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Trial 2 - 014 Verdict

In a place unseen by human eyes, my heartbeat is coming to an end. If you'd show some mercy, try to remember me — a kid who couldn't become wanted. Stupid, selfish, loud.  I'm hard to talk to, and I can't see through the words of others; with the empty mind of a prey animal, I stuff myself into a corner and hold my breath. Childish, weird, disgusting.  I can't stop the tears when I fall and scratch my knee; I wish to chat about things that go beyond survival. Burden, burden, burden.  After attempting to swallow the anger and choking on it, I throw up awkwardly and stare in expectation to have my head patted. I can't trust anyone, but would you take my hand and lead me?  Even so, I know the answer… If I'll be hated either way, it's fine to do whatever I find fun! As a love confession, I'll possess your body. Kids who were never wanted become grown-ups with apathetic hearts.

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Amane's outreach

Because I was curious about what Amane and Fuuta have been up to.

Question marks: - It seems Fuuta was trying to visit Haruka but ran into Muu - Yuno approaches Amane, who at first tries to avoid her. The conversation goes philosophical - Kazui and Amane get philosophical. It looks like Kazui might have started the conversation

I wonder if they'll try to formally reach out to Muu and Kazui or follow up with Mikoto. If Amane tries talking to Yuno, I can't imagine it going very well. And it's hard to imagine anyone reaching out to Kotoko (though it'd be funny if they forgave her or at least were nice to her, what with Mikoto and Mahiru doing so before).

Summary/quotes under the cut (including the question marks):

(Translation)

April 19, 2022 (Fuuta's birthday): Amane checks in on Fuuta.

Amane: ……today is your birthday, correct? I’ll pray for God to keep you under his care.

October 24, 2022 (Shidou's birthday): Amane warns Shidou.

Amane: I warned you. I can no longer turn a blind eye to this wickedness taking place right in front of us. You’re bringing ruin unto yourself. Do you understand?

January 17, 2023 (Mahiru's birthday): Amane warns Mahiru.

Amane: I’ll give you one warning. The two of you are dabbling in something tabooed. If you continue to go against the way of nature like this, you’ll just bring an early death upon yourself.

April 19, 2023 (Fuuta's birthday): Amane visits Fuuta again.

Amane: Don’t you think it’s a good opportunity to be reborn? If, right now, you could shake off those around you trying to drag you down to depravity, and could change––

July 5, 2023 (Muu's birthday): It seems that Fuuta was going to check on Haruka but ran into Muu.

Fuuta: But well, if you’re Haruka’s “salvation” then I guess it really is great. Muu: Salvation……? I don’t know what you mean. Fuuta-kun, you don't sound like yourself.

June 27, 2024 (Amane's birthday): Yuno approaches Amane.

Amane: Being born into this world is the first miracle any person experiences, and is something to celebrate. Even if after birth I was put through trial after trial, the value of that will never disappear.

January 17, 2024 (Mahiru's birthday): Fuuta checks in on Mahiru.

Fuuta: ……right. As long as treatment continues, huh. …… I wonder how you’re going to be saved.

April 19, 2024 (Fuuta's birthday): Fuuta reaches out to Haruka

Fuuta: ––Hey, are you really ok with this? If you come with me, there’s a chance you can be saved too…… Haruka.

June 27, 2024 (Amane's birthday): Kazui and Amane have a chat

Amane: Who do you think you’re lecturing…… I don’t need you to tell me that. I’m faithful to my own feelings.

October 6, 2024 (Mikoto's birthday): Amane approaches Mikoto

Amane: However, if you wish to be saved, you should come to us, let's pray together. No matter who you are anyone can be saved.

April 19, 2025 (Fuuta's birthday): Fuuta approaches Yuno (translation)

Fuuta: ...You need salvation too, right? Come over here. Come with us.

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Most interesting post on the guy I've read in a bit. I really don't know what the general consensus on characters is outside of what I see in passing and hear from others. I try to keep out of the tag and my distance from the opinions of others to not only protect my own peace of mind but give myself space to draw my own conclusions before joining in on discussion. Though because of my experiences, I just gradually learned to not engage much in Milgram things outside of just writing my own analysis and talking with friends about it.

