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I think breaking into uncontrollably loud sobs and screaming towards the ocean as the wind harshly blows would heal something in me.
#user radiostaticcc is going through it#i’m so sad#it’s pathetic#solitaire#tori spring#I think it’s something she would do probably#ignore this actually I’m just#venting#in a poetic way#slash not serious#seasonal depression is beating my ass
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im just gonna apologize rn for the man i’ll become in the next month, the start of school brings out the worst in me 💔
#and by that i mean the seasonal depression swoops in and beats my ass#BUT! i’m much better at writing fics during the school year#so y’all got that to look forward to 🫶#jes rambles
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winter solstice is in a few days. winter solstice is in a few days. winter solstice is in a few days. winter solstice is in a few days-
#god I need a cigarette#seasonal depression is beating my entire ass guys sowwy!#I promise I’m writing hehe#yaps. ˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚˚
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... Can I eat the art?...
OF COURSEEE!!!! though i do not have any new art to offer so itll have to be leftovers im afraid 💔💔
#sorry for being dead omg seasonal depression is BEATING MY ASS#but i am currently drawing something 👍#though itll probably take a while before i post it. n im also just working at my own slow pace#Plus i cannot stop playing identity v and lethal company with my friends#the gamer grind got to me#(and i like hanging out w my friends)#so thats why ive been DEAD#ask
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screentime hit 11h again so i deleted tumblr and youtube on my phone. let's see how long i last this time
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13 for spotify wrapped!
a BANGER
#ask#wrapped 2023#sorry for the late response lol seasonal depression is beating my ass i am currently in the trenches
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Being heat intolerant in July in a desert is so fucking insane this shit sucks so much. I can't go outside even just to get to my car (uncovered parking, if you live in a desert you know) and drive somewhere until 6pm at the earliest or else my muscle weakness and nerve pain skyrockets as well as my gastritis and IBS. Once I get home from being outside I pass out for hours no matter how much sleep I've had. Not even mentioning how the heat and sunlight are a huge trigger for my migraines.
I don't really see heat intolerance being talked about that much in terms of disability, but having a heat-triggered disease while also taking two medications that make you heat intolerant while living in the desert in the middle of climate change has made me realize just how inaccessible living in hot temperatures can be for me
#not to mention i got seasonal affective disorder in both directions 😭#i get depressed bc no sun in the winter and depressed bc too hot in the summer 💀#there are early spring and late autumn days where i go outside and it's sunny but chilly and it feels like im on crack it feels so good#my ass is being beat by all this rn 💀#did the dishes and now my stomach wants to tear itself apart and my legs are burning#UGH#op#disability
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i hate summer btw sorry to all you summer freaks but i would make this fall if i could
#ignorance cloud on#REASONS I HATE SUMMER:#TOO HOT. GOING TO DIE#BUGS. EVERYWHERE. THERE WAS A ROACH IN MY HOUSE LAST NIGHT#SEASONAL DEPRESSION BEATS MY ASS ESPECIALLY HARD IN SUMMER
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I didn't spend my formative years reading Cosmopolitan to not try some of those tricks out.
yall ever just randomly get the urge to suck some dick and make a man see god or??
#your girl's been lifting for a few months#wanna test that arm strength#that g.i. joe kung fu grip#yeehaw 🤠#but for real#seasonal depression beating my ass and not in the sexy way
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Why is winter so bleh 😾😾😾
#my ass is being beat by illness and seasonal depression all winter#it is not the most wonderful time of the year#marceline talks
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Not a huge Industrial Metal guy but I do find myself getting super into Rob Zombie Spineshank and Pitchshifter around this time a year every year without fail.
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[Hyunsu x Fem!Survivor!Reader / Sweet Home Season One]
Warnings: Depression, ED if you squint, Cha Hyunsu needs a hug, Self loathing, Eunhyuk is an ass in this, Kissing, Hyunsu is baby boy - .
Plot: You and Eunhyuk have been best friends for as long as you can remember, but your eyes are on Hyunsu. You comfort him as he goes through a hard time after going on missions for Eunhyuk.
Story under the cut!
"What does it matter to you if he's in pain or not? He's a monster who could turn at any time. He's in there to protect us."
Eunhyuk paced around outside Hyunsu's room he was confined in, scowling at you.
"(Y/N). This is my last warning. Don't get close to Cha Hyunsu. He'll only hurt you if he turns. I need to protect you-"
You sighed, angrily folding your arms, tears building up in your eyes. How could Eunhyuk, your best friend, be so cold towards another? Hyunsu was basically a prisoner in this place. They made him work all day and night exploring the building and fighting monsters, leaving him exhausted when he got back. At this point, you doubted that Eunhyuk even fed him or took care of his half healed wounds.
"Ya, Lee Eunhyuk, how could you be so thoughtless? Hyunsu has done nothing wrong. He's still human, like you and me! How could you lock him in that room and starve him?! Not to mention leaving him to heal by himself!"
You yelled furiously, really upset. You were the only one who dared approach Hyunsu, and you could tell he wasn't doing well mentally or physically.
"He isn't a human. He's a monster. I can't risk you getting hurt trying to fix him."
Eunhyuk stated calmly, unfazed by your outburst. He grabbed your hand and placed it on his chest, over his heart.
"I'm doing this for you. Feel this? My heart beats only for you, so why? Why are you so obsessed with Cha Hyunsu?"
His voice seethe with jealousy. Ah. So torturing Hyunsu was Eunhyuk's way of showing his jealousy. You always knew that Eunhyuk had a crush on you ever since middle school. But as you grew older, his attitude became more stoic and stern.
"I don't give a fuck about your little crush on me, Lee Eunhyuk. You've hurt my Hyunsu, and you're going to pay for it one day. Leave me. I'm going to see him and you can't stop me."
And with that, you walked away, entering Hyunsu's room. Eunhyuk was stunned and angered, but knee he couldn't stop you. You'd soon find out not to trust a monster. As you stepped inside, you softly called out,
"Hyunsu?"
He immediately recognised your voice and ran over to you like a lost puppy. His averting eyes and soft voice made your heart flutter. He rubbed his arm gently, mumbling.
"(Y-Y/N)? Oh...hi."
Hyunsu greeted, his head hanging low. You were appalled by the mere sight of him. He had torn clothes, bruises everywhere, half healed cuts, and looked genuinely exhausted.
"Hyunsu...how have you been?"
He looked down, gulping nervously.
"Fine.."
"Cha Hyunsu. You don't look fine...how long has it been, sweetheart?"
His head snapped up in confusion.
"How long since what?"
"How long since you've rested and had a meal?"
Hyunsu anxiously twiddled with his fingers, unable to keep still. Over the past week, you'd become someone very precious to him, ever since you'd stopped him from ending his life. He didn't want to tell you the truth. He didn't want you to worry about him...but Hyunsu knew that you'd find out eventually.
"Five days, noona..I haven't slept..the monster..it's hurting.."
He whispered sadly, unable to contain his depressed thoughts. He continued,
"I'm a monster. Monsters don't sleep or need food, right? And I'm In here because I'm a threat to everyone. Noona, it's dangerous, you should leave."
You were stunned; to see such a sweet person talking down on themselves felt extremely sad. Hyunsu's eyes filled with tears as he turned away from you, prompting you to move closer, until your front was completely up against his back. You back hugged him, snaking your hands around his waist.
