#shut it lun

[readenheim]

Now I know Bram's going home with Aya to whoop her dad's ass until he behaves properly

[readenheim]

This but I also know the dark version of it. Like A starting to feel it fade and accepting that maybe they can be okay even if it's not meant to be .. and then B loving them so much all of a sudden..so so so so much..maybe too much .And A starts feeling guilty for not being at the same level of love anymore because.. isn't this what they wanted ? And now that they do and B is still such a wonderful person why isn't it just perfect? shouldn't they be swimming in happiness? Are they too greedy ? is that why they're not satisfied? and they can't just let B know because they're just so wonderful .. if they were to feel hurt because of them it would only prove how much of an awful person they are.And B sometimes notices B is not as happy as they thought they'd be . So B starts doubting themselves. And A knows it and knows it's their fault..

And so A fell first , and B fell harder but neither can admit the fall hurt.

!!!!!!!

[halfassaultedbrain]

This is a proposal rejection scene

and she's clearly enjoying it.

[sttm99]

Bakugo falling for a 'popular' girl.

Sometimes Bakugo felt stupid for falling for you. Not that there was anything wrong with you, or that you weren't up to standard. Quite the opposite. Quite frankly, you were out of his league.

You were one of those crazy pretty Management Course girls that had boys and even girls falling at your feet. You were so used to being hit on and flirted with, it was like you were desensitised to it.

He'd held open the cafeteria doors for you one afternoon, much to the amazement of his friends. They gawked as he stood near the door, holding it open for you and one of your friends, and instead of receiving some blushy words of appreciation, you just muttered a dismissive thanks and walked through without sparing him a glance.

He stood there for the next few minutes, fists clenched by his side, head turned down with wide eyes and red cheeks, whilst Kirishima, Kaminari and Sero guffawed.

Then he looked back up in your direction, and watched as some random boy literally ran over to pull out your seat for you, and another had even gone to get your food tray so you wouldn't have to.

He paused.

Was that what he was competing with?

How would you ever notice him if every other boy in school practically worshipped the ground you walked on?

He began brainstorming, with the help of Kaminari, because he was considered to be the more romantic one of his friends.

"You just keep proving why I was right to call you Dunce Face!" Bakugo yelled at his blonde friend, cursing at and dismissing every single idea he'd been given.

"I think Kami's actually got some good stuff, Bakugo. You're just picky." Sero defended.

But of course Bakugo was picky. This was you! He'd watched you, studied you, despite how creepy that sounded. He knew the things you'd scoff at and scorn, and he knew the things you wouldn't even bat an eyelash at.

"You're all idiots!" He yelled at them and stalked over to his room, slamming his door shut behind him and pacing the space.

It was later that evening, that Kirishima had pulled him aside and told him to just be forward with you.

"Just go talk to her. Like, actually talk. Not opening the door, or pulling out her chair and expecting her to fall at your feet. It doesn't work that way."

Bakugo contemplated it, turned the idea over and over in his head. He nodded at Kirishima's words, deciding that would be what he would do.

He wasn't some blushy boy that couldn't get any words out once in your presence, and he wasn't some entitled brat that thought he deserved your favour for doing the bare minimum.

He was better than all those idiots. And he'd show that.

The next day at school, he caught you on your way to lunch, stopping you and asking for your time.

"Sorry," you began, your pretty, fake smile making its way to your lips as you looked at him. "But I'm really in a hurry right now. Maybe later?" You said softly.

He knew that wasn't true. It was a tactic you used, the same sequence of words you gave all the boys so as to avoid stupid confessions like his.

But he was better than them.... he'd show you.

"Please," he said, resisting the urge to bite at his lips at how uncharacteristic of him this was. "I just- I want to ask you something."

You sighed softly, looking at the girls by your side and urging them to walk forward. They did, but not before offering Bakugo sympathetic smiles, as though they knew you'd reject him, as though they knew he'd come out of the conversation with a broken heart.

"What is it?" You said to him, one hand on your hip and your weight on one leg. "I really don't want to miss lun-"

"One date." He blurted out quickly, wanting to go through with it before any nerves caught up with him. He wasn't used to this; asking girls out, flirting, courting. He'd never participated in the stupid, juvenile acts of romance with his peers, when everyone was just realising that the opposite sex wasn't all that disgusting.

He didn't know how to do this, but he wanted you, badly.

"A date, huh?" You said with a slight smirk, pushing away the strands of hair that had fallen over your forehead.

You could admit the blonde haired boy standing before you was attractive, very much so; with wide shoulders and bulky arms, and a sharp jaw and intense red eyes.

That, and he was Katsuki Bakugo. A student notorious for his refusal to indulge in romance with his peers, considering himself above it, and finding the whole ordeal to be a distraction from his goals. That driven, obtuse boy was standing here asking you for a date.

It swelled your ego just a bit.

He nodded. "One date. I-"

"You do realise that you asking me for a date doesn't exactly make you stand out from all the other boys." You cut him off with bored eyes.

He almost gapes at you.

"They all do this, ask me out cause they think they're better, or different from the ones that hold the door and pull out my chair. I reject them. All of them. Why shouldn't I reject you, Bakugo?" You ask.

He steels his resolve, taking a step to you, almost dwarfing you in his height and mass. He's big, and he knows it.

"You know my name. Do you know the names of those shitty idiots that drool over you?" He raised a brow.

You scoffed. "Even if-"

"You should know that I'm never one to play games. I don't believe in wasting my time. I want to spend it with you..., because I like you. Even if I don't know you all that much, Yn. One date. Let me prove it. That I'm worth it."

You stayed silent for a moment, a little smile tilting your lips upwards. "A restaurant date... cause you're making me late for lunch. So the good stuff will be gone."

He chuckled softly, the sound rich and throaty. "I'll give you anything you want, Yn."

You smiled at that. "Really?" You teased.

He took another step to you. You could smell his cologne now, could see some of the little blemishes on his pale skin.

"I'll give you everything. Whatever you desire."

You nodded smugly. "I like that. Good."

"So...?"

"When's the day?" You smiled up at him coyly.

"Saturday. I'll pick you up at 8?"

You nodded. "Alright then. See you Saturday, Bakugo." You offered him a small wave as you walked past him, making your way into the cafeteria.

[haifoct]

Xiao Zhuo, Li Lun, and Ying Lei adventures at Tianxiang Pavilion incoherent ramblings.

Anyways, I was rewatching FoF (as one does), and episode 21 — on a rewatch, when you know damn well Li Lun is possessing Bai Jiu's body — is hands down one of the funniest, pure comedy gold episodes that the series has to offer.

It's almost offensive how blatant they were about Bai Jiu being Li Lun here. Fashionista Li Lun woke up, and decided he's not going out in those EW clothes smelling of his cousins herbs. That vomit of every colour out there and a nest for hair are NOT sexy. All white for a dignified gentleman like himself.

They point out the change in his outfit, and we don't question it because Li Lun (despite people here claiming he doesn't understand humans) knows it would be a big deal for a teenage boy to visit a place like Tianxiang Pavilion. Dressing more maturely feels natural, and Li Lun gets to slay in all white yet again.

Li Lun: Must change. Li Lun: No one will notice. They will think this loser is excited, good plan.

Li Lun's face is priceless here. There are only two options: either Li Lun seeps through and is genuinely offended that this baby mountain god he remembers acts like this ("why crave attention from human? disgusting. ZHUO YICHEN LOOK AT ME"), or he understands the affections Bai Jiu holds for Xiao Zhuo-ge, acting his ass off even when no one is looking.

I like the first option as an explanation, because Li Lun DOES seep through quite often in this episode.

It looks fun, he said, like a fucking IDIOT.

"Oh shit."

"Shit. Did Zhuo Yichen notice? Shit shit shit shit."

And he continued to fuck up. Those were small details, but I genuinely couldn't stop laughing at his loser ass.

