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My Discussion Post for Practicum November 9
This topic is acutely apropos, even though this article was written before the precipitating even 8 years ago of the first election of Donald Trump. In the intervening eight years, political division has continued to rise, natural disasters are increasing, and the tools in this article are of even greater necessity. The primary conclusion of this article is that yes, therapists should speak to their clients regarding world politics and news. The article offered several was to broach the subject with clients: posting a letter publicly in the office, asking client's in session, and sending an email inviting conversation to clients. Recent online discourse has been revolving around if it is appropriate to ask your therapist how they voted during the election. This conversation is being picked up by therapists and clients. Clients, especially LGBTQIA+ and women clients are expressing that therapists who don't answer or who answer "Trump," are therapists they no longer feel safe with. Some therapists are arguing that revealing who you voted for is too much self-disclosure; others are saying this should not be a problem to disclose; others are vehement that not only should you disclose, it should be obvious who you voted for. This current discourse complicates some of the suggestions from the article, as an invitation to speak about things could be seen as an invitation to ask who you voted for, which is generally considered private information. However, withholding information could also clearly damage rapport.
In my own practice this week, I have had some clients with the current election on their minds, and some who did not care. The clients who were experiencing distress did not ask me how I voted, however, it was clear from their attitude they were certain of who I had voted for, and there was no need to ask.
Guidelines for political discussion were also helpful. The focus should be on how clients were impacted emotionally and socially by politics or world conditions. When clients "rabbit trail" down a rant, a counselor should redirect them back to how they are personally being impacted. Finally, it is recommend that when appropriate, the therapist share in their own human grief about world (or local) events, and "join as a fellow human" in the emotional response to tragedy.
Civic engagement is a way clients can feel centered and empowered in the midst of political unrest and tragedy. It is a way to ground oneself and not be rattled by ongoing events. Loneliness can be a significant contributor to stress, anxiety, and depression symptoms. Being connected to other people in civic movements, protests, and activism, is a way to minimize fear and embrace the power a human does have (Hunter, 2024). That connection can also lead to community with resources to ride out political upheaval or natural disasters. Connection is vital for human survival, both as an individual and as a communal creature. Additionally, civic engagement and communal connection can give help humans envision a hopeful future. Hope is a necessary weapon for the human psyche against darkness and trying times.
While Buczynski had excellent points for the time of the article, there has been significant shifts in the ensuing 8 years. Globally, and nationally, we have experienced a pandemic the likes of which had not been seen for 100 years (the 1918 Spanish Flu), a contentious election in 2020 with a violence breaking at the White House on January 6, several natural disasters that broke previous records of destruction, and a continuing political divide of extremism and rhetoric while political powers wrestle back and forth. It is difficult to research events as they unfold; hindsight is 2020, and 2020 is barely four years ago. The current discussion regarding therapists, client's feelings of safety in the therapeutic relationship, and voting disclosure, would not have happened 8 years ago. The landscape of social media has dramatically changed in the last 8 years with the advent of TikTok and its direct to user interface. For several people of younger generations, social media is their primary news outlet (Pew Research Center, 2024). This has contributed to an immediacy of information dissemination through the people (including significant inaccuracies or misleading information), and access to professionals and professional spaces that was not previously available. These all impact how a client receives information, relates to information, and reacts to information. Being civically engaged can look significantly different in 2024 than it did in 2016.
This can impact how therapists apply the principles and guidelines Buczynski recommends. Many therapists have a professional, online social media account, and use that to communicate with clients. Given the 2024 Pew Research Center information, a social media post may be more effective at reaching clients than posting a letter in the office, or even an email. Additionally, due to the same social media, it is foolish to suppose clients will be ignorant and uninfluenced by the discourse on social media between clients and therapists. It is possible a client come in and demand to know who their therapist voted for, or there may be a more subtle bid for information. Social media can also give clients greater access to emotional and community support, as well as more opportunities for civic engagement. However, depending on the spaces they frequent, social media could also increase hopelessness, frustration, and burn out. While the principals of Buczynski's suggestions are still relevant, it is important to consider how to apply them in the significantly different social, political, global and online world we live in now.
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Buczynski, R. (2016, July 15). How to Help Clients Process Their Fears about World Events - NICABM. NICABM. https://www.nicabm.com/trauma-how-to-help-clients-process-their-fears-about-world-events/ Links to an external site.
