#serotonin post for sad days

[maximura]

A Cupcake personified

[cloud-somersault]

bruh i just wanna write and finish this shit, man. i don't wanna hear about preferences no more. i don't wanna hear about fandom cliches that are annoying. i'm tired, man. just let me finish this, bro. i have so little motivation left

[your-subby-creature]

OH I may have figured out why my brain is so MEAN this is entirely my fault and now I'm a little embarrassed about crying about the same thing 4 times in the past 24 hours

[blamemma]

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[milkoomi]

live in tranquility. ᥫ᭡

life is full of ups and downs, right turns and wrong turns, and moments of joy and torments of anguish. we all desire to live a life that only ever brings us happiness and peace, but to fulfill that wish we must provide ourselves the diligent work to make our dreams a reality.

let’s begin …

୨ৎ — habits to incorporate

include a weekly reset

whether it’s a friday or a sunday, start incorporating a weekly reset into your routine! whether it’s doing a deep clean of your home/room or doing an everything shower and pampering yourself with an at-home spa day, or maybe a mix of both, start your week off with a good refresh of everything that you feel needs to be reset.

things to do for your weekly reset:

change your bedsheets

treat yourself with a face mask

give yourself a little mani-pedi

dust your shelves & clean your floors

wipe down your windows & change/wash your curtains

clean your mirrors

do laundry

journal & reflect on your week

plan for the week ahead

do/touch up your lashes

make your bed every morning

i’ve touched on this in a previous post where i discussed boosting daily productivity, but i also wanted to add this point in this post as well! not only does this habit make you feel more productive, but i find that making your bed can be something very calming. you’re freshening up your sleeping space and there’s something about making your bed look all nice and pretty that just releases some kind of serotonin in my brain!

this can be a really peaceful task. i’d recommend putting on your favorite music or a relaxing morning playlist while doing so to really set the vibe for yourself!

gratitude journal in the morning & at night

one of the first things i do in the morning is create a small list of things that i’m thankful for. whether it’s being able to wake up and live another or getting to see the sun rise, talk about what you’re thankful for at the start of your day. it soothes your mind and i find that it also helps to alleviate any stress that might be weighing my mind down. practicing gratitude and including that habit daily has helped me find all the joys in my life, no matter how big or small! it helps you find happiness and peace in even the smallest things, and i promise you that practicing gratitude will help you live a more peaceful life.

daily affirmations

sometimes we need to be the ones to tell us that we’re proud of ourselves or that we’re beautiful or that we’re strong enough. affirmations, either at the start or end of your day (or even both!) can help provide that extra motivation for yourself.

affirmation examples:

“i am more than capable of achieving my goals no matter how big or small.”

“i am enough for myself and those i love in my life.”

“i am proud of all that i have achieved.”

“i am worthy of love, especially from myself.”

make yourself a cup of coffee or tea

there’s something so calming about making yourself a cup of coffee or tea. whenever i do so, and i’m stirring the mix all my little ingredients together in my favorite mug, i always stir clockwise and repeat manifestations in my mind. in my own practices with my spirituality, i’ve learned that going clockwise brings forth your desires (and counter-clockwise releases anything you want to let go of). adding this into my morning ritual prepares me for my day and when i drink that cup of coffee/tea it’s as if i am absorbing the things i manifest for myself!

୨ৎ — release your emotions

bringing up journaling again here, but seriously, get all those negative thoughts and feelings out. do a brain dump of all that you’re thinking. take time to process your emotions. let it all out. maybe even put on sad songs to cry to, maybe ask a trusted loved one (but make sure it’s okay with them beforehand) to talk about everything you’re thinking/feeling, or— if you’re able to— seek therapy!

i feel like i live a much softer and more peaceful life now that i’ve allowed myself to be vulnerable with my loved ones, my therapist, and even myself. we’re allowed to have vulnerable moments and we’re allowed to feel the feelings we have, but we have to make sure we release those negative thoughts and feelings in a healthy manner.

i’ve been in therapy for almost 7 years and the growth i’ve experienced throughout all those years has truly been so refreshing. it almost feels magical, and i’m so grateful that i have the resources to help me manage my emotions and mental health.