He tugged Xiao Zhuo's bells too hard, actually tugged Yichen back. His movements are harsher, stronger than Bai Jiu's. Bai Jiu tugs at Xiao Zhuo's sleeve or bells gently, and when it is in fact hard, it's usually Yichen trying to walk and Bai Jiu staying behind.

"FUCK. I tugged too hard." LI LUN, YOU DORK.

He tugged so hard Yichen's ribbon came undone. "I fix this. It will be alright it's part of my plan."

Unfortunately, ribbon does not stay put anymore.

Li Lun's honest reaction to this turn of events. No control over his face or strength whatsoever.

Ying Lei and Li Lun's moments have a very special place in my heart. They bounce off each other so nicely, and you can absolutely tell that Li Lun was having fun.

His shit eating grin. Sometimes I wonder if this is what Li Lun did when he was a baby.

Zhu Yan: Let's see human world! Li Lun: sure! Zhu Yan: Yaaaaay! Li Lun: Yaaaaaay! Zhu Yan, at the gates to the human world, turning to his bestie: Li Lun, this so exciting — Li Lun? Li Lun! Li Lun, back at Kunlun: snoozes, sunbathing.

Li Lun entered the pavilion as we know it, and saved his Ge, not forgetting to be a massive dork about it.

He once again pulled Xiao Zhuo real hard. Yichen went WOOOOOSH.

Well saved, Li Lun! Unfortunately, his precious Ge scolds him, but not without remembering to thank Li Lun for his hard work first.

I know for a fact that this was Li Lun seeping through yet again. "If it weren't for me, Zhuo Yichen!"

Yichen was utterly hilarious in that moment too. He took a moment to catch his breath, like being touched by a bunch of women was the worst nightmare he'd ever experienced. He's finally free, the worst day of his life. They're comedic duo we deserve, I will never shut up.

And I LOVE that Li Lun never forgets to hold his Ge by the...well, he does forget that he’s supposed to hold him by the bells, not Yichen’s fucking belt.

Xiao Zhuo: What the — ? Bai Jiu usually holds the bell, why is he holding the belt? *confused Zhuo Yichen noises*

Li Lun is such a DORK. They share one braincell for the three of them. One braincell dream team.

Previously, everyone ignored Ying Lei's attempts to high-five his friends, and isn’t it the cutest that Li Lun was the one to give him a high five? Although he was surely shocked to experience friendship: "*GASP* a high five from a friend?"

Well done, Li Lun! Thank you for your service, you little dork. I will never stop calling him that.

I just love the three of them together so much. It makes me happy that Li Lun got to experience what real friendship feels like, and these two were the perfect candidates to show him the light and welcome him into their home.

This episode is my comfort place now, a better world where they get to be friends and form a perfect one braincell dream team.

[cakepoppresent]

I'm a Grown Ass Woman

Malcolm is veryyyyyyyyyy demanding. It's very much his way or no way

Transcript under the cut!~

Previous - Next

[Luna]: Should we go back home for Winterfest? It's been a while

[Malcolm]: Go back and do what? Spend the rest of the year with Dad? Don’t be dumb

[Luna]: It was just a suggestion you fucking bitch.

[Malcolm]: We haven’t been back in years why go back now?

[Benji]: That sounds like fun. We can all go back. My dad has been bothering me to meet up with him anyways

[Luna]: Stop being such a fucking downer. We don’t even have to go back home...we can stay in town or something. Rent a house I don’t know but lets just go back

[Malcolm]: Why the hell are you so interested. What’s back home for us anyways

[Luna]: Benji, sweetie can you get some beers for Malcolm and some wine for me please?

[Benji]...okay. Malcolm...behave yourself

[Malcolm]: Shut the hell up! Luna. What’s the issue?

[Luna]: Malcolm. I’m going to say something and I need you to not react. Let me finish speaking

[Malcolm]: The way you’re starting this conversation is already pissing me off.

[Luna]: I didn’t even say anything!

[Malcolm]: I swear to god Luna this better not be about Andre. I swear to fucking god

[Malcolm]: We can dead this conversation right now. Forget all about Andre and going back home and not piss me off

[Luna]: Too bad.

[Malcolm]: Luna what the fuck

[Luna]: Listen, Malcolm. I love you and that won’t ever change but I also miss Andre. I worry about him, he’s not doing okay...how can I just ignore him

[Malcolm]: Easy. Just forget that he exists, follow his example and never bring him up again

[Luna] I don’t think I can do that Malcolm.

[Malcolm]: Omg Luna why are you acting so dumb? Andre never cared about us just leave him alone!!

[Luna]: Watch how you fucking speak to me. This isn’t me asking you for permission, this is me telling you I’m going to reach out to Andre and figure out what happened.

[Malcolm]: Jesus Luna. Why can’t you just drop it. Who cares about Andre?!

[Luna]: You aren’t fucking listening! I care about Andre! I do! Im worried Malcolm what if something went wrong. What if Dad made him leave!

[Malcolm]: That’s even MORE of a reason to leave him alone! Dad is scary! You’re being so fucking stupid!

[Luna]: You know what? I'm leaving, I don’t have to sit here and let your bum ass talk to me like this.

[Malcolm]: Fine! Then leave!! Since you don’t wanna listen to my fucking advice

[Luna]: I'm a grown-ass woman and don’t need my brother telling me what I can and can’t do. I’m going to see Andre and you can mop all you want about it

[Malcolm]: Is that fucking right? Weren’t you the one who said it would always just be us? You already breaking promises by reaching out to Andre. You’re a liar!

[Benji]: Please let’s just calm down so we can figure something out. Malcolm you know that's not true

[Malcolm]: It IS true! Look she wants to leave right now! So let her leave!

[Luna]: I’m saying it again since you aren’t fucking listening. I love you and would never put Andre above you, but he’s suffering out there and we don’t know why and I can’t just leave him. He’s my brother too...

[Malcolm]: I don’t wanna hear it!

[Luna]: Fine. I said my peace. Call me when you stop acting like a damn child

[Malcolm]: Whatever! Don’t call me when this all blows up in your damn face!

[Luna]: Whatever you big ass baby.

[Benji]: Lun-

*Door open and slams shut*

[Benji]:...fuck..

[ethereacals]

"fallin' for ya"

sirius black x danceteacher!reader

summary; romance blossoms between you and (whom you would never admit) your favorite student's brother (he has custody over her) after she tells you all about what he tells her Uncle Remmy.

warnings; sirius black has an adorable little sister, reader is a dance teacher, shy sirius black, romance

a/n; i assistant teach for the younger kids at my dance studio, and I came up with this fic during class, lol.

Part 1!

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"Good job, girlies! Have a great weekend!" You called out to the array of 7-9 year olds standing on the dance floor. They all started to pack up their things, a young, curly blonde haired girl came skipping up to you, smiling adorably up at you.

"Ms. Y/N! Ms. Y/N!" She jumped up and down excitedly. "Yes, Luna?" You turned around to face her. "My big brother wants to know how old you are!" You crouched down to her level, "Your... Brother?" You wanted to make sure you heard her right. You'd certainly seen her brother, and he was... not bad, (ifykyk). "Yeah! I overheard him talking to my Uncle Remmy about how pretty he thinks you are, so I thought I'd help him out by asking you how old you were!" She explained, It was cute, but your mind raced a hundred miles per hour as you tried to comprehend what this little girl was telling you. "Well... tell your brother thank you..." You struggled, trying to find the best way to respond, clearing your throat. "How old is your brother, Luna?" You questioned, seeing as all the other kids had gotten picked up by parents. "He's... twenty!" She answered with a smile. "Tell your brother I'm nineteen" She squealed, giving you a sweet hug and running off to the door, but stopped before reaching it. "Are you married?" She tilted her head to the side. You chuckled softly, "No, Luna" She squealed longer and louder before running off to Remus.

"Hey, Luns, how was class?" He held her hand through the parking lot. "Good, I talked to Ms. Y/N for Siri." She shrugged happily. "Oh? And what did you talk to her about?" He chuckled, looking down at her.