Hunter, D. (2024, November 4). 10 ways to be prepared and grounded now that Trump has won. Waging Nonviolence: People Powered News and Analysis. https://wagingnonviolence.org/2024/11/10-things-to-do-if-trump-wins/
Pew Research Center. (2024). Pew Research Center: Social Media and News Fact Sheet. United States.[Web Archive]. Retrieved from the Library of Congress: https://www.pewresearch.org/journalism/fact-sheet/social-media-and-news-fact-sheet/
#see I really am in grad school#I wanted to share this here because I Said Things#I am proud of what I said#This was only supposed to be 500 words#as you can see I had More Things To Say#The fact that the article we had to read was written in July of 2016 was like ... an entire thing#I still have many feels#politics#2024 election#therapy#therapist#LGBTQIA+#one thing I didn't say in my paper that I wanted to#was that I've been seeing only WHITE women be like I need to ask my therapist#and I feel like that ... Says Some Shit about who things#but I had already said many things#and I didn't want to have to back that up with numbers
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sorry i stopped posting, i got medicated and also engaged
#also i work 6 days a week and am in grad school#in case you ever wondered what happened to that person you used to follow#people on twitter thought i was dead#not dead! just happy#turns out i’m someone who needs to live a mostly offline life#highly recommend!!#not art#probably my last post ever so see ya#my fiance is a really great person they’ve been my best friend for twice as long as we’ve been together#they’re very private but i’m obsessed with them#really recommend finding someone who makes you incredibly happy#genuinely hope everyone is doing well!! or as well as you can be haha
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I love love love Timber Rattlesnakes but I am so fucking bad at taking pictures of them. My thesis advisor (a man who has been studying cryptic pitvipers for YEARS) had to look at a picture I took today for nearly a minute before he found the grainy ass snake in it
#it was doubly embarrassing bc he had just shown me a beautiful video of a snake he took#I am trying so hard#and he was so appreciative of the picture#bc it’s was of periscoping which is really cute#and we don’t get so see it often#but oh my god I need a better camera#man 😔#cw snakes#tw snakes#herpetology#herpblr#timber rattlesnake#canebreak rattlesnake#grad school
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Every time I see you talk about yourself you’re always moving, what job do you have that allows you to move so much? Also you can delete this if it’s tmi, im just curious lol
oh i haven't moved since last year! i've been living in the same place for a year now lol the answer is that I'm a student! I moved last year to start grad school in another country, which was a pretty major move! but now I'm pretty settled in the same spot while i work on my thesis
#asks#anonymous#i kinda wish i could move a lot!#I get antsy if im in the same place for too long#im always excited to move somewhere new and see new places#but i've only been here for a year now and i feel pretty settled so im happy for now#i'm sure if i stay here for another couple years i'll want to move again! but i really like it here#i don't think i've moved an unusual amount...#i lived in my college town for undergrad (dorm + two different apartments)#then spent a summer with grandparents in austria after graduating#then lived with my parents for a year to work and save money#and then moved out of the country for grad school#and that's where i am now!#i mean. i moved a lot as a kid but that was bc of like. poverty and divorce lol you know how it goes
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hmm
#I've been going through my old furuba headcanon/meta tags and man do I miss it#I also want to acknowledge some asks I've gotten in the past *checks notes* couple years#I can only do one thing at a time like a sim#and the one thing I've been doing has been going back to grad school for some reason#anyway it's my last semester#and I'm very very very tired#and really missing writing things that aren't my thesis#things like fanfiction#things like my incomplete fanfictions#anyway maybe I'll see whoever's still hanging around here in a few months#wish me luck in the meantime#it's week 2 of the semester and I already cannot stress how tired I am
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Its one of those days where I really just want to have a family and littles to look after.