୨ৎ — let go of unhealthy consumption

when we consume media that brings us down or when we surround ourselves with the wrong people, we just add unnecessary stress and negative feelings onto our plates. i have a post that discusses THE ART OF LETTING GO so i recommend checking it out for a more in-depth conversation on what to let go of and how to let it all go.

living a peaceful life means releasing yourself from gossip and drama, banning content/media that makes us sad or angry, and leaving people who make us feel bad about ourselves or who might influence us to partake in unhealthy or risky activities. you have to let go of those things that no longer serve you. we can always start with small steps, and the best place to start is with the media we consume.

media to consume:

self help books/videos

educational books/videos/movies/shows/podcasts

follow creators who motivate you to be the best version of yourself for yourself

watch shows/movies that make you happy

listen to music that makes you feel good

read books that bring you joy

୨ৎ — create vision boards

one way i love to manifest my dream life is by creating a vision board. i always create one at the very end of the year, but i want to try doing a vision board for each season! doing this can help you visualize what you want for yourself and your life, and most times when we don’t even realize it, we actually have those visions and dreams become a reality!

creating vision boards can also be a nice, little relaxing hobby for yourself too! getting your creative juices flowing can create and manifest so much inspiration and motivation!

vision board ideas:

yearly vision board

academic vision board

career vision board

lifestyle vision board

fashion/style aesthetic vision board

୨ৎ — final notes

what are some activities/habits that make you feel at peace?

a peaceful life is achievable! as with many things like gaining confidence, ace’ing exams, or getting promoted at your job, it takes work. if you truly want it, work for it! sometimes, the things we deserve are things we have to get for ourselves.

with lots of love, faustina 🌷

[taegularities]

colour me in: photograph (teaser) | jjk (m)

Summary: With both your and Jungkook's careers seemingly peaking, the future feels promising and bright. Yet, amidst the glowing hope, one single phone call dims the light in the rooms of your shared home.

➳ pairing: Jungkook x reader ➳ rating: 18+ ➳ genre: fwb/f2l, fake dating; angst, fluff, smut ➳ warnings: [redacted spoiler that shall drop with the chapter], tears, sadness/grief, doubts, tender moments, talk of jk's future and his art, support, jk's dad, surprises, (talk of) a break up oop, mention of children (i guess that's a warning lol), explicit sexual content: let-out-some-steam-sex, dom!jk, big dick!jk, he's actually insane. more details shall be added on drop day; the ending.. <3 ➳ word count: around 760 for the teaser; 25-30k for the chapter ➳ a/n: get ready, it's gonna hurt for a whiiile now :') as always, come n talk to me about this 🤍 ➳ listen to: holo by leehi | full collaborative playlist 🤍

SERIES MASTERPOST | TAGLIST MASTERLIST | WIPs

“You do know that we’re supposed to meet up with them in like,” you drop your eyes to your wrist, pulling back the sweater to unveil your watch, “forty minutes, right?”

“And you think they’ll complain about some extra time alone?”

You deliver a blank stare, not a single blink as you watch him shrug a shoulder. He sports a smirk that you would’ve clenched your jaw to months ago, but today, even if you won’t admit it right this second, it amuses you.

He laughs when you stand there unmoving, like a stick figure silently reprimanding a lethargic boyfriend. You hate to break, but when the contagious chuckle infects you, too, you feel a light wave of relief and serotonin ripple through you violently.

Jungkook hasn’t left vacation mode just yet; while the work for the gallery is still ongoing and he diligent, you catch him slouching ever so often, doodling away at times. You’ll confess, the grey outside is tiring; different from the sunnier countryside you left behind.

There’s a sort of post-bliss blues that even you can hardly shake off.

“You can’t deny that, can you?” he utters amidst his melodious laugh, and you roll your eyes, taking two big steps towards him — much like two days ago.

“I don’t have to deny it to still teach you the importance of punctuality, right? Get up,” you say, smacking his hip — and he uses the opportunity to lift his arm from under his head, reaching for you, but… failing. ��Uh-uh. Enough with your tricks. Get up.”

Last night still wasn’t enough — is it ever? You’re not surprised; neither by his thirst nor by your own inner, involuntary reactions. But no time. It’s rude to let people wait.

And you know exactly what Jimin would say — tease — if the two of you arrived at the double lunch date with him and Yoongi too late again.

Jungkook’s voice turns half into a yawn, half into a sigh, tired when he responds, “Yes, ma’am.”

This should do.

But since everything good comes in three, and just for good measure, you add another laser-glance, shooting at him in warning to lift his ass and meet you ready once you are, too. A playfully sigh breathed, you amble to the bathroom, make up awaiting on the sink from when you put it there this morning.