"I asked what age she was,"

"Why?" He chuckled

"Oh, You know! Just to make sure she was close to Siri's age."

"Oh." He responded, surprised

She sat down in the car, talking Remus' ear off. "I seriously think I've found him a girlfriend! She's gonna be my sister!" She squealed

"Dont get ahead of yourself, Luns." He reasoned, "They've barely spoken, No?" Sirius was gonna be pissed.

They opened up the door to Sirius' flat, She obviously came skipping in. "Siri! Siri!" She called, running up to hug her brother. "Hey, Dove. How was your class tonight?" He asked with a sweet smile, He had the biggest sweet spot for his sister. "So good"

"OH! By the way, Ms. Y/N says thank you, and that she's nineteen"

"S-Sorry?"

"And shes not married"

"Luna!!"

"What? I was helping you."

"You told her?? Luna!"

"Sorry, Thought you thought she was pretty~"

"Shut it, Luna!"

And Sirius Black was left blushing the rest of the day.

Fin.

[reigningqueenofwords]

Mother's Day

Pairing: John x Reader Word count: 1,130

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John rolled over, ready to pull you close and wish you a happy mother’s day. It was your first together, and he was excited to spoil you for the day. However, he was met with you already out of bed. The more he woke up, the more the smell of breakfast registered to him. He quickly got out of bed, worried that Dean was trying to cook you something. Again. He was thankful that his 8 year old adored you, but would rather him not get hurt by cooking. 

“Baby?” John furrowed his brow when he saw you in the kitchen cooking. You were already dressed, and you already had your favorite apron on. Sam and Dean were already in the living room watching cartoons. “Why are you cooking breakfast? And what time are the girls getting here?” Your two daughters were at their father’s that weekend, and he assumed they’d be joining for mother’s day. 

You looked at him, confused. “Why wouldn’t I be making breakfast?” You asked him, shrugging a shoulder before you flipped a pancake. “I make it every morning. And I get them tomorrow after school, as always.” 

He glanced at the calender. Was it not mother’s day? “I’m supposed to make you breakfast with the kids today. It’s mother’s day, so why wouldn’t the girls be here?” He started making his way to you to take over the cooking. “How about you go relax?” 

“That doesn’t change anything.” You tried to shoo him. 

“Yes, it does. You take care of me, the boys, and the girls when they’re here. Let us take care of you for a day. I get you’ve been single the past few years, but you’re not anymore.” He rubbed your back. 

“Whether I’m single or not changes nothing. It’s just another day. I’ll get breakfast made, eat, get the dishes from breakfast done, sort some laundry, read a bit, make lunch, clean up after lun-” 

“What the fuck?” He snapped, making you jump and look at him. “You’re telling me you’ve been a mother for 11 years and you’ve never had a mother’s day off? You’ve never gotten to relax while other people take over? You’ve never had someone make you your favorite dinner?” He didn’t like that one bit. 

You shook your head. “I’ve gotten a card once or twice. Or when the kids were younger they’d bring home something from school.” You’d stopped caring, honestly. “I pick what I’d like for dinner, and I buy what I need beforehand.” 

He pulled out his wallet. “Go get yourself a manicure, a nice new dress, whatever, sweetheart.” He handed you a few twenties. “Relax, get pampered. Me and the boys are going to make this one hell of a mother’s day.” You opened your mouth to protest, but he raised an eyebrow at you, making you shut it. “We love you, and this is the first mother’s day they’ve been able to celebrate in years.” He said softly, knowing that would mean more than him telling you that you deserve it. “It’s Sammy’s first ever.” He added. 

Nodding, you handed him the spatula, and took the money. “Okay, okay.” You said softly, chuckling. “I’ll go.” 

John’s face lit up. “Good girl.” He winked, smirking as you blushed. 

You’d done exactly as John told you. You’d gotten a manicure, found a cute dress on sale, a lollipop for each kid, a box of brownie mix to make John, and a couple things for the kitchen you’d been really wanting. “I’m home!” You called out, toeing off your shoes.

“Yay!” Sammy came running to hug your legs, making you smile. “Did you have fun?” 

“I did, but I’m happy to be home! I got you something.” You crouched, setting down the bags as the other two Winchester men came in. “A lollipop for you, sweet Sammy.” You handed it to him. “And a lollipop for you, dear Dean.” You held it out, smiling when he rushed over for it. “And after these two are in bed, I got dessert for us.” You told John, standing. 

John grinned, happy you’d been able to take time for yourself. “The girls will be here about dinner time.” He informed you. “I called him and explained today is Mother’s Day, and you should get the girls for at least part of it. He finally agreed.” He left out the part he told your ex he’d give him money to take out his new wife as a treat. What could it hurt being civil? 

“Oh, John!” You hugged him. “Thank you!”

Hearing a knock at the door, John went to get it, leaving you to continue playing cards with the boys. A moment later, your 11 year old and 9 year old came running in. “Mom!” They yelled happily. 

“Girls!” You gushed, holding them both closely. “Let me finish this round of go fish with the boys, then we can all play something.” You beamed. 

“I’m gonna go start dinner, sweetheart.” John smiled from the doorway. He fell more in love with you every day, watching you with the kids. 

That night, the pair of you had made the boxed brownies, and enjoyed them with ice cream. “Thank you for today, John.” You laid your head on his chest as the pair you got into bed that evening.

“You deserve the world, sweetheart.” He kissed the top of your head. “But I was wondering if there was something I could have with you. Two things, really.”

Shifting so that you were lying on your stomach, you had an amused look on your face. “I’m sure I could agree to that if you’re thinking the same way as me.” You flirted, making him laugh.

“Oh, shit, sweetheart. I got lucky with you.” He said happily. “Not what I had in mind, but I’ll take that, too.” He licked his lips.

“So, what does my dear boyfriend wish for?”

“For starters, I don’t wanna be called your boyfriend anymore.” He started, making your face fall. “Kinda hoping I could be called your fiance?”

It took a moment for that to sink in. “Yes!” You gasped, all but jumping on him to kiss all over his face. “Wait, what’s the other thing?” You asked, sitting on his thighs, your hands on each sighed of his head.

“How’s about we have a baby of our own?” He rubbed over your thighs. “Sammy is about to start school, and I wanna see you with a little one we created.” Hell, he didn’t know if you wanted more kids, but he sure hoped you did.

You couldn’t help but smile lovingly at him. “I’d love nothing more than to have a baby with you.” You cupped his cheek, rubbing your thumb over the stubble. 

[starrywyatt]

chapter 8: on a mission to help my tragically single friend 

☆ never saw it comin'- a george clarkey story ☆

! THIS STORY READS BEST IN DARK MODE !

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madison's pov:

i wake up the next day and can feel my head on a surface that is not as soft as my pillow normally is. i open my eyes and realise it's rested on someone's chest. what the fuck happened last night? i look up as high as my eyes allowed without moving head and i recognise the beard, oh my god it's george. thankfully, i can feel clothes on my body and it looks like he's fully clothed too so i hope i didn't drunkenly throw myself onto him.

i hate how my first reaction to this scenario is to smile to myself and i don't really want to move, so i just try to go back to sleep. a few minutes later, i can feel george stir underneath me and determine how i should play this. if he's not interested, then he's probably going to be really weirded out by this position but i have no recollection of the previous evening and how drunk he was. i decide to also slowly wake up as i didn't want to leave him uncomfortable for long. "morning" he says, slightly laughing, probably out of awkwardness. "good morning" i look up and laugh also, his arm was still firmly round my waist so i guess he's not too weirded out. "please don't be freaked out. you were like really drunk and scared you'd in quote 'choke and die' on your own sick, so i stayed with you" he explains, making both of us laugh. "oh no! i'm so sorry" i say, bringing my hands up to hide my face. "it's fine. you don't snore so could've been a worse sleeping arrangement" he says. "what time is it?' i ask and he has to stretch over to the bedside table to reach his phone, causing me to fall off his chest and the sudden lack of warmth from george makes me shiver slightly. "jesus, it's half 1!" he says, laughing slightly. "in the afternoon?" i ask, rubbing my eyes. "no, we slept for 20 hours, it's the next day" he says sarcastically. "no way!" i join in. "how are you feeling?" he asks, turning over to face me. "i can feel a headache pending" i say. "i did try to feed you paracetamol- wait that sounds wrong" he says, laughing nervously. "great, you brought me here and drugged me" i joke. "pretty much" he shrugs and thankfully i can tell he's joking. "well, thanks for looking after me. i really appreciate it, god knows where i'd be if you didn't" i laugh. "head first in the thames, you had no idea where you were heading" george says, making us both laugh.

