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my toxic trait is that i suffer from cstfuabtvs (can't shut the fuck up about buffy the vampire slayer)
#buffy the vampire slayer#btvs#buffyverse#buffyedit#buffy summers#buffy btvs#willow rosenberg#willow btvs#xander harris#xander btvs#seriously its a problem#send help
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Sometimes I wonder if my psychiatrist even knows me.... That might be caused by me not telling her about the fact that I created so many fake scenarios in my head to the point that they all get jumbled together and keep me awake at night... But yeah it's my psychiatrist fault that she can't put a name to what I have.
#theres actually something wrong with me#i get no sleep#seriously its a problem#ive slept 5 hours this week#blame the psychiatrist
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Siblings never meant to be
#qsmp#qsmp tallulah#qsmp tilin#tallulah the egg#tallulah fanart#tilin fanart#tallulah my beloved#theyre very silly#i cannot get these fucking eggs out of my head#seriously its a problem
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have multiple fics from AU-gust that are unfinished but sitting at 10k words and I don't know what to do with them š
Breaking news! Fic author starts writing a fic thinking it will be short and it turns out to be long! It is not the first time nor will it be the last!
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#gojo satoru#megumi fushiguro#jjk art#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk leaks#pulled another allnighter fr Angst's sake cries i havent slept.......but i couldnt help myself i was out all DAY i hadnt drawn all DAY#do u know what that does to a mf i felt all antsy and Wrong#so i cracked an energy drink i think i may have a problem honestly but hey at least u get ur daily dose of megumi angst#remember how i said i considered including gojo in the yuuji/tsumiki/megu squared train piece#well this is me making up fr Not including him there#i ws right his and megumi's relationship deserves its own homage smile :)#anyway @ anon who wanted a gojo/megumi hug.....ik it's not exactly a hug but you can forgive me im sure <3#dare i say it's better than hugs jeremy.....#honestly fr all my gripes w gojo i Did get kind of emo abt this?? but i feel like. the majority of my emotions r on megumi's behalf#also might have been the mukashi mukashi no kyou no boku on repeat that'll also do it#seriously debated putting translated lyrics as the caption but it feels like a copout doing 2 lyric-captions in a row#also i do have some shame. miku lyrics r a bit.#anyway art notes uhhhhh finally got gojo's hair to not look Yuuji#who knew the trick was to make it longer smh maybe sleep deprivation n 10 hours of staring at a screen Does make simple problems hard#oh file name 'proud of you' btw
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I am going to be a bitch about having to go back to school tomorrow because wtf man. I was having fun yk
#school ruins lives fr#on a fr note the only thing i dont like about school is friend drama#like shut up your boyfriends are all problematic. stop taking your friends exes. if you date my ex girlfriend im probrably blocking you#seriously its a problem#many of them were accused of S.A. but nobody has taken action.#anyway im a proud straight a student teachers pet!#and a quiet kid who knows everyones drama. i could blackmail my entire grade if i wanted to#that seems mean tho so idk
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gojo and megumi headcannon:
gojo has a notebook of all the times megumi has called him dad. the dates, time, scenario, everything you can think of and he always brings it up whenever megumi argues with him over literally anything
"You would argue with your father?"
"You're not my-"
"September 5-"
"SHUT UP,"
#gojo satoru#jjk gojo#dad gojo#gojo and megumi#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi headcanons#megumi fushiguro#jjk megumi#i am a gojo and megumi enthusiast#like seriously#its becoming a problem
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Girl help I'm fantasizing about being swept off my feet and out of my shitty life but my mind can't settle on what this lovely person looks like.
#ramblings#seriously its a problem#the trouble with having very very broad preferences#man? woman? neither? both? any of the above?
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Everyday is a good day when I handle stress without throwing up.