#i miss my boyfriend#im not digging how busy i am with grad school#i just want to be at home#and enjoy the quiet#i love what i do but boy im just so tired#i like my roommates and school is going fine#but i really just want to be done with being busy#i maybe want to see if i can be a string teacher or maybe k-12 again#i just want to do things at home nowada#*nowadays#i dont appreciate the stress#i wasnt happy as a middle school teacher#mostly because if the town and the district and city kids are weird#i think id be happy with small town kids#i really just want to be a mom though#and just teach private music lessons and play in a symphony#just thinking some thoughts
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i start grad school in two weeks and i’m starting to get the feeling i have made a horrible decision
#like what am i doing!#wasting my money and time?#for WHAT?#a piece of paper that says i can talk about dead people?#for people to tell me to be a teacher or curator for the rest of my life?#to tell me i’ll never make any money or amount to anything?#and don’t get me started on the fact that grad school is gonna be just as lonely as college and twice as hard#i don’t like my campus#everyone always says really bad things#i should’ve taken the other rejections as the sign and not let myself be driven by delulu#tis spiraling hours#it’s always spiraling hours tbh when it’s obvious-#well let’s not go there#aren’t you supposed to be excited about these things?#cause i’m not#okay see you next time#kylie rambles
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Me, too busy with grad school to participate, watching everyone else in the Kirby fandom participate in the OC tournament and art fight
#text post#I wish I could have joined in but I’m an overworked stressed out grad student lmao#I forget if I’ve mentioned this on here before but I’m working on getting my PhD#I hopefully only have a year or so left before I get it and then I’ll be Doctor Sweet#this is going to be a stressful year oh boy 🥲 grad school is lowkey kind of killing me I hope I can finish in the next year#I like what I study it’s just a lot mentally at times and I’ve been feeling kind of depressed lately#I feel bad that I take so long to post art on my blog and update my comic#I really do enjoy drawing Kirby stuff I’ve just got a lot going on in real life and am not always feeling the best mentally#so sometimes I don’t have the time or the mental energy to draw but I am working on the next comic page! I have one panel left to do for it#I’m hoping to post it by this coming weekend Meta Knight starts fighting Whispy on this next page#thank you everyone for your patience it means a lot to see people liking my stuff even if I take forever to post it#I have so much stuff I want to draw and share but not enough time or energy to do it 🥲
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i got less than 1 hour of work done today (was aiming for 5-6) because I was too stressed out and frazzled from reading about/watching the ongoing genocide and also because roommate #2 came home today from their holiday travels and all day I could hear them hacking up their lungs through the wall. I texted them and asked if they minded taking a covid test, and they said they'd taken multiple over the past 24 hours and all were negative, but like. with the amount of false negatives on the rapid tests these days, even when people are symptomatic, that does NOT reassure me!! I've been holed up in my room with a flannel stuffed in the door crack, air filters blasting, wearing an N95 in common areas, but jesus fucking christ this is taking all my ability to focus and leaving none left over for my job. that i need to do. because i am precariously poor. and i need to buy food so i can eat. and pay rent so that i don't freeze to death. and pay for my medical and phone and other bills. etc.
#god im so stressed#fucking everyone has covid rn it's terrifying i really hope i can get through this surge unscathed#inshallah....#i booked a study room at the library tomorrow! if it's approved fingers crossed im gonna bring my portable HEPA filter and some work stuff#and hopefully be able to concentrate better and get work done#god and i NEED to work on my grad school apps but how the fuck am i supposed to concentrate on that#the world is burning i see videos of genocide every day my roommates and coworkers constantly have the plague#and im so broke im always just barely scraping by and my only hope of upward mobility is grad school#talk about a vicious fucking cycle fr#personal#god whatever#i just remembered i have ice cream in the freezer! i think i'll have a bit of that n watch a dumb tv show
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Wow. Sometimes I'm very lucky and my bipolar doesn't always affect me much. But no such luck lately. I'm worried that I might have to retake my modern lit course because I was so late with many of my assignments. I've been mentally messed up more or less with a mixed mood episode since last September. I'm currently on the line of passing and not passing the class (granted there are a few ungraded assignments, including my final so it's still possible that I'm overreacting). I'm usually a good student too so it's a point of pride for me. I went from the honor roll to this all due to me fighting with an illness... :/ (It is my fault for not managing things better so I'm not looking for pity here- just talking).
I cannot imagine how horrible this disorder is for people who didn't have the option of medication (I am medicated, believe it or not). I think about that about that a lot since I study history and look into many writer's and artist's biographies in my spare time. I feel very bad for them since they basically had to live with this disorder without the fixes I have simply because I was born late enough for treatments to exist.
Virginia Woolf and Sylvia Plath both haunt me. Other people too. Yes, Lord Byron was extremely shocking but consider- we don't actually know what he would have been like if he could have been treated. He wouldn't have died at 36, I'm almost certain of that. I am highly aware of what this disorder has done to people before me. It doesn't make it better. But I keep looking back any way, to see that many of them did incredible things, in spite of it all.
I just keep thinking that if they could do so much without any treatment- that I should be able to function with treatment??? I know: don't compare yourself to other people but I'm desperate to know that I can be successful even with this illness. That it's not going to force me to leave school (the one thing I have been historically good at) and waste my life toiling away for nothing.
