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guys guys guys GUYS GUYS GUYYYYYYYS
WHEN WILL IT BE MY TURN SIR NIKOLAI???? WHEN
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Oh my GOOOD? SIR NIKOLAI SIR NOKOLA SODMTORMPENEOEKEJRPF ROE P
OMG OMG OMG I JUST SAW THIS PICTURE ON PINTEREST AND IMMEDIATELY THOUGHT OF THE KNIGHT NIKOLAI AU BY @corpsebasil
#step on me#sir nikolai lantsov#sir Nikolai#knight nikolai#knight nikolai lantsov#good god hes so magnificent#nikolai lantsov#shadow and bone
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Graves: Nik, would you do me a favor?
Nik: Of course.
Graves: John's been a fucking pain all afternoon.
Nik: Ah. What do I do?
Graves: Turn him inside out for me.
Nik: With pleasure :)
#submission#graves: teach him a lesson#nik: sir yes sir#the boys arent gonna be nice about it either#call of duty#modern warfare#phillip graves#cod nikolai#incorrect quotes#price isnt walking later#nikpricegraves#pricegravesnik
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homicidal girlypop, save me
#he sits in my brain and gnaws on the enclosure#nikolai gogol a moment of your time sir#nikolai#nikolai gogol#bsd nikolai#bungo stray dogs#bungo stray dogs fanart#文豪ストレイドッグス#bungou gay dogs#bungou stray dogs#bsd#bsd fanart#fanart#my art#artists of tumblr
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I had no choice - Knight!Nikolaï x reader
A/N: More angst for @corpsebasil AU? heck yes. Also I'm sorry in advance this was better in my head fjnkjrbg
Part 2 of this one-shot (tho you can also read it as a stand-alone)
Summary: You and your secret lover Sir Nikolaï got married in secret a few months ago. As the princess of Ravka, you can’t let this information become public right now. But what might happen if your hand is forced to reveal it? Are your royal duties more important than your union to your beloved knight? TW: angst, child neglect, slight violence, mention of blood and death in childbirth, angst, slut-shaming, dubious morals, mention of su!cide
It was easy, at first. The first months of your married life, albeit a secret one, had been blissful and lovely, and easy. There was the thrill of secrecy, the shared glances that now carried the bubbling emotions of newlyweds, the stolen kisses behind curtains, and the knowledge of returning to each other’s arms when the night would come. But after several months of this untainted happiness, reality slowly came back. It wasn’t a crashing realization, more like a creeping around your mind just like the insidious whispers in the corridors reaching your ears from time to time. Then came the crippling doubt. Nothing loud or really consistent, but quiet and haunting at every small moment of silence within your mind. What if someone knows? What if we weren’t that discreet? What of it then? You knew the answer to that last one, of course ; treason, trial, exile, maybe even execution for Nikolaï – perhaps even yourself. Ironically, the love Nikolaï showered you with was precisely what made you neglect those thoughts. It might have been a deliberate subconscious move too, to bury your own head in the sand instead of being practical. And that despite all of the warnings around you, that led you to the exact situation you currently were in.
The day had started as usual though. You woke up in the arms of your lover – your husband – like any other day. It was always a bliss to look at the peaceful asleep face of Nikolaï, getting kissed by the first rays of sun like a delicate brush on a painting. You consider yourself lucky to be able to catch a glimpse of the handsome relaxed face of the knight every morning. Though it was always a matter of getting up before the maids came to your own adjacent chamber, Nikolaï always took the time to shower you with kisses to start his day ; you gladly returned the favor, by the way. Then the dreadful slipping away from his chamber, just to put back on the princess role once again. Getting dressed, getting breakfast, where you see Nikolaï again, dressed in his knight outfit this time. The day has gone by as usual, meeting with your ladies in waiting or dignitaries, walking around the palace gardens, Sir Nikolaï always close by as the dutiful bodyguard – and devoted husband he was. Then during the afternoon tea, a guard showed up to whisper something to your beloved knight’s ears, to which he answered with a sharp nod. Polite as ever, he had excused himself to attend this military matter that requested his attention ; nothing out of the ordinary really, for the captain of the knights.
The prospect of him leaving your side for a few hours had you pout a little, but the deception had been quickly washed away by the knowledge and secret promise of a later reunion in the wink Nikolaï secretly sent you before exiting the room.
Really, everything had started as it always was.
Then, out of the blue, two guards arrived in the tea room and asked to follow them, per your father’s request. It wasn’t something terribly surprising either, as the princess of Ravka the king could sometimes summon you ; so although it wasn’t planned, you weren’t surprised and you followed your father’s guards. Most of the palace guards were known by you, at least by face if not by name and Nikolaï’s words, but the king’s guards were a special case. Unlike the rest of the military, they didn’t serve Ravka, but the King only. And you were about to remember that very soon.
“Father,” you greeted with a small courtesy as you entered the gilded room, “you had requested my presence?”
The king lifted his nose from the paper he was reading. Despite all the etiquette lessons you had been through growing up, the first thought that came to your mind was that he was looking old. Decades of ruling a country and being an absent father does that to you, you supposed. All while you thought about it, you missed the somber look the monarch was giving.
