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justanotheradhdian · 3 months ago

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Morning fuckers.

I'm not a morning person. But I'm up at 5 am. And have no choice but to be awake at the moment. Why? THIS is wHAt my brain is doing to me. I've been writing this in my notes for like. Almost an hour now.

This is not edited for your reading pleasure. Enjoy.

The first half second of the Disney logo. Now the last twinkly little bit of it.

Two different parts of color your night. (THEY ARE ALTERNATING ITS 3 NOW)

very random thoughts. (So far I've had thoughts about the date I went on last night, several different things about Balder's gate 3. The idea to write all this down. Random thoughts about my girlfriend that I can't even remember anymore again. ((Random being like. Often very disconnected and only sharing the topic of her in common. As broad of a spectrum of how I want to propose, to how warm her skin is, to like. That one time she farted In my face and I threw up.))

Now there's the fusion fall loading screen, also playing in jumbled order

All it took for this to start this morning. Was sitting up just enough to drink tea, telling Brie thank you for said tea, and telling her she looked beautiful last night by the kopps waterfall.

5:20 or 5:30am Also the music in my brain. Has not stopped. While writing this. (or editing. Like 20 minutes later Yes I lied. Get over it.)

Sometimes it's simultaneously playing 2 or 3 different song pieces at once.

I don't know how to stop this.

There's no task to refocus on other than it's 5 am and I neED to SLEEP.

It's just turning into a cacophony of undecipherable sound.

Like I'll hear the "painted so vividly by you" Then suddenly my brain cuts to the opening to the fusionfall loading screen, then it plays the High note of color your night with the piano and stuff

Only the beginning and ending of when you wish upon a star

"Two hands meet at Zenith" "I want to say" high note part

OH GOD NOW GOLDEN HOUR JUST ADDED ITSELF

I mean. At least it's not totally mangled.

Now I've got that weird bwoooa dududu dun de dun TikTok noise thing.

Color your night is back.

2112 just started. Behind my ears feels warm. It's also sped up for some reason.

And also playing out of order but hey.

Also I think I'm literally hearing static. Probably just the fan though. Wait no theres a subtle staticy ringing.

Like I don't think that high note part in my head is singing the right word even

I just keep getting something something Al-i-BYYYYYYYYYYY

Goooooollldeeeeen hour

This has been constant for 40. MINUTES NOW.

Somehow. My 4ish hour of sleep insane brain has decided to make this into a tumblr post.

WHY DO I WANT TO LIVE BLOG MY BRAIN THING NO PNE WILL READ THIS

I over tagged again.

Oh hey the music stop.

OH GOD MY EYES BURN WHY THERE'S NO LIGHT, MY PHONE IS ALMOST AS DIM AS IT GETS, ON NIGHT MODE, AND DARK THEME

Adfhusgicgovhvvohv whyyyyyyy

#adhd #hElp #my brain #disconnected #still dont know how to tag #Does anyone else think that it's extremely stressful to live in the US or just have an online presence right now?#i cant even play games or watch anything without someone trying to cram a product down my throat and take what little money i do have left #and no one talks about how insane going back to sleep is.#or how it's hard to find places to exist that dont want you to spend money.#like obviously get more money but like. Im getting burnout just trying to stabilize the home chores and my self care.#how am i supposed to work on top of this #sleep is apparently for the weak

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sunsetzer · 23 days ago

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The Lucanis Delamorte to Julian Devorak pipeline has me going fucking feral over here oh my god

#the oh no im bad for you im dangerous but i want you shit ahhhhhhhhh #im weak for men with trauma and curses apparently #also both are coffee addicts #both barely sleep #both associated with corvids #both are so unbelievably soft im in shambles #the arcana #da veilguard

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erodingsinner · 2 months ago

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#can't quite get over the way he laughed. I asked him if he did it to trap me #to trick me #if it was all one big manipulation #if he was doing it now to trick me and he just laughed. he laughed so hard he couldn't speak and he was shaking his head no #but I can still fucking see that big stupid smile on his face while I was just. reconsidering my entire life #realizing things #might be way worse than I thought- he might be way worse than I thought. and he just fucking laughed. he gave a sort of weak no afterwards #some lame excuse that I'm not sure I believe. he was still laughing.#im so mad rn every muscle in my body is tensed up and its not even because of that that happened a while back #he just acted like a kid and ruined my sleep cause that's where we at apparently and i remembered this #i dont think i fully processed it. i dont think i fully seethed at it yet #vent

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collecting--stardust · 1 year ago

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Posted to female oncology ward for these two weeks and all I can say is cancer is cruel but amidst that pain and sorrow, you can really see true love in that ward

