#screaming into the void here. DO YOU SEE
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if jay joins ras and learns how to use shatterspin, it won’t be the same as someone like cinder using shatterspin. a person is the sum of their memory and their soul. amnesia steals the memory; shatterspin corrupts the soul. cinder has a past. jay doesn’t have much of himself left to lose. do you see. one fighting technique - that’s all it takes for jay to not be jay anymore.
#screaming into the void here. DO YOU SEE#ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#jay walker#jay#agent walker#wolf jay#ninjago jay#jay ninjago#key’s conversations#keyalysis#text#lego ninjago#dragons rising
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i used to freehand comics all the time as a child and since the part i liked was the drawing part i would just draw panel after panel because i didn't want to stop drawing to think about icky icky words, plus the story TOTALLY still made perfect sense! to me! and noone else, but 'whoooo caaaaares omgggg its not like comics and sequantial art are a communicative meeediummmm lmaoooooo'. i spent my entire childhood telling myself stuff like "oh pfft I know this story by heart- ill SIMPLY remember the dialogue and write it later" ...and. I can't help but admire baby maiora's (call that a minora ba tm tsk) fucking audacity? hubris? confident wrongness? kid couldn't even remember to finish the comics in the first place? INCREDIBLE levels of unearned self assurance, wish that were me, genuinely- what an icon!!! anyway i think i have forever cursed myself
#maiora garrulates#the maiora overthinks the process of writing dialogue saga continues!!!!!!!#im so tired. i have been overthinking this shit in circles i have not been making any progress in any which way lmao!#im bitching and moaning for funsies this is not that serious in the Grand Scheme Of Things i just wanna improve at my fav thing#and ❤️ Unfortunately ❤️ my favorite thing in the world involves learning MY MOST HATED *NEMESIS*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! verbal communication. ew#words are fun! i LOVE words! toys!!!!! im using words right now and i didn't combust!!!!! wow look at that!!!!!!!!!!!!!#putting words in SEQUENCE? multiple times?? filtering THOUGHTS into SENTENCES???? sentences that a character would or wouldn't SAY???#AND THEN THERE'S ANOTHER CHARACTER SOMETIMES???? AND THAT BITCH ALSO HAS THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS????? AND THEY ALL HAVE PERSONAL IDIOLECTS#AND TONES THAT S U P P O S E D L Y ARE IMPLICATED BY MANNERISMS AND VERBAL HABITS AND CIRCUMSTANCES (AND THERE'S WRONG ANSWERS! ALSO!!)#AND THEY'RE IN A CONTEXT!! AND THEY'RE INTERACTING WITH EACH OTHER AND INFLUENCING EACH OTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#THE CONVERSATION COULD VARY GIVEN ENERGY LEVELS WHETER OR NOT SOMEONE'S FOOT IS FALLING ASLEEP THE F U C K I N G WEATHER#“oh dialogue is easy just say it out loud to yourself until it 'sounds normal' ^^”#screaming crying throwing up NONE OF THIS IS INTUITIVE TO MEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....!#ok dramatics over its out of my system! for now!!!#this is all easily explained bc i just. draw a lot more than i talk to people. so like. OBVIOUSLY i have more practice drawing#so drawing comes natural! talking does not! subsequently dialogue is Hard! No FUCKING Shit Sherlock!!!!! (affectionate)#so yeah. im using y'all (the tumblr void) as practice! hi!!! words at you!!!!!!!!!!#so yeah thanks for baring with me while passing by my corner of the internet#i do love self indulgence this is fun check out my navel gazing actually no do not look at my belly button#anyway i just think this is mildly interesting. some of my writer buds have the same “not good enough” allergy towards visuals#but they use it to be mean2me >:( same bitch that “omg i cant i suck at drawing i can't do this-” does the “uhm. just write? lol.” 2 meeee#we could have peace and love on planet earth and a common experience and yet you KICK miette for being bad at words!!!1!!! </3 heartbreak!!#what the fuck was i talking about even#oh yeah. perfectionism within creatives i guess. LMAO JK i am talking about NOTHIN!!!!G i am just putting Words Out Here ehehehehehe#its practice >;)c#all this bc ive been doodling comics for myself again and im V!! PROUD OF THE ART!!!! wanna share- but DIALOGUE!*⚡sfx!!*....... so! options#a) leaving it blank. no there are NO microphones in the budget. b) leaving blank *balloons* so that the Rythm is there. implied convo!!!#c) ...doing it badly. (tragic)(heartwrenching)(teeny tiny bruise 2 the ego) *dramatic single tear cleches fists * its the only way.........#...we shall see! literally none of this is all that serious i am procrastinating!! <3 playing with my tuoys!!!!!!!! silly time!!!#/all lh! am reaching 30 tags so that is all for THIS episode of the maiora bitches about dialogue saga thank you for joining me!!okilyBuhBY