“Leave us,” he said sharply to the guards. Ever obedient, the two soldiers who escorted you swiftly left the room without a word.
This made you frown slightly in confusion. “Is something wrong, father?”
“What do you think?” he said sharply. “Why would I have summoned my useless child if everything was fine?”
The sting of his words took you by surprise for a moment. Growing up, you knew the king didn’t like you – your mother was supposed to give birth to a boy after all. With no male heir and a wife who died shortly after giving birth, the King never bothered to hide his disdain for you, at least in private. You had learned to not be upset by it with the years, and by the time you were an adult you both ignored each other the most you could. The sudden verbal attack for years wasn’t expected.
Squaring your shoulders for the incoming scolding, you tried to keep your voice as steady as you could. “What do you mean, sir?”
The king slammed his hand on the table out of anger, startling you. When he looked you dead in the eye with a look full of hate, you knew it was useless to try to resolve this issue with diplomacy.
“Do you think of me deaf and blind, child?” he spat angrily. “Do you think of me stupid enough to not know everything that goes around in my own house?”
Gulping slowly, you tried to appease the situation. “Sir I–”
“Do not talk back,” the king hissed as he sprung up from his chair. His face had turned redder in anger as yours paled. “Did you think you could go around my back like that?”
“Sir,” you said shakily, even though your voice tried to be steady, with all due respect, I really don’t know what you’re talking ab–”
The slap that echoed in the room cut the words out of your mouth before you could even blink. Add to that the surprise of the physical attack, and the force your father used on it, you lost balance and crashed on the floor. Your ears were ringing, head spinning as a hot, searing pain bloomed on your cheek. Trying to steady yourself on the hardwood floor, you barely even noticed the tears welling in your eyes at the shock. With a trembling hand, you reached for your bruised cheek ; a string of blood coated your fingers, fresh from the cut the sharp edge of the king’s rings had made when he slapped you. You felt your heart sink into your stomach at the sight: there was no coming back from this situation.
“Don’t make yourself a liar atop of a whore, child”, the king seethed, glaring coldly at you.
The words felt like a second punch, you almost snapped your neck looking up to him with wide eyes. The pathetic sight of the princess of Ravka on her knees with tears-filled eyes and bruised cheek made the monarch snicker in disgust.
“Did you think I’d never found out about your ridiculous affair with that bastard? That saints-forsaken son of a bitch of a knight–”
“Leave him out of this,” you pleaded with a raspy voice. The tears were heavy in your eyes and voice, but you’ll be damned if you didn’t fight for Nikolaï’s honor just like he did for you.
“I’ll have that filthy bastard’s head no matter how much you’ll beg,” sneered the king in disdain. “This is what you get when you spread your legs for the first knight in sight, you whore.”
The accusation hurt even more at the implication that you could have bedded any knight that had come across you ; Nikolaï was anything but a random knight. But your father hadn’t finished with you yet.
“And it wasn’t enough for you to fuck him, you had to marry him,” he spat with a disgusted snarl. “Just how dumb are you? You had one role in this life, to marry according to my choice and nothing else! Who would ever marry a useless slut like you now, hmm?”
Despite your firm intent to stand up for your love and union, you couldn’t help but feel a heavy lump of shame forming in your throat. Years of conditioning to your role as the princess of Ravka came to shame you: of course as a female heir, the only use you were supposed to have to the kingdom was to marry the most interesting party your father and his council would have chosen. But alas, you had failed this mission in favor of your heart’s choice.
“You’re a disgrace to this kingdom and your family,” the king spat once again. “But as much ashamed as I am with you, I fortunately have a solution to make something acceptable for us.”
Snapping your head up from the floor, you stared at him with wide eyes, fearing what he would say. “What are you going to do?” you asked with a trembling voice.
He tsked in annoyance. “Your little…fling is fortunately not known by anyone but me. I made sure of that after my spies reported your filthy sins to me.”
His words echoed in your mind once, twice, before a gasp escaped you when you realized his implications. “D-do you mean that…you had them killed?” you hiccuped.
Once again your reaction seemed to only bring more irritation to the king, who only rolled his eyes. “Did you think I’d let anyone live with that knowledge? You have dragged our family’s honor through the dirt enough, I couldn’t let anyone spread a word about this.” He glanced at you to see tears roaming on your cheeks and let out a bitter huf. “This better be a lesson for you, you ungrateful child. Their deaths are because of you, and no one else.”
“No,” you whimpered, “this isn’t true, I never wished for their deaths–”
“Enough!” the king barked, running short on his patience. “I will not hear one more word from your treacherous mouth! You will be confined in your room until I deemed so, and I can promise you that the only way for you to get out will be to be married to someone I chose to fix your mistakes!”
Your eyes widened, causing more tears to roll on your cheeks. “You can’t do that!” you cried pathetically. “You can’t unmake vows made before the Saints–”
Another rough slap cut you once again, and you gasped at the new attack. “Quiet! I don’t want to hear anything from you, whore!”. Just as you tried to ease the ringing of your head after the slap, your father forcefully grabbed your face to make you look up to his hateful eyes. “I may be unable to untie that heathen marriage of yours, but death most certainly can.”
