#saying that literally everyone just calls me gwen and is welcome to

[gregmarriage]

sooo funny of me to wanna change my name in the middle of a breakdown imaoooo

say hello, for i have become generieve

[sweetbunanarchy]

FUCK IT vent story bc yeah I’ve reconnected with people, found new n better friends and all that great stuff but what happened will forever be in the back of my mind bc I feel like I never truly got to talk about it in detail when I HAVE talked to other people about it so fuck it here we go it’s a lot n a trigger warning for tbh a lot of things such as the mention of: pedophilia, incest, bestiality, and even fuckin racism I really do apologize in advance bc FUCK it’s a lot but this is just trying to get as much shit off of my chest as possible so here we goooo:

  Rolling back to the late 2010s, I’m starting high school as a freshman and I follow a certain fnaf artist that (used to be) on here I enjoyed like many others did at the time. Through this artist I find someone who’s art I also enjoy and somehow we end up becoming mutuals! Over time I enjoyed their work n them enjoying mine and after a while, time goes on and I meet new people online thanks to a story and their (at the time) gf had made where anyone could make a character n come on in. Remember when I mentioned the fnaf artist, TURNED OUT they were a piece of shit and was doing a whole bunch of shitty things to other people. It got to a point where this friend had a break down and I remember TO THIS DAY coming to comfort them n to this day....I fuckin regret it. More time goes on and lookat that I’m a sophomore now! The friend n gf now have a server for their story and everyone’s welcome. I remember having the time of my life being in a friend group for the first time, yeah there were ups and downs at times but for the first time I actually was somewhere where I felt like I fit in (or at least what I thought was fitting in at the time)   Time goes on and the server kinda just died down, which yeah is something that happens everyone has lives to live and things to do I mean hell I had to move around and adjust to shit around this time. But this is where things started to shift. It’s the day before my graduation and oh hey look at that IT’S MY BIRTHDAY! My...18th birthday, which meant I was able to finally get into my friend’s server for their own work which was you guest it, 18+! Now, I was a good kid for the most part and didn’t care for seeing sexual shit, in my mind I was just ready to see more of my friend’s work bc I LOVED it. But the first red flag should have been them immediately adding me into their server right as I LITERALLY just turned 18. But as many freshly turned 18 year olds would think, oh I’m of age now so ofc I’m mature now- WRONG. Brother in christ I never felt so uncomfortable in MY LIFE. So now as I go into this server n I’m IMMEDIETLY smacked with certain content with certain word I cannot say bc I don’t know how strict tumblr is with sayin’ shit like twitter is- But AY IT’S OKAY RIGHT? I’M GROWN NOW I CAN DO WHATEVER I’M SUPPOSED TO BE ENJOYING THIS RIGHT? YEAH- no. And it took me forever to realize that. I will admit I have this issue of validation and bc I was settling into this new part of the friend group with other people that were FUCKING OLDER THAN ME, I ended up kinda just burning myself out w/ drawing bc I really just wanted to fit in and I wish that was the worst of it but NOPE there’s more n let’s start with the shit that happened in the server: -People fetishizing trans bodies including things like “f*tanari”, and literally calling it sometimes “tr*p” content -Certain content of characters (Sailor Moon, BNHA kids, certain Pokemon rivals/trainers, Spider-verse Spider Gwen etc.) WHO ARE MINORS being shared like it’s nothing! One time I even pointed out Usagi was 14 and what happened? The friend WHO OWNS THE FUCKIN SERVER JUST LAUGHED N BRUSHED IT OFF LIKE IT’S NOTHING -”Banned” bestiality but- no lets put this into story form: One time ppl were talking about monster hunter and someone chimed into the conversation. As the conversation ended one of the other people decided to post porn of a the hunter and the monster and if you seen the monsters...

...yeah. Dude that chimed in left and they just laughed about it... -But what was the kicker for me was when main friend had something to share about one of their ocs and was like “Teeheeh idk I don’t think you guys want to hear it uwu” and people were curious...TURNS OUT BEHIND THE CENSORED TEXT WAAAS...lore about how their character’s first time was with her uncle....said uncle being an oc that belonged to their boyfriend... -The last straw for me was when incest was discussed AGAIN bc the oc species they had would breed with their children for you know pure bloodline bullshit or whatever and that was the moment I knew I had to leave bc other people wanted to continue to discuss it like it’s nothing. I was just frozen seeing censored text after censored text and it just kept going. I couldn’t do it so I left. I stuck around for so long after those 2 years bc I didn’t want to make anyone upset but I fucked up my own mental health in the process, making excuses for myself, telling myself “It’s your fault you looked in there. You knew what was in there yet you looked that’s on you.”  People checked up on me n I just told them I wasn’t feeling good and I’d talk to them when I was ready but it never came. Skip forward and HEY the first blacktober is here! I make myself a whole new acc, turn a new leaf and yeah I got a few scars but that’s okay! Some folks from the server followed me there, the gf still dm’d me checking on me, hey it’s all good now it’ll get better right? RIGHT? I post my deku and Tanjiro art n if you don’t know which ones...THESE ONES right?

