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I kinda wanna go on a rant but I honestly just think I need to sleep
#and be alone for like 24 hours#I haven’t had a day withou any plans/other people for at least three weeks#and I’ve had busy weeks before that as well#and my next week will be busy as well#it’s a lot#I’ve put in FREE in my calendar to make sure I don’t have plans then#and this weekend I was supposed to be off but it was the only week I could meet up with my cousins#it was super fun but my brother was kinda like so how did u think it went#and overall I think it went well and so did he#one of my cousins was feeling less so yesterday apparently#but once again I really think it went the best it could have been#one of my cousins fucked kinda up tho and arrived at like half past midnight bc he double booked himself#and his sister was feeling kinda bad for him that ha arrived so late and we would just head to bed so he didn’t get anything out of that day#whereas I very much felt like it was his own fucking fault#I was not gonna stay out till half past 2 when I’d been out partying the day before and I’d already felt just seeing them Saturday/Sunday#took a lot of my energy#that was kinda the rant anyway#but it was a nice discussion with my brother about it#bc I was also slightly annoyed by some of them playing Pokémon go instead of the board game the five of us was playing#but talking it out with him helped with that so it’s fine#then now as I was vacuuming I started getting annoyed at one of my cousins bc#I think it’s ridiculous that he can’t respect his trans brother (my cousin)’s new name and pronouns#so he’s got a free pass to use the old one#bc my other cousin asked bc no one ever really told her what was going on and she heard different things#and I’m still annoyed by that I find it weak as fuck#our grandmother I get but my cousin is 19 he can fucking do better#anyway at that point I realized how stupid tired I am and that’s probably not helping#but since it’s only 7 pm and I need dinner and stuff I can’t sleep yet#so here’s the rant instead I guess#me
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I truly deeply feel like I've died. I fear my body may soon decide for me that I need a day off no matter how much vitamin c I take and how strict I am about eating 3 meals a day and sleeping enough
#boooo#it's so annoying trying everything you know to care for your body like stretches and baths and protein and sleep and cups of tea#and noise cancelling headphones and calling someone who loves me#and the real solution is so simple. i need to lie down in a dim room for 24 hours#no matter how much i half ass it here I can't get around the fact that i need to be in a room alone#like. in order to keep functioning physically#i don't even know that i would consider this a disability on a normal day i think the ceos of this company are simply insane
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odds n’ ends
#it’s like.. the b-sides that didn’t fit with anything else and aren’t strong enough alone to warrant me wasting space on anyone else’s dash#these were taken between Sep 23’ and Feb 24’; they’re not sorted chronologically#they’re sorted by temperature. sorta#I can start putting more time into art again soon - easing into it bc I’ve not adjusted to the changes yet#now that the move is over and I don’t have the shitty helljob that had me doing 70 hrs p/week. I made a bank in OT hours tho.#which is good! bc my job fell through on this end and I’m now trying to find new work so I don’t die :)#so my heftier-than-usual savings are keeping me afloat for the moment#ah well! cest la vie; and I’ll be okay!#my art#aesthetic#art#artwork#webcore#internetcore#abstract#artists on tumblr#photography#flash photography#weirdcore#nature photography#mountains
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I was watching a clip of the nutcracker on youtube and someone complained about the ballerina dancing as clara because "an adult playing a 12 year old is creepy" and guys. I think we need to shut down takes. No more takes until we figure out what's going on.
#what do you want??? CHILD LABOR?#profesional ballet is incredibly intense both mentally and physically#12 is a really young age to go en pointe in the first place let alone for HOURS on end every day#like i can understand this shit in like. tv or movies but on LIVE PERFORMANCE???#on camera you are so close to the actor appearance matters a lot more and you can make more forgiving schedules for child actors#in ballet you CAN'T account for those schedules#and the dancer's... you know. DANCING matters way more than how young they look. you're sitting 50m away it DOESN'T MATTER#i'm not sure how to like... tag this beyond the rant#im not even sure if it was purity culture or just a pure hatred for adult women#because the commenter went to complain that the dancer (who was 24) 'looked in her 40s'#ballet#the nutcracker#the dancer was Sae Maeda for the record who is BRILLIANT
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Cody peeks out with comical wide-eyed horror at the stinky, noisy intruder (Rex) who is energetically kneading biscuits in the donut bed Cody had just claimed.