His words tore an horrified gasp from your throat, but he carried on venomously.
“I’ll have the head of Sir Nikolaï delivered to you on a silver platter as a wedding gift, as soon as that son of a bitch returns to the palace, do you understand me?”
Against all of your might, you nodded your head weakly, tears roaming on your face. As soon as he got your understanding, the king yanked his hand off your face in disgust. As to prove a point, he immediately grabbed a handkerchief and wiped his hand clean; that’s the moment when you realized that something other than tears was dripping on your lips. When your trembling fingers brushed against your abused lip, you realized that was blood which dripped from your nose.
The king shot you another disgusted glare.
“Put yourself together, child.”
Like an automat, you clumsily managed to get up on wobbly legs, eyes lost into nothingness. You felt dizzy, numb, unable to think properly at the tragic turn of events in such a short amount of time. It was like your body acted on its own, whipping away the blood that had tickled down your face with the back of your hand in a very unlady-like manner. It didn’t matter though, considering your father had already turned his back to you to look at the window, signaling this was the end of this dreadly entrevue.
“This conversation never happened to anyone but us,” he stated coldly. “Am I being clear?”
Somehow your body responded on its own – even more surprisingly, your father seemed to have seen you nod ; or perhaps he had expected you to react like the obedient puppet you had been trained to be. You barely even noticed him calling for one of his guards and the said guard entering the room.
“Take the princess back to her rooms,” he ordered coldly. “She is to be kept there under some of my personnel guard’s surveillance at all times until I say otherwise. No one but a few personal maids is to enter, am I understood?”
Whether the guard had answered or not didn’t matter, you wouldn’t have heard them anyway. Too lost in your own foggy, broken mind, you barely even be conscious of your own moving through the halls of the palace to your room, nor the looming presence of the watching guard. It was only when they let you inside of your room, and you heard the lock of the door, that the full realization of the situation sank in with a crash.
Tears that had previously dried up came back flooding on your cheeks and you felt like you were suffocating. Trembling and dizzy, you had to lean on the wall for support as you cried. How did all of this happen?
Nikolaï and you had always shown the utmost discretion, of course ; you knew the risks. No one had witnessed your wedding but the priest who had officiated it. As a man of the church, he was sworn to secrecy, you had an absolute trust in him. Embraces, kisses and passion had always been confined to the privacy of your chambers – much to both your disappointment and safety. Outside and for everyone’s eyes, you became the princess and Sir Nikolaï once again and nothing more. So how did everything go so wrong, so fast?
Shaky fingers went to clutch the ring looped on the thin chain around your neck. Oh, how you wished Nikolaï was here with you at the moment. You craved his presence, his comfort and his love. He would have known how to comfort you, how to find a solution. But he wasn’t by your side, and the moment he’d come back would be his ultimate demise. A sob wrecked your body ; you probably wouldn’t even be able to see your love, your husband one last time.
You spent the next half hour crying, whimpering, curled on the ground against the wall. The gash in your heart couldn’t stop bleeding, forbidden to heal due to the absence of Nikolaï and the tragic upcoming of his inevitable death. Despair clung onto your soul, embedding itself to the deepest parts of yourself. Never in your life, especially after your wedding, you would have thought you’d feel like that again.
Being the princess of Ravka never prevented to have an abusive parent, you knew that better than anyone. Insults and slaps had been frequent when you were a child, whether it was for a silly mistake on your part or simply your father having a bad day. The king never forgave you for your mother’s death and you being a girl ; his parental affection had been buried deep down in the ground at the same time as your mother, it had seemed. But the years had passed, and you had learned to know better than to expect any love from the king, and to avoid his rageful fits by making yourself useful. Being a political asset by mastering the art of negotiation and diplomacy had smoothed your relationship with the king ; until today, it had been years since he last raised his hand on you.
“Your majesty?”
You jumped in surprise, startled by the sudden voice in your room. Snapping your head up, your tear-filled eyes met your maid’s worried ones.
���Are you alright, your majesty?”
The lump in your throat only felt heavier. That girl was blessedly unaware of the torment you had been thrown into. A wobbly lip and tear-stained cheeks wouldn’t fool anyone, yet you nodded weakly.
“Not really,” you rasped.
The frown of concern on the maid’s face only worsened, just to be cut by a gasp at the inspection of your own face. “You’re bleeding! Have you been hurt?”
Brushing your fingers against your nose once again you gulped at the sight of blood once again. Your father definitely didn’t go easy on you this time.
“Help me up,” you mumbled weakly, to which the maid obeyed promptly.
As a contrast to your tired numbness, the poor servant fussed in anxiety, helpless and worried about her mistress’ state. She led you to sit on a vanity, you could hear her from a distance talking about soothing tea or something. As she busied herself your eyes wandered to the reflecting surface in front of you. A wave of nausea and tears rises when you lock eyes with your reflection: half-disheveled hair and red eyes, cheeks red from both the slaps and the tears, a bloody nose and dread sinking into your bones. The woman in the mirror is someone you never thought you’d see one day – or again.