So if it seems as if I have been hitting my head against something lately, you aren't wrong. The fall is not generally my friend, pretty as the leaves are. I have not been having a good time of it but we must go on any way because what other option is there? None, I tell you.
#leaves pretty brain shitty has been my fall for the last few years since 2018 at least...#consistently fall has been bad for my cycle though I like that time of year normally#granted a lot of things kept happening every fall since 2018 too#bipolar disorder#actually bipolar#I probably am a closet perfectionist in some cases#I am exhausted thanks for asking!#and yes for a few semesters I was an honor roll student in my grad school- not any more though LOL#seriously I'm going into debt for this degree and uh that promise to waive our debt never came to light so I'm very fucked rn#I have to finish this degree so I can work off my debt and build a good reputation for myself#I'm honestly afraid my illness might take away my ability to have a career at all; I'm desperate for a living wage!#it's not good#but this could be anxiety talking tbh#for real I'm amazed that like Virginia Woolf and others were able to do as much as they did in their lives#because without my medication I'd probably be useless??? Mania is not fun 10/10 would NOT suggest#I actually pity Lord Byron after reading his biography; he just seems like if mania was a person and um it explains his behavior completely#do you ever look back at other peoples' lives and see pieces of yourself in them and then feel really bad for them? cuz I do all the time#mychatter#I'm stubborn in that I refuse to quit school since I am aware that my family needs to know I can do this#please don't take this personally this is my problem and a pointless rant probably
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the fact that i don’t have time to fall in love right now is literally SO unfair.
#I AM YOUNG AND FULL OF JOY AND POSSIBILITY!!!!!!#LET ME LIVE PLEASE PLEASE LET ME LIVE#unfortunately in reality i still have ten semesters to go…#and then maybe grad school as well...#and like. i get it…#one part of me says ‘don’t even think about dating until you have your own house’#but the other part of me says ‘what the hell is WRONG with you????? GET OUT THERE AND LIVE AND LOVE RIGHT NOW IMMEDIATELY!!!!!’#so there is what you could describe as a SLIGHT conflict#idk… if i could just casually date someone i think that could be fun#but i know i don’t have time for a serious commitment#and i am an unfortunately serious person#i have to keep in mind that i’m planning to run away for two years at the beginning of 2026#and do i REALLY wanna put up with something long-distance??#probably not#it wouldn’t matter to me - but i wouldn’t expect someone else to deal with it#overall i just have to wait for the right person and i’ll know them when i see them and they’ll know me too#and that’s all there is to it#i’m waiting for a Connection#and until then i need to focus and keep up with my classes and work#miserable miserable things - but worth it#and i can continue to build myself up in the meantime with my personal studies#so that when the right person comes along i am exactly who i want to be#and that is why they will love me
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Sometimes I wonder about starting a writing blog. It feels silly to imagine it since I don't write as much as I'd like (although having something dedicated to it might change that.) For a while now, easily over a year but probably a lot longer, it's been tempting to change my handle or just go full anonymous with what I write? I mean, I'm kind of anonymous now - I try to keep away most connections to offline stuff, as far as that goes, and I don't have a large presence anywhere - but I don't know.
Sometimes I feel trapped by my handle or any semblance of my identity being attached to what I do even though I probably shouldn't, and I don't know if I could even articulate that thought well enough at the moment. I know there's something freeing almost with a fresh start. I do it enough in video games to know it's an addictive feeling, so sometimes I wonder if I did so with my writing - if I dropped the satariraine handle, changed it up, made another blog, whatever - that maybe I could do more or feel braver, or try new things.
Not sure where I'm going with this. Just a thought.
