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#don’t read this if you don’t want spoilers for c3e95#i’m not confident enough in my critical thinking skills/analyses to make an actual post about this but people saying why would laudna want#to absorb the sword if she hates it and it’s evil#…..she also feels evil and dark and wrong and bad so why should she not take that on as well#?#so that someone who she does not see as dark and bad doesn’t get consumed by that#she’s already consumed#she has nothing left to give but herself so why would she NOT be the one to take that on#idk it makes sense to me for her want that#but also i’m probably projecting some so i’ll keep my mouth shut
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Me: hm, I want something to put on the TV as background noise... Huh. Looks like YouTube is recommending something called The Last Unicorn. That's perfect, it's probably some old shitty animation that has aged poorly! I can watch it ironically!
Me, 2 hours later as the credits roll: *crying, cheering, buying the book, composing the songs*
Me, 2 weeks later: So I have compiled all of the quotes from the book that I think could make good tattoos, and also, HOW HAVE I NEVER LEARNED ABOUT HOW THE LAST UNICORN FUCKING SLAPS??? This gay-ass little fairytale fed my soul! Watered my crops! Transed my gender! Can't believe I heard of this story from youtube recommendations, of all places!!
#original#the last unicorn#tlu#peter s beagle#molly gru#schmendrick#schmendrick the magician#two of my favorite characters in anything right there in the center of the story! and I'm glad I saw the film first!#my reading ability has diminished due to trauma disability etc. but it seems like having a visual reference actually really helped!#no wonder i only ever want to read fan fic! turns out reading is not actually Superior to other types of Storytelling. it's just different.#to say otherwise is snobbishness I have been eminently guilty of in my life!#but like it is easier for me to consume tv and movies and that is fine actually. also that's why I'm doing a graphic novel lol#because i wanted to make something i would actually be able to read if i found it at a library. altho the audio book IS gonna be bomb#the audiobook is for visually impaired readers and anyone who wants or needs it! accessible stories for everyone! yeah!!#my gender was already transed but now I've gained an ADDITIONAL gender! which one? I'll never tell 😘#i am so powerful i have so much fuckin gender. my wife has no gender. and she is equally as powerful.#and also she has STUDIED THE BLADE#mostly zoro's blades from One Piece#normally YouTube recommends me shit movies like idiocracy or smth this is like if every day ur cat brought you a piece of rotten food and#then one day it brings you a BEAUTIFULLY ANIMATED TALE FEATURING MY BELOVED TWINK FUCK-UP WIZARD FRIEND AND MY ALL-TIME HOMEGIRL MOLLY GRU#and also it's soft and beautiful and funny and fucking weird!! i wrote melodies to the songs in the books on my ukulele
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ROTATING HIM IN MY HEAD AT AN ACCELERATING VELOCITY
#I HAVE NO TIME SO THIS TOOK 20 MINS AT MOST BUT LSKDFLSLSLSLFDKKKKFJGHGHHHHH#HEEEEE#fernart#my art#hades 2 spoilers#like. oh my gosh. why was he left behind#and the whole thing of them all living between the underworld and mortal realm... you know what else is there??? the land of dreams#and if moros comes back to camp what will he have to say???#this is going to consume every waking thought now. I'm doomed#already thinking of a fic. noooooo#BUT LIKE. THINK OF MELINOE'S PERSPECTIVE. SHE'S JUST GROWN UP WITH A COMATOSE GUY AROUND#oghhhhghgh#hypnos hades#hades#hades 2
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the lamb smiling up at the wolf with unsettling passivity etc etc
#i already made the first comparison but i will do it again#humans who arent normal about how vampires need to take human life to survive 🙂↕️#humans who do terrible things and are bad people embracing vampirism 🙂↕️🙂↕️#humans with incredibly skewed morals who want to consume humanity and be with their immortal companions forever 🙂↕️🙂↕️🙂↕️#theres something extra i wanted to include but couldnt really because of how i feel its more implied rather than outright stated for daniel#how madeleine mentions she got food and cigarettes in exchange for sex with the german soldier but what she craved was comfort#and how daniel hides his desire for intimacy by telling himself sex with men was something he had to do for drugs and survival and thats it#iwtv#madeleine eparvier#daniel molloy
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On Isolde and Many Doors (and One Key)
Thinking about Isolde and how she feels like she is constantly trapped in a small cramped room full of 1 million doors. Each door represents a presence that haunts her, an identity that lives inside her that calls to her from beyond the grave, a new mask to dawn.