Suddenly, all the sadness and sorrow morphed into something else. Disgust. Fear. Anger. Rage. Everything bubbled inside of your chest, craving a way to get out. As your eyes wandered, trying to get a hold of something real to ground you, they landed on a little box covered in dust. Hidden behind bottles and jewel boxes, you hadn’t touched it for years.
The sight was like an electroshock; all of the sudden, you remembered what was inside of that box. And then all of those emotions raging inside you turned into even more: resignation.
“Alyosha?”
The maid immediately rushed to your side in worry. “Yes my lady?”
“I need you to deliver a message for me.”
The sun was starting to set when a knock echoed on your door. Given the context, the faintest sound should be startling you with the fear of dreadful news. But you knew exactly who it was, so you invited them to enter.
The sound of armored steps on the wooden floor and the locking of the door hang heavy in the air.
“You requested my presence, your majesty?”
You turned around to face the knight who had entered your room. Where you usually expected blonde curls and a loving smile, you met the dark hair and stern face of Sir Dominik Vertov.
“Indeed,” you said quietly – and way more calmly than you had thought barely a few hours before. “I thank you for coming, Sir Dominik.”
Polite and composed as ever, he only squared his shoulders. “It’s my watch, princess.”
Unlike his childhood friend Nikolaï, Dominik had been promoted to the King’s guard after his duties during the war. Nikolaï had been offered that place too ; he refused.
Your lover had admitted several times that he missed his best friend. Even if they both had their duties in the palace, they didn’t meet quite as often as they used to. But today, you were relieved that he and dominik had partied ways, for it may be your only chance now.
“I’m still thankful for your presence,” you said carefully. When you asked your maid to deliver a message to Sir Dominik, asking him to meet with you as quickly as possible and in the utmost discretion, you weren’t so sure he’d agree to it. After all, you were only the princess ; his allegiance laid with the king, not you.
Like reading your thoughts, the knight gave you a pointed look. This made your throat tighten; there was no need beating around the bush any further.
Taking a deep exhale, you unfold the words you had thought on for hours earlier.
“I have something to ask of you,” you started, careful to keep your voice as steady as you could. “This isn’t something easy, and I know there is no way for me to repay you for that, or even ask your forgiveness for.”
The knight frowned slightly at your words, both curious and perplexed. What was so terrible you could ask of him? Several answers came to his mind, some terrible, some absurds, but you soon cut off his train as thoughts as you declared:
“I need you to help me to take someone’s life.”
That definitely wasn’t something he expected. Dominik raised an intrigued eyebrow. “With all due respect princess, I’m not sure killing someone can solve any problem you might have.”
“Believe me, it is,” you insisted gravely.
“I’m not a thug for hire –”
“It’s a matter of saving Nikolaï’s life,” you cut him, a little louder. At your words, Dominik stopped his rambling and looked at you with wide eyes.
After a few seconds of the initial shock – both of the prospect of his friend being in danger and the princess calling him by his first name, he recomposed himself. “What do you mean?”
You gulped, feeling more nervous and your will faltering at every passing second. But you had to be strong, for Nikolaï.
“What I’m going to tell you can’t be known by anyone,” you said quietly. “Should you turn down your help on me, you have to at least swear to not tell a soul.”
The knight looked more and more confused, but strangely agreed to this. So with a deep inhale and a turn to the window, you dropped the bomb.
“A few months ago, Nikolaï and I got married in secret,” you confessed quietly, wrenching your hand together nervously. A soft gasp was heard from Dominik, but you still couldn’t bring yourself to face him. “We started a romantic relationship around a year ago, which no one knew about. Or so I thought until today.”
You could practically hear the churns turning in Sir Dominik’s head. He would be fast to understand the situation, surely.
“Someone found out,” he deduced out loud, and you nodded. “And you don’t want to be exposed.”
You whipped around at his underlying accusation. “This isn’t about my pride or reputation! If I had to throw everything away, my name, my titles and prices to be able to be with Nikolaï freely, I’d do it in a blink of an eye!”
This took him aback slightly. Even if he was a royal guard, Dominik never thought nicely of high-born morals. Even less to someone like Nikolaï and him. And that’s why he was now more concerned than ever.
“...who knows?” he asked after a few moments of silence. This time you faced him, and you could read the real question: who has to die?
The weight in your stomach got heavier, even if you had made your peace with this inevitability. “Someone who has the power to order his death,” you muttered.
You couldn’t say out loud that the king was the target ; who knows who could be listening?
As soon as it clicked in his head, Dominik’s previously composed face turned into a mix of horror and disgust.
“This can’t– you don’t mean – “
“It’s a heavy task I’m asking, I know,” you muttered.
“It’s not that!” the knight snapped. “You’re asking me to be accomplice of regicide, princess,” he whispered through gritted teeth, careful not to be heard.”
“I know,” you repeated in a quiet, yet steady voice. “But I also know that the king doesn’t make threats lightly.”
Dominik looked down; he was aware of that.
You turned to your vanity to retrieve the dusty little box. Once full of colors, it was now a faded crackled porcelain. But it was also what may be your salvation. Opening it, you carefully took a small velvet pouch, barely bigger than a thumb and returned to where the knight was standing. Dominik raised an eyebrow at you when you handed the pouch to him.