we get up for the day and i get back changed into the outfit i arrived in yesterday whilst george used the bathroom to brush his teeth and then we swapped over. "can we both agree to say i slept on the floor to avoid the questioning?" george says before we exit into the kitchen. "agreed" i nod and we see abigail and chris cuddled on the sofa. "oh hello you two" abi smiles. "afternoon" chris jokes. "ha ha, funny joke" george rolls his eyes sarcastically. i walk over and dive onto the sofa next to abi, ruining their romantic moment. she hugs me, looking slightly disappointed i broke them up. "did you sleep with him?" she whispers in my ear, referring to george. "what the fuck, no" i whisper back. "i heard that" chris says at a normal level, causing confusion to george. "have you guys eaten?" george asks chris and abigail. "yeah mate, we had time to eat 2 meals before you guys woke up" chris says. "oh shut up, i literally had to carry you home like 3 weeks ago" george says, causing abi to turn to chris in joke disappointment. "he's lying!" chris says.

"madi, do you want something to eat?" george asks from the kitchen. "umm, i don't mind only if you're having" i turn round from the sofa and smile. "fuck we have like no food in" george says, rummaging through the cupboards. "no worries, i can run to the shop?" i say, feeling bad he was going out of his way for me. "um alright then, i can come with you?" he says and i agree. "why don't you two just go out for lunch? saves the hassle of cooking" abi suggests, smirking knowing exactly what she's doing. "yeah could do actually, could ask max and andrew if they're free?" george suggests and part of me does feel a little bit sad to not spend time with just him but it makes it a bit less awkward. "yeah, sounds great" i smile and he goes to his room to phone max.

"i know what you're doing!" i whisper and point to abigail and chris and they both just laugh. "i don't know what you're talking about!" abi shrugs. "it failed anyways" i say. "i know, bloody max and andrew" chris says. "to be honest, makes it a bit less awkward" i shrug. "you didn't look very awkward last night" abi raises her eyebrows and thankfully, george walks back into the room. "they're coming here in 20 minutes" he smiles. "great, i might just quickly put on some makeup, abi can i borrow some of yours?" she says yes and i go into chris' room to touch it up.

george's pov:

i suggested max and andrew come because i didn't want to make madi feel awkward because it's essentially a date if it's just us two? well, no we're just friends but ugh i don't know, i felt awkward.

madison reappears and we head down to meet max and andrew. i did knock on arthur's door to see if he wanted to come but he was too tired. we walk outside and max and andrew were waiting for us. "glad to see you're alive" andrew jokes, referring to madi's previous drunken state. "god, don't remind me" she puts her head in her hands and we all laugh. i suggest joe and the juice and everyone agrees. i notice madison flash a small smile to me and i reciprocate. i chose it as i know she likes it and i also wanted to faintly remind her of our encounter about a week ago.

madison's pov:

we make it to the cafe and george immediately heads to the toilet because he forgot to go before we left. "so, is this a double date? what's going on?" max asks, smiling widely. "what? no! i promise you guys, literally nothing is going on" i say. "do you know what? i actually do believe her. you know how bad george's rizz is" andrew says, looking to max. "i still don't believer her!" max laughs and thankfully george arrives back to the table. "we'll go order and then you guys go?" max suggests so we don't lose the table.

it was now just me and george. "how are you feeling?" george laughs, referring to the after effects of my drinking. "not too bad surprisingly. headache is definitely there, but so far no sickness" "do you remember anything after getting home?" he asks. "i don't even remember getting home!" i laugh. "oh dear, to be honest you were in a state" he laughs. "it's max and arthur's fault" i laugh. "yeah i'm a bit scared of how you're going to cope on tour with arthur, you two are going to be off the rails" he laughs and max and andrew arrive back at the table with their food, so we head to the counter. "what you getting?" i ask george. he tells me and i relay to the cashier before telling them my own. "pay when you're ready" they say and turn around to make our drinks. "i'll get it" george says. "no you won't" i say and we begin arguing back and forth as we both try to put our cards down and i snatch his out his hands and pay. "that's for last time and letting me sleep in your bed" i smirk, saying the last part quietly and he rolls his eyes in defeat. "thank you" he smiles. "you can carry the tray though" i smile and he just shakes his head, laughing but does it anyways.

we sit down and begin to eat, making general conversation. "so when does tour start? two weeks?" max asks. "just less than 2 weeks now" i say, pulling a nervous face. "excitinggg" andrew says. "need to get my sequin outfit ready" george says. "oh my god please!" i say and everyone laughs. "yeah, no way is that happening" george says. "ugh you're so boring" i roll my eyes.

we finish up eating and head back to george's flat. max and andrew had to head home for a meeting. "for fuck sake, did you not get me anything?" arthur sighs. "you sai-" george starts but arthur cuts him off, laughing "i'm joking." "are you ready for tour rehearsals tomorrow?" i ask arthur. "shit, is that tomorrow? i forgot it was the 26th today" i nod and can see the panic on arthur's face. "it's fine, at least you don't have to remember like 13 dance routines like i do" i sigh. "yeah, i'm not jealous" he laughs. "13? jesus" george sighs. "yeah mate, it's a full on show"

abi appears out of chris' room, they kiss goodbye causing the rest of us to audibly gag and then we head home as i need to get ready for rehearsals tomorrow and abi had an audition.

george's pov:

as i head to bed that evening, i scroll instagram and my algorithm still thinks madison is my only interest. however, one post catches my attention.

how did someone even get this photo? i didn't even notice it being taken. however, it was funny watching people speculate what was going on with me and madison because even we don't know but hopefully people realise we're just friends.

the next week is busy for all of us. madison and arthur are in full swing for tour rehearsals and i have been doing some filming with the sidemen for their channel and side plus. however, me, chris and abi decide we want to throw a surprise party for madison and arthur after their first london show to celebrate the tour starting.

i open instagram and the first post that pops up on my feed is from madison of her and arthur in rehearsals and it made me realise i have actually missed having both of them around.

abigail had been staying with chris this week to help us plan the party but also because madison wasn't home much and she felt lonely apparently. she walks into the kitchen, "oh george, are you going to the gym today?" she asks me. "yeah probably" i reply, washing up my plate. "omg, could you do me a massive favour, i left some stuff at the flat that i need for my audition tomorrow. madison should be there later, could you grab it off her and bring it back here?" she ask. "yeah, no problem" i smile, secretly happy it gives me an excuse to see madison. "does she know i'm coming?" i ask. "umm no, i can tell her?" she says. "no it's fine i'll text her" i say.

i get changed and run to the gym, before texting madison i'll be there in the next hour.

i finish my workout and head over to madi's. "hello i'm outside" i say on the phone. "coming down" she says and within a couple minutes, the door swings open. "hey" she says, smile as wide as always and pulls me in for a hug. "sorry i'm a bit sweaty" i laugh. we go upstairs, "how's rehearsals been?" i ask. "stressful, tiring, everything aches but it will be worth it" she laugh. "i can imagine, can't believe how quickly the tours come around" i say. "i know, 5 nights to go. i'm terrified" she says, turning to stir the saucepan that's on the hob. "i'm making dinner by the way if you want to stay? i doubt abi's coming back tonight so there'll be spare" she suggests and i would love to but i've not showered since the gym and become conscious that i probably don't smell too great. "i would but i'm probably not the nicest smelling company right now" i say. "you know i do own a shower?" she smiles. "i mean i guessed so" i laugh. "you can shower if you want? dinner will be like 20 minutes" she suggests. "i mean only if you're sure?" i say hesitantly. "yes, i'll be bored eating on my own. i'll grab a towel for you" she says and goes to her room to find it and returns with soft, clean towel.

she shows me how to use it and leaves me to shower. thankfully i keep spare clothes in my gym bag.

madison's pov:

truth is, i didn't want george to leave, i hadn't seen him much recently and my anxiety has been through the roof with tour coming up and other family issues and i knew he would be able to take my mind off things. it's also pretty boring without abigail.

