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hellenhighwater · 3 months ago

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Forbidden orange juice

#Narcissus is an overlooked tragedy i think #in that its not usually considered one #but narcissus was born beautiful and wanted by everyone #and he spurned all advances #generally without particular cruelty--mostly it seems he ignored or recoiled from those chasing him. and for that he was cursed #to love what would not love him back #to be doomed as soon as he knew himself #in a mythos with ravaging heroes and grotesque monsters narcissus is punished for being beautiful and solitary #and the moment he catches sight of his reflection in still water he is lost--gazing at himself #that which would not love him back.#wasting away until nothing but a gold flower remained #and that's what this is about #finding a stranger in your reflection #the self that does not love you #a curse for someone who was solitary #narcissus i hope the water was fathomless #i hope you found something worthwhile in yourself.

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spiralling-spires · 8 months ago

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Being jurgen leitner the day that gerry almost killed him was probably really surreal. Imagine you’re minding your business, collecting fucked up books, and out of nowhere this goth guy covered in eye tattoos shows up and beats you half to death, then stops, goes, “no you’re too pathetic to be jurgen leitner” and leaves without further elaboration. And you dont correct him, you like being alive after all, and after that you just… continue with your life. And then several years later you tell this to some random guy in the tunnels you’ve been hiding in, and he not only knows who the goth was, but seems somewhat fond of the goth. And then you get brutal pipe murdered by the random guy’s boss. Oops

#the magnus archives #tma #jurgen leitner #gerry keay #jon sims #elias bouchard #on an unrelated note #i think leitner was probably of the eye if he was of any of the fears #the eye is kind of the perfect symbiote #plus i feel like going ‘oh hey cursed books. im gonna find more!’ is so eye coded #not that im saying eye avatars have poor self preservation instincts or anything #(this is exactly what im saying)#the motto of the eye should be ‘i fucked around and found out’#not that ‘audio opperior vigilo’ stuff

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bagettues · 6 months ago

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look at these SNUG BUGS just laying there on the grass…

#svsss #scum villain self saving system #liushen #liu qingge #shen qingqiu #my art #started working on this during liushen week but did not finish until now #i finally found a cool way to make watercolorlike edges w my shading on procreate so im quite excited to try it out more

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starry-bi-sky · 1 month ago

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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.

Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.

Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.

Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.

There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.

#svsss #luo binghe #svsss au #scum villain #scum villian self saving system #shen yuan #shen qingqiu #disciple shen yuan #lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops #im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either #had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him #when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi #hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th #sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his #back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's #face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is #INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and #the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of #his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so #unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face #and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc #he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]

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welcometogrouchland · 9 months ago

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[ID in ALT] I've made posts before about Talia/Dick co-parenting Damian moments (will never happen but let me dream) and this came to me in a vision. Took me ages to finish for some reason 😭 and then even longer to post

#dc comics #dc #damian wayne #dick grayson #talia al ghul #batfamily #dc robin #nightwing #anyway. yes im a self-indulgent ''dick as damians secret third parent'' truther #like i DO think it's way more complex and nuanced than the schmoopy affectionate fan portrayal of it #they're brothers they're father and son they're partners they're the dynamic duo except only in past tense etc etc #but consider! I'm not immune to schmoopy affection in fanworks. it compells me despite itself #anyway it's technically not that crazy when it comes to dick and damian. they hug! often! at least they did #it's not as big a leap to these types of scenarios #also talia ''somewhat absent for complex reasons on both her and damians part but very loving and loved by her son'' al ghul #you will always be famous to me #son of the demon origin...bwahhh #anyway. someone made a comic kind of like this/like a post i made abt this topic #but way funnier bc dick and talia starting trying to beat each other up #so go look at that as well #anyway. it's been a somewhat difficult few weeks so I'm. desperately trying to take it easy #i got some reading with me (first vol of kevin smiths GA run that i found second hand and jaimes BB run vol 2!)#so we'll see how far i get through those. considering there's demons in my head telling me to re-read things (LET ME OUT!!!)#when i finish GA and BB i do plan on rereading robin 2021. as a treat to myself #it's a run I've really warmed up to as time went on #I'm keeping up w/ the current b&r run even though it is. admittedly very slow w/ some weird dialogue #i read it for the damian content more than anything. also nikas back so that's neat :]#idk I have a feeling that after absolute power shakes out we might get some more creative team switch ups #so if anyone at dc is interested in taking over the reigns on b&r...that could be very neat #mine

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adhd-mode-activate · 2 years ago

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Okay so I just saw the new Dungeons and Dragons movie

gotta say from the moment they went with the "let's dive out the window onto the Aarakocra" plan even as the council was like "WE PARDONED YOU" I knew it would be great because that is the exact kind of stupidity a D&D party would get up to

#dnd honor among thieves #dungeons and dragons honor among thieves #dnd movie #honestly my best overall review with minimal spoilers?#not quite gay enough but *definitely* neurodivergent enough #and my ace self was VERY HAPPY with the platonic found family

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theimpurelily · 5 months ago

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So I was rereading chapter 37 of Shen Yuan of No Relation by @grubus and I realized something. SQQ did exactly what YQY threatened to do years ago and then some.

