picture anywhere. Mommy, have you seen it?"
Haley gave Jack a sympathetic smile before looking to you, shooting you an icy glare before she replied.
"I'm so sorry, Jack! I must've thrown it away," you could hear the venom seething from her words, your heart nearly torn in two at how vindictive Aaron's ex wife could truly be.
Once you were in Aaron's car, you expected him to say somethingâanything that might make you feel a tiny bit better about the situation. You were stone cold silent, staring out the passenger window as he navigated you back to his house. He had both hands on the wheel, his eyes set straight ahead on the road.
The silence didn't end until his phone rang. He answered it quickly, and you assumed it was work on the other end, about to pull him away from you before you could even talk.
"I'll be there in an hour. You can start without me, I'll get up to speed on the jet," he said, glancing over at you quickly. He knew the timing wasn't ideal, but he couldn't help when his job took him away from you. He hung up the phone and cleared his throat, his hand coming across the console to rest on your thigh.
"I don't think it'll always be like this. She just needs time to get used to you is all," he said, trying to sound as optimistic as he could given the circumstances. In your eyes, Aaron was still trying to defend herâyou couldn't imagine having an ex that had done you as dirty as she didâand you especially couldn't fathom defending them over Aaron. You knew there was a major differenceâthere was a child involved. But you were perfectly capable of taking care of him. Aaron hadn't bothered mentioning that, though.
"Yeah, you're probably right."
You didn't bother looking away from the window. Aaron knew you were upset; you had every right to be. He knew if the roles were reversed, he'd be livid. For the first time in your relationship, he was worriedâafraid of how this might make things exponentially harder on you in the future. If Haley didn't come around, it would certainly make your life much more difficult than it needed to be. He was afraid you'd grow tired of the fights and drama and leave him aloneâand that was the last thing that he wanted.
When you got back to Aaron's house, he led you inside while he gathered his things to get ready to leave. You sat on the bed and watched him buzz around the room quietly, stewing in your own frustrations about the situation. Aaron let you be; he didn't want to make things worse. He leaned down to kiss you, tilting your chin upward with his fingertips.
"I love you. I'll call you tonight, okay?"
You nodded, smiling back at himâyou knew there was so much more that needed to be said, but instead, you told him you loved him too and let him walk out the door. You swallowed that feeling of dread that came from all of your unanswered questions and tried to compose yourself as much as possible. You should've known Haley would outcast you, and you wouldn't dare put Aaron in a position where he had to defy the mother of his child. It would only end bad for everyone involved.
You decided then that Haley would have to try a hell of a lot harder to push you away. Aaron and Jack were your life, your future, and just because she'd let it slip away before didn't mean you were going to make the same mistake.
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When the week began, you tried to put all of your energy into work so you wouldn't have time to think about anything else. At the end of the day on Wednesday, your boss had called you into his office, which had you worried the entire walk from your floor to his. Mr. Jennings wasn't exactly a kind personâin fact, he was terrifying. He wasn't a man of many words, so the fact that he wanted to talk to you had your palms sweating profusely as you knocked on the door to his office. He called for you to come in, so you opened the door and shot him a dazzling smile, hoping it would soften the blow.
"Hi, sir. You wanted to see me?"
He gave you a once-over, taking you in fully, making you feel exposed and vulnerable. He nodded towards the empty chair nearest to you so you sat, crossing your legs and clasping your hands together.
"You've been on fire this week."
You were taken aback that he'd noticed, given his usual lack of recognition to the majority of the people on your team. This was a rare occurrence to your knowledge, so you were slightly baffled.
"Just trying to make the most of my time, sir."
He gave you a tight lipped smile, nodding to the paperwork on his desk.
"More than that. You've exceeded every expectation we have. That's an impressive feat."
You weren't sure what to say, so you just nodded, smoothing out your skirt nervously.
"Thank you sir," you said finally, and he cleared his throat, holding up what looked like a contractâwhich really confused you.
"I'm offering you a partnership. The flexibility will allow you to work from home if you want, just keep showing me the kind of initiative I've been seeing the last couple of weeks. You'll get a sign on bonus and an official title change; a raise and a car from the fleet, too."
This was the last thing you had expected. You knew you'd been working harder to avoid the current problems at hand, but you didn't know it would lead to such a monumental moment in your career.
"Wowâsir, thank you. I don't even know what to say."
He handed you a pen so you could make it official, shaking your hand firmly as he stood to his feet.
"You can clean out your desk and take the rest of the day off, start fresh at home tomorrow. You deserve it. See Angie at the front desk to get the keys to your new ride," he beamed happily back at you as you gathered your copy of the new contract and headed back to your desk for the last time. You couldn't wait until Aaron was homeâthere was cause for celebration, and you couldn't have been happier.
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Aaron was running on two days of no sleep when he finally reached his hotel room, exhausted to tears. He collapsed on the bed after kicking off his shoes, immediately checking his phone to see if it was too late to call you. He had to factor in the time zone difference, but it was still kind of early for you, so he hit send, waiting to hear your voice fill the other line.
"Hey, baby. Miss me yet?"
Your lighthearted demeanor was exactly what Aaron needed right now. The case was taking a toll on everyoneâthe ones involving children usually did. He was praying for a break, desperate to make it back home to you without falling apart beforehand.
"More than you could ever imagine. It's been rough," the last thing he wanted to do was tell you about the case; he couldn't really, and you didn't deserve the nightmares that it would surely cause you.
"I'm so sorry baby. I know it isn't easy. What can I do to make it better for you?" Your voice was soft and as sweet as candy, already easing part of his worries just by answering the phone when he called.
"I just need you, to hear your voice. How was work today?"
Aaron was thrilled to hear about your promotion, the fact that you could work from anywhere really opened a lot of doors for you. You weren't tied down to the office, which meant you could stay with him more and just work from the comfort of his office if you wanted to. You were so excited to tell him, it only made him wish he would've been there when you got off work to hear the news firsthand.
"We'll celebrate when I get back. The ladies have been wanting to see you; we could go out, if you wanted," Aaron typically didn't frequent the team's nights out at clubs, but for you, he was willing to make plenty of exceptions.
"You hate going out," you reminded him, but what he liked didn't matter as long as you were happy in the long run.
You talked until Aaron couldn't hold his eyes open any longer. He knew there was a lot left to be said about the situation Haley had put the two of you in, but for now, all that mattered was that you'd be waiting for him when he got back.
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The next time you saw Haley was without Aaron. He was still out of town, but you'd decided to take your work to the local coffee shop. You hadn't expected to see her, considering this wasn't her part of town, but you decided to say something anyway, just to be polite. You managed to catch her attention as she was waiting for her order, walking up to her with your head held high.
"Haley! How funny running into you here," she nodded back at you, looking around before she spoke.
"I'm surprised you're talking to me without Aaron here to defend you," she quipped, but you weren't taking her bait, not by a long shot.
"Defend me from what, you? I choose not to speakâunlike you, I don't want an argument," it was the last thing in the world that you wanted honestly, but she refused to let things be simple.
"There isn't anything to argue about. You are just a placeholderâsomething to keep Aaron occupied until he comes back home. You think you'll take my place, be his wife one day? Think againâhe may love you, but he will never give you his last name."
She said it as if it were a stone cold factâthat it had already been decided. You didn't let this break you; you kept a brave face and blinked back the frustration so you could have the last word.
"Believe me when I say that the second we decide to get married, you'll be the first one with an invitation, Haley. Wouldn't want you to miss out on Aaron marrying the love of his life," you gave her the brightest smile you could muster before walking back to your table and continuing your work. She was playing a dangerous game, trying to come between you and Aaronâone that she wouldn't win, no matter how hard she tried.
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"So, have you met Haley yet?"
Emily was the first to ask after they practically pulled you to the bar to do shots. Aaron had given you a happy nod and told you to go have fun, sitting in a booth with Spencer and Derek. You were sandwiched between Emily and JJ, and Penelope was to your far left, listening in when she could. The topic of Haley piqued everyone's interest, so you had their full attention.
"Oh yes. She hates me, to put it mildly," you told them, and Emily snickered in response.
"I'll bet she does. You're pretty, funny, and young! I'm sure she despises you," Emily said, passing you a shot before taking one for herself.
"You can't let a woman like Haley bring you down. She didn't want Hotch, but she didn't want to see him happy with someone else. It was so toxic," JJ explained. You wondered how Aaron had lasted so long in something so obviously deteriorating; did he see the signs and ignore them? Would he do the same in your relationship? You'd never know, but you'd always wonder.
"Sounds like it," you agreed, hoping the conversation shifted to something lighterâyou didn't want to spend your night of celebration talking about the one person in the world who couldn't stand you.
From across the bar, Aaron could see your discomfort. He was immediately rethinking the entire night judging from the look on your face alone. He didn't want to interrupt if you were busy, so he sent you a text asking if you wanted to meet him outside for some air instead. He went in the direction of the front door, deciding he'd wait for you at the side of the building where it was less crowded.
You didn't bother replyingâyou told the girls you needed some air and they let you go without argument. You had just rounded the corner when you saw him, leaned up against the brick wall of the building. Even in the lamplight he looked delicious; you were convinced he'd worn the olive green polo just to tease you all night. His arms were practically bulging through the tiny sleeves; you'd caught more than one woman staring at him tonight.
Your fingers felt his belt loops as you leaned into him, resting your head on his chest. You could still hear the music pouring from the speakers inside, but you could feel the drumming of his heart, beating wildly in his chest.
"Talk to me; you don't look happy," Aaron could tell your mood had been off for days, but he hadn't said anything. This was the first time he'd seen you in five days, so he hadn't really had the chance. He'd known something was up though, just from your voice on the phone.
"I'm fine, really. I just have a headache is all," you told him, but he wasn't buying itânot tonight.
"Don't tell me that. Something's going on with you, and I can see it. Is this about Haley? Is that what you want to do tonight?" He knew how accusatory it sounded, but he couldn't take it back now. Your hands fell from his sides and you backed away, taking a step forward back towards the door.
"No, it isn't. I'm not doing this, Aaron."
You sighed heavily before making your way back inside. Aaron stayed behind for a few moments, giving you enough time to find the girls before he came back inside. He decided then that he'd keep his distance for the rest of the nightâhe'd already made you upset when the night was supposed to be centered around you.