“What is it?”
“What might earn Nikolaï the right to live,” you answered cryptically. At the frown of incomprehension from the man, you could only offer him a sorry smile. “Pour it in my father’s wine, it’ll be a quick death. It’s the safest way of ending this.”
“For who, for you?” he snorted, throwing a disgusted look at the pouch of poison. “Having someone else killing your father because he had been mean to you and is forcing you to a divorce?”
His words felt like a slap once again, and your face darkened. “Divorce isn’t an option for the king,” you hissed, “It’s Nikolaï’s head he wants.”
Saying it out loud made you choke on your own words. Hearing the threat clearly from your father was one thing; realizing the actual danger by saying it yourself was something else. Dominik too, had his eyes widened at the statement. He thought that Nikolaï would have been imprisoned for his crimes, maybe whipped. But death? The king was cruel but he never thought he’d go to such lengths on one of the most faithful knights in the kingdom.
“Please,” you begged, your voice wavering as tears threatened to spill, “I can’t live without him. If anyone happened to Nikolaï I would never forgive myself.”
Sir Dominik didn’t respond. Stepping closer, you handed him the pouch once again, with trembling hands.
“If not for me, do it for him,” you whispered weakly. “I’m begging you to help me to save the man we both love.”
A beat passed. Then, the knight slowly reached for the pouch. As you felt it leaving your hand, it was like a weight in your heart was lifted at the same time. Sir Dominik stared at the small pouch for long seconds.
“How will this work?” he asked quietly.
You tried your best to not let out a relieved sigh. “Pour it into any liquid. It’ll be over after an hour or so.”
The knight nodded. “Any signs that might alert doctors before he…passes?”
You shook your head. “It’s supposed to be painless. Not easily noticeable either after the death, for what I’ve been told.”
Looking up at you, Dominik frowned slightly. “You were awfully well prepared for this situation, it seems.”
The new underlying accusation didn’t upset you like before. Instead, you just smiled sadly.
“It was never supposed to be for the king,” you said with a tint of sadness, to which he frowned even more. “Poison is said to be a women’s weapon but people often forget it might also be a painless way out for some of us.”
Dominik’s eyes widened at your words. Sensing his confusion, you darted your eyes away, the sting of long-gone memories coming back.
“Noble titles and gold never stopped anyone abusing their child,” you muttered bitterly. “No matter how fine your clothes and manners are, being called and treated like the utmost failure half of your life can make the strongest minds sink.”
You let out a shaky breath, trying to get a grip on your trembling hands. No matter how many years had passed, you still remembered every single slap and punch your father had thrown at you behind closed doors.
Raising your head a little higher to gather courage, you turned back to face the flabbergasted knight. “Thankfully I had a wet-nurse who saw through it. After patching another wound, she blessed me with this.”
“Blessed you?” he frowned.
“What other choice did I have as a woman?” you ask sadly, and you knew by the way he looked away that he understood. “It’s only a fair thing to finally use it to end this cycle of violence.”
“At what cost?”
“Thankfully not Nikolaï’s life,” you countered quietly. “But…I’m sincerely sorry it’ll cost yours.”
Dominik nodded solemnly. He knew this; as one of the king’s guards, he was among the very few people who could approach him. Maybe this poison won’t alert anyone at first, but the suspicion of assassination would soon rise. The list of suspects would be very small, and it would be only a matter of time before Dominik would be arrested for treason if someone figured things out.
So he’ll have to flee. Abandon his rank as a king’s knight, his reputation, his life. All of this to be replaced by the brand of traitor and murderer. He was willing to do it. Of course he was. Nikolaï had saved his life during the war countless times, and above that he was his best friend, his brother. If he had to run away and live a life of fugitive for the rest of his days in order to save Nikolaï, he’d do it in a heartbeat. No matter how serious the crime could be.
“I’ll be on the road as soon as it’s done,” he muttered, more to himself than anything.
You nodded slowly. The guilt that was sinking in your stomach made bile rise in your throat. “Do you…have someone who would come with you?” you asked quietly. If the man who helped you had to run, you sure would do anything to help him. But Dominik shook his head.
“We don’t have much time,” he simply said. “Nikolaï and his men are said to be back tomorrow. It’ll be done tonight.”
Again, you nodded, afraid that tears could fall if you spoke. Dominik straightened his back, and bowed.
“It’s been an honor to serve this family, princess. I shall bring with me the comfort of knowing my best friend has a woman like you by his side.”
The small smile stretching your lips at his words was a sad one. “I’ll be forever in your debt, Sir Dominik. You’re a good man.”
He offered you a sorry smile as he lifted himself up again. Both of you knew nothing would ever be the same after this night. Now bound by the terrible secret of what will come, in order to save Nikolaï.
So without a word, he made his way to the door. Just when he was about to open it, the knight stopped himself and looked back at you.
“Are you really willing to kill a king for a mere knight?”
The answer, although heavy with consequence, was immediate.
“I deeply believe that every life is equal beyond our birth and titles, Sir Dominik.”
That made him smile. “You’ll make a fine ruler one day, princess.”