#saying this in light of one of my group's fav patient that passed away after my shift last morning #shes in her early 30s and was a teacher and was diagnosed with breast cancer that metastases to lung and cervical lymph nodes #she was weak since she was admitted last week and usually just sleep but shes so nice every time we administered medication to her #or even when we check her vital signs despite how tired she was #her husband is a teacher too and as of late hes there every day as her condition deteriorated #apparently she wanted to undergo chemotherapy but her first cycle led to some severe side effects so her doctor doesn't allowed it #when we read the case note before clocking out the shift yesterday theres a psychiatrist entry so yeah #her husband was just caressing her hands as she slept yesterday and he looks obviously pained when my friend asked what had she eaten #because we need to fill the intake output chart and yeah she was unable to eat much anyway #it was very sad to see her husband wiping his tears silently by her bedside #and then we came to the ward this morning to find out she had passed away and there was a discharge note on her case note #apparently she supposedly will be discharged today so that she will be able to go at home #turned out she left first..#it rained the whole morning today and it kind of summarizes the mood of our group members this morning #it was sad obviously but when i think about it you can really see how much her husband really cared for her until the end #i hope he will be able to heal and that may her soul rest in peace #personal.txt

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brekitten · 5 months ago

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Peter Parker & Tony Stark, Peter Parker & Venom Symbiote Characters: Peter Parker, Tony Stark, Venom Symbiote (Marvel), Original Characters Additional Tags: Peter Parker has the Venom Symbiote, Hydra (Marvel), Ambiguous/Open Ending, Tony Stark Acting as Peter Parker's Parental Figure, minor torture, Kidnapped Peter Parker, Kidnapped Tony Stark Summary:

It figures that Tony couldn't spend some quality time with his kid his intern without something going horribly wrong. Being kidnapped by Hydra definitely takes the cake, though.

He just wished he knew why they kidnapped him and Peter.

Or,

Hydra kidnaps Tony and Peter, and Peter somehow ends up with Venom. Also Tony suffers just a bit, as a treat.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/57603391

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chl3borzoi · 8 months ago

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Glad i ran into a friend of mines wife at the store today, ate supper with them, met their new dogs! May have found myself some work that isnt corporate slaving misery... its 6 am wakeups to haul for the AMISH YEEHAWWWWW

#so much going on. glad ive got journals....#need to practice regular handwriting #and find a stencil book for cursive. thatd be nice to do.#lots of little projects. lots of shit going on.#and i still have HOLES IN MY FACE well see if the doc can confirm i do not have any fucking dorito bits stuck in my fuckin jaw lmao #also apparently if you want a man to get you flowers (i.e. show honesty) you need to insult his very being and call him weak. wish i was jk #welly welly WELL #didnt sleep all last night. cleaned the fuck outta my bathroom.... need to rebleach redo just in case...#need to vacuum da rugz #gonna get a new rug for my room (old living room rug lmaooo its the perfect dimensions and booboo loves it so it works.)#well sheit.#shitty kitty.#the cleaning shall contine.... weather permitting lmao #LOTS OF SHIT TO DOOO #FUUUUUUCK #p

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ibithesnail · 10 months ago

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need to become normaler about princezam

#was reading eclipse headcanons and the one about zam’s issues Immediately brought my mood to the negatives #also that one time when i got into a fight in lsnet discord and the opp was coming up with various insults and i did not give a fuck (bc +#+ why would i) until he called zam mid or some shit like that which upset me so much i took ‘princezam fan’ out of my bio in order to +#+ avoid giving haters ammo in the future (which was annoying bc i only put it there that same morning)………………#ibi’s ramblings #generally speaking idrgaf but i have a couple of weak spots that instantly make me care too much and apparently this is one of them #the other ones are normal and i could trace them back to childhood trauma or whatever if i wanted to.#not this one tho!#not sure what it says about me or how it happened #sorry this is long af i’m in an oversharing mood (<- sleep deprived)

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cannonfullofcanons · 10 months ago

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as much as I want to hit serious thread replies & answer more asks I have already pushed myself w a y over my limit for how long I should be awake. I've been up since about 3:40 AM, it is now 9:30 PM and I feel like I'm dying. when I got this weak about lack of sleep I may never know, but regardless, I need to go collapse immediately. I'll throw more tomfoolery in here tomorrow!

#{ Gone Fishing | OOC }#sleep is for the weak! and apparently I'm weak as hell #I bid y'all goodnight!

