#selfcare threads

[sk-lumen]

Pearls of wisdom from journaling & therapy

chasing people who ghost you, mistreat you, ignore you, is a trauma response. you're re-enacting a similar dynamic from your childhood in hopes that you can change the outcome and feel "fixed" or "worthy" of good treatment finally

you go for emotionally unavailable partners for one of 2 reasons: either your self esteem is too low and you think you don't deserve a healthy and reciprocal relationship; or you are protecting your heart by intentionally choosing someone you can't truly connect/resonate with, nor have to fully open up or get attached to

we are attracted to partners that in some way recreate the dynamic we had with our primary caregivers. ie. an emotionally unavailable parent can lead people to chase partners with avoidant attachment styles and/or emotionally unavailable

being obsessed or holding on to an ex, a situationship or unrequitted love of some kind is not always because you were "so in love with them". it's not about emotional attachment. it's about the mental attachment: to what they meant to you, how they made you feel, or a (often toxic) belief you associated with them, and by letting them go you feel you will lose some essential part of yourself (or self concept)

there is no wrong or right choice, it's about creating a foundation for yourself where you feel safe and strong enough to handle the consequences of either action. create a strong foundation within yourself, and you will achieve a newfound confidence and boldness in living the life you've always wanted, because you won't be afraid/anxious anymore of every little decision

[mstudi0s]

Self-Slavery to the Self :

my growing concerns with how self-help/ self-care can become distructive to the mind :

An open-ended essay thread 🤎☁️

Inspired by LeoSkepi

In a time of self-help and working on bettering ourselves. I want to remind people that it is okay if you can not live up to the standard of what people are selling you online. ✨️

There are many videos on the Internet of Men and Women creating content that promotes more of an aesthetic appearance than actual nutrition to the mind. I'm talking about videos such as "My morning routine," "What I eat in a day," "Workout routines," and so much more. ✨️

As much as these videos do make points and can offer an individual, especially a beginner, tips, and even a direction to start going in, in order to begin improving their life. It can also do harm in the process. ✨️

Where this can become an issue is when we start to obsess over this lifestyle and begin to overconsume content similar to it. When this happens, we get so caught up in trying to maintain this appearance of which we have everything put together that, it turns us into a slave. ✨️

You'll start to think that if you miss a day of drinking your lemon water or choose the french fries over the salad, and skip that workout routine cause you got a hangover from partying too hard the night before that now everything is soiled and you failed. ✨️

What these creators are not telling you is behind the scenes of this appearance, and all this aesthetic is that they themselves are human too. They have moments where they don't wanna drink that tea or read that book. Moments where they skip the gym or forget to floss. ✨️

It would be robotic and absurd to show this lifestyle and have the audacity to say that this is something sustainable 24/7 or even forever. And it's not about that what they're showing you is false. It's more about what they're not showing you, and that's the issue. ✨️

Because if there is one thing that is guaranteed in life, it is change. Nothing can last forever, even the good. So, what's the conclusion? All in all, it is ok if you can not live up to the standards or demands that these people are trying to show you or even sell you on. ✨️

It's ok to drink the soda or even stay up till 3 am, nothing bad is going to happen. You can maintain a healthy minded and nutritious lifestyle while still allowing yourself to let loose or splurge a little. ✨️

The End ☘️

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

emerging from the pillow fort in the corner of ur room HERE I AMMM!! hi ari how are u ari?? how is uni? i am here with a very VERY important question it's crucial to our friendship - dr. pepper yes or no?

- @softgirlgonehaywire

MICKEYYYY HI HELLO i am sliding a bag of chips under ur pillow fort <333 playing lofi music so u can sleep <3333

IM DOING GOOD ive been rlly rlly busy and tired BUT i just finished my first course so now i have a bit of free time until the next one starts hehe. im so relieved bc i havent been able to write or read OR plan my movie night but now i finally can!! :3 HOW ABT U MICKEY how is work??? its only a couple weeks left now right?? how r u feeling? have things been going well? <333

but okok. abt ur question. i am shaking n shivering in fear but i cant lie to u .

….. im kind of addicted to dr pepper </3 as a kid my siblings would always go for the classic coke or pepsi and i wanted to be the quirky alien child so i went w pepper but now its like . my comfort drink PHSKDHD ….. i just . i like the name and taste ok … it tastes like laundry detergent and cherries and i think its good …… 👉👈

HOPEFULLY U R ALSO A DR PEPPER ENJOYER or else im expecting an instant block bUT i trust our brain connection yknow …. u love dr pepper soooo bad……. im manifesting it

UR SO SWEET FOR CHECKING IN MICKEY <333 i have a question for u too actually!! what r ur go-to movie snacks… sodas……… etc…. 🧐🧐 what do u recommend for the overall experience i am looking to learn

[kick-thehabit]

tips me

[productivefairy]

Your guide to REAL selfcare

If you go on any social media and type "selfcare", all you recieve is pretty girls doing extravegant skincare, dior makeup and all. But the problem is everyone does the same thing and things just cant work same for everyone. Also, It doesnt feels authentic rather it feels like consumerism. So, I am gonna tell what to do so you feel the best.

Knowing yourself:-

You can only do yourself a favour if you know yourself and the best way to do that is JOURNAL.

If you are new to it, then you can search journal prompt ideas on pinterest and make that a part of your routine. It helps so much.

Do shadow work. Go on pinterest and do the same thing.

Dont be ashamed of yourself, rather accept yourself and change for the better. When you'll journal then you will get to know tons of good and bad things about you but our brain loves to focus on negative things so u might get stuck on that.

Record your likes and dislikes. Which books you loved, which dramas you adore, which food makes you comfy and which movies you wasted your time on. Record these things, this is just so fun and helpful when you feel "bored" or sad.

Being Mindful:-

Most of the time, the problem is not that big but our thoughts just traps us and we feel that problem is bigger than it might so take a step back and try to not overthink about past or future.

I know this is easier said than done but meditating helps a lot with mindfulness.

When you watch a movie or drama or even ytube video then just do that. Dont scroll reddit reading the "discussion" thread of the episode or try to find instrumentals on spotify for reading books. Just do one thing at once.

Dont multitask. Just take a task and then focus on that. (This might not work for neurodivergent people.)

Do 5,4,3,2,1 grounding technique. Identify

5 things you can see 4 things you can feel 3 things you can hear 2 things you can smell 1 thing you can taste.

Cut negative people off

This is so hard because you feel mean for doing this but once you cutoff toxic people who just drags other people down and all they talk is negativity then your life become so much better.

Cut off all the negative content you watch and limit the time you spend on social media.

Do your future self a favour

This is truly the best selfcare.

Study hard cause' your future self will thank you for letting her be the top student

Learn some skills. Read those books. Watch that documentry. Do things that will make your future self proud.

Some selfcare ideas

Organizing and planning

excercise or take a walk.

Reading books.

Cleaning your room

Watching fun movies

Studying about yourself. Knowing what products suits your skin and your hair. What color brighten you and what makes you look dull. What haircut looks good on your face and what clothes flatters on your body.

Get your nails done.

Listen to your fav album while painting, baking, or gardening.

Do your hobby without feeling presurrized. No you dont need to read 50 books a year, chill out and enjoy while doing it.

Dairy writing. Its so fun to read what your day looked like on a random tuesday after 2-3 years.

Explore new things in your hometown. Maybe there is a new cafe that opened 2 weeks ago or there is a hiking trail you are not aware of? its always fun to do that.

[crushfin]

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[rlewisphilly]

Hang in there

Before you speak, remember, be kind. You don’t know what’s happening in someone’s day or world. They could be hanging on by a thread…and for some, that thread is YOU. Enjoy your weekend.