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I want to follow doctors advice but I also don’t want to look lazy in front of my family 🫠
#help#like not only am I chronically ill#but I also caught a sickness on top of it#I didn’t sweep the floors this week because I’m not feeling good#and I had a nosebleed#so I shouldn’t do strenuous work#even sweeping or vacuuming apparently#but my dad doesn’t see it that way#I’m literally over here coughing up phlegm and trying not to have another nosebleed#but sure#let me do chores to make you happy#even though there’s 5 people in this house#and my brother in law does jack shit but eat and play video games#tired of this shit#personal#void screaming#chronically ill#chronic illness#chronic fatigue#sickness
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Idk if I want this blog anymore or at least I feel like that right now
#the selfship community is sort of a lie#“it's a community built on love” people like to act as if it isn't#overly aggressive posts#disrespect even to those who don't like sharing their f/os but don't make it other people's problem#being completely ignored if you don't post your art and writing here#most people generally not caring about someone pouring their heart out unless it's about a character they recognise and/or like#i'm not deleting this blog because i want to save the stuff on it and still reblog stuff here but like#i stopped using community tags on posts about my f/os ages ago because their was no point#i don't add tags and i'm mostly ignored#i add tags and i'm mostly ignored#i see people being like “it's sad when you only get a few notes. like five at the most” and my average is zero#like i'm not doing this whole thing for attention. it's just that if i'm sharing something it's because i want to feel heard#there's no point#what is the point of me actually talking about my feelings or how much i love my f/os? people even in this community do not care#it's a self centered community#anyway sorry for bitterly screaming into the void but i'm bitter and tired right now and this has been on my mind#thorn talks
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#im not looking for sympathy or anything with this post i just need to fucking say something#but i don't want to dump it all on one person#or even multiple people#because idk what i'd do#or what i'd say to someone in this situation#'just keep going' is all well and good but it only works for so long#so i don't expect anyone to try and deal with this#i wouldn't want them to#because it's fucking stressful#so this is just. screaming into the void.#but uh#fuck#im not ok and idk what to do#dont worry ill be fine#ill still be here tomorrow#and the next day#and the next day and the next day#cause im like a fucking cockroach#living out of spite#but im so fucking sick of feeling like this all the time#im so fucking sick of having no energy or motivation and feeling like my life is gonna go nowhere#im so sick of just. hurting all the time.#it hurts so much#vent post#tw vent#im gonna tag this shit from now on#cause i understand why ppl might not wanna see it#cause there's enough depressing shit going on right now#and if you saw this im sorry and it's not your responsibility to deal with this 🫂#go drink water and take care of yourself
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From now until march, along with KOSA and support for trans folks/tumblr's transphobia, I'm only going to be reblogging posts about Palestine, Congo, Sudan and the potential other countries that I'm unaware of subjected to atrocities and genocides all at the same time (because just when you thought you've seen the depths of human vileness you learn about something else happening that makes you realise no you didn't). My blog's pretty small so this probably doesn't mean much in the grand scheme of things, but since I didn't completely go through with the strike this time around I feel like the least I can do is this. General reminder to not stop talking about the genocides, donate if you can, write/call up your MPs, show support for the trans community and spread as much awareness as possible about all these issues mentioned. Stay safe, everyone.