You thanked him with a bow of your head. He returned it and then, quietly, slipped away from your chamber. No one heard the door click, nor did they notice a missing horse from the stables a few hours later in the dark of the night.
That night, laying in your bed, you kept your eyes open until daylight to let the last few tears of guilt run down your cheeks, thinking about the lives you has sacrificed for you love.
The crashing news of the king’s death came before Nikolaï returned to the palace.
It was a valet who discovered him, laying in his chair with eyes half closed and skin cold. Words spread fast as a doctor was hurried to the king’s side, and by the time the rumor had reached the kitchen, the monarch was confirmed dead.
A heart seizure, the royal doctor told you after he was brought to your chambers with a somber look to deliver the news. The tears and cries that escaped you hearing your father’s death were genuine, and everyone saw how deep their princess was affected. Truth was, those tears weren’t for the king; they were for Sir Dominik, the knight who had now abandoned everything to save your husband. Now the poor man was doomed to a fugitive existence, and you weren’t sure if somehow you could forgive yourself that.
The mournful look and tears did the trick anyway. Everyone was looking at you with sorry eyes for the past days, and cladded in your black clothes you played the role of the mourning princess to perfection. Two days after your father died, Nikolaï came back to the palace.
As soon as he stepped down his horse, a servant hurried to deliver him the news. It was all it took him to rush through the palace’s corridors and to your room. He bursted into your chambers unannounced, panting and face painted with worry, but it vanished as soon as he landed his eyes on you. Before you could rise up from the chair you had been reading on, your husband engulfed you in a bone-crushing hug.
Both of you clung on each other like your lives depended on it – and somehow, they were. You could even feel Nikolaï’s hand shaking in emotion. After a long, much-needed minute of embrace, he lifted his head from your neck to have a look at you.
“Are you alright?” he asked in worry, searching on your face for any sign of discomfort – apart from grief.
Instead of answering, you were staring at him, beaming. Every single detail of his handsome face, even painted with worry, sent a flood of relief through your body. He was back, he was here, he was alive. Your husband had come back to you alive and well, while you had feared the opposite for the past days. What was grief and guilt until then turned into joy and warm relief.
“I am now,” you finally whispered, still not quite believing Nikolaï was here at last.
The knight let out a shaky breath he didn’t know he was holding. Taking your hands with his, he held you close to him. “I’m sorry about your father’s passing, my love,” he said sincerely.
You could only offer him a tight smile. Nikolaï didn’t know what your father had done during your childhood. As he never lifted his hand on you for years, Sir Nikolaï had never been around to witness such tragedy. And you never wanted to share this with him; you and him deserved better than those plaguing memories.
Right now all you needed was the comfort of your husband’s arms, just to prove to yourself that everything had not been in vain.
Soon, when the time of mourning would be done, you’d publicly announce your engagement to Sir Nikolaï. Being a well-renowned and popular knight would play in your favor, the council would be glad to have him as the prince consort next to Ravka’s new queen. Soon, you both would be free to be married once again and be never afraid of loving each other again.
Soon, everytime you’d see Nikolaï’s face and smile, you’d convince yourself that it had been worth every sacrifice and lie. When the guilt would creep up on your mind during sleepless nights, you’d face them with the knowledge and conviction that you had no choice. Even if that meant losing good men or forcing fate.
Nikolaï might have been your bodyguard before becoming your husband, but as his wife you’d burn down entire cities and behead dozens of kings to keep him safe. That was a promise and a choice you’d intend to keep at any cost.
sorry it sounded better in my head *sob*
#shadow and bone#shadow and bone imagine#nikolai lantsov#nikolai lantsov x reader#nikolai lantsov x you#nikolai x reader#sir nikolaï#knight!nikolai#knight nikolai lantsov#angst#nikolai lantsov angst
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Nikolai: What do we call overthrowing the government? The Darkling: A hobby. Nikolai: The Darkling: Nikolai: The Darkling: That I do not engage in.
#Ivan: nice cover up sir#shadow and bone#shadow and bone incorrect quotes#nikolai lantsov#the darkling#aleksander morozova
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I WOULD’VE FOLDED
#shadow and bone#shadow and bone season 2#shadow and bone spoilers#nikolai lantsov#alina starvok#SIR FORGET ABOUT HER#JUST TAKE ME
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"Ah, Nik, wait!"
Nikolai turns back around at the sound of the Captain's voice.
"You're going to make me miss my flight," he pretends to complain, not able to keep himself from smiling.
Price rolls his eyes. "You're the one flying your flight back home."
Nik chuckles. John looks annoyed, but clearly it's not directed at him if him relaxing in his presence is to be believed.
"Anyway, I won't keep you long, I just need you to teach me how to say something in Russian."
There's a terrible idea rising in Nik's mind. He tries to ignore it at first.
"There's this guy, he's a fucking asshole and I'd like to tell him to go fuck himself in his native language."
He nods distractedly at Price. But it would be the perfect moment... He leaves right after that, after all... And John wouldn't understand right away, he'd have time to go hide somewhere.
"Right," he clears his throat and smiles at Price. "I can do that, sure. Repeat after me, try to remember the words : я -"
Price squints his eyes in concentration. He looks so fucking cute that Nik could die.