"Hyunsu...you're not a monster. You're our savior, I can't imagine how exhausting this has been for you. To protect everyone. all while keeping a distance, unable to interact properly. I'm sorry about Eunhyuk and the others. They don't understand."
A tear slipped down his sunken cheek.
"Hyunsu - ah, I've brought you some food."
You said, breaking the hug and offering him some ramen. Hyunsu's eyes went wide as he saw the food. He was starving, but didn't want to trouble anyone anymore.
"I'm a monster. I won't die if I don't eat."
He stated simply, turning back around again.
"But..Hyunsu..that doesn't mean you won't feel hunger."
"I'll just...not eat..."
He insisted stubbornly. You sighed angrily and lifted his chin up with yoru hand suddenly.
"Cha Hyunsu. Eat. Eat or I'll force feed you. Then get some sleep. I'll lay with you."
You ordered him gently, but firmly, glaring into his eyes. He finally gave in, grabbing a few pieces of the ramen from you before retreating to his bed. You pulled up another chair and sat next to him, watching him consume the noodles. After a moment, he put down the bowl and turned to face you.
"Thank you, Noona...nobody else had bothered to visit me.."
Hyunsu got up from the makeshift bed and leaned over, placing a soft kiss on your cheek. Your face burned bright red as he shyly and softly kissed you.
"God, Hyunsu. Stay safe on your missions for Eunhyuk, okay? You're mine. And I don't want you hurting what's mine."
Hyunsu could've died. You. his Noona...liked him? Even if he was a depressed, tired monster, you accepted him.
"O-okay..."
Hyunsu smiled, taking your hand in his. You ruffled his hair.
"Good boy."
Eunhyuk stares at the door.
#imagine#x reader#kdrama#kdrama x reader#kdrama imagine#sweet home imagine#sweet home x reader#cha hyunsu#cha hyunsoo#hyunsu x reader#hyunsoo x reader#hyunsu#hyunsoo#sweet home#song kang#fluff#angst#hurt/comfort
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Imagine the red hair pirates helping you with your depression
Unfortunately, it's that time of year when seasonal depression, and regular depression team up and beat my ass. So new content will come slower than usual, and I'm sorry about that, but appreciate your patience and understanding.
Shanks: *enters your room* are you gonna get up anytime soon.
You: *in a cocoon of blankets* I don't want to.
Shanks: *stares at you for a minute* are you okay?
You: no
Shanks: should I get Hongo?
You: there's nothing he can do for me.
Shanks: *thinks back to Roger's illness* ... What sort of illness do you have exactly?
You: depression,
Shanks: oh... Well staying in bed isn't going to help
You: I don't have the energy to get out of bed
Shanks: then let me do it for you, *scoops up your cocoon and carries you outside* sun light ought to do you a lotta good.
Hongo: what's going on?
Shank: they're depressed.
Hongo: oh, I have just the thing for that *goes into his office*
Benn: hmm, I suffered from depression as a young man.
You: back in the Stone Age?
Benn: *playfully rolls his eyes* yes, back in the Stone Age. My life kind of fell apart because I couldn't care for myself. I could not wash my clothes, or bath, or brush my teeth.
Shanks: that explains the state of their room then.
Benn: elaborate
Shanks: their laundry bin was overflowing, trash on the floor, and the whole room was dark and smelt bad.
Benn: ... Cleaning it would probably help them recover.
Shanks: would you go evaluate the room and see what needs to be done.
Benn: we're probably gonna have to clean it top to bottom, I will go get some volunteers.
Hongo: *comes back* no I need you to eat these supplements, and this mushroom.
Benn: how come they get to have some of your hallucinogens.
Hongo: multiple studies have shown they're very effective at treating depression long term and because they're mine, and I get to decide who to give them to.
Shanks: *pulls open your cocoon, and hands you a cup of water.*
While you are tripping
The crew: * cleans your room, does your laundry, and puts said laundry away*
Hongo: I think the main cause is seasonal depression, they were fine a month ago when the light was at its fullest.
Shanks: hmm, would installing another window in their room help?
Hongo: probably.
Shanks: okay, while the shipwright does that, (y/n) can stay in my room.
Benn: you just wanna fuck them.
Shanks: A few orgasms would probably do them some good. Plus I can help them better if they're close to me.
Hongo: he's right, but you need to make sure you're not taking advantage of them.
Lucky Roux: we also need to make sure they're eating, I noticed a while ago that they're only having one meal a day.
You: eating is inconvenient, and having a corporeal body is like being stuck with a pet you don't want.
Shanks: *pulls your head into his lap and strokes your hair and shushes you* sh sh sh, I know darling, I know.
Hongo: we should also make sure they exercise more, in fact we all should.
Benn: we can take up daily training practice.
Shanks: totally
You: I dun wanna
Benn: well I expect you to at least try it out for a week, if it doesn't help then you can quit.
You: really?
Benn: no
You: aww
Benn: we'll find a nice activity you like, or don't mind.
You: ugh fine
Shanks: thank you
You: ... You have pretty eyes, kinda like storm clouds
Shanks: we should get you high more often.
You: do we have any music snails?
Shanks: *pulls out his collection of Uta's music* Yes we do.
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~•♡•~ Total Eclipse Of The Heart
➳ Summary: You take Daryl to watch the 2017 solar eclipse (Daryl x GN!Reader)
➳ Setting: Southern Virginia, August 21st, 2017 (in the 6 year timeskip in season 9)
➳ Word count: 1.6k
➳ C/W: Nothing
➳ A/N: Simple thing cuz I hated Leah watching something as special as the eclipse w/ Daryl in the show cuz I DO NOT LIKE her ass so I rewrote it cuz I believe there's few things more bonding than watching an eclipse with someone. Whippin out the dad music reference on this one. (I am working on reqs! I just have training for my job which my boss very reassuringly dubbed “bootcamp” and health shit is beating my ass I need to call like 3 specialty clinics again um 🗿)
“Ya ever gon’ tell me where we goin'?”
“Nope. Almost there,” You replied, a cheeky grin on your face as you swiveled your head back to glance at Daryl who sat behind you on his motorcycle. You'd dragged him out of his guilt-ridden solitude in the forest and demanded he get on, saying you needed to show him something and would not be taking ‘nah’ for an answer. You'd been driving southwest for nearly two hours now, headed towards something specific.
Daryl had little sense of the date, having spent nearly the last 3 ½ years out in the woods, wrapped up in his search for Rick. You stayed with him from time to time, Carol checking in as well, but he was too stubborn to go home with either of you no matter how many times you urged it. Even if he knew the day, you weren't sure he'd even know why it was special.
You, however, had been tracking the calendar and lunar cycles, and kept one specific date and pattern in your mind for the last 7 years; August 21st, 2017. You remembered ages ago, reading on science forums and listening to programs on the television, that today, the paths of the moon and the sun would perfectly align and grace a total solar eclipse across the entirety of the United States.
Your lives were such shit in so many ways: flesh eating, rotting corpses snarling after you at every second, run in after run in with malicious and corrupt people and groups, the lack of food, water, shelter and security, so many people gone – and that didn't include everything from before the dead reawoke. And with Daryl unadmittably depressed after the bridge, you would've done anything to show him there were other things in life to focus on. To live for.
So you left Alexandria early in the morning, found Daryl's camp, and forced him to join you. At first he'd thought something godawful had once again disturbed the communities, so bad you couldn’t tell him. But when you started driving the opposite direction, he grew confused and repeatedly asked what was going on, yet you never gave him an answer. Still, he trusted it was important – trusted you – and let you lead him.