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pepprs · 2 years ago

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not doing good. at all

#purrs #today and yesterday ive been unspeakably depressed. and no one knows what to do with me and i don’t know what to do with me. but ivs been ge #getting absolutely SHIT sleep bc of my siblings staying up late and my sisters ocd stuff which is probably part of it. I now im wide awake a #and it’s 2 and im miseravle and can’t sleep and already did sleep for 2 hours and it didn’t help and im hungry and weak #i truly don’t n kw what’s wro ng with me. i want to be happy and normal but every day i have long moments where im trying so hard not to cry #and i think most ppl would excuse themselves to go cry or take a break or like. speak up and ask for help if they’re miserable but i don’t d #do any of that. i just hold it all in until i get so tired it disappears. and then when i do snap im too miserable and ashamed to actually b #be honest about how anyone can help me which only makes me cry more. atp idk what will help. im in therapy now im about to have some time of #km eating food i like even though it’s not the healthiest ive tried resting and getting sleep and whatever. maybe im just not cut out for #any of what im doing and i just need to detach myself from reality even harder than i am already doing apparently. idk nothing im typing is #making sense i just can’t fall asleep now and im so pissed at my siblings and im pissed at my whole family for not giving a shit that im mis #miserable and easily overstimulated by noise bc i could’ve had ghe room downstairs and im still being held hostage by redacted and being #shaken awake to redacted like last night and work is killing me for the dumbest reasons. i literally cannot keep living like this #delete later

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twisted-nox-sidus · 2 years ago

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#PLS IM TRYING TO SLEEP HERE OTL #u can bet ur ass that I’m collecting all the tsum event cards #I’m so weak for tsums more than i ever realized apparently #pls for the love of god be merciful with my keys and gems #twisted wonderland #my post #disney twisted wonderland #twst

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celticwoman · 1 year ago

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when will it end!!!!!!!!!!

#whenever i start feeling a bit better i instantly start getting worse. my god #what the hell did i do to deserve this. seriously #i know ive said it multiple times already but im having the worst time ever #i used to never get sick wtf. i guess my moms right about that changing once i changed my diet #but anyways!!!! i shouldnt have to suffer this much #im weak and miserable enough i dont need this #my neck is hurting from how badly im sleeping #yk. they ended up cancelling lunch at my grandmas tomorrow because of how sick i am :-/ ig im glad because i was afraid i was gonna miss it #or more like. i wouldnt get to eat cake/dessert lol #but also. my moms apparently getting sick as well unfortunately #my nose hurts from blowing it so much as well #aaarrrrghhhh #hell on earth #cami.txt

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thegoldenshi-shi · 2 years ago

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Shi-Shi, hello! I know it is quite unusual of me to chat once again in such a short period of time, but I found it appropriate. I hope you don’t mind. I have finished my exams, Math and Social Studies, and I think they went well, at least my Social Studies did. When I get the results back, I’ll let you know when I have time. If you wish to know, of course.

My Softball provincials are this weekend on Saturday, so I’ll be busy all day then, but Friday, so tomorrow, or today, depending on when you see this, is my second last day of lifeguarding lessons and then I am finished. I will still have work, naturally, but I will definitely have more free time than before. I just knew I had to send an ask before everything starts up again, even though it is currently..4:38AM my time and I should really get to bed, but it is alright. I hope you are doing well still.

Also with the room battles, I find that extremely funny and are quite excited for what will come out of it. I especially loved Sunstreakers smirk in the first image with Fortress Maximus behind him like a bodyguard protecting his queen haha. I also found the drawing of Red Alert, Sunstreaker and Sideswipe intriguing and heart warming. I will never get enough of your art style and art, Shi-Shi, and it always makes me melt at how gorgeous and well thought out it is.

Now, I should really be getting to sleep, but I have to finish a character sheet first as if I leave it incomplete, it will bug me for the rest of the night, so I will finish that first. As I said before, I hope you are doing well, Shi-Shi, I enjoy talking with you at every chance I get, have a good day/night.

-Meister

Hello again Meister~

It's good to hear that you've gotten through your exams, and I hope you do well! Math was always my weakest point so I'm familiar with the uncertainty on Math exam grades. Congratulations on getting through your lifeguarding lessons as well. I'm sure that must be really exciting~

I'm happy that you liked Rodimus' Room Rumble (as I've decided to call it). My muse has been throwing a tantrum these past few months, so it's been a blessing to finally be able to think up SOMETHING for the Room 512 squad. And I'm glad that you liked Red Alert's reveal (?) picture. New bots are always scary to unveil hehe

Oh, and by all means, you can send in asks however frequently or infrequently you like. Your asks are always so very sweet and my inbox is always open so feel free to drop by any time.