If every person in the world were to have a room, most would have just one door, their own. But not Isolde.
Isolde feels like an empty vessel who is only there to serve as a point of entry for other people and their spirits. She has been forced to become so repressed by her environment, upbringing, and her nature as a medium that she finds it easy to forget herself. Her “self” is not someone she has ever been allowed to know.
The room grows increasingly smaller, claustrophobic and strangling her with pressure as the amount of doorways in it only increase, every new person she meets a new doorway she is plagued with, a new voyeur who has granted themselves full access to her life and her body. Something she is now willing to let them do. It is easier that way. Easier to let someone else command her vessel, something that never solely belonged to her to begin with. An escape from all the pressure, the expectations, the perfection demanded from her. It is something she should do. The duty of someone like her. Something to hide her wretched face from view, to give the people what they want, to uphold her family’s legacy. A performance that was never allowed to end. Each new door lead right back to that.
The only exception is Kakania. The only person Isolde believes has ever really seen her as more than a host for other identities or something to mold into shape, prop up as a set piece. A perfect lady. The star of Vienna. A tragic heroine. A dangerous hysteric witch. A curse manifested. The only one who was ever interested in finding Isolde’s door and that door alone. When she is with Kakania, a new door does not appear in that ever shrinking empty room, although at first she expects it to. For the first time she meets someone and is not greeted with a new ghost to haunt her. Not a door. But a key. A key that Isolde knows can unlock her own door, even when she herself cannot find it.
#reverse1999#reverse 1999#r1999#kakania#reverse 1999 kakania#isolde#reverse 1999 isolde#e lucevan le stelle#isolde x kakania#Can u tell I’m insane about them#also can you believe this interpretation isn’t even me being shipper-brained it’s like. a pretty direct interpretation of the canon text#It’s based basically 1:1 off of Isolde’s side story#like their dynamic already was destroying me but the side story made them maybe my favorite pair in the entire game#the shit they have going on is too tragic and beautiful and all consuming for me to not be obsessed w them#also if u had issues sympathizing or understanding Isolde during chapter 6 I highly recommend reading the side story#I felt like I didn’t rlly grasp her character fully in the main plot but this side story??#but after reading her side story … 💔💔 she feels so real to me#anyway. Enough yapping out of me.#I don’t think literally anyone is going to read this huge block of text I’m forcing upon u all but like.#Whatever I wrote it mostly for me anyway.#bc if I didn’t it would’ve continued to fester in my brain
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Thinking about possible fanfic/au idea, where Paper after the end of second season decides to leave Hotel for a while to develop his own self-identity outside of his life with OJ, and OJ, living without Paper for the first time in almost a decade, realises how codependent with him he actually became and how much of his mental state were tied to Paper being by his side. Both of them learn to live without one another and find their own separated support systems and when Paper eventually comes back (because, still, all of his friends live here, duh) we're both self-sufficient but still appreaciate each other's positive traits and now are able to form functioning healthy relationships...