So, reading the beginning of that post I reblogged kind of left me floored. My outsider perspective is has it been that simplified?

Is it meant to be that easy. But I guess when what is being debated is who is at fault more than what exactly happened, people look for where to cast blame instead of taking in the situation fully. I think to an extent Milgram is about working against that first inclination to find whose at fault and showcasing how that very natural human urge of finding who was right and who was wrong can make a situation worse.

Ah but at this point I'm just rambling. It's been something I've been thinking over in my downtime a lot. Well it's been in the back of my mind for a while since hearing Yuno's voiceline on forgiveness. I wonder what all this, everything that has happened will mean to the prisoners. Like what being forgiven and punished is to them. I really think trial three will showcase that well.

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milgram analysis: 'john' (orekoto, オレ) did not form to vent mikoto's stress through murder, and he is not the alter that 'did it'

(mainly me musing on how DID functions, as well as analysing the text. enjoy)

will be referring both to wiki and milgram-en's (Neoplasm, interrogation) translations. mainly wiki for gesturing, and milgram-en for textual analysis. thank you so much!

note on names: for the purposes of this post:

09 refers to the person/system, all parts included

mikoto refers to 09 with the exception of orekoto/'john' (ie. all his 'normative' / in denial / confused / playful demeanours). this is the alter who is 'on trial' for the purposes of Milgram, so I will also use this name when talking about voting

'john' refers to the 09 (オレ, ore) who claims in Neoplasm to be the alter who commit murder. I will also make the assumption that he is the same alter as 09 (俺, ore) in John Doe that attacks es, since he expresses familiarity with 俺's actions in John Doe

i'm working with translations and 09 is a complicated character, so please forgive any slip ups!

thank you for reading.

introduction: widely accepted fanon

i frequently see that mikoto's case is controversial on the axis of 'system responsibility'.

on the side of guilty voters, mikoto is guilty because he and john are part of the same system, and unfortunately, that means they share culpability. i often hear rhetoric implying that 09's DID means mikoto was functionally possessed, and that he had no say in the murders, but regardless, him being guilty is just an unfortunate logistical situation. it's just how it is.

this rhetoric also makes it easy to argue for his innocence, and counter with how unfair this expectation is. if DID means he was functionally possessed, couldn't control his actions, and his alter just went out and killed people, regardless of 'john' having any noble intentions, that's tragic and unfair.

aside from being a fucking horrific way to see someone with DID (implying alters' actions are burdens, foreign intrusions that you just have to deal with. no recognition or self compassion whatsoever. die), this discourse also rides on the assumption that between 'normative' mikoto and his alter dubbed 'john', mikoto had nothing to do with his crime. that 'john' formed as a result of overwhelming stress mikoto had bottled up, and, pitying him deeply, 'john' decided to find mikoto an outlet through murder, something mikoto did not consent to.

i don't blame anyone for coming to this conclusion or approaching 09's crime in this way. it is very very deeply what milgram leads you towards, and what 'john' wants you to believe is going on.

through the VDs and MVs, 'john' consistently paints the picture that it was his choice to murder and his alone, that he did it without mikoto's consciousness and anthetically to mikoto's character.

so. what's the problem? he's told us very straightforwardly across the board that what you've just described is what's going on. can we not believe the words of the prisoner themselves?

no. because 09, like all prisoners, has reason to lie to us to secure his survival. and 'john' in particular has every reason to convince us of a reality where he and he alone is the guilty party.

i very very strongly believe that 'john' is manipulating the audience to create the impression he does out of an ego-protective obligation. so i'm writing this post. and i hope i can convince you too.

main body 1: the purpose of alters (no, we are not functionally possessed):

let's start at the beginning. why did 'john' form? why would an alter with his characteristics form at all? this will help us understand why he does things, and what his role is within 09's life.

alters in DID typically form in response to new life roles and traumas, with the key note being that these aforementioned roles or traumas could not be handled by / identified with the alters that already exist. thus, a new dissociated state emerges to isolate that event or carry out that role. memory gaps may occur when the mere existence of that role / event is intolerable, or dissociation is otherwise high.