This shouldn’t take long; you’re opting for the minimalistic approach today.

As the hues colour your lips and fill your lashes, you hum a random melody you can’t quite identify. It’s quiet in the apartment until it isn’t — and when Jungkook’s voice chimes, your hand halts mid-mascara-stroke, assuming he’s calling for you.

He’s not; you understand this much when he greets the person on the other end in his liveliest tone at first, volume decreasing as the conversation continues. He’s soon hushed enough for you to not really make out proper words anymore. Hums here and there — Jungkook doesn’t seem to say much at all.

Perhaps it’s Yoongi, or Tae, telling a story. Narrating recent occurrences, the joys and pains that emerged and shrivelled on the vacation that you weren’t part of anymore.

You don’t ask just yet, decide not to disturb.

You finish up whatever is left of your routine, setting the make up and ruffling through your hair, adding volume. When the talk he’s indulging in still remains when you deem yourself ready, you let out a breather and step back into the bedroom.

Still in the same clothes and with the untamed hair as his crown, Jungkook’s gaze is lowered, fingers barely curled into the sheets. He’s sat up now; you see his Adam’s apple bob when you walk in. Instinctively and immediately, you blurt, “Now what did I tell you just a moment ago—”

But the jest dries in your throat and then fades, as dead as Jungkook’s eyes when he looks up at you. Or maybe… maybe they’re not dead.

More so — in disbelief. As if he hasn’t really fathomed what he’s just heard, mind sprinting in circles, attempting to understand.

His chest isn’t moving as it should, and just in general, his body emits inner trouble. Distress. When he lifts his pupils and shifts them towards you, it looks as if he’s hoping that your presence could reverse reality, as if you’re pulling him out of the inevitable quicksand.

But you can’t. You get it; see it right away.

Because the watery gaze and the gap between his lips, this expression, are new to you, no matter how many of his aches you’ve mended. And you guess it has something to do with what his conversation partner just said.

Something that certainly wasn’t part of today’s agenda at all.

the way i even had to change the banner bc it'd be such a spoiler lmaoooo but yeah anyways, what do we think? y'all's thought always help immensely, and life has been so busy that writing took a backseat – getting back into it is hard. but you guys offer so many theories as well as love and always motivate me, so come and let's talk <3

[faiell]

yapping about fics and commenting

sorry to yap but work is boring today and tumblr isn't blocked on my work computer LOL

ok it's abt that post where the writer friend stopped writing because they weren't getting the comments/kudos they wanted.

i'm like. an overeager fandom person. like i cannot get into a fandom without wanting to meet new people and make friends. i love yapping about whatever silly gay idiots i'm hyperfixating over. i'm all about community, and sharing the joy of fandom, and all that fun positive stuff.

i don't post my art for stats but like. that means nothing coming from me tbh. i get stats. i can't accurately predict what would happen if i stopped getting notes on my art, but i would probably keep drawing and keep posting, just maybe less confidently, and less often. i recognize that stats make it much easier and while it’s not my primary motivation, it definitely motivates me to keep posting.

and yet. for years, i never commented on fic. i think i left kudos? and i saw posts like this all the time about how writers were so sad they didn't get comments. and i would feel super guilty about it all the time. but i still wouldn't do it! it sounds stupid, but i would feel pressured. if i liked a fic a lot, it felt even more difficult to comment, because i thought i would have to somehow give back to the author everything that fic gave to me. i wanted to craft the perfect comment that could perfectly encapsulate everything a fic made me feel. and that was way too much pressure so i would just not say anything.

when i got into drarry, i started reading a shit ton of fic. and i still wouldn't comment. i left maybe... 2 or 3 comments, maybe, i think. i can't remember. but i had a lot to say and i WANTED the writers to hear that i had read it and liked it. i just... didn't comment! u know what i did instead? i just fucking straight up DM'd writers on discord and started gushing to them that i liked their fic. somehow i was confident enough to do that, but writing a comment still felt like too much pressure. ?? i don't understand it either, but in my head it felt like a writing assignment, but when I was in DMs it felt more like a conversation and so there wasn't any pressure to make it "good"? idk!! it's very weird.

then i wrote and posted my first complete fic. just a oneshot, nothing special, and i was like. UNREASONABLY nervous about posting it. like. i am a confident person, okay? i was going to make a burner AO3 account and post it under a different name so nobody would know it was me, and then never mention it to anyone except MAYBE super close friends. i got talked out of doing that (thanks i feel a bit silly about considering that now). and then i received my first comment on it, which was basically a two-liner where someone said they liked it and thanked me for writing it.