#momento rambles#normally i don't make posts like this because i can't ever feel like i should be the one to and let people better equipped than me do it#because i'm more confident in their commentary and advice than mine but this is more important than my discomfort so here goes#free palestine#free congo#free sudan#kosa bill#transgender#if you haven't please look into what's been happening#but make sure not to burn yourselves out doing so#and be aware of that god awful bill and how damaging it could be#and keep your blogs trans friendly and safe. i just scream into the void here but you're always welcome and safe to see me be cringe#the world is shit and it always has been but that's more reason for us to stand together#this stuff isn't my strong suit at all but i hope it helps even a little. take care
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If you see Reimari as Squidbob, im revoking your rights to Reimu and Marisa's characterization i think
#Ive said this on twt too but i feel like my void screaming will be heard more here#i really thought we were past seeing Reimu as squidward grouchy. we were doing so well#anyways if your reimari is squidbob i beg you to read at least a few of ZUNs printwork#ive said this in a previous post but i know it isnt bad to see characters the way you see fit#but saying it as fact whe its not really gets to people who know that they Arent Like That yknow#corr.txt#reimu hakurei#marisa kirisame#delete later#...if im a coward
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This work week will suck so bad I'm dreading it so much
#and this is mainly because of the commuting#by train#and the giant fucking desktop screen i will have to transpost in addition to my 2 heavy ass bags#and that i will have to talk about my stupid job and what I do in front of a bunch of university students on Tuesday#i spend 4 hours a day commuting (it'd be 3 hours but let's be realistic with the train situation)#it makes me want to die#for 7 hours in the office I'll be out for 11 hours#or you know. 12 to 15 hours considering the endless possibilities of train fuck ups#in overcrowded disgusting trains with heavy bags and this stupid screen that's bigger than my torso#i refuse to drive though. driving is the only thing worse than taking the train.#also i guess work will be quite annoying too after my 2 days off#i can see myself working 10 hours of overtime again#and the week after will be even worse#but then there will be one chill week so yay for that#void screams#i need to stop talking so much on here
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so I decided to shell out the cash for the digital release of Marble Hornets and, in season 1's readme, the timestamp for Entry 16's approximate start time was drastically off (the listed start time, if skipped to in VLC, starts partway through it??) so, since it doesn't come with subtitles and I have found the individual video subtitle files someone so kindly uploaded to the internet and am putting together those files using the timestamps to figure out when each entry starts to add subtitles to my copy of the digital release, I decided to fine tune the rest of the start times because I noticed that some entries had slightly late or early subtitles if I based it off the readme's timestamps. Entry 16 is currently the worst in terms of the word "approximate" doing some really heavy lifting, because it was at least a minute off. Most of the ones right after a TTA video are a few seconds early at least (as in they have the last seconds of the TTA video play)
#oh the things I put myself through in order to be able to easily watch Marble Hornets with my audio processing issues >_>#at least I'm learning skills maybe#I could've given up a while ago. I feel like Sunk Cost Fallacy is all that's keeping me working on getting working subtitles for season 1#not even getting paid for this shit I'm literally just doing this for my own sake LMAO#at least I can listen to music while doing it I guess#and it's teaching me stuff about VLC and subtitles that I wouldn't have learned otherwise#first roadblock I encountered was that for some reason from Entry 15 onward the subtitles didn't apply to the file the first time.#then I noticed Entry 16's timestamp was COMPLETELY WRONG (noticed because the subtitles were DRASTICALLY off-timed)#and I've had to manually go through and check each and every timestamp I'll personally need. it's hell out here man.#I'm probably going to have to do all this for Season 2 and Season 3 too *cries*#...I wonder if I could put 'put together some subtitles files for the digital release of Marble Hornets' on my resume. probably not.#I have wasted so much fucking time on this. Troy Wagner. if you fucking see this post I'm filling your brain and shoes with gravel /j /nm#robin screams into the void#I just realized that 'fuck' is my most used swear word. counting this tag I've sworn 5 times and 4 of them are 'fuck'#also I am writing this instead of working on the subtitles so I'm procrastinating a little I guess haha
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hi sof!! even though you aren’t continuing w diver down (understandably) i thought you might like to know that i still listen to it regularly, it’s always on repeat and i just love your voice and brain and ugh <33 love you forever
THIS IS SO SWEET THANK YOU 🥹 i never imagined that anyone would subject themselves to my ramblings willingly but to hear that people genuinely enjoyed doing it???? unreal. thank you thank you THANK YOU
i am pondering doing a bit of an overhaul and reviving the podcast in a different format somehow….idk if i’d just do another deep dive for a different show or if i’d talk about a different piece of media every episode or so or what. but something might have to happen at some point that’s all i’m saying. my insanity continues to know no bounds
if y’all wanna send me some suggestions, please feel free!