(or the second night after Rex was adopted, only 2 days after Cody was adopted, Cody is extremely not thrilled to learn that he is, in fact, not going to be a pampered only child who can monopolize everything)
(and this was BEFORE either of them learned they have 2 older brothers now too...)
Cats Tag: #YukiPriASLKittens
#YukiPriASLKittens#Cats#Kittens#Cat!Cody#Cat!Rex#siamese cat#Cody was so horrified and betrayed#he thought the entire human bed was his and his alone but he has to SHARE?!?!?#alas Cody was also roughly 5 lbs of fluff#even when he 'hissed' he was so scared that he just opened his mouth but no sound came out#i feel bad but ngl it was kinda funny#dun worry they became bffs roughly 24 hours after this video was taken#like it's shocking how quickly they decided they love each other#also please pardon my thigh
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not-yet-dead-person
silly comic of a conversation in-game i thought was too funny not to make something proper for instead of a doodle ww
(timelapse + wip images (thus silly process commentary in read more if you like artist commentary :3)
i think the sketch looks silly and goofy and funny so i find it important to share with you the mere presence of the faces i drew on it. i drew it on top of the boxes without staying inside its borders because i find my proportions can get wonky if i draw them cropped in a restricted space. and I feel trapped otherwise and i will draw BAD!!! give me spaceeeee to go wild!!!!
the head circles are there for emotional support
very low res speedpaint because truth is the canvas was much bigger than the space where my comic was placed. i didnt account when exporting my timelapse in 720px that that tiny space would look so pixelated ... but it's able to be percieved, so its okay.
(i will now comment on my process and it is not brief sorry)
usually i would try to clean up my sketches and figure out what goes on top before jumping into linework, but since there are multiple panels and drawings i chose to jump into inking right away for the sake of brevity. i just went in with a brush that uses pen pressure and drew what was needed. i added extra line thickness and contrast in areas around the face because it helps direct your eyes there more easily that way.
according to her equipment rei has a chain belt but i only remembered it existed once I was going to color, and i did not like that discovery... I chose to ignore it to maintain my peace. i already have the color palettes for these characters figured out, and i didnt really want to think about a new element at the moment www I tend to overthink those things a lot so i skipped it
the rest is rather straightforward! not that anything else wasn't, but in here i could turn my brain off and sing. linework and sketching require mumbling so i cannot turn my brain off. just block in the characters with a solid color so i can have a mask (something along those lines,) where the color can stay inside. then just color in !!!
Base colors just had slight cell shading on the skin, and for the hair i airbrush a bit of the skincolor in low opacity near the forehead... I'm not sure what it means, but i can look at the faces easier with it somehow. i like the gentle subtlety it adds even if you cant really tell. it makes things look nice.
background was just me blocking in the color of the wall and floor, shade the wall a bit, then slap a noise and free use wood texture on top. work smarter not harder ! yet it took a bit to make it look stylistically fitting with the characters, and even now i think bottom middle panel looks odd. whatever!!!
for the middle panel i thought itd be funny if the background was a solid silly and colorful one to contrast the next panel's sketchy black one. a contrast to how the word widow is seen. on that note my handwritting is not pointy. i gaslighted my hand into thinking that it was indeed pointy in that moment so i could write "not-yet dead person" in letters that didn't seem cute. my hand did not fall for it but it complied anyway
that's basically it! I'm not sure what else i could say that doesn't feel barebones because it really is that straightforward. if you're curious I used clip studio paint for this. only special brush used was for linework (a brush named Lemon Brush), the rest used were just the default. my computer gets the least credit. it was trying to convince me a 20mb file was going to nuke it all the time and hardly let me save multiple times so i do not appreciate it
