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Not disagreeing with your point on how god in Christianity and Judaism are quite different (Same thing happened in China with the Logos and the Tao being named the same)
However, I would have to say that "wizened man with a beard sitting on a cloud" was actually a medieval innovation. For many a century Christians did not depict God the Father. In Western Europe, art of God as "wizened man with a beard sitting on a cloud" only starts being documented in the 15th century. When art of "wizened man with a beard sitting on a cloud" started appearing in Eastern Europe, the Russians were so perplexed that they tried to ban it (it didn't work). That's weird, if Jupiter were syncretism with the Christian God why don't we see him earlier? Because he wasn't, perhaps?
I would be more sympathetic to your point if you pointed out similarities between Jesus and Hermes or Helios in art, but the intricacies of Christian Theology was so infuriating to the world at the time that Greek philosophy was changed by bickering bishops. Words were re-defined. People split over slight differences in how they described God. Changing an iota would result in fist-fights. Yaddi-yadda.
Also correct me if wrong, but wasn't the reason for Zeus and his many affairs being that everyone wanted to be a son of the Heavens?
Anyway, while Christianity is very much unique and developed in a different trajectory from Judaism, saying that it's all Zeus is like me, a Gentile, saying that Ruach HaKodesh is ACTUALLY Asherah or something. Christians are Hellenized, yes, but then Philo is as essential as Plato in understanding our doctrine, especially when it comes to concepts like the Word of God.
Also considering heresies like Marcionism or the many flavors of Gnosticism basically calling the God of the Tanakh actually evil for creating the world and stupid compared to the better God of [insert non-canonical scripture here]; saying that the Christian God is God of Abraham and Isaac was not the PR move you think it'd be
I am curious as to your view on Muslim claims that we all worship the same God actually
Small reminder that whilst many christians believe and very loudly proclaim that their god and HaShem are the same, many Jewish people do not agree.
#no hate btw#but thinking that Christianity is just Greek is... no?#when images of God the Father are suppressed in the areas that should've syncretized it fully#you think āthat's not rightā#did figures adopt characteristics from local deities? yea#but reforms and stuff by christian churches either accepted that as fact#or tried to suppress them as well#so#personally I disagree less in the sense of āour conceptions of God are literally the sameā#but more#āa supreme deity is a theme in many religions and it just so happens that we have Abraham in commonā#so yeah#if someone said the Chinese Tao and the Greek Logos were actually the same though I'd get mad#so I get your sentiment
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rook falling asleep on the red couch in the lighthouse dining room while lucanis is making dinner....... they were helping out by keeping him company and peeling and chopping potatoes for a while there but then the potatoes are done and the room is so safe and warm and smells like coffee and good food and lucanis is trying to explain something to spite and his voice is low and soft and good to listen to and rook's eyes only slip closed for a moment. they'll get up to save the world again or whatever in a second just. one moment. while the world is warm and kind. and then they're being shaken gently awake an hour later because it's time to eat and everyone's starting to drift hopefully dinner-wards
#lucanis looking down at peacefully sleeping rook like '...I *have* to figure out more things I can do for them than kill or die#because that's a bit limited long-term and one of those will probably mostly make them really upset. (also you only get to do it once.#just not good value for the price as gestures of love go.)#but maker I WILL also do that' as he drapes a blanket over them. and maybe strokes their hair. don't look at me#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#rook x lucanis#rookanis#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar#do you guys ever yearn. are you filled with unspeakable longing. are you ever brought to your knees humbled and wrecked#before the altar of the mortifying simplicity and lack of grandeur of your own impossible desires. anyway#at one point rye is going to tell this man in a sort of bewilderment of joy and relief 'you make me feel so safe'#and he'll have to go 'you may be surprised to hear that that is not a sentiment a man in my profession gets to hear a lot usually'#'well get used to hearing it (bitch)(infinitely affectionate)'#and then they hug or something idk don't speak to me do not look at me
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"humans are inherently evil" "humanity deserves to go extinct" okay. if that's the case why are we such a community based species. why have we seen evidence of careful amputations in ancient humans that allowed them to live longer, fuller lives. why do we have thousands of years of evidence of toys made for children by their guardians. why do we consistently find burial sites where the deceased has been buried with items of significance because the people in their life cared about them even after they were gone. why do strangers help strangers without any reward. why are most of the people you meet each day not cruel. we have ALWAYS been kind. I know it is so so easy to get swept up in all the horrible happenings in the world. these things can be extremely important to know about. but please, please please know that there are so many kind people in the world. you are one of them!
