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after the fight

Happy birthday, @carmineroses ! I drew a moment between Hope and Gwen after Hope fought the Demon Queen that should have happened in the game because they should have been canon, grrrrrrr

Thank you for being such a sweet individual :) I love talking to you, and hope you have a good year!

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Having internet friends is an experience. Did you eat today? I can't believe your sister hasn't apologized yet, what a bitch. Drink a glass of water right now. Want to see a cat picture? I love you. I know you better than your parents. I don't know your name. I'm having a rough day, can you talk to me about your favorite videogame? I love you. Good morning means good night means good afternoon means go to sleep. Here's a doodle I made in class. I'm stealing your clothes as we speak, they're so pretty. I love you. I love your pet. What does your hair look like? I'd love to see that weird leaf. I love you. I'm making you your favorite food. Thank you for holding my secrets for me. I love you. We're having a coffee date. I love you. I'm giving you a screen-sized hug. I love you. I love you. I love you.

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nancy can read the room but she chooses not to let that dictate her actions

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Brassius was in ORAS 8 years ago! 🌻

hello everyone! :] when i was watching gameplay of scarlet and violet on call w my friends i screamed aloud and scared them seeing these:

These (and 1 other in the town) are secret base decorations from ORAS, and when interacted with they say the same name and that they're from an 'unknown artist'. but given all the other art in the town was made by Brassius, I wanted to go look at these in ORAS

In ORAS, in the Lilycove Museum there is an artist (using the Kindler model probably because of the apron and gloves, ORAS doesn't have an artist trainer class) who says he just tried to submit his art to the museum and had it denied, and offers to sell it to you for ¥100000

(his dialouge if you refuse to buy anything ^ i can cry)

this museum also has a sculpture of a Shroomish by an "up and coming artist", and a painting of grass pokemon (...🌻 in RSE?)

(Brassius also has a Breloom on his team in his rematch)

Now, some guy selling his sculptures for a profit in the same museum that just rejected them seems to fit with Brassius saying there was a time he only cared about money and fame (possibly after his art was already featured in the museum) and made shallow trash

it makes sense that he wouldn't put his name on this old work, and that perhaps Surrendering Sunflora was an attempt at a return to form of his first popular work, the Shroomish. the last bit of evidence:

an artist saying it must be a brassius original, though the style is off.

(to be clear i don't think they were planning this for 8 years or anything (though the Kindler and shroomish specifically were added in ORAS) but that theyre tying Brassius into this Lilycove Museum guy retroactively, and its really cool!!! more people need to know!!)

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Major character death cw

Graphic depiction of violence cw

Blood cw

A mini comic in which Volo is losing his mind and ingo just happens to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. Again.

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the supercharged streamer!

so I’ve been growing quite fond of Iono lately, so I decided to draw her!

ignore the low effort garbage background shhhh

she’s fun to draw, I love sv’s Gym Leaders

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I still think one of the funniest experiences of my life was watching American Psycho with my sister and afterwards we both went "okay. Lets do something more lighthearted now" and put on the dubbed version of Howl's Moving Castle and we both lost our minds when we heard Howl start talking

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Do you think N ever spiraled after leaving Ghetsis and had to confront everything his father did?

Oh man your ask made me autism really bad on the green guy pokémon man

Gigantic detailed analysis of the consequences of Plasma/Ghetsis on N under the cut !!!

TW : mention of psychological abuse, neglect

N immediately leaves at the end of BW1, and I think it might be the best choice for him. Yes, he does let go of his new found friendship with the player, but he spent his whole life being controlled and manipulated, and it's time for him to break those chains. I think that him leaving Unova is a way for him to distance himself mentally from everything that happened, while also letting him explore the world on his own. I believe his journey outside of Unova is what kept him from spiraling, because he wasn't in a hostile environment anyway. It was all new, with no bad memories attached. He could finally make memories of his own, untarnished by Ghetsis.