i have already written a long document on writing DID. check it out if you are unfamiliar with the basics.

we are aware of a few facts about mikoto's life, which can clue us in to what those roles and traumas may have led new alters to form.

first, he works an overwhelming job and never gets a days rest. it's implied he does not take good care of himself because of how all-consuming his job is, and that it takes him to a breaking point.

second, he commit mass murder.

third, he was suddenly brought to milgram, put under 24/7 surveillance, and told he was a killer, despite not remembering doing anything of the sort.

i frequently see people come to the conclusion that 'john' formed as a result of his stressful job, and functions to let mikoto 'blow off steam'. there's a few reasons i don't think this is the case.

an alter who forms as a result of a stressful job is more likely to handle and isolate the source of stress itself. for example, an automatic alter to handle work and nothing else, isolating that stress from the rest of their personality.

i really dont think an alter can form to 'blow off steam'. by definition, 'john' is a dissociative identity, disconnected from mikoto. whatever he does in terms of emotional processing is by design not going to impact mikoto.

in John Doe, 'john's' demeanour appears majorly aligned with fictionalised stereotypes of violent split personalities, appearing sadistic and animalistic. this alter presentation doesn't just 'happen' without reason, and i can't find a reason for 'john' to present himself like this if he truly formed to put himself first and 'blow off steam'.

so why did 'john' form?

main body 2: the purpose of 'john'

it's my opinion he formed as a result of (ie. after) the murders, as a way to contain and identify with those actions, because mikoto could not. i believe 'john' protects mikoto from 09's identity as a murderer and that intolerable experience in general, by allowing him to dissociate from it and forget it.

(note: it's not in my interest to pin the crime on any one alter, and i think it's weird to do so. you will notice i refer to 09's (as a whole) identity as a murderer, rather than blaming any one part, since it's an objective fact that 09, as a person, killed people. i'm opposed to holding any single alter responsible, but i am absolutely certain that if you are to argue that one is, it would not be 'john'.)

i believe that through distinguishing himself from mikoto through his accent, personality presentation, and sense of self, 'john' becomes the archetypal 'monster', which serves to reassure mikoto that 'john' is 'not him', and thus disassociates mikoto from the things 'john' takes ownership of: namely, 09's murderous actions and 09's identity as someone who has killed.

i also believe that following the transition into Milgram, 'john', as a protective alter is forced to develop beyond just psychologically protecting mikoto from the reality that 09 are a murderer. due to the voting system, it becomes important for 09's physical survival and wellbeing that 'john' can convince the audience that he is distinct from mikoto. he takes advantage of the fact that mikoto is the only alter on trial, and begins to spin sympathy for mikoto as a helpless victim, and negotiate on the terms of mikoto's innocence, by reiterating that it was 'john', and only 'john', who did it.

let's break down some 'john' truths:

he has a rough demeanour in contrast to mikoto's soft-spoken, and in John Doe, appears violent and sadistic

he distinguishes himself from and contrasts himself to mikoto by making a point to alternate personal pronouns

he claims to be the alter that commit the murders

he insists that this means mikoto should be found innocent, and that mikoto had nothing to do with it

when he realises that es may not agree with that view, he begins to plead, and then attempts to negotiate with es, being willing to sacrifice his existence as 'john' by promising to 'disappear'

he, well. this:

I'll take it all - bear it all (...) and I'll be rid of it. I (ore) ... was born in order to protect me. I (ore) would do whatever it takes to protect me (boku).

i find these last words 'john' says to es are the most telling, and really give us an insight into his motivations and what he considers his role and responsibility.

note that it's not to help mikoto vent stress. it's to take on the burden of everything that causes 09 distress. that being, for the most part, his guilt. he expresses a desire to isolate that trauma into himself as 'john' and vanish it, and maybe it's the DID in me, but all i'm hearing is the sound of a self-sacrificing protective alter who is desperately trying to keep his normal parts from having their illusion of a normal, trauma-free life shattered.