"Ya -"
"влюбилась"
"Woah, okay, vl...vlyoubeelas?"
Nik's smile is growing. "Good," he says, voice lower. Swears that John's cheeks are redder than they were before. Interesting. "в"
Price frowns. "Just 'vv' ?"
"Да. And finally, тебя."
"Tyebya."
Nik's heart is starting to beat a bit faster, apparently just now realising what he was doing. There's no going back now.
"Now the whole thing : я влюбилась в тебя"
John's brow furrows more in deep focus. "Ya vlyoubeelas vtyebya."
Damn, that makes Nik's cheeks warmer and his smile wider. He knows that Price doesn't mean it, doesn't even know what it means, but if that's all he's going to get, he's going to cherish it inside his heart.
He isn't sure John will want anything to do with him when he'll look it up, after all, he hasn't survived this long by having too high hopes. His smile softens and he nods at his friend.
"Not bad. Remember the words."
Price huffs. "Of course I'll remember the words. Now go, wouldn't want you to miss your own chopper back home."
Nik laughs and shakes his head as he turns around and walks to his helicopter. He stops before climbing in, turns his head back towards the Captain.
"Oh, and John, don't actually tell him that, he has no right to hear it."
He knows Price well enough to know that he's sighing right now, but he's too far to hear it.
"What did you even teach me?" He asks in a jokingly tired voice.
Nik grins back at him. "You'll have to look it up, зайчик."
#cod mw#captain john price#cod nikolai#nikprice#prikolai#nikolai just has the kindest eyes ever they look like a baby cow's eyes#and he has a very nice smile#i love him#anyway#i'll go back to ghostsoap content in a bit i swear lmao i also have a ghostsoaproach thingy in the works because bug boy needs love#also i've checked on ao3 and the number of nikprice fics is horrifyingly low that's a crime#and yeah i gave price a praising kink it wasn't on purpose but i think he deserves it#i think he'd be a mess if nik held him and praised him for all he's done and he couldn't escape the kind words and just had to soak them in#cause i don't think anyone except his gay bestie laswell regularly tells him he does a good job#like gaz and soap and even ghost are all looking up at him with stars in their eyes and they definitely think he does a good job#but they don't directly tell him even if he does know they think that#& tbh if nik looked at me with his kind eyes and told me kind things i'd cry imagine if he does that to someone he loves and who loves him#qsjfqiohgqksjfqo#if you want to know who in these games i think has a praise kink i can tell you#alex for sure i'm convinced he was flustered during all his missions in mw 2019 (also has a calling people sir/ma'am in the bedroom kink)#price apparently but only if it's by someone he considers an equal in rank and experience#bc then he'd know the person knows what they're talking about and isn't just talking nonsense#soap but he needs to be made to feel like he deserves it or he just cries because he has *issues*#ghost sometimes when everything gets too loud; but he generally prefers to give praise than receive it bc it can feel too raw#i think rudy has a giving praise kink tho like alejandro is pretty normal about praise but rudy loves drowning him in it until he's soo red
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I kind of want Nikolai to pop out of the floor and quietly scoop up Sigma to take them out of there though...
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nikolai’s the kind of fella to go downstairs for a glass of water and return with three nutella sandwiches, a plate of plums, a bowl of halloween candy and an entire thanksgiving turkey
#he’ll reach the top of the stairs and then and ONLY then will he remember what he actually went down for#and the entire decay looks at him like. sir#nikolai gogol#bsd nikolai gogol#nikolai gogol bsd#bsd nikolai#nikolai bsd#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#bsd [rat edition]
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um? my heart? is his?
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i live for ur knight nikolai writing. can i request a drabble ab the barmaid and him getting closer after marriage and maybe some smut if that’s ok? thank uuu
“Stop it!” You giggle, jumping away from Nikolai. The two of you are absolutely covered in flour—head to toe—and he keeps trying to wipe it onto your face. “It goes in the BOWL!”
“It slipped out of my hand!”
“It did not!”
The two of you’d been attempting to bake bread together, a task you did on your own weekly. Nikolai, however, saw your valiant efforts to create a culinary masterpiece as an opening to harass you as much as possible. He chased you around your kitchen as you squealed, dodging his blatant attempts to douse you in flour.
“Nikolai please—!” You gasp suddenly when you trip but he’s there already, one arm looped around your waist to pull you up. His move causes you to be pulled flat up against him, your faces inches apart. “…thanks.” You breathe, your face hot.
He smiles down at you and allows you to back away, cheeks still pink.
It’s been a week since he kissed you. A week since all you could think about was how his mouth felt against yours. It’s all he’s been thinking about too, even if he’s made no attempts to repeat the action. He’s giving you space and allowing you to come to him, he wants you to come for him but anyways and you appreciate the respect.
Then the day comes where he approaches you, a guilty expression already on his face. You’re in the middle of ranting about how apples aren’t in season anymore when you see him, your voice catching in your throat.
“What is it?” You ask, setting the kitchen towel you’d been cleaning with down. “Nikolai—“
“I have to go.” He says, moving a step closer. “I have to go back to the palace. The king has let me leave my post for long enough.”