and i was like. ??...?????? ???????? ...??!!! because i felt like... uncontainable glee? i was freakishly happy. the amount of serotonin those two sentences gave me was definitely unnatural.

is that healthy? idk. will it continue? idk. LOL. i hope so? but idk, some people said it wears off if you write/post for a while. but whatever, the fact that one little comment like that could make my entire day blew my mind. tbh i thought writers were just exaggerating when they said stuff like that.

ever since then i started leaving comments! that shit's easy! like what was i overthinking for? i'm such a fucking tryhard! all i gotta say is that i liked it, and even the bare minimum can bring lots of joy to someone.

so basically what im trying to say is that negative reinforcement doesn't do shit!! it just makes people feel bad about themselves. that post is nasty for guilt-tripping readers like that, and i bet you it's going to have the opposite effect (or no effect tbh).

YAPPING FINISHED. for now.

[rosiarie]

2025 intentions

this year was a blur for me. i've died and been reborn more times than i can count. in all, 2024 was a year of change. i learned so many things, fell in love for the first time, and i've changed as a person. i was my most happiest and the most sad i've been. what i've learned is that time waits for no one, and in the time that i am alive, i want to live a life i am proud of. to be pure in the face of adversity is a strength i wish to keep. <3

here are my intentions for 2025:

quotidian:

wake up early - my earliest class next quarter is a 12 am, so i want to wake up early enough to eat breakfast at the dining commons and before the bathrooms are cleaned - around 9:10 am - to get ready for the day. i've noticed that my best days are the days i wake up early, wear a well-planned outfit, pack my bag diligently, and eat breakfast. i feel like i haven't wasted the day.

eat 3 meals a day - i struggled with eating breakfast as a first year my first quarter since i had a 10 am and breakfast closes at 11 am, so i skipped my breakfast every day. i only ate breakfast four or three times! counting weekends too. this is clearly unhealthy, and i noticed it took a toll on my health, sleeping schedule, and academic life.

sleep before 12 pm - my sleeping habits have been soso unhealthy and doom scrolling has just worsened it. i will allow myself the pleasure of still doom scrolling some nights, but i will not allow myself to sleep late anymore. it is very unhealthy, and it wrecks the rest of your next day, too.

journal daily - journaling daily was never one of those things i cared for. i've always cared about journaling, but i've always prioritized journaling as a weekly chore. i want to start journaling every night, at least three sentences, about something that stood out to me about the day. un petit souvenir à souvenir. i always journal in a narrative sense (i can make a post more on this!) rather than a "what i did today" which i am so glad i do because it makes reading back so much more fun!

read every other day - i've (so far.. there's still a few more days of 2024!) read 19 books in 2024, which to some may be a grand lot, but i have read so much more in the past! i do enjoy reading so much, but it feels more like a hobby now than a habit (which it used to be). i used to enjoy reading in the sense of just immersion, and i would pick any random story i was curious about. nowadays, i seem to find myself reading only one genre, which i want to change. in 2025, i plan to read more nonfiction texts and other genres; books that'll teach me things as well as novels for pleasure.

gym 4x a week - it's true what they say, physical exercise 100% helps boost serotonin levels and health in general! going to the gym more will help my mood, sleep, and confidence. i want to work on my body before summer, and look as good as i feel. i believe in myself to gain the body i want!

less partying - as a college freshman, you are kind of pressured to go out and party (mostly by your own fomo than from other people). it's what you think you're supposed to like. but i've come to my own conclusion that though partying can be fun, it's not something that i want to continue to do every friday. being hungover on saturday, not being able to do any work, and cramming all of sunday evening has been damaging to both my health and grades. i want to set my intentions of going out better, maybe once or twice a month when i know i can relax or genuinely want to. even if i feel like "i've earned it", if i don't really want to experience the side effects, i won't. that also makes partying during special occasions like halloweekend, st. fratty's day, and sorority/frat mixers to name a few more fun !

less entertaining things not meant for you - as a college freshman, i've had countless guys coming up to me, dming me, and asking me out. i either refrain from dming them back or softly reject them. but with some, i have talked to a little or gone on a date or two. though it's good practice, honestly, it was a waste of time. like any girl, i would love to have a caring and intelligent bf, but it isn't something i want to actively seek. my education and self-improvement have to be at the forefront of my mind, and i'm taking men out of the picture. until i meet the right man who meets all my qualifications, no matter how good-looking or charming a guy is, if his intentions aren't pure and his presence is not bringing actual value into my life, i'm not entertaining it no longer.