❥-》》—————➣
You pulled off the side of the road, powering down the engine and putting up the kickstand, sliding off and stepping to walk into the forest. You'd gone further down into Virginia, knowing that was closer to totality. It wouldn't be complete, but the distance made a difference. “Alright, c'mon.”
Daryl grabbed your wrist, tugging you back and catching your attention, his eyebrows narrowed. “Really? Tha hell's s’all this? Ya haul me'ah hundred miles away tah walk in tha damn forest?”
“Ya spend all your time in a forest anyway, Dixon.” His expression hardered a little, and you sighed. “Please just follow me. I promise you, it's worth it.”
He looked over the features of your face, judging the sentiment they conveyed, and after a moment let you go. You were already here, no point in going back now. As you spun back around, he begrudgingly trailed after you.
You scanned the environment as you went, stopping near an opening in the canopy of trees that gave view to the sky. You could tell by the slanting of shadows and the slightly abnormal shape of light above you that the process had already begun, all that was left was to observe. So you set your bag down and sat, motioning for Daryl to as well.
“Thi'sa picnic or sum?” He questioned, grunting a little as he unsurely slung his belongings off his shoulder to the ground and did the same, settling beside you.
“Could be, I do have some food.” He didn't seem amused. “But no, not a picnic. You know what the day is? Any idea why it's meaningful?”
“Ts'summer, kno’ tha’. M'ah supposed tah kno’?”
“Maybe, I don't expect you to. Here.” You twisted and opened your bag, reaching for a welding mask you'd brought along and passed it to him. “Look at the sun.”
The archer eyed the facial shield, then you, but listened and held it to his face before shifting his gaze up. He squinted, taking sight of the arc carving that ate into the historically circular form of the burning celestial body. And you explained; “It's August 21st… 2017.”
He had to think for a bit. “Tha eclipse?” He lowered the mask and peered back at you. Memories lodged deep in the layers of his mind sparked; learning about eclipses way back in highschool and hearing his teacher mention it, then the annular one in ‘94 and seeing pictures plastered all over the news where they discussed the future.
“Yeah, thought we should see it. It'll look better down here, not perfect, but still… and the lens on that is dark enough it shouldn't hurt our eyes,” You answered, taking your own look before laying back and using your bag as a pillow. It wasn't particularly comfortable, but that's roughly the last thing you cared about right now.
He couldn't help but just stare for a minute, studying how nonchalant you were about everything. How you'd so easily removed him from his rut when so many other attempts had failed, even with his cluelessness around your intentions – like some larger force took hold and finally willed him to break his destructive routine.
Daryl sprawled out next to you on the forest floor, trading the welding shield back and forth over the course of the next half hour, as well as a piece of paper to see the casted geometry. You both watched as more and more of the sun was etched away, taking mental images each time and comparing the new form to the old. It was mostly quiet, lost in similar awe but varying thoughts. You inched closer every time it was his turn, assuming he noticed but didn't point it out.
“Y'know… total solar eclipses are meant to be when the deities and energies fuse, just as the paths do. A window for opportunities and transformation… time for change,” You commented, recalling all people said about the symbolism of such an event. He gave an ‘Mm’, just so you knew he'd heard you, but paid more attention to the progression in the ethers.
The world around you began to rapidly darken, a sliver of orange glow visible in the makeshift glasses. Knowing it was close, you slid your left palm into his right, weaving fingers together, and he returned the hold, still remaining absorbed in the view.
The moon crossed over the sun – at least as best it would from your vantage point; golden rays illuminating around solid black. As Daryl's eyes locked on the sky, taking it all in, yours locked on him, choosing to watch him over a potentially once in a lifetime occurrence. He lowered the mask to briefly see it fully, now reaching for the sheet.
He looked at peace, maybe for the first time in his life: the constant storm of thoughts that persistently clouded his mind finally parting, even if for just a small moment. You witnessed the glitter of genuine emotion return to his blue's, something you'd feared was so long abandoned it may have been forgotten. Rich browns of his wavy hair glowed iridescent auburns when shimmers of sunlight peeked through the leaves, perfectly complementing everything about his being.
You knew you each needed that change.
“I love you.”
He took a second, making sure the sound of your voice was real and not crafted by his own imagination. His head turned, somewhat staggered to find your eyes already meeting his. It was impossible to rip away, your visions warping together as you seemed to merge, entranced by the little crescents that reflected on each other's irises. His free hand ditched the paper and reached over as he partly rolled to his side.
“For a long time.”
In fluid movements, Daryl's calloused fingers smoothed across the delicate skin on your cheek, leaning in and bringing you to him in a longing kiss. You didn't entirely expect it, although you didn't expect anything in particular at all, too unsure of how he'd react. But you pushed back against him, deepening the kiss and paying no thought to anything beside how it felt to finally overlap with him – till he broke away.
“I love ya too,” He mused, accent thickening in the confession. When you opened your mouth to continue, he shut you up with another peck and angled your face straight above. “Watch. M'not bein’ tha reason ya miss this.”
Words could wait, but the eclipse would not. So you obliged, cuddling closer to him and squeezing his hand as birds and insects sung in a concerned ensemble triggered by the daylight's disappearance.
The tranquility was eerie, a sensation mostly left in the rubble of society and replaced by prevalent chaos. You wondered if the feeling was shared elsewhere; at home with everyone in Alexandria, with survivors across the entire rest of the country. Maybe those who didn't know thought the holy spirit was returning to rescue your raptured souls. Did the walkers pause to look too? Everything so out of the ordinary it caught their attention?
But none of that mattered to you, because you had it here. And you basked in it with the one person you'd always hoped you would've.
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after hours (part 10)
☆ pairing: satoru gojo x afab!reader ☆ summary: studying at the library is sooo fucking stressful. especially when your final is next week. gojo promises to help you study, but you guys get into other shenanigans instead... ☆ tags: modern au, babysitting au, academia au, threesome au ☆ warnings: oral sex (m! receiving and f! receiving), eating it from the back, exhibitionism, choking (on dick) ☆ a/n: HI GUYS SORRY IVE BEEN SOOO MIA work is crazy (it’s beating my ass) and life is so hectic (also beating my ass). i’ve been trying to have a hot girl summer but i assure u i’ve been nonstop thinking of one shots and new plot points for my fics and new ones too so once the seasonal depression kicks in it’s gonna be over for everyone ! ok enjoy :3 sowwee it took so long once again!! 🙏 ☆ wc: 6.7k+ 🖤🤍 series masterlist 🤍🖤
if there was a time in the past when you said the hong kong coffee milk tea you had been drinking did nothing to keep you awake, you sincerely take it back. your brain felt it first, halfway through sipping on the matcha oatmilk latte satoru had brought for you. and then came the uncontrollable leg shaking and the pounding in your head that could only be satiated if you continued to drink from your matcha, although now that wasn’t doing much either.
you snuck a quick look at satoru, who was initially banally transcribing his notes onto his cheat sheet for the final, now animatedly talking through bell’s theorem to nanami and haibara and you (before you zoned out). haibara was rapid fire questioning satoru’s mini-lecture, talking a mile a minute as he tapped his pencil at an unnatural pace on the desk. you look over at nanami, who’s staring at satoru with a thousand yard, wide eyed stare, and realize you all were caffeinated beyond recovery.
the pounding in your head got louder and louder, until it drowned out the noises satoru and haibara. water. you need water. your mouth is too dry. you make eye contact with nanami, and as if he read your mind, he wordlessly reaches into his backpack and hands you his blue hydroflask. you take a swig. and then another. and then you’re chugging the entire bottle like your life depends on it (you think it does in a way).
the pounding in your head fades just as you empty his water bottle. your vice grip on it turns your fingers white and you try to pay attention to what satoru is lecturing about.