Yeah I think about them a lot
#eugenedathinker#inanimate insanity#ii#ii oj#ii paper#payjay#sorry these two gay dumbasses completely consume my mind for a month now#i dunno i just love stories about couple which have to go through at least one break-up because they're mentally ill#also also#suitcase could leave hotel with paper too 'cause#a) she already feels like she's lost a track of time and everyone she knows just live without her#b) i suddenly fell in love with an idea of her and paper's friendship#but if for paper this decision to leave is his progression as a character#for suitcase it's a regression because she (just like mephone) actually starts to run from her problems and fears#instead of facing it#uhhhh it's a complicated dynamic#i might just write this fanfic after season is over
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I think what's frustrating me the most about what's going on in campaign 3 right now is that the main idea being talked about and given way too much emphasis runs counter to the theme of the m9. If the Nein were about the idea that you can become better no matter what you did or who you were before, the argument set forth and being entertained as a legitimate conflict right now is very "these guys did bad shit a thousand years ago and they should die. Somehow this is good for everyone despite the centuries of good they've done since." Ashton's point was extremely astute that if that's the case, cleanse the entire world motherfucker because we're no better, but the hypocrisy of that was neatly sidestepped (which is at least consistent with Ludinus and fascists of his ilk in general). It's not a real argument, guys. We're not meant to take him seriously.
The gods are the stewards of the only world anyone living has ever known. The fact that they made bad choices that hurt Ludinus and people he knew is a legitimate grievance. The gods are in fact flawed, capable of selfishness, but when confronted with the enormity of the damage they were causing this world, they removed themselves and a whole chunk of their power to seal themselves behind the divine gate. They didn't abandon the world. They didn't withdraw their power and sulk, leaving everyone without their gifts until they begged for a return. They simply care for mortals on the terms of those mortals and ask for nothing not freely given. The people who follow the gods find them worthy of that patronage and Ludinus does not get to erase the choice of everyone else who doesn't agree with him because he's hurt, even if he did have a point (he doesn't).
He thinks, for some reason, that his actions won't result in the same kind of harm on a global scale and completely ignores the damage he has already wrought in the name of a higher purpose because that's what the gods did and they're no better than him. But they are, dipshit. They are better than you. There are people in the world they may not be better than, salient point, but you're not one of them.
And after the light and love that was the core of the Nein - the very thing that shaped Essek into the campaign 3 NPC that he is - it feels extremely disingenuous for "do the gods deserve their power now that you've seen them at their worst" to be perceived as an actual, legitimate conflict in the endgame and a talking point in the Fandom. Especially when the Hells have already been pretty clear that they're not looking to be judge, jury, and executioner of the gods. This is not the central conflict of campaign 3, it's one dumbass's weird motivation to be a villain that needs to be stopped and the fact that it keeps coming up as anything approaching credible is a condemnation of the purity culture mindset in online spaces today.
#cr spoilers#Okay I'm done now I just really needed to be able to articulate the itch in the back of my brain#C2: cancel culture is bullshit. Do your best to atone for the harm you have caused#But allowing guilt to consume you prevents you from putting more good into the world#If you believe yourself irredeemable and two dimensional you will never move forward as a person#C3: the equivalent of finding my diary from when I was a 15 year old fundamentalist Christian#And using it to try and dogpile me in the present#It's mean spirited and hateful#I'm talkibg about ludinus and I'm talking about a weird percentage of the people engaging with this like it has any teeth#And isn't just justification for not only Ludinus's atrocities but of those in his employ#I don't really think Otohan gave much of a shit about whether the gods died#I think she was a violent powerful person given free reign and justification for the things she already wanted to do
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My friend is finishing up season 1 of TMA today and when I tell you it is insane to me how different people consume media. Because I listen to it recreationally I listen getting ready for work, when I cook, while I play Stardew Valley etc etc etc but she’s not a huge horror fan and is truly listening for my benefit (love her) and doesn’t listen to hours upon hours a day and told me today she doesn’t believe Jane Prentiss is dead and I’m so glad she’s got the vibe of this show down lmao
#the magnus archives#tma#tma podcast#she’s so lovely lmao I get live commentary it’s great#shoutout to friends who consume media you enjoy so they understand you#I’m already on the s4 finale of my relisten I need help#psychological help
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I’d love to hear your thoughts on what Eldritch peredhel entail
-@@outofangband
Sorry this took so long @outofangband and thank you for asking this I am! Delighted! And am preemptively putting a read more down because I cannot shut up about they <3
alright I'm just gonna put stuff and headcanons down as they occur to me so expect low-moderate levels of coherency
shapeshifting is an obvious one (gets weaker down the generations) but because my brain is Like This I have caveats!