Derek gave Aaron a curious look when Aaron joined him at the table. Aaron sipped his drink and prayed no one said anything, but Derek wasn't letting him off that easily.
"Trouble in paradise?"
Aaron shook his head, not wanting to air out their business, but at the same time, he did want an outside perspective on things.
"I don't know. Haley doesn't like herâI'm in a tricky position trying to make them both happyâtrying to keep things civil," he finished off the rest of his drink and decided he was done for the night so he could drive the two of you home.
"Woahâwhy in the world do you care about making Haley happy? Haley isn't your friend, Hotch. She's your ex wife. You have a custody agreement signed by a judgeâshe can't keep Jack from you. Pleasing my ex wife would be the last thing on my mind if I had a woman like you've got," Derek said, glancing towards the bar where you sat, looking like there was a personal rain cloud above your head, pouring on what was supposed to be a good night.
"It's not about pleasing Haleyâit's about Jack's parents getting along to some degree."
Derek shook his head, leaning in closer.
"You pick Jack up, and drop him off. There is no getting along. What do you have to talk about? You're not friends, Hotch! The longer you ride the fence, the higher your chances are of only having Haley to turn to in the end," he said flatly, standing up to go to the bar. He left Aaron alone to think about what he'd said; as much as he hated to admit it, Derek was right.
You were seated between Emily and JJ when Aaron came up behind you, leaning down to whisper in your ear.
"Want to get a milkshake before we head home?"
Aaron was trying to salvage what was left of your night, hoping you wouldn't turn away from him again. You gave him a nod and said your goodbyes, taking his hand as he led you to the front door. As soon as you'd made your exit he was turning to you, taking both of your hands in his.
"I'm sorry. I've been handling this all wrong, this situation with Haley. I've been trying to put your feelings and hers in the same category and that isn't fair. I don't care what Haley thinks; I only want you to be happy," he told you, his eyes full of remorse. He hated that you spent so much of your night mad at him over what he'd said.
"It's okay, Aaron. I don't ever expect you to be on my side when it comes to Haley. You two have a lot more history than we do; I get it, really," even though you understood, it didn't make it hurt any less. Haley thought that their past trumped his current feelings.
"I'm always on your side! I know it doesn't seem like it, but I am," he defended, raising his voice loud enough to draw the attention of a group of young guys passing by. One of them quickly asked if you were okay and you nodded, removing your hands from Aaron's grasp so you could wipe the tears from your eyes.
"So I'm just supposed to sit around and listen to her talk about me like I'm not in the room for the rest of my life? And what's even worse is that you don't open your mouth to defend me, not even the slightest."
You turned around and walked in the direction of the car with Aaron on your heels. He unlocked the car so you could climb in, waiting to start the vehicle until you'd finished your conversation.
"I know that I let her get away with saying some inexcusable things. That's on me. What I'm telling you now is that I won't ever do it again. I'm aware that I've made mistakesâplease let me fix them."
He opened the glovebox and found you a pack of tissues, moving the middle console so he could come closer. He dabbed at the mascara running down your face gently, trying not to irritate your skin. Your breathing was shaky and shallow as you tried to calm down, finally turning to look at him for the first time since you'd gotten in the vehicle. The minute your eyes caught his gaze, his face softened, his hand coming to cup your face as you leaned into his touch.
"She made me feel so stupid, Aaron. It's all I've thought about since it happened," Aaron took you in his arms, kissing you on the top of the head as you finally gave in and let him comfort you. He'd been gone so long it felt silly to fight it any longer; now that the air had been cleared, you finally felt like you'd be able to rest. You'd spent the week stressing about Haley and the interaction you'd had with her; wondering how you were going to confront Aaron and finish your conversation. Between that and your new job title, your week had been a big ball of nerves. You were finally getting the chance to calm down a little.
"I love you so much. I'm so sorry she made you feel that way; I'll never let her get away with it again baby. I thought I was keeping the peace, but I was just making a mess," he explained, letting go of you long enough to try to get a look at your features in the darkness of the car. He hated to see you upset, especially because of something that he'd done.
"I love you. I know you had good intentions, Aaron. I also know we're both new to this. We're gonna figure it out together, okay?"
Aaron was thankful for your patience; he'd never expected to love anyone else, so he was clueless as to what he was supposed to do when it came to Haley. Clearly he hadn't been making the right choices up to this point; he'd have to change or risk losing you, and that wasn't happening.
"Together. Now let's get you that milkshake."
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Later that night you were tucked into bed next to him, his shirt draped over your body, his hand on your bare thigh as the tv droned on in the background. You stopped paying attention to it when his hand began to move upward, his eyes still trained on the television. Before you knew it, he was parting your thighs, scooting down on the bed so he could lay between your legs. It started innocently enough; his head on your thighs as he tried and failed to focus on the movie he'd picked out. Soon enough, he gave up, rolling over on his stomach so he could kiss the sensitive flesh of your inner thighs. After a rocky start to your night, Aaron was going to make sure the remainder of the evening was spent making you happy.
"I love youâso fucking much," he breathed, his mouth hovering directly above your center, nothing but a tiny piece of fabric in the way.
"I love you, Aaron. Always," you promised him as his hands crept upward to pull your panties down. Aaron took a deep breath as he spread you open, eyes darting between you and your dripping core. He ran a teasing finger through your slick before settling on your clit, rubbing small, precise circles over your bundle of nerves. He always knew exactly how to touch you, driving you mad as soon as his hands were on your body.
"Yes baby," you panted, so Aaron sped up a little, his lips curling into a grin as you shook, your legs wiggling with a mind of their own. Aaron yanked his shirt over his head and disappeared between your thighs, sucking your clit between his lips, causing your back to arch immediately. Aaron's tongue was relentless against you, the orgasms becoming more powerful as time passed by. Aaron loved seeing you like this, your eyes glassy, lips pouty and swollen as you stared down at him.
Aaron would never get tired of pleasuring youâit was something that he quite literally ached to do. His mind ran rampant with thoughts of how he could fuck you, new things he could try with his tongue to keep you satisfied. He wasn't typically the kind of man to try new things, but late at night when he was away from you, he'd browse the internet for things that he'd never expected to enjoy, making a mental list of things he could introduce to you.
Aaron's mouth worked tirelessly against you, and soon enough he was coating his finger in your arousal so he could slip it into you, curling it perfectly against your sweet spot. You saw stars as his finger pumped into you and his tongue swirled around your clit, your hands falling to his hair out of reflex. He whimpered as you tugged lightly at his hair, so you peered down to make sure what you'd done was okay. You hadn't expected him to be looking back at you, his cheeks tinted red, his lips glistening in the lamp light.
"Do that again," he hissed, so you pulled a little bit harder and he nodded, licking his lips before he reattached them to your core. He was always so content between your legs; you could only lay back and enjoy him in all of his perfection, baffled that you had such an attentive, loving man.
Aaron had lost count of how many times you'd came on his tongue; he wasn't sure any amount would ever be enough to satisfy his hunger for you. He'd been busy so long that when he glanced to his left, he noticed the sky changing from a dusky purple to a kaleidoscope of pinks and oranges. He chuckled lowly as he came up on his knees, nodding to the window so you could see too.
"I want to be inside of you as the sun comes up," he whispered, taking his time pressing into you. He was always so patient with you, giving you plenty of time to adjust to his massive memberâyou'd never get used to the way he felt when he first slid into you. His hand found yours as he leaned forward, pressing a kiss to your lips as his hips began to move. You were finally to the point that there wasn't a single moment of being uncomfortable anymoreâit was all pleasure now. You were amazed how he could always make you feel like you were on top of the world; it was a feeling you never expected to go away.
"You're perfect, baby. You make me feel complete," he told you before his lips connected with yours, possessive but so tenderâit made your heart swell ten sizes.
"I hope you stay forever," you said through clenched teeth as you found your high, Aaron's lips pressing kisses along your neck and jaw as he fucked you through your orgasm. You could tell by the way his pace had quickened slightly that he was close, seconds away from his own release. You held his face in your hands, making sure he was looking right at you.
"Fill me up, Aaron, please," you begged, and Aaron came with a shudder as soon as the words left your mouth. Your sensual words were music to his ears, and he hoped the more time you spent being intimate together, the more open you'd be. You were still getting the hang of things now, trying to figure out what you liked, what felt good. Aaron was glad that it was him to be able to help you through it all.
The sun crept over the horizon just as he slid out of you and got you cleaned up. For a moment he just stood and watched until you wrapped your arms around his waist from behind, kissing the middle of his back.
"Beautiful, isn't it?" You said, admiring the colors of the morning sky, something you usually missed because you were asleep.
"It is. I'm glad I got to see it with you," he turned to kiss you, letting you wrap up in the covers before he came to join you. He knew he'd be exhausted later, that the two of you would have a hard time sleeping now that the sun was out, but he didn't regret a minute of it, not when you were by his side for it.
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I have been unfathomably OBSESSED with your writing ever since discovering you on AO3. I'm curious how you cultivated your vocabulary because I am so god awful at remembering words while writing. You have inspired me to take a stab at the devil and I fear my words may fall short in the process of writing. (I owe you my life btw, your writing got me through exam week. May both sides of your pillow always remain cold.)
First off, I'm elated I could be there for you when you needed me most - exam week! I hope you got the best scores with help from Raphael and Tav.
Second off, thank you!! đ
As for your question, it would be nice if I could type out 'I cultivate my words through reading. I read so much, let me tell you!' but that would be a lie. :( These days, any reading done is me engulfing any fics that pique my interest for my latest fixation, and I'm not even doing that anymore because I'm focusing more on writing.
I enjoy watching period films and tv shows, so I'm sure some of my word retention comes from there.
I think the true answer is I throw myself at the feet of Word Hippo. It's an online thesaurus that I always have open in another window next to my word document. I heavily try to avoid using the same words too much in the same chapter, so that's where the cute, pink hippo comes in to remind me that 'there's another and a better word for this - maybe 'imbibing' will work. Then that word is soaked up into my sponge of a brain for future use.
(I should not be giving advice) but my advice for those who use a thesaurus is to select words that add to the flow, not detract from it. Don't over-complicate your sentences by picking a fancy, intellectual sounding synonym for the sake of the word not being 'drink'.
Lastly, yes! Be like Tav, and take a stab at the Devil! Do it!
I (lovingly) scream at you all: give life to the ideas swimming around in your head!
