#apparently she supposedly will be discharged today so that she will be able to go at home

[collecting--stardust]

Posted to female oncology ward for these two weeks and all I can say is cancer is cruel but amidst that pain and sorrow, you can really see true love in that ward

[cph-dreaming]

Day # 25

“Wanting to be someone else is a waste of who you are.”

- Kurt Cobain

For some people receiving a psychiatric diagnosis will feel like an embarrassment, a stigmatising stamp. For others it will come as a relief, an explanation for all the things one wasn’t able to understand before. For most of us who receive it, it will probably be a combination of both.

Today was judgement day. Or not quite. The first thing the clinical psychologist said to me in our session today was that it had been difficult for her to come up with an exact diagnosis because (and I quote literally) “D, you really are one of a kind.” Thankfully she laughed after saying it so I shall take it not only as that I’m a special kind of nutcase but also as a compliment. Apparently I don’t quite fit into those narrow boxes they use in their diagnostic procedures as some of my symptoms and behaviours are correspondent with several kinds of MI’s, others negate the obvious explanations. What made a diagnosis even more difficult was that evidently I am extremely cognitive in my self-awareness, even when I’m hypomanic as I’ve been the last few weeks. So the best she could do was to give me a preliminary diagnosis and refer me to ‘Rigshospitalet’, “Denmark’s leading hospital for patients needing highly specialised treatment”, also in psychiatry. Wow!

So what is the preliminary diagnosis? Well [drumroll], I have a kind of Bipolar Disorder (surprise, surprise), maybe Bipolar II with a tendency towards Rapid Cycling. On top of that there are signs that I also might have Impulsive Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder although the clinical psychologist wasn’t sure of it as I have the ability to form meaningful long-term relationships with friends and family. Besides, “borderline personality disorder is often diagnostically comorbid with depression and anxiety, eating disorders such as bulimia, post-traumatic stress disorder, substance misuse disorders and bipolar disorder (with which it is also sometimes clinically confused)” [British Psychological Society]. And supposedly a double diagnosis of both BP and BPD is rather rare. So she would instead of treating me here discharge me and let the specialists at the Centre for Affective Disorders have the pleasure of my company.

Honestly I don’t really know how I feel about it. More or less unconsciously I have spent my day talking on the phone with family and friends since the session just before noon and only an hour ago I sat down in my own room by myself trying to understand what all those fancy words actually mean. There is some kind of solace in knowing that I am bonkers and not just a drama queen (although I can be that as well, thank you very much). It is also reassuring that going forward I will be treated by some of the best specialists in this country. Most of all right now I am so much looking forward to going home and sleeping in my own bed again!

Being admitted here has totally destroyed my preconceptions and prejudices about psychiatric hospitals. I am still so much in awe of the staff, their professionalism and empathy and it’s been years since I have felt as safe as I have here. So it’ll be strange to go home on Friday however much I’m looking forward to it. Thankfully I will not be left to myself but be connected with a team that works with discharged patients until I can get an appointment at ‘Riget’. The psychiatrist here has deemed that I still need some kind of support as I am phasing out of my antidepressants and up the mood stabilisers. All in all I have faith in the future of my treatment.

Let me end by repeating myself from some days ago: If You are not ok mentally or emotionally, please do not hesitate to reach out to other people. Although it might feel like it, there is nothing shameful about needing help to get by. Life is too precious not to!

[thebibliosphere]

*Sigh*.

Mum finally made it home, but not after being given the absolute run around by the Queen Elizabeth hospital.

Cut for medical abuse and just downright fuckery. I’d appreciate if this wasn’t reblogged but honestly I’ve given up on asking people.

Her surgery and subsequent care was carried out at Gartnavel, and while the plastic surgeon had been round to see her three times, the doctor who carried out the actual cancer removal surgery has yet to even check in on Mum once since her surgery last Wednesday. So, in order for mum to be discharged today, they told her dad could drive her to the Queen Liz over in Govan, where this breast specialist was supposedly working the weekend. So they tell her to get there between the hours of 10am and 11am. Gartnavel—where it has to be said, the nursing staff were quite literally live saving earlier this week when they noticed Mum’s blood pressure destabilizing—discharged her at 9am, and mum and dad drove over to the Queen Liz and are told there will be a 20 minute wait before the doctor will be able to see them.