thanks to my whole peredhil things=gender allegory that my brain spit out without my permission I've long struggled against my inherent feeling that while they can shapeshift they don't like it
but because I'm now aware of my brain's reasoning I can say it's because of ✨fantasy dysphoria✨
that's oversimplifying, obviously, but peredhil already have so much issues with working through who and what they are and compromising between body and mind and spirit that actively choosing to change into/present as something/someone who They Are Not is. Not usually their cup of tea.
As a whole they tend to have specific forms that they prefer as being closer to themselves, and distinct enough that it doesn't feel like they're faking something they're not
(changing to look like a different person, or a edited version of themself is Very Very not fun unless either explicitly for disguise or shenanigans)
(the exception to this is that Luthien can make herself look almost perfectly human without any real issue. she doesn't do it often but especially as she ages she likes to catch glimpses of her reflection and get both excited and sappy. this is in contrast to making herself look almost perfectly like an elf which makes her feel like her skin is on fire.)
(Also I'm pretty sure all of them can flip their agab presentation while only feeling varying degrees of off, and even then it's a different feeling than the shapeshifting dysphoria. Dior and Elwing are the two who I think mind it the most)
They all have the (agonizing to write) trait of feeling very distinct relationships to their species in their body vs soul/mind vs spirit/fea and they all feel it very differently! This isn't exclusive to Luthien's line but the maia blood does make it worse.
Oh! This is a new headcanon of mine actually but!
They all have faces that are very very hard to capture in image. They are the bane of portrait artists (and, to a degree, sculptors) everywhere because the art never looks accurate to life
It's not blatantly off it's just. missing something? Or something was added? maybe it's a little too wide, or narrow, or long, or short, in one place or another
It's not unrecognizable but if you've ever seen the subject in real life you can just tell
It's especially bad with Luthien (and Daeron) and Dior (to a lesser extent) because everyone literally sees them differently, as in their features will be slightly different depending on what each person finds attractive/aesthetically appealing and beautiful
(not a lot, again, it's not unrecognizable, but there has never and will never be any accurate depiction of Luthien as she was as a person)
(as a concept, though, as the most beautiful creature to have ever existed in Arda, a little of her image exists in every portrait lovingly made of a beloved spouse, every child's drawing of their family, in biological sketches of songbirds and field mice, in a sculpture of a stranger's face. Daeron remembers his sister perfectly, but he collects these regardless)
(Arwen, Luthien come again, isn't described as such by her grandparents. Galadriel and Celeborn both knew Luthien, and while Arwen and her father both look as closely to her as genetically possible, to those who actually know them both it's nothing more than uncanny family resemblance. Luthien was to most a concept personified, Arwen is a person with concepts imposed on her.)
The list of people who have seen Luthien how she actually, physically, defaultly is, essentially consists of Melian, Daeron, Beren, and Dior
Beren doesn't see her as she is right away because he doesn't know her right away, but they learn about each other and she shows herself and he sees her and by the time she rescues him from Tol-im-Gaurhoth there are no echoes on her face
(He's always a little bit haunted that he nearly died without realizing he'd never quite seen the truth of her before)
Neither Thingol or Beren can quite see their own features on their children's faces. They clearly take after their mothers, after all!
(This leads to much affectionate eye-rolling on Melian and Luthien's part)
Hair stuff!
It's alive! kinda! it's definitely not normal hair!
It moves a lot on its own. Sometimes like a breeze is blowing where there isn't one. Sometimes more like tentacles. It depends on its mood.
They've got some very pretty traditional cosmic horror vibes swirling around on their heads. It's very sparkly and colorful but in a Forbidden Shrimp Colors that your brain is unable to comprehend way so it reads as iridescent black mostly, or holographic white, where applicable
Luthien's hair actually is a glimpse into space, Daeron's is a glance at a star
(Luthien's magic hair cloak survives, I think, into the 4th age and beyond, though if anyone/anything has found it they certainly don't know the origins of the beautifully intricate living star map. It has seen the reign of countless north stars, yet the lines always point to the same coordinates- where the ancient, sunken, ruined remains of what once was Tol-im-Gaurhoth lay)
Speed round!