main body 3: where we can infer 'john' may be misleading us

ok, so i have this crazy theory i've convinced myself of that can strictly speaking be considered in line with the text using some mental gymnastics. but is there anything in the text that directly suggests that 'john' didn't do it?

yeah.

for starters, and perhaps a moot point, but mikoto is the alter on trial within Milgram. not only that, but 'john' is specifically not.

to be honest, this is what first got me theorising along this train of thought. if Milgram really 'doesn't make mistakes', and were presumably aware of 'john's' existence (in the sense that 'john' is considered unique, and not a prisoner), what makes mikoto the identity on trial?

like i said earlier, while i disagree with assigning culpability to individual alters, i do believe that if you were to assign culpability and only persecute and associate one alter for/with 09's crimes, it would not be 'john', because he did not exist as an alter at the time 09 commit those crimes. therefore, i believe Milgram is suggesting that of the alters, mikoto is the guilty party.

moreover, when you dissect 'john's' confession to es, there are certain patterns he displays that imply he is misleading us.

he is incredibly vague and emotionally disconnected when describing the event, lol.

his account of the murders appears fragmented and vague, and it's notable that he doesn't elaborate very much, or seem to feel much at all towards the event. contrast this to mikoto, who, when pressed on the topic of murder, starts to panic, scratch at his head, whimper and groan, and dissociate.

'john' either has a composure of steel, and truly does not feel remorse for his murder whatsoever, or, more likely, is that he only has a surface level connection to those memories, because his role only really extends towards identifying those memories and actions as 'his'.

it may be possible that mikoto is the alter with a unique repressed connection to the emotions and distress associated with the events, hence his violent reaction to es' pressing. it's also possible that the murders are blurry and hard to connect with for 09 in general, because trauma and dissociation can do that. but in both cases, i feel that 'john's' account of the murder don't really convince me that it was him that was conscious for the act, much less in a nonchalant and uncaring way, as he seems to put across.

2. he is first and foremost preoccupied with what his confession means for mikoto's guilt and protection

he gives up confessing and spinning his story after he's successfully convinced es that what he has said is the truth. he then immediately checks with the consequences of his actions.

this doesn't read as a confession to me, rather it looks like a blatant strategy. it's not about what 'john' did, it's about what 'john' can tell es to turn the tides in mikoto's favour.

when it becomes clear es may not be willing to see things his way, 'john' immediately loses his nonchalant composure. clearly, distinguishing himself as a uniquely guilty alter isn't working to secure his goals of mikoto's innocence, so he doubles down and makes emotional pleas.

again, note that it's not about 'john'. 'john' is content vilifying himself, and makes no attempt to humanise himself, or give explanation for 'his' actions. instead, he emphasises mikoto's innocence, and tries to evoke sympathy for him.

and in the end, 'john' strikes a deal with es; on the condition of mikoto's innocence, 'john' will 'disappear' himself. he cements his role as an alter that serves to carry 09's guilt so mikoto never has to face who he is and what he's done. the apparent subtext of 'proving one's use' reinforces this reading, i think. 'john' being able to 'disappear' himself and secure mikoto's guilt-free survival, is, honestly, the ideal situation as far as 09 believes.

the logistics of 'john' 'disappearing' himself and the fact that this, practically, would not make 09 guilt-free are a can of worms — this ... might not go how they expect ... — but 09's intentions are clear. 09 wants what 'john' isolates, carries, and represents (his guilt & identity as a killer) to vanish. whether or not he practically can 'vanish' anything (and what the consequences of his 'disappearing' are) remain to be seen (although, based on the voice clips, it seems that without 'john' around to contain 09's identity as a killer ... mikoto is not having a good time, psychologically).

in my opinion, 'john's' confession and the subsequent deterioration of the conversation are absolutely seeping in 'john's' ulterior motives to take all distress and discomfort from mikoto and protect him.