academic:

start early on new material before class - there was a girl in one of my classes last quarter that told me she would review the chapter before our prof went over it in class. i told myself, i'm going to do that now! but i never did. she understood the concepts soo well in that class, and i want to implement this trick to help me next quarter too!

pack my bag the night before - i'm always missing my hand cream or a water bottle in my bag when i pack it before class. doing this saves sm time and is much more efficient than running out of your door late!!

study everyday - no more cramming - i've always been a procrastinator and crammer. i fooled myself into thinking studying the few days before helped better, but honestly, that only helped my short-term memory retention skills. long-term understanding > short-term memory. i mainly want to study economics daily, but also languages, such as retaining french (non-native but fluent) and learning chinese (beginner!).

more study dates - now this can get a little iffy because sometimes studying with friends leads to being distracted from your work. but personally, i've spent my first quarter as a college freshman studying mostly with myself. i regret this so much because it is so fun when you do study with friends [that know when to lock in]. eating afterwards, getting a sweet treat, chatting a little, are all ways to keep yourself sane while studying.

anyways,

that's all for today. let me know what kind of posts you guys are interested in from me. this is my first "real" tumblr blog post, so pls be nice lol ! i would love to hear from you guys :) i will probably post 2-3x a week.

remember that you are protected. no weapon formed against you shall prosper. bisous!

[galaxyedging]

Personal post TW:anxiety, depression, disordered eating.

I'm openly about my struggles with anxiety and depression. They stem from my ND conditions and my medical ones.

The one thing I'm not so open about is my disorder eating. I am a binge eater. I have a compulsion to eat sugar and junk food even when I'm not hungry. I plan my day around making sure I have access to junk food. When things are really bad, I will get stressed out if I don't have at least two different types of food to binge even if I have a large amount of one.

If I try to cut down on food, it is all I think about. It changes my moods. I become stressed and agitated. I can't rest until I eat again. I feel empty and starved even after food if it isn't junk or sugary.

I don't normally speak about it because I'm ashamed. I'm ashamed of my lack of self-control. I tried to reach out for help and was dismissed by my GP.

That was my rock bottom. That's when I decided to stop letting the battle overwhelm me. I stopped being ashamed and started being kind to myself when no one else would. I unpicked all my needs and health issues and put things in place.

For my poor interoception, 2-3ltrs of water a day so I don't confuse hunger and thirst.

For my ADHD: Ashwagandha to help curb my cortisol levels. A low dose of SSRIs to keep my serotonin up so I don't crave quick fixes.

I take medication and supplements to manage my medical conditions so I don't feel tired or sad and go for quick fixes for energy or to cheer me up.

I don't eat any of my trigger foods. (I've found that if I need a treat, ice cream doesn't set off my need for more sugar.) I prioritise protein to keep my energy levels steady.

I keep away from my usual 'all or nothing' mentality. If I slip, I get back to it as soon as possible. If I can't exercise, I don't let my nutrition slip.

Every day is still a battle. Some are worse than others, but I'm hopeful that it will get easier with time. Last time, I made it to 90 days without over half of these things in place.

[callsignhood]

hi hoodie!! just wanna let you know that you're very loved and cherished, talking from personal experience! i check your blog everyday! it's sad Tumblr doesn't let me comment but I'd love to show my appreciation on your posts with comments rather than send asks 😭 anywho! just wanna tell you that you're amazing and your blog is amazing your blog aesthetic is amazing despite it blinding me everytime but that's okay 🫶 and your drawings AND writings are really amazing too! i visit your blog everytime i need a lil serotonin boost or some comfort or familiarity and I'm so sorry if that's creepy or I'm being sappy but you have no idea how much i freaking love your blog, i really wanna make fanart for you or draw your persona but idk what your persona is like so if you please could give me a description that'd be as lovely as you and your presence (which are really lovely btw) thank you and have a good night I'm sorry if I'm too much!! 🫶

Hi! Thank you for your kind words, I’m actually having a bad day, and this made me smile. 😢🩵 I’m thankful that you’re enjoying my amateur sketches. I unfortunately don’t have a persona, but I’m building my own CoD OC, here’s my Canadian moose boy. 🇨🇦 It’s wonderful to hear that you wanna draw fanart, I’m very flattered. Also sorry lmao I’m used to drawing white canvas, I’ll try to draw on grey! Sorry to hear you can’t comment yet, you can DM me straight up if you want