#showing up on someone’s spotify wrapped is so wild to me i can’t believe that’s real#thank you again 🥰🥰🥰#diver down pod#i could see myself doing an entire episode on how to transition an obx fan to loving x piece of media#and then doing deeper dives on each of those things#but this pod started bc i needed to talk to myself about obx and i fear i’m at a similar place with csm now#if i revive the pod and start talking about animanga i do not expect any of y’all to keep listening btw#i WILL try to drag y’all onto the train but i completely get if you were here for obx only#i’m so grateful to all of you for making my screams into the void way less void-y
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I finally managed to finish The Silt Verses.
And I’m okay.
And it only took, what, seven years after that TBTP “Mid-Season” “Finale,” to do that?
Yeah.
#I mean as much as a silt verses listener can be#actually not the most fucked up podcast by that bunch I am In Eskew was great but so disturbing i DNF#tbtp#the black tapes podcast#tbtp fandom#not tagging the tsv fandom here#because the podcast is very good and I’m enjoying the fandom but I’m not active in it#and this isn’t really so much about the show as it is about my bitching#anyway go listen to The Silt Verses if you like horror podcasts it’s superb#just be warned that the ending while excellent is a gut punch though I mean that in a good way#oh and?#TERRY FUCKING MILES#see? that’s how you do a meta-arc in an audio drama#and call Paul Bae Terry thank him for making your show good#so anyway I’m gonna go scream into a void some more if anyone needs me
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ugh i kinda wanna get back on tumblr and rot my brain out some more
#i’d probably mostly just still bitch about my family tho#and then dish n overthink on the polycule expansion pack that just dropped#kink club tales abound#didn’t see that one coming#still unemployed#broker than ever#paranoia is consistently present but manageable#social anxiety is getting lesser every day tho!! making friends is awesome and cool and epic#okay time to bitch about the fam#the level of misogyny/transmisogyny is ASTRONOMICAL since my moms bf moved in#like he’ll deadname/mispronoun ems and he didn’t even meet her until#until recently and she’s been transitioned for over two years like buddy you do not get the benefit of the doubt with a little ‘slip up’#here. you are being a malicious piece of shit on purpose!!!!! at least don’t be a pussy about it!!!!!!!#also big kudos to my mom on sharing ems dead name. really fucking classy.#my cats and my girls tie my sanity together with a spider’s spinner#thin and invisible they weave the net around me to keep me safe until i can pluck up the courage to get us the fuck out of here#should be able to pass a drug test soon so that opens up my application options a lot. i feel confident that i’d be able to hold myself#together long enough to get enough cash to put a security deposit down somewhere in the city#extra friends means the chance for roommates too!!!!!<333#only if i can be chillin in the nude in front of them tho. chances now are looking dece lol#ugh i’ve been manic dramatic for long enough tonight#hopefully it’s only the void i’m screaming at. i’m so damn lucky to have all that i have rn. especially the friends.#stick together with your local faggots and trannies always#ALWAYS<33#signed dogweed
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lightly bullying my 3 yr old goddaughter on the phone because she's apparently forgotten how to say hello to me if she can't see my face
#last time i was sent ''hello uncle joshy'' videos i got three in a row because she couldn't get enough of waving to me#this time i got ''can you say hi to uncle joshy?'' ''i can't see him?'' ''it's a video because he can't be here!'' ''.... no i can't do it''#but 🥰 i get to see her n give her a big cuddle on saturday 🥰 and i have lil spidey & bluey presents for her#i spoil this kid rotten it's embarrassing#jay screams into the void