And they BLOW UP like crazy! I never got that much attention before! And suspiciously I see a lot of people from the server suddenly unfollowed me, but ay that’s more weight off my shoulders it’s whatever! We’re gonna bring up the blacktober stuff later BUT time continued and I’m like “oh well maybe I can just talk to friend just to have some closure-” NOPE! One of my great friends who also ended up leaving had dm’d me n showed me that main friend had stolen a character, a character I made and her boyfriend just so happened to have a huge crush on (which was an obvious case of jungle fever but we not gone get into that part) I was SHOCKED, I shouldn’t have been but I was! At that moment I felt heartbroken, yeah she was a freak but damn I thought I meant something to you as a fuckin friend but whatever I guess. It made me realize how conceited and petty and fuckin childish she was. If no attention was on her she’d be PISSED! If she was having a bad day, the rest of the server would have a bad fuckin day! One time she decided to do an oc thing where people could have a little interactive thing with their own oc and hers, people put their info into the wrong channel and she had a hissy fit and canceled it. ....Like miss ma’ams we could just copy and paste it into the right channel it’s not that deep. Even would get so entitled and mad when people wouldn’t talk about or make ocs for her and her boyfriend’s stories. “It’s not that hard why are people so scared to make ocs for my world?” I UNNO MAYBE BC YOU SCOLD PEOPLE WHENEVER THEY DO SHIT YOU DON’T LIKE??? Like you can’t get mad when people don’t make shit for you when you barely do it in return. The closest she got to doing the same was having her persona fuck ppl’s ocs she crushed on or had PEOPLE THEMSELVES DESIGN ALTERNATE VERSIONS OF *HER* OC that could exist in every dimension or whatever. But Bun! It can’t get worse then that righ- YEAH NOPE IT GOT WORSE After sometime from cutting them off I would sit in my corner and think to myself “It’d be crazy if she broke up with her gf and things got worse” and wouldn’t you know it her now ex, and now great GREAT friend of mine dm’d me to talk things out They would tell me about everything that happened and how TERRIBLE she was, and I can’t go into details bc it’s not my story to tell. But at the end of the day she was a terrible person, some people left some people stayed bc they were just as weird as her, and SHE WAS THE ONE THAT MADE EVERYONE UNFOLLOW ME BC MY BLACKTOBER ART BLOWING UP. She accused me that I ignored her (even tho my dms were open n both other friends were dming me), I used her for clout which was???? bc at the time I wasn’t posting anywhere but her discord server and never even advertised anything so??? And even said that blackwashing was just as bad as whitewashing while also being black herself....CRAZY WORLD WE LIVE IN AM I RIGHT? Even the writing for her world got worse. If you’re working on a full on rpg maker fantasy game, don’t make a minitour race, make them enslaved and can only be freed if they marry humans and then call them fuckin FLAT FOOTS...Don’t have a sona, make her a highschool teacher, have student boys flirt with her and then oOoOoOoOo she likes to make them jealous by flirting with her husband infront of them OoOoOooOoOoO. And just...just DON’T HAVE PEOPLE FUCK THEIR FAMILY OR REALITIVES, MOMS, UNCLES, FUCKIN GREAT GRANDMOTHERS NONE OF IT THE FUCK IS ACTUALLY WRONG WITH YOU?????? ....Anyway at the end of the day it’s a situation I’m glad to get away from. Am I doing better??? Eeeeh dealing with new shit but ay whatcha gonna do. It just sucks I spent the some of the most important developmental years of my life in such a terrible place and if I could change it, yeah I would but then probably wouldn’t have met some of the greatest friends I have now. And the people who also ended up leaving and are still around me, I love y’all, I appreaciate y’all sticking around me, I could never blame y’all for what happened bc you were in the same spot as me and I’m glad we’re all healing and doing better <3 And if anyone inclduding miss queen bee- or well miss space mama sees this somehow...YOU FUCKIN SUCK, YOU’RE VILE, YOU AIN’T SHIT BUT A TAP DANCING, CLOUT CHASING PEDO AND I HOPE TO NEVER SEE YOU’RE PRESENCE AGAIN. FUCK YOU <3 but yeah uuuuuh...that it’s it for story time thank you for your time!

[themurderofcrowscollective]

(Because we can't stand sad merlin stuff, here's the bit I wanted to add! - Laeniti) As the years have gone by after that very moment where Arthur's world seemed a bit darker, he is now king. Arthur had set in motion to lift the ban on magic, allow the Druids to live closer to Camelot and welcome all who are different (not just magic-wise.) He has appointed Merlin as the Court Sorcerer but throughout the years Merlin no longer went by that name, only being called Emrys as he began to take up the Dragonlord title and become the most powerful warlock to walk the realm. Whatever friendship they had only withered away after that day, and for a while, Arthur only addressed Merlin as Emrys and Emrys only addressed Arthur as 'my lord' or 'Your Majesty'. Life was looking up for the Kingdom as peace was made and bans were lifted, and so in celebration, the townsfolk figured to hold a grand festival every year. This particular festival though, things were different. Arthur decided to attend the festival instead of staying cooped up in his castle, finally having some time to hang out with his inner circle of friends rather than only meeting them during council meetings or training days. The Knights were happy to see him too. Gwen and Morgana even attended too, not just for fun but to also give Arthur some news regarding Emrys/Merlin. During the years, these two have managed to get close to Emrys and have been giving Arthur reports about him. " He seems more miserable whenever Morgana and I speak to him. If I hadn't known any better, I'd say he's still thinking about the day you confessed to him. " Gwen mentions while Arthur drinks. " Mordred has been hearing his thoughts without saying anything and it's true, he still thinks of you, " Morgana adds on, " His nights are spent in tears every time I pass his room. " " Okay, okay. I thank both of you for this, but I can't do anything about it. If he has anything to say, he'll tell me himself. " Arthur looks saddened at the thought, his heart aching only for a moment. This doesn't seem to last though, as Gwaine stands up with a big grin on his face. " Emrys! " He jumps quite literally over the table and bear-hugs Emrys who looks absolutely miserable after staying in the castle for so long, but he accepts the hug. Mordred seems to have walked with him, as he jogs over to the table and smiles at Arthur before hugging Morgana as a greeting. Something's up and Arthur knows it. He stands up and approaches Emrys, his heart pounding as hard as the day he fell in love with him. He looked beautiful. " Emrys. " " . . . Arthur. " Okay something has definitely changed. " I'm surprised to see you out of the castle for once. " " Like I'd ever miss out on a festival, it's more surprising to see you here enjoying it too. " " May I ask why you changed your mind? " " Mordred convinced me to join the festivities, and... something else. " Arthur shoots a quick glance to Mordred who is already deep in conversation with the others before focusing back to Merlin. " You don't have to call me Emrys anymore, Arthur. " Merlin seems to be blushing like a maiden, biting his bottom lip and trying to seem composed but failing at it. Classic embarrassed Merlin. " Ever since that day... I... er... " He scratches the back of his neck, " I regretted what I said. How I felt towards you was... exactly the same, and I just... didn't know if I'd ever get a chance to talking to you without hurting you again. " Arthur is taken aback, eyebrows raised. What is this that he is hearing?? " I'm sor- " " Enough. " Merlin looks up in shock, did he say something wrong? " I- " He's quickly cut off by a kiss. Arthur wraps his arms around Merlin and doesn't let go, Merlin being trapped in the kiss. Everyone seems to be cheering, but the sounds fade away and everything fades to black. It's just Merlin and Arthur in the moment, finally embracing each other. Finally.

(@cinnabon-sweetroll-tiramisu)

"I cannot return your feelings."

"I don't expect you to."

"I'm sorry."

"...I know." – Prince Arthur and Merlin

[Arthur saw the sad acceptance in Merlin's gaze. He hated it. He hated it because he put it there. Right now he is prince, but maybe when he's king, if Merlin still loves him he'd have the courage to confess he feels the same]

[peterpan-ouat-imagines]

Request!!!

Hey you guys! Some of y’all have sent in requests which I am really flattered that you enjoy my writing and I am honestly SO excited to do these!  here is the first one that someone gave me and I really hope you enjoy it!!!  Also if you sent one and I haven’t responded, know that I have seen it, it just will not allow me to message you privately about it just publicly.  Anyway here is the first for @welcome-to-americanawritings​ !  I crossed some of it out so there wouldn’t be any spoilers for those who don’t know what it is about.

I love you, I hate you- Part 1

“Babe wake up,” I feel my sexy boyfriend nudge me speaking in his smooth English voice, “It’s time to start the day,”

My eyes slowly open and I yawn tired, “uhhh it’s 9am can’t we sleep in a little longer?” I groan.

“Get up y/n, the lost boys have already begun getting breakfast together I let you sleep in an extra hour,” he tells me a bit more serious.

“Come ere,” I tell him and he sits close to me as I start sitting up. I roll on top of him and start kissing him.

“Y/n, stop it we have to get going,” he tells me but I continue.

“Come on it doesn’t have to be long, you know you want it,” I tell him as I continue.