"thanks for that, very good water pressure you have" george says jokingly. "thank you, i appreciate the feedback" i laugh. my god, he looked good with wet hair. madison, pick yourself up. "do you need a hand with anything?" he asked, standing near me. "no, i'm just about to plate up actually" i smile and he sits down waiting patiently, i place his plate down in front of him. "thank you very very much" he smiles. "no problem, arthur says you live off deliveroo so i thought you should get a home cooked meal" i say. "oh did he now? i don't think i've seen him cook since we moved in!" george laughs. "i can't lie we've been eating really bad at rehearsals. too many mc donalds have been consumed" i laugh.

we finish up eating and george insists on washing up, although it ends up causing more chaos as he knows where nothing goes in the cupboards. "no! over there" i say, pointing at the correct cupboard and we both laugh.

"umm, my youtube home page tells me you filmed a 100 vs 1 video recently" i say, teasing george. "oh god, yes maybe i did" he says, looking embarrassed. "do you want to watch it with me?" i laugh, jumping on the sofa, turning the tv on. "noo" george sighs, but sitting down anyways. "wait if i'm on your home page, you must be a fan" he tries to turn the embarrassment to me. "yeah, fan of calfreezy. it's on his channel" i shrug and george admits defeat. truth is, i've never watched a calfreezy video and have definitely watch a few if not all of george's videos. we sit next to each other and i can see george is tense and laughing nervously.

"hey guys, welcome back to my channel! today i'm on the mission to help my tragically single friend, george clarkey find love or at the least a shag, he really needs it" cal says, tapping his shoulder. "i do" george sighs. "tragically single is mean" i turn to george laughing. "i don't know if i'm going to be able to sit through this!" he says. "so george, i have to ask what your type is?" cal says. "well, ideally someone not in the industry and i guess my track record is blonde, short girls" he explains and i feel my heart sink, he basically just described the exact opposite of me. "this was filmed ages ago, i have forgotten what i said" he laughs but i'm still distracted by his last comment but i try play it off cool. "shall i go buy some box dye?" i point to the door, jokingly. and i have no idea where that joke came from. "what?" george laughs, missing the joke so i just say it doesn't matter.

we continue to watch george embarrass himself in front of tens of stunning girls. "oh no, this next part is so bad" he says, putting his head in his hands. "i think my phones broken, can you call it to check it works?" the girl asks. "sure" george says but goes to grab her phone, missing the whole joke. "nooo, i can't look" he says and buries his head in my shoulder and i continue laughing. i pat his head sarcastically comforting him. "that's actually so embarrassing. i want to die" he says, lifting his head up. "hmm i'd more suggest a 2 week vacation with no contact to anyone" i shrug. we finish the video and he ends up going on a date and picking the final girl, who is conveniently a blonde model and then i realise... omg it's erin. that's how they met! they go on the date and he's feeding her grapes and wine and to be honest, it's kind of a hard watch for me and we mostly sit in silence, thankfully the video ends soon after.

"have you spoke to erin since?" i ask and george turns to face me. "not really, i'm not interested anymore but i'm just trying to let her down gently" he shrugs. "why not? she's gorgeous and clearly your type. not famous, blonde" i list the qualities (that i don't have).

george's pov:

i didn't want to watch the video with madi because i knew how it ended, me with erin. and i also remembered the blonde and not famous comment i made. and to be honest, i wasn't lying but they cut out the part where i said i didn't really have a type, just that the last 2 girls i'd spoken to were blonde but i truly had no preference. and the non-famous comment i made was true but i feel like madison has shown me that maybe i wouldn't mind dating someone in a similar industry but i couldn't explain myself because then it makes my feelings obvious. "i mean yeah, but i don't really have a type. i don't know, she's a nice girl but something just felt wrong, it's more of a personal thing" i shrug. "i get it, i've become a lot more emotionally unavailable since thomas cheated" she shrugs and i have to use context clues to realise thomas is her ex. "yeah that must suck. i think my biggest issue is, i've given so much to the wrong people. like i trust people too easily and now i find it hard to trust at all" i say and then realise maybe i'm saying too much. "god that got deep, sorry" i laugh nervously. "no, it's fine it's nice to see a serious side of you" she smiles, readjusting her seated position and it somehow ends up being closer to me. "you'll know when the right person to trust comes around. that's why most of my boyfriends have been friends first because what do you mean you're jumping into a romantic relationship with someone you don't even know. scary. or you're going on hinge dates with people you've known for 24 hours" she jokes about my catfishing experience. "wow, that was aimed" i laugh. "if the shoes fit" she shrugs.

after a few moments of silence, madison turns to face me "do you trust me?" and i can see sincerity in her eyes but i can also tell she feels slightly awkward asking it. "yeah, definitely. i've never really told anyone what i just told you" i say, smiling. "well i appreciate your honesty" she says, smiling. "hug?" she asks. "ugh if i have to" i roll my eyes jokingly. she sits up slightly and basically sits in my lap and we hug tightly, neither of us seeming to let go. "i'm so lucky to have a friend like you" madison says before we pull away and i can see tears in her eyes. "are you okay?" i ask. "yeah, sorry i think the hormones, stress and lack of sleep all caught up with me" she laughs and i wipe a tear from her eyes and then panic that was too forward. "everything is going to be okay, i promise" i say looking in her eyes sincerely. and she just nods and i can see more tears threatening to fall from her eyes, so i hug her again. she grips me tightly and i never want her to let go.

[alipeeps]

Episode 20

Goddammit Bai Jiu, you had better be pulling a double agent thing like Pei Sijing turned out to be or I swear I will never forgive you!

This flashback montage of how he lied to everyone is giving me the rages.

I can't help thinking about him just the previous episode telling Li Lun that Zhu Yan (who had gotten himself trapped in a demon-suppressing cage in order to protect Bai Jiu) "Zhao Yuanzhou is my best friend". Grrrrr...

Ugh, and the flashback montage of how he sealed Zhu Yan's senses is even worse! You sneaky, devious little shit, Bai Jiu.

Fuck's sake, they've been working towards this from the very start, right down to the list of people to be on the team...

I keep feeling like there is information that either I have missed or that simply was not presented in previous eps? Last ep they said Pei Sijing was the Prime Minister's representative - and I was like, eh? Since when?

And now Wen Zongyu says she's the Prime Minister's bodyguard?! I don't remember that ever being mentioned?

Oh fuuuuuuck!! So it WAS Chongwu Camp running that clinic with the imprisoned demons 8 years ago...

And 8 years later it is still the ever-burning wood - that Zhu Yan accidentally absorbed back then - that Wen Zongyu is after!

Well, the little shit does at least look a bit conflicted...

And.. right, okay, I watch a lot of cdrama, I know this is just how it goes, it's very common to have scenes where they stand around dramatically talking about their schemes etc and almost kinda waiting for the next move/attack to be made etc but really?

You've had it laid out in explicit detail that all they need to do is use a needle to seal your sense of touch and that's it, kiss your core goodbye, but you're still gonna just stand there and watch and wait for them to come at you with the needle? You could turn around and be out that fucking door in a heartbeat dude, why don't you?