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An Well Made Excuse To Post My Specific Headcanons I've Had Since The Show Came Out
#bro fought his way thru those two only to burn the house down#anyway kdsjfsdf#that doodle and that comic werent actually made for eachother#i just wanted an excuse to post my oddly specific sleep headcanon lol#I like to think Uzi is so restless because shes always thinkin abt smth (whether that be stressful or not)#N sleeps like a rock and usually doesn't move; if its just him and Uzi he'll usually curl around her so she can't fall off the bed#V's had the habit since she was a worker#Tessa would always make excuses to have sleepovers w/ her fave drones#and it was usually J's problem of being cuddled to death by a sleeping V#nowadays the only way V gets peaceful sleep is the reassurance that Uzi or N are still there#hence the N dog plush in the comic dsklfjsldkfj#I have more headcanons of this variety (like for J) but i'll stop here#thanks for reading again! you guys really like to point out my tags and it makes me giggle everytime#anyway BYE :]#murder drones#serial designation n#serial designation v#uzi doorman#envuzi#enzi#violentbiscuitbites#< i seriously love that shipname btw. I love MD ship names#i love having been here so long I could tell you who made the og names everyone built off of. I think fandom is good sometimes (sometimes)
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just thinking about how binghe had no idea that without-a-cure even had a cure and he spent all his years as a disciple thinking his shizun would at best be disabled for the rest of his life and at worst die a slow and painful death, and it was to save him.
#svsss from binghe's pov would be heartbreaking#stagnating qi is described as ''a profoundly terrifying problem'' to cultivators#and yue qingyuan and mu qingfang were devastated and started blaming themselves for it#shen yuan's goofy personality makes it easy to forget that everyone else has no idea about these magical cures and future events#and that theyre seriously worried about him and feel guilt for not being able to stop it#binghe must have felt so much guilt too#especially with the way he was raised#the way its set up is so tragic too#binghe says that that moment was the first time someone has ever believed in him like that#and then immediately sqq gets badly wounded with an incurable poison#it must have fed into dark-binghe'a beliefs that he destroys everything he touches too#argh sad hours#i just love bingqiu angst<3#bingqiu#svsss#shen qingqiu#luo binghe#svsss angst#scum villianās self saving system#scum villain
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Man, it's cool and all if you see a metaphor for marginalisation in the monstrous, and if you want the power fantasy of 'what if you could just eat anybody who threatened you/pissed you off'. Me too.
However, as soon as you start saying 'no, these monsters are a 1:1 on Specific Marginalised Group, and you have to treat them in the fiction like they are directly representative of real human members of the marginalised group', BUT you also, in the fiction, make them hurt/kill/eat humans? And then try to shame me, your audience, for noticing or engaging with the bit where they kill people, because you made them directly representative of a real-world marginalised group? You have lost me, and also, I think, the plot.
#hear yourself. for the love of whatever you cherish.#'but they only kill bigots so ACTUALLY they're the GOOD GUYS -' your metaphor of monstrosity is entirely premised on the question of#'what if what you went around righteously killing; believing your actions to be justified;#were actually people and it was not in fact righteous or justified to just kill them'#'what if the world isn't neatly split into 'good guys' and 'bad guys'#who gets to decide who or what is 'bad'? because that's the original problem of monstrosity-as-metaphor-for-marginalisation#(if as a creator you say 'oh my intention with this was X' cool!#if instead you go with something like. well.#'well in this setting monsters are so rare it doesn't matter that they kill people and you'd have to be a homicidal sadistic psychopath >#< to hunt them; but sure I guess if you want to play a Bad Person' well I might have#but if you're going to explicitly judge me for wanting to engage with the moral question of 'how justified is this and who would do it#versus how justified are these monsters if they do have to harm or kill people to continue to exist'#then maybe I just don't want to play your game at all)#anyway I'm sick to death of poor uwu cozy vampires who are SO marginalised so I'm not Allowed to care about all the people they murder#it being fucked up is what's fun about it! do all the other shit but let me take the murders seriously!#and inb4 someone accuses me of being a bigot for saying 'actually I don't think you get a free pass to kill and eat people if you're gay'#remember when the CW's famously reactionary and conservative Supernatural tried to just gloss over the part where every time its heroes >#< killed a demon with a magic knife it also killed the person the demon was possessing#and say 'oh no it's fine we don't care about those killings; they don't matter; don't bother caring about them either'#but they were doing it to glorify exactly the kind of people that these 'monster as metaphor' stories are trying to cast as expendable?#I have other examples that are like. real dramas. but That Paranormal Show is the one that's in the same niche that I'm talking about here#it feels more insidious when it comes through a fantasy show where there are monsters involved#so you can say 'no it's not real so it doesn't matter'#but then ALL of it is equally not real. and vampires are not actually an oppressed group. because they don't exist.#you can say 'these vampires are a metaphor for an oppressed group so this fiction matters in real life'#or you can say 'don't care about the murders because they weren't actually real'#but you can't say both and then get mad at ME for treating the murders as seriously as the vampires#let me engage with your premise and don't waste my fucking time#or just set your fluff in the Sesame Street universe where vampires drink cherry Kool-Aid and help kids learn to count
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TW: mentions of pretty much everything terrible. š, trafficking, all of the above.
