#like obviously get more money but like. Im getting burnout just trying to stabilize the home chores and my self care.

[justanotheradhdian]

Morning fuckers.

I'm not a morning person. But I'm up at 5 am. And have no choice but to be awake at the moment. Why? THIS is wHAt my brain is doing to me. I've been writing this in my notes for like. Almost an hour now.

This is not edited for your reading pleasure. Enjoy.

The first half second of the Disney logo. Now the last twinkly little bit of it.

Two different parts of color your night. (THEY ARE ALTERNATING ITS 3 NOW)

very random thoughts. (So far I've had thoughts about the date I went on last night, several different things about Balder's gate 3. The idea to write all this down. Random thoughts about my girlfriend that I can't even remember anymore again. ((Random being like. Often very disconnected and only sharing the topic of her in common. As broad of a spectrum of how I want to propose, to how warm her skin is, to like. That one time she farted In my face and I threw up.))

Now there's the fusion fall loading screen, also playing in jumbled order

All it took for this to start this morning. Was sitting up just enough to drink tea, telling Brie thank you for said tea, and telling her she looked beautiful last night by the kopps waterfall.

5:20 or 5:30am Also the music in my brain. Has not stopped. While writing this. (or editing. Like 20 minutes later Yes I lied. Get over it.)

Sometimes it's simultaneously playing 2 or 3 different song pieces at once.

I don't know how to stop this.

There's no task to refocus on other than it's 5 am and I neED to SLEEP. 

It's just turning into a cacophony of undecipherable sound. 

Like I'll hear the "painted so vividly by you" Then suddenly my brain cuts to the opening to the fusionfall loading screen, then it plays the High note of color your night with the piano and stuff

Only the beginning and ending of when you wish upon a star

"Two hands meet at Zenith" "I want to say" high note part

OH GOD NOW GOLDEN HOUR JUST ADDED ITSELF

I mean. At least it's not totally mangled. 

Now I've got that weird bwoooa dududu dun de dun TikTok noise thing.

Color your night is back.

2112 just started. Behind my ears feels warm. It's also sped up for some reason.

And also playing out of order but hey.

Also I think I'm literally hearing static. Probably just the fan though. Wait no theres a subtle staticy ringing.

Like I don't think that high note part in my head is singing the right word even

I just keep getting something something Al-i-BYYYYYYYYYYY 

Goooooollldeeeeen hour

This has been constant for 40. MINUTES NOW. 

Somehow. My 4ish hour of sleep insane brain has decided to make this into a tumblr post.

WHY DO I WANT TO LIVE BLOG MY BRAIN THING NO PNE WILL READ THIS

I over tagged again.

Oh hey the music stop.

OH GOD MY EYES BURN WHY THERE'S NO LIGHT, MY PHONE IS ALMOST AS DIM AS IT GETS, ON NIGHT MODE, AND DARK THEME

Adfhusgicgovhvvohv whyyyyyyy