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#hopepunk#I HAAATE SEEING THAT SENTIMENT. MAKES ME SO SAD AND IT IS SO UNTRUE#just think about the ratio of kind to nasty people in your life#EVEN IF ITS 1:1. which would be terrible and I hope things get better for you if thats the case#thats STILL. 50% kind people in your life#humanity is not inherently evil that is a tragic way of thinking that gets us nowhere#it doesnt sound as dramatic or compelling as you think it does#because its just. such a reductive way of thinking#and by thinking that way you stop believing that positive change is possible#listen to my gibberish boy#death mention
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what your favourite dunmeshi ship says about you
farcille: you're classic, you make sense, you like to see the lesbians winning and also you're a bit of a monster fucker: you may or may not specifically have a wing kink
chilshi: you like your men hairy and fat, also you are not immune to panty-shot propaganda, your love language is acts of service
chilaios: you have a size kink
labru: you prefer mlm ships over any other pairing, you think character foils should fuck, you may be a sucker for blue eyes
laimar: your favourite trope is friends to lovers, also you like to see the bisexuals winning, you're also.. what the poets might call.... weird
marchil: your favourite trope is enemies to lovers, your love language is banter, and you're the kind of person who says 'i can fix him' far too often
kabumisu: your ship could burn down the world and violate the geneva convention and you would still call both of them babygirl, also you like angst
laios x monsters: you like tentacle porn
#i am open to criticism#i love this manga/ anime so so much it's not even funny#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#farcille#chilshi#chilaois#larcille#laimar#marchil#kabumisu#aisha.txt#edit: everyone saying smth along the lines of why are you claiming labru is simply mlm fetishisation/ projection#when there is only one wlw ship in your 'top dunmeshi ships' post????#you are so so close to getting the point i believe in you#edit 2: IM SORRY IM SORRY I MADE THIS IN TEN MINS#LABRU SHIPPERS PLS STOP ACTING LIKE I MURDERED YOUR FIRST BORN CHILD#I REMOVED THE TAG IM SORRY#I DIDNT THINK IT WAS THAT DEEP#edit 3: laois has two hands just sayinggg#edit 4: removed the anti-labru sentiments partly bc ive seen the error of my ways and partly bc im sick of the anon hate
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āāah. seems like mother goose has been playing around in your egg salad. if you wonāt dance to that tune, I got others.ā
honestly, the would you kindly scene is whatever to me*, code yellow is the more interesting violation/betrayal of the body because of how beautifully it escalates the Fontaine reveal/betrayal and shows how ugly some of those ālocks and keysā that Tenenbaum mentions are. not only have you been a tool in another manās hand this entire time, it goes deeper. your body is not your own.
*there used to be a meandering thought here about the would you kindly scene, but it was really just talking around the fact that I spent way too many years seeing people discuss it in the most insufferable and reductive ways possible when itās a combination of three or four other things that make that moment compelling lmao
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#bioshock#honestly if Fontaine was upfront about wanting Ryan dead Iād have done it after ten minutes of walking around Rapture#I have (squints) somehow two ideas about suchong I want to get out. one more abt atlas and manipulation#thereās a specific kind of family adjacent horror occurring in the text and itās WILD that suchong is the one we hear Jack refer to#in familial terms while two other men force themselves onto you by appropriating the father role over your body :)#to be clear tho I donāt actually think Fontaine had any familial sentiments towards Jack heās just occupying Ryanās space now#WHEEZING can you tell that I think every āwow a man chooses/a slave obeys is so deep!ā think piece is stupid as hell#thankfully itās not as prevalent as it was a decade ago but my god people thought it was the height of philosophy for too long#ANYWAY ALL OF THIS TO SAY. thereās a certain kind of trans anxiety/horror in having your body betray you. or generally body#anxiety. but I read a lot about it in a medieval gender context so itās trans to me. amongst other things.
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okay i hate the mc movie teaser as much as the next guy but some of you need to cool it with the "they're ruining high art" comments just because the end poem is the only poetry youve ever read that wasnt school mandated ... minecraft is a beautiful game with a lot that could have been done and from everything weve seen so far wb are ignoring that entirely but also idk i think its a bit naive to go "why didnt they make this about the pervasive loneliness that steve must feel in a ruined world..." like idk man. i dont know if little timmy with the creeper lunchbox is gonna sit through that for two hours
#mine#discourse#<- ?#also i realise after posting this that the wording is kind of similar to one of the posts ibe seen#so to be clear Imwnot singling anyone out ive seen a bunch of posts with this sentiment.#And I get it. I understand where youre coming from but lets be fr.