#re:kinder#fanart#sayaka re:kinder#rei re:kinder#OH I ALREADY RAMBLED IN MY POST WHATEVER SHOULD I TALK ABOUT NOW IN MY TAGS UEEEEEEE😭😭😭#oh yeah do you want to know a fun fact about this drawing#i started it yesterday. i wasnt meant to I DID NOT HAVE PERMISSION...FROM MYSELF... i was meant to be on break#i self imposed a one week break from doing any rekinder related project after the transcript to avoid accidental burn out#NOT THAT I GOT TIRED OF IT AFTER THAT TRANSCRIPT NOT AT ALL#but jumping straight into more hours of creativr work after over 30 hours of it is asking for disaster. it is asking for burn out#yesterday was the last day . 12 hours were left but i was going to die if i didnt draw anything it would have been OVER#(aka my period started recently so i got very gloomy and depressed so i needed to run to my favorite stress relief...drawing rekinder☺️)#(on that note seriously what the fuck please explain the evolutionary advantage to getting horribly depressed every month)#(like hello?!?! rant real quick— i get enough flashbacks everyday i DONT need them to last longer and have me more msierable ?!?!?)#(periods are so dangerous to my mental health for no reason can i get a restriction order on them or some shit what the fuck)#(anyway thats enough of that break of character DONEEEE :3333)#SO YEAH I DIDNT EVEN LAST 7 WHOLE DAYS i even played a new game in between those 6 days youd think itd het my mind of rekinder. WRONNNNGGG#not even another devastating rpg horror gamr could divert my attention for long i hsd to draw rekinder😊#using the newfound power of mt transcript i was decided on drawing rei because i dont draw her enough for how high she is on my fvaorites#i was initially doodling random lines but then i stumbled upon this interactkon and it doesnt really fit into my usual expression sheets#so i thought hey lets do it asife#i thumbnailrd it and from there i was like hey lets do it in comic format isntead of separated messy doodles in tint canvas#and the rest is hisotry .... aka i spent the last two days doing this instead of doing MY HOMEWORK!!!!!#on my defense when i wasnt drawing i was horribly depressed i had no other choice#(seriously fuck off periods WHAT what do you mean i need to be distracted 24/7 to not be struck by crippling meltdowns LEAVE ME ALONE?!?!?)#(they should be banned we as a society should find like a . cure to them it dont do me good to have a whole week where i cant function)#these tags have been more of a weird rant im sorry IVE BEEN FEELING PEEEVEDDD LATELY SO YOU GET. STRANGE DROTTER LORE ????
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i’ve listened to like 80 episodes of tma since saturday. i think probably a bit more tbh… aka in five days…. yeah i love this podcast
#oh horror podcast were really going through it now#lol it’s over 24 hours#around 26.5 lool#but ngl i haven’t fully processed all of the episodes#like some parts i’ve just been distracted#bc well#it’s comforting to me#and i just#can’t be alone with my thoughts rn#lol#and that’s on dealing with a breakup#breakup#tma#the magnus archives#magnus archives#nerd stuff#nerd moment!
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spoilers for yingdu arc below cause i cannot contain myself
i am so mentally ill over link click and have been for the past few days to the extent i've rewatched the finale of yingdu at least 7 times and soon to be more.
i'm so sick cause the utilisation of the symbolism of movies and film tape to represent when a character's arc is over but liu xiao goes "the movie isn't over" which basically spelled out vein hasn't finished his purpose yet was soooo. and the year on liu xiao's phone being 2024 showing that he's either time travelled back to this point which is why the events lu guang was expecting had been changed...
the way they tied the ending so well like it's literally moments after the end of s2 just look at their outfits and the fact qiao ling brings up cheng xiaoshi's gun wound that he had gotten while fighting li tianchen and qian jin. (i am kinda disappointed that they revealed the renaming for the studio to shiguang wasn't cause of their bond but rather from cheng xiaoshi's mother's words). not to mention that now with this link up that liu xiao has a whole ass army against shiguang since he's recruited li tianchen and vein has been resurrected which lu guang has no idea about as confirmed by the director himself. also what other abilities does liu xiao have? he talks about being able to listen to heartbeats but also consider maybe he can manipulate people's hearts. clearly he has a time travel ability as well but i wonder just how many he has cause that also showcases how many people he's killed.
anyways this show has ruined my life and my sanity. also xia fei is probably gonna find out who it was that killed vein but i think he already knows based on the conversation he has with cheng xiaoshi and lu guang cause why would you bring up superpowers just on the spot? but if not then, he probably has in the present since he's "missing" now which i mean just probably means he's chilling with the house of hot headed, where vein and liu xiao probably told xia fei what's going on so liu xiao can use his anger over vein's death and the truth behind shiguang's "true colours". he's still baby though trust.
oh yeah when lu guang shouted "xiao weiying" i was losing my mind cause all i could think of was mdzs.