I'll take it all - bear it all (...) and I'll be rid of it. I (ore) ... was born in order to protect me. I (ore) would do whatever it takes to protect me (boku).

therefore, i would not take anything he claims about being autonomous, monstrous, and uniquely guilty at face value. 'john' has a goal, he has a purpose, and he will do anything to attain it.

main body 4: but maybe he's not... intentionally lying

all this said, i don't want the takeaway to be that 'john' is a manipulative liar. i also strongly believe that on a lot of levels, he, and 09 as a whole, believe what he is saying, because he has to.

like i said at the start, alters in DID encapsulate roles and traumas that could not be identified by the alters that already exist. if 'john' exists to isolate 09's identity as a killer, that means that 09 as a whole cannot tolerate the idea that mikoto could do such a thing.

i find 'john's' musing on the 'kind of person' that mikoto is very telling.

09 has a very firm idea of what a kind of gentle, sensitive, victimised person mikoto is, which makes the fact that he broke under the pressure and murdered people an even more intolerable reality. however, it's crucial for 09's health that they continue to believe in their goodness and maintain the illusion of a normal life for their everyday parts.

therefore, it's safest for 09's ego and psychological stability for 'john' to truly believe he is guilty and mikoto innocent. he also, after all, expresses incredibly high distress at the suggestion that mikoto may be punished or considered 'guilty', yet displays no such distress at his own condemnation. this reality where mikoto is innocent is clearly a source of stability for 09 across the board. so i do believe all of 09 believe this is the case, at least emotionally, and collectively work to sustain this reality for their psychological welfare.

i also believe 'john' isn't necessarily lying about believing in his role and personal guilt just because of how much self-hatred he betrays.

the aforementioned utter lack of self-respect (never standing up for himself) and subservience to mikoto's wellbeing (being willing to 'disappear' for mikoto's sake, claiming his all-encompassing purpose is to protect 09) implies a low self esteem. the end of Double as well as just how fucking miserable he sounds at towards end of Neoplasm betrays that he does feel immense guilt for 'his' actions, but only in relation to how the intolerable identity/experience he holds causes harm to mikoto.

'john', ultimately, is a character who represents a lot of self-hatred. he hates what he represents, he hates what he 'brings' to 09's identity, and he hates himself for existing and serving as a constant reminder of their identity as a killer that distresses mikoto and threatens their guilt-free manufactured reality so much.

(timeline translation document)

mikoto also targets 'john' to blame him for 'causing problems', to add layers to the self-hatred. 'john' counters emotionally, evoking his subservience and desire to protect, and defending his existence on the basis that he tried to help.

practically, i believe 'john' does help, by protecting mikoto from the reality that 'he' (09) killed people. but in 09's eyes, 'john's' 'helping' is 09's unexplainable and fragmented violent outburst, and thus 'john' has done a crap job at helping anything. this leads 'john' to not understand his value as an alter and hate himself, being ready to throw himself under the bus for mikoto's sake to 'save him' from the consequences of 09's guilt, and leads mikoto to lash out at 'john'.

i'll just say, from experience, throwing blame between alters that are associated with traumatic experiences is an unfortunate and common experience with DID. i even talk about it in my DID representation doc, as to illustrate why self-compassion and tolerance is vital to healing.

It’s very easy for us DID folk to simply wish that all of it would go away - to wish all of them would go away - because they must be the root of all our problems. They’re too needy, they’re too sad, they’re too angry, they hurt me, and I don’t understand them. I wish they would leave. I just want peace, we think. (...) Regardless of how alien and aggressive we feel, people with DID aren’t possessed, and our hurting and self-harming and destructive parts aren’t demons. They’re traumatised facets of a traumatised person. And no part of a traumatised person deserves to be repressed and vilified and shunned. (...) To me, a hopeful narrative and resolution is anything that can bring the parts together cohesively while loving their differences. (...) Navigating the decades of internal conflict and self-hatred and transforming it into tolerance and love. — Me, The Subjective Comprehensive Guide to [DID] Representation

... great job with the tolerance and love, guys.

conclusion / tl;dr:

i don't think 'john' as an alter appeared one day and decided to kill people to help mikoto cope with work stress.

i think 'john' is a very complicated part of mikoto, that identifies with the act and identity of killing, to keep it from mikoto and protect him. he presents himself as the 'kind of person' that would kill, and who is different to mikoto, because to 09, mikoto is not that 'kind of person'.

i think 09 use DID and the distinctions between alters to protect themselves psychologically, because that's why the disorder exists.