Oh SHIT the entire room is painted with demon-suppressing charms?!!

Dude, just fucking RUN then - you can outpace a fucking 13 year old, surely?

Annnd now you can't do that because the cavalry has arrived to cut off your exit.

Pleeeeeeease tell me we're gonna get one of those famous GJM flashbacks where it turns out they suspected something and they planned for this?

Ayyyy teleport device for the win!!

And from the sigh of relief, Bai Jiu did not want to have to do this. But that doesn't fucking change that he has been doing it right up until this point.

Uhhhh is that not the Prime Minister's carriage that previously stopped for "Wen Xiao" who was blocking the road? Why is it now seeping blood as it passes along the street...

I guess Not-Wen Xiao was hungry eh?

Ahh Zhuo Yichen, Zhuo YIchen...

Yeah best not to pin your hopes on maybe's... this is a cdrama after all...

Situ's mansion? Am I having memory lapses again? That sound's familiar but I can't think why...

Oh and presumably it's because of Mr Situ who has just arrived in a panic. Can we assume the guards are here to arrest Wen Xiao for eating the Prime Minister?

Hold up, it's Chongwu Camp that have come for her? How come they keep coming around to enforce things on behalf of the Prime Minister?

Oh ya think?!!

Oooh she's clever...

Oh she's VERY clever! Ask Mr Situ to hide you in his mansion... where you can then search for the divine wood!!

Oooh dontcha just wanna punch that smirk off his face?

This fishpond is so fucking extra and I love it so..

Oh you've got a wife hidden away in a sealed fucking room have you bro? Bedridden and sensitive to light and wind, is she? That doesn't exactly explain why the room is literally sealed shut?!!

Oh and was that a glimpse of the inside of the room with branches in it?

Oh wtf wait is Mr Situ Bai Jiu's dad?! I hadn't connected the names before. So the mystery wife who is sealed away is Bai Jiu's mum? The one who we've previously seen footage of Bai Jiu crying outside her room as branches spread out from under the door? Is Mrs Situ a pagoda demon as I have previously theorised?

My god these two. Zhu Yan's like.. didn't expect you to be the subject of a city wide hunt.. impressive! And Wen Xiao's like... why shouldn't I be.. are you doubting my ability to excel?

Is poor Zhuo Yichen now the only one who doesn't know about Bai Jiu? Shouldn't somebody maybe clue him in?

Why would the crime scene carriage be sent to Demon Hunting Bureau when it's a) Chongwu Camp who are charged with arresting the alleged perpetrator and b) Demon Hunting Bureau could well be assumed to be biased in favour of Wen Xiao and not objective in assessing the evidence?

Yeah why has he been carrying that copy of the book around all this time?

Check out Sherlock fucking Holmes here making deductions about the owner of this book based on its appearance...

Ahhh finally the penny has dropped for Zhuo Yichen that they've previously encountered a demon who was able to appear as Wen Xiao...

Ayyy it's our favourite mountain god!!

Oooh you clever boy, you purified the yao water? Plan "repair the baize token" is back on track!!

Aaaaand yup Ao Yin is the demon Li Lun released from the cage at the clinic 8 years ago...

I sure hope that confidence is warranted. Maybe you should be... ohh I dunno... looking at how to unseal your 4 senses so that you are not still vulnerable to having the last 1 sealed?

And didn't I fucking say that somebody needs to warn Zhuo Yichen about Bai Jiu? Cos here the little fucker is and Zhuo dage has no fucking idea that he's a Chongwu Camp traitor.

Yeah you better run you little shit.

Oh man, that's badass. I love when we get a reminder of just how powerful - and scary - he really is.

Oh wait, lemme guess, Wen Zongyu promised him that whatever skanky research he is performing with demon blood - and that he needs the ever-burning wood from Zhao Yuanzhou for - can cure whatever's going on with Bai Jiu's mum?

Goddamn this kid is such a good actor though. It's killing me that we may never get to see his portrayal of Xia Sini/kiddy Chu Wanning in Immortality - he will have fucking nailed it, I'm sure.

FUCKING CALLED IT!! That bastard promised him to save his mum if he joined the Demon Hunting Bureau and sealed Zhu Yan's 5 senses.

Oh fuck the baby Xiao Jiu actor is super fucking cute!!

Uhoh is that a blood moon? Is it (again!) the same one from 8 years ago where Zhu Yan wigged out?

And did Bai Jiu's pagoda spirit mum also lose control of her powers during that blood moon?

Oh dang so his name is Situ Jiu and he chose Bai Jiu when he went to train under Wen Zongyu.

And again Wen Zongyu said his mum was killed by a demon. Is that a mis-translation? Like... is she ill... or dead?

And I still think she was not so much killed/made ill by a demon as... she is a demon and she lost control/something went wrong...

She's not dead or ill she's.... a tree!

Fucking knew it!

What on earth was the point of keeping this from him all this time though Mr Situ? Ffs...

Ah-ha!! Mummy was not just a demon, she was half-demon, half-god, like Ying Lei... and that's why Bai Jiu had divine power... and why the pagoda demon said he was lying when he said he was human...

Oh wow, she's proper old school demi-god too, as old as the gods...

Ah fuck so it was the same blood moon and it was the disappearance of the baize token that injured her and made her revert to her true form. So... presumably fixing the baize token might also fix her?

(And if she is descended from the same source as the divine wood... would wood from her tree form serve as the divine wood needed to repair the token? And is that why the clues about the divine wood were rumoured to be hidden at Situ mansion?)

That is a very good fucking question.

Why the FUCK didn't you tell your goddamn son what was going on Mr Situ, instead of leaving him hurting all these years and wide open to being manipulated by the bad guys?!!

You fucking tell him Zhuo Yichen.

Fucking kid's got more guts and responsibility than any of you bloody adults.

But Xiao Jiu, sweetie, can I please recommend that you put all of your clever medical knowledge to immediate use to fucking unseal all that you've done to Zhu Yan so that he is no longer vulnerable to being sealed by a single fucking needle?

Ah fuck... was that ending Chongwu camp closing in on them while they were all having a heart to heart?

[readenheim]

ofmd tag making my Tumblr app crash idk what happened congratulations to the lgbtq+ community

[paingoes]

Rubies

First Night

welcome back everyone

(Content: fainting, reference to past captivity, blood)

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He collapsed onto the deck. Apollo caught him just before he could crash to the ground. The silver chains clattered loudly on the metal surface. Delta was freezing, soaked, and now fully unconscious. The ramp slammed back up just as the ship was pulling up.

“Destroy them!” Kitty cheered at the console.

“I’m working on it,” Rene looped the ship back around, letting out another volley. The airship was mostly on fire, but it still hadn’t fallen out of the sky. The last round finished it off. It went into freefall. The airship was briefly a normal ship and then just as quickly it turned into a shipwreck. The resulting column of water reached their windshield from several stories below.

“Get the collar off,” Apollo said, bending down to feel Delta’s pulse. Cass slid the bolt cutters up against his skin.

“Oh fuck, I think I nicked him,” Cass gasped. A massive psychic wave ripped off of Delta’s body as the collar was removed. All of them got electrocuted. 

“Oh my god, you people can’t do anything,” Iza put her hands on her head. 

“Throw the collar out,” Lun whispered, “Into the sea.”

Willow cracked the window open, tossing it out. It beeped miserably on its descent.

“Put the dampers on. He’s going to show up on every radar in a five-mile radius otherwise.” Iza gave the order, but she started to fulfill it herself. She slid Delta’s sleeve up, wrapping the insulating band around his upper arm. Immediately, the pressure in the ship went down. The light returned to normal. 

“The cuffs,” Apollo said impatiently. Cass cut through the chain binding Delta’s wrists. They bent down to cut off the manacles, this time just missing the skin. They tossed the cutters aside and pulled out a small ammeter from their pocket. They touched it to Delta’s clavicle. It burnt up immediately. Cass dropped it in pain.