[dineanddiet]

How to Create an Effective Self-Care Checklist Tailored to Your Needs

Self-care has become a buzzword in recent years, and for good reason. Taking care of yourself is essential for your overall well-being and can have a profound impact on your mental, emotional, and physical health. However, self-care is not a one-size-fits-all concept. What works for one person may not work for another. That's why creating a personalized self-care checklist that is tailored to your unique needs is crucial. In this article, we will explore the steps to create an effective self-care checklist that produces results.

Reflect on Your Needs and Priorities: Start by reflecting on your current needs and priorities. Ask yourself what areas of your life need the most attention and care. Is it your physical health, emotional well-being, relationships, or work-life balance? Understanding your specific needs will help you design a self-care checklist that addresses them effectively.

Identify Activities that Nourish You: Once you have identified your needs, think about the activities that nourish and rejuvenate you in those areas. For example, if you find that stress is a significant concern, activities such as meditation, yoga, or journaling may be beneficial. If physical health is your focus, activities like exercising, getting enough sleep, or eating nutritious meals should be included. Make a list of activities that resonate with you and align with your needs.

Consider Time and Resources: Consider the time and resources you have available for self-care. Realistically assess how much time you can dedicate to self-care each day or week. Keep in mind that self-care doesn't have to be time-consuming. Even small, consistent actions can make a significant difference. Additionally, consider the resources you may need for certain activities. For example, if you want to try a new hobby, you may need to invest in supplies or equipment.

Establish Realistic Goals: Set realistic goals for your self-care checklist. Avoid overwhelming yourself with an extensive list of activities that may be difficult to maintain. Instead, start with a few manageable goals and gradually expand as you progress. Remember, self-care is an ongoing process, so be patient with yourself and allow flexibility to adapt your checklist as needed.

Create a Structured Checklist: Now it's time to create your self-care checklist. Use a structured format that works for you, such as a daily, weekly, or monthly checklist. Divide it into categories based on your needs, such as physical, emotional, social, and intellectual well-being. Assign specific activities to each category, ensuring a balance across all areas of your life. Include both short-term and long-term goals to foster continuous growth.

Make it Visible and Accessible: Keep your self-care checklist visible and easily accessible. Whether you choose to write it down in a journal, create a digital document, or use a dedicated app, ensure it is readily available for reference. Consider placing it somewhere you'll see it regularly, such as on your desk or as a screensaver on your phone. This visual reminder will encourage you to stay committed to your self-care routine.

Track Your Progress and Adjust: Regularly track your progress to stay motivated and assess the effectiveness of your self-care checklist. Use a journal, a habit-tracking app, or any method that works for you. Celebrate your achievements and identify areas that may need improvement. Be flexible and willing to adjust your checklist as your needs change over time.

Seek Accountability and Support: Consider finding an accountability partner or joining a supportive community to help you stay committed to your self-care checklist. Sharing your goals and progress with others can provide encouragement and inspiration. It also creates a sense of accountability, making it more likely for you to follow through with your self-care routine.

Remember, self-care is not a one-time event but a lifelong practice. Your self-care checklist should be flexible, adaptable, and tailored to your evolving needs. Experiment with different activities and approaches to find what works best for you. By creating an effective self-care checklist and consistently following it, you can prioritize your well-being, improve your quality of life, and cultivate a healthier and happier you.

[old-lorarri]

❨ main f1 masterlist | football masterlist ❩

𝐀𝐋𝐄𝐗 𝐀𝐋𝐁𝐎𝐍

𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐓𝐒 𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐄𝐃 → alex albon x fem! influencer! reader

the rumoured crush of central cee opts for the track rather than the stage

𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐔𝐑 𝐋𝐄𝐂𝐋𝐄𝐑𝐂

𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 → arthur leclerc x fem! gf! childhood friend! reader

in which his brother takes pleasure I talking about the embarrassing stories that formed his fairytale love story

𝐂𝐋𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐍𝐎𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐀𝐊

𝐂𝐑𝐔𝐈𝐒𝐄 → clem novalak x fem! singer! reader

out of nowhere, everyone's favourite chaotic singer drops a song and soft launches a new boo and the internet goes wild

𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐃 𝐅𝐎𝐑 → clem novalak x fem! selfcare! youtuber! reader

everyones fav self care girly makes everyones heart melt as they watch her and her boyfriend support each other endlessly

𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐁𝐀𝐍 𝐎𝐂𝐎𝐍

𝐒𝐏𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐎 𝐌𝐘 𝐆𝐖𝐄𝐍 → esteban ocon x fem! actress! reader

everyone’s fav gwen playing actress revels her obsession with f1 and turns a couple heads in the process

𝐅𝐀𝐁𝐈𝐎 𝐐𝐔𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐑𝐀

𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐀𝐍𝐃 → fabio quartararo x band! bassist! bestfriend! reader

everyones fav best friend duo haven't been seen together in 2 moths leaving people wondering what went down between them

𝐅𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐊 𝐕𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈

𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐄𝐑 𝐈𝐍 𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐙𝐀 → frederik vesti x fem! girlfriend! law student! reader

taking a break from being a busy law student frederik’s girlfriend decides to take a quick trip to monza

𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐎 𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐒𝐎

𝟏+𝟏=𝟒? → fernando alonso x fem! wife! reader

a sudden pregnancy revel leave the internet shocked and exited to see there fav couple become parents

𝐌𝐘 𝐁𝐄𝐒𝐓 𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋 → fernando alonso x fem! zhou! redbull! f1 driver! reader

3 in a row and your boyfriend couldn't be prouder and he not shy to express that to you in public

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐄𝐎𝐏𝐋𝐄'𝐒 𝐇𝐈𝐌𝐁𝐎 → fernando alonso x fem! mega-famous! pop star! reader

everyone's fav Y/N stan fernanado is at it again lingering in fan pages and being everyone's fav himbo

𝐆𝐄𝐎𝐑𝐆𝐄 𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐋

𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐍𝐎𝐖 → george russell x fem! actress! reader

after breaking up with her toxic boyfriend Y/N shows people that she doesn't need anyone - and end up finding someone?

𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓'𝐒 (𝐈𝐋)𝐋𝐄𝐆𝐀𝐋 → george russell x fem! tsunoda! lawyer! reader

laws are meant to be followed?, and Y/N and George do follow them, loosely, but it's okay one of them is a lawyer for a reason

𝐉𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐃𝐎𝐎𝐇𝐀𝐍

𝐒𝐇𝐘 𝐒𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓 → jack doohan x fem! gf! reader

jack's gf is the definition of sunshine and he takes his role as the sunshine protector very seriously

𝐉𝐄𝐍𝐒𝐎𝐍 𝐁𝐔𝐓𝐓𝐎𝐍

𝐆𝐋𝐎𝐑𝐘 𝐃𝐀𝐘𝐒 → jenson button x fem! supermodle! wife! reader

this is the story of how to two biggest whores of the early 200's fell in love with each other despite everyone saying they wouldn't last

𝐖𝐇𝐎'𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 → jenson button x fem! wife! red bull! engineer! reader

how can you forget your sexist driver? Jenson and his wife call them out a remind them where they stand

𝐊𝐈𝐌𝐈 𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐊𝐊𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐍

𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐓𝐎 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒 → kimi räikkönen x fem! redbull! f1 driver! reader

in which a twitter thread discusses the original enemies to lovers couple of the f1 world and how there rivalry turned into a beautiful love story

𝐌𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐒 𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 → kimi räikkönen x fem! wife! reader

a compilation of moments from everyone ‘no fuck to give’ couple that people still reference till this day

𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐋

𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐍𝐄𝐏𝐎 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐁𝐀𝐁𝐘 → lance stroll x fem! korean! chaebol! reader

after lances infamous bicycle accident he is put in the care of his best friend and the internet watches them fall in love

𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐍 𝐖𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐊 → lance stroll x fem! aston martin! f1 driver! reader

a nasty crash leaves Y/N in the hospital and everyone worried and it also brings to light a long kept secret

𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐌 𝐋𝐀𝐖𝐒𝐎𝐍

𝐒𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐒 → liam lawson x fem! gf! reader

an accidental instagram post leads to a variety of reactions and plenty of funny moments

𝐒𝐏𝐎𝐈𝐋𝐓 𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓 𝐋𝐀𝐔𝐍𝐂𝐇 → liam lawson x fem! childhood best friend! reader

childhood bestfriends take each others phones and that leads to a turn of events

𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐂𝐔𝐒 𝐀𝐑𝐌𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐆

𝐇𝐄 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖𝐒 → marcus armstrong x fem! gf! reader

the announcement is here it's official everyone's fav couple are gonna be parents and there other children (there followers) can't wait

𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐊 𝐖𝐄𝐁𝐁𝐄𝐑

𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐃? → mark webber x fem! retiring! red bull! f1 driver! reader

old rival teammates reunited over a book written my one of them and feelings and memories of the past are brought up how will this turn out? | part 2

𝐓𝐖𝐎 𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐃? → mark webber x fem! retiring! red bull! f1 driver! reader

with a divorce officially singed and mark now single people are even more exited to see where the relationship of the former teammates will go | part 1

𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐄 𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐍

#𝟏 𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐑 → ollie bearman x fem! gf! student! reader

ollie's girlfriend has a love for stuffed animals, so he get her one every time he can - but he will always be her favourite bear

𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐘 𝐁𝐎𝐘𝐒 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄… → ollie bearman x male! actor! reader

a f2 driver with a crush on an actor will do anything to be noticed which leave fan's desperate for them to get together already | part 2

𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐘 𝐏𝐄𝐎𝐏𝐋𝐄 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄… → ollie bearman x male! actor! reader

a pr realtionship causes some confusion but never fear ollie messy af bearman is here to fix the problem | part 1

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄 → ollie bearman x fem! entrepreneur! reader

having a rich entrepreneur gf leaves so many jealous and envious of oliver and tbh same

𝐓𝐎𝐏𝐈𝐂 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 → ollie bearman x fem! gf! podcast host! reader

everyone’s fav crack head couple one a f2 driver the other a podcast host and together they are perfect

𝐎𝐏𝐏𝐒! 𝐖𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐆 𝐎𝐍𝐄 → ollie bearman x fem! singer! reader

everyone's fav heartbreak singer is back! but her nineteenth birthday leave people in shock

𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐎 𝐎'𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐃

𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐏 𝐎𝐅𝐅 𝐁𝐈𝐓𝐂𝐇 → pato o'ward x fem! pakistani! gf! reader

pato fights for his life under his girlfriends lastest Instagram post and letting the people know that she is taken

𝐏𝐈𝐄𝐑𝐑𝐄 𝐆𝐀𝐒𝐋𝐘

𝐅𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 → pierre gasly x fem! french/korean! singer reader

the film of the century, about the love story of the most iconic couples to ever grace the internet is about to be reassessed

𝐏𝐇𝐎𝐓𝐎 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 → pierre gasly x fem! photographer! reader

a famous photographer new series "my feeling for you" has everyone talking about who could her secret muse could be | part 2

𝐏𝐇𝐎𝐓𝐎 𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐈𝐑𝐄 → pierre gasly x fem! photographer! reader

the witch hunt continues as the internet detectives close in on the new muses identity | part 1

𝐒𝐄𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐓��𝐀𝐍 𝐕𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐋𝐄

𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘 𝐎𝐅 𝐌𝐄 & 𝐘𝐎𝐔 → sebastian vettel x fem! wife! writer! director! reader

the film of the century, about the love story of the most iconic couples to ever grace the internet is about to be reassessed

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐃 → sebastian vettel x fem! wife! motogp! reader

it's been a year without everyone's fav motorsports couple and people are still in morning but everyone is happy that they are living there best life together

𝐙𝐇𝐎𝐔 𝐆𝐔𝐀𝐍𝐘𝐔

𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐈𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐀 𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄 → zhou guanyu x fem! japanese! architect! reader

finally completing the house of her dreams people are conceived her and her close friend yuki are going to tie the knot soon - they couldn't be more wrong

𝐖𝐄𝐋𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐄 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊, 𝐈 𝐍𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐋𝐄𝐅𝐓 → zhou guanyu x fem! ex kpop idol! songwriter! producer! reader

false accusations leave to a member of the k-pop group parting ways and goes into hiding only to find out she never really left

[dragons-and-skulls]

for the selfship game:

i’m asking for your selfships with mitsuya and shidou 🤭

ribbon ৻ꪆ what kind of gifts do they buy you? what gifts do you buy them?

blossom ৻ꪆ praise or degradation? a mixture of both?

omg leggsy thank you for this ehehehe <333 you should do this too

mitsuya:

ribbon - he buys me any small trinkets he sees me liking, especially if it's butterfly motif related. he knows how much i love butterflies. what i give him in return is fabrics and threads cause there are occasions where he doesn't realize he's running low on stock. and i buy colognes for him too, he's the best when he smells good 🫠

blossom - omg so he's def a soft dom in my eyes and he praises me through and through! but sometimes if i misbehave he'll mix both praising and degradation together

shidou:

ribbon - he buys me clothes most of the time hahaha, especially merch of him (ex: jersey of his name and number). call it a small way of staking his claim on me. i buy him practical and selfcare gifts along with merch of chainsaw man as that's his fave anime 🥰

blossom - DEGRADER NEED I SAY MORE? but he makes sure i'm ok before and afterwards, he doesn't wanna push me that far

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This is a response to this thread of posts. This is not a direct copy paste of my response on that post so that one still has more information if people are interested in that. Since this thread was already incredibly long and I went over even more stuff in the most recent part I wanted to put that stuff here for easier access and to archive it. I'm not tagging or at-ing the person behind the original post here because I don't want to be rude to her and have put my response on the original post already.

This is just for archive purposes as it goes over a lot of my understanding of the events that have taken place so far. I'm so tired I've been writing about Milgram for a week straight...is hell drowning in the things you love?

I'd have to say I agree with you when it comes to the relationships being bad on both of their parts. I don't think Mahiru's partner being abusive would fully absolve her of accountability when it comes to his death.

I just feel as though Mahiru was wrongly blamed for all the issues in their relationship while he was just given a free pass which never sat right with me. Because relationships are dependent on both parties and no one individual within it can be fully blamed for the problems that come from it. When it comes to the last part where she said,

"If Mahiru's murder was in response to domestic abuse then it means her murder was to protect herself rather than out of love. Right now, it doesn't click together just right for me."

It's funny because it clicks so easily for me. Mostly, because when I first watched Mahiru's MV the thing that I immediately noticed is the formatting she chose to present it in. As it is said it was produced by Mahiru Shiina.

Mahiru's MV is formatted in the same way a self-care blog or magazine might be. Something not surprising given the interests she lists in her first interrogation. Then one of the first things we're shown in this magazine format is her doing self-care. That along with the song is titled "This Is How To Be In Love With You". Which could not only be taken from the angle of this is how to love you the one viewing the song or the boyfriend but as this is how to love (You)rself.

Most of the article snippets in the song are about selfcare and preening oneself.

So, I've been interpreting This Is How To Be In Love With You from that angle. To elaborate I've been interpreting the song as Mahiru maintaining appearances/putting on the front of a good girl. The feathers symbolizing undesirable traits she's preened off of herself. As many including yourself have pointed out Mahiru is more associated with the color blue than her lover is.

So, the feathers could be another representation of herself. Showing the bad traits, she's removed to be a person she sees as worthy of being loved.