[icepoptroll]

🌟⭐ headcannons for Ricky Noel Ocean and Constance please:3

So for this one, @cyanidearctic and @panicattheanimeconvention and I all put our heads together to come up with these lol

Happy:

Ricky: He can sign songs with his hands with such expression and joy that it almost looks like he's like. sort of VISUALLY singing. Before, no one knew how awesome it looked when he signs but post-Cyclone the choir would have him incorporate sign language into their routines. Bonus because I'm Ricky-obsessed: his moms take him to all of the comic/sci-fi conventions!!

Noel: He and his mom have days out together wherein they do fun and cost-effective things together. Noel's a major mama's boy, she's his best friend!!

Ocean: Post-Cyclone she was amazed to find how much happier she was as everyone's equal and friend than trying to be everyone's superior. She's so glad she chose love

Constance: Post-Cyclone her baby brother was her rock. She appreciates him and the cute little things he does exponentially more now, watching him play is one of her main sources of serotonin

Sad:

Ricky: He has written down specific care instructions for each of his cats in the event that he passes away. When one of his cats dies he gets a plush cat that looks like it. They're all piled on his bed.

Noel: When his dad left he left behind several hats and coats that Noel spent weeks sleeping on until his dad's scent was gone.

Ocean: You know how sometimes you're just laying awake in bed and you remember something you did years ago that you regret? That's Ocean. All the time. With multiple multiple regrets about multiple multiple people.

Constance: People who have known her for years would forget her name, call her "Cristin" or "Carla" cause yeah that sounds about right I guess. Her kindness was often taken advantage of.

[nnightskiess]

🌼 dating cara ward... part two

contains spoilers (book&series)

☾ ⋆*·ﾟ:⋆*·ﾟ:⠀ *⋆.*:·ﾟ .: ⋆*·ﾟ: .⋆

⋆*·ﾟ You once made Cara a friendship bracelet with your name on it, back when you were just friends, but she hasn't taken it off ever since.

⋆*·ﾟ You go to all of her tennis matches. At first, it ruined her concentration and filled her with nerves but as time went on and your relationship became more serious, she needed you there as her very own good luck charm or she just knew it would be a shit match.

⋆*·ﾟ Afterwards, you always eat a cheat meal together as a reward. As you sit on her bedroom floor, tightly pressed together, eyes fixated on the newest episode of Love Island and both with a plate of chip butties in hand, she always falls in love with you a little more.

⋆*·ﾟ Her father gave her and Naomi two bunnies to care for after their mother passed. While Naomi took care of them less and less as time went on, Cara, even to this day, still passionately looks after them. With the help of Connor, she named them Dottie, (because it had a couple of different coloured spots) and Button (because of its cute nose). She always beams when she sees you with them. Definitely has photos of you sitting in the grass in her backyard during a picnic with her, as the bunnies curiously examine the leftover strawberry you're offering them.

⋆*·ﾟ Joining sleepovers with her friends in Connor's backyard. Pop-up tents, watching movies on a laptop, pizza, games and later snuggling up to Cara while falling asleep = prime quality time.

⋆*·ﾟ Naomi has you on speed dial in case Cara ever comes home looking sullen or whenever she goes quiet. As soon as you walk into the house and Cara sees you, she's beaming again. Naomi likes to tease you're her sister's serotonin source, but she loves how happy you make Cara.

⋆*·ﾟ Speaking of a sad Cara... where she would first only be having off days as often as any other person, she does turn more quiet after her father's secret is revealed. Despite having you and her friends in her corner, she still cannot ignore the people who stare at her whenever she walks by. She'll forever be associated with the Andie and Sal case, as the daughter of a killer. But the fact that her own father harboured such a secret and was capable of all he did, has messed a little with her head. It's a topic you tiptoed around for a little while. Also because you didn't need to ask how she felt, you could feel. But Cara knows you're her person and that she can open up when she's ready.

⋆*·ﾟ After her mother passed she tried to be as strong as she could when she saw how badly Naomi was struggling with it. Only Pip ever saw the tears that fell, but she counts herself the luckiest to have you in her corner now too. She often tells you stories about her mother when it's just the two of you and a ghost of a smile always appears on her face as she recounts the memories.