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vanha kauppahalli date but the dessert edition aka the more enjoyable edition if not because sasha has a sweet tooth so we can like these foods freely
sasha in the midst of eating merengue and almost choking to death because he thinks any comment out of maffhews mouth is funny maffhew sweetheart we have to think about the effect we have on the people around us for a single second here
#aleksander barkov#matthew tkachuk#florida panthers#2425#[insert my cake vs tart vs pie translations into eng rant here yes my eye twitched lets move on.]#im sorry has maffhew never had merengue in his life girl you live in soflo with so many hispanic bakeries#wdym you dont know how to eat merengue yeah if you use that much force its gonna cave in on itself šššš#(man who grew up in america) ānever afraid of that [powdered sugar]ā#man with texture issues likes the spongy cake and not the one thats texture hell because its airy and dry#and if youre not used to it feels weird. shocker!#as someone w texture issues if its a really bad day i cant even eat it either despite how much i like it yeah i get its a chalky texture#but girl we do have to take you on like a pastry soflo tour im so serious#runebergin torttu reigning superior yeah#kills me the way maffhew just repeats everything wrong and im like oh his ears are POPPED popped after that flight huh#my guy hows your auditorial processing just asking#ākeep the flagā sasha hes sentimental don't encourage his trinket collection#ārunebergin torttuā āroodoboo stars?ā its like talking to my grandmother at this point its beautiful#the 1619 date is intricate huh boys
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art is dying?
art is dead?
never EVER fall for this. art can not die, creativity can not run out. humanity will never hit a wall where art stops being unique, where we run out of stories to tell. do you really think humans existed for hundreds of thousands of years and will just run out of ideas one day? cause of hollywood??
#dont let your creative spirit get crushed#i used to really fall for this sentiment#its so unrealistic
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this wasnt on my 2024 bingo
#vbros#the venture brothers#venture bros#hank venture#brock samson#rusty venture#thaddeus venture#self#admin draws#fanart#done with season 4 i would kill and die for this kid. rusty youre on my shitlist#also i read surrogate parenthood by tsv and i got a little emotional abt the boys fianlly getting to grow up#and snowball the little accidents. in my mind hank got that chipped tooth running into a wall in a poorly fitted batman mask#he got the second one. the same way. except dermott was involved and the eye obscuring was intentional this time.#the more things change the more they stay the same#anways brock adn rusty would be more touched by this sentiment if it didnt bring up some less than pleasant memories with it#brock so harrrd to draw. rusty is abreeze however
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I donāt remember where this quote was from but thereās a line that goes āI was looking through rose colored glasses for so long, the red flags just looked like the way to go.ā And I think that embodies Curlyās view point in life and specifically about Jimmy a lot. Not to mentions a world where he actually makes it out of the Tulpar.
#also thinking about trans curly again cause like thereās an inherent horror on Curlyās side in that scenario pre crash and post#but pre crash itās like the very selfish fear that at an early point in time that couldāve been him and having to compartmentalize#every off thing Jimmy has said to him on the subject of his physical transition and how he either ignored it for his own piece of mind or#laughed it off cause thatās what your supposed to do when a guy says something like that both in a guy code way and a omg laugh so he doesnt#do something way girls are trained to protect themselves with cause in this scenario#he understands Anyaās fear and feels like a damn idiot for not getting it cause he lived that sort of back of the mind thinking before he#was able not to and he still has to to an extent but he thought he found the one guy he didnāt have to and realized he just got use to it#but its sentimental and itās selfish that it is and when I write this post beware#ducking beware bitches#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing#captain curly
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"amangela fans stop obsessing over a parasocial ship" tell that to AMANDA not ME??