“see, the thing about heisenberg’s uncertainty principle is that the more localized the momentum-space wavefunction is, the more likely the particle is found in those values, which by the way, are just fourier transforms of each other…”
what the fuck? uncertainty principle? fourier transforms? those weren’t on the final last time you checked. you quickly pull out your study guide and try to find any mentions of whatever satoru was talking about. you find bell’s theorem (wasn’t he just talking about that? how did he switch topics so fast, and so randomly for that matter?), but no mentions of heisenberg. you turn back to satoru and realize he’s just talking nonsense quantum facts from the top of his head, regardless if it was even part of the class (perhaps as a result of being too wired from the triple shot latte he’s been sipping on).
oh, you need to stop this before everyone gets confused. “satoru, wait, is this even on the final?” if he heard you, he doesn’t let you know, as he continues on his monologue without missing a beat, now talking about quantum computing and turing tests. those aren’t even remotely related to the class you guys are studying for! “satoru! stop talking, jesus fuckin’ christ, dude!” you shake his shoulder, jolting him back to reality as he stops talking and looks over at you confused.
“what? why? did you have a question about what i was saying?”
“yeah, what the fuck? none of that is on the final, what are you even talking about? how do you know, like, all these random physics facts from the top of your head?!” you ask incredulously.
satoru shrugs and looks at you like you’re the weird one for questioning him. “you don’t?”
“not everyone studied applied physics in undergrad and graduated summa cum laude, gojo-sensei,” haibara quipped, still writing down some notes from satoru’s monologue in his notebook. you quickly swat his hand away from writing down any more.
“stop writing what he just said haibara! it’s gonna confuse you when you’re actually studying for the final.” you frown, leaning over to move his notebook away from him.
“what is it do you think we’re doing right now, y/n, if not ‘actually studying for the final’?” nanami says, emphasizing what you had just said. when was the last time he blinked?
“none of us studying right now because we got too fuckin’ wired from the coffee. where did you guys get this battery acid anyway?” you say, taking another sip from your matcha, against your own will.
“philz…” satoru says.
you scoff. “philz?! and you got a triple shot there? how are you alive right now? how are all of you alive right now? why the fuck would you get coffee from philz and not riko’s like usual?!”
“i’m not feeling alive.” haibara chimes.
“i’ve been having an out of body experience for the last thirty minutes,” nanami informs, too calmly for your liking, if you’re being honest.
“suguru told me if he saw my face at riko’s today, he would poison me in my sleep.” satoru says, running his hands through his hair in slight frustration. his legs are restless and so are yours.
“okay, well, it doesn’t matter now because we are never gonna feel normal again. this is our life. anyway, i think we need a break.” everyone nods their heads. “m’gonna go on a walk around the library and fill up your water bottle, nanamin. anyone wanna join?” you get up from your chair and wordlessly, satoru gets up to accompany you.
as you two exit the study room, the change of scenery allows your eyes to adjust to reality and your brain to think of something other than physics, which unfortunately is the deal you made with satoru before walking into the study room and getting wired beyond repair. you decide that while you’re not opposed to blowing him right now, you’re not bringing it up until he does. you look over your shoulder and see satoru following silently behind you and you lead him to a corner of the library, where the water refill stations and bathrooms were.
as you’re filling up nanami’s water bottle, satoru breaks the silence. “should we be worried about nanami and his…umm…out of body experience?”
“aww, you care about nanami, don’t you?” you coo, giving satoru a sly smile.
“if you’re trying to insinuate that i’m in love with him, then you’re right, i am. why else would i secretly stick on post-its with penises on the back of his notebook?”
“you’re the one doing that?!” you turn your head to satoru to shake it disapprovingly and sigh. “he’s been haunted by those wretched things for weeks, satoru! he’s been thinking some girl’s been sexually harassing him!”
you watch him cackle with laughter and shoot him a dirty look. “stop laughing, satoru!” you say, but you’re a hypocrite because you’re also laughing at the situation. “promise me you’ll– shit!” the water overflows from the water bottle as you pour the excess out and seal the cap on.
“c’mere,” satoru says, leading you somewhere deeper into the library.
“anyway, i don’t think we need to worry about nanamin,” you say as you turn the corner and enter a narrow aisle. “i think he just needs to drink water and touch grass or talk to someone that isn’t you.”
“yeah, maybe…” satoru says, as he leads you to another random book aisle, clearly no longer paying attention to you.
“hey, where are we? what are we doing here?” you take a look around at the books around you. greek mythologies? “why are we in the greek–”
your question is cut off by satoru’s lips crashing into yours and his arms pulling you flush against his chest. satoru leans down to your height and tightens his grip on your hips. caught off guard, it takes you a moment to register what was happening before you leaned into the kiss, deepening with opening your mouth and letting his tongue in. the kiss is urgent, hurried, clandestine – stolen in an empty library corridor in the greek mythology section, of all places. aphrodite would be delighted, you think.
you take great pains to not moan into satoru’s mouth in the quiet of the library, but a stifled sigh sneaks out regardless. you feel satoru’s hands slide down to your ass and squeeze, as you use the hand that’s not holding the hydroflask to run your fingers through his undercut, earning a muffled groan from him. he leans down further and lifts you up slightly so that he can shove his legs between yours and move your hips on them. the friction of your clothed core meeting his knee catches you off guard as you drop the hydroflask. it clatters on the ceramic tiled floor of the library and echoes loudly across the library floor.
shit. shit. satoru and you immediately break off the kiss the second the sound rings and you quickly scramble to grab it before it starts rolling to where people are within view. “shit, shit, shit!” you whisper frantically as you fumble to get the water bottle. your face is hot and the pounding in your head is back, begging you for more caffeine. your heart feels like it’s about to go into cardiac arrest for the same reason, but the fact that you were secretly kissing your best friend did not help.
“jesus fuckin’ christ, why are those things so fucking loud,” satoru says, his eyes scanning the neighboring aisles to see if anyone was there.
“why did you knee my clit?” you challenge back in a hushed whisper as you set the hydroflask down on the floor.
“well i had this insane idea that you would like it.” satoru mumbles. you have no interest in arguing with him any further, figuring the best way to beat the pounding in your head was to grab satoru’s sweatshirt and pull him closer to you and continue. with both hands free, you’re able to kiss him and grip his hair to deepen the kiss again.
this time, satoru slowly moves his hands down to your ass and pulls you right against his rock hard bulge of his own arousal. you sigh deeply at the contact, and buck your hips towards his erection, but missing due to the awkward angle. satoru breaks off the kiss in favor of littering your neck with soft butterfly kisses.