“That can’t be right.” Willow said, a look of horror crossing her face.

“I knew it,” Apollo shook his head, “We’re so fired.”

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Iza bridal carried Delta into the house. Rene held the door open for her. He walked ahead to turn on all the lights. It was an older safehouse; they’d only got it running again earlier that morning. There were still cobwebs in the corners and outlets that didn’t work, but at least it was heated. 

“I’m not getting fired,” Rene said peevishly, “I didn’t do anything. Lun should get fired.” “Lun carried,” Kitty’s sharp teeth flashed when she smiled. She wrapped her arms around Lun’s neck, “They should be promoted.”

“Don’t send the report yet,” Iza called out to Kitty, “I need a minute.”

“Just put him on the floor for right now,” Apollo said. The two of them moved into the guest bedroom. Iza placed Delta down gingerly. Apollo dug through the dresser, pulling out a towel and a clean set of clothes. He nudged the door shut with his foot, keeping the others from seeing in.

They stripped the wet clothes from Delta’s unconscious body. Apollo redressed him in an oversized shirt; it was the easiest thing they could do without having to maneuver him too much. Iza raised him up onto the bed. 

“Alright, I’ve got it from here. Thank you,” Apollo said. He looked up. A sudden urgency entered his voice. “I mean it. Thank you.”

“Happy to help,” Iza said unhappily. 

“Tell them it’s my fault,” Apollo said.

“You know that’s not how it works. I’m a big girl, sunny. Don’t worry.” 

Iza shut the door before he could argue.

Apollo sighed as he looked over the dormant form in front of him. He reached out to touch Delta’s wrist, checking the pulse in an almost self-conscious manner. Still alive. You’d be forgiven for thinking otherwise. Apollo examined the wrist; he noted its odd angle. It was fractured, if not broken. He winced as he looked closer at Delta’s face. Inflamed claw marks raked one side of his cheek. There were matching ones along his forearm. He knew the salt water had probably helped to stave off infection, but he doubted that was a painless process. Some of them were still bleeding minutely. 

He was most concerned about hypothermia. The safe temperature ranges varied across species. He suspected Delta was better prepared for it than most. Still, the plan had not been for him to fall into the ocean on a freezing night. His skin was clammy. Apollo wrapped the blanket around him. He sat next to him on the bed, taking a moment to check over vitals and jot them down in his journal. He patched up the deeper cuts along Delta’s forearms and cheek, as well as the new one on his neck. He saw the ring of bruises around where the collar had been. They were layered one on top of the other. After a moment’s consideration, he went about making a wrist splint. It was surprisingly difficult when the patient was still unconscious, but he managed to tie it up tightly. It wasn’t pretty — none of it was — but it would hold him over until they could get back to base. 

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“He still out?” Kitty looked up from the laptop. Her fingers still danced along it automatically. It was like they operated completely apart from her. She could carry a whole conversation while typing out a completely different one with someone else. 

“Yes.” Apollo turned the microwave off before it could beep. He removed the compress. 

“I’m gonna send it now!” Kitty’s voice rose up, carrying throughout the house. There were a few sounds of assent, some of protest. She giggled at the reaction. But as she turned back to the screen, Apollo caught the subtle way in which her smile faltered. Her tail flicked beneath her. It was all bristles. She looked up at Apollo, searching for something. Permission? Approval? Reassurance? 

He nodded, squeezing her shoulder gently. It was too late to go back now. She hit send.

Apollo felt a bit like he was cheating by hiding out in the room with Delta. It was a good excuse. When Galatea did review the report, nobody would ask to speak to him first. And if they did, well, he was obviously pretty busy at the moment.

The only thing was that he wasn’t actually that busy. Delta was low maintenance. He had not stirred at all since they’d found him. His heartbeat and breathing were steady, if a bit too slow for Apollo’s comfort. He was just cold. Apollo pressed the compress against Delta’s chest. He brushed the still damp hair out of the boy’s face. Delta made a soft, pained noise. Apollo winced.

“It’s okay,” Apollo shushed him, “You’re okay.”

He didn’t know if he’d heard him, but Delta nuzzled deeper into the pillows, pulling the blankets up around himself.

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Delta only woke once that night. He wouldn’t remember it. At the time, he didn’t think it was real.

He slowly sat upright, his movement hindered by the pain in his ribs. He did not know where he was. But it was dark. He was freezing, despite the warmth of the room. Everything hurt.

His eyes gradually adjusted to the dark around him. He just made out the shape of the door. It was ajar. On the other side, a single unblinking olive-green eye peeked through. 

Delta squinted at it. There was nothing he could do to make sense of the situation. He didn’t care. He immediately fell back asleep.

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(Masterlist)

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[sevasey51]

I would love prompts

“have you been crying?” “no.” “please don’t lie to me, i care about you.”

and

“i feel so stupid.” “don’t ever feel stupid for having a normal reaction to a situation that you couldn’t control.”

with Chris and Luna! Would be amazing thanks love 🤍

It’s him and his girl against the world.

Your favourite dynamic duo is back, I hope you guys enjoy 🫶🏻

Warnings: just Luna being sad anxious, and overthinking her exam results and softy! Dad Chris is back 🥹 we love him, semi destructive behaviour *just an outburst that Chris has to deep pressure hug Luna to help her calm*

It doesn't take him too long to figure out what's wrong with Luna, even if she's shut herself down.

He comes up to her door, listening for any signs of crying or distress, "Luns, Bubba can I come in" he asks as he knocks on the door.

"Mhmhm sure Dad let me just put this away" her voice cracked as she tried not to give away anything to her dad because he didn't need to know.

Little did she know he hurt that little crack loud and clear, it hurt him that she was hurting, he opened the door it creaked as it opened bringing more of Luna's room into view, he made a mental note to oil the hinges later. "Hey love.. he asked inquisitively pausing when he saw her puffy red face "Have you been crying?" He asked.

"No!" she snaps out of frustration not releasing what she did until she snapped at him

Chris was taken aback by the way she reacted but he knew it wasn't on purpose. He padded over to her bed, her face covered in blankets. Hugging her lightly, taking a deep breath, taking a moment to calm down he looked at Luna with all the love in his and said "Don't lie to me, I care about you".

That just breaks the floodgates down, tears running rapidly down her face clouding her vision, the outline of her dad, and the blurry outline of a certain ginger and white patchy dog. She feels stupid, so stupid it's not even a reason to be this worked up over it, it's just classic Luna.

It was just a simple exam, just a simple f**king exam and she couldn't even wait for the result.

Turns out when she thought the next thing, she was thinking out loud, *I feel so stupid." She stuttered at the end, and then she thought *Nope I didn't just say that out loud stupid*. Her heart sank at the look on her dad's face. Here comes the spiel of boosting her confidence, it always works though.

"Luna, why would you say that, hmm?" He looked at her in disbelief.

It was getting destructive she was eating herself from the inside out with the thought she needed, out of her head.

"Because I am stupid! It's a stupid test result and I can't seem to not just do it normally, I have to pull a

'Classic Luna' she says mockingly, and overthink everything single. The thing I do!" She shouts, at what or who she didn't know.

He grabs her gently as she has her outburst into the general world, once again the gates break and the tears stream rapidly again.

"Shhh, hey hey... It's okay. It's okay sunshine. He whispers into her ear trying not to move her from where she's nestled in his neck. "It's okay, Luna you should never feel stupid for a situation that is out of your control, love you regardless of the result Bubba. Regardless of anything you are still my best girl, you are the best daughter. The smartest and most confident person in the world, and I know Scott would say you the best goddam niece ever too." He laughed as he tickled her lightly to get a smile out of her.

All in all, she's the smartest and sweetest girl he'll ever have the privilege of being a parent to, and that's all that matters to him.

It’s him and his girl against the world.