CLASS OF 09 RANT, FLIP SIDE SPOILERS
Ok not my usual post (Iāve posted twice ik but shush) but what the freak was the flip side??ā¦.. I was a huge fan of class of 09 + the re up but this game was so.. whatās the wordā¦.. dog shit? Even if we ignore half of the game being about the creators weird foot fetish, the sl@ve ending was so unnecessary. I feel like the only thing in that route that was worth writing was the issue in retail work and that wasnāt even the star focus, let alone side focus. The main plot of that route was the counselor having some weird illegal š½ warehouse, jecka finding it, and then him blackmailing her into human š š ing?
The only ending I thought was necessary IF THAT was when Jecka found Nicole after the sue a side ending from re up. I thought it did a decent job at talking about sue a side victims, and how nobody really cares about them until itās too late, And even then they only care for a week or so and then move on.
But the Jeffery dying one was the most out of place in my opinion (unfortunately it beats the foot ending.) For starters, Nicole was really out of character imo, like yeah sheās talked about wishing Jeffery was dead before, but her actually killing him just out of boredom is so odd. Her entire character is āI donāt put effort into anything unless it benefits me.ā Killing Jeffrey was not only ALOT of effort, but she gained absolutely nothing. On top of that, saying itās different than doing. Like how she talked about wishing her mom was dead, but then when she had a heart attack, she panicked. Plus, she PLANNED on making Jecka take some of the blame on his death, which she stated in past games she wouldnāt do. She literally never put Jecka in harms way, let alone jail if it didnāt also benefit them both. But this didnāt, she just did it to do it.
While weāre talking about Nicole being out of character, I feel it valid to mention her and Jeckas dad. For obvious (and gross) reasons, I wonāt be detailing this, but her doing that to Jecka wasnāt fully out of character, but still odd. Like I mentioned earlier, Nicole never really did anything to spite Nicole, so I find it odd that she did in this game. You could blame it on āoh sheās a sociopath she doesnāt care.ā But I donāt think thatās inherently true. Yeah, I guess itās canon sheās a sociopath, but in that case they do a bad job at consistency. Sheās shown in both games 1 and 2 caring about people sheās close with, whether itās Jecka, her mom, or even Emily in one segment. So I find it completely random that she did this to Jecka over something as small as not sharing how she got into foot work. Jeckas done much worse stuff to Nicole, and Nicole just didnāt care because they were friends, or didnāt feel the need to put effort into doing something if she did care. So yeah, Nicole basically screwing Jeckas dad over something so little felt out of character.
One of the few things that bothered me the least, but I feel the need to mention was the foot work stuff. Not because it was out of character, i fear Iāve seen worse stuff mentioned in that game. But I guess the way it was portrayed as less of a story plot and more of the creator trying to live out his fantasies. He himself has stated Jeffrey is basically a self insert, so the whole being sexually obsessed with Jecka and her feet felt REALLY weird. Compared to Nicoleās my space favor thing, this just felt dirty. For comparison. Both Jecka and Nicole took up sex work to keep a home life or lackthereof, they both got money from strangers to do sexual things, and they both hated doing it. But why did Jeckas feel so much more personal and gross? Because the actual sex work was shown. In graphic detail. And all of Jeffreyās (the creators) personal thoughts were stated with no backlash. Jeffery literally asked Jecka if she would šfeed him, and he was excused. When Nicole was asked the same hing from the same guy, he was insulted, yelled at, even told to leave.
So, creepy creator whoās obsessed with his barely legal characters, Jecka being sold to š šing agaisnt her will, Jeffrey being murdered for no reason other than a giggle or two from his haters, Jecka accidentally killing Ari cause she was drunk driving, feet fan service, and fan service in general aside, the game is left only with the regular drug and alcohol abusage we always see. which in the game that was advertised as a new experience felt really stale and honestly left me bored. The ONE SINGULAR time during this game that I giggled was when the hat man appeared in the Ari route.