“you know, i do recall someone saying they’d blow me in the library…” satoru says in between kisses. his lips feel the soft vibration of your groan and he chuckles against it. “you don’t have to, by the way, if you don’t want to. i don’t wanna–”
“what if want to?” you ask innocently, flashing your eyes at him coquettishly as you push him back and use the hair tie on your wrist to quickly tie your hair back. you slowly sink to your knees. don’t think about how hard the tiled floors are here and just focus on giving him insane head so he cums fast and you get back on your feet. you feel a bit bad thinking that, because you do really want to give him head, but also you’re a woman in your late 20s suffering from joint pain, which was embarrassing in itself.
you push your thoughts of your knee pain on the ceramic tiles aside and start to palm his hard erection through his pants. satoru holds back a groan and throws his head back and holds your wrist and moves it to his belt. you undo it effortlessly, and pull down his pants and underwear, unveiling his well endowed erection in front of you. fuck, it’s so huge.
your hand grips him lightly as you lick a long stripe from the base to the pink tip of his shaft. at the top, you give him a small kiss before your mouth slowly envelopes it, licking it so as to lubricate your mouth for deepthroating him. you slowly go down on him further and further, until you feel him at the back of your throat, before you start bobbing your head back and forth. satoru hisses under his breath as you full take him in and start sucking him off rhythmically.
you feel his hand reach the back of your head and grip your ponytail, helping you control the pace to his liking. the warmth of your mouth and skillful maneuvers of your tongue are sending satoru faster to the edge than he’d like to admit, and he grits his teeth to keep himself from spilling within minutes of you starting the blowjob he’d been thinking about since you mentioned it.
“fuuuck, just like that…” satoru hums deeply. the tip of his cock bullies the back of your thorat, causing your mouth to gag and clench on him. “damn, you love this shit don’t you? deepthroating me in the library where anyone can walk in? where anyone can see how much of a desperate slut you are?”
satoru’s dirty words turn you on more than expected, especially knowing anyone could hear him. you feel yourself getting soaked thinking about the potential chance at someone watching you. what if it was toji? wait, what? how did that thought make you even more wet? thankfully, your moans are muffled by your mouth engulfing him. satoru increases his pace, and starts to fuck your face relentlessly, chasing his high.
just as you were choking on his member, satoru abruptly stilled his movements inside your mouth. your eyes widen, hearing muffled movements nearby and try to remove yourself from his cock, but satoru keeps your head firmly on him via the vice grip on your ponytail, which was slowly coming apart. the muted sounds slowly got quieter and quieter, until they were gone completely, at which point satoru resumed his mouth fucking.
“i bet if i felt you right now, you’d be dripping,” satoru whispers breathily. you whine against him, knowing he’s right – your panties are completely ruined. satoru swears under his breath, and you feel his thrusts get sloppier as you feel his cock pulsating as he gets closer to his climax. you help him reach it by using a hand to lightly cup his balls, a trick you learned from an ex-boyfriend of yours, which turns out to be successful.
“f-fuck, gonna cum in your mouth, yeah?” satoru asks, and you moan in response, vibrating against him. you feel hot ropes of cum shoot down your throat. for the second time today, you don’t let a single drop go to waste. you swallow his cum clean, and lick one last stripe across his cock, as you let him go with a lewd pop.
you wipe off some spit on the back of your hand as satoru makes himself decent while catching his breath as fast as possible, leaning against the bookshelf to do so. satoru reaches out his hands lazily to help you get up from your knees on the hard floors, which crack while you stand up. he pulls you closer to his chest as he leans on the library bookshelf, and leans forward to kiss your mouth. you kiss him back briefly before pulling away and checking your phone. “shit, we should go, people might notice that we’ve been gone for way too long…”
satoru rolls his eyes as you grab his hand and lead him down the various aisles he took you through, dropping it only when you caught sight of some students nearby. you cross your arms as you think of how you blew two guys in one day which is not only a new feat for you, but also, kind of annoying that you didn’t get anything in return both times, even though you understood why toji couldn’t.
“somethin’ troubling you, baby girl?” satoru asks, nudging your shoulder.
“oh, what? no, why would you ask that?”
“because you blew me like a minute ago and you’re completely silent. and your arms are crossed and your eyebrows are doing that thing they do when you’re annoy–”
“oh my god, okay i get it!” you say with exasperation, not wanting to hear him characterize you this accurately. “and yeah, whatever, i guess i’m a little miffed, but it’s not a big deal.”
“did i do something wrong?” you hear a hint of genuine concern in his voice.
“oh my god, satoru, no, of course not…it’s just…” you feel the heat rise to your cheeks. all of a sudden, you’re feeling shy and meeting satoru’s eyes is a pain so you keep them downcast and cross your arms to your chest even tighter in an effort to self-sooth.
“if it’s embarrassing then i’m sorry, you have to tell me or else i’m gonna be so fuckin’ annoying about it.”
“you’re already so fuckin’ annoying about everything, first of all. and fine, if you must know…” you find the courage to turn your head up to him. “i blew like two guys today including you and do you know how many times i got the favor returned? zero. ZERO!” you felt petulant voicing your concerns this wantonly.
just as you expected, a shit eating grin forms on satoru’s face. “well, why didn’t you say so? you know i’d be more than happy to help that disparity for you.” hearing him tease you about eating you out has you more hot and bothered than you’d like to admit.
“promise?”
“promise. once we get the fuck outta here, my mouth is yours, baby girl.”
“don’t call me that!” you say, grinning as you both approach the table where you left shoko to study on her own. you are surprised to see utahime sitting next to her whispering something in her ear, and shoko shaking in silent laughter.
“oh my god, this bitch…” you say under your breath as you stride towards her desk. so rich of her to tell everyone to shut up when utahime is allowed to say all the jokes in the world. utahime notices you first and her face brightens as she gives you an enthusiastic wave, only for her face to immediately sour when she spots satoru right behind you.
“you can at least pretend you’re excited to see me ‘hime,” teases satoru.
“do not call me that.” utahime seethes before turning her attention back to shoko and you.
“what? you can giggle all you want with utahime but not with us?” you tease shoko.
she rolls her eyes. “i’m on my break, dumbass, look!” she turns on her laptop to show you the 15 minute break timer that has long since elapsed. you look over at utahime and ask her what brings her back to thel library.
“ugh, literally only because shoko is here. otherwise, i’d never step foot back at this place after graduating.” utahime frowns. you remember how you and shoko attended utahime’s graduation ceremony for education master’s last year, which was mostly you and shoko trying to figure out discreetly if utahime was into girls.
the four of you hover around the table and speak in whispered voices and muted laughter, slowly losing track of the volume of your voices. eventually, at some point, everyone is speaking in normal talking voices in the quiet library, all while being blissfully unaware of the dirty pointed looks being given to you guys.
“gojo, what the fuck kinda coffee did you get me, also? me and utahime have been sharing it and we are forreal tweaking off of this,” shoko complains, shaking the empty coffee cup.
“it was philz.” you answer for satoru. utahime and shoko’s eyes widen in disbelief.
“are you trying to murder us?! why didn’t you go to riko’s?!” utahime yells, in a higher than normal level voice.
“i literally cannot have this conversation again,” satoru says, closing his eyes and rubbing his temples.
your conversation is interrupted by a short stocky man, who you infer to be a library monitor wearing an official looking university sweater vest. “you folks are way too loud. we’ve gotten multiple complaints about the noise levels on this floor. this is your first and last warning, or you all are out.” he says sternly.
“wait, sorr–”
“no excuses, ma’am. just please be silent from now onwards, or there will be consequences.” he interrupts you curtly before walking away from the table. the four of you don’t speak, until satoru breaks the silence.
“why’s his voice like that? so nasally?” he said the last part as nasally as possible, mocking the library monitor.
“you’re so mean!” utahime says as you cover your mouth so she doesn’t see you wordlessly laughing at the admittedly mean imitation.