Which, cool, fine whatever, do they want her to wait in an exam room? Nope. “the waiting room” which is basically a corridor with some seats jammed in. Right. Okay.

Twenty minutes come and go, and my mother is seriously ill feeling from all the meds she’s on, not to mention recovering from breast removal surgery, dad goes and asks the nurse if they can wait somewhere else. No can do guv, but here’s a sick basket. He asks if the doctor will at least be out soon, and the nurse rolls her eyes at him and says the doctor is very busy sir, and gestures to the empty waiting room. 20 minutes turns into 40 then 60. Dad goes and asks again, cause Mum is really not doing well. The nurse he spoke to first time around has gone for her lunch. The new nurse has no record of Mum, but she’ll tell the doctor they're waiting. Another 20 minutes pass and nothing happens. And then another. At which point dad goes and says “listen, we’ve been waiting for over an hour” and the nurse says “no sir you’ve only bee waiting 20.”

Dad politely asks to speak to someone else. He is informed there is no one else, but the doctor—the breast specialist who carried out my mother’s surgery, for which she has had many complications since last Wednesday—will be there soon. Another 15 minutes go by and the original nurse comes back, and the nurse on the desk goes away. Dad goes and asks her if there’s been any progress made, and the nurse looks at the screen and says “who are you here to see?”

“Dr. {Name},” Dad informs her tersely, and the nurse looks at the screen and says “oh, she went home at 9am, did no one tell you?”

At which point Mum who tagged along with Dad starts getting extremely upset. She gets so upset she faints. Miraculously several doctors appear from nowhere. She is put into an exam room and a surgeon registrar is found, and when Dad tells her how long they’ve been waiting she shakes her head and tells him no one informed her there was a patient waiting. She looks at Mum, and at the wound in her chest, and informs her seriously that the site is infected. Mum starts crying, she just wants to go home, she thinks she’ll die if she can’t go home. The SR prescribes a fourth set of antibiotics, and says Mum can go home, but if her fever spikes or if she starts vomiting to call and ambulance. She needs to go back to Gartnavel on Tuesday to get the wound checked and see if the infection needs to be drained. Then Thursday, she will find out the results of the biopsy with the breast expert who still hasn’t checked on my mother since last Wednesday when she removed her left breast. Dad asks glibly, will she be there? And the SR tells him to call first and make sure, which just, what the actual fuck. What in the nine circles of hell and damnation fuck.

Is breast cancer surgery her hobby? Is that what’s going on here? Is it me? Or are you supposed to check on your patients after you remove a sizeable chunk of their body? Did I hallucinate that concept of medical care?

Also, Dad took pics of the Queen Liz while they were there, it’s a £842 million quid state of the art hospital and it’s fucking manky. There’s dust balls on the floor the size of my hand, and considering they’re being investigated for deaths related to pigeon shit in the ventilation system, you’d think they’d be a little more careful about things like making sure the hospital looks clean? But apparently nah. £842 million and not a single bright spark thought to put pigeon wire over the ventilation intakes. Fan-fucking-tastic.

Anyway. Mum is home, and already feeling much better, simply by virtue of having her own bed to sleep in. She’ll have to go back up to Gartnavel on Tuesday morning to get her wound seen to. And who knows, maybe the surgeon will actually fucking be there. Either way, it’s 2am my time and Dad just texted me all the details I need to help him write a letter of complaint because he doesn’t know how to. Fortunately, Mum taught me the art of letter writing, particularity the art of flaying people alive via eviscerating politeness.

God fuck that hospital and all those people. Fuck those nurses and fuck the surgeon. I hope they stub their toes on the sharp edge of the coffee table from now until eternity. I’m so fucking angry I’m just sobbing. I thought I had a handle on it earlier when I first found all this out. Turns out I was just saving it up for the appropriate time to have a mental breakdown, which as we all know, is the allotted time between midnight at 3am. God fucking dammit.