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Hoshina watches A Mighty Wind/This Is Spinal Tap
So this is seriously one of the most self indulgent things that I've ever written, as well as one of the most like me OCs that I've ever created because this man has ruined my entire life. It has not been the same for over a month now and my writing while not the best and won't make hardly any sense if you haven't watched either of these movies (to which if you haven't please, please do. I grew up with A Mighty Wind and it's one of my favorite comfort movies and comfort hyper fixations) this whole thing started when I rewatched A Mighty Wind the other night for family movie night and I just couldn't get the idea out of my head of Hoshina watching my favorite movies with me so this fic was born! If you guys like it I'll do a lot of my other favorite movies as well. I have a lot of favorite movies so this might be an ongoing thing for a little while but I'm genuinely happy with how this turned out for the first thing that I'm posting in.. a hot minute for my writing so it might not be my best and it might be super niche but I had a lot of fun with it.
Dot Saito pulled back from her desk and sighed heavily stretching out the kinks in her neck with a small smile on her face. Brandon looked over at his friend with a small smile on his face.Â
âAre you going to have movie night with the vice captain tonight? You guys have been doing that quite a bit recently, whyâd you start doing that?â Dot flushed a light pink and tried to come up with a valid reason since the only one that she had was that she liked spending time with the vice captain and he hadnât seen hardly any movies. So as a movie nerd that made way too many references to her favorite movies when she was growing up that sheâd watch with her parents during movie nights.
âI just like talking with him heâs really nice and I like hearing his laugh at things that I find funny. That was the reason that I started showing him my favorite movies when I was a little kid. Tonight weâre doing a mockumentary double feature of A Mighty Wind and This Is Spinal Tap. I think that heâs going to prefer This Is Spinal Tap honestly but I prefer A Mighty Wind because it was my first one that my dad showed me when I was a kid.â Brandon chuckled a little bit at the fact that Dot always was the first to defend herself against the feelings that she had for their vice captain.Â
âYou know you donât work directly under him. We work under captain Ashido so you could tell him how you feel and nothing would be bad about it. Besides, he thinks that youâre beautiful just trust me on that.â Dot shook her head animatedly putting her things into her satchel and sighing heavily looking at her friend.Â
âPlease just.. donât okay Brandon? I donât want to talk about it itâs not something that I like talking about. I know that itâs pathetic and that I totally dug my own grave by showing him my favorite movies but I couldnât help it. He never judges me for liking something and Iâve had too many people over the years judge me for my favorite things so forgive me if Iâd rather enjoy this while it lasts.â Brandon smiled sadly at his friend putting his hand onto her shoulder since he knew that she had loved and lost a lot of people in her life.
âI just donât see the point in denying yourself happiness when heâs right there and wants to spend all of his free time with you. Besides youâre not exactly subtle and youâre always staring at him anyways so heâs bound to notice that at some point or he probably already has.â Dot sighed heavily since she had a good idea that he had already noticed how generally pathetic she was when it came to him.
âIâve got to get going Iâll see you tomorrow Brandon try to not get into too much trouble without me around okay?â Brandon shrugged his shoulders seeing the small wistful smile on her face as she went down the stairs towards her dorm room where she kept her television and her movies that she was planning on showing her friend. They only did this once a week every Friday but it was what made Friday her favorite day of the week because she got to show off her favorite movies. And these movies were ones that she had grown up with and she loved getting to rewatch them. Soshiro Hoshina saw Dot go skipping down the stairs from Captain Ashiroâs operations division and he couldnât help but laugh a little bit at her antics mostly just because she was so cute when she got happy about her favorite things.Â
âYou excited about movie night Saito?â Dot nodded her head animatedly unlocking her dorm room door and Hoshina went inside smiling softly at all the pictures that Dot had of her family and her friends that she had made here.Â
âI am actually! Itâs going to be a double feature tonight hence why I wanted to start it earlier than usual. These are two very specific movies that I grew up watching probably way too young. They have a lot of adult jokes and sexual references but my dad he loved the music in them. Said that even though they were parodies of that musical genre that they didnât really have to be as good as they were. We had a never ending debate of which one we liked more because we both had individual favorite ones.â Hoshina listened as Dot dimmed the lights in her dorm room and he couldnât help but feel grateful that she had always remembered that he was somewhat light sensitive.Â
âYouâve definitely heard me reference both of them because theyâre so quotable to everyday life to me. Weâre going to start with the one that was my dad's favorite of the two of them. He used to love this movie so much that he would pick it to watch for movie night at least once a month, it drove my mom bonkers but she always let him get away with it. Now whenever I watch it, it makes me think of him.â Dot got out the movies that she would be showing her friend and Hoshina looked at them. âThese are parody films, theyâre called mockumentaries. Theyâre basically actors playing characters while acting like theyâre real people. One of them is a 80âs heavy metal hairband that was my brotherâs favorite This Is Spinal Tap and my favorite is A Mighty Wind about a group of folk musicians coming together for a reunion concert to pay respects to their former manager after he passes away. The music is so good in both they mean so much to me and I just find them so comforting and wacky.â Hoshina couldnât help but smile lovingly at the rambling of his friend that meant so much to him. He never really thought that he would have the time in his life to find someone that he could love as they were but when he had started getting closer to Dot Saito and got to know her love of her favorite movies and media, he was an absolute goner.
âThey both sound great I canât wait to see them. I brought snacks as well!â Dot let out a breath of relief since after the day she had she needed snacks and just some time with her friend watching her childhood favorite movies that she still owed a lot of her adult personality to.Â
âThank you for getting the snacks I really need them right now itâs been a long week. But Iâm excited to get to show you these! Itâs been a while since Iâve watched either of them and I love both these movies so much.â Dot turned on the tv and got This Is Spinal Tap set up smiling softly when she saw the familiar characters on the front of the case.Â
âMy childhood favorite character was Nigel Tufnel something that my dad often teased me about. He knew that Nigel was one of my first fictional crushes when I was a kid.â Dot pressed play on the dvd as she leaned against the back of the couch crossing her ankles and grabbing her popcorn that Hoshina had brought with him that were candy coated.Â
âWell now Iâm intrigued to see what kid you was interested in as your type~â Dot flushed a light pink with a small laugh rolling her eyes at her friendâs goofy antics.
âIâm going to start regretting my life decisions in five minutes arenât I? Mostly because you are never ever in a million years going to let me live this down.â Dot whined and Hoshina just laughed brightly at his friend grabbing his ice cream pint and he shook his head at her because he would never purposefully make fun of her for something that she was self conscious of.Â
âI would never tease you about something if you didnât want me to Saito, thatâs not the kind of person that I am. You should know better than that.â Hoshina playfully pouted and Dot nodded her head with a small sigh already resigning herself to her fate that she would have to deal with so many jokes because she would never shut up about how much she loved this character.Â
âDo as you will, do your worst. I canât promise that I wonât ever come back at you though once I find out what your type is.â Dot lightly joked and Hoshina couldnât help but falter a little bit in his teasing because if Dot ever did figure out that his type was cute girls that talked endlessly about their favorite things then she would very easily put two and two together and figure out that he had fallen in love with her but was now to in deep to really do anything about it. Heâd never felt this way about anyone so he had no clue how to ask someone out or how to cope with feeling this way.Â
âSo none of this is real right?â Hoshina asked a few minutes in just to clarify and Dot nodded her head with a small smile on her face.Â
âYeah these are all actors playing these roles, my mom's favorite is Michael McKean heâs insanely talented, heâs the blonde one the lead singer. Nigel is next to him heâs played by Christopher Guest.â Hoshina nodded his head with a small chuckle at the ridiculous and quirky lyrics. He couldnâtât help but laugh brightly at the the idea of the New Originals and the various other genres of music that the band had tried out.Â
âThe drummers all died in mysterious ways- I kind of love that! A freak gardening accident, chocking on someoneâs vomit, thatâs so funny.â Dot laughed at her friend nodding her hand animatedly since that had been one of her older brotherâs favorite jokes.
âMy dadâs a drummer so he found that joke hilarious because he related a lot to that one.â Dot couldnât help but laugh brightly when Nigel rolled up the window on the limo to tune out the rambling driver.Â
âYou know I can so see you doing something like that if you donât want to interact with someone-â Dot lightly kicked at her friendâs legs puffing her cheeks out because even if she knew that Hoshina was right that was still a rude thing to say.
âThatâs so rude! I would not do something like that. Okay maybe I would if I was really having a bad day but when I was a kid that would be absolutely something that I did to my parents sometimes if they were arguing in the car that happened a lot..â Dot laughed at the memory leaning against the back of the couch and she couldnât help but laugh brightly the goofy lyrics to Big Bottoms Drive Me Out Of My Mind. Hoshina laughed with his friend as he could help but laugh at them along with her.
âThis is actually such a unique idea for how to make a movie though I can see this being something your brother would love. Is Nigel wearing a Gumby shirt?!â Dot nodded her head with a bright smile on her face as she played with the ends of her ribbons.Â
âYes, yes he is. He wears a couple of Gumby items. As a kid I used to think that he was autistic that was probably how I related and how I fell in love with these characters. He was my comfort crush when I was growing up I guess because I related to him and his emotions that he goes through during the movie when it comes to his relationship with David.â Dot explained with a small laugh since that was always her debate that she would get into with her dad whenever they got to discussing their movies of choice. Hoshina nodded his head understandingly since that made perfect sense to him. Dot's crushes were people that she found cute and relatable when she was growing up.Â
âOkay but thatâs the cutest thing in the world. That makes so much sense- heâs childish but also cares and doesnât want things to change too fast Iâm realizing that now.â Dot nodded her head as the main âconflictâ of the movie came into play that being the introduction of Davidâs girlfriend who had a lot of changes that she wanted to make to the team.Â
âMy dad would always joke that I would probably wind up finding someone that I would be able to share these movies with. They were really important to me when I was a kid and I loved watching them with him. Even if I asked him all the time whether or not they were real when I was a kid and Iâd tell him that I wanted to go to a Folksmen and Mitch and Mickey concert, he would always say that heâd take me anyways. Theyâre from A Mighty Wind I didnât watch this one until I was slightly older, maybe eleven?â Dot nodded her head since she had been a bit older because her dad told her a bit later on that he didnât want the music to be too loud for her and wanted for her to understand the adult sense of humor a bit more.Â
âI can see that though because the music isnât the stuff that youâd normally listen to.â Hoshina noted and Dot nodded her head with a small half-smile on her face playing with the ends of her hair.