I hope you sleep well, get your character sheet finished, have a good time at your Softball provincials and have a good/day night. 🌸

#meister anon #I could never be doing anything at 4:30 AM #I zonk out after midnight and am useless until morning #sleep is for the weak and i am apparently a baby hehe #nice to hear from you again

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lovelessbirdbearlove · 4 months ago

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So sleepy

#no sleep #sleep is for the weak apparently #mom life #mom shit #in need of sleep #zero sleeps

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the-bearer-of-bad-ideas · 8 months ago

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i dont know why my mom keeps deciding to forcibly "clean" my room while im at school when she knows full well that every time shes done that i cried for over an hour afterwards

#i want to go to bed but the texture of all the pillows is fucked up and god i cant do this today #why am i fucking like this why am i like this #vent #cleaning entails moving all my stuff to places i dont know where it is and throwing away all the stuff she thinks is trash even if its not #so now i have to go outside and look stupid going through the recycle bin to find an empty granola bar box because the idea of storing my b #bracelets in anything else makes me uncomfortable and i dont know where anything is and i cant find my drawings because she threw the loose #loose leaf ones away and hid my blanket somewhere because apparently its too hot to have the blanket but i cant sleep without hte blanket a #and the pillows are fucked too so how am i supposed to sleep #she gets so mad when i tell her not to because “i dont like looking at it :(” but youre not the one who fucking lives in here youre not the #the one who needs things a specific way or else she'll cry because its so fucking uncomfortable #anyways. im done now #i still cant sleep because the bedsheet is on upside down and im too weak to reorient it #berry.post

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ifeelfreewithoutmyshoes · 9 months ago

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I kinda wanna go on a rant but I honestly just think I need to sleep

#and be alone for like 24 hours #I haven’t had a day withou any plans/other people for at least three weeks #and I’ve had busy weeks before that as well #and my next week will be busy as well #it’s a lot #I’ve put in FREE in my calendar to make sure I don’t have plans then #and this weekend I was supposed to be off but it was the only week I could meet up with my cousins #it was super fun but my brother was kinda like so how did u think it went #and overall I think it went well and so did he #one of my cousins was feeling less so yesterday apparently #but once again I really think it went the best it could have been #one of my cousins fucked kinda up tho and arrived at like half past midnight bc he double booked himself #and his sister was feeling kinda bad for him that ha arrived so late and we would just head to bed so he didn’t get anything out of that day #whereas I very much felt like it was his own fucking fault #I was not gonna stay out till half past 2 when I’d been out partying the day before and I’d already felt just seeing them Saturday/Sunday #took a lot of my energy #that was kinda the rant anyway #but it was a nice discussion with my brother about it #bc I was also slightly annoyed by some of them playing Pokémon go instead of the board game the five of us was playing #but talking it out with him helped with that so it’s fine #then now as I was vacuuming I started getting annoyed at one of my cousins bc #I think it’s ridiculous that he can’t respect his trans brother (my cousin)’s new name and pronouns #so he’s got a free pass to use the old one #bc my other cousin asked bc no one ever really told her what was going on and she heard different things #and I’m still annoyed by that I find it weak as fuck #our grandmother I get but my cousin is 19 he can fucking do better #anyway at that point I realized how stupid tired I am and that’s probably not helping #but since it’s only 7 pm and I need dinner and stuff I can’t sleep yet #so here’s the rant instead I guess #me

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philtatosbuck · 1 year ago

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i don't know where this idea that the originals would never interact with humans come from do you guys. think they exclusively talk to supernatural creatures? like that's the only thing they'll lie to and date and manipulate and fuck? genuinely i don't understand why . there's a huge ass thing about how "older vampires never date humans!!11!" whyyy the fuck wouldn't they. it would in fact make sense for the very manipulative older vampires to date or even just befriend (loosely) humans and turn or use them even if they didn't love them solely to have allies more than it would for them to NEVER acknowledge humans. they might not date them SERIOUSLY but they don't just write off humans entirely. y'all know that don't you. the originals especially have made a Point of treating the human faction as a serious ally. what is going on.

#it's just . odd LMFAO #like let me know if i missed that episode #i know kol's whole rah rah falling for humans is the first sign of weakness shit but like...#the others never implied they would never sleep with a human or anything like that #“there's no reason for them to have ever spoken to them!!!” i have some terrible news for you #people can in fact just speak to each other without it needing a nefarious plot #klaus? okay yeah most of the people he speaks to always has a reason behind it #but like .... not all vampires simply never interact with humans #matter of fact they sort of make it a point to blend in with humans as much as possible #i don't think they interact with humans EXPECTING a relationship out of it #but. they interact. promise you #y'all act like vampires treat humans like they have infections #it's insane #“why would they ever talk to--” because they're not fucking freaks like you antisocial fucks apparently???#that's where i think. a disconnect for me and other anti kl*roliners are at #y'all think he'd never speak to her if she wasn't from some super secret special bloodline #i think he'd find her annoying and of all the options he wouldn't choose that bitch #we are not the same #klaus #i ain't even tagging his whole name i do not need that #anti klaroline #just because. the tags. you know

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