⋆*·ﾟ When she isn't locking you into her embrace to watch a show on her bed, she's definitely pulling you along to any adventure she can. Indoor rock climbing? She's already booked the place. Going for an impromptu dip in the lake? She's packing her stuff as we speak. Biking to the city to watch the newest film that has one of her celebrity crushes in it? She's grabbing her bike and ringing your door, telling you to hop on and hold tight.

⋆*·ﾟ No matter how much she likes her phone and her socials and taking plenty of pictures of the two of you to then post and flaunt on the internet, nothing can ever beat the time you spend together with your phones off. It's cute how serious she is when it comes to her phone usage when you're around. This also means she tries to come up with things to do that don't involve screen time. It helps you feel like you're really in your own little world when it's just the two of you on some adventure.

⋆*·ﾟ That's also how her friends know she's with you. If she doesn't pick up, she's either asleep, or spending time with you.

⋆*·ﾟ You have a few of her clothes that have ended up in your closet after sleepovers, but they're yours now and Cara wouldn't want it any other way. When you sleep in her oversized shirt? Or when you show up at school during a gloomy day all snugly wrapped up in her jumper? Girly's heart goes boom boom boom. She definitely takes something of yours too, but she's a little secretive about it and you probably won't find out until you're desperately searching for the clothing item and she's just looking at you with a secretive grin. Having something cosy of yours to wear whenever you can't be with her, always calms her down and grounds her.

⋆*·ﾟ She's SO smitten with you, and you can often catch her staring at you as if you put the stars in the sky for her. It's the most adorable look ever. Little glances through the rearview mirror when you're in the car with her friends... glancing over her shoulder to look at you in class... or just admiring you while you're talking about something you're passionate about. It's cute, and she definitely gets teased for it by Lauren.

⋆*·ﾟ No matter how adorable she can be, she also houses a ton of dirty jokes or comments she can whip out at any given moment. It often catches you off-guard, but it's exactly why she does it— to see you flustered.

⋆*·ﾟ Cara likes it when you paint each other's nails with some music softly playing in the background. And she can never help the giggles when you scold her for not being able to wait long enough for it to not smudge. She's used to chapped nail polish though, since she likes to play the guitar a lot. But perhaps that's also an excuse so that you can paint her nails again.

⋆*·ﾟ If you don't know how to play the guitar yet, she will definitely use that as an excuse to pull you onto her lap and help you strum the right rhythm and hit the right chords with her arms around you, guiding you.

⋆*·ﾟ Jumping on your bed and goofing off while blasting Chappell Roan or any other artist you're both in love with will always paint a smile on her face that will stay there for the rest of the day.

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this was in my drafts for way too long, but i figured it was long over due with this week's release of the series </3

[fairytail-whathesays]

hiiii, i love basically all of ur takes, its so validating knowing that you're not the only one hating on jellal, jerza, elfever, etc while being down 4/shipping cobra/laxus. if u want, can u give ur opinion on cana/lucy and ur fav wlw ships in fairy tail? u can answer it in one post idc if its long, answer one question, or split it into 2. have a good day!

Sure! Anything for a fellow Cobraxus shipper!

Cana/Lucy:

It's more vibes than a ship I'm diehard into but I like it more than NaLu or any other wlw Lucy ship--they have actual chemistry and a basis for some drama with the shared daddy issues. Lucy definitely deserves someone as down to earth as Cana and when every other woman in Fairy Tail is Legitimately Insane, it's an easy ship to root for. I really like that Cana is flawed while still interesting as a character and her partnering up with Lucy is one of the best partnerships of the Tenrou arc.

Other WLW ships that I like in Fairy Tail include:

ErzaJane is a crucial, time-honored ship rising on a thermal column of thick BST and contrasting personalities. Knight vs. Demon. Red and white. Sweet versus serious. Aesthetically it's a 10/10.

SoraNerva, also a color contrast and attitude contrast, is like if you took the above and mixed in more knives and evil women. Angel and Minerva is easily my favorite WLW ship of Fairy Tail and I'm very sad it doesn't see more attention. Just the vibes alone are deadly good. One names after powerful spiritual beings close to God, and the other named after a Greek goddess of wisdom and warfare. I finally nutted up and wrote something in this direction.

In similar veins, I achieve serotonin boosts from the ships Ultear/Kagura and Ultear/Minerva. Again, I love evil women and I love women with swords. Ultear and Minerva have this time/space dichotomy thing going on and both being women that back up a lot of power with a strategic approach, while Ultear and Kagura are both women driven to make war by the unforgivable crimes committed against them. If, like me, you're willing to ignore Ultear being the one that possessed Jellal (because it was really stupid), it's even better.