#* ✦ 𝐈. ❮ ooc ❯ ⸻ ❝#anyways i need a whole explanation of what liu xiao's motives and schemes are#cause he literally just showed up and spread mystery and played poker then decided that he was done for the arc#shiguang is kinda screwed for s3 though like it's gonna be 24 episodes of them suffering#i know a lot is going to be revealed like the director said but how long do i have to wait#how many rewatches of yingdu can i do before then huh#honestly i might rewatch the entire series now that the prequel is finished#i was laughing for a whole hour over how the director was like cxs will get smarter like leave the baby boy alone#if you noticed anything else pls lmk like there's so many details that i'm certain i've missed and just adds to the beauty of the donghua#anyways you should watch link click if you haven't already#also where's a vein that i can beat up smh
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...to signal to your past self: mission failure, you must find another way...
Link Click Live Action (2024)
#link click live action#link click#时光代理���#synco talks#a no-spoiler version of a bit that lives in my head rent free. but really the entire episode was so good...#do not ask me how many times ive rewatched this in the past 24 hours.#this scene was in the trailer and i could NOT have imagined this is what it looked like in the show#the music alone augh how does this show have so many bangers#anyway watch lcla
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So idk if it’s just me but it seems to me like there’s a sudden influx of trump supporters EVERYWHERE online, being very bold and very loud, and based on arguments alone I’ve noticed that you trump supporters are in dire need of help. So, I’m doing a fundraise for you guys and I’ll be donating braincells, please come collect them asap, they’re completely free you don’t even have to do anything but promise to use them, it looks like you desperately need them 😭
#us politics#us election#2024 election#fuck donald trump#all these braindead people are literally crawling from the gutters coming out like cockroaches they’re everywhere!#can’t even be online in peace#the amount of shit my eyes have witnessed in the past 24 hours alone will send me into the psych ward bye#btw any trump supporter who dares come into the notes is getting blocked#don’t need your rusty ass vitriolic energy this is a safe space for intelectual people only
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altitude death aside mexico city was so fucking cool i loved every second of it. incredible place
#well every second except the hours my father spent yelling at me over shit he made up but you gotta pay the troll toll#AND NOW IM NOT GONNA SEE MY PARENTS FOR AT LEAST TWO MONTHS!! LETS FUCKING GOOO#home alone til april yknow what that means.... time to spend like a week cleaning the entire house 24/7 coz it's#so fucking nasty but i wanna make it livable while it's only me#i dont leave my room when they're home but now i get to use the entire house. so i want it to look at least slightly ok#and im gonna throw out all the spoiled food and random hoarded trash they dont let me throw out when they're home. sooo excited#barking#cdmxlb#lonely times
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Hi folks! Just wanted to write a quick post that if you send an ask and I don't respond to it immediately, you don't have to repost it, I'm probably just really, really, really tired. And having asks re-sent doesn't make me feel more likely to reply to them!
Give it about a week, and if I don't reply after that, you're welcome to ping me again. But I am on hiatus right now for a reason <333 So please just be patient, because my priority right now is taking care of myself and resting, and being very careful on where I put my energy, which means not getting to asks straight away even if I'd like to sometimes.
#housekeeping#i wish i could get to every ask#let alone every ask quickly#but i often can't these days#i actually replied to a couple of asks today#while waiting for my dog to come out of surgery#and the rest of the day has been spent helping him in recovery#i am very tired#i am so sorry!#but asking me even very nicely to do more when i'm taking a break#because i have been doing too much#and then asking me again when i don't answer within 24 hours#is like asdlkfjd maybe you didn't know i was on hiatus#but i am T.T#idk if folks know this but answering asks often takes me like 10-50 minutes depending on how much detail i go into#which is fine when i have the energy#and is fun#but is like...a lot otherwise
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do pjsk fans (on tiktok) not understand the concept of not everything having to be for them? “i never liked the queen never CRY💜 meme” my brother in christ you don’t have to like everything my god
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#i’ve had this in my drafts since the meme became a thing cause not even 24 hours later some dumbass goes ‘‘🤓👆erm am i the only one that#never like that meme🤓👆’’#it’s always the emu fans to dawg😭 leave my girl alone#I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO MENTION IM A PJSK FAN IM NOT PAINTING YOU ALL WITH THE SAME BRUSH#project sekai#pjsk#hatsune miku#Star yaps :D
