#screamingsoul

[screamingsouls]

Most of the time I quite like being human

But then there are also times when I wish that I were a ferret so that I could be picked up and twirled around/wrung out like a towel

[abominxtion]

- Attraction of EVIL  -

They say we fall for bad things; we are blinded by how it's glorified. up until we reach the real unseen evil, but by then, it's already too late.

Just like this eating disorder. We are mesmerized by our sweet, cotton-candy dreams of becoming thin, hoping that it will make our life perfect. make us perfect.

But now, at some point it hits you, you reach your gw, but you're not happy like you said you would be. you don’t see 'perfect'. you don’t feel worthy.

So, you continue to self-destruct, you continue to focus on it more than anything.

Thus, you think you are no longer worthy of love, you don't deserve it.

YOU ISOLATE YOURSELF FROM EVERYONE

You continue to do it ALONE.

You start to realize how bad it's gotten, no more sweet, cotton-candy dreams of being thin and dainty, just pure evil.

It's your obligation, it's a must.

Otherwise, you are NOT ENOUGH

YOU WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH.

From there, things start to spiral downwards into a big chaotic mess. You yearn to get hep, to escape this loophole of a disorder, but's it’s too late.

It's become your safe place,

It's what now makes you, YOU.

You know it's wrong, you know it's bad, but it's the only thing you feel gives you control. you think you are in control, but you’re NOT.

YOU ARE NOT IN CONTROL.

It controls YOU.

You come to the consensus that you are not sick enough and keep on going, keep on hiding it, though you really want someone to notice your pain.

To notice the SCREAMS behind your fake smile.

This thing, it's like a mutation in your brain. You no longer know what’s 'normal' anymore. EVIL that you would never wish on your enemies.

But wait, you don’t have enemies

In-fact, you have NO ONE

You are alone.

You chose to be alone and fail to accept someone into your circle. It's a constant cycle of wanting to not be alone, but not feeling like you're enough to actually be loved.

You feel you are not worthy of LOVE,

You no longer feel lovable.

So even on your worst day, when no one’s around; Ana will be there for you. she will make you feel safe, at home. doing something that you can actually do right.

BUT IT'S TOO LATE

So, you don’t bother looking for a way out, because you always come back to it.

It becomes a PART OF YOU.

You can't let go, or rather, you want to but can't

Because

IT WON’T LET YOU GO

YOU SIMPLY ARE GONE.

Left to WITHER away…

 XOXO - abominxtion

[latanastudio]

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[cj-media]

SCREAMING SOUL

[tanarosethewriter]

Listen, The Soul Garden

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[voorhees1138]

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[kpopxolution]

In one aspect, yes, I believe in ghosts, but we create them. We haunt ourselves...... There's just something obvious about emptiness.... #train #empty #trainwreck #ghosts #create #haunt #obvious #emptiness #blackandwhite #ghostintheshell #screamingsouls

[arkestrater-blog]

Something spiritual about that jazz

[screamingsouls]

What if people announced getting a divorce like people announce their babies gender

Like seriously, imagine inviting all your friends and loved ones for a surprise reveal and everyone fills out little cards with what they think the surprise will be (some people trying to figure out when you got pregnant because there are no obvious physical signs before giving up and making peace with the fact they aren't as observant as they thought)

There's cake and gift bags, with little pictures of you and your partner holding a lil sign with a date on it(people think it's the due date of a possible baby, when in fact it's the date your divorce will be finalized)

Towards the end of the party everyone gathers in the back yard where there is a large balloon just floating

There's one friend/family member who was clued into the plan, and they read off what people guessed the surprise is, then they start a count down as you and your partner are each given sharp objects (sword/toothpick, whatever floats your boat) to pop the balloon

Everyone's getting excited and yelling numbers and when you finally get to the end, you and your partner pop the balloon to loud cheers from the crowd, though the sound soon peters out as they stare in confusion and try to process what has just transpired

Instead of pink or blue confetti bursting out like there would be for a gender reveal, loads of mini newspaper articles with the headline:

(Insert first & last names) call it quits after (insert amount of years together). Seems like everyone is Divorcing, what could possibly be worse?'

Nestled inside the balloon is a sign that says: 'It's not a girl it's not a boy, it's a divorce!'

Now that the cat's out of the bag, you and your soon to be ex can get the gathered group of the house

[screamingsouls]

A couple of weeks ago a girl I know and I were talking about how messed up it is that we (as women) have become so used to the harassment inflected on us by men, and how neither of us knows of a single female identifying friend that hasn't been harassed or told to 'smile' so that we appear more welcoming, even when we're exhausted or having a bad day, and how we're exposed to this from a very young age. And then one guy we know interjected in the conversation, saying that it really doesn't happen as much as we think, and that that isn't the 'norm'(being harassed by men)

My friend and I just looked at each other and were like 'dude, you're literally telling us what it's like to be women, and that what happens to us isn't a common occurrence'

We were literally just saying how sad it is that we've all grown used to it, and here comes this guy basically invalidating our experiences by saying that it doesn't really happen.

[screamingsouls]

Me to the judges if I ever went on The Voice and sang a Maroon 5 song:

I just want to say that I do not support Adam Levine in any way whatsoever but his music is a bop

[screamingsouls]

I was born on a Wednesday, so I suppose you could say I'm full of woe. And you know what, I love that for me.

[screamingsouls]

My therapist and I were discussing my alters, and I mentioned that when I was 16 AHS was my comfort show when I was a teenager, this was basically the following convo:

Therapist: "American Horror Story, a show about violence and murder was your comfort show?"

Me: 😁 "Yup, and I accidentally absorbed the personality of one of the characters cause I was unaware that kind of thing could happen and I was obsessed."

Therapist: "..."

Me, speaking with the same vibe as one would talk about the weather: "Looking back it probably wasn't the best idea, considering that I have all sorts of issues mentally and it seems to have done more harm than good."

My Therapist: "Yeah, probably wasn't a good idea."

Me: "Doesn't help that the character lost her son to a violent death and ended up killing the whole camp full children. So now I have issues thinking that I lost a child and have serious depression regarding it!"

Therapist: *makes note to discuss this further at another session*

Therapist: "Let's wrap it up for today, and I'm just gonna go ahead and make sure you have appointments through the next two months."

Me: 😁

[screamingsouls]

Low-key considering moving away from the US with all this hateful and dangerous shit happening now and days.

Plus the fact that a literal neo-naz!s is allowed to run for president.

[screamingsouls]

Life hack for if you encounter a smoker who is a dick

Step one: get a battery operated smoke detector and hide it on your person

Step two: walk by the person calmly

Step three: let the detector sing the song of its people

Step four: gaslight the person into thinking they are the only ones hearing it, calmly suggesting it could be their guilty conscience

Step five: bask in the chaos

(not all smokers are dicks, this is very specifically for those who are being obnoxious and dickish about it)