I feel his body start giving into it and move my hand down to his cock and begin stroking it slowly, “Okay just 10 minutes though,” he tells me.

He starts kissing me back as his dick hardens in my hand and he rolls on top me as our skin tangles.  He starts taking his pants off and I lift up my night gown and take my panties off.  I feel his hand on my pussy as he rubs it and I can tell we want each other.  Our physical chemistry is always the best.  I feel him put his large hard dick inside me and he begins kissing my neck as I lay my cheek on the pillow.  He thrusts harder each time and I can tell we are both starting to get close.  After a thrust he cums in me and I do it with him both of us moaning.

“Do we have to go out?  We could just do more of that all day” I smirk hugging him.

“Y/n, everyone has to do there part and that includes you,” he tells me.

“I’m your girlfriend, that should give me some ability to not follow everything that is supposed to happen? Besides the obvious that comes with being yours in physical and romantic ways of course,” I ask and bat my eyes.

“You get special treatment all the time,” he tells me and I sigh knowing he is right.

I get up and change into gray leggings and a green tank top and boots and go out to where all the lost boys are.

They all have already helped themselves but it’s fine because at least they aren’t rude about me not preparing it all. I get a plate and help myself to what I want. I sit next to Lee who was one of the newest lost boys here on the island that lots of the guys have been avoiding so I’ve been trying to make him feel more welcome. I smile and ask him how he is with adjusting and everything.

After we are done eating I help clean up. It’s the least I can do since I didn’t help in the morning.

Afterwards Pan announces that we will be doing target practice.  What this is is practice shooting arrows which is pretty straight forward.  If we want to take it up a notch we can put apples on our heads and have someone shoot it.  We all grab our apple and dip the tip of our arrows in dream shade which is this deadly black liquid that’s found inside thorns of these bushes.  It is insane how quick it can take a life.  

I start shooting and hit the apple each time.  A couple times I’m a little off but nothing too bad.  I get bored working alone and start asking others if we can do it the “funner way” as I call it.  Shooting it off the others head.  I know it shouldn’t be more fun but something about risking a life like that is so exhilarating. It’s an extremely adrenaline rush.

A couple people agree who I trust and know are skilled because it would be horrible if someone went just an inch or two lower.  Lee comes over and asks if he can join but we tell him it is too advance for him which is true.  He literally came here knowing nothing about survival instincts.  He never has gone camping or fishing or hunting we are teaching him it all.  Mostly me because none of the other guys are willing to help out.  I feel like I’m mothering him in the ways of Neverland.

I peek over and see him not being able to hit a single apple.  I go over, “You’re gripping the bow too tight,” I critique as I examine his form, “Also you can’t stand like that,” I tell him with his legs pressed together, “You need more of a stance, put your dominant foot in front and non dominant foot a step back.  That’s what I do at least,” I share and watch him readjust himself.

“Th-thanks y/n, it might help more if you show me,” he tells me.  I nod and come up behind him and grab his tight fist and tell him to relax his hand and then I slowly squeeze his to the point he needs and move his feet around kicking them with my foot.  I step back and he tries again and succeeds.

“There you go,” I tell him.  

“Thanks y/n, you’re really helpful,” he blushes.

“Anytime,” I smile softly and walk away.

We finish up target practice and as most days we just hang out doing whatever we want. I choose to go to mermaid lagoon to hang out with my friends there. As gentle and sweet as the name sounds it really isn’t. The water is a dark blue and there’s a lot of large dark mossy rocks and not a whole lot of light shines through. I’ve swam in it before and When I tried going to the bottom it lit up this bright glimmery light blue which freaked me out with how much it contrasted the above and I never went in again since. The merpeople are great but the place gives me the creeps a little.

“Y/n!” This mermaid Selena exclaims and swims over to me. She’s always so enthusiastic I love her energy.

Soon a lot of the mermaids swim over to me greeting me, “Hey you guys!” I say.

We start chatting talking about the latest gossip and I tell them about what’s new on my side, “Yeah there’s this new guy who came here last week, Lee. Poor thing he doesn’t know the slightest thing. He’s been needing my help teaching him everything,” I share, “He’s too afraid to ask the others for instruction. I tell them about this morning.

They all start to give me smirks as if there’s something that’s not being said, “Oh honey don’t you see? He likes you!” Alice says.

“Lee? Like me? You’re lying. Anyway I’m happily in a relationship,” I tell them.

“Does Lee know that?” Gwen asks.

“I mean… he should. I haven’t said anything about it to him but that doesn’t mean someone else hasn’t said it. I mean who would want to have Pan so infuriated by hitting or making a move on me?” I comment. They all nod agreeing with me.

“Just watch for the signs,” Selena tells me.

We talk for a while longer and then I head my own way.

I go back to camp where most people are hanging out and I join in. I go and hangout with all the other guys fucking around and doing stupid shit. It gets later and darker and I haven’t seen Pan at all since the morning.

“Has anyone seen Pan today?” I ask. Everyone says no, “I’m gonna go look for him,” I look around. I go in his cave and in his tent he does business in. He isn’t in either of the places. I go in the woods with a flashlight and head to his thinking tree, he goes there when he has to be alone but of course I would never step foot close. No one would. “Pan? Are you out here?” I shout. It’s deadly quiet. I know it means nothing but still I’m really freaked out. I head on back fearing something will come get me for no reason. I know he’s a big boy and can take care of himself though. He would tell me if he were going somewhere so I’m not worried.

I head on back to camp and hang with everyone again drinking and they start playing games with all the alcohol but I know if I have too much I regret it because of stuff that I’ll do or say that is not intentional. Of course no one here knows that because I have been drunk around them yet. I always drink to the point I feel it and then stop.

I watch as everyone else gets wasted making fools of themselves and I wobble off to bed making a somewhat discreet exit as usual. Pan still isn’t there and I start to get worried.

The next day I wake up on time putting on some clothes and yawn exhausted as I stand next to each of the other boys on the end. I hadn’t seen Pan since last morning which is really weird and starting to worry me. Felix comes around and stands in front of us to give orders.

“Where’s Pan?” Someone asks before Felix can open his mouth.

“He has business to attend to. He left last morning and will be back today sometime,” he tells all of us in his flat voice. I swear Felix tries to say as little as possible about everything, he’s so ominous it’s annoying, “Now are we going to talk about Pan or let me say what to do to prepare for breakfast,” half of us roll our eyes.

He sets us off in groups, “Lee, y/n, you two are picking berries,” he tells us plainly as he gives us orders. I get a bit uncomfortable after the mermaids told me about what there thoughts on it all was.

I go over to Felix as everyone disperses, “Is there anyway I could not work with Lee? He’s cool and all it’s just I could use a break from the new guy,” I explain avoiding the real reasoning for how I don’t want to seem like I’m leading him on.

He stares at me with expressionless eyes, “Y/n you have been the only one willing to deal with him. He is not good at anything which is why he has the easiest task there is. No one has patience like you for these sort of things,” he gets stern with me.