Fangs and talons and horns oh my! Are they tooth and keratin and bone, or are they petrified wood and gem and stone? Yes!
They all smell a little like ozone and a lot like petrichor, flowers, and Green. If you've smelled green you know what I'm talking about. Also, unfortunately, like bird. Birds don't smell great, especially wet bird.
Weird Foresight Powers++
(Most of them don't have actual foresight, but all of them are more in-tune with the Song than is natural for an incarnate)
Their eyes glow, most notably in the dark, unless the irises turn black as they sometimes do. They are also all unnaturally bright versions of the less-spooky parent's- Dior's are gold, Elwing's are blue-green like a tropical sea (Elured and Elurin split the color between them- ultramarine and emerald), Elrond and Elros have pale star-gold, Elladan, Elrohir, and Arwen all have silver.
(Daeron and Luthien being the exception again, because I decided they have Melian's eyes before I decided this, and I don't know what color eyes Thingol has. Watsonianly: Melian's spooky genes overwrite a lot. Luthien's genotype is probably much closer to his than her magically overwritten phenotype)
Their sclerae turn black and their pupils white, on occasion, usually when using powers
They don't bleed right. It's a little too red for an elf, a little too light for a human, and it shines strange as it beads like quicksilver on the skin
They have very shiny, cool skin. Luthien looked like her's was silver plate under a stretched stocking, the rest toned it down from there but it's still noticeable.
The Song is. Attached to them. They are all very much Main Characters. Their lives have a clear story arc with symbolism and narrative parallels. They are all subconsciously aware that their lives are a fairytale, whether tragic or no, and yes this has many Implications and affects. They are not the only ones like this, but they are the only ones who, to some level, know they are in a story.
This is the fundamental separation between them and everyone else.
The difference in how they perceive themselves between heart soul and spirit is very difficult to explain and understand, but not impossible to someone who knows them and is willing to put in the work.
The life-long knowledge that they are Important to the Song and their every choice and event they experience and their mere existence serves a greater purpose in a way that most other people simply do not- that's very, very isolating.
No one else can understand how they see the world. Very very few people are willing to try, and even fewer in a way that's not frustrating. There is a reason most of them find only one person to latch on to outside of their family, and a reason they hold on through hell and high water.
(This is about being neurodivergent)
#asks#outofangband#eldritch peredhil#gonna go into more detail about preferred shape forms here bc it's important to me but not relevant lol#luthien: nightingale/s (obviously) but also a starling and to a lesser extent various other birds- preference toward passerine and raptors#wolf and deer are both fine- wolf especially for snuggles- she can go bat and enjoy it but only after thuringwethil#(which is a whole thing for her to unpack)#dior: cat (male calico specifically) wolf and bat#and then a kingfisher starling nightingale red-crowned crane and a bird of prey (currently thinking maybe a swallow-tailed kite?)#e^2 1.0 don't actually have the same feeling towards shapeshifting bc of the whole consumed by doriath to become Entities thing#so they're closer to maiar vibes-wise than even luthien entirely was#elwing: starling beach mouse and then pretty much most seabirds#but on the whole Song's Specialist Little Guys thing#obviously its up to individual philosophy on if free will can exist in the face of Destiny#my opinion is yes but i think all of them have a different take#luthien thinks no but is happy/fine with this and thinks its very romantic. daeron also thinks no but is resigned and ultimately content.#neither of them understand the average person being deeply uncomfortable at the idea of the lack of free will#their mom is a maia this is just normal to them#dior thinks yes at first but flips around a lot through his life#its a pretty hard no post-death but when he gets reembodied he becomes deeply aware that he is No Longer Important but nothing changes so??#elwing thinks absolutely not and uses this to cope. she feels like she has so little agency already#at least if it's cosmic there's nothing she could've done#at least if it's cosmic her mistakes are worth something#(she needs so much therapy)#earendil is the only spouse who comes to fully understand this. he cant decide what he thinks. every option seems horrifying in its own way#elrond and elros both think yes and use this to cope. they can be better. they can make things better.#there may be a story but they can make it a happy one.#they're people and that has to count for something.