N had to grieve his father, because well, he realized this man never loved him. I believe 100% that Ghetsis designed part of N's last team. N's teams consist of surrounding pokémons, but this time specifically, his team contains not one, but two fossil pokémons??? There's no way he would get them in the wild. Because he witnessed the battle with the player, he saw that his father's team was designed to take down his own. He understood that his father had trapped him, quietly, that he had given him specific pokémons so that he would sweep his team and take him down with no issues.

He had to grieve his childhood and his life. He left his pokémons friends behind because he had a "destiny" of some sort, and it was all a big fat lie. He spent most of his life locked in a playground, surrounded by abused pokémons to ensure he wouldn't question Ghetsis' teachings. He never had a best friend he exchanged silly gifts with. He never had his first childhood crush. He never played messengers when his friends had an argument. He never played tag with a bunch of other children. He was never taught to ride a bike as a kid. He never played in the fresh snow with other children, he never had a snowball fight. Had he ever even see snow because he arrived in Icirrus City ?

And then he had to grieve what he could have been. Throughout his travel in Unova it is likely that N understood how socially and emotionally unfit he was for the outside world, because Ghetsis stunted his development on purpose. Ghetsis needed N to be somewhat vulnerable and unfit to get rid of him easily later. N is very much autistic, but it's all made faaaar worse by years of isolation from his peers. At best he is clumsy during social interactions, but at worst he is downright creepy. We don't talk much about nature vs nurture in N's context, and while N is introverted and autistic by nature, he would've never been that awkward and terrible at interacting with others without Ghetsis' awful influence. Ghetsis made him terrible at being social on purpose by isolating him. The fact that N interacts with a literal child (the player) rather than with characters in his age demographic (maybe like Burgh, who is apparently 21 wtf, or Skyla who is 18) is a testament of how bad Ghetsis' influence was on him. He doesn't know how to fit in, or where to even fit. He tries to befriend children because despite knowing he is more than a kid, he perceives himself as less than an adult, because he was never allowed to fully grow up.

The hard truth is, if N had grown up normally, he would have most likely not be interested in bonding with a child at least 6 years younger than him, and would likely have gravitated towards people his age. But maybe he would have had a very Steve-Dustin type of relationship with the player ? The simple fact that in-game he is 20 and is considered as a rival-type character in the game, meaning he is a rival to a 14 YEARS OLD, is a great indicator on how socially stunted N is because of Ghetsis' education. N would crumble and cry if he had to face a normal, bill-paying, working 20 years old. When put against Burgh, who is only 1 year older than him, N seems incredibly young. Burgh is a gym leader. He is social, friendly, confident, fun, a social butterfly (he is insect type gym leader... ahah) N, on the other hand, seems wayyyyy young than Burgh, because unlike him, he was never allowed to grow up, explore the world, and become an adult with normal adult responsabilities. N never developed his critical skills either. He was formated to follow orders, not to think for himself. Meaning that he now has to develop his critical skills by himself as a 20 years old, when it's something that should be taught to you in school and by your parents.

And that is without all the things that are not mentioned in-game but become very obvious with just a look at N's room. If this guy lived like a child all of his life, stuck in a playground, he has no adult skills. He most likely can't manage money, can't cook for himself, can't use electronics, can't use appliances. Ghetsis never intended for N to become a King and to rule over Unova. N has the charisma of a dead oyster after all. Ghetsis might never even have intended for him to live past his 20s. Therefore, Ghetsis never put any effort in teaching him how to be a somewhat functioning adult, because he was going to be disposed of in the end. And that's without talking about the very scary aspect of puberty, gender and sexuality in an environment so incredibly unfit and hostile for a developing child. Either N had no idea what was going on with his body, or N had a somewhat vague understanding and repressed everything for years because it felt so wrong for him to feel like that in his child playground of a room. Either way, sexuality must be a real problem for N and I think he must have a lot to unpack there, alongside with his gender, which he was never allowed to explore because he was stuck as being "The King", which is traditionally a male exclusive title.