Chendy is a wholesome teenage girl ship and is the only valid Wendy ship for obvious reasons.

On the topic of other WLW ships I have thought of or which have at least popped up on my radar:

Lucy and Yukino (Lukino?), Meredy and Juvia, and Aries and Juvia are all ships I've considered before and am open to.

[whatacartouchebag]

So holy shit, just had a commenter apologise for getting excited and commenting on a bunch of my fics, thinking they were being annoying for doing it on works that were so old.

My dude, the oldest one was posted just over a YEAR ago.

Like christ on a cracker, wrapping my head around this mentality genuinely hurts. I still get the fleeting, odd comment on stuff that I posted to an FF.net account I abandoned in 2008. I'm still posting stuff to the same fandom that this commenter is reading fics from! I literally posted something within the last month!

I get that the consumerism of fanworks has taken over fandom spaces entirely. I get it, but fuck me if I detest it dearly. If something's not sitting on the front page of a tag, it's just considered dead, and I hate it.

Not to be all old man yells at cloud, but the way being a part of any sort of fandom space means playing a number game from hell these days is honestly the worst feeling. We're not in it for the numbers! We never were! The numbers are the smallest pip of serotonin on our radar compared to actual feedback and comments.

When this person first came into my inbox, and I saw a string of four of five email notifs come in to say I'd received a new comment, my dudes, I CRIED. Teared up like a bitch, because that's something that's so rare and beautiful and I've never seen it happen before. I honestly felt so blessed and warm and fuzzy. The fact this person took the time out of their day to read it and tell me the parts they liked, tell me they passed a couple of these fics onto others, just tell me a solemn thank you for writing what I do...

THAT'S WHAT I WRITE FOR.

No, I don't crave praise. No, it doesn't fill my ego.

It's about putting something out there into the void and hearing an echo finally. It's about standing up on stage and waiting for someone in the audience to make any sort of response other than cough and shuffle out the door. It's about knowing we've hit some sort of emotional response in our readers, because that's the ONLY way we know what we're doing is working. It's the ONLY way we know how to improve.

It just... it makes me so sad to know that we're only ever seen as products these days, not people. I love creating. I love being able to write, but it just hurts so much when it feels like no one else out there cares, you know?

Because that's what fandom culture is these days.

It honestly feels like no one cares, and fans are actively apologising for existing.

Like what the fuck went wrong along the way to nurture this mentality and how do we surgically remove it with a chainsaw.

[002yb]

You are such a gift to the dickjay truthers and enjoyers (like myself); and an even bigger gift to the babygirl jason todd agenda. I've literally consumed everything you've written about them, and i love you and your writing so much. I hope ur having a great fucking day. and thank you so much for sharing your writing with us!!!! Its genuinely so appreciated, and i can literally feel the serotonin rush in my brain whenever you post something new. Like I'm genuinely in love with your dick grayson, it's a problem.

Excuse me as I ugly cry in a corner, omg. Anon, this is such a kind and thoughtful message that I think I was dearly in need of - thank you so much for this. (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)♡ I'm so happy that you enjoy my dkjy posts! This ship is so dear to me, as are my many agendas hahaha (maiden!Jason, babygirl!Jason, degenerate!Dick, monstrous!Dick); it's really uplifting to know that you've enjoyed my posts and that they've brought you some happiness. (ㅅ´ ˘ `)♡♡♡ Thank you for the support and encouragement and for reading; you're very sweet!

And that you enjoy how I write Dick omg something about this particular comment delights me so much, thank you!

Soppy updates below the cut because I know the posts have been generally scarce and lacking lately and I feel bad for ghosting orz:

Writing hasn't been enjoyable for me for some time now. Everything is so jumbled in my head that even trying to daydream a plot is frustrating/overwhelming. It's just been a big fight to create anything and it's been discouraging, to say the least. Not sure if it's burnout or if that creative spark died, but to go from being teeming with all the thoughts and ideas to being so empty is very sad for me.

But yeah, all that to say that I apologize for posting less and potentially posting rough things. Trying to find that joy again; wish me luck!

[thedreadvampy]

am I actually legitimately upset or am I Tired: the eternal question

I'm having. A really bad brain time. And nobody who could help has any FUCKING time to talk to me. I just want Friending!!!!!