“who’s so mean?” you turn to see haibara returning to the table with nanami behind him.
“obviously it’s gojo.” nanami says without missing a beat. he eyes his water bottle in your hand and you give it back to him. “why did you guys take so long to get water? our reservation elapsed, so i guess we’re here now.”
heat rushes to your face and you feel like a deer caught in headlights. you’re too stunned to feel relieved that nanami’s eyes are looking less bloodshot and more normal. “oh uhh, we were just…”
“we did a lap around the library, nanamin. had to blow off some steam after all that physics, ya know?” satoru says, putting emphasis on that word. if you weren’t with everyone, you would’ve kicked him hard.
nanami cocks an eyebrow in confusion while haibara doesn’t have a single thought behind his eyes as he readily accepts satoru’s answer. “oh wait! guess what we found while packing our shit up from the study room,” haibara says excitedly.
“haibara, i really don’t wanna–” nanami starts.
“we found another penis post-it note inside his textbook. how about that?” haibara says with much amusement.
“oh my god! no way! do you still think it’s the mysterious girl from physics lab?” shoko says, eyes widening and voice slowly rising. haibara nods excitedly, and you shoot a dirty look at satoru from the corner of your eye, only to see him relishing the conversation.
“yeah, there is this girl who always wants to partner up with nanamin-chan during lab. it’s gotta be her.” satoru shamelessly fans the flames of a wildfire of his own making.
nanami pulls out a chair and buries his face in his arms, but the blush creeping up to his cheeks did not go unnoticed by anyone. “or, radical idea, it’s some girl sexually harassing me.” his mumbles.
“okay, pack it up fellas. i said there’ll be no second warning, so all of you, OUT!” the library monitor takes all of you by surprise as none of you see him coming. “the next time i catch all of you talking loudly at this library results in suspension for the rest of the semester!” he says as you all quietly grab your stuff and leave the library wordlessly. he follows you guys until you’re outside in the crisp evening air and concrete steps of the library entrance.
once he leaves, you allow yourself to freak out. “oh my god, are we gonna get suspended?! they can’t suspend us for this, right? god, i should’ve known you bitches couldn’t shut the fu–”
“jesus christ, y/n, chill. they just say that shit to scare you. this is like my fifth time getting kicked out of this library.” satoru says nonplussed, hands in his pockets as he leisurely descends down the stairs as the rest of you follow him.
“thanks though for throwing us under the bus like that, y/n,” shoko says, rolling her eyes.
“is no one going to bring up why gojo is getting kicked out of libraries this much?” utahime asks.
none of you answer, mostly because no one wants to know the answer to it. satoru’s smug smile is planted permanently on his face as he winks at utahime, and she gags. “anyway, what’s everyone doing? should we get dinner together?” haibara asks warmly, zipping up his jacket. everyone looks at each other and agrees.
“oooh, let’s go to that new thai place downtown!” you suggest, pulling up your phone to look at the hours.
“i’m down, let’s pick up suguru on the way. he’s at riko’s.” satoru responds, his information on suguru’s whereabouts earns a “ooohhh” from everyone.
“he’s still there?! oh my god, he’s in love with that girl…” shoko says.
the six of you take a walk to riko’s cafe, which is slowly closing up for the night. usually, you wouldn’t walk into a place if it was just five minutes before closing time, like you are now, but you figure it’s a special exception since one of your best friends is crushing on the owner. the lot of you inconspicuously make your way outside the cafe glass walls, trying to catch suguru and riko…doing what? you’re not entirely sure but shoko said something about seeing suguru in his “natural habitat”, and all of you agreed (you blame the caffeine).
you crouch down and peer into the cafe to see suguru helping riko wipe down tables and stack up chairs (basically anything that requires heavy lifting). damn…that’s cute. may be love really is worth it. your breath hitches in your throat and you jaw goes slack when you see suguru lean in close to riko and kiss her tenderly. you, shoko, and utahime exchange glances with each other with wide eyes and you hear nanami say something about how we are invading suguru’s privacy. the trance this intimate and now stolen moment is broken as satoru bangs his hands against the wall loudly, scaring the lot of you and suguru and riko inside. suguru looks absolutely flummoxed, while riko immediately steps away from him and pretends to inspect something in the barista area.
you hear satoru yelling through the glass. “open the door, lovebiiiirrdss!” he jiggles the door a couple times to open it but it’s locked. suguru comes closer to open the door and he looks like he’s going to summon curses to obliterate him, and frankly everyone else.
“man, fuck you. what did i say? why are you here?” suguru says immediately after opening the door to satoru. he gives a disappointing stare to nanami and you. “honestly, i expected better from both of you.”
nanami tries to defend himself with little to no avail while you focus on making it up to him by talking about thai food. “sorry, sugu, but let us make it up to you. dinner at that new thai place?”
“can riko come?”
“no!” utahime says out of nowhere. it’s silent for five seconds. “i’m just kidding, hehe. of course she can come!” she says sweetly. shoko is the only one who laughs. utahime’s timing in jokes were always questionable but at least she’s really pretty.
suguru finishes putting up the last few chairs and goes to the back to let riko know about dinner plans. he and her disappear to the break room, and appear three minutes later with their bags and coat. they meet you outside and you notice suguru’s feet are restless, and his hands can’t find a proper place to rest.
“you good, suguru?” you ask.
“y-yeah, all good”, he says, pushing his bangs back.
riko giggle. “he had one too many cups of coffee today.” him, too? “don’t blame him though, they were on the house.”
“oh, okay, great, so we’re all wired as fuck right now.” shoko remarks, as she puts an arm around utahime.
“you guys got coffee? when? i didn’t see you guys stop by for anything?” riko questions, thinking back to customers that stopped by today.
everyone is silent, not wanting to embarrass suguru for the second time in ten minutes. “uh, well…” you start. “satoru got us the coffees today!” you say, passing the ball to his court. his problem now.
satoru shoots you daggers, not feeling fond of being put on the spot to come up with a quick lie. “oh, yeah. uh, i got it from…philz. because…”
“because you hate me and want me to die?” riko says without missing a beat.
“because, uh…the barista…on main street…i’m sleeping with her. that’s it. my bad, riko-chan.” you don’t know what’s more shocking: the fact that you can’t tell if he’s lying or the fact that riko believes him so easily.
riko thankfully drops the subject and everyone moves on to different topics, from haibara asking satoru more information about the hot philz barista and utahime sharing amusing events from teaching high schoolers this week. the group of you bask in the crisp and cool evening air as you walk leisurely to the thai place downtown, which was a nice walk away. once you guys arrive, you are met with the sunday night dinner line, which is awful to say the least. your heart deflates knowing you won’t be able to try this place and you and haibara start to look at other places for dinner before riko interrupts the both of you.
“oh, don’t worry about it. i can get us in, gimme a minute.” she says, before squeezing past a bunch of people waiting in front and greeting the server at the front. the server seems to call someone over from inside the restaurant, and a middle aged man with salt and pepper hair and prominent laugh lines comes out, and his eyes light up when he sees riko.
riko laughs and gives him a quick hug and starts talking to him about something and then gestures over to you and your friends. after a while of standing awkwardly, riko finally looks over at your group and motions you all to follow her. as you step into the restaurant, you’re met with romantic low lighting, roses as a centerpiece of every table, and various trinkets related to thai culture hanging on the wall and shelves. the place reminds you of somewhere your parents would take you to as a child after getting good grades in class, and it leaves you feeling nostalgic.
you’re led to a corner of the restaurant where a waiter was quickly pulling two tables together to hold your party. “right this way,” the man says, extending his hand out to the table that was being set up in front of you.