If youāve fully ignored everything I said in this, maybe didnāt care, or didnāt even read it. Id just like to mention for everyone that the creator of this game said that anybody who disliked him, his games, his writing, or his humor were kid diddlers. In full seriousness. So yeah, no shock this game was bad, but I guess I shouldnāt have expected better from someone who thinks his haters are all child likers. All this being said, I enjoyed class of 09, and the re up. Iām hoping the anime episode that comes out soon with be a decent save. all of THAT being said, I donāt support this creator. I donāt support his actions, I think heās a shitty person whoās made some shitty jokes, but made some not so shitty games that I decently enjoyed. I also havenāt bought them, so none of my money has gone towards him or his projects. I in NO WAY support him. Thanks for reading.
Feel free to comment down some of your own opinions if you feel so inclined, Iām interested in what everyone else thought of this game :))
#class of 09#class of 09 flipside#class of 09 the re up#co09 jecka#co09 nicole#co09 emily#co09#Iām just a tad upset because I was so hype for this game#and it was doo doo#like really bad#terrible imo compared to 1 and 2#but donāt tell SBN3 cause heāll call me a kid liker#cause thatās how that works I guess#anyways#yeah feel free to ignore me#also donāt take me too seriously#Iām serious but I fear this is such a non issue#so yeah again donāt take me seriously#unless u want to#then thatās ur problem tho#class of 09 jeckole#jeckole#jeckole was so canon in this game tho hello???z#jecka literalky asked Nicole to date her#twice#and Nicole asked her the same thing last game#so its basically canon#haha#Iām delusional but happy#jeckole or emicole?
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i'm not built for online friendships if i'm being totally honest like i *can* do it but the fastest way to my heart is and has always been roadtrips involving at least some risk of grievous bodily harm
#mumbling#or plane trips i will also accept those#actually walks also work its pretty much just about the transience and the danger#its very simple and easy we all just have to see who we become in a crisis. what truths reveal themselves under the purifying light of fear#and then how we all recompose ourselves in the aftermath (can be even more telling! this is known)#and then it's pretty much just straight vibes from there on out#we can all go get drinks or play volleyball or smth#see this is the problem being raised with unusually limited internet access compared to most of your peers#it has some upsides such as never developing the ability to take fandom discourse seriously but like. the gas costs ALONE
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I tried drawing a nbc Lilia loosely inspired by the vampires
#not tagging properly#hello its been a while#was debating making his outfit more greyscale#but i feel like lilia would have a more colourful outfit#it suits him more#also guess who found out they have adhd#fully understand now why i go through art dry spells#tried medication but i now have a heart palpitation problem now with meds#fated to not get god powers and suffer#seriously i took vyvanse for the first time ever and it changed my life#so disappointed#insert crying emoji here#i had a taste of what being normal was like#...#sorry i dont have more art to post#when i have motivation#ive been drawing terrible looking bl on the side#but no way im posting that here
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Successfully just prioritized my own mental health and quit my retail job!
I did it scared and alone and crying and full of compulsive shame, but I survived.
Some context:
I found my mom passed out on the floor the other day and it turns out she needs a heart stent for a 90% blocked artery. Untreated it would have ultimately led to a heart attack. I know I'm not the only person who's found their mother unconscious on the floor but I can't imagine it's easy for anyone.
She's doing good right now though! She's expected to make a full recovery, but the emotional toll plus CPTSD made the situation so much worse for us. It also triggered a huge breakdown ( or suspected autistic burnout ) that has left me unable to continue my retail job. That and far too many problems with the job itself. I was already pretty sure about quitting, but this for sure sped it up.
Anyway! Time to look for remote work. Again...
#so yeah! im officially unemployed but im finding out a lot of new things about myself. i may be autistic#which explains a lot but it also means ive had to completely reframe my lived experience and to tackle problems differently#basically i started seriously considering if i were autistic and its motivated me to make some big changes in my life#but it also feels like im starting from the bottom again or even lower. and its hard but my self compassion has undoubtedly improved!
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