i also think it gives them an advantage in Milgram: by leaning into their DID and maladaptive self-ostracisation, they can attempt to convince the audience that 09's guilt is split between two alters: an innocent and a guilty.

using this, 'john', who hates himself as it is, promises to the audience that he will vanish himself on the condition mikoto is voted innocent, making himself useful one last time and finally 'saving' mikoto in the way he feels he has failed to thus far.

epilogue / reflection

so! i hope i make sense, and i really hope i haven't forgotten to cover anything glaring.

this is an all-encompassing way of reading 09 to me, and if it is canon like i believe, 09 may be a shockingly sensitive and accurate portrayal of DID. but to unearth this interpretation you need to dive into a lot of subtext and dodge a lot of intentional misdirection than leans into stigma and negative stereotypes of DID, so i sort of understand why a lot of people fall short, end up taking things at face value, or otherwise feel unqualified to dissect what's being written and claimed.

i hope my analysis and commentary helps, and please know that i am also always open to yap about these guys or DID representation in general if anyone would like. this is a very strong interest of mine, and i love picking fiction and DID representation apart, as well as demystifying the condition for people!

thank you for getting to the end of this, i know it's an essay and a half.

if you read this all the way through, even ignoring the text in images, this post comes out at over 3.5k words. this is longer than any college essay i've ever written. good grief. but it's over. thank you for sticking with me.

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Please remember that almost everyone around you is traumatized. I didn’t understand this when I was younger. I wondered why people acted so strangely and irrationally. Maybe all children wonder this. The author Robert Anton Wilson said (paraphrasing), “We have never seen a completely sane adult human.” No one makes it out of this life alive. It’s not their fault. Mercy, kindness, forgiving — these are what makes one human. They are other names for love. People break in the strangest of ways.

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Yeah sooo I've been not using tumblr for a while now which I should probably explain. Especially since I still have a lot of asks to get to and other things.

So, what happened the beginning of the year sucked super bad. Which is one saw how I was posting in January to March they'd know. Yet, the reason I was offline for so long was legitimately because um not gonna hold you I've never really felt apart of any online community I tend to just do my thing and keep it moving.

However, there's only so much consistent harassment anyone can take before just burning out. Believe it or not I'm not really online that often I live and breath the recluse life. I spend my time hanging out with the same few people irl & online, sleeping, writing and listening to music.

I seriously have been trying to recuperate from all the bullshit I've been through due to just discussing my interests and enjoying this series. So, I haven't had the energy to really talk about Milgram because to me the fandom has not made it fun to discuss the series in length at all.

I have reblogged things here and there but that really isn't my usual thing. I would tend to write in length about these things and answer asks when I get them. However a mix of irl and online stuff compounding over a period of time has left me burnt the fuck out and sick of this shit.

So, on main I'm going to be unfollowing a good deal of people to avoid being reminded of things related to or individuals that have very willfully and repeatedly harassed me and people I care about. Like sorry I don't know what to say I just gotta so I can actually get back to enjoying this app somewhat and not getting annoyed each time I open it.

Just mostly saying this to go hey if I unfollow someone it has nothing to do with them and everything to do with me trying to get over certain and set firmer boundaries with myself and social media.

I'll probably get back into things slowly I'm not jumping back into things right this second but to be candid for a second...

Each time I engage with this series in a way that is fun to me I am ultimately greatly disappointed with the many new and creative ways people find to make everything and anything about their own lived experience instead even remotely attempting to understand anyone else's.

I am simply too tired to put in the effort I have to attempt to understand, empathize, and analyze the story of Milgram and it's characters. I'm far too tired to extend the benefit of the doubt to individuals who act in ways that are destructive to my own happiness or even be reminded of them actually.

I want to live in a reality that does not overlap with those people. It really is that simple.

For those who I do unfollow that are involved in the Milgram fandom feel free to reach out. Because again it's nothing personally against you. I'm just not trying to be reminded of certain things at the moment.

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im normal about fictional siblings

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inno 4ever

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Another cross stitch pattern!

Am I normal? Well, here's a test. The answer depends on whether I decide to actually stitch this within the year.