“Lee come on let’s go,” I tell him wanting nothing more than to see Pan and hug him. I need to see someone I love right now. I just don’t get why he didn’t tell me he was going on a trip.

He follows me into the woods and I show him where the berries are and which ones are good to eat and which are not. He stays really close the whole time and the awkwardness is kicking in. I watch him do it himself and we head back.

“Hey y/n. Can I ask you something?” He asks me not making anymore distance between us as I inch away some.

“Go ahead what is it?” I answer.

“Why do none of the other lost boys want to be around me? Is it because I’m new or something?” He asks and I don’t know what to say. If I were to be honest and say how he doesn’t know shit about survival instincts that would hurt his feelings terribly. And I’m too nice for that.

“It’s not that they don’t want to be around you. It just takes a while to find your place when you first get to this island. I was the same way but I impressed everyone by-“

“Y/n! Watch out!” Lee pulls me hard to the side by my waist as an arrow shoots through the trees.

I feel weird having his hands there noticing another sign as I was told to lookout for as he doesn’t move them, “Do you mind moving your hands?” I ask. Once they are lowered the awkwardness still lingers on my end but I try to look past it. I lean out and see two guys squatting in a tree with bows, “Really you guys?! You almost killed us!” I yell angry.

“Your bleeding!” One of them shouts and then they duck and head out.

I look and feel a pain in my upper arm and see it got nicked. Luckily they forgot to dip it in dreamshade.

“Ugh! This is a WONDERFUL start to the day!” I exclaim irritated.

“You really should soak that. There’s a river right where the berry bush was,” Lee tells me.

I roll my eyes, “I’m fine I can wrap a bandage just fine when we get back,” I huff and storm back to camp pissed off not paying attention to if Lee is keeping up with me or not.

When I get back I go to the medical hut where there really isn’t much besides bandages. I force my chin down on one half of my forearm as I get the wrap started. I wrap it tighter than I should that my skin squeezes out more than it probably should.

I come out and see that everything is getting started. Knowing Pan comes back today is the only thing that is getting me through. It’s just the annoying anticipation of when he will be here.

Everything gets gathered together and we eat. I hangout with Felix.

“It must be hard, Pan being gone,” he tells me.

“It’s only been a night Felix, I can survive without him, I did all those years leading up to now. I just wish he would have told me why,” I say sighing after the last part.

“I might know why,” he says quietly,“Im not sure why he’s there during the daytime but for the evening I know he’s been wanting to see this girl from London, her name is Wendy,”

[hiimsociallyawkward]

a servant of two masters

hi friends welcome back to me aimlessly ranting about merlin. up today we have 4.06 and this episode. wow. literally just the title gives me everything i need and i'm absolutley here for the chaos that will ensue. hi bestie @lady-ofmagic-andstars

i love them in their capes

i want a cloak

dude the 'oh it's not gonna happen' and then it happens trope is so dumb but i laugh every time

notice how the knights ripped off their capes

dude people are falling off of horses and out

MERLIN

ok ok but how is he injured. ik this is rated for kids but i really dk how badly merlin is injured. it looks like just his shoulder but he shouldn't be almost dying like his yk?

:,) arthru making jokes

ok but i love arthur taking care of merlin

alskdjflsadk them trying to make jokes to make each other feel better :,)

stop arthur. stop telling the truth merlin's not dying here 😭

bestie vibes only deadass

HAHA

a s s

side note, the site i get my screenshots from- this picture has 61 views while others average maybe like 10-15?? perverts HAHA just kidding

sok i'm actually really curious as to what merlin's injury is

alsdjf;lasdfjsaldfjsaldf merlin making the rocks fall

idk if it's jut the angling but i felt like the enemies were way too close for merlin to create an entire rock barrier. i don't have any screen shot evidence but so you're just going to have to take my word for it

ok but like who even are these men. they were working for morgana trying to capture arthur?

and what's morgana going to do once she has arthur? kill him and take his place on the throne? remember how well that turned out last time she tried that? no one wanted her. idk idk morgana is just confusing as to what she wants

pls die agravaine

haha strangely fond of the boy? there's nothing strange about it

ok i laughed but i also felt bad when morgana splashed merlin awake and flailed around like a fish

dude merlin is so snarky here and i'm HERE for it

ok i like the knights being competent. thank you thank you

and now they're riding back into camelot with their capes on? you're telling me they traced back their steps to find their capes, dusted them off to make sure that they weren't too dirty and didn't have any leaves or branches still sticking to it before riding back to camelot? iconic

poor gaius. ok he's the worst but he does think of merlin as his son and this makes me sad

ok i have a dumb question. do you think merlin understands whenever other magic users are casting spells? ok i feel like this is a dumb question now. but like, is magic a language? are all incantations in a different language, so when other person who knows magic is watching you- they know what you're trying to do and such? i feel like "of course they'd know" but i'm basing that assumption on hp where everyone knows that alohomora is alohomora and where everyone knows that lumos is lumos. but what about here? does merlin know what she's incanting? can he slightly understand it even if he's never seen/done it before? is magic a language like latin, and even if you aren't completely fluent, you and parse together things and make an assumptions?

arthur is just so sad here

i just, i have to have these here

yes bby figure out that we have a traitor

gaius is not slick in the slightest. yes. look at the traitor king

wow morgana being able to bond with the snake? i wonder how

ok question, does the fomorroh have some sort of loyalty to whoever calls them?

✨kill arthur pendragon✨

ok that snake going in his neck is actually scary

pretty castle counter: 5

btw this is actually my zoom background sometimes. it depends from call to call but it changes between this pretty castle and peeta mellark

G E O R G E

ok i've seen all the tumblr posts but it doesn't get less funny. the 'merlin's missing and we can't find him so we're going to replace him with another manservent dressed EXACTLY like merlin so arthur feels better' makes me chuckle every time

i would like to have that for breakfast

i like the loyalty arthur thank you. i love the loyalty pls. i love that they're friends. like, i love the romance but i love just people being friends too

ok this whole scene. arthur wanting to look for merlin because he has to at least try, gwen just wanting arthur to be careful and to come back to her, gwaine being buds. i love all the friendships in this and just yes thank you

ok ok ok ok ok ok ok ok i'm not at the hug scene yet but i know it's coming and i'm beyond excited

ok this sound track is so cute.

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another pretty castle scene

SASSY MERLIN PLS

ok ik this is dumb to comment on because i feel like it's not tremendously hard to execute but i love the differences that colin made in regular merlin and fomorroh merlin. it's the best

they say it later in the episode but i find it hilarious how bad of an assassin merlin is

dude pls you're pouring poison in front of EVERYONE else?

BOG MAN. ok guys i'm calling you guys bog mans now.