Then he grieves his pokémons. During BW1 he asks the surrounding pokémons for help except for his last fight (his only constant pokémon is Zoroark, and very probably his Klinklang later in the game). And N keeps releasing them. There isn't a shadow of a doubt that N loved every battle partner he ever had, but he lets them go because Ghetsis told him this was the only good option. He was lied to, to a level where he unvoluntarily abandonned creatures who thought he was going to care for them for life. After BW1, he leaves with only Zekrom, leaving behind Zoroark and Klinklang, the two only pokémons he kept during his journey throughout Unova. He doesn't only abandon the player, he also leaves his pokémons being, in one last ultimate try to free them from himself, not yet understanding the depth of the lies he was fed.

Even worst, when he comes back in BW2, he gives away Zekrom to the BW2 player. The last friend he has, the one with whom he explored the world, he chooses to give up.

And once he understands what has been done to himself, he has to come to the realization that his sisters are deeply hurt. Anthea and Concordia are found in the Driftveil Safe House in BW2, alongside Sage Rood, surrounded by grunts. Unlike N, they didn't have a destiny. They were mere caretakers. Without N around, they lose all form of identity, because Ghetsis never allowed them to have any. Most of their dialogues are referencing N, not themselves. Unlike N, they didn't go out and explore the world. They were taking in by Rood in the Safe House, and they try to cope with what happened. They don't exit the Safe House, they don't talk to anyone outside of Rood and the grunts. In a way, parts of them are still back there, in the Castle.

And then, there's the grunts. How many of them were lied to, just like N himself ? How many of them are still struggling to return to a normal life ? How many of them lost all contact with their family and friends, and released their very own pokémons, following Ghetsis' teachings ? To me, the Driftveil Safe House was clearly a representation of how much suffering Ghetsis has caused to his own team. The grunts dehumanize themselves, identifying themselves as one big mass called Plasma. They deal with the permanent guilt of having stolen pokémons, of ruining lives for both humans and pokémons. They had tried to do good, they were lied to, and now they have to realize that the only thing they did was hurt all the creatures they had tried to help. They were brainwashed so bad that they are most likely unable to return to a normal life. They still behave like grunts, they still worship N like a god, they follow Rood as if he was a replacement for Ghetsis. The Safe House is the best ending they can get with how psychologically damaged they are. Ghetsis has fucked many people over, more than we usually aknowledge.

.......Anyway

My conclusion : I don't think N spiraled, because this kind of abuse engages a lot of different things in N as a person. It impacted his general skills, social skills, critical skills, gender, sexuality, self-esteem, perception of others, trust in others... N would first have to understand that he is hurting to then understand that Ghetsis hurt him. The consequences of such abuse are HUGE, and N, because he lacks critical skills because Ghetsis stunted him on purpose, would not be able to realize just how bad he is hurt and how bad things are. He would likely realize progressively the impact Ghetsis had on him, and it would most likely be with the help of someone else instead of by himself (When you've been conditioned to endure abuse, you don't know you have been abused, and you need others to tell you it wasn't normal, and you didn't deserve it.) When you go through trauma, you don't realize how deep the roots go until years later.

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Imagine if you locked Light and Patrick Bateman in a room together. They would be having the most generic conversation but you wouldn’t be able to hear it over the sound of their overlapping internal monologues. There would be a few seconds where their monologues both play in sync to say something misogynistic.

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Larry flying on his Staraptor, perhaps?

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Staraptor is too small but at least he can dream about it

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“dance”

I like drawing ephemeralartshipping dancing.

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Tumblr's blocking is a joke. Why tf do we keep seeing blocked tags and blocked PEOPLE. Why. How. Tumblr needs to fix this mf problem.

Can I stop seeing softcore porn of characters I hate, I have their tags and such blocked for a fucking reason. Every other DAY I see basically softcore porn of them, and I'm so fucking sick to death of it. The fact others can RELATE pisses me off more.

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draw larry getting squished like a bug, he DESERVES it.

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Original Tweet

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Official Carmen Cards from the Pokémon TCG

Clive (236) - Scarlet & Violet: Paldean Fates