“thank you so much for having us during a busy night,” nanami says, bowing his head slightly in respect.
the man laughs heartily. “oh, anything for riko-chan over here. we business owners gotta stay together, anyway. welcome!” you take a seat on the booth side of the two tables, with shoko sitting next to you and satoru taking the seat directly in front of you. “please let me know if there's anything you need during your dinner. my name is joseph!” you take a quick look at his name tag and as expected, see a silver tag engraved with “JOSEPH J” with his ownership title under it. what a sweet old man.
your thoughts are interrupted by a slightly painful kick under the table to your shin. without looking down, you know in your soul who kicked you, and his stupid ocean eyes are looking directly at you as he mumbles a quick sorry. you waste no time in kicking him back, but earning no response in return. this begins a long game of footsies underneath the table between you and satoru. while trying to keep up with the conversation at the table, your short legs struggle to reach his, and you keep missing his feet. on the other hand, satoru easily dodges your feet and playfully kicks yours under the table (what is he? twelve years old?).
you’re responding to something suguru and utahime said, when satoru uses his legs to spread your legs forcefully apart. you stutter in the middle of your sentence before gaining your composure back, and you feel the heat rise to your face. satoru’s foot inches closer and closer to your inner thigh, and you quickly finish your sentence, before taking large sips of your water. shoko gives you a look, internally asking if you were good to which you wave her off.
“uh, i think i’m gonna use the bathroom, be right back,” you say, abruptly getting out of your seat and beelining to the restroom. you don’t actually need to use it, but you need to catch your breath after how easily satoru spread you apart and toyed with you under the table. you rinse your mouth with the tap water and fix your hair in the mirror when you hear a rap at the door.
you open it and are met with satoru barging inside and locking the door.
“satoru what are you–” you’re interrupted for the second time today with his lips as he kisses you deeply, his tongue immediately asking for access and you granting it too easily. “w-what are you d-doing~” you say in between sharp breaths and satoru kisses your neck and grips your ass hard.
“didn’t you say you needed to cum? i’m helping you out,” he says as he feverishly leaves kisses all over your neck and brings his hands up to the hem of your sweater. he deftly slips his hands under your sweater and it takes everything in you to hold back a gasp has his fingers trace every part of your torso and eventually creepy up to your covered breasts. once his hands brush past your erect nipples, you let out a soft moan, inaudible in any normal circumstance, but satoru hears the vibrations through the lips attached to your neck. you can feel him smirking against your neck as he doesn’t let up with his small pecks. the last thing you want to do is give him the satisfaction of making a noise in the bathroom, but your resolve is short lived.
satoru’s hands abruptly leave your chest, and make their way down to the buttons of your jeans. he fumbles with the zipper and you use the opportunity to run your fingers through his hair and leave small kisses on his temples. something about him taking you in the bathroom turns you on immensely, and the only way you can stop yourself from grinding against the air is to keep your mouth preoccupied.
“y’gotta stop squirming, baby,” satoru says through ragged breaths, “can’t get these goddamn pants off you when your hips are grinding against my touch.” you feel a blush creep up to your face. you didn’t even know you were doing that. you thought you were actively keeping your hips stilled.
“i am keeping still,” you whine. “if it’s a skill issue then just say that.” you tease, and egging him on works because once the zipper gets unstuck, your jeans practically fall down your ankles. you bend down to try to get them off completely without having to take off your shoes (you wouldn’t be caught dead in a public bathroom, even a nice one like this, without your shoes), but satoru already has something else in mind.
he spins you around and bends you over the granite counter, your cheeks burning from the shock of coldness of the stone. you breath is jagged as you feel satoru hook his finger to your panties and pull it down, feebly pooling by your ankles. you feel exposed as he hugs the mold of your ass and spreads it apart, but even you can’t help but feel your wetness drip down your inner thigh. you feel satoru’s hard-on press against you, and you try to will the fabric between the two of you to disappear so you could feel his length teasing your entrance. fuck, there’s no getting out of this. do you even want to get out of this? not really…
“s-stop, satoru, we-we have t-to go b-back,” you protest, even though your legs betray you by spreading wider in anticipation of what will happen.
“yeah, that’s why you’re practically dripping right now, right?” satoru says, his voice slightly strained. he kneels so he’s eye level to your dripping wet pussy and entrance. his mouth practically waters in anticipation of tasting you for the first time – something he’s been dying to taste since…god he doesn’t even know how long he’s been wanting this.
he wastes no time plunging his tongue as deep as it can go inside your entrance, and he moans at the taste of you. at the same time, your eyes roll back in the pleasure of it all, your moans no longer being held back. using both hands to hold your hips in place and spread you apart, satoru continues his assault on your pussy, not leaving any part untouched by his tongue. you feel yourself out of breath already, and pushing back against his face, trying to feel the friction on your clit.
satoru seems to catch on, and releases his hold on your hips with one hand and snakes it around you. his fingers find their way to your clit, as if he’s had the path memorized in the back of his hand. he starts rubbing your swollen bundle of nerves, earning breathless moans from you. he already came earlier today, but the sight your legs splayed our and pussy exposed in front of him is enough to make him burst just as hard.
“fuck, feelin’ you clench against my tongue, baby,” satoru says, still drawing small circles on your clit. “gonna cum? this is what you’ve wanted for so long, haven’t you?”
he’s teasing you now, and it’s sickening how that edges you on even more. your pussy clenches harder as his tongue re-enters you, and you know you’re going to spill any minute. the coil tightens inside your lower stomach, and you feel the familiar build up about to burst inside you.
“nghh~ sa-satoru haaa~” you say in between breaths. “m’gonna cum…”
“normally i’d make you beg but you’ve been such a good little girl for me today,” he says, maintaining the relentless pace of bullying your bundle of nerves. his tongue returns back into you, just in time for the coil to release inside you, and you clench uncontrollable against his mouth. your legs shake as satoru continues his ministrations until he senses you’re out of breath.
your face feels damp as you try to catch your breath from the orgasm that ripped through your body. satoru stands up and leans against your bent over body, his breath on your skin tingle. he gives you a quick peck on the back of your neck, before you feel his hard-on against your opening.
“a-are you gonna fuck me, now?” you ask in between breaths. you’re not sure if you could even take him in your fucked out state, but you weren’t raised a quitter.
satoru chuckles softly against your neck before standing up straight. “i’d fuckin’ love to, but you look really roughed up. don’t wanna let people get the wrong idea here…” he teases, and your head immediately shoots up to look at the state of your appearance.
your hair is shooting in all different directions, baby hairs and all. your eye makeup is slightly smudged, mascara creating slight racoon eyes. you gasp at how quickly and carelessly you allowed yourself to get this fucked out, all from getting eaten out. “satoru! what the fuck did you do?!” you exclaim, feebly trying to lift yourself off the counter.
satoru helps you up but frowns. “the fuck did i do?”
you frantically try to smooth your hair down back to it’s original state, but the flyaways still remain, and the humidity of your activities in the bathroom is slowly adding to the frizziness of it. fuck, you’re so screwed. “you…you bent me over! and…” you struggle to find the words to accuse him with. you know it’s not his fault or yours, but you need someone to blame right now.