âThatâs because I donât listen to this music a whole lot, Iâd rather listen to the Mighty Wind soundtrack. My dad used to jokingly call me Sissy Knox one of the characters in that movie especially once I started wearing my hair in pigtails like herâs. But youâve definitely heard me humming the music from that movie. I just thought that you would prefer this one and I do find it really, really funny but the only thing I absolutely love about it is Nigel- oh and Rock Nâ Roll Creation is really, really good. Youâve probably heard me humming that one.â Hoshina nodded his head when he heard the song since he had heard her humming that one but mainly Nigelâs verse that he had towards the bridge of the song.
âIâve heard you humming Nigelâs part of that song before.â Dot flushed a light pink and sputtered before realizing that it was pointless debating her friend on something that she knew was true.Â
âAlright alright youâve caught me. Oh hereâs something funny, on the actual album it is all in black. When I showed that to my parents we laughed about it for a little while.â Hoshina chuckled a little bit at the fact that Dot was clearly raised by people that were exactly like her. Kind, upbeat, funny, quirky, a little bit odd but always coming from this place of kindness.Â
âYour parents sound like they were exactly like you. You still send them a portion of your checks donât you?â Dot nodded her head animatedly since she did send a good chunk of her paychecks back to her parents. It was her own little way of showing her gratitude for them and the way that they raised her.Â
âThey did the best that they could to raise me, I honestly never really made it easily but they did a lot for me. Mostly gave me my love of film and gave me that way of expressing myself because if I was going to express myself any way they would have wanted it to be through film. They often speak fluently in movie quotes so if youâve ever wondered where I got that bad habit from I got it from them.â Hoshina laughed at Dotâs light complaints about the fact that her parents had raised her to be uniquely herself because he wouldnât have wanted for her to be any other way than the way that she came.Â
âI canât imagine that you were a difficult child at all but I know that they must love you more than anything in the world. I mean you are a really lovable sort of person.â Dot flushed a bright pink trying to remain herself that was just the kind of person that Hoshina was. He was a chronic flirt and loved getting a rise out of people and it didnât mean that he found her lovable in his way, it just meant that he found her platonically lovable. That was all.Â
âYou say that with all the personal bias in the world. Iâm onto you Hoshina.â She joked just trying to deflect and try to relax after being overly flustered but she already knew that she wouldnât really be able to fight her feelings for much longer. She would have to come forward and be honest about her feelings eventually.Â
âI do not! Iâm just telling it like I see it. Youâre the kind of person that would give her entire self to someone that was going through something just because they needed your help. Iâve seen you do it so I know thatâs the kind of person that you are. I love that about you though and I wouldnât change it for anything in the world.â Dot sighed heavily using her hands to cover her face as she let out a silent scream and hoped to god that she would just get through these movies alive. She could disassociate from her romantic situation tomorrow but right now she wanted to be here but she just was getting too embarrassed to be here.Â
âYou okay there Saito?â Dot nodded her head animatedly uncovering her face as she shook her head animatedly crossing her ankles together and putting her popcorn, pretzels, and chips in front of her deciding that she wanted to eat everything in front of her rather than focus on her unrequited love.Â
âIâm good! Yep all good over here no need to worry.â Dot pressed her index fingers together but Hoshina raised his eyebrow at her knowing that she was trying to cover something up.Â
âSaitoooo you donât have to lie to me, did that make you uncomfortable? Iâm sorry if that was too flirty for you to handle. I like ya and I donât want to make you uncomfortable.â Hoshina put his hand onto Dotâs shoulder and she shook her head animatedly since really he didnât be too flirty with her, she was just socially awkward at the best of times.Â
âIâm really fine Hoshina, sorry Iâm just.. tired but I do want to spend time with you. I love movie night Fridays theyâre my favorite nights because theyâre the only ones where you allow yourself to take a break and breathe for a little while. You didnât make me uncomfortable could you just- go back to your spot please?â Hoshina sighed heavily going back to the other side of the couch even though he didnât really want to go. Dot let out a breath of relief at the fact that she was left alone again where she could just be with her friend and not have to worry about spontaneously combusting.
âYou donât need to lie to me, Iâm sorry that you got flustered and embarrassed.â Dot shook her head animatedly sighing heavily deciding that it was best to be as forward as she could possibly allow herself to be.Â
âOkay, okay you got me Hoshina you flustered me with the praise alright? I know that Iâm not that lovable of a person you just got me embarrassed thatâs all.â Hoshina blinked a little bit with a small expression of confusion on his face his head cocked to the side.Â
âBut you are though? You are perfectly lovable just as you are. Pause the movie.â Dot reached for the remote to pause the movie and Hoshina turned his attention towards her.Â
âSince youâve joined the operations division under Ashiro things have been running so much smoother ever since then. You bring so much life and vibrancy into the space and since youâve joined everyone seems to be having so much fun. You bring fun and laughter wherever you go whether it be with one of your perfectly timed movie references or jokes. Ever since youâve joined Iâve found myself able to relax a lot more and have more fun. This is the highlight of my week because I get to spend time one on one with you. You are amazing whether or not you notice how amazing you are well Iâll just keep having to tell you that. And you are insanely lovable, the most lovable person that Iâve ever met.â Dot couldnât help but smile softly at her friend knowing that he was being honest with her and that he wasnât bullshitting her.
âThank you Hoshina, that means a lot to me coming from you. I know that you genuinely mean that and you arenât just telling me to try and make me feel better. I.. I like having this time with you too itâs a nice way to unwind.â Dot smiled softly at her friend and Hoshina let out a breath of relief since it did seem like Dot did believe what he was telling her.Â
âI never really had the time to watch movies when I was growing up since I was just expected to train more and more until I eventually became good enough to be on my brotherâs level and even then I feel like I never really succeeded on that. But getting to experience your favorite movies that youâre always talking about they make me realize just how good movies are and how comforting they can be. Especially the goofy ones like this one that can make you forget for a little while.â Dot laughed a little bit since she knew that her friend would be obsessed with this movie it was just something that was right u his alley.Â
âGrowing up these movies were how I grew to look at the world. They were something that I took life lessons from and how I better learned to understand people around me. Especially the second one that one was pretty much my entire childhood.â Dot pressed play and couldnât help but laugh as one of her favorite jokes and references was coming up, Nigel trying to deal with the food in the green room and not being able to make his sandwich.
âI have definitely heard you reference that- thatâs one that you use all of the time to make yourself laugh when youâre feeling socially awkward at group functions. Usually Brandon is the only one that fully gets the joke.â Dot shrugged her shoulders since if she had learned anything growing up the best way to make people like you was to be funny. To bring that little bit of levity to every situation if you did that then people would like you.Â
âThatâs because Brandon has seen a lot of the movies that I have so usually he does the lines with me to make me feel more.. at ease I guess? I learned pretty quickly growing up that if you make the people around you laugh then they would keep coming back for more. That was the easiest way to get people to like me and I accepted that I was the funny one that used my movie references to make other people laugh. If it meant that I blurt out a whaâ happenâ or I canât do my work whenever the slightest inconvenience happens then thatâs what I did. Those are both references to A Mighty Wind, Iâve been saying those things since I was.. probably around nine? Yeah that tracks.â Hoshina leaned his hand on his cheek getting more absorbed in Dotâs relationship with the movies that she loved rather than the movie that he should be watching currently. Sometimes that was just what happened though was he would get distracted by what Dot was talking about and would forget that he was supposed to be watching the movie. It wasnât until he heard Dotâs bright laugh at the scene on screen that he remembered that he was supposed to be watching the movie.Â
âAlso the part where the stagehand has to help Nigel back up from the ground kills me Every. Single. Time. I see it.â Dot laughed brightly at her favorite comfort character taking a handful of her popcorn as she poured some of the bag into her hands.Â
âI also know that you quote the turn it up to eleven- thatâs the cutest thing in the world.â Hoshina smiled softly at his friend leaning against the couch tying her hair back. Hoshina watched the movie and sighed heavily when he saw that David was bringing in his girlfriend just like Dot had told him.Â
âYou could see that he doesnât want her there since the idea of change just freaks him out. Now theyâre having a bunch of bickering sessions thatâs awful- I can honestly see a lot of your reactions to things in the way that Nigel reacts to things.â Dot nodded her head with a small smile on her face since that had been one of her childhood favorite relatable characters.
âEXPLODING ON STAGE-" Dot laughed brightly nodding her head with a small smile on her face since that had been one of her favorite jokes.Â
âThatâs one of my favorite running ones! The fact that theyâre just like dozens of people spontaneously combust each year like itâs a fact.â Dot sighed heavily seeing Jeanine and wishing that she could just give Nigel a hug since she had been in that situation more times than she could count.Â
âI also say how much blacker could this get, none black sometimes just to make myself laugh.â Hoshina laughed brightly as the bass guitarist was trapped in the enclosure and couldnât get out right as the song was ending and right when it opened they all went back into the enclosure anyways.Â
âThatâs just so funny to me, Iâm sorry right as the song ends he finally gets out and has to try to get back in!â Hoshina laughed brightly and Dot nodded her head animatedly since that was one of her favorite visual gags in the movie. It had been one of the ones that she laughed at the most whenever she decided to rewatch it with her parents.Â
âThatâs one of my favorite visual gags in all film honestly, second only to when the woman picks up the wrong man instead of picking Chong she picks up some random dude in Up In Smoke.â Hoshina nodded his head animatedly since that had been one of their first movie nights that they had together.Â
âOkay so I have a question Saito, do you think that Nigel has feelings for David?â Dot hummed in thought nodding her head because that honestly made so much sense to her and sheâd always felt that way.
âIâve always thought that honestly because he just hates Jeanine so much even though David says that theyâre similar and maybe they are but Iâve always thought that they were too totally different people. They have a lot of tension once she gets there so Iâve always debated that with my parents of whether or not Nigel was in love with David and just thought that he couldnât be with him. Because he was good until she got there.â Dot nodded her head with a small smile on her face this was why she loved watching movies with Hoshina since he always had interesting perspectives on things.
