#shen jiu my beloved.

[diamondnokouzai]

we talk a lot about shen qingqiu and liu qingge being autistic but its important to me that also shen jiu was autistic. but because he was 1. poor 2. a slave and 3. the villain it isnt used to excuse his behavior/personality the way it is for shen qingqiu and liu qingge

[lasbiarez]

Malevolent inspired AU where instead of Shen Yuan taking over Shen Qingqiu's body entirely Shen Jiu still controls the eyes and every cultivation aspect. Do they hate it? yes. Do they have a choice? no. I hope they annoy each other so much they explode before finding a different body for Shen Yuan

They become codependent and annoyingly inseparable later dw

If some of the expressions are weird I'm trying to convey that SJ controls the eyes and the general area around it so that would match his expression while everything else is SY. Which I think would make great comedy material because SQQ would be glaring daggers at LQG but also, with genuine excitement, talk about this new beast he found

[pr0cyon-lotor]

I have a lot of thoughts on Monster Shen Yuan

[levemetal]

POV you are trying to cover for your ghost gege but no one told you the inside jokes between him and his head disciple

I arrived about 20 days with bootleg starbucks late for this, but I had this silly idea and I needed to get it out of my system.

[moonsvillain]

have been toying with the idea of an au wherein shen jiu, after burning down the qiu household and running away, comes across xie lian rather than wu yanzi poaching him immediately afterwards:

i'd imagine in this verse he runs away to town rather than immediately being found in the aftermath of what he's done. at this point, shen jiu would be too paranoid to consider reaching out for directions to cang qiong mountain even if he wanted to make it there: what if they knew what he did? or figured it out if he did know? (if he even had the mind to think of these things through his panic)

he doesn't want to end up begging on the streets again, though—too alike his childhood and last time he was in that position, shen jiu ended up with the qius in the first place

so he takes refuge in temples that he comes across, stealing food when he can before moving to a different part of the rather large town he's ended up in so there's no clear pattern of when he shows up at whichever food stall

despite not holding that same respect and unwavering belief in gods (how could he, after everything he's gone through? shouldn't they have stepped in, sometime? what god would let him suffer as he did, separating him from the only person he loved?) he knows better than to try them, and begrudgingly thanks them for the shelter (because this he did appreciate, at the very least, if nothing else)

winter hits hard when it does, and shen jiu, after spending so many years in the qiu household, forgot how the cold seeps into your skin and bones without solid walls to keep out the frigid breeze.

he quickly falls ill with nothing to protect him from the elements but his threadbare clothing, and when he grows ill, he becomes slow. shen jiu nearly gets caught stealing, running away before he can be dragged to a town guard for his offence, but earning himself a nasty wound to his leg as he retreated

sickness + the cold + the wound leave him weak and wanting: missing qi-ge, reminiscing on nights where they'd curl up together for warmth, still cold but not alone, the two of them steady against the storm that raged on ahead of them

fever-ridden and teetering close to death, shen jiu wanders into a temple late at night and sinks to his knees, falling to his side, heart-rate slowing. in his delirium, he misses the figure taking shelter from the storm in the corner, watching him

shen jiu wakes up (he doesn't expect to), warm while he hears the wind whistle. he's still in that temple from earlier, but it's considerably... cozier. a small fire warms the inside and his clothes aren't as damp against his cold skin. his fever's broken, too—he doesn't know how long it's been, but he's glad he didn't die: never realized that he wanted to live until he was close to forfeiting his right to

here is where he meets his accidental saviour: xie lian stood over a slowly bubbling pot of stew that smells heavenly to shen jiu—he'd eat just about anything at this point, starved

his immediate distrust of xie lian stops him from being truly excited about his appearance

their relationship is veryyy shaky at the very beginning: shen jiu refuses to trust him and xie lian refuses to abandon this strange child he found on the verge of death