“and what? gave you head? and then the best orgasm of your life?” he smirks, watching you as you put your pants back on.
“don’t flatter yourself. that was nowhere near the best orgasm i’ve ever had.” you say, making eye contact with him through the mirror, as you wet a paper towel and skillfully try to remove any evidence of running mascara from your face.
satoru raises his eyebrows. “damn, really? guess i just have to keep on giving them to you until one of them is.”
your heart practically leaps out of your chest, and you feel another familiar wetness pool down in your panties just thinking about what this could possibly entail for you.
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Kakashi and Nanami are each other's favorite coworkers
art credit: @uintuva
Modern Tokyo
content: 18+ (mdni), bullet point format, some dark humor, descriptions of smut, brief drinking, hurt/comfort, platonic intimacy, mentions of depression, intern!Team Kakashi and intern!JJKids, coworkers to best friends, not beta read this is just for fun
note: The first time I had this thought, it ended up a lot more angsty than I actually planned for it to be. this version was what I had in mind the first time around but given how I set the initial one in the Naruto world I couldn't NOT be emo about it so this is my apology. especially to @honeylavendr and @mytanuki-kun 😅
When Nanami was first hired as the new department bookkeeper, he knew he'd hate it the moment his boss yelled out his introduction to the entire office and made everyone applaud him.
The irritation on his face must have been evident because as soon as he starts internally debating the pros and cons of not killing himself right then and there, a grey-haired man around his age pats him on the shoulder and gently directs him to his desk away from everyone else.
Kakashi: They're a little boisterous, but harmless. I'm Hatake Kakashi. Welcome to the team, desk partner~
Nanami...doesn't know what to think about him immediately. It's hard to read someone when they have an eye patch and a face mask on. He tries to thank him and introduce himself properly but all of a sudden he hears this grating voice---
Satoru: NANAMIIIIIN! Did my dearly beloved cousin already steal your attention away??
Sasuke, Kakashi's new intern and already unable to help himself: He's related to this loser?
Maybe death was the better option
At least Kakashi was handsome
He settled into his role over the years, but his attitude about work stayed the same: he was grumpy and impatient towards his peers, yet kind and gentle with the interns that passed through.
Though he'd never admit it to anyone (or himself), he was fond of them -- especially Yuji.
Sakura, Ino, and Nobara were the office's designated gyaru and had more fun finding ways to make their boring work outfits more to their style, but nobody ever said anything because they were also the best at their respective jobs.
The accounting executive chief Mei Mei and the CCO Jiraiya did a shit job hiding the fact that they were into each other. It creeped everyone out, but they minded their business. Anything to keep that man away from the younger girls.
Oh wow turns out the new neighbor that Nanami never got to greet was Kakashi! How'd that happen? (pure coincidence, wildly enough)
Ever the grump that hates having work near his home life, he hates it at first, but he got used to it. Every so often when watching Kakashi walk into his own house, he'd try to sneak a peek of Kakashi's face as he took the mask off. He'd never been successful, but he figured it was only a matter of time.
5am shirtless jogging in grey sweatpants.
Kakashi typically wears a hoodie but Nanami opts to go shirtless depending on the season. Not that Kakashi is complaining. How can he when he has the perfect opportunity to drag behind a little bit just to watch Nanami's arms flex and his ass bounce as they jog?
boioioioioing
Every so often they come across Gai, who's somehow more rowdy than the interns, and they automatically know to get ready for a long-distance race to whatever he decides is the finish line.
Most of the time, Nanami rejects and puts his earbuds in to occupy his attention while watching Gai and Kakashi race.
One time he didn't reject the offer. Stoic as he was, Kakashi caught the slight smirk on his face as he braced himself to run. As soon as he heard the word go, he shot off faster than a bullet.
Gai and Kakashi were mildly surprised that Nanami was hiding all of that athleticism the entire time, but that surprise quickly turned to excitement.
The race ended with a tie for him and Kakashi, and Gai was left sulking that he'd been beat again.
Company parties are lit!!! It's the one chance everyone gets to take the day off of working and just relax at a privately rented bar. Kakashi was reluctant to go to the upcoming one, but Gai, convinced him. Maybe Nanami would be there?
Wait what
He was, much to the man's own irritation. Something about needing to stay in good standing with the company, needing to relax, etc.
fuck capitalism and kiss-ass culture man
About ten minutes into the party, Kakashi and Nanami find themselves secluded in a corner. They talked. Just talked. They were both guarded at first, but the alcohol helped.
Hours passed and there was rarely a break in their conversation. The more at ease Nanami felt, the more he realized how attractive Kakashi was outside of his work uniform. His shaggy grey hair looked both unnatural but stylish; it was something only he could pull off and he could see why Satoru clung to him like a puppy.
Satoru, drunk and very obviously feeling like it was too peaceful, stumbled over to their table to wrap his arms around Kakashi's shoulders from behind.
Satoru: Kashi-chaaaaan. When are you gonna stop flirting with Nanamin and pay attention to your favorite cousin, ehhhh????
Thank goodness his boyfriend, Suguru, came to the rescue just as suddenly before either of them could give Satoru a reason to buy new sunglasses. Or a new hospital bill.
But the little comment made the air thick with a new tension. Given that his eyes were the only things showing, it was hard for Nanami to miss how Kakashi's eyes raked across his body. He didn't even bother trying to hide it, at some point.
Nanami fucked around and rested his arms on the back seat of their booth and his broad chest was much, much more noticeable
now Kakashi's lookin' at him like this
Eventually, they both made some excuse to leave and found themselves in the backseat of Nanami's car in Kakashi's driveway
This was the first time in years that either of them could numb the pain inside of them enough to find comfort in each other.
No talk of work, no talk of gains or losses, no interns swarming them in questions, no Gojo or Gai screaming in their ears, no expectations, and no worries
Kakashi's breathy moans fueled Nanami's lust, prompting him to line their cocks up and squeeze them together as they thrusted into his big hand.
Kakashi kept his mask on, as always, but that didn't take away from the beauty of him as he grunted and groaned in pleasurable bliss.
At some point, Kakashi wrapped his legs around Nanami's waist to grind his hips and chase his release and Nanami lost all sense of logic or reasoning whatsoever after that
Kakashi looked so pretty when he finally took his mask off to slip Nanami's hardness down his throat
Cue new hyper fixation: his beauty mark right next to his pretty mouth
They end the night in Kakashi's bed. The night went on longer than either of them had expected; awkward stoicism gave way to carefree hedonism, and they took turns fucking each other.
Two emotionally repressed and depressed 20-somethings that don't know the meaning of relaxation? They're not fucking.
They F U C K I N.
All the frustration, all the pain, all the sadness that stewed inside of them was taken out on one another and all that mattered to them at that time was drowning in the wet sounds of skin slapping against each other.
By the seventh round, they were exhausted and out of breath. Thank the gods they didn't have work in the morning. They wouldn't have been able to keep eye contact without turning red and they didn't need to give Nobara and Yuji a reason to tease
They spent the next day acting the same as they always did, albeit with a little more pep in their step and softness. They don't make a big deal about it and it takes months before people actually started noticing anything odd about them.
It was Sakura, Ino and Nobara that started noticing little things the boys didn't care to look into. Like Kakashi bringing Nanami coffee in the morning, or Nanami offering to take Kakashi home every so often. Is that weird? No, but anyone who knows Nanami knows that smiling is not his thing and he only ever does it around Kakashi
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