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Reminding myself that Zhuo Yichen hums when he's alone.

Nobody's there. Life is good. He's enjoying a cup of refreshing tea. Hmhmhm...

Imagine him sitting in his beloved tree, dangling his little legs, humming away.

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Xiao Zhuo has an important message:

Please take good care of precious Li Lun, ok?

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— On the Other Side of Grief with Ocean Vuong, Aaron Schwartz

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The Double 墨雨云间 (2024)

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YunZhiYu Ship

It's funny at 12am.

It's always precious.

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Yan An sharing his thoughts on Li Lun in the softest voice ever. voice so soft that Li Lun would flick his forehead for it

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out of character vs. in character

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[ID: gifs of the character Wen Xiao from the series "Fangs of Fortune." She stands looking shocked and disconsolate as Zhuo Yichen prepares to leave to kill Zhao Yuanzhou. She looks down and sheds a tear. /end ID]

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Has my constant yapping made you fall in love with me yet?

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[ID: gifs of the character Li Lun from the series "Fangs of Fortune." He tells Wen Xiao, "Pagoda trees are naturally prone to attracting dark and malicious energy. Since ancient times, we've been called ghost trees." Next, he watches Zhuo Yichen stab Zhao Yuanzhou. Next, he looks betrayed at Zhao Yuanzhou and says, "How dare you hurt me for the sake of humans who killed demons?" Then he brandishes the rattle drum against Zhao Yuanzhou. Then Zhuo Yichen asks him, "What exactly do you expect me to understand?" and Li Lun answers, "Me." Next he is shown smiling when Zhao Yuanzhou initially gives him the rattle drum. Next he is shown apathetically stepping on Zhuo Yichen's face. Then he is shown closing his eyes as Zhuo Yichen asks Zhao Yuanzhou who he is and Zhao Yuanzhou responds, "A scumbag who has to stay hidden." Then he is shown grieving as Ao Yin dies. Lastly, he is shown smiling as he says, "A while is enough." /end ID]

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Looks missed:

Looks exchanged:

First and last day that Zhuo Yichen and Li Lun were present in each other's lives.

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Zhuo Yichen went on adventures with the person who killed his entire family and destroyed his clan — but yes, he's not conquering anything. Lan Wangji lost his father, lost his mother, lost the person he loves, had his clan half-destroyed and his home burnt, fought a war for fuck’s sake, yet it never charred his heart  —  but yes, he's not conquering anything.

Sadness, melancholy, and homesickness, you're confusing those with all-consuming grief, the kind that traps people in a vortex of bad decisions and pain (like Wei Wuxian in his first life, who made certain choices and couldn’t shoulder the consequences of said choices). You're pinpointing separate instances that only contribute to a larger picture that paints these people coming out on top, with their hearts full and open, their backs straight and chins high, despite everything they went through. Winners in this fight.

They’re constantly conquering demons within themselves (Xiao Zhuo does it both literally and figuratively, and the demon within him is Bingyi, the saddest, most grieving creature in the whole world, whom he learns to embrace), never falling into the abyss. And even when they momentarily do, they crawl out of it, following the light. That’s what Xiao Zhuo literally spells out to Li Lun by that canal, fundamentally changing him, and the audience.

If you accompanied all of those people — and Zhuo Yichen specifically, since you seem more familiar with him, and his entire character arc is very straightforward about the themes of light, grief, and acceptance — on their journey, and still came to a hopeless conclusion... I don’t know. I guess we fundamentally differ in how we view life itself.

character flavour: conqueror of grief

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Tags via @silver-and-stars: #girl they conquered nothing they BECAME grief personifed

This stuck with me so much, I had to ramble about it. Elder Yue, Lan Wangji, Tantai Jin, Zhuo Yichen. Grief accompanied them throughout their whole lives, like an old friend catching up with them as the years passed, marvelling at how they hadn’t broken yet. Every devastating loss chipped away at their hearts, and yet those hearts of gold remained big enough, benign enough, pure enough to always choose kindness at the end of the day.

Let go. Live. Yearn for the light. Fix the mistakes of the past, or shoulder the consequences of the choices you made with your back straight — and live. Try to be better.

They’re indefatigable.

A little starlight, a candle flame, and a streetlamp left on for travellers can all pierce the darkness, and you.

But when you have a big heart, it’ll contain many things. It’s inevitable that your heart is heavy. One’s heart is like a big empty house. All the wealth and martial goods in this world are not enough to fill it up. But as long as there’s a little light, just a little, it can fill up one’s entire heart.

Wen Zongyu is grief personified. Lan Wangji’s father, and Lan Xichen (hell, even Wei Wuxian), are grief personified. Gong Huanyu, Shangguan Qian, Tantai Minglang. All those people who cannibalised themselves, lost in the darkness, crushed under the weight of pain and loss. They extinguished the light, the smallest light, they were meant to veil caringly with the tenderness of their palms. 

While Elder Yue, Lan Wangji, Tantai Jin, and Zhuo Yichen protected the light with their entire bodies, curling over it, shielding it from any blow, any gust of a blade, or blood raining down. They kept it safe and close, even when it burnt them.

character flavour: conqueror of grief

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Zhuo Yichen and Li Lun seem to have grabbed the wrong weapons. Don't try and help them solve this predicament, they quite enjoy themselves.

Commission of my dramatic princesses I asked matchasakura2 to draw, thank you! <3

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sometimes you can tell when somebody who likes a ship just likes one of the characters and is simply using the other half as a vaguely ooc vehicle to make content for their fave which is whatever. not against the law. until the other half theyre using as a vehicle is YOUR fave. and then you want to explode them with your mind

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Ah to die for your human lover.