#spence rambles#smosh#amangela#amanda lehan canto#angela giarratana#like angela will be standing there and amandas like āWhat if we made out... for fun hahhahā#āamandas married so like-ā TL THAT TO AMANDA NOT ME???#all jokes obvi#but i saw some rpf amangela discourse on twitter and its like#i get your sentiment but come on#COME ON#amanda would make out with angela on screen if she had to#they know about amangela they literally dgaf#amanda makes jokes about having a crush on spencer truly its not that big of a deal
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link to the post I accidentally wound up prattling endlessly about in the tags š
#doctor who#tenth doctor#martha jones#david tennant#freema agyeman#(good god. without even meaning to I went into 'psycho stream of consciousness tagging' mode. whoops)#always thinking of that one post#where OP mentions how the writing tries to make it seem like Ten looked right through Martha/etc#which is a good concept for demonstrating his grief. but also isnt what we really see throughout S3#(not saying he wasn't a grieving MESS because he was. but he's a multi-faceted character and he can grieve AND value Martha simultaneously)#but we see such fierce protective instinct+trust; a bond between them that obviously isn't some one-sided affair#+ his clear intent to impress her/be admired and respected by her (apropos the post that inspired this sentiment)#but RTD obviously isn't the most infallible of writers#*cough* [list of reasons I cut down b/c long] *cough*#He can make Martha say āhe's not seeing me/he doesn't look at meā but then you just watch with your eyes and you get a different story#It's like the opposite of when Moffat tries to make you believe someone is super important through bold claims without showing his work#instead RTD tries to make you believe Ten is functionally blind to Martha's existence while showing numerous examples of the contrary#then bring in the novels+myspace blog+cartoon that he all signed off on. Which tie together to create a canon backdrop#basically I said all of that to say thisā#it's the whole reason I had to make this blog to get this sort of stuff off my chest (even if it's just for me sometimes)ā#Ten not only SAW Marthaāhe trusted+respected+enjoyed+adored her. And it's a good thing#it doesn't cheapen his grief. I feel like people must think it does which is why I constantly see bad unnecessary takes about them#it just means that Martha was SO important to him and it's ok. they had a killer friendship outside the unrequited minutiae and it's ok#there's even a comic where 'someone' makes him believe she's Martha and he makes her change her appearance because āit's still too rawā#Just saying you don't say that sort of thing about someone whose existence you're all blasĆ© about#Martha already gets fucked by the narrative in enough ways without people totally missing her significance in the Doctor's life#you don't have to ship them to appreciate them on a deeper level#anyway. fuck. if you actually read all of these then I'm so sorry#creating this blog has taught me that there are only like two people who feel the same way about tenmartha matters and itās fine š#but if I didnāt give myself an outlet it would probably form a tumor SO there we are then
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oh yeah, laswell would definitely make a decision for you @mossy-mushroom
#but honestly? as a fine arts graduate? i SUPER get how you feel HAHAHA#me and my class had a petition to get our techniques prof laid off because all he would critique was how āuglyā all our paintings were-#and he would personally retouch our paintings just to āraiseā our grades. tho he didn't get laid off. he got less classes to handle instead#so if u and ur classmates share the same sentiments? i say go crazy just to shit on your prof (LMAOOOJKJKJK)#answered asks#mossy-mushroom#anon#call of duty#my art#2024#kate laswell#watcher 1#nikolai#nikolai cod#laswell cod
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So do you actually believe PLD is a good player or is that part of the bit?
The PLD Post
i spent a good 2 days giggling about this to friends. i cant tell if ur a curious caps fan, a person who knows me from my other teams, a disgruntled kings fan (iāve mostly ruled this out because im pretty sure i know all of the active ones on here) or WHAT. but iām laughing. the tone of this ask is hilarious and vaguely accusatory but i will take it in good faith and answer <3 tl;dr yes and no. heās better than people think he is rn, but heās likely never going to live up to the potential of his tools unless something . idk. recalibrates his entire being. who knows!
i was working on something longer and more complex but i thought about it for more than 5 seconds and i REFUSE to go hockey-bro mode and pull out the microstats and i donāt wanna make this into a full on PLD manifesto. so. caps girlies (gn) HERE are your adoption papers under the cut!
if you are looking at pierre luc dubois who is 6ā4 + 220lb and thinking āOh heās a power forwardā i have to inform you he is in fact THEEE smallest mouse to ever play hockey in the whole world and in all of history. he sips nectar out of a thimble and sleeps curled up in a match box and goes fishing in a boat made from nutshells and twigs . heās big, but he sort of plays small.
this is not necessarily a bad thing ā he relies on foot speed and skill over hitting.
he can throw hits but prefers to stick check. he leverages his big frame to guard the puck and to defend, and it makes him simultaneously VERY effective and very much what i like to call a Nexus Of Crime. he is either drawing ten thousand penalties because people have to do something to stop him from driving the net with speed OR he is taking ten thousand penalties because he gets eager in the corners.