Within that cage, throughout that video from beginning to end Mahiru wears the dress she states screams this year's fashion along with the cardigan she says is chic with a mature color. She's at her best dressed to give off that mature oneesan look throughout her first mv. The look of someone anyone would love in her opinion.

Even her earrings go from the playful and energetic sunflower ones to a mature make in her video.

Mahiru tries to give off this put together, reliable, older woman charm that says if you have a problem, you can always come talk it over with me okay. The sort of woman who's not complicated or clingy but instead a bit spontaneous in a fun not bothersome way, considerate, willing to listen, demure. The type of woman that can hold a conversation but doesn't overstep. Someone who is wife material. It's not like she doesn't know she's doing this either.

She shows us throughout her first MV that she knows exactly what she's doing when it comes to appearances. Not only when it comes to appearing a certain way to others but how she appears to herself as well.

We learn bits and pieces about her romantic partner through her first mv. We know that,

He can't handle his liquor.

He drinks to the point of unconsciousness on their date at the bar.

He's not the most observant.

He doesn't notice if Mahiru changes her style.

He likes running.

He has a part-time job at a convenience store.

He goes to the same school as Mahiru.

They lock eyes with each other as she's reading on the university terrace. That encounter on the terrace along with him having the part time job makes the chances of him being a student not a teacher or staff member at her university higher.

They live close to each other.

Mahiru runs into him at a bakery/bread shop and then he passes her place of employment on her first day working there. Chances are Mahiru chose a place to work at that was not too far from her residence. So, they more than likely live in the same area.

Then as the other person observed we know his aesthetic.

He has a red rug at the front door of his home and camouflage backpack. During their date, the park screening of the French film, we see the arm of his jacket which is also camouflage but has a dark navy blue or navy blue around the edges.

Quite different from the feathers we see falling within the cage. The color of the feathers aligns more with the color of Mahiru's rug, the throw blanket she has on her couch, and the dress that screams this year's fashion she wears throughout her first mv which is a slightly lighter dusty blue.

More allusions to Mahiru's preening habits have been made throughout the Portal Timeline but this is the one that sticks out the most to me.

20/06/29

Yuno: ……mmm, the food here is actually pretty nice. I wonder if the guard made it…… Oh yeah, Mahiru-san, do you cook?

Mahiru: Hm? I do~ Cooking, washing, cleaning, I love doing all those sorts of things~ Fufufu, I passed all my self-imposed training to become the perfect wife with flying colours!

Yuno: Wow, incredible… I don’t know whether to call that old-fashioned or what. ……isn’t it a pain?

Mahiru: Eh~? I don’t think it’s a pain at all~ It’s fun~

All these things led me to believe Mahiru wanted to give off the appearance of a woman that doesn't complain about the work she puts in to make something happen. The type who can make things seem effortless. The sort who goes; it's not a bother at all, in fact I like to help, I find this fun. A person who takes meticulous notes about all the favorite foods of whomever they love then practices cooking them to get them exactly right as a surprise.

The sort of woman that goes well now that I think about it, I could make chocolate from cocoa beans then make a cake out of said chocolate. Only to undermine their own efforts by going it's really no big deal I just wanted to do something nice because I love you it was really no trouble at all. Or,

"I'm Mahiru Shiina, twenty-two years old! I might not be much good at anything, but please be kind to me."

Hoping that the other person will notice all her good qualities and appreciate her even more.

It's also difficult for me to believe the feathers only represent Mahiru's boyfriend because of how Mahiru interacts with them during her first MV. Mahiru jumps on top of all the feathers after reaching towards them as if about to indulge in a guilty pleasure of sorts as the lines,

"If you don’t hug me, even our hearts will start drifting apart."/"I pretended to be a good girl; I don’t want to be “ok”. "

I can admit Mahiru can come off as clingy or could even be emotionally too much/draining to some. Yet, I don't think she would revel in doing something she recognizes as malicious/harmful directly to the person she loves. At least not to this extent.

Then there's the beginning of This Is How To Be In Love With You. The beginning of her song seems to reenact or at least directly mirror Mahiru's first encounter with her partner. Except this time, she's not looking at her partner but directly at the audience/guards as though having a once in a lifetime fated encounter with us.

Yet, feathers are already falling from above her.

The other post she linked to mentions the picture from Undercover. Where she states her belief that the image is taken in the suicide forest/Aokigahara. However, there's a higher chance it's the park she confessed to her significant other at on day 8.

I say this because it is my belief that the snippets shown during Undercover aren't when the prisoners committed their murders but instead the incidents that incited them to commit murder. Basically, the trigger that led to it.

I believe this because of Haruka, Yuno, Futa, Mu, Amane, Mikoto, and Kotoko's pictures in the MV.

There's Haruka. In his photo we see him in his or his younger sibling's room sitting on the bed a plush rabbit beside him with building blocks and a finished drawing on the ground in front of him. A drawing we know to be his because it appears on the walls in Weakness.

We see this drawing before he starts killing anything. Like exactly before comedically so. Right after we're shown this larger version of the drawing from Undercover the one aspect that links it directly to Haruka he kills the dog. Like it transitions into him killing the dog. I don't even think I need to defend why I believe this at this point Haruka is too perfect of an example.

Then In All-knowing All-Agony and Weakness the sister and most of the killings he's responsible for are alluded to have been outside of this bedroom. His sister was seemingly killed in the living room or another area of the house and the dog we see him kill in Weakness is killed outside.

Then there's Yuno who is doing what she's admitted enjoying doing people watching from the staircase. Something we see her do throughout all of Umbilical.

"In such conditions, observing other people sure does make for great fun; you feel?"

So, there is a chance that Yuno more than likely saw something she didn't like while people watching one day.

"Why are you here? You annoy me a little. I can’t smile well anymore It’s because of you."

Umbilical starts with Yuno at the bottom of the staircase and ends with her falling off the top back to the start. During her walk up through the MV we see her look over at someone from the staircase in this case it could be taken as her looking at us the audience, but it could be someone else as well.

It's also exactly when she asks,

"What do you want to do? Please, tell me."

Just like with Mu's second trial song there is imagery and lyrics in Tear Drop that call back to Umbilical, but Yuno is more subtle about it.

"Just the two of us I finally found it. The lies are endless. Just me alone, it really is lonely. Let’s reload the warmth!"/"Desire, bestow, and desire again the episode reloading on an endless loop. The fading warmth makes me anxious again Tear drops succumb and fall."

Having her hair tie snap and her hair fall in a way that's reminiscent to the staircase collapsing at the end of her first song. Then throwing off the jacket as she's messing up the room just to cling to it again like she came back to the staircases.

The staircase not only shows us step by step how she got here but her intention to do the same thing all over again regardless of what's destroyed/collapses in the end. Then Tear Drop follows up on that idea by showing us how Yuno has been working her way up from cars to top floor hotel rooms and private karaoke booths with beds in them.

Despite her spot in Undercover being less than luxurious and her own admission of liking simple things like just going on a date at a park.

Futa's is him taking a picture of the doxing victims house where certain information has been purposely scribbled over beforehand.

Now unless the doxing victim immediately committed suicide after this picture was taken, before he went home, or even sent the information to other people. This is already calling the idea that the instances we're shown in Undercover are during the murders into question in and of itself.

However, Bring It On! confirms that this is before the incident since Futa states in a Twitter post that he found out where she went to school and lived but does not post the image of her house. Something notably strange considering he's been mostly held accountable for the doxing and that would have been the easiest way to show he did it. Instead, he just makes an offhanded comment saying he knows where she is despite already having a physical picture of her house.

It's also not something highlighted by Futa himself. Instead, it's been quote retweeted by Jugement Onizuka seemingly after the incident with the girl escalated to the breaking point. Something highlighted more by the line in Backdraft,

"Me, the result of blame-shifting, no, can’t find that funny."