âOh my god them getting lost in the arena- thatâs so funny to me I can so see that happening to you-" Dot gasped over dramatically at Hoshina turning to face him and she couldnât help but feel absolutely called the hell out.Â
âItâs not my fault that I suck absolute ass with directions, I get confused! I get lost and especially when someone gives me complicated directions. I just need someone thatâs not as directionally challenged as I am. Besides youâre my GPS so if I stay with you then Iâll be fine.â Dot lightly joked and Hoshina flushed a light pink as she called that a win for a win for herself since she had finally gotten her back.Â
âWait, wait is this where you take the no weâre not gonna fucking do stone henge from-â Dot nodded her head animatedly since that was one of her lines as Hoshina watched the scene realizing that Nigel had written inches instead of feet onto the piece of paper.Â
âOh no thatâs bad thatâs not going to be good at all Saito he just wrote inches instead of feet didnât he?â Dot nodded her head with a small smirk as she watched the scene play out in front of her. Hoshina couldnât help but laugh brightly when he saw the actual stage performance play out.Â
âThis has to be your favorite song though because itâs Nigelâs song.â Dot nodded her head head animatedly shrugging her shoulders since it was her favorite song. She loved it because it was something that was purely Nigelâs creativity.Â
âIt is my favorite because itâs something that was purely Nigel. I love that scene itâs so funny and quirky.â Dot couldnât help but feel the rage when David insulted Nigelâs intelligence and it always made her irritated. Even though they were just characters played by actors she always felt insulted by David.Â
âI hate that he just undermined his intelligence though that hurts me probably because the two of you are so similar and I hate that.â Dot let out a breath of relief nodding her head animatedly since sheâd always hated that David was so quick to undermine Nigelâs intelligence.Â
âThank you, thank you that always pisses me off and now theyâre so far distant from each other because she shoved herself into that situation and I fully blame her for what happens to Nigel later on. I hate that he just called him out like that. And then right after she inserts herself into that Nigel starts losing his temper with David.â Dot sighed heavily crossing her ankles together as things started to fall apart with Nigel and the rest of the movie.
âYeah this is exactly what happens when you get into a bad situation you start to get frustrated with everything going on and that just causes you to become more and more irritable which is totally understandable. And there he goes, there he goes.â Dot sighed heavily nodding her head since that was always something that broke her heart when Nigel left the band it always hurt her.
âDo I really react like that sometimes?â Hoshina nodded his head with a small smile on his face since even though Dot did react like that when things went sidewise sometimes she was easy to placate and calm back down again. He didnât mind that about her that when she got frustrated she would lose her temper to irritation since he could always bring her back and calm her back down.
âItâs rare that it gets that bad youâre always easy for me to placate and bring back down. I donât you losing yourself sometimes when things get irritating for you to handle, besides itâs rare that sort of thing happens anyways now that you can rely on your full team.â Dot smiled brightly when at the end of the movie things shifted to the tore in Japan where Nigel was back with the group. She loved this group of quirky characters more than anything in the entire world.
âI think that was actually a really good and entertaining, I love that so much the fact that you grew up with it only makes it better.â Dot stood up and she went and grabbed the other movie that they were going to watch and her personal childhood favorite.Â
âAlright Iâm very excited to see what your favorite oneâs style of humor was like since I can so see why you loved that one so much.â Dot nodded her head animatedly turning it up a little bit so that she could hear it easier. She put up her popcorn but kept the pretzels and chips around her.Â
âWait wait, Iâve definitely heard you humming that song! Thatâs the cutest thing in the world I have absolutely heard you humming that song while youâre working. The Folksmen are they your favorite group?â Dot nodded her head animatedly blushing a light pink and pressing her index fingers together a little bit embarrassed.
âThey are actually my personal favorite but I love Mitch and Mickey as well but the Folksmen theyâre the same actors as David, Nigelâs and Derek.â Hoshina blinked rapidly and the look of shock on his face caused Dot to laugh at him. Dot pointed out which character was played by which actor and Hoshina shook his head animatedly.Â
âSorry just give me a moment to process, thatâs so weird to me holy moly. Thatâs amazing though that they were so good at changing their impressions. They are my favorite group, the joke about the records is a family running joke that we have definitely.â Dot laughed brightly with a small smile on her face and Hoshina couldnât help but laugh a little bit at the fact that was just so cute.Â
âI have actually heard you say that if you poke a hole it youâd have a great time.â Dot stuck her tongue out at her friend rolling her eyes at his antics since that was something that she would quote when the situation called for it.
âTen years and thirty albums- thatâs three albums per year! How old were you when you watched this?â Dot hummed in thought trying to think back to how old she was when she had first watched the movie that she grew up with.
âI think that I was six? But donât quote me on that Iâm pretty sure thatâs how old I was.â Dot smiled softly as she got sucked into her favorite movie that she had grown up with.Â
âThatâs another song that Iâve heard you humming before, theyâre so cute though. Thatâs adorable I can see them being one of your childhood favorites too.â Hoshina noticed about the romantic duo and she nodded her head with a small smile on her face.Â
âThey were one of my favorite sad romances when I was growing up. They donât wind up together but itâs okay because theyâll always care about each other. They cared about each other but sometimes loving someone isnât enough.â Dot reasoned looking over at her friend and smiling softly at him as she ran her hand through her hair putting her snacks away.
âI canât believe you were watching this movie when you were a kid but I can see that. Did you ever think that these were real bands?â Dot rubbed the back of her neck a little bit with a small smile on her face as she pressed her index fingers together.Â
âUm yes? Whenever I would watch this movie when I was a kid I would ask my dad when the Folksmen and Mitch and Mickey would be near us and he would always tell me that they werenât a real actual band. That these were just actors interacting off of each other and playing music together. But they all learned how to play these instruments and they all sang these songs.â Hoshina nodded his head looking at the movie in front of him and seeing the way that Mitch and Mickey interacted off of each other.
âI love that though even though theyâre not on good terms really theyâre still coming back together to make this work. Wait this is where you took dessert talk from?!â Dot nodded her head with a small laugh rubbing the back of her neck a little bit.Â
âIt is where I took this might be good dessert talk from, I always thought that was so funny. Sheâs one of my favorite characters in this, remember her from Beetlejuice? If Iâm not allowed to express myself I will go insane and I will take you with me!â Dot interpreted and Hoshina couldnât help but laugh openly since he totally remembered her now he thought that voice felt familiar but he couldnât place it really.
âTheir love story is so sweet though I can see them being one of your childhood favorites when it comes to your favorite things. Heâs so intense though and I can see why that would be a lot for someone to deal with.â Dot nodded her head and she started singing under her breath as it changed to Never Did No Wanderinâ since that had been one of favorite songs growing especially the version that The Folksmen did.Â
âWAIT thatâs where you took Now-Tro from?!â Dot nodded her head animatedly with a bright smile since this was her favorite role of that actor.
âIt is actually where I took Now-Tro from since I found it funny as a kid. Thereâs a lot of things that I took from this movie because I just found it to be funny and ridiculous. Itâs a comfort to me so youâll remember a lot of lines that I stole from it.â Dot laughed openly at the fact that her friend had absolutely called her out for referencing this movie frequently.
âSissy Knox is actually one of my favorite characters I love her so much sheâs so cute. My dad often will teasingly call me Sissy Knox because he told me that I reminded him of the bright and bubbly member of the toothpaste commercial band. Thatâll make more sense later on.â Dot shrugged her shoulders and Hoshina couldnât help but laugh a little bit at the bubbly and sunshine energy that exuded from the character. Dot flapped her hand animatedly as she pointed at the screen.Â
âI took so many of my references from this character, his actor Fred Willard was so funny to me when I was a kid and I just thought that he was so ridiculous.â Hoshina nodded his head with his gaze transfixed on the screen and as soon as Hoshina heard the character yell âHey Wha Happen?!â He automatically knew what Dot was talking about.Â
âThatâs where you took that from! I love that so much though thatâs so cute, I canât do my work too! And I donât think so, you always say that like that I never wouldâve guessed that you took that from these movies.â Dot pressed her index fingers together as she had been absolutely called out by her friend.Â
âI took them because as a kid since I was something that I found comforting. I would use hey wha happenâ whenever something would go wrong around my friends. My dad especially found it funny whenever I would comedically shout I canât do my work and he would yell back what work are you trying to do?!â Dot laughed a little bit at the memory since that had been one of her favorite jokes.
âIâm realizing something though, Mitch looks really unfocused until heâs looking at Mikey singing. As soon as sheâs singing then he looks a lot more focused because he just loved her that much. And even though that didnât work out between the two of them they still love each other.â Dot nodded her head animatedly since sheâd always noticed that despite all of the mental and emotional turmoil that her favorite characters had been through they still cared about each other deeply. To her thatâs what love was, it meant sacrificing some things so that the other person could be happy. And she was sacrificing a lot just so that Hoshina would stay happy for her.
âLove to me is about sacrifice if you truly love someone then youâll let them go and be happy elsewhere even if itâs without you around in a romantic way. My parents loved each other obviously they did if they had me and theyâre still together today. But I never really thought that romance was for me. Iâd probably be too much for my partner honestly. I talk too much and itâs hard to keep track of everything that I say.â Hoshina looked towards his friend with his head slightly cocked to the side since that was the first time that he was hearing about that.Â
âSounds like youâre speaking from experience Saito you donât gotta tell me about it if you donât want to but I think that if anyoneâs deserving of love then you are because you are a very lovable and loving kind of person and I think that anyone that gets to fall in love with you theyâre very lucky. Youâre a very unique and lovable person who would do anything for the people in your life and I think that someday someone will love you as you are. Maybe someone already does and theyâre just good at hiding it because they donât really know what to do with the feelings that they have since thatâs not how they were raised.â Dot felt tears come to her eyes at the fact that she was able to read between those lines and for the first time she saw it. She saw that she wasnât the only one that felt this way and that for the first time in her life, Dot wasnât alone in having romantic feelings for someone. She was seen where she was and that same person felt the same way about her. Now the ball was in her court and it was up to her to say something about the way that she truly felt about her friend.Â
âThroughout much of my teen years and going into my adult life every single time that I caught feelings for someone it never worked out. I wound up in a lot of.. toxic situationships because of it. Where we werenât exactly dating but there was definitely some.. non-platonic things going on. I had a former friend tell me that it made sense that Iâd never get a boyfriend because I was selfish and I talked too much about myself and my own interests. So I just assumed that I wasnât cut out for romance because of things that people told me I guess.â Dot shrugged her shoulders pausing the movie since it was clear that her friend was missing a lot of the movie because of their intense conversation. Hoshina blinked a little bit trying to understand what his friend was telling him. Even though she had always been so kind it was clear that people from Dotâs past had taken advantage of that kindness and he felt this surge of protectiveness going through him that told him to instantly just hold her and tell her how wrong her former friend and past situationships were and how they treated her shouldnât be how you treat another person.Â
âSaito-nah Dottles, your friends that wasnât right the way that they treated ya. You didnât deserve to be treated that way by people that you cared about. Especially ya former friend, if she had known the stuff that youâd been through then sheâd know how wrong that is especially to say that to someone else who probably didnât ask for any of that. You deserve better and ya deserve to have someone that loves ya and accepts you as you are. Quirks and all because I- I donât mind that ya talk a lot. I like hearing you talk about the things that you love and hearing you talk about your interests and your favorite movies. I like being with ya like this when youâre not so tense and your not so stressed out. I like getting to experience these things that you love so much and getting to laugh with ya because your laugh is beautiful. Getting to see these little pockets of yer life before I met you they make me happy.â Dot flushed a bright pink at the shortening of her first name. Nobody had ever shortened her first name like that because her name was already short enough and it didnât require a nickname out of her name. But the fact that Hoshina had thought of a way to give her a cute nickname that was unique to him anyways meant everything to her.