ASLDJFALSDFJS THE JEALOUSY SCENE

i am cringey but laughing at the same time you don't understand why am i this childish

ok but arthur is being so sweet right here. i feel like he's not trying to be showy in front of gwen, i feel like he wants merlin to rest and that's so sweet. he's so patient right here and i love him

i miss the gwen and merlin friendship actually

dude merlin is roasting gaius so hard today

leon geeking out over weapons is so cute. omg he's such a tiny nerd i love him

laskjflasdfj THIS SCENE. this makes up for the stew jokes that i may or may not still be mad about

i love that the knights LITERALLY turn a blind eye it's actually hilarious

LOOK AT MERLIN BEING COMPETENT?? HE'S SO SMART WITH THE ARROW RIGGING THING

it's literally treason leon pls and you're laughing you're the best 😭😭

i wish we had a pervical back story arc

ok i think it's dumb that i laughed when merlin ducked but i stand by that

ok why do i feel bad for arthur a little. he's talking abt some semi-deep stuff. not deep deep but like, he's trying to ask for advice from his friend, his close advisor. he would've never talked to merlin like this is season 1-2 but here he is, talking about trust. and MERLIN is trying to MURDER HIM. yes. i admit it's a little funny when i'm just watching merlin trip over things and such, but when i listen to arthur talking i feel slightly sad

literallly. merlin's passed out on the floor and arthur doesn't even think anything is wrong

gwen's face when she knocked merlin out is so cute

oop. why is arthur standing in agravaine's door way like an absolute robot

cyes arthur. figure him out

i hate agravaine. i just want arthur to be happy. he's only trusting agravaine because agravaine is family.

stfu agravaine 'you're all that's left of my dear sister' SHUT THE FRONT DOOR

ok there's a repeat of the castle from earlier but i'll spare you

pls this bath scene is so awkward. tt not being able to trust anyone anymore and we're laughing at merlin but arthur's talking so sad and deep

pls this bath scene is so awkward. that's all the notes i have

again, i miss gwen and merlin

merlin is MONCHING on those berries. i'm craving berries now

ok but like. yk that pouch that gaius is using to make the forromoh dormant? what if merlin tucked it in his neckerchief as a precaution. i'm just saying.

aslfkjasdaskdjf the tavern

yall why did merlin have to stop his horse to drink the potion

i want the knights to have a cool band name or smth yk what i mean?

i like that merlin is still a little in the camelot red. it's not the same shade but yk what i mean

HAHA LEON AND PERCIVAL BEING PUSHED TOGETHER. I JUST KEPT ON SCREAMING SUBTEXT SUBTEXT

damn morgana wants RESUKTS. i dont blame her

the frist interaction with merlin and morgana in the hut is so awkward. pls.idek how to comment on it

deadass morgana's dress is so pretty.

magic fight! magic fight!

stfu 'rightfully mine' pls

hehe there's a leaf in his hair

ok i feel like i should've commented more on the magic fight but idk bro

so ik that colin was in this whole episode but it really only just now feels like merlin is here and i think that's fun

arthur is the cutest. i'm loving this dynamic you have no idea. i live live live live LIVE off banter. pls

guys i'm sad apparently i can only put 10 pics in a post but pls enjoy this one pic of arthur right here 😭

ok idk abt you but i'd love to hear jokes abt brass

agaragvaine pls die already

YOU'RE SUCH A PERV LITERALLY

GO

AWAY

NOW

dude that last scene was actually really pretty and i'm sad that i can't attach it now

anyways thanks for reading my long ass rambles. but i'll be back next week to the secret sharer i'll catch you on the flip side

[merlinssaggyyfronts]

BBC Merlin Rewatch:

01x01: The Dragon’s Call

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FIRSTLY THE FUCKING DESCRIPTION LMAO “Merlin, a young country boy” COUNTRY BOY AHAHDHSNDH IF ONLY YOU KNEW!!! ITS LIKE SETTING SOMEONE UP FOR DISASTER BUT THEN AGAIN THEY WERE SO LIKE I MEAN-

aw look at merlin all happy and smily, walking into camelot like he isnt going to witness the death of his best friend/king and basically everyone he loves

LOOK AT HIM HES SO HAPPY!!! HE DOESNT KNOW YET

“like everyone, he must live and learn” yo shut ur bitchass up lizard man u literally tried to murder everyone in camelot that one time

“his name: traumatised 😍😍”

AH YES THE OPENING!!1!1!-!-! AHHH THE AMOUNT OF HAPPINESS I FEEL HEARING THE OPENING

fuck ur bitchass uther no one likes u

“i pride myself as a fair and just king” sir didnt u like basically kill ur wife... and thousands of peo- OH MY GOD MORGANA BB ILY

oh jesus okay hes dead um chile-

“when i came to this land” wait i thought he was raised kn camelot brb i forgot im an idiot wait,,, does this mean before this it was the du bois family on the throne of camelot?? also, mired in chaos? u mean like.... before ur wife died and everyone was living peacefully? ....okay

“merlin, seeing a person who's been stated had been studying magic get beheaded: [a magical being himself] ah,, welcoming.” -my gf

“since the great dragon was captured” ....so did no one think about where they put a dragon?? a captured one at that. ud think he’d be more smart but nah he just left a random ass dragon under his castle like THAT is going to end well

YUHH MARY COLLJNS HATE HIM!!! YELL BABEY YELL!!! “you took my son!” YES MURDER HIM OMG I CAN FEEL HER PAIN

“a son for a son!” omg why couldnt u have killed uther bb ur the perfect villain i love u ur literally just a loving mother i-

OOOOO GAIUS

.....why is there a bunny mask in there

why is thERE A BUNNY MASK-

why didnt merlins eyes glow when he dragged the bed to gaius to save him

also whats this slomo magic why didnt he do this after this why did season one haveso much magic and like every other season was just everyone throwing it back

like i get instinctual magic but like.... if its instinctual wouldnt it happen more especially when his powers get stronger-

gaius: what did you just do?!

also gaius, five seconds later: i know what it was!! i just wanted to know where you learned it

merlin: 😐

merlin, about his magic: i was born like this

gaius, who knows full well warlocks exist: impossible!

(are warlocks naturally born knowing how to use magic without learning? i mean if u have to learn magic like a sorcerer then whats the difference between a warlock and a sorcerer cuz wouldnt sorcerers atleast have to have some magic in them to actually cast spells? am i dumb or do i just not get it)

wait so merlin arrived in camelot on a wednesday

merlin, walking into camelot: it is wednesday my dudes

merlin: [witnesses an execution] aaaAAAAAA-

“someone that might help him find a purpose of his gifts” oh honey he’ll get something mUCH LARGER THAN THAT-

—

oH MORGANA

SHUT UR BITCHASS UTHER SHE WILL KILL YOU-

“the more brutal you are, the more enemies you’ll create” oh the waY SHE PREDICTED THEIR FUTURE OO

ah bless u lady helen/mary collins we love them spicy villains

...why do you have a dressing table in a tent

[watches mary collins murder lady helen] i never snitch on dadd- ...someone pls delete me

merlin, about his instinctual magic: i just do it!

gaius: ...lord have mercy what did i just sign myself up to

what ever happened to sir olwen did he die from accidentally overdosing

—

oHHH THERE HE IS THERE HE IS THERES MY BOY!!! MY LIL PRAT MAN!!!!

merlin looks so offended, oh god i could watch this whole scene for HOURS

oooOOOO YES MERLIN FUCK HIM UP!!! SHOW HIM WHOS BOSS

“do i know you?” “im merlin” “so i dont know you” ugh theres already sexual tension

“i would never have a friend who could be such an ass” “or i one so stupid”

also them, ten years later: “i use my magic for you arthur, only you” “just hold me” “i cant lose him! hes my friend!” “thank you..”