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#argentina saw trump and went ''yeah we want one of those!''...#this absolutely insane man might become president and fully ruin the country (more than it already is)#which is never fun but even worse when you're queer...#today i'm glad i'm living with dysphoria every day but haven't started T#because as sad and absolutely awful as what i'm about to say is...#i can pretend to be a cis woman for safety...#which is a HORRIBLE thing to say or do#but i don't have to put myself out there trying to get hrt or anything like that#or legally change my name and gender mark while looking like i look... that might get me killed or something#bare in mind everything i'm saying A. hasn't happened yet#and B. is being said by someone with an anxiety disorder who can't see hope right now... so take it with a grain of salt#i'm just scared and i don't like the state of the world right now...#and we were somewhat safe in some aspects here and we're so close to losing them now#i'm scared and hate it here but i'm also broke and can't leave so...#we are where we are where we are i guess#angel talks#personal#sorry for the politics... i'm not going to start posting politics#the point of my blog is to escape the hell that is the real world... but i needed to vent and also you know me i love screaming at the void
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I just realized I'm gonna have to start posting art here again. Devastating.
#insta DOESNT allow you to opt out#neither does twitter and also i have always hated twitter#and noe tik tok is gonna be gone#tumblr doesnt even allow for the format i LIKE TO DRAW IN#LIKE IT DOES BUT EVERYONE HERE HATES THAT#my creative outlets are being shot in a back alley rn#was the ai frenzy mot enough#im abt to be so sad abt this man...#all my tt mutuals were so sweet and kind i love them im gonna MISS THEM#I wonder if ill never see Spud or Raine again 😭😭#like i was so comfy posting all my shitty lazy doodles and everyone was just happy to have that#and here i frel like i need to finish stuff and yeah yeah its all abt enjoying your work but also it feels Bad when soemthing gets 20 notes#versus the amount of shares/comments i get on tt#like ppl actually TALK to me there#this is just me screaming into the void abt it bc obviously the ban will be us losing SO much more privacy than that#I might not even have Here anymore and i just dunno what id do with that 😭
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maybe this is a controversial take but it’s wild seeing people in entertainment/the arts talk about having to build a social media platform to make a career as if it is not literally exactly how it has always historically been done (excluding publishing b/c that’s a different ball game). like there was never a time where things were a pure meritocracy and you could just sit around and be talented and have people throw money at you unless you were a nepo baby or an aristocrat or something (to clarify, being able to paint all day while getting paid for just existing is indeed my dream life I wish that world existed.) the entire concept of portfolios for artists or crediting for game devs is just building up a reputation/brand. do I hate it so much all the time and want there to be an option that doesn’t exploit people and grind them into a fine dust beneath the wheels of capitalism? Yes for sure. The concept of UBI to allow people to pursue the true endeavors of a human soul lives rent free in me at an atomic level. But having to create a TikTok presence is just the latest iteration of shmoozing to me it’s not a unique evil. We’re all just seeing how much goes into it for once.
#mine#void screams#<- new tag for my half baked discourse that u can block if you don’t want to see me clinging to my philosophy degree for dear life#idk I was watching a Cody Ko video of all things and he was talking about being a DJ#the Duke frat boy truly doesn’t ever leave u#and he mentioned how people don’t credit all the time and luck he’s gotten on the internet as having anything to do with him getting sets#and like. so true king. whether or not it’s ‘fair’ is a dif question#but I do think people assume overnight success is a literal overnight thing#when really it’s just that success is not linear#and involves so much goddamn luck and knowing the right people#it’s fucking frogger out here
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