I know this isn't about Futa but if he ever intended to dox someone and had this picture then why not just post it? Why have anything scratched out if that was ever his intent?

Mu is rather self-explanatory.

We know that the murder Mu committed was outside. Yet, her image is of inside the classroom. More than likely because the altercation first began in the classroom. The inciting incident. A student appears to be crushed between two desks laying on the ground between them. We can see papers within both desks.

A lot of people speculate after "It's Not My Fault" that the person between the desks is Mu's victim. However, it's more than likely Mu herself. Though it could possibly be a third party. It can't be Mu's victim because when she's on the floor it's wet and littered with belongings. This is also the same reason I'm hesitant to say it's Mu. However, everyone else is in their pictures so it's more likely this is her but why she would be in such a position before the murder is a mystery to me.

If it were a third party, it could be the student Mu and her friends are seen harassing on the roof. The subject of the incident that caused Mu and her victim's falling out. Also, during the incidences where Mu or her victim are bullied all the desks are empty. So, this is just neither of those instances.

It's also nice because we see in After Pain that Mu is seated right next to the person, she ends up killing. So, this could be considered a visualization of a third party/ Mu herself and her behavior getting between them. As the desk with the flowers on it is her victims and the desk she sits at in After Pain is hers at the time.

There's also what appears to be blood on one of the sheets of paper in Mu's desk. Which could allude to the line,

"The stabbing of the little devil’s voice, counterattack being a suicide note “I love YOU”."

This would also go well with some of the lyrics of her first cover song.

"It's a penalty shoot-out, Feelings vs. Boredom."/ "A penalty shoot-out between my feelings and my boredom."

Mu admits to only bullying people because she was bored in It's Not My Fault. I feel the image we're shown in Undercover for her perfectly illustrates that feeling of wanting something to stave off boredom, but the thing being done ultimately getting in the way of what would actually be emotionally satisfying. Such as wanting someone's presence but being annoyed with them when they won't let you do whatever you want because friends shouldn't get in the way of what you want to do, they should support you even if they don't like it themselves.

Then there's Amane's, which is more than likely an image of her being waterboarded.

"Waterboarding is a form of torture in which water is poured over a cloth covering the face and breathing passages of an immobilized captive, causing the person to experience the sensation of drowning."

Waterboarding has also been considered a form of religious violence. The more you know the worse it gets-

"In his 2008 article “Torture and Religious Practice,” William Schweiker traces the Christian roots of waterboarding, which was used, for example, during the Spanish Inquisition and in the persecution of Anabaptists during the Protestant Reformation. Schweiker argues that waterboarding is religious violence not only due to its pedigree, but because it carries a particularly religious meaning: that it functioned as a kind of baptism."

Since this shot does its best to cut out the person's face where a rag or cloth would more than likely be and the visuals in Magic allude to this form of torture specifically it's more than likely that.

Like yeah, that seems to be Amane's hair and Magic expressly cycles through all the punishments she faced for giving that injured person medical care. All of which are extreme forms of torture, the least of which being a physical beating. The other ones are waterboarding, electroshock therapy, and sound torture.

Free my little girl she did nothing wrong and keep her in there those forms of torture work wonders she would be a danger to society should not be able to coexist, but I very much will hit guilty again. Maybe I might hit Innocent later just because she's committed. Telling her she's wrong isn't going to make her believe we're right. So, we really are catching a tiger by the tail here.

"At least I didn't meta vote Amane" like ha, ha, hah I still voted her ass Guilty she is the first person I voted on and I voted her Guilty recognizing this. Not because I think what she did was wrong but mostly because she openly states she wants to continue to perpetuate the thing she lived through onto others.

"You see, I don't hate Milgram. Rather than one single law, there are other standards to judge my sins by. Some are closer to my spirit, as well! The standards that judge my sins are somewhere else- In my heart, my blood, my entire body. They're firmly rooted in all those places!"

"And by those standards your murder was not a sin."

"Exactly! Ah, I'm looking forward to it. Seeing if your judgement will align with that of these higher standards, that is. If that's the case then maybe Milgram would be the right world for us to be in rather than the outside world! Milgram relies on your judgements, right? In that case you could become the mediator to a far more righteous world!"

We've got to teach her this is wrong oh how cute- No, fuck that. Guilty because I'm not becoming complacent with creating a cult how bout that. The fuck as much as I like Amane I can't in good conscious vote her innocent.

Mikoto's picture is of him unconscious at his work desk. Seemingly swamped with work. On another note, I do believe this may be a desk at his home and not in his office. Mostly because of the speaker near his cup and what appears to be a standing shelf next to it. It could be a cubicle in the office, but people usually don't hook up those sorts of speakers to their in-office computer. It could be something else though.

Outside of that his desk is incredibly junky, he has a knocked-over energy drink laid on some of his papers. One can also see above the can that he's done little doodles on the edge of one of the papers. If he were at the office where oversight was more likely his desk would not look like this. To be frank he'd probably get fired or at least scolded if it did. People have gotten fired for less. He'd have to be high up to have his own private office which he doesn't seem to be. All of that has led me to believe this space is more than likely in his place of residence.

There's also the chair we see sitting unaccompanied within his home throughout MeMe which is more than likely the chair to this desk. It would be kind of weird to just have a lone chair for nothing.

Let's get back on track though. We see most of his murders take place at an underpass. Not his home though the area could be near his office or place of residence. However, it's still not the place we see him highlighted in during Undercover.

So, yeah this is nowhere near his murders regardless of if it's his house or the office. Though, it once again highlights his job sorta sucks.

We know exactly where Kotoko's happened. It's the alley where she beats up her first victim.

It's not the building she beats a guy to death in. That's for sure.

Because of all this, I'm amazingly comfortable with saying that the images we're shown during Undercover were not taken directly from the scene of the crime or even during the crime itself but strictly before a crime had even occurred.

In fact, Mahiru's image in Undercover is odd... Simply because it does seem to show her there with someone else while everyone else is alone in theirs. Even people who are assumed or confirmed to be in relationships like Kazui and Shidou are by themselves. We also only see hands in Mahiru's image when almost everyone else has gotten full or half body shots.

The only other people we just see the hands of outside of her is Futa and Shidou.

So, that could be something that links both their crimes to suicide or being an indirect result of their actions. At least it's a clear visual attempt at pointing out the similarities between them.

We also only see the backs of Yuno, Kazui, and Mikoto. The side of Es and Kotoko though they're facing two different sides Es to the right before we're shown the images and Kotoko to the left right after Haruka. We're shown the front of Haruka and Amane.

Mu is difficult to figure out. Because she could be laying face down or face up. I'm not going to lie I can't tell which and I've been typing this for a while. A while at this point being since the other person reply which was right after I finished a long post about Mahiru already.

However, in every instance we're shown hands before Mahiru's the only hands we are shown are those of the prisoners. This is what makes Mahiru's snippet in undercover standout as it implies the presence of not just herself but her boyfriend. That is if the other hand shown in the image is that of her boyfriend.

Taking into consideration how the image is framed it is still a possibility that Mahiru is holding her own hand. It would also fit with every other prisoner being alone within their pictures in Undercover. It's really all about framing when it comes to Milgram. So, if every other prisoner is alone in their photos, then it should be questioned why Mahiru would be an exception.

I don't really know much about this but it's strange that every prisoner besides Haruka has scribbles in their silhouettes implying some sort of distortion. Futa's hands being somewhat transparent within his picture is weird as well.

Even though the distortion in Mahiru seems to only be on one arm it's slightly on the other beneath as well making it difficult to tell if it's just her partner's arm or her own again. All I can say is it looks like she's holding someone else's hand.