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#Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#Mmmmmhhh#I had to step away and do something very quick after watching the episode so now I'm afraid I forgot all of it lol#Okay thoughts:#I'm afraid I'll keep saying this every time. Do not. Give me. An amv opening. Don't do that. Postpone your airing date. I don't care#I feel like I wasn't as pissed with it when they did that for s3 but it's probably a case of the s3 opening at least looked somewhat–#better (??) + you can make a mistake once but don't think I will let it slip a second time#Other than that... To be fair this episode was animated fairly well. I think you can really notice a big quality drop after the–#Ranpo-realizing-who-Kamui-is sequence but overall it's more than okay.#The colours of the ship irk me a little but to be fair I never thought colours were b/sd anime strong point...#This episode was sooooooo political in so many ways I could literally talk about it for hours#(don't test me I'm not kidding. Talking about politics in anime for hours is something I've done in the past and will do in the future.)#(Then again I study/think/breathe politics pretty much 24/7 so is that really surprising... )#I need to write an essay on Fukuchi's speech alone. The public speech communication techniques [redacted Italian politics comment].#The way he's welcomed [redacted eu parliament comment]. Unfortunately I don't have time for it but breaking it down very quickly#1. Suggesting to unify defences worldwide is INSANE. No one would ever take it. Probably going to be cynical here but there's one (1) thing#states care about and it's the independence of their own sovereignty (that is: no one has the right to come and tell what must be done–#within one's borders). Eu has been trying to do exactly that (unify defences) for decades to no avail. Nato is on the brink of crumbling–#down. It's just... Such a distant perspective from how the world works right now? Idk.#Which brings me to 2. Even if it's deeply inconsistent with how world politics work the bsd un perspective is still very coherent with–#a latter thesis brought up in the manga that is “countriest tend to merge and come together” which is. Very anti-historical if you ask me–#but idk. Beautiful to imagine I suppose.#What else uhm... I liked the drawings this episode... Even Atsushi was back being pretty at some points... (Generally not really a fan of–#what the style in the later seasons came to be). Also 55 Minutes reference ‼‼‼#I like Fukuchi's character so much......... I love idealist characters... And the inherent loneliness... The longing... The yearning!!!!!!#I love him so. Oh and I LOVED Akutagawa. I thought his entrance wouldn't have impacted me after all this time (and after knowing–#what episode 3 will be lol). And yet it was such an emotional moment!!!! What do you mean Atsushi is scared to be alone and Akutagawa is–#coming for him!!!!!! I'm crying all my tears. And Akutagawa was so cool in the end!!! By heart was beating so fast!!!!!#It's the etheral blurred light...#The way he still manages to come off so cool despite being inherently pathetic is nothing short to miraculous
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#VENT#VENT TAGS AHEAD !!#so the job is...awful.#i applied for 20-25 hours#they asked if i could do 30#and now theyre pushing me into 40.#i didn't realize that when i agreed to 30 that was NOT binding (i should have known because it wasn't in my job offer. but i am 19 and--#ive never had a job offer letter before. even tho this is just retail)#and i can't adjust my availability for 90 days.#and since i put full availability expecting 25 hours max#now i have FULL 24/7 AVAILABILITY ON FILE for three months at least#and i have no idea what to do because this means i cant commit to any classes coming up for college#but ive been job hubting for months and barely got anything#and if i lose the job i have to move back in with my dad which is almost worse#whats wirse is my leader/boss is so mean. im not saying this lightly#i dont want to get into it but im barely a week in and he's made disrespectful and pushy comments towards me#has basically told me to stay late (which theoretically i cluld say no; but im still on my three months of 'we will fire you if we want to'#and like i said. need the job.#so he told me to stay late knowing i cant really say no#he's given me a frankly absurd amount of work (instock and i get carts filled woth 2-3x their max capacity unorganized and dangerously--#overloaded) and then he pushes me and snaps at me to get it done in an absurdly short timeframe while im still in TRAINING#im afab and present femme as i haven't transitioned irl and he is so ragingly sexist#he often just refers to me and the other girl being trained as 'girl' or 'that girl#and to top it all off#i took this job over a second interview at a place i really liked#because i thought the hours at this olace would be more consistent#nope! full time! surprise!!#and now im kicking myself so fucking hard over it. i feel like i fucked up so hard#and my friend i moved here with has been home for two months and will be this month so im just. alone. and i don't really have anyone to#turn to. im just so very stressed and tired and lonely
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