âI should know because.. I love ya. And I donât want you to have to change for anyone least of all for me. I want you to be happy instead it doesnât gotta be with me it could e with anyone. I like just sitting here and talking with ya your my favorite person to talk to. I want to be with you but I donât care that you donât feel the same way that I do right now. IÂ just want you to know my feelings.â Dot blinked a little bit inching her lower arm and wincing at the pain that went through her arm.
âYou wait- you love me? Really? You love me? Soshiro donât mess with me I couldnât take it off you were messing with me.â Hoshina cocked his head to the side with a small smile on his face as he tentatively scooted closer to Dot.
âOf course I love ya, I thought that I was being super obvious with how I felt about you because I always wanted to be with you and talk with ya. Youâre so beautiful, cute, funny, sweet, and youâre always so bright and happy. I love ya I didnât plan on saying anything to you since I didnât want to lose yer friendship or anything.â Dot blinked a little bit in surprise and she reached over and took Hoshinaâs hand in herâs squeezing it softly.Â
âI love you too, I have since I was first starting out here and started doing my work here. Even though you didnât know any of my favorite things Iâve had so much fun getting to introduce my favorite things to you. You make me laugh every single day and I love laughing with you, getting to watch my favorite movies and experience them with you has been one of the biggest joys that Iâve ever had.â Dot ran her and through her hair with a small smile on her face and Soshiro held her hand squeezing it with a small smile on his face.
âI never really thought that Iâd find someone that I loved as much as I love you. Youâre just so cute.â Hoshina lightly squeezed Dotâs cheeks with a small smile on his face.
âStop that you nutcase- you keep squishing my cheeks!â Dot protested with kicking her legs in irritation with a bright laugh as Hoshina completely ignored her and kept squishing her cheeks anyways.
âI canât help it, you look so cute when you get irritated like that itâs too easy to lightly tease you. Youâre so precious Iâm sorry I canât help but tease ya just a little bit.â Dot laughed at her friend hugging him tightly uncaring that she was being too clingy she was just wanting to be near him right now. Hoshina blinked a little bit not expecting the hug but he easily reciprocated the hug clinging to her just as much as she was to him.
âYou can press play again, weâll talk after the movie is over I know that this is one of your favorites sorry for interrupting.â Dot shook her head animatedly grabbing the remote and keeping her arms around Hoshinaâs waist to stop him from going back to his original spot. He couldnât help but laugh openly at the idea at the âwitches in natures colorâ idea.
âThatâs where you took the youâd make that conclusion walking down the street or going to the store whenever somebody says something particularly nuts! I never would have known that you took so much from this movie. You comfy over there?â Dot looked up at her friend with a small half-hearted glare that Hoshina couldât help but laugh at a little bit.Â
âI would be more comfortable if my pillow stopped making so much racket.â Dot smiled softly when she heard the familiar sounds of Loco Man that she loved because it reminded her of her dadâs ridiculous antics.
âMy dad loves that song! Itâs one of his favorite songs since much to my momâs protesting one of his favorite instruments is the banjo and he always thought that it was a really creative idea to use the banjo in a Jamaican style number.â Dot explained with a small smile and Hoshina nodded his head understandingly hearing the familiar sounds of A Kiss At The End Of The Rainbow a song he already knew since it was one that Dot sang a lot to herself.Â
âThatâs where this song comes from itâs so pretty, and just the way that he looks at her even though theyâre not good for each other you can see a time when they were good for each other what that would have been good for one another.â Dot nodded her head animatedly since this had been one of her favorite songs when she was a little kid it was comforting to her and sheâd use it to self soothe during storms and other times of trauma when she was growing up and didnât want to bother her parents.Â
âWhen I was a kid I would use that song as a way to.. I guess soothe myself? It worked during storms quite a bit since Iâm afraid of thunder, still am to this day. I hate thunder or loud noises in general.â Dot laughed a little bit rubbing the back of her neck and Hoshinaâs arms tightened around her protectively.Â
âIs that why you always flinch when someone yells into the comms?â Dot nodded her head since even though it was a silly fear it was still one of the few things that she was genuinely afraid of either than spiders.
âIâm also terrified of spiders but you know that already due to the loud screaming that I always let out whenever I see even a tiny one in the operations area.â Dot whined and Hoshina couldnât help but laugh a little bit at his friendâs rather adorable fear of spiders. He always was there with a quick paper towel and cup method to let the spider back outside.
âThis is where you took that were you planning on studying it later, just kinda academically then- you say that to some of the younger operations people when theyâre still learning and wonât read the pamphlets that Okonogi makes.â Dot cackled with a small smile on her face nodding her head animatedly since that had been one of her favorite running jokes that sheâd made with her dad.Â
âI also use we have one brain between the two of us when it comes to me and Brandon since heâs oftentimes the other side of my brain where heâll be thinking the same thing that I am.â Hoshina couldnât help but laugh a little bit since he couldnât help but smile softly at her. He loved watching Dot bond with the other members of Ashiroâs operations division.
âI love them so much though theyâre still so cute even if they arenât together romantically anymore theyâre still people that truly understand one another. I think that Mickey is the only one that truly gets him even though they canât be together romantically they still understand each other and look at each other with so much understanding and love. I think that theyâre my favorite honestly.â Dot smiled softly at her friendâs perspective as he talked animatedly about why he related to this movie.Â
âI totally get that though because they were two of my favorite characters when I was a kid as well.â Hoshina nodded his head animatedly and Dot leaned her head against Hoshinaâs shoulder.
âMy dad and I have a running joke that my momâs anxiety is a lot like the sonâs where sheâs constantly worried about every little possible thing and she hates it when we we tease her about it but I absolutely inherited her anxiety.â Dot laughed a little bit as she talked more about her family and Hoshina watched as Mitchâs anxiety grew bigger and bigger as time went on.
âOh no heâs totally panicking thatâs bad- thatâs bad.â Dot nodded her head since this was how she genuinely saw her anxiety. Hoshina sat there watching until The New Main Street Singers came out and instantly Dot saw the small lines of irritation go across his face.
âWAIT theyâre playing the same song that the Folksmen were rehearsing how is that allowed?!â Dot nodded head since that had always pissed her off beyond all belief despite her appreciation of Potatoâs In A Padywagon for itâs goofy and silly nature.
âThis is also where I stole toothpaste commercial from~â Dot laughed a little bit at her friend when Mark Shubb said the iconic line that she often used to refer to modern Disney movies.
âAnd there he goes heâs going for a walk sometimes thatâs what works best for me though too itâs just a good thing for the nerves and the anxiety to just step away for a few minutes and get some air. My dad is the same way, that sort of quiet and soft spoken sort of person. I do love Sissy Knoxâs vibe though sheâs so cute even though the band isnât the best sheâs so cute.â Dot laughed a little bit and Hoshina fingered one of her ribbons that she tied her hair back with every day.Â
âTheyâre going to do Old Joeâs Place though thatâs one of my ultimate favorite songs it just comforts me and I often do one of my favorite jokes with my dad where Iâll walk up to him and just say just look for the busted neon sign that flashes âE A Oâsâ and heâll do the laugh with me. Itâs just something that weâve always done.â Dot shrugged her shoulders humming the song and tapping her foot to the beat of one of her childhood favorite songs.
âIâve always loved to sing this song with my dad in the car too itâs just something that weâve done since I was a kid. What do you think that Mitch is going to bring back with him on his walk?â Hoshina hummed in thought before his eyes widened at the idea that just struck him.Â
âIf he brings back a rose I swear to god Iâm going to bawl my eyes out.â Dot laughed a little bit when Mitch came back on to the screen carrying a red rose and Hoshinaâs eyes welled up with tears as Dotâs arms tightened around him comforting him.
âHer voice is so pretty though, isnât she also Sally in Nightmare Before Christmas?â Dot nodded her head animatedly not expecting that Hoshina would remember such a simple song in one of her favorite movies. She started humming the main theme under her breath as Hoshina couldnât help but laugh a little bit at the quirky and outlandish lyrics.
âTheyâre all so good at singing though even if theyâre just singing this stuff as a joke. I feel like Christopher Guest is doing an impression though? He sounds like Frodo of the nine fingers and the ring of doom guy that did the music from The Hobbit and The Lord Of The Rings animated films.â Dot shrugged her shoulders since she actually had no idea if Christopher Guest had taken inspiration from one of her childhood soundtracks or not.Â
âI have no clue where he got that from actually but that would be an interesting fun fact if that was true!â Dot smiled softly at her friendâs thoughts since as per usual he was thinking outside of the box and coming up with his own unique ideas. Dot inwardly cringed when she heard Mickey singing songs for her husband and she sighed heavily.
âPoor Mickey honestly I love her though sheâs my favorite character. Probably because sheâs so strong and so funny, she reminds me of you actually quite a bit. I know that Sissy Knox is your most relatable character but she means a lot to you. Dot smiled softly at her friend since Mickey had always been one of her childhood favorite characters and she couldnât help but laugh brightly at the last jokes with The Folksmen.