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A Victorian couple. (Leyendecker redraw)
#the great ace attorney#tgaa#tgaa spoilers#dgs spoilers#klint van zieks#klimt van zieks#lady baskerville#<- isn't it madam van zieks tbh (though i like that she has at least a last name)#i'm glad i didnt rush this one.. i think i started it one or two months ago?#i like painting because since it's more time consuming i get to really think about the characters and what kind of thoughts they were havin#at that moment... in this one i'd say the professor killings have already started. kvz looks quite grim here compared to how silly i usuall#depict him lol#anyways! move outta the way gayboy im about to get it#i wanna do this with mr asougi (gen-chan..💖) as well at some point#OKAY done rambling <3 idk if anyone reads this far but if u do hiii. the joys of following daipeanutsaiban on tumblr: chatter for days#scheduled#help i forgot the ship tags im not retyping all that.#klintville#baskerzieks#fun fact: the ship name for klint and the name i gave lady (primrose) would be *drumroll* ...PRINT....lmao....
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JJK x MHA crossover where Toga gets to be on the protag's start. I feel like Itadori would def. fulfill the same roll Midoriya did for Toga I.E. confusing crush that she wants to emulate bc of her invasive fascination that stems from her power
#jjk mha crossover#toga himiko#also the way she's LITERALLY already paralleling Geto in consuming things#Geto's was consuming curses and the taste was dogshit#Toga consuming cursed energy and being able to be closer to the people she admires by copying them. Would she really mind the taste
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hey did you know there's an album loosely adapting moby-dick that has wlw starhab specifically starbuck being ahab's secret admirer while ahab and fedallah (who is also a woman) are lovers apparently. yeah just thought i should let you know you'd seem interested (the album makes a LOT of weird choices and is not a Good adapation at all... but the music does slap and also we get canon doomed lesbian starhab hello). just to let you know
HEY WHAT THE FUCK. ANON PLEASE SAY MORE RIGHT NOW I AM PRESSING MY FACE TO THE GLASS???? CANON FEDALLAHAB AND STARHAB???? PLEASE TELL ME THE NAME OF THIS I AM BEGGING 👁💙👁
#i have already consumed so many bad adaptations i'll sit through anything for canon starhab#AND WLW STARHAB? WHAT THE FUCK? WHAT THE FUCK?#IS IT POSSIBLE TO KNOW THE NAME OF THIS ALBUM 👁👁👁👁#anonymous#moby dick#answered#i havent been able to find this on Google pls help me anon 😭😭who is she#UPDATE for anyone seeing this post now: theres follow ups on my blog!#album is kill the whale by daniel emond and i have notes/reviews on it in further posts#kill the whale
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Columbo theory: Columbo actually watches the intro to each episode via the Columbo Dimension™, but since "your honor, I saw them do it via a portal to my magical Columbo Dimension™" is not admissible in a court of law the rest of the episode is spent trying to catch the murderer without admitting that he is an eldritch being outside the mortal limitations of time and space
#columbo#acab except columbo. he already knows what crimes i've committed so he gets a pass#we are doing a cat and mouse thing. it's really funny#oh just one more thing uh i saw your little 'post' you called it? on that website uh what was it called? oh gee. uh yeah uh tumbler dot com#i made an account and everything. my wife she's an expert on this whole uh internet 'blog' thing. me i can't even set up the wifi box right#would you believe there's pictures of me on there but they drew me as if i were a dog? a dog. i guess it makes sense if ya think about it.#aaaanyways uh before i get outta your hair...#BEHOLD MY TRUE FORM AND TREMBLE OR SOMETHIN'. WELL. I GOTTA EAT YOUR SOUL NOW. SORRY MA'AM. MY COUSIN HAD HER SOUL CONSUMED ONCE YANNO...