“tell me merlin, do you know how to walk on your knees?” OOOOH THE BOYS ARE FLIRTING

NOT THE “would you like me to help you?” SIR YOU ARE FLIRTING SO INTENSELY AND DONT EVEN REALISE IT SIR DO YOU KNOW YOURE FALLING IN LOVE

im convinced atleast half the knights with arthur were like “ayo thas kinda sus bro 😳😳 ayo 😳😳”

arthur: tell me merlin, do you know how to walk on your knees? would you like me to help you?

merlin: ....i really dont know how to answer that

imagine being paid to throw fruits at colin morgan omg id be so thrilled

OOOH HERE COMES OUR QUEEN GWEN!!! MY LOVE MY EVERYTHING YES ILY

gwen: well, arthur looks like one of those, save the world kinda men... and you dont

merlin, 1500 years later, having failed his destiny: well i mean you’re not wrong

—

gaius: uther banned magic a long time ago

merlin, flabbergasted as if he wasnt raised on tales of the death of his kind every day in the kingdom right next to his: why?!?!?

gaius: the dragon is imprisoned where nobody can free him

merlin:

(that is the face of someone knowing full well hes going to free that dragon. look at him. he’s already made up his mind.)

—

[sees merlin and arthur in the marketplace] oh heres he is again heres the lil bitxh ooo theyre about to FIGHT

god hes flirting so hard without even realising it, oh my god

“i could take you apart with one blow” “i could take you apart with less” um sirs this is a mcdonalds drive thru 😃

arthur: ahah, you’re in trouble now~ 😏😏

i had to pause cuz wHAT THE HELL WHY DOES HE SOUND LIKE THAT-

—

....yall are yelling very loudly, um, arent there guards near yall? people passing by? please relax

“im just a nobody, and i always will be” OH IF ONLY YOU KNEWWW

“if i cant use magic, i might as well die” ....well, ive got a surprise for you-

“maybe theres someone with more magic than me?” like... a whole dragon? i mean if you say so 👀

merlin about why he was born like this: if you cant tell me, no one can!

a fucking dragon, basically every magical creature and the druids: WELL-

the camelot guards are so stupid how the hell is this kingdom still standing

how does kilgharrah know merlins name? in prophecy hes known as emrys (and we see basically every magical being call him emrys and not merlin,, i think). so how does he know? did he stretch his neck long enough that he could somehow hear merlin? is it cuz theyre kin? is it cuz merlin and gaius were yelling so loudly that kilgharrah could hear them all the way in his cave? ig we’ll never know 🖐

merlin: where are you?!

kilgharrah:

kilgharrah: without you, arthur will never succeed.

merlin: ....oh look, im already paranoid

the amount of sadness i feel hearing kilgharrah say “none of us can choose our destiny, merlin. and none of us can escape it” is INSANE cuz in season one you can SEE merlin trying to escape it. hes doing his damned best trying to have some control over his life. and then in later seasons you can see the light slowly drain from his eyes as he becomes just another toy for the gods to be entertained by. he realises he cant control a single thing about his life so he does the one thing he can: protect arthur. and he loses SO MUCH because of it! its not fair, he deserved so much, and when he finally got everything he could ever ask for, it was taken away from him by his own mistakes.

arthur, seeing morgana in a beautiful dress: god have mercy 😍

uther: .....um

the way they set arthur and morgana up as if they arent gonna make them siblings i- what the fawk 😄

person A, who knows arthurian lore: oh no! arthur is going to have an affair with morgan(a) and have mordred! oh no!!

person B, whos seen merlin: oh no in this show its worse

person B, knowing full well theyre siblings: much worse....

gwen: who’d wanna marry arthur? 🙄

-

gwen, getting crowned queen of camelot: well fuck

hhhnghnh yes queen sing them to sleep yes murder his bitchass (and fail but like its the thought that counts)

on a sidenote tho this is such a fun way to murder someone, id try this

the absolutely OFFENDED “FATHER!” and the horrified look in arthurs eyss when uther announced merlin would be his manservant is PRICELESS OMG

oh the way uther unintentionally plants the first seed of his sons love story omg 😍😍

Conclusion: this episode is a 10/10 greatest episode with so many iconic scenes omg. mary collins u will forever have my heart for unintentionally kickstarting merlin and arthurs relationship destiny. i loved the whole thing and oh GOD does it already hurt knowing full well how the show ends

[detectivereyes]

hi and welcome to jamie overanalyzes 911 lone star s2 trailer. this post is long and everything is under the cut bc of that and also bc i know there’s a lot of people out there who are trying not to see anything (which i wish i was you, that’s incredible) anyway if you’re like me and are losing your mind trying to make sense of it all... read below the cut

first just looking at the some screen grabs from trailer that i think are important to pull out

→ this has already been discussed but i’m pretty sure between this clip and the one where you can see the front side of the figures, that it’s owen and tim standing there (owen has the helmet on that says “captain”, tim has “paramedic” on his jacket)... this is important later

→ oh hey gwen

→ “one of our own died today” and it’s not owen, nancy, paul, or marjan... and my prediction that the figure that is comforting nancy is tommy... 

okay there’s not much to really dissect there.. i mean i could probably go shot by shot and give my takes but tumblr is already annoyed at how many pics i’ve uploaded and what people really want to talk about is that last note...

so which one of their own died today???

well we know for sure it’s not owen (they’re not killing off rob lowe lmao), nancy, paul, or marjan (unless the second two screenshots are just supposed to throw us off but this is confusing enough already so let’s just assume they are crying over whoever died)

we can also assume that it’s not tk bc of how much ronen posts, or carlos or grace since they aren’t firefighters. 

my initial thought is that it’s tim rosewater: mostly bc of the teaser trailer (see screenshot above) but at the time i really thought they weren’t actually going to kill anyone off. i also noticed mark elias was still posting. but now i’m not so sure. the main reason behind this reasoning is that nancy is shown crying, and she’s tim’s paramedic partner. of course everyone is going to be upset if someone from their house dies so nancy would be upset over anyone. however, she is shown in this trailer and considering she’s not a main cast member, i think that’s pretty significant. additionally, tim is also not a main cast member so he’s more likely to be killed off than any of the cast members who are. it sucks and i liked tim a lot so i hate this option but i’m going like 90% sure it’s him. but in order to explore other options, let’s dive a little deeper into other possibilities, shall we?