I read over a lot of her posts, and I recognized there's a fundamental point on which I and other fans of Milgram may differ on. This in and of itself is not a bad thing but I feel it should be noted. I do not believe any of the prisoner's murders were indirect or accidental. I believe each person in each pair has killed another living person purposefully.

Not by happenstance, accident, indirectly but with their bare hands and with the full intent of doing so. Because we are shown them do so from the beginning within Undercover.

Firstly, I'm of the mind that two things can be true at once.

So, Yuno stating she had an abortion and her being a murderer are not one in the same to me. In Undercover we see Haruka with blood on his hands despite knowing the only person he killed he strangled. The blood in this case would be that of the animals one of which we saw him kill with a rock.

Now even if I were to believe Yuno's murder was an abortion the amount of blood present on her within Undercover means it was passed the point where an abortion would be an option she could legally take. Even by Japan's laws.

"Abortion in Japan is allowed under a term limit of 22 weeks for endangerment to the health of the pregnant woman, economic hardship, or rape."

The amount of blood shown on Yuno within Undercover is uncommon when it comes to getting an abortion. There is some bleeding but it's less than the bleeding one would have during their period. So, she's already on thin fucking ice with me because the bleeding portrayed there is more commonly associated with miscarriages.

Something women have and still do induce within themselves if they do not want a child. It's my belief that at the point anyone is no longer capable or legally allowed to have an abortion they should immediately start looking into adoption options. Not for the sake of child but for the health of the woman since doing it after a certain point does have significant health risks.

This is why I'm under the belief that Yuno's case wasn't as easy as people played it up to be. Because there is still the chance this was directly malicious even when considering the victim may have been an unborn child. There are laws around abortion specifically with unborn children in mind even people who are for the women's right to choose or pro-abortion understand this.

All the anti-abortion ads in my state work under the false pretense that being for it means a person is okay with people having an abortion at "any time" and people can just "kill kids whenever". They are mostly promoted by churches as well. For example, when my state was voting on if women should have the right to abortion or not the catholic churches within my state spent money to make advertisements stating if the law passed murdering kids at any time would be legal. Comparing the act to filicide.

What I'm getting at is that depending on when Yuno did this and how it would still be considered murder legally.

Her asking if she's dead in her second interrogation makes her even more suspicious to me because people are more likely to die from self-induced miscarriages or at home abortions than legal ones. So, if it were just a legal abortion done in a safe environment- Why the fuck would she ask that...?

Not taking any of those misgivings into consideration, the abortion doesn't account for the multiple gifts throughout Umbilical that have inverted colors as though the people who gave them to her were fucking assassinated directly after.

How does the abortion account for those if it's the only thing she did wrong? What would these gifts or items even have to do with her having an abortion? Why would they be colored differently?

It's just suspicious and weird if it were that easy why do any of that?

Futa has basically said every way he could the doxing wasn't him since Milgram started. So, why would he be in here for the result of that? To be fair he could be lying. Yet, he could have just killed the person responsible for the doxing and ruining his reputation.

Then excused and justified his actions like I didn't do anything wrong that person's actions led to someone dying too it's just fair. Also, literally playing hide and seek with his sin by highlighting the bad thing the other person did first just to be blamed for it again would be fucking hilarious. It would also fit with his characterization because in his second trial interrogation he once again does this by pointing out how our actions are just as bad as his and going why is it okay when you do it then.

The only difference is this time it works.

Kazui blatantly admits in the lyrics of Cat that everything the viewers speculated might just be wrong as he condescendingly sings,

"Love + Fate= Crap (Love and fate are crap). Crush and Bye. (Destroy it and move on.) Disgusting playing house + disguise + fake. Devotion- Love, lame, cheating; let's make it victim and assailant."

All of the things Kazui lists in a mocking tone are all the things people assumed about his crime. He's literally singing so this is what you think happened fine then I'll make this simple and boil it down to victim and assailant. So, he's not helping anyone's case when it comes to the whole some people's crimes were indirect thing singing shit like this.

He's doing the musical equivalent of,

"My client may not be the best man but he's not murderous-"

"Murderous, huh...? Well, I won't deny that. At the very least I believe I'm a murderer and I regret it. Not that there's any use to that remorse."

Like he's pulling a no I did that shit lyrically. Those aren't the lyrics of an Innocent man they just aren't. Like Yuno and Shidou are just in Milgram like I don't agree with your judgement but respectfully while Kazui is out here like,

"You fool, this is what you think of me, what you think I did?! FIGURE ME OUT, FIGURE OUT MY LIES FASTER!"

I'm sorry Futa isn't even the issue when it comes to that Kazui is. After Mahiru he's gonna come in like,

"Give me that fucking mic- I hope you recover well Shiina but also please hurry and leave. I don't want you specifically to hear any of the shit I'm about to say. I know how much you care about love-"

"Kazui, you're going to sing about love?!"

"Please, get out."

That's the entire reason he's saying I feel bad for her. I guess his voice drama can make him appear more helpful to the indirect murder theory. Yet within that he even says,

"For example, why would someone gather a bunch of acquitted murderers together and try to make them repent. That's something a crazy person would do."

This means Kazui recognizes everyone here is a murderer, but they were all legally acquitted and therefore received no punishment for their crimes. Making what Milgram is doing here no different from what Kotoko does in Harrow. Even then just because they were legally acquitted doesn't mean there was no malicious intent behind their actions, or they didn't mean to kill anyone.

Everyone within Milgram could be acquitted for one reason or another and this would also explain things such as why Mu immediately used the self-defense angle. If she's already been taken to court for it and that's how she wound up acquitted before of course she'd fall back on it again.

Futa calling himself the Undead Hero near the end of Bring It On! as though he's beaten the allegations.

"You gotta be kidding, I’m an undead hero! Fuck it! Don’t you think so?"

Just to then get beaten by the allegations and go,

"Oh no, surrounded, lynched by the masses."

Like this shit hasn't happened before when we see it happen at the end of his first MV.

This could also explain how we see Haruka in All-knowing All-Agony, the room he's within, and the moment he's caught in the spotlight covered in blood. It would also explain why when he was brought to Milgram unlike everyone else, he was already wearing clothing associated with being incarcerated in a mental facility. So, there's all that.

Then when it comes to Mahiru this would explain why she is still fixated on love even if she purposefully killed her partner. If she were acquitted because people believed she was so in love with him that she'd never intentionally do such a thing, of course she'd more than likely try that angle again.

If Mahiru's boyfriend had allergies she was aware of she could cook something with said allergen in it and play it off as an accident or as if she didn't know and be acquitted.

Just like everyone else here could have been acquitted on grounds of self-defense or it being a heat of the moment thing like with Kotoko. It'd be easy to not hold Kotoko accountable if she were just acting against someone doing something that would be viewed by the public as abhorrent.

Mahiru cooking all his favorite dishes as a surprise while a nice loving gesture is also a good way to make sure he at least eats one of the things she cooked even if he isn't in the mood for a particular dish at that moment. She wouldn't even need to get poison but common ingredients that could be found at any store if he had a food allergy and as we know Mahiru is very good at cooking.

Mahiru holding her victim's neck in Undercover could represent her forcing him keep the food down or even illustrating the quite common fatal reaction to allergens which is one's throat closing. Mahiru's crime is as easy as frying rice in peanut oil or adding fish sauce. Like food allergies are super common and it wouldn't be viewed as something done with malicious intent if she literally cooked all his favorite foods and people could attest to that.