#Satari rambles#Potentially to be deleted#Hi I've been on this hellsite for years and it still feels weird to use it as an actual blog#I think also with wanting to do art again it's making me wonder if I could even manage to have a personal creation blog#Instead of just the fandom mishmash that I've cultivated here#I say cultivated like it's impressive#Where in actuality I'm just vibing along with posting a new fic out once per year and enjoying talking to all the lovely people in my phone#Which is more than fine because I've had work and undergrad and grad school and life in general#But I see people have so much fun with hobby or creation blogs#And I wonder if I could be braver and stand to have my thoughts and emotions and opinions more out in the open#If I wasn't still here behind what I've had for over ten years or honesty if I wasn't such a timid person in general#There's nothing wrong with where I am now or this blog or anything of it all really#I guess sometimes it's just an itch to have a new identity#I really don't know if any of this makes sense#If you've made it this far I hope you have a wonderful timezone#Drink water and give yourself a hug or a pat on the back
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had a stress dream that I'd been enrolled in a fifth class this semester and not known about it and that I was failing because of never attending class or turning in assignments
#a sock speaks#grad school tag#I am planning to take a fifth class spring semester just to be sure I suffer as much as possible#I found out the class I didn't get into only had 4 slots available for in-person students bc online students were given priority#nobody else in my Greek class got into it#so it's slightly less embarrassing now#I am so thankful I don't have to present today. I think I'd burst into tears#as it is I'm going to do my bare minimum and go home. tomorrow I'll try to do better.#the stress is really hitting me. not that I can't handle this week but it warps how I envision the future#I remember how tired I get from finals and how much writing I have to do#(60 double-spaced pages of writing for my term papers plus my Hebrew exam)#I think I'll take an incomplete for my longest paper but then it'll still be hanging over my head so I have to at least write the framework#I wish I could look at what I'm doing and see that value of it. I know I love this material and I find it exciting#but I wish I were more excited about what I'm doing with it#if only I had more time
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#dead by daylight#dbd#carmina mora#adiris#i am a simple woman i see 7 foot tall ladies and i am instantly enamored#dbd the artist#dbd the plague#i really want to draw this weekend even though i am drowning in grad school stuff#cookie polls
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#i was hanging out with the other first year students yesterday#and it was super fun!#but then someone made the comment about how they hate seeing people with non astro backgrounds (ex: computer science/engineering/ect)#get into astro programs because those people are taking spots away from astro majors (their words not mine)#and i don't think the comment was about me#because everyone is really nice when i talk to them#but they also know i am someone with a non-astro background#so i was just really quiet and felt very awkward in that moment#so idk#like i know i deserve to be here (otherwise i wouldn't have gotten into the program)#but i sort of feel like shit because they think people like me have taken spots away from them#especially because i have been having a mild crisis about not knowing the same basic things as everyone else seems to#(because of my non-astro background)#and sometimes i do still doubt that everyone likes me#mostly because there are some times i can't interpret the meaning behind what people say in response to the things i say#(mostly when i'm trying to be funny)#and i can't tell how people interpret me all of them time yet#<- as in i can't tell if they have gathered that i'm autistic or if they just think i'm strange in a bad way#idk i'm just annoyed about that comment + the fact that there's been a couple comments about me that feel infantilizing?#but i'm also not sure?#again the autism <- idk how to interpret the meaning#like i got comments that were something along the lines of “aw precious baby/child”#when i said i didn't know what some website was that you can post your academic stats + grad school acceptances/rejections#and that scooby doo used to scare me when i was a literal child (but it doesn't anymore)#any everything i'm venting about is so minor and so meaningless and so something i wouldn't really think much about/very easily let go#if i wasn't already feeling like shit because i woke up too late to take my adderall and now i've done literally nothing all day#and i'm very frustrated with myself#and i very much miss my friends from home#and i cannot stop thinking about them because most of them were my grad school friends at my old college#and now i'm making new grad school friends
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I started my new job at my university library yesterday!! It was just training and then some more training today. I'm a graduate assistant so technically I'm a supervisor, which is pretty nerve wracking, but the job seems super chill once I get the hang of it. I'm supposed to be doing weekend shifts, but most of the student workers graduated and some are on vacation, so they need more help. Luckily summer classes haven't started yet so I don't mind. I'm so glad I was able to get this job. I've always wanted to work in a library and I'm finally here. I'm not going to take this for granted. I'm so happy that everyone seems super friendly as well. This is gonna be great!
#it's so cool learning about the different resources in the library and the different books they have#i want to get back into reading physical books so I can't wait to get more into that#my supervisor seems really nice#i haven't met all of the staff yet but it's looking like a cool environment#I wonder how I'm gonna fare when my summer classes start#I'm glad I'm gonna be able to get out the house and be in a friendly environment#who will except me as I am#also this is the first time I'm using my real pronouns (she/they) in real life#they asked if I wanted to put them on my name tag and I said YES#I was honestly really nervous#this is definitely a big step for me in accepting myself and making my presence known in the world#i live in texas so it's a pretty big deal#I can't wait to see my name tag#I'm gonna have to leave it at work so my family never accidentally sees it#anyways this is really cool#I'm excited about where I am in life right now and even more excited about my future#new job#library job#library#grad school#nonbinary#lgbtq
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