someone else mentioned that it could be michelle. i don’t really think it would be since they made it pretty clear that liv tyler couldn’t film due to travel restrictions. i also think fox would want to promote that liv is returning for one or so episode(s) if that was the case... then again other shows have successfully kept guest appearances secret so who knows really? it would make sense so i wouldn’t entirely discount it. it would make sense that nancy would be upset, and it’s a way for michelle to exit the show. but i hate that bc then the door is closed for liv to ever return to the show. overall i don’t really see this happening (mostly bc of covid and the logistics of getting liv to film...) but then again, i feel like it’s important to keep this in mind

besides tim, the character that makes the most sense would be mateo. i hate this option but this is where we’re at unfortunately. showing marjan upset? he’s also not shown as much in the trailer.. however i think you can see him for a split second at one point during a wildfire scene. if i remember correct, the wildfire episode is occurring around 2x04 (???) and the lava thing whatever you want to call it, is happening at the end of 2x01, into 2x02. so if that’s the case, and assuming that whoever dies is killed during the lava thing (yeah i just keep calling it lava thing..) then i think mateo is safe. please let me be right.

two other options that it could be but i find unlikely are judd and buttercup. judd isn’t shown in the trailer except for briefly during the lava thing (??? i could be wrong tho) but i also don’t think killing him off would make sense bc he’s connected to grace and also like he lost his entire team?? they spent so much time building his story during the first season that i honestly can’t see them killing him off so early in the second. and with buttercup... they can’t kill the dog. it makes sense but also it’s mean and i think it’s more implied that whoever died was killed on a call. i could be wrong here and maybe the lone star writers really do hate us but also i just won’t accept that.

finally, and one that i think is probable, the person who dies isn’t someone we know. all owen says is “we lost one of our own today.” of course one of our own could imply literally someone from the 126. but also it could just imply a fellow firefighter, since it is considered a brotherhood. maybe it was someone they teamed up with from another house and got close with? maybe it was a friend of judd’s? i mean hell maybe it was a floater they brought in for tk while he was on medical leave? we really don’t know but i think it’s important to keep this option in mind as well and not get to ahead of ourselves.

i love that we’re going to look back on this next month and be like wow it was so obvious?? we really thought that it could have been ___?? but for now i’m going to be losing my mind over here if anyone wants to join me. my official guess is going to be tim but i would love to hear what anyone else thinks!! my ask box and dms are open. 

edit, re the eddie/ryan theory: there’s some valid points but overall i don’t think this one makes sense mostly bc this death is happening on 911 lone star... if 911 was going to kill off one of their main cast members, they would do it on their own show. not in a spin off crossover episode... if only bc there are plenty of casual viewers out there that only watch 911 and would have no idea that eddie died. no matter how upset the network is with everything that happened with ryan, they can’t kill him off on a show that isn’t his, it just doesn’t make sense.

[avatarvyakara]

Strands of Webbing

A Spiderverse Fanfic

Prompts 313-324

“Solving Problems”

First | Previous | Next

313. Opening

It was one of those nights. You know the ones I mean. The wind howling through the empty streets, the rain battering down, flashes of lightning dancing across the sky—

“I swear it was sunny when I came here. And daytime.”

I was working late. A kid came by my office. Morales was the name, Miles Morales. Bright spark, this kid. He saved my life, once. Guess that meant I owed him.

“Uh, Peter? Are you okay?”

“Huh? Oh, yeah, yeah. ...no detours on the way here, right?”

“Hey, Peni comes here all the time—”

Peter stares at him over his glasses.

“...you know, it’s kinda weird when you—”

Peter continues staring.

“...no detours.”

Nothing on the Sixth Sense.

Peter nods.

“Good. And thanks for sending me a note before you came. So, what’s the story?”

Miles, as it turns out, wants someone to help teach his roommate Ganke how to fight a bit better.

And on that slightly anticlimactic note, I arranged a time and place for it to all go down.

“Do you have to narrate?”

“It’s the chair, kid.”

“Can I try?”

“...hmm.”

Was I expecting snow in May? Come on, man, how could I have been? But there it was—

“Out of the chair.”

314. Spontaneity

“Thanks again for covering for me!” says Ham over the phone. “You are literally saving my bacon!”

“Uh, yeah, sure, anytime,” Gwen replies, “but what do I do about the indestructible villains?”

Why did it have to be the Lizard?

“Ah, that’s just normal around here. Make it up! Be random! And most importantly, make it funny!”

Gwen is really not the kind of person to be funny on the job. Quipping? Fine. Practical jokes. Not that much.

She remembers a few cartoons, though...

“Pardon me, hideously deformed primate,” says the alligator with a surprisingly high-pitched voice, “but have you seen a Spider-Mandrill come by here?”

Gwen, in her street clothes barely covering her Spider-suit, can’t honestly believe this is happening.

“Well, I don’t know. Did she have big white eyes and a white-and-black suit?”

“Uh huh.”

“And did she jump around like this?”

“Uh huh.”

“And did she punch like this?”

WHAM.

(Even on the Lizard, she won’t risk a kick.)

“YoU goT iT eXActLy RIght,” says the Lizard, swaying on his feet and sparking slightly.

“Hmm. Sorry, haven’t seen her.”

Comedic timing dictates about ten seconds at maximum before the Lizard realizes and roars (aha) after her.

No trouble—she remembers another gag, and it involves a cell door and an argument about who is actually outside.

...okay, so maybe she’s having a little fun.

315. Washingtonian

“Welcome back, everyone,” calls Mayday’s Dad, as they all sit down. “Now, we’ve got a new member here today, so let’s go around the circle and introduce ourselves and why we’re here. My name is Peter Kaine Parker, and I spent a year of my life being possessed by Dr. Otto Octavius before I was rescued from the afterlife. It took a while to set things right, but I’m one step closer every day.”

“My name is Peter Benjamin Parker, and I was given my powers by an ancient Spider-God from Africa. It’s not the easiest life, but I have a lot of help and a lot of good friends to get me feeling better. Better than I have in years, truth be told.”

The young woman in a kimono starts speaking in what seems to be Japanese. The holographic translation screen in front of her reads, MY NAME IS HARAKA HIDA. I AM SLOWLY TRANSFORMING INTO A JORŌGUMO, A DEMON SPIDER. IT IS EASIER NOW THAT I HAVE CHOCOLATE. THANK YOU.

“My name is Mary-Jane Watson, and I am currently sharing my body with a symbiote, Carnage. It’s mostly okay, actually. Nice to have a group to count on when things get rough, though.”

“My name is Kimiko Peni Parker, and I watched my colleague and my aunt get eaten by a mech-suit that was supposed to help save the city. It’s been three years now, and I’m not sure how to get them out. But every day we come closer.”

Everyone turns to the newest member.

“Erm. My name is Ebenezer Parker, and I became the Scion Spider after accidentally intruding on a Hopi burial ground. It’s a long story. Nevertheless, I am...actually very confused, what is it we do here?”

“We talk it out and try to come to terms with the loss of control due to supernatural entities.”

“Does it...help? Is it like those temperance societies?”

“We like to think so. It might not be for you, but we hope you’ll stay for a bit.”

Mayday’s Dad looks a lot like his brother Richard...just, you know, older and missing a leg instead of, well, dead.

It’s nice.

“Perhaps it might be worth a try.”

316. Fortunate

yourefun

Aaron Aikman, the Kumojin of Tokyo, is absolutely certain he’s going to die. Painfully.