PLUS heās huge and refs do just assume heās committing a crime when they canāt see whatās going on <3 hence, Nexus Of Crime! if thereās a penalty heās probably involved LMAO
not a ādirtyā player by any means. not physical unless he decides he wants to. and there is no violence inside of him unless heās deeply horsebonded to his team <- IMPORTANT re; playoffs aspirations. you wonāt see him put himself on the line simply for the love of the game, he HAS to be committed to the team.
to be committed to his teamā¦ iām honestly not sure what that takes. iād guess a combination of knowing his role on the ice and in the locker room (this was very unclear on lak) consistency of messaging from coaches (also seemed to be an issue on lak)
i know nothing about caps coaching or management or the team vibes but iām sure you can fix him <3 iām ready to fall in love and ride this team to the sunset
this failhorse will NOT shoot the puck and if he does it will be the saddest soggiest most pathetic shot youāve ever seen. you will tear your hair out in chunks if you watch him expecting an elite goalscorer.
heās a pass-first guy. likes to drop pass! likes to drive play from the middle but is also capable of getting pucks off the boards. he needs a finisher on his wing. i could pull up stats here, there are stats to be pulled up, but i know this in my HEART from watching dozens of kings games: he would have had 10-15 more points easily if he wasnāt stapled to the 3rd line and had better finishers. many times i watched him tee up a very good opportunity only for his guy to miss the net or fan or just get knocked off the puck
individually, he thrives in front of the net. his ass is fat and heās about to use it to screen the goalie. hes good at catching loose pucks in the crease to send them home <3 see his performance at worlds. he scored basically all of his goals right up there!!
most media coverage/narratives will tell you his point production dropped off bc of effort (which is true) but even the MOST resentful kings watchers will say pld wasnāt given his best shot playing with inexperienced+fringe nhlers, being line shuffled the moment he got a bit comfortable, and also not getting ANY net front time on the lak pp. i factor this into all my judgements of his performance.
Heās def earned his diva rep LMAO!! this is personal opinion here but he seems like a sensitive and easily rattled little clamā¦ like he will have a couple of bad shifts and if thereās nobody there to shake him out of it heāll lose his grasp on the game and play like shit <3 a rolling joke on kingstwt was figuring out which PLD we were getting that game, and you could tell by his 5th if he was switched on or off!!
they hate him for this but EYE think this is nothing new for athletes and if he can consistently stay in the zone heāll probably be pretty good. mental fortitude of a wet tissue my belovedā¦.
moving onto the Vibes section!! he was always good humoured in media availability and didnāt shy away from scrums even when public opinion soured against him and critiques of both his hockey and his character had reached a fever pitch. i like this about him. he always gave authentic answers and tried his best to accomodate them, and never hid behind his captains.
he gets along quite well with teammates despite the narratives. no seriously!! some of the the kings had a hang out during off-season right before they went to worlds!! thereās bisexual lighting!!!!
thereās interviews from old jets teammates that are just like. āhe used to turn up at my house with his dog and text IM HERE with no warning and thatās how we became friendsā or āhis obsession with euro soccer teams bewitched meā. he had control of the aux cord. he was a den mother and planned group gatherings. a genuine sweetheart to every teammate heās ever had!!
I donāt think heās some. idk. secret 100 point producing star 1C. but i truly believe with the right environment heāll probably hit 60 points again.
thank you for your time if you made it this far and i hope to see you all in the trenches (caps lb) next season š
#i was HOOTING about this ask lol#anon if youāre out thereā¦ i hope this answered your question!!#anyway caps girlies if you want the vibe check on pld and what youāre getting that ISNT filtered through ten million layers of#I Donāt Watch The Kings Butā#and clickbait articles/videos from people who have to pump out content so they can make money off gambling sponsorships HERE YOU GO!!#pierre luc dubois#asks#anon#washington capitals#caps lb#primers#<- does this count. it counts now#and fyi i am NOT just her because of pld i am also sentimental about your prospect ryan leon-rd <3 i was excited to see if he would#de-commit from bc next season!!
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The night before Iwaizumi leaves for California, his mother gives him a gift. It's wrapped delicately in yellow wrapping paper.
Iwaizumi has a feeling he knows what it is.
"I know it's last minute," She says, sitting next to him on his bed in his childhood bedroom. "Your bags are all packed, I don't expect you to make room to take it with you or anything, of course." She watches him, hands folded in her lap. "Ah, and you'll probably think it's embarrassing any-"
"Mama," Iwaizumi interrupts, fighting back a little smile at her fretting. "Let me at least open it before you try minimizing it."
"Right, right." She laughs, waving her hand. "Of course. Go on then. Open it."