[Image ID: Cross stitch patterns of Fuuta and Amane in the 5th anni art. The left is the cover image, with a blue canvas, and the right is a symbol grid. /end ID]

If I do end up doing this, it would likely take 2-3 weeks. The first Amane cross stitch took 10 days, but it was relatively simplistic. The Kotoko cross stitch took at least 3 weeks (and several months of downtime) but had several detailed parts.

See where the hobby roulette takes me...

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NOTSUMI 2025 - Manga Page 1 & 2

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NOTSUMI 2025 - Ayame's voting

Memory report | Voice drama

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NOTSUMI 2025 - Tsuguha's voting

Act | Voice drama

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In the spirit of hating this April fools- Here's a list of reasons to hate every Milgram character,

Haruka

He's in Milgram.

Yuno

She's in Milgram.

Futa

He's in Milgram.

Mu

She's in Milgram.

Shidou

He's in Milgram.

Mahiru

She's in Milgram.

Kazui

He's in Milgram.

Amane

She's in Milgram.

Mikoto

He's in Milgram.

Kotoko

She's in Milgram.

The premise of this series is just so fucked up and wrong. I can't believe anyone would willingly or unwillingly go along with this. Let alone see a way to use this completely dehumanizing system to their benefit in some way. Literally, everyone here deserves to be canceled.

What the fuck is wrong with them?

I mean, if I were them, I simply wouldn't produce a song for the benefit of this corrupt establishment. Yet, not only did they all do that, but they put their names on it proudly in some cases.

Do they not realize how they're all complicit in this?

Fucked up and wrong each one of them. I would simply resist harder but they clearly didn't resist at all. So, I gotta say if it wasn't clear already, this is a joke.

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You know what? Forget everything I've ever said. In 2025 people should start defining ourselves by hatred instead of anything we even remotely enjoy. Define yourself by discourse. Become such a staunch hater of a fictional character that you're more known for disliking them than liking anything about the media they're from. Start internet discourse over it. Then start splitting people into moralized categories based on characters they like or media that they're interested in.

Like make a running bit out of it. Because- That's what creates the most interesting and enjoyable human being to be around ever. That is the perfect person actually and definitely not attention seeking friendless fucking behavior. Oh no, it's so sexy, mysterious~ To be a cesspit of hate in your free time. I see a cesspit and go ya know I think I wanna take a dip in that instead the crystal clear ponds or lakes anywhere else. This is better than a pool, actually. I just was too prideful to admit how cool and enamoring being this way is before now.

I definitely love it so much when people who talk about others taking things too seriously behave as if they're being begrudgingly paid to engage with something in fiction they don't like. As though it's their fucking nine to five. It's the coolest thing ever actually and I'm deeply impressed by the commitment. Oh, and if you're wondering, today's date is April 1, 2025.

So yeah, happy April fools! The one day it's one hundred percent acceptable to act the way listed above to me. Let's regulate this behavior to one day of the year. Let the clowns clock in some vacation time. No one hired them to perform at the party anyway.

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hi, a lot of you need a perspective reset

the average human lifespan globally is 70+ years

taking the threshold of adulthood as 18, you are likely to spend at least 52 years as a fully grown adult

at the age of 30 you have lived less than one quarter of your adult life (12/52 years)

'middle age' is typically considered to be between 45-65

it is extremely common to switch careers, start new relationships, emigrate, go to college for the first or second time, or make other life-changing decisions in middle age

it's wild that I even have to spell it out, but older adults (60+) still have social lives and hobbies and interests.

you can still date when you get old. you can still fuck. you can still learn new skills, be fashionable, be competitive. you can still gossip, you can still travel, you can still read. you can still transition. you can still come out.

young doesn't mean peaked. you're inexperienced in your 20s! you're still learning and practicing! you're developing social skills and muscle memory that will last decades!

there are a million things to do in the world, and they don't vanish overnight because an imaginary number gets too big

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Blender (redone)

Redraw of this. Kotoko needs to look a bit cuter, methinkgs.

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Lost Amane

I'm sorry for killing Amane again (<- is not sorry)