What an over achiever.

#For some damn reason it made me think of this meme so I just had to.#nearly 20 years of reading fan fic and my first fanart is a fucking meme reference #honestly on brand for me tho #today I found out ms paint has changed a bit since I last used it #this took way longer than it should have #svsss #shen yuan #shen qingqiu #shen jiu #yue qingyuan #scumbag self saving system #fanart #meme #shen yuan of no relation #syonr #svsss fanart #mxtx svsss #syonr spoilers #spoilers

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hinamie · 3 months ago

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so just know, I'm healing / even though it don't feel like it

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#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #yuji itadori #fushiguro megumi #megumi fushiguro #itafushi #fushiita #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #good evening it is past midnight and i am here furthering the itfs scar kissing agenda #stumbled across the insp pic buried in my likes and i went oh this is relevant in the opposite direction :) I Can Use This :)#op has some of my fav itfs fanart ill b so real n tht piece ws swimming around in my brain fr Days #so i told myself today my reward for submitting my zine checkin wld b drawing yuuji kissing megumi's scars #also pls observe. /this/ is what i mean when i say tht megumi receiving affection looks like he is unsure and in mild pain #Does Not Know How To Respond To Affection Even From His Own Boyfriend.png #i LOVE drawing megu with this expression so sosos much the downcast sidelong gaze + furrowed brow.....#its SO good #also idk what i did with his hair here but the render actually turned out so well ?? best megu hair to date every1 pls clap #not 2 mention th shape of yuuji's bangs???? pats self on th back no offense but i am on fire w these boys' hair lately #that being said i decided i did not want to render anything else ddfdfjjghdjgf i got tired #kept the rest flat n took the opportunity to play around w light chromatic abberation on the scars #idk if any1 noticed but i found th retro film filter n used it a bunch on my recent comic #its so convenient it comes w built in noise n everything!!!!!!#anyway . caption is salt fv <333 if u care <333333 #i think it is also a megu song but like . a post-canon megu song #i thought this wld take longer bc i was planning on rendering everything so i cracked an energy drink and am tragically awake #shld i start smth new we shall see smile :)

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cvvvmgvvvtzzz · 12 days ago

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(⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠) teehee

#g0r3c0r3 #g0re k!nk #g0rewh0re #g0rec0re #bl00d k!nk #bl00d kink #tw sh related #988blr #actually mentally ill #mental illness #mentally fucked #su1c1d4l #tw self destruction #idk if anyones posted this i found it in my gallery from like years ago lol

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favoritemewart · 6 months ago

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This tank's ALLERGIC to heals!!!

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This tank's ALLERGIC to heals!!

#Wow #Gaming #world of warcraft #self found #healing #Youtube

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gotchibam · 1 month ago

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Ogerpon & Darkrai ko-fi doodle for CyclopeanSpook!

#artists on tumblr #pokemon #ogerpon #darkrai #gotchibam arts #ko-fi doodle #sorry if this is pretty late ;;#but I hope you still like it!! <3 #I think i'm starting to have a bit of momentum w/ drawing again #I might actually be able to finish more doodles (maybe even comms?) this week #just gotta keep myself in check & avoid self-sabotaging again #I think streaming helps..... kinda?#used to be terrified at the idea of it but actually I just realized..... it's nice to have company ;w;#sorry I wasn't able to chat much! i was pretty focused on drawing #also i just found out abt the embedded twitch chat on the post..... next time i'll try chatting there too!#tysm to those who joined the stream ;w; appreciate the company!#queued

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critai · 1 year ago

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#kagerou project #kagepro #mary kozakura #kano shuuya #kido tsubomi #seto kousuke #my art #critai mine #WAUGHHDH !!!!!!!#happy 15th from the jst timezone #IM NOT DONE YET I SITLL HAVE 2 DRAW AYANO #bro this file crashed sm times AUGHDHH #edit: WAGH I FOUND OUT THIS WENT ON THE RADAR WTF #i remember when i first posted this i didnt have time to explain the comp process for this 1 and not that it was anything big just #felt like i had to explain kano's framing bc it does look wonky #p much that it's actually the outline of the yobanashi graffiti title in his mv :-) !!!#not sum fucked up hole lol #everything else i think it's p self explanatory www was abt to do mekakushi code for kido but i felt like shissou word highlighted her #character more so i went w that..!!!#and originally i was to draw mary as a separate piece and have the meka trio in another but i didnt have time...#which is fine bc sidu did the same thing in their art book also LMAO #mary's og concept was also the curtain idea but behind her would've ben her mom + maybe seto (imagination forest stuff)#thank u for the nice tags :"-DDD

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brainrotcharacters · 1 year ago

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the man trained by the shimotsuki since childhood, the mind behind the three sword style, the demon pirate hunter, vice captain of the Strawhat Pirates,

easily stopped with a hand on his shoulder by his captain (currently in a silly hungry vibe)