Iwaizumi doesn't take his time tearing it open.
It's a book. A scrapbook, Iwaizumi guesses. It has his name handwritten in both kanji and hiragana on the front. It's a little smaller than the other scrapbooks his mom has on her shelf. The binding is a dark forest green.
The only sound in the room is the flipping of pages. Iwaizumi takes his time to study each page, his chest feeling a little tighter the more he flips through the book.
Iwaizumi knows his mothers have always taken lots of pictures, ranging from polaroids to digital. His aunties too but he still finds himself surprised by the amount Sachiko has collected in the book. Including pictures she must have received from other people because neither of his moms were present at said event.
The pages are simple. Each one has about two to five (depending on the sizes of them) pictures on it. They're decorated with stickers and little notes written in his mom's graceful handwriting neatly squeezed where they can fit and still be legible.
Notes like "you gave your poor mother a fright the first time you came into the house with one of these" under a photo of Iwaizumi proudly showing off a jar with a beetle in it and "i'm surprised you convinced tooru to go, lol" by a photo from a fishing trip Iwaizumi took with the other third years.
"This is one of my favorite pictures," His mom says, watching as Iwaizumi flips pages over his shoulder. She points to a picture of the two of them when they first moved into the house. He was only three. They're sitting on the front steps together, neither of them are looking at the camera. He has his arms wrapped around hers and is looking up at her as she laughs.
And he breaks.
"Oh, Hajime." She says softly, pulling him into a tight hug. He tucks his face into the crook of her neck and she strokes his hair as he cries. He feels like he's five again, crying because he accidentally squashed a bug when he was trying to catch it. Ten, crying because he was sick with the flu and thought he was on the brink of death. Thirteen, crying because he and Oikawa had a fight and he thought he would never talk to him again.
Eighteen, crying because he's leaving the country tomorrow and it suddenly hit him that he doesn't know what he's going to do without his mom.
He doesn't say that though.
He doesn't tell her that he's scared, scared that he's going to crash and burn in California, scared that his friendship with Oikawa won't survive the distance, scared that everything is going to go wrong because he left.
Or that he's really going to miss her.
(Maybe he should have told her that.)
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That night before Iwaizumi spends his last night in his childhood room, he wraps the scrapbook up in the hoodie that Oikawa gave him and tucks them both into one of his bags.
He thinks about where he's going to put it in his dorm room when he gets to California.
#iwaizumi hajime#iwaizumi sachiko#<- 'who is that' you're wondering. that is one of iwa's TWO moms. catch up on your kennedy monstrsball lore#authors commentary:#so. i think iwa is really excited about going to UCI and he doesn't regret accepting. but he's a little scared too. and sad#bittersweet you know??#he spends a lot of time before he leaves forcing himself not to think about the negatives because he's HAPPY!! he's so happy!!#but then his mom gives him a sentimental scrapbook and he realizes everything is about to change for better or worse and. he breaks#and something about a parent and child sitting in said child's childhood room before the child moves out GETS ME!!!#it gets to me man.#also the ending of this felt really abrupt sorry. but i wanted to finish this and post it before i went to bed so :33#haha perfectionism! in your face!#i'm cured. [i'm not]
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What are your headcanons about Marcille's mom if you have any? It's interesting that what drew Donato to her was cause she lived the history he studied, or that was said somewhere at least. She must've had an interesting life.
so this was going to be just a normal answer but then I realized I have a Lot of Things To Say. so here goes, a compilation of what we know for a fact from the canon, what I've extrapolated from the visual cues and details, and my theories based on all of that.
Things we know for a fact about Marcille's mother because they were explicitly stated in the manga and supplemental materials:
She was a court mage for a Tall-man kingdom at the southern part of the Northern Continent
Donato, a court historian, fell in love with her because she had lived through the history he was studying, and he courted her for 17 years (age 15 to 32) before getting married
She was a cheerful person who rarely showed extreme emotion and took things as they came
She always cooked a huge meal for Marcille on her birthdays
She remarried a gnome after Donato's death and a short distance away from Marcille's childhood home
Pipi, Marcille's pet bird, was actually older than Marcille and originally belonged to her mother (bird died at 62)
She was extremely heartbroken when Donato died and ultimately ended up instilling a deep fear of mortality in Marcille with her words
the only time she showed extreme emotion in front of her family was when Donato could no longer eat his favourite dish near the end of his life.