Hey there loves, I’m glad to be back posting proper content again kinda, i just wanted to say a massive thank you to you all for all of the support and love as always, I hope you enjoy 💕

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[randomingoftherandomness]

hello gab!! i love the way you fleshed out lizhuo's dynamic in the modern day. so much longing!! so much misunderstanding!!! I'm the one who made the ask and was so confused when zyc showed up when i asked for lizhou (li lun x zhao yuanzhou), then i remembered how common it was in this fandom to misspell zhuo and zhou 😭😭😭 i swear i can spell correctly. however, im still delighted by your work ans was very happy to read along anyway, no matter what pairing you write ❤️❤️❤️🫶🫶🫶

A/N: Oh my god... I am so, so sorry. This one is a thousand percent on my dumbass. Please blame this on my wrung-out brain that was already falling asleep when I wrote that in bed and my sometimes inability to read and process information correctly... Here. Have the correct one!

I am so sorry, Nonnie.

Your local spicy lemons peddler is an exhausted potato from all the irl work and Lunar New Year prep she is doing haha

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Zhao Yuanzhou shifts a little in his seat and does his best not to bristle when the therapist drawls out a measured, "What an odd thing to say."

He resolutely steeples his fingers over his knee, ignoring how he can feel Li Lun's eyes catch on the glint of his wedding band with the motion. It's a defence mechanism at this point, and everyone in the room knows it, but Zhao Yuanzhou is petty enough today that he doesn't care when he sees the therapist begin to make little scribbles on her notepad.

"What about you, Mr Li? What do you have to say to what Mr Zhao just said?"

Li Lun scoffs, rubbing his hand over his lower face. His long lashes flutter when he blinks, frowning at the large floor-to-ceiling windows. "What can I say? If my own husband thinks me being a terrible husband is reason enough to divorce me--"

"I never said that!" Zhao Yuanzhou hisses. Irritation bubbling out of him in an unstoppable tidal wave of emotion.

"Then what did you mean--"

"This! You not listening to me, not hearing me! This is why we are divorcing--"

Li Lun snaps his mouth shut. Jaw twitching and he looks everywhere but Zhao Yuanzhou. He feels a small burn of despair at the knowledge that there won't be any progress being made today from this point on if not any more progress at all.

But as if living to be contrary, Li Lun speaks, low and soft, and for a hopeful second, Zhao Yuanzhou thinks he can see the man he married.

"I do listen. I do hear you. I'm listening when you tell me that you want to do more with your life when we enrol the twins in kindergarten. I hear you when you're telling me you want to go out and rejoin the workforce, that you want to start contributing to the household, and I am so proud that you want to."

Their therapist interjects with a tilt of her head. "I'm sensing a 'but', here."

Li Lun physically measures his words, sighing as he continues. "Is it wrong that I want my husband to have a comfortable life? Is it wrong that I want to have him take it easy, that because of his support, I can achieve the success I have in my career? That I want to let him relax and do whatever he wants without having to worry about money?"

"But this is what I want?" Zhao Yuanzhou says. Without hesitating, he bridges the space on the sofa between them, grabbing Li Lun's hand. "I chose to support you in your career back then because I wanted to. I chose to be the stay-at-home dad because I wanted to, and now I'm choosing to restart my career because I'm satisfied that all will be well when I do. I know you can support me and the kids, that we never have to worry financially, but I want this for myself. Can't you see that?"

Li Lun bows his head. Moved by a bright bolt of fondness and love that cuts through the simmering tension that had been building in their marriage since they started arguing about how Zhao Yuanzhou wants to go back into the workforce, he reaches out fully to his husband, tugging the big old fool into an embrace.

Strong arms wrap around his waist and he tucks a kiss to the side of Li Lun's head. Breathing in deep, relief fills up the spare spaces of his heart when he hears Li Lun murmur wetly into his shoulder, "I really don't want a divorce."

"I don't want one either. Why did anyone think we were gonna get one, is beyond me."

The thrill of the alarm signifying the end of their session has them slowly pulling apart. When they both turn to look at their therapist, she has a box of tissues held out to them, smiling knowingly. "I would like you guys to work on this. Start planning out what life will look like when Mr Zhao is back at work and Mr Li needs to pick up the slack a little at home." Closing the notepad on her lap, she nods at them and how they're pressed close to each other as if bereft to be parted.

"I think you'll both be fine. I have full faith in you."

[yoondepity]

when I said "let it go li lun" I did not mean it like that, man shut tf up I can barely see the fucking screen through my tears

[paincomes]

how does delta feel about sex?

*cracks knuckles*

lots of ways.

delta grows up deliberately isolated and all his attempts at making connections are very quickly shut down. he isn't given any guidelines for appropriate interactions with other people and has no idea what affection is really supposed to be. he doesn't know how relationships are formed with other people.

but delta reads a lot. i think he uses it as a form of escapism, though he's also self-critical enough to not really let himself indulge in the fantasy. he keeps himself at a distance from other people but also at a distance from the concept of connections in general. i think he has a lot of curiosity about them, maybe, and can see how they work between other real people, but he's accepted he can't really have it for himself.

nevertheless i think he is curious about them and he learns everything about relationships and sex out of a book basically. and his understanding of it is in theory fully formed by the time he's an adult. but i think the way he primarily relates to it while he's younger is through a fear of rape and of violation. this is an unfortunate truth but i think this is just what happens when you're repeatedly denied any bodily autonomy from birth. before he could really feel anything like desire, he is going to feel fear about what may be done to him.

delta is mildly scared of paris for this reason. i mean i think delta is mildly scared of everyone for this reason, but paris in particular has no qualms about putting his hands on delta, so of course delta is like...nervous about it. i've mentioned this before but i feel like delta gets rape jokes a lot just because he is gnc in a visibly submissive role and everyone thinks this is really hysterical. these jokes scare the fuck out of him.

it never comes to this. as far as paris is concerned, everything is perfectly chaste, and he'll actually get pretty mad if you insinuate otherwise. but for delta it's...a little more complicated. the particular mix of adrenaline and dopamine and fear chemicals, the desire to please and to perform well, and the way paris is so damn physical with him...it's a lot. it's also pretty much the only physical contact delta has. he has a mixed fear/desire/arousal response. paris permanently fucked up the reward centers of delta's brain and there's really nothing anyone can do about it.

after delta is moved into a safe environment, things change slightly. delta's desire for connection and intimacy REALLY come out just as soon as the slightest opportunity is afforded to him.

i think in Stars, its really obvious that delta associates pain with service with intimacy. it's why he lets Lun feed off of him. he wants to be useful and he wants to be close. this is one of the first things he does in recovery, even when he's too scared to really come out of his room, he's still willing to risk himself to experience it. delta has a very, very strong desire to be with people.

(this is true in platonic ways, as well. i think its really rare for kitty to not be hanging off his neck or holding his hands or just generally being very cuddly w him which he's really receptive to. he's so touch starved.)

the way i see it is that further into rubies, delta has a really strong desire to make up for lost time. i think he's fairly sexual active for that reason but if nothing else he really just dates around. i think he learns pretty quickly and is very enamored at the way that people are just...nice to him on first dates. he dates very casually because he loves the positive attention it gets him and the way that people treat him delicately/tenderly. he likes sex because he gets to touch another person and it doesnt hurt and he doesnt have to feel alone all the time anymore.

there are still associations for him though. i think different people bring different things out of him. i see him as being pretty vanilla with most people and just liking intimacy for intimacy's sake, but he does have some expected fixations on control and pain.

i think he does a surprising good job at managing the impulse to hurt himself or to be subjugated and he's okay at putting this into the right channels. he's probably kind of embarrassed at the fact he stills wants to be controlled and feels kind of anxious and gross about that desire. like questioning whether or not it was actually abuse or if maybe it all was okay after all because if it wasnt then why do i feel so strange without it???

and this isnt a non-issue for him! i mean it comes up. but it doesnt really dominate his whole perspective on sex, its just a sub-aspect of it. generally delta seeks out and enjoys sex and sees it as a way of reclaiming the bodily autonomy that was stolen from him.