Under this framing Mahiru would still just be "being herself". If she were cooking food the way she was raised to cook it and unaware of these allergies she'd very much be "being herself". Her going to sleep after cooking the food makes sense as well because the first thing people would ask if she were awake as he was having an allergic reaction is why didn't she call for an ambulance or get him his medicine. If she were asleep after making him all his favorite meals then said something like,

"I just wanted to see the look of surprise on his face before turning in for the night but if I just stayed up then maybe-"

People would be more sympathetic to what she's been through, especially if they saw how she was in the relationship. If people knew she really loved him. Who's going to go up to a girl bawling in shock about the loss of her boyfriend someone she probably vocalized planning to marry and go did you do this on purpose?! Answer me you wanted him dead didn't you?! Didn't you?!

That would be odd, way out of line, even if she did the person behaving in that way would be being an asshole yelling at her isn't gonna make this man come back to life. To be honest, someone would have to have a lot of personal information about Mahiru probably see into her head to come to conclusion that she may have wanted her boyfriend dead, or this could be purposeful right of the bat.

They would have to see something like her expressly state she's been taking notes on all of his favorite dishes to know that overlooking his allergies could be purposeful on her part at that point. That's just a shot in the dark on my part though. Nobody would really know that- Except, Es and us the viewers. So, outside of us it'd be pretty easy to rule what Mahiru did an accident. Because nobody else was in the room when it happened.

Back to Kazui.

"Also, if what I did makes me a murderer. Then honestly, your definition of a murderer is too broad."/ "And even if you recognize me as a murderer... That would be a conclusion only someone deeply familiar with my circumstances could reach."

Congratulations in one voice drama you've succeeded in somehow making everyone look worse.

Kazui goes back and forth during his first voice drama between stating he believes himself to be a murderer, no one else would consider him one, to mentioning the hypothetical that everyone here has been acquitted as though it's fact. Stating someone would have to be crazy to do that.

For an acquittal to be necessary for what he did his actions would have to be under a certain amount of scrutiny. It would at least need to be enough to the point they needed to take it to court and have a decision be ruled. For that to occur there would at least need to be enough probable cause and evidence to accuse him of having malicious intent or even the motivation to want the other person dead.

Kazui just has to stand here and look good but he seems hellbent on making us really think about what he and everyone else here did. Too bad that because of that we probably won't see what he did. Unless he figures out that the more innocent or guilty a prisoner wishes to be viewed changes what we're shown then goes in with a very objective mindset. Like no I don't care how you see me now I'm over it. Then I don't know what will happen or how the machine will interpret that mindset.

Even if Kazui says in the end, "Yeah... That's right. It's true that my lies killed her, and even now I still haven't changed."

We still don't know what those lies are. It could have been him cheating but he also could have lied like, "Honey come look I had the balcony repaired like you asked me to." and his lies would have still killed her. That would still make what he says here technically true, but they can still just lie during the interrogations.

Kotoko doesn't help the indirect case either because we see her beat a man to death. Even if he succumbed to his wounds later at a hospital, she still gave him those wounds. Like there's blood on the ground beneath him as she's holding him up by the collar. She beat that man like a dog. She was on a hunt and when she found him she was relentless. Like got damn. She messed him up.

He deserved it given the snippets we see in Harrow but, "Cool motive still murder." Which I feel is definitely a fair thing to say about the woman singing,

"Why? Why stop me? Don't stop! I need a good reason to give justice, give me my next purpose!"

If Mahiru succumbed to the wounds Kotoko gave her before Shidou had gotten to her I would hope everyone could agree Kotoko was responsible for her death at that point. Though seeing how Shidou is spoken about he'd probably be blame too. Regardless of if Kotoko stopped before Mahiru died.

Beating someone to the brink of death then stopping before they die does not absolve anyone of murder if that person dies from the wounds they inflicted.

I can admit that it may just be my bias and naivety shining through. That I do want to believe that they are all murderers in the literal sense. It is my personal stance to try not to assume or make assumptions about the sort of actions a person will take. It could be because of my age but at a point I had to recognize that regardless of a person's age, status, level of education, religious beliefs etc no one is above doing something that's objectively wrong.

Because in a way the human experiences is doing many things wrong in pursuit of better understanding oneself and their surroundings. To expect any of the Prisoner's to not do wrong to me feels like a personal failing on my own part even if I like the character. I still feel the need to interrogate could they kill directly and what does it say about me that I believe this person couldn't have while clinging to the idea that this other person could have. What makes me think this character is more moral, more just that they are above stooping to the level these other characters did.

Through interrogating that I realized there's absolutely nothing within me outside of the hope that they wouldn't do such a thing that says they didn't. At the end of the day our expectations of others, fictional or not, is us hoping that another person wouldn't do something that bad but after a point we have to take even the people we believe the best of at face value when they admit to doing something wrong. There's only one guy here that says he didn't commit murder and that's only because he doesn't remember it.

Everyone else though has pretty much gone no I did do something that led to someone dying. I killed someone else but what else was I supposed to do, I suppose it's that thing I did that you could call murder but do you really have to form an opinion on it though, I'm a murderer it was for justice though and what about everyone else they were having fun too, I killed someone but it was self-defense, no what I did was wrong and meaningless give me the death penalty please, it was for love, you'll see through my lies eventually, it's my belief that even though I've killed I'm not a murderer because it wasn't against the higher standards I abide by, well with the right reasons anything is excusable some people deserve it what I did wasn't murder it was justice.

All of this is just how I personally feel about the situations that have been presented to me. I don't think anything I said here is fact and people can take it however they may. To be honest I don't even know if I properly explained myself to the original poster, but these are my beliefs and I guess the only thing I can do is stick by them honestly. I tried my best and I hope this isn't too confusing.

Things can just get difficult when I speak about Mahiru because she's a rather complicated character and I believe more of her personality shines through when the others are considered as well.

[oodlyenough]

aa3 trials and tribulations

alright after dragging my heels to get four months out of a idk 35 hour game i have finished aa3. spoilery thoughts mostly about the last case bc i played the others months ago fjglhgkf

Positive stuff:

FRANZISKA... my mvp... I loved Franziska after aa2 but she was so great here, everything I could've wanted from her lmao. My best worst girl. I LOVED having her hang out with Phoenix fhlgfhgklf incredible, showstopping, spectacular. Their dynamic is sooo much fun and I also really liked seeing her interact with the witnesses outside of the courtroom, and how she tries to establish her authority but uses that authority to try and comfort them, etc -- she gets mad at Phoenix when he isn't complimentary enough of Sister Bikini lol, she takes control of the sacred cavern situation, she bullies Edgeworth into selfcare garden sulking after the earthquake, etc. It was really interesting and kind of sweet, in her way, it was nice to see that side of her. I can easier see how she and Adrian ended up with their weird gay thing although I have to admit Franmaya remains my Franziska ship of choice. (Just yesterday I was telling someone "I want Franziska to show Maya how to use her whip"... so close and yet so far Capcom.)

Defense attorney Edgeworth was awesome what a fun idea, and the Edgeworth/Franziska court battle ruled. I think I talked about it a lot at the time so I won't dwell much but lmao. wonderful. you're both sooooo bonkers

The Fey family drama! Cool af! Love a matriarchal society of women murdering each other. Amazing. I was spoiled for bits and pieces but not for Misty, which was a great surprise, I had expected they'd just leave that thread hanging but resolving it was the correct choice. I also loved that this game gave a bit more of a nod to Mia. I had said in my previous reaction post that I loved Mia having her own lil Moriarty in Dahlia and their showdown was so fun. Get her ass Mia. Pull each other's hair in the afterlife.

The actual plot mystery stuff in this case was great. I was able to do 3-4 and 3-5 without any walkthrough help AND without banging my head into a wall, which really does make it more fun, lol. You feel clever for solving it without feeling like it's being spoonfed. Or at least I didn't feel it was spoonfed :P and I guessed wrong about some things.