She scolded Marcille for being cruel to ants (implying she can have a stern side when needed)
Things that are explicitly shown but mostly through visual cues
She has a very distinctive style of dress always involving a ribbon choker (mirroring Marcille's habit of always wearing a matching choker with any of her outfits that don't cover her neck)
She was almost stereotypically good at housekeeping and traditionally "wifely" things (very frequently depicted wearing an apron or doing some domestic chore when not at work, seems to have been an avid cook).
She knits? (also, note the affectionate smile as she's looking at Donato and Marcille reading a book together in the full panel)
She was as excited for Marcille's milestones as Donato was.
She didn't tell Marcille much about elven food
(there are a couple things that this panel in particular implies:
She lived a good deal of her life (if not being born and raised) in a mainly elven country in the West, implied by her knowing enough of an elven region's cuisine to prefer Tall-man food over it
seems to have a pretty carefree and casual demeanour overall, if this is how she replied to Marcille asking her about it (sounds like she never gave her culinary preferences that much thought to begin with)
slightly related to number 2, it seems like she and Marcille had a fairly casual parent-child dynamic (especially in comparison to the Toudens' memory of their father)
(local elf tastes Italian food once and never goes back))
However, she seems a lot more... serious in most of the other times we see her? Almost like the very stereotypical archetype of a graceful elf.
Subsequent conclusions about her personality:
Usually pretty carefree and cheerful at home, has been a loving and attentive parent throughout Marcille's childhood (while not being so doting that she didn't discipline Marcille).
Slightly more conjectural theories on her personality:
Had a much more graceful and professional personality at work, which would explain the more serious portraits we see of her.
Given that both she and Donato had positions at the royal court, it seems a little odd that she'd go out of her way to do all the housework herself, so maybe she just enjoyed doing it?
Now taping all the evidence together and toeing the line between analysis and fanfiction:
It's clear that she loved Donato very much and was utterly devastated by losing him. But there's one thing that really stuck out to me in what little we see of her:
Doesn't she seem... angry? The way she's gritting her teeth, clutching the tablecloth, and how this is the first and only time we see her eyes opened that wide. In the following panel, you see her being quiet and dejected after her initial outburst. She's still crying very intensely, but her brows are furrowed, and she's not really responding to Donato's affection in her body language.
We're not told the details of how she felt about losing Donato other than that it upset her. But this, to me, implies that she was angry and resented that he was aging, that the end of his life was approaching. An "it's not fair" type of preemptive grief. And if this was the first and last time she cried like this in front of her family, she was either very good at coping in private... or very bad at letting herself feel unpleasant emotions until they become unavoidable and end up overwhelming her.
It's not too remarkable a detail on the surface. It's even reminiscent of what the audience has seen of Marcille. But... when it comes to the big picture, you'd think an elf who voluntarily chose to marry a tall-man and have a half-elf child would have been better prepared for this.
It kind of recontextualizes her cheerfulness to me.
"I'm sure everything's gonna be okay!" (or some variation thereof, depending on what translation you have).
And this is stated to contrast her extreme grief when finally confronting Donato's failing body and eventual death. But I'm wondering if... maybe this optimism was why she was so upset. What if she went into all of it thinking "everything's gonna be okay"? What if she was a little young by elven standards, and just followed her heart thinking that her own resilience would get her through anything?
Of course, only to get completely overwhelmed when she actually loses Donato. She turns into a completely different person. And that's heartbreaking on its own-- but what the audience sees is the effect it had on Marcille. Can you imagine being her, watching your invincible and upbeat mother suddenly lose all the light in her eyes in one go?
I've already made a huge post about how I think Marcille models her "work persona" off her mother, but another thing that stuck with me as I was looking for more details in the manga was this:
copy pasting from the other post i made about it lmao it's like... the second she resigns herself to lifelong pain and terror, there's another portrait of her mother facing her like this. with their heads bowed, in mirrored body language of resignation and despair and sorrow. Except it's posed like Marcille is still looking at her mother but her mother is looking away.
It took me a second to realize, but I think that it's a visual metaphor for the fact that Marcille's mother was the only long-lived role model she had-- and she failed to model healthy grief for her daughter. I don't say this as an accusation or to disparage her as a character, but just as a matter of fact. In her, Marcille was seeing herself older and losing a short-lived spouse or loved one of her own, and all she saw was hopelessness.
But her mother didn't mean to instill hopelessness and terror in her. She wasn't really thinking of how it would truly affect Marcille at all (at least, that's how I'm interpreting her looking down and away from Marcille in the metaphor), she was just sad. And she, in her own way, was trying to protect her daughter and help her prepare for future losses.