âSo itâs the Folksmen and women now? Thatâs actually so funny though I kind of love that honestly thatâs really beautiful though. Itâs a really cute and beautiful story about friendship and the support that youâll give to your friends. Even when you struggle the people that care about you theyâll still be there.â Dot laughed a little bit nodding her head since that was always her thoughts on the movie. That relationships while complicated were worth it in the end because sometimes it brought you to a special person that would understand and accept you as you are. Speaking of being accepted as she was, she was still snuggled up to her longtime crush.Â
âHey Soshiro I um what do you want to do from here?â Hoshina cocked his head to the side with a small smile on his face as he leaned against her side snuggling closer to her.Â
âWell what I want is to take you on a date as soon as possible~ cat cafe as soon as your available?â Dot nodded her head with tears in her eyes as she smiled softly since that sounded like a dream to her. A date with dream guy and cats, sign her up for that yesterday.Â
âThat sounds amazing A date like that I should probably be well rested for..â Hoshina sighed heavily pressing kisses across Dotâs cheeks as she giggled at his antics.
âCan I kiss ya at least before I leave?â Dot nodded her head tentatively with a bright pink blush on her cheeks hard to believe that any of this was actually happening. Hoshina leaned in and gently kissed Dot cradling her cheeks in his hands and lightly squeezing them before he pulled back and regretfully left her arms.Â
âIâll see ya tomorrow and then weâll organize that date for once things calm down a little bit and Captain Ashido comes back.â Dot nodded her head with a small smile on her face as she pulled back from the hug giving Hoshina one last kiss before she walked her friend to the front of her room.
âIâll see you tomorrow Soshiro, try ad get some sleep okay? Donât just go to the training room and train for the rest of the night. Actually go to sleep, youâre still recovering from your fight with Number 10 and you need all the sleep that you can get.â Dot encouraged and Hoshina sighed heavily knowing that there was no way that he could get out of this.Â
âAlright alright I love ya Nia, see you tomorrow. You get some rest too, I look forward to our date~â Hoshina gave Dot one last kiss and couldnât contain the giddy lovestruck smile on his face even if he wanted to. Dot grabbed her stuffed caterpillar that she had brought with her from home and hugged it tightly as she drifted off to sleep.Â
#soshiro hoshina#writing#my fics#a mighty wind#this is spinal tap#movie watching fics#kaiju no 8 fanfiction
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â¨Roleplay Partner Searchâ¨
I'm looking for 18+ text based roleplay partners that are active and can meet the following requirements:
Long-term: I am used to doing a semi-to-slow burn and have written easily into the hundreds of thousands of words with a dedicated partner.
Paragraph-Literature Style (Third Person): I can easily do one thousand words for a post but have done more during setup and a bit less for dialogue-heavy interaction. Quality over quantity but attempting to match length is appreciated.
Activity: I like to post multiple times a day if possible and would enjoy someone who could meet this pace. I'm in US EST, and my schedule is currently very open. Once a day would be acceptable as well.
LGBTQ Friendly Pairings: I heavily enjoy playing male/male, male/transman and male/non-binary character dynamics.
BDSM/Kink Friendly: I like to use Safe, Sane and Consensual as well as Risk Aware Consensual Kink if we are adding BDSM elements. I have a wide variety of kinks, so please don't be shy when asking after one!
Fandoms: The following are my preferred fandoms with the setup being Top/bottom (* is who I enjoy playing.)
Attack on Titan
Levi*/Eren
Pairings: These dynamics are what I enjoy the most when creating either a fandom or original roleplay. No preference is given to which is played and what side of the slash is top or bottom.
Human/Werewolf
Human/Merfolk
Human/Eldritch Horror
Human/Demon
Mage/Demon
Mage/Summoned
Werewolf/Werewolf
Alpha/Omega
Teacher/Student
Master/Slave (BDSM oriented)
Kidnapper/Kidnapped
Stalker/Victim
Neglected Spouse/Enamored Neighbor
Camboy/Watcher
Brother/Brother (Can be twins or adopted)
Sugar Daddy/Sugar Baby
Genres/Tropes: These are elements that I adore including in my writing when building a plot with a partner. Not everything has to be added but just know these are well loved.
Alpha/Beta/Omega dynamics
Soulmates/Fated Mates
Hurt/Comfort
Mpreg
Reincarnation
Angst
Slowburn
Fuck or Die
Monsterfucking
Soul Bonds
Yandere (Lovers don't hurt each other)
Enemies to Lovers
Forbidden Lovers
Things I Need: I love to world build and plan. The plot and characters matter over the smut but I definitely don't mind doing a lot of smut if the setup requires it (BDSM themes exploring character vulnerability and growth for example.)
Things that I Dislike: Straight up slice of life without any paranormal elements or conflict. I just find the pacing and themes too dull to keep my interest. No god-modding and please, let me know if you lose your muse or want to try something else. I won't be offended and understand, I promise!
Places: I prefer to roleplay through Discord or Email. It helps me keep track of things and stay active.
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Here are some plots I have!
~Fixated~
Themes: Eldritch Creature, Mutual Obsession, Dark Themes. Possessive Love. A Darker Love.
Levi is an Eldritch God of the Void that has been masquerading as a school janitor while feeding on the students there. Eren is a new student baffled by all of the rumors surrounding the staff member, even though none of them are anywhere close to the truth. Levi is bored but Eren wants to know him more.
Hook: They develop a mutual obsession with each other. Eren is amusing at first but then has the God experiencing love for the first time. Eren and Levi fall into a dark but all encompassing love.
Additional secret: They can be reincarnated from canon to add more interest.
~Take Me Further~
Themes: Actual BDSM, Kinks, Fetishes, Dynamics and RP borrowing real life experiences from someone in the community.
Levi is a community leader of the local BDSM chapter while Eren is a brand new submissive that is eager and wants to try. This RP is meant to share and develop a unique experience with the character's dynamics and how they discover themselves and each other.
Note: Any dynamics or tropes listed above can be worked in these plots.
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To be honest, the only real criticism I have of you is that you spend way more time complaining about people not liking you or having the wrong opinions about Eggman than you do just enjoying Eggman for what he is. Just let people be wrong, man. Let go and just enjoy what you like about Eggman instead of worrying about what others think. This isn't me being annoyed at you either. I'm not. This is me thinking you'd be happier if you quit worrying about others' opinions so much.
I'm surprised it seems that way because my blog is a much more positive place than a negative one all around, I have way more Eggman love posts, analysis, concepts, writings, etc, where I just talk about what I love than I do thinking about what others think and I'm happy when I'm not being harassed over it. I think that shows if one goes through my Eggman specific tags.
I actually don't spend a lot of time thinking about what others think about Eggman. I don't even seek out online talk of him in general nowadays because I realized how negative it was making me feel. I don't search him up on any social media platforms anymore unless I can heavily filter, specifically to avoid that, as sad as I am about missing out on good things people create.
I know a bunch of my posts are counters to popular opinions but they're ones I just remember and I like to bring up for the sake of my analysis or my takes, so if that counts I guess it is a bit more than I feel like I do. But that's just me constantly being aware I have the unpopular opinion/takes/preferences and trying to help with some corrections when mistakes are made and I'm passionate about that.
I find it really hard to let people be wrong if I see blatant misinformation about something I love. I know a lot of people hate it but I really just want to help people learn the truth and understand more because I'm really passionate about it and like to get a chance to share my knowledge and help out. When people tell me they were helped out by me doing that, it makes me really happy and like what I do is worth it and they're who I really make it for always.
But I almost never come in and start directly making corrections to people unless it's in direct messages, I use my own blog instead of intruding on posts, which I feel would be worse. Despite being aware that those people who are wrong exist, I'm not making the posts for them because I know they won't see or read it if they're that firm in their beliefs. But I want to put something out there to help other people who might see that misinformation and believe it and it spreads more.
I'm not unhappy while making the posts, they're some of my favorites. But I also have hundreds and hundreds of pages worth of me just gushing over Eggman, sharing my concepts and writing, and analyzing in ways that focus on the official material without focusing on anyone else's outside opinions at all. I am happiest that way but it's definitely heavily outweighing them overall already. I think most days, my blog is far more positive than negative.
My mind does have a problem of fixating on the negatives sometimes when people mistreat me though because then it becomes a lot more personal. A lot of the times they tend to be a very vocal minority that feel like the majority on some days and I'm honest about how I'm feeling in personal posts, like I was yesterday. But I was also drunk for most of it and dwelling about being down in the dumps even more than usual which explains the burst of them lol I should turn my phone off
But yeah I get that if you come in on the wrong day it probably can seem like all I do is think about how others think of Eggman and think of me. But it feels good to get it out, it stops me from thinking about it and calms me down and posting it can potentially help others and that turns it into something happy for me. But there are plenty of things I've written out and not posted when I realize it can't help others and is just pointless negativity, though on bad days I may actually post them
But I think most of the time I think I do a decent job of not thinking about all that and I am trying to work on it more. I don't search for Eggman and have heavily filtered common words to get away from things I don't like, and many days I spend my free time just focusing on my own creations or playing the games and gushing over Eggman and forgetting about the outside world and have a blast. I do feel like my positivity still far outweighs the negative. But I am hoping over time as I improve, the negatives will decrease a bit more.
I appreciate that you're not being mean and angry about this like common hate anons and actually telling me what you think and what I could do. I'm also not trying to say I shouldn't be fairly criticized, I appreciate the honesty and perspective and always encourage it. I don't see it as that bad when looking through my blog because I genuinely don't feel that negative in my posting most of the time but now that you've brought it to my attention more, I can try to hone in and work on it more to avoid that even more. Thank you
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Who is your favorite non-Sayian, non-villain character in the Dragonball series? I really like Piccolo and Tien for instance. Or do you only have room for the major players?
Probably Bulma, Piccolo, or Krillin, depending on my mood. If I show greater appreciation for Saiyans and villains, it's only because they have a greater presence in the show, so there's more for me to talk about.
Even so, I still enjoy minor characters, or even obscure ones. To give you an idea, or just because I need to get it out of my head, I'll say a few words about my latest fixation, Ivy from Where on Earth is Carmen Sandiego?