I loved Dahlia LMAO she was fr on the stand like "Your honour I was born evil and I died evil and I'm still evil now. Peace". I sort of expected she'd have mixed emotions at least about Iris but uh nope. Choose a way to born: Evil Baby. You could probably say something about AA returning to these cartoonishly evil villains to smooth over any of the ethical quandaries probably but tbh for the most part I just find it fun. Whatever. Cant a girl have hobbies (poisoning, failure).

Less positive stuff:

I was surprised and disappointed to not get a send-off epilogue screen for Edgeworth or Franziska 😔 they just kind of disappeared in the back end of the case, and while I don't have an issue focusing on the Feys in the end, the Edgeworth/Franziska stuff felt a bit unresolved to me, to not even get a few lines when Oldbag and Larry do. I guess Capcom wants me to play AAI (... sort of. not enough to port it or translate it :P).

Two finale cases in a row shelved Maya for a considerable portion. She got much more to do here, in the end -- her as Nick's last witness was very good, and obv she's central to the whole case -- than in 2-4, but I still felt her absence.

And I do wish we'd gotten to see more of Edgeworth and Phoenix interacting - they're sort if implied to be spending time off screen but I would like to see it.jpeg, I thought he was gonna be a more active part of the case after trial day 1. Since AA1 it often feels like the game is juggling characters so I can have like, one fave with me at a time but not more lol. Rude.

The Iris/Phoenix stuff was 🙄 I realize it's futile to be mad about like, token heterosexuality in a 20+ year old video game, but 🙄 lol. Also naturally I spent most of the game believing Dahlia had grudgingly put up with Feenie while dreaming of murder for 8 months and that's so much funnier than the truth turned out to be, lmao. Her eternal torment.

I couldn't stand Godot lmao I didn't like him at the start of the game and by the end I hated him. His gimmick was boring to me at best, I found him deeply condescending and sexist in the case with Mia, and then obviously 3-5 just sent all of that overdrive. The upswing was that he was the killer so that was satisfying for me lmfao. Throw the book at him judge.

Overall:

I see why this is often called the best game. The overarching stories all tied together well, I can see how the cases of the week led into the finale even if I hated one of em (mask de masque do NOT interact), the puzzles are good while being solvable, and there are some really really great fun moments of character stuff in here for almost everyone.

Having said that, I think the first game is still my fave. Its comparatively limited scope meant each major character got their moment, Maya and Edgeworth are my besties and it's the only time I actually got to have both of them around at the same time. And Turnabout Goodbyes is just so good and so is Rise from the Ashes.

I'm sad the trilogy is over 😔 while I wait for 4-6 to get ported I'll play TGAA and AAI, but not sure in which order, and in either case I'm gonna miss my best friend Phoenix Wright. Luv u buddy

[positivelytj]

Had a lil panic attack today cause of a comment someone left me. I made a comment on a YouTube video saying that yeah, Utah kinda sucks and someone responded calling me ignorant and harmful towards utahns and I'm like bro I've lived here my whole life! But the potential for an argument or the potential that I might have upset someone made me panic. Now I'm sitting here listening to slime rancher music and trying to calm down enough to sleep.

It's so funny that I panic so often from little things like this. The Internet is scary, and for most people it's comforting to argue with others without showing your face. For me, it doesn't matter whether or not I know the person, I hate arguments. I ended up deleting the comment thread because of how scared I was that an argument might start. It's definitely a result of childhood trauma, but that's ok, I'm working through it. I'm just so over panic attacks!!

For how big a social media presence I have on Instagram I really need to get over hate comments affecting me...

#selfcare

[brooklyndadshow]

Soundtrack of life

My mind has clearly been on music recently so going to hold onto that thread. I'm one of those people that is not opposed to put a song on repeat if it resonates with my soul and emotions at the time of my life. I admitted it. I listen to songs on repeat!! So let's go a little down repeat song alley. This was a big one for awhile and I think every parents can relate to.

It's being a middle age parent in a perfect opening song. There are a couple of other songs in the musical that gut me as a parent, but this one is the hopeful one that I had on repeat for awhile so we're going to end our Even Hansen streak.

This one was probably the most recent song on repeat. It was a Spotify suggestion that I just latched onto. It was actually amazingly popular and up for a grammy but I'd never hear it. It's dark and romantic like me - part of me thinks thinks too much like me - moving right along.

The one that comes to mind next is this one.

Love me some Lizzo - her lyrics are always amazing. The line that resonates most with me and I"m sure I'm not alone on this is " How am I supposed to loves somebody else? When I don't like myself" It makes me think about how important self care for you to care and love for the people that are important in your life. In our culture that values individualism over community in so many ways, it's not surprising that selfcare is such a struggle. But from everything we know about the way humans and relationships work, the better you are able to take care of yourself, the more capable you are of love, empathy - it can't be taking care of yourself for your own ends - but taking care of yourself so you have the energy to care about others. I use this app headspace and they have this night time meditation and one of my favorite is a breathing exercise that asks you to breathe in love and care for yourself and then on exhale breathe out thinking about someone you love and care for. If you never take that breath in you can never take that breath out for another.

[kiyaaa23]

Your guide to REAL selfcare

If you go on any social media and type "selfcare", all you recieve is pretty girls doing extravegant skincare, dior makeup and all. But the problem is everyone does the same thing and things just cant work same for everyone. Also, It doesnt feels authentic rather it feels like consumerism. So, I am gonna tell what to do so you feel the best.

Knowing yourself:-

You can only do yourself a favour if you know yourself and the best way to do that is JOURNAL.

If you are new to it, then you can search journal prompt ideas on pinterest and make that a part of your routine. It helps so much.

Do shadow work. Go on pinterest and do the same thing.

Dont be ashamed of yourself, rather accept yourself and change for the better. When you'll journal then you will get to know tons of good and bad things about you but our brain loves to focus on negative things so u might get stuck on that.

Record your likes and dislikes. Which books you loved, which dramas you adore, which food makes you comfy and which movies you wasted your time on. Record these things, this is just so fun and helpful when you feel "bored" or sad.

Being Mindful:-

Most of the time, the problem is not that big but our thoughts just traps us and we feel that problem is bigger than it might so take a step back and try to not overthink about past or future.

I know this is easier said than done but meditating helps a lot with mindfulness.

When you watch a movie or drama or even ytube video then just do that. Dont scroll reddit reading the "discussion" thread of the episode or try to find instrumentals on spotify for reading books. Just do one thing at once.

Dont multitask. Just take a task and then focus on that. (This might not work for neurodivergent people.)

Do 5,4,3,2,1 grounding technique. Identify

5 things you can see 4 things you can feel 3 things you can hear 2 things you can smell 1 thing you can taste.

Cut negative people off

This is so hard because you feel mean for doing this but once you cutoff toxic people who just drags other people down and all they talk is negativity then your life become so much better.

Cut off all the negative content you watch and limit the time you spend on social media.

Do your future self a favour

This is truly the best selfcare.

Study hard cause' your future self will thank you for letting her be the top student

Learn some skills. Read those books. Watch that documentry. Do things that will make your future self proud.

Some selfcare ideas

Organizing and planning

excercise or take a walk.

Reading books.

Cleaning your room

Watching fun movies

Studying about yourself. Knowing what products suits your skin and your hair. What color brighten you and what makes you look dull. What haircut looks good on your face and what clothes flatters on your body.

Get your nails done.

Listen to your fav album while painting, baking, or gardening.

Do your hobby without feeling pressurized. No you dont need to read 50 books a year, chill out and enjoy while doing it.

Dairy writing. Its so fun to read what your day looked like on a random tuesday after 2-3 years.

Explore new things in your hometown. Maybe there is a new cafe that opened 2 weeks ago or there is a hiking trail you are not aware of? its always fun to do that.

[filmsnroses]

literally hanging onto my own damn country by a thread. selfcare going crazy this week....