You still and turn away, your throat immediately tightening with the onslaught of tears threatening to fall. You’d known this would happen eventually—he’d leave and the ruse would be up, leaving you alone again in your cottage. You’d continue working at the tavern while he continued serving the kingdom until he found a new, real wife.
His hand touches your shoulder and you sniffle, avoiding his eyes.
“Y/N,” he starts slowly, carefully maneuvering you to face him. “Y/N, look at me.” When you do, his expression is as pained as your own. “This—this doesn’t have to be it for us.”
You stare.
“What?”
He tucks your hair behind your ear and leans down, pressing a gentle kiss to your temple.
“Come with me.” He murmurs. “Come back with me to the palace. Please.”
“But my house, I—my life, I—”
“There must be some way you’ll come.” He pleads, cupping your face in his hands. “I know you didn’t marry me or stay with me because you wanted to but I—“ he takes a ragged breath and touches his forehead to yours. “I’m..I care about you.” A pause. “I lo—”
“No.” You interrupt quickly, taking a step back. “Don’t say it.”
“Y/N—”
“Don’t!”
You move past him and walk quickly to the front door, only stopping when he dashes around you to block the exit. His hands are held up in supplication as you glare, his expression pleading.
“Y/N you are my wife.” He breathes, eyes darting across your face to gauge your expression. “Even if—even if we didn’t…oh damn it.”
When he moves forward and kisses you hard you stumble back a step. And then you’re clutching his shirt, yanking him closer to you as both of your mouths part and he brushes his tongue against your own.
You gasp as his fingers dig into the sides of your waist, his kiss practically devouring you. He kisses like a man starved and you’re breathless by the time he gives you even an inch of space, your eyes half-lidded as you look at one another.
“Marry me.” He whispers, nudging his nose against yours. “Want you to be my wife forever. I want to be yours.”
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The first time he actually takes you is when you’ve got a ring on your left hand. Upon marrying you he’d resigned as captain of the guard, allowing himself to work basic village security with a small group of other knights that lived locally.
Instead of the palace he’d made your cottage his home, seeing as to how you’d been hesitant to leave and move into a vast castle. The two of you settled into casual domesticity; he’d die for you, spoiled you, and you were his sweet wife that he could come home to at the end of the day.
You find yourself pinned under him, whining and moaning as he thrusts into you slowly, making sure to take his time to let you feel every inch of him. His fingers are laced with yours, holding your hands down beside your head as he rolls his hips against yours.
You’re pretty sure you’re mumbling incoherent nonsense at this point, unable to make eye-contact or glimpse the smirk that’s on his face.
Sir Nikolai, your husband.
Yours.
(I would’ve made longer smut but I’m saving the big guns for a different post)
#shadow and bone#nikolai lantsov#nikolai lantsov x reader#nikolai x reader#shadow and bone imagine#knight nikolai lantsov#sir nikolai lantsov#sir Nikolai
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When Nikolai said
"Adventure? Danger? Now your speaking my language."
Oh my saints
#on my knees#sir#nikolai come home the kids miss you x#nikolai lanstov#netflix shadow and bone#shadow and bone season two#shadow and bone s2#shadow and bone netflix#shadow and bone
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Price: Simon… please tell me you didn’t eat the bread on the table
Teen!Ghost: I did. Why?
Price: There was mold on it!
Teen!Ghost: Huh… that’s why it tasted a bit off
Price: why are you so calm about this?!
Nik: It’s just a little mold. It won’t kill him
Price: *stares at Nik gobsmacked*
Teen!Gaz: Guess we know who he took after
#nik the bad influence#nik: don’t want to waste food do we?#teen!ghost: no sir#simon ghost riley#john price#cod nikolai#kyle gaz garrick#incorrect quotes#teen!ghost au#cod mwii#modern warfare ii#call of duty#dad price#dad john price
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Nikolai dressed in Streltsy clothes !!
Honestly, I don't understand why they weren't given this outfit in the movie (that's the most common uniform I've seen for the Streltsy). I like it a lot actually (although I love the one they wear in the movie !!). I just want to know where they got the inspiration/base to make Ivan's men's outfit.
I'm just as lost as this dude:
#Believe me. I spent some time researching on this subject.#Yet I didn't get any satisfactory answer :/#What I found was always the same: Streltsy wear an outfit similar to the one I drew Nikolai with.#But I'm sure there's a reason why the costume designers of the movie gave them those clothes!! I just need to find it.#<- That's what I've been saying for the past 4 months :')#Oooh But I won't give up so easily. No sir! >:)#Nikolai Pokrovsky (OC)#Sergei Kovalevsky (OC)#natm OCs#Scketches because I've got no time to do better for now :')#my drawings
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Me debating on the amount of angst I shall pour into the next Knight!Nikolaï one shot I'm working on
#none shall survive I'm afraid#“Should I be a part-time cruel author or a fully proud bitch?”#sir nikolaï#knight nikolai#knight nikolai lantsov#au#shadow and bone#shadow and bone imagine#nikolai x reader#nikolai lantsov x reader#nikolai lantsov x you#knight!nikolai
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