I just woke up today and somehow got reminded of this cartoon, which was promoted heavily on Fox back in 1994 while I was trying to watch Batman: The Animated Series. Carmen Sandiego is the thief from the old computer games, and the cartoon introduced a pair of detective characters to chase her, a brother-and-sister team named Zack and Ivy.
Zack is pretty easy to read. He's a computer whiz, voiced by the same guy who plays Robin in the Teen Titans cartoons, and he's basically this adolescent sidekick type. Ivy, on the other hand, I could never quite figure out. And the show is unwatchable, so that didn't help much.
Like, okay, in 1994 I was 17, and I kind of had the hots for Ivy. She kind of looks like a prototype Kim Possible, so I guess that gives younger people an idea of what I'm talking about. I think I just assumed she was also 17, but sometimes the show plays her off like she's an adult. I mean, she's a professional detective, and she seems pretty experienced, and from what I've read she has a "history with Carmen" according to the show. The implication is that she's been working this job for several years, so maybe she started when she was Zack's age and she's about 24 now. I'm just spitballing.
On the other hand, that's kind of dumb. It's a kids show, and Zack's a kid, so why wouldn't Ivy also be a kid? You see her in the same scene with Carmen and it seems obvious. She's older than Zack, but not by that much.
On the other hand, the two detectives are in contact with a live-action character known as the "Player", which sort of suggests that the entire cartoon is taking place inside a computer game, and Ivy doesn't actually exist. That would explain why no one can find a woman in a bright red trenchcoat, and why Zack is considered the second most qualified person to catch her. So Ivy could be any age, or no age at all. She's not a character so much as an avatar for the faceless Player.
Anyway, I only got this far because I looked up information on the show over the course of the day, because I had completely forgotten the character's whole deal. I just remembered the red hair and the bomber jacket. But while I was looking it up, I found out they made a whole other Carmen Sandiego show in 2019, and in that one, Zack and Ivy are Carmen's accomplices, which kind of blew my mind. Apparently Carmivy is a popular ship in that fandom, so I feel less silly for crushing on Ivy in 1994.
I guess the point I'm trying to make here is that I always admired the Ivy design, even if the character concept was frustratingly vague and inconsistent. And this is just the example that I've been thinking about today. I find myself latching onto all sorts of obscure characters, wanting to find out more about them, and then getting frustrated when I learn there's not much to be had.
And this is my roundabout way of saying that of course I like the supporting cast of Dragon Ball. Characters like Tien and 17 and Zarbon are what make the whole thing come together, and a lot of them have lore that's much more satisfying than Ivy's.
#ask duhragonball#note to self: use ivy's clothes for the next zatte commission i order#no one else is using that fit so i might as well get something out of it
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And now that i'm awake, how about "Star!Alpha17" and "FlynnNReggieAreBros" for the ask game?
Star!Alpha17 is the Star to Steer By supplemental about Alpha 17, and his life and adventures hosting the symbiote Obi-Wan Kenobi. (There are SHENANIGANS! :D) Unfortunately the logical ending place for the fic is where things start up in A Stat to Steer By, which is perhaps fitting for Alpha but sad for the authors and probably the audience.
It looks like I posted roughs for the first parts here on tumblr, huh.
FlynnNReggieAreBros is the product of my cheerfully unhinged delight for Julie and the Phantoms - that show taps directly into the part of my brain that grew up on Jem and the Holigrams, so it's a brightly colored hit of pure happy brain chemicals every time. (Of course, I don't have Netflix anymore and they clearly do not want my money because I can't purchase the show in actual dvd form, the jerks. >_<)
During one of my viewings, it hit that while Reggie - the (cleancut) rocker type (as compared to the drummer's boy-band vibe, or the lead guitarist's Rob Thomas aesthetic) - is undeniably an airhead, he's wildly insightful when the plot demands. Flynn, Julie's bestie, has a similar thing where she's clearly playing up "I'm flighty and fixated on [random thing]" but it's not for plot purposes. Instead it's playing to her audience (Julie, usually) to try to evoke particular emotions and either get someone talking, or change the emotional atmosphere.
And I could just hear Flynn talking to Reggie, saying âIt gets really exhausting to pretend to be stupid all the time, doesnât it.â
Which started me chasing down a rabbit hole of how does Flynn's background (not heavily detailed) compare to Reggie's (perpetually arguing parents always on the verge of divorce); why are they like that; how does it feel to be seen by each other; etc. And I just want to write them, not as a romantic pairing but absolute bros and just...dig into the dynamics there.
Unfortunately, "oh noes, guess I have to rewatch the series to research" kept becoming "whoops, I've just watched and enjoyed it all over again, guess we'll have to try next time".
^_^;;;
One of the days, I hope?
#conversation#prowlingthunder#wip title game#julie and the phantoms#my writing#star to steer by#alpha 17#ugh#and don't even get me started on the mythological threads to Julie and the Phantoms#I just want to roll around in the implications and references forever#it's not that i would murder for a season 2 but i do long for it#or at the very least a solid synopsis from the powers that be of where they were going with it
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For the Reverse Unpopular Opinion meme...tell me what you think about the other companions in Wrath, besides Daeran and Lann!
*DEEP BREATH* I focus on the good and not the bad of the following characters.
Arue wasn't quite the dream girl I had hoped for, but I still like her very much, and I'm honestly glad she was different from what I hoped. I liked her struggles to become better, I liked her sweetness to those who gave her compassion and her sheer bafflement on the occasion. My only sincere wish was showing more of a struggle in action than being told of it. I really wished her quest wasn't so black and white in Act 4, though I know such a thing couldn't be possible due to the writing of other characters.
The entire character of Camellia is ingenious. There is no redemption, there is no twist of love saving her, she's really that evil. Her characterization is perfect, she's cruel, cutting, and wears such a pretty mask. My only misfortune with Camellia is playing good female characters of either high intelligence or wisdom, so Cameilla doesn't have a chance to try and corrupt my KCs. Her treatment of Ember and Lann is breath taking in hitâs meanness. Her coxing up to a noble despite her peasant heritage and bastard status seems on point, and how she fools Sosiel is hilarious.
Ember is a charming character and I love her. I love her naivety and her innocence, I love that she's determined to do her best and forsake the gods, I love that the game allows her to be a paradox (because one of the deities loves Ember very much) but never calls her out on it because of her age and her trauma and genuine desire to help others. But... but I donât want to take my smol daughter out in battle and Iâm not giving her Hellfire Ray because thatâs EVIL. ... though casting it on Baphomet and sending his essence straight to Asmodeus would be great.
Greybor is someone that I'd think I'd enjoy more if I sat down and respec his build. There's a lot of lore and crunch that don't fit with this guy. Regardless, I do enjoy him and his quips. He's very low key and while I don't entirely agree with his alignment, he's a great 'Cool Uncle' character that I should just enjoy.
Nenio makes me laugh. I really adore her kitsune form in theory, though I feel the artwork compared to her human portrait has no personality. Fan art tries to make up for that. Regardless of the portraits, Nenio zooms in with a comment or two that makes me laugh out loud, which is a total rarity in most games I play. ... And I really think she's one of the best portrayals of True Neutral I've seen. I know a lot of folks code her as autistic, but I'm not entirely sure if I agree, because poor social skills and hyper fixations are symptoms of many neruodivegant folk.
Regill is such a wonderful character. The initial impression of his design is such a whiplash from the character we actually get. At first glance you're seeing a three foot tall man with hair akin to a troll-doll in edgy black armor before you take in the details -- the character is old. Still, so much could have gone wrong with this character, and yet Owlcat nails everything. The writing takes the premise seriously enough to be intimidated, but allows enough levity to make Regill endearing, and never forgets at his core Regill is a gnome. And then Owlcat nails it all down with the perfect voice performance for him, something that could destroyed this character completely. Regill is such a high risk character, and Owlcat slammed it with a home run.
Seelah's personality is one of the best for a paladin I've seen in years! Warm, kind, and following her duties while putting goodness first. She likes to drink, she likes being with people, she likes giving people the chances that she was given - she's heavily GOOD and I adore it. I feel like her quest deserved far more thought and effort like Amiri's was given in Kingmaker.
Sosiel is someone that I don't play with enough, simply because in my first run I was the buffer and Daeran is a better healbot/blaster. However, he was exactly what was needed for Shelyn in Owlcat games after a horrific introduction with Valerie's quest. He was sane but naive, sweet and impressionable, and his faith is slowly put to the test that he fairs well in. On the surface, Sosiel would feel better in a more down to earth game when not romancing him. When you romance him as a demon, Owlcat goes places that few CRPGs do with LI who falls for someone who is actually evil, and how love can be corrupted.
Wenduag is... really good with axes and I enjoy her voice actress. I keep playing good characters so I don't get her until Act 3 and we all know how Act 4 goes. She's probably the most 'typical' character in the game for me. Woljif is a character that I might headcanon as younger compared to most! Mind, I see him as someone of age, but someone in his late teens or very early 20s because of his maturity and behavior. He's really a good portrayal of a young man who has had rough life, who has no real loyalty because it's never been shown to him, and is very aware what demons can do. Essentially he's my smol idiot and I love him.
Trevor as a concept is really neat and while his build is a nightmare, I find it eerily accurate to folks who go through war and PSTD without the help they truly need. They have so many skills and concepts inside that have gone missing due to trauma, and tapping into them without help is a challenge. On top of this, I almost feel like Owlcat is saying 'no, don't drag him through more shit than you have to' with this build. Trevor and Sosiel's relationship also mirrors Zon-Kuthon and Shelyn so well.
Finnean was really quiet in my run. :(((
Aivu is a delight, though I've heard stories that Aivu's inclusion meant that Azata got less story and more whimsy with a fairly powerful addition to the party. Regardless, when I found out that Aivu and Daeran had the same writer, I wasn't shocked. Aivu picks on Daeran the most! She really feels like a toddler which gives me the same emotinal whiplash as I get from Ember: these are my babies, why am I putting them near the soul eating demons?? I think Aivu was written so well, I wasn't sure if I should listen to a five year old girl about rushing down to do Midnight Fane, but I'm going back, taking a deep breath, and replaying before going into the Ivory Prison.
#ask meme#(PUMPKIN LOOK WHAT YOU MADE ME DO)#(I HOPE YOU'RE PROUD OF YOURSELF)#(thank you!)#(I didn't start to realize how complicated Sosiel and Trevor can be until this!)
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