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what kills me is that hannibal very clearly wants to be a provider and caregiver, but he just cant be because he can’t give up control over those he cares for
#hanniblogging#imo his drive for killing and eating his victims is yes to establish superiority over them#but what does that do? it establishes his control over them#over who? literally anyone. which means everyone. literally everyone#if anyone can be a victim the moment they cross hannibal then what does that really say. imo it says that hannibal views EVERYONE#as a potential threat#im sure he tells himself hes a god exacting old testament justice but man i dont think a god complex would sustain you this long tbh#you didnt slice beverly up and encase her in glass for the fbi to see to flaunt your power over them#they were already too close. he already lost control#beverly GOT INTO HIS FUCKING HOUSE#THE TRAINEE GIRL WHOS NAMR IM BLANKING ON JUST SAW HIS DRAWINGS AND SHE GOT TRAPPED FOR TWO YEARS!!#he let williford graham slice him up and put him behind glass and hes fucking terrified#hes bending over backwards as a warning and to scrabble for some kind of control over all of humanity bc he views everyone as a threat#bc he learned early on that everyone IS a threat. your parents wont protect you. your countrymen wont protect you. you can love someone and#they can use you while youre vulnerable with no guilt or shame#but those he cares for he also needs control over because they will be taken from you at a moments notice#so their free will doesnt really matter when youve been in fight or flight mode for 40 years straight and are convinced#they will be consumed if you dont consume them first
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popping the biggest bottles AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 🍾 🍾 🍾 🎉🥳👏🎊🎊🙌🍾🎉🙌🥳🎉🎉🎉🙌🥳🎈🙌🙌🎉🥳🥳🙌🥳🍾🙌‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️
my friend brought me out! to! Barnes & nobles! and!!!!!!!! she is SO SO SO CUTE OH MY GOD
AND THE TITLE IS IN FOIL???? WAGHSBSHSHDHHSGH?!!??????? HOLY SHIT
LOOK AT THESE PANELS SHE IS SO SILLY…. crying rn…
AUGSHSHGSGHH ,,,,,,,!!?!?!,!!;!,!
agdn the tesilid book one cameo HE LOOKS SO TRAGIC LETSGOOOOOOO EVAPORATING RN
#once I get a bookshelf im displaying this like the Mona Lisa#it’s so?!!!!!!!!!! AGH#im sosososoososo excited to be able to flip through the book for reference images YESSSS#im just so . Like. Sosos sksosndososoosoosososososoososoososososososo#book 2 WHEN I desperately need the tesilid cover!!!!!!!!#anyway so sorry for the bad photography I am simply dying a slow and painful death/pos/pos/pos#I had something to say I am just??? so happy??? next book release I am scampering over and Consuming It Immediately#OH RIGHT YEAH#now that im rereading the beginning chapters im just making all the Connections rgah#like mimin already said this. But the way she goes from “I want to be in a later loop so tesilid is more useful”#to “im glad im in this loop so tesilid can suffer less”#makihn me INSANE#man I forgot how cute ai was as a kid too 😭 😭 we needed more tesilid and ailette content in the tutorial period…pl0x…#the perks of being an s class heroine#a transmigrator's privilege#ailette rodeline
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opens the door. sighs. walks in with my clown shoes squeaking
so maybe my gender is weird after all
#digi discusses#you can all pretend to be shocked now#i still feel like girl but also maybe sometimes im more. kicks a rock#rex poverly im gonna fucking get you for this#also every piece of media i have consumed recently being about gender. fuck you#this is a lot of negative language for something i should be excited for but#i am old! and tired! okay?! i want to be done discovering things about myself already!#dont know what it is but its something. maybe i dont ever have to have a word for it <3 but i will look into it#pronouns are still she/her. they/them isnt a problem but it never has been. he/him will still probably always be a no
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