What she meant was "loss is inevitable, and you have to learn how to be in pain but live on anyway." What Marcille heard was "loss is inevitable, and you will be scared and hurt for the rest of your life."
Again. Marcille's mother doesn't feature explicitly in the story the way her father does -- but in so many ways, her shadow, her silhouette, her reflection is always hanging over Marcille.
All that to say... headcanon-wise (everything from here on is 100% without evidence lmao), I'd like to think that she matured and realized that she failed Marcille. I imagine her being regretful about it, wanting a chance to fix it but never finding a way to insert herself back into Marcille's life when Marcille is so so so busy becoming the most accomplished mage possible. I imagine her being herself again, now, so many years after her loss and after remarrying -- but with her cheerfulness tempered with a lot more wisdom and the pain of having gone through loss like that. I think the second Marcille actually tells her what happened in the dungeon, she'd want to go running to her daughter again -- if Marcille tells her the full truth instead of just being embarrassed she let things get that far. (oh, the tragedy of her wanting to be more like her mother and an accomplished adult who doesn't need to be babied... being embarrassed to actually tell her mother how much she fucked up...)
There's also the tension of her having remarried -- I know that there's at least a little bit of resentment that Marcille harbours about that, because she's childish like that at heart even if she makes an effort not to externalize it. I think that her mother would be aware of that, potentially adding to her sense of guilt and apprehension at trying to reappear/intrude on Marcille's life. I honestly don't think Marcille has met her stepfather -- or even considers him a stepfather rather than "mama's new husband" and kind of a total stranger. I think she and her mother actively don't talk about it in their correspondence, like an elephant in the room.
but, ultimately, I think her mother is on her side no matter what. Ancient magic? Dark necromancy? Sure, she'll feel guilty and like she was partially responsible for setting Marcille down such a painful path, but she wouldn't care. that's her daughter!! she would've moved back west and been petitioning for her at the court, buying a house right next to the Canaries barracks and visiting her every day that she wasn't on a mission. And if her husband had opinions on Marcille becoming a "dark arts user," he either gets over it or it's divorce with him. Yes, she might have had her optimism completely humbled by losing Donato like that -- but she's still headstrong and self-assured and she doesn't care what people think of her. It's her way or the highway and she's always going to be in Marcille's corner.
(She also needs a name lol. I went with Juno, just to be cute about "Marcille"s closest real life equivalent being Marcella, which is the female version of Marcellus, which in turn is a diminutive of Marcus, which was derived from Mars. Absolutely in love with Marcille potentially being named after Ares/Mars the fucking god of war btw)
#asks#she could easily be interpreted as distant or neglectful after Donato's death too#with how little involvement she has in Marcille's life/the fact that Marcille doesn't even mention her when talking about her life prospect#and that's fair! I will argue to hell and back that she was a loving parent when Donato was alive#but there's nothing that suggests she remained a loving parent afterwards#I just think that like... parental relationships are so complicated in dungeon meshi#you cannot deny that the toudens' mother loved them dearly but that she failed them both miserably as a parent#and i think it'd be more compelling if Marcille's mother was a little like that too#not a totally and easily dismissable deadbeat#but someone who truly loves her daughter but was only human herself and couldn't be what Marcille needed at a crucial moment#and regrets it deeply#and that the distance between them is mutually self-imposed by complicated feelings of guilt and fear#and a little resentment from Marcille's side that she hasn't really properly processed#I don't know if I'll ever get around to writing it but i had this idea where Marcille does finally spill the beans to her mom and she just#immediately arrives in Melini#and its awkward for a bit but they do finally have a heart to heart and air it all out#and marcille starts freaking out that her marriage is rocky rn bc her new husband wants her to distance herself from marcille#on account of the crimes and all#marcille's like no you can't blow up your marriage for me and her mother just shuts that shit down#'you didn't choose to be born. i was the one who made that choice for you'#'i brought you into this world and i'll be damned if i don't take responsibility for that the entire way'#'you are entitled to *nothing less* than my unconditional love.'#and obviously that's not a sentiment that's exactly healthy as a universal statement about parenthood#but i think its what her mother would believe and what marcille needs to hear#and dungeon meshi does such a fantastic job at just... letting imperfect things just *be* without having to justify it immediately#it expects the audience to do their own critical thinking#and know that its not trying to make sweeping universal statements in every instance#marcilleposting#marcille donato#junoposting
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