[cookemichael]

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Alright, past time I start this post but I was talking to my friend so at least that's a good reason to delay. Today was good! Did make myself get out of bed when my alarm went off, I mean I had to but I still made it happen so I felt proud of myself because trust me, it's quite the feat these days (sigh). Got ready, hopped on the bus and made it to work. Finally got the caseworker I've been trying to reach on the phone and caught her up on all the craziness from the status hearing last week after she left. Made some more calls, and re-typed my Facebook blurb for the message. My boss had messaged me and said she was going to be out in the morning because she had to take her daughter to the doctor, so I took to reading the motions to reconsider and parental capacity assessment from the case I've been listening to the jail phone calls for, and well they were definitely interesting. It's strange because dad's psychiatrist discharged him saying he had no evidence of psychotic/delusional thoughts but the guy is still under the belief that he's the second Adam, like from the the Bible, which sounds pretty damn delusional to me. But the main concern is that mom is a fucking mess and won't cooperate at all with any services or visits, after she like, assaulted a caseworker, kicked a hole in the wall at the DCFS office, and did other various offenses. So basically the conclusion was there's no chance of them getting the kids back if dad stays with mom, but he maybe has a chance if they separate. And now supposedly they separated, but that's not what the jail phone calls sound like, so it's interesting for sure. They were doing a fundraiser for something around lunch selling snow cones, so I ventured outside the courthouse and bought a watermelon one as well as some chips. They didn't quite get shaved ice though, it was more like crushed ice, so it was more like a cup of syrup and ice chunks? Haha but it was still fairly enjoyable so I'm not complaining. Ate lunch, then drove out to a staffing with my boss, and of course got stuck in horrendous traffic and wound up being super late, and we were gonna like call in but then we couldn't find the number and it was this whole big mess but it was kind of amusing lol. But we made it and it lasted another 10 minutes because the dad had to go to work, but we were able to figure out the info we needed to clear up the apparent discrepancy, and the case should be able to close in August so that's a win. The girl has already been home with dad since September, and the case should've been closed already but has just remained open for some lingering issues, but they'll hopefully be resolved now. Cute girl too. So not long after arriving we headed back out and made much better time, getting back to the office around 3:45. So I finished some phone calls and reading the parenting capacity assessment, then got started on a CIM (critical incident memorandum) about an unfounded packet I wrote up a few weeks ago. I got about halfway through that when it was 5 and I went to go home. I ended up on the 5:14 bus, which true to habit got me home a full half hour later than the bus 10 minutes earlier than it, so I'm really done with doing that, I'm ok with ducking out a few minutes early to make the 5:03, nothing much is getting done at that point anyway. By the time I get home it's like 6:45 (ugh), so I make dinner and decide to keep watching season 1 of legends from where I left off after the pilot, which I'll spare the commentary of because I've already written about my feelings about the show at length, I'll just say these early episodes are highly quotable and Mick's lines were very underappreciated. At 9 I turned on the night shift, which was a fairly interesting episode, up until the end at least, which just left me really PISSSED. The continued plot of the two girls from the roller coaster accident was interesting, I thought it interesting that they went with the story that she had an abortion but was still pregnant, since I know a girl in real life who that happened to. The other girl's plot was a bit peculiar for sure, but I'm glad they ended it with Paul telling off her parents for neglecting her, I just wish we got to see it lol. The nurse turned doctor was intriguing, I found it interesting that a Mexican medical license is valid in America to practice medicine because to practice law in America you have to have an American law degree, though I suppose that makes sense since medicine tends to be more universal while law tends to be country specific. Paul's dad continues to piss me off, but it's clear they're setting him up to be the antagonist, and well he's certainly doing a good job antagonizing. I just wish he wasn't so damn annoying. But then we have the ending, and oh man, I'm so mad at them. So mad. I didn't know what they were gonna do with Topher's character, they threw in a short line about him coming back after not discussing that previously at all so I didn't know what was happening there, but then (major spoiler alert) to kill off a main character off screen and break it to the others through a text message??? Really?? This character deserved so much better than this shit. I don't know what the deal was about if the actor didn't want to return or what else, but this was just a really shitty way to get rid of his character and I'm pissed they treated him like that. Topher was such a quality character, the heart and soul of the ER in many ways, and for him to just vanish in a puff of smoke seems like such a dishonor to his brave and wonderful character. So yeah, I'm quite ticked off about that choice. Sigh. After that I finished the 4th episode of legends I had started and then started getting ready for bed and that's more or less how we got here. Yay for tomorrow being Friday. Sleep now, or soon anyway. Goodnight my babes. Sweet dreams.