(there's a strange sort of bond built up when you nurse someone back to life, dragging them away from the brink of death and xie lian isn't interested, but he's curious about this kid who stumbled into his temple at the dead of night on a midnight in winter)

shen jiu's torn between distrust and this desire for company he didn't know he possessed; after being alone with no one but the qiu household [before he went on his massacre] he didn't realized how much he wanted to share space with someone who wasn't actively hurting him until he was afforded the opportunity to experience non-violent company with xie lian

his distrust slowly declines when he finds out that xie lian is a cultivator. despite being arguably too old to learn cultivation to the fullest extent he could have if he started a few years earlier, he still desperately wants to learn

xie lian, perceptive as ever, slowly starts teaching him bits and pieces of the basics, teaches him to meditate, takes care to keep his distance when it looks like shen jiu's getting overwhelmed

shen jiu can't help but get attached. he hates it

shen jiu decides to test xie lian before resigning himself to this

he was snappy, impatient, and argued with xie lian, when he came over, one day, waiting for some form of punishment to come, bristling like a spooked cat.

nothing came of his experiment but a slight frown from xie lian, which made shen jiu feel almost bad—xie lian almost reminded him of qi-ge, which made him feel doubly bad because he desperately wants to find him

shen jiu came to xie lian the next day with a pastry [that he stole] as an apology. and a request:

"teach me how to cultivate so i can be a disciple at the cang qiong sect"

xie lian agrees easily enough: he's been around shen jiu to see that despite the late start, he has potential to be great [especially untouched by wu yanzi and his twisted form of cultivation]

shen jiu throws himself into his studies, working himself to the bone

xie lian is concerned by this and after trying to soften the load of his work doesn't make shen jiu slow down, he becomes stern: warns him against trying to chase too much frivolously

this leads to a breakdown of sorts—where shen jiu gets angry, dismissive, before becoming upset. the average emotional depth of a teenager but, like, 4 times worse because of the circumstances

xie lian coaxes the story out of shen jiu here; qi-ge [the first time he's mentioned aloud by name], the qiu household [only the barest of details. shen jiu refuses to dwell], and the night shen jiu made qi-ge leave, as well as qi-ge's promise to come back

shen jiu finishes by telling xie lian he needs to make it back to qi-ge, needs to see if he's still alive, he's been selfish for sticking around as long

shen jiu tells xie lian that he needs to figure out as much as he can, as fast as he can, so he can leave and make his way to cang qiong mountain with some sort of base knowledge to make it in. and that he's not sorry for pushing himself because he doesn't have time

xie lian is quiet for a while

puts a comforting hand on shen jiu's shoulder and tells him he understands; he knows someone who would do anything to make it back to the one they loved, understands the pain that comes when time and distance separates the two

however, xie lian tells him, he can't let shen jiu push himself. he'll only stunt his progress by hurting himself rather than speed things up

shen jiu is ready to argue again before xie lian offers to make the trip with him

shen jiu doesn't believe it at first—who would bother with helping him for this long if they weren't getting anything out of it? he already found this hard to believe, let alone the fact that xie lian would drop everything to travel with him for weeks on end

xie lian doesn't shake in his resolve, though. shen jiu figures out he's being serious and wants to argue, but he's just—relieved

so many people have stood as roadblocks on his path back to qi-ge; xie lian might be the first person actively trying to help them

it almost reignites hope in him; someone other than him believes in them. someone other than shen jiu thinks they'll make it back to each other and succeed in reuniting. xie lian's faith in him is like a gust of wind beneath his wings

he agrees to their road trip

[xie lian makes sure to tell his beloved he'll be away for a while]

[shen jiu doesn't notice that xie lian buys steamed buns off the same stranger in nearly every town they stop by for a night of rest in the following few weeks]

[xie lian notices, years later, when shen qingqiu doesn't recognize him upon their first meeting in decades. shen yuan doesn't know xie lian, but xie lian knows this isn't shen jiu, anymore]

[nanocados]

Svsss themed pages from my sketchbook. It’s doodle dump time >:)

[tat-tletale]

Me:

Also me:

[adhdgwen]

shen jiu and yue qingyuan….. i am foaming at the mouth

[winktalks-com]

I finished svsss

I quite liked it. I didn't cry as i expected but i did feel extremely bad at some scenes to the point that i get teary when i think of them

But while reading I was very unbothered

I have a few points to make

Luo Binghe is an interesting character and he's so well written. All of them are really well written i have no complaints about that. Sadly even if I enjoyed his character i didn't get very attached to him. Both Luo Binghe And Shen Qingqiu have some issues and they misunderstand each other so much! Reading tgcf changed me- XL and HC are so understanding with each other and then we have these two.

Really a 180° from the "even if you must keep secrets from me I understand" couple to the "I don't trust you because im pretty sure you hate me" couple.

My favourite character that didn't even appear except for flashbacks was Shen Jiu. I wish there was more of him i love characters who are sad and bitter and jealous and mean. I'd say I have an "I can fix him mentality" but its really more of an "I want him as he is" one.

And he was always on my mind while reading cause Shen Yuan really came and took over just like that and we aren't told what happened to my man. And if he saw what was happening to his body he'd be horrified too.

Wahhh and the relationship he had with Liu Qingge! I actually don't remember them interacting more than once? And its Liu Qingge reminding him he didn't get to start cultivation at the age he was supposedly to (so mean!!). I really wish they had the chance to make up. Do i ship them?? Idk possibly but i mainly just want them to get along.

Not only his relationship with Liu Qingge but also Yue Qingyuan! I know what happened between them but i don't think it was from the main story? I believe i saw some posts about it since I don't remember much being said of them in the actual book other that Yue Qingyuan seems to favour him. Perhaps it's in one of the extras. They're so sad anyway! Yue Qingyuan is so understanding and good to Shen Jiu! Obviously its partly cause he feels bad but did he really even have the chance to save Shen Jiu? Im sure he would have if he really had the means.

Idk if you can tell I go crazy for tragic bitter-sweet character relationships...

What im realising is that i really just wanted a book from the perspective of Shen Jiu (T°T)

[devestatedutterlydevestated]

im back on my they deserved better train featuring:

tianlang jun and su xiyan

gongyi xiao, my beloved

luo bingge

and shen jiu and yue qi

if anyone needs me ill be in the corner crying, thanks

[white-lotus-pavilion]

In my Shen Jiu obsession era... I want him to step on me so bad (◡‿◡✿)

[grapestones]

I need Shen Jiu to be a Jiang disciple so bad

[shenjiushandfan]

I'm almost done book three, work got me by the short n hairys the past while here.

I can confidently say I'm finally past the blast to the past chapters.

It was a RIDE, I'll post my feelings on that whole train wreck soon.

[antiphrastic]

Have now cried more while reading the first four svsss extras than I did throughout the entire main story. wtf.

[meowmeowed]

None asked but I had to do it

[wumiings]

AU where Shen Jiu takes one look at tiny prospective disciple Shen Yuan who looks so much like him but so fucking soft and immediately goes “I must destroy it” but when he tells Yue Qingyuan he wants the boy for Qing Jing Peak, YQY unexpectedly puts his foot down— reason being that he thinks the Shens must be long-lost brothers and he’s afraid that if SJ badly hurts SY and then finds out the truth he’ll regret it. So instead SY becomes a disciple of Qiong Ding Peak.

The thing is, though, that SY knows why YQY took him in. So even though he sees YQY as an older brother figure, he privately believes that the only reason the sect leader is affectionate towards him is that he’s (possibly) related to SJ. Meanwhile, YQY is going around the whole Twelve Peaks like “omg have you met my beloved new disciple?? he’s so cute and smart and he’ll probably inherit the sect some day.” SJ is immensely jealous and furious at himself for it.

Cut forward several years and SY is head disciple of Qiong Ding. SJ manages to corner him after a meeting of the peak lords and is harassing him about something or other until SY finally blindsides him by blurting out the “fact” that YQY still thinks they’re siblings and is really only soft on him for SJ’s sake…. SJ is so incredulous he nearly has a qi deviation.

Afterwards, he tries very hard not to let his feelings towards SY be affected by the most absurd bit of self deprecation he has heard in his entire life, but a week later he breaks and storms into YQY’s study like “ZHANGMEN-SHIXIONG ARE YOU AWARE THAT YOUR PRECIOUS FAVORITE DISCIPLE BELIEVES YOU DON’T ACTUALLY LIKE HIM???”