The ghostly figure is too quick. Too nimble. He shoots his taser-webs at her. She dodges. She punches. He blocks, but is thrown back. He swings at her. She kicks—

It burns—

BOOM.

Part of the figure’s head is missing, but there’s nothing inside. Just...white. Shapeless white.

aaaaargh

thatsnotplayingfair

Coming out of a hole in the fabric of reality is another figure in white—and black, and gold.

The ghost shoots webs from her wrists at it, trapping it and pulling it closer. Which just gives the figure time to set up something. Something that glows.

Another pulse of energy—

BOOM.

The ghost is gone, with a scream that fades away in the memory.

Aaron stares at the figure.

「You idiot!」 he shouts. 「What the hell was that for? You could have taken out half the block!」

「You’re welcome」 says the figure in white. It sounds American. 「I take it that I’m in Japan?」

「Tokyo. Now who are you supposed to be?」

「The Superior Spider-Man.」 The eye-marks in the white mask somehow come off as smug without actually really moving at all. 「And you are?」

「Kumojin. Also Supāidaman, I guess.」

“Well, Kumojin,” says the Superior Spider-Man in English, “I do believe you owe me.”

317. Initial

“I thought I was the only one. You’re like me.”

“I don’t wanna be.”

“I don’t think you have a choice, kiddo. Got a lot going through your head, I’m sure.”

“Yeah.”

“You’re gonna be fine. If you stick around, I can help you, show you the ropes.”

“Yeah.”

“I just need to destroy this big machine real quick before the space-time continuum collapses. Don’t move. See you in a bit!”

And somewhere out in the multiverse, Spider-Man gets the job done just in time.

Well. The older Spider-Man, anyway.

318. Reversal

“All we can do is try,” says Gray, quietly. “It’s been two years, Glory. This is the only way I know of.”

Peni stands in the background, a little unsure of how to proceed.

Glory Robertson—she could not marry Robbie, but she took his name regardless—balls her fists.

“You’re talking about a miracle, Peter Parker. And that isn’t fair, not on poor Robbie. Don’t give me false hope.”

“Mrs. Robertson?” says Peni. “May I explain?”

Glory looks at her like she’s not quite sure what to make of her. (To be fair, Peni is in colour, and people in these other worlds have such small eyes that hers must look almost bug-like to them.)

Gray nods, and puts a hand on her shoulder.

“She’s the brains here, Glory. I’m just the messenger.”

Glory sighs. “Heaven knows what a Jap girl can do”—Gray freezes and Peni doesn’t quite understand why, until Takara translates and she understands in a numb way— “but go ahead.”

Peni clears her throat.

“Um. How much did Gr—did Peter tell you?”

“He said you were from another world.” Glory chuckles, a little sadly. “Guess that makes you an alien, right?”

“Not exactly. But sort of. You see, where I come from, there are techniques used to lengthen lifespans. Some of them focus on damage to the brain, strengthening it and repairing it. There’s a lot of damage that can happen to the nerves in space, you see. We’ve got something like that at Osc—where I work, for damage caused by psychic transfers. And I think it could be used to fix what happened to your husband.”

“What’s the catch?” She sounds so defeated.

Peni and Gray look at each other. It’s Gray who answers.

“Travelling to this other world...it does damage to you. Not like...not like what happened to Robbie. Different. If he stays too long in the other world, he’ll start to fall apart. For all we know he might still worry about that for the rest of his life.”

“...but he might have a life.”

“Yes.”

All is quiet on the porch.

“I need time to think about this. Are you in town long, Miss...?”

“Parker. Peni Parker. And I have to leave soon, but I can come back just as quickly.”

Glory raises an eyebrow. “You’re related to Peter?”

“One way or another, she’s family,” says Gray, smiling, and Peni’s heart swells as he squeezes her shoulder.

Glory smiles too.

“Guess that says it all, really.”

319. Idol

Alright, one last time.

My name is Anya Corazon. I was bitten by a radioactive cult, and for nine months I have been the one and only Araña. Pretty sure you know the rest. I saved the city, saved it again, and again, and again...kind of forgot my family existed, to be honest with you. Beat up a few Wasps...killed a crime lord. My conscience is just fine, thanks.

And then the white Spider came around. I have to say, I didn’t like his attitude.

...but he helped me get back to my grandparents. I owe him big time for that.

(“Yes. I know.”)

320. Faith

Peter was just about ready to give up. What was left?

A kid who wanted to do this, that’s what. A kid who got the powers, and didn’t mess around—just went straight to saving the city. A kid who still had someone to save. A kid who didn’t just make him want to do better, but who made him realize that he could.

In so many ways, Miles saved his life.

321. Swap

“This is absurd,” complains the Raptor. “I was expecting Spider-Girl, not some pirate—OOF!”

Say what you like about Peter Pauker, he packs quite a punch when he gets enough momentum. And with how high he jumps, he can definitely get enough momentum more often than not.

“Apologies, miss,” he says, as they tumble out of the air, still throwing punches. “I would have preferred not—ugh—to fight you.”

“Glad you could—ow—overcome your biases,” hisses the flying teen. “Also, you know we’re still falling, right?”

Peter rolls his eyes behind the goggles, and thwips out a couple of webs on either side.

“Since when did Mayday get a cousin, anyway?”

Peter pauses. “Why do you speak of someone called Mayday?”

“Come on, dude. You look just like her dad. And given what Mayday does with her life, I’m not surprised that it seems to run in the family.”

“Wait. Are you or are you not a villain?”

“It’s...complicated.” The girl looks a bit bashful. “I haven’t told anyone, I swear. I just kind of don’t have a choice about doing this. Family business and everything.” She scowls. “Mom being the Vulture really does mess up my career prospects.”

“So your relations with Spider-Girl are tinged with friendly animosity, then.”

“...I guess?”

Peter grins. “That seems more than reasonable to me, miss.”

“...so why are you here?”

“Would you believe I lost a bet and had to take her patrol while she took the afternoon off?”

The Raptor snorts. “Knowing Mayday? Probably.”

322. Mitosis

“Don’t count on it working,” says Other Peni. “And be careful.”

Peter cracks his knuckles.

“Just gotta give it the ol’ college try.”

And he walks up to the bulky form of Ven#m. Not as nice-looking as Addy’s, honestly. And a cannibal at that. Joke about it though he may, he doesn’t much like cannibalism.

Peter doesn’t entirely know what he’s doing, but there’s always such a thing as giving it the ol’ college try.

(Granted, he never went to college.)

—what are you?—

“Me? I’m just a good buddy here to annoy you into spitting out my friend’s loved ones.”

The capsule opens, revealing a tangled mess of cable-like tentacles that snake towards him.

—is Peni so desperate that she’s sending in cartoons to aid in her futile endeavours?—

—hahahaa—

—don’t make me laugh, little piggy—

—we are Ven#m—

—what are you going to do?—

—“huff and puff and blow my house down”?—

Peter pulls out the matterhorn his niece Dahlia sent back from a trip to Switzerland.

“Something like that, yeah.”

323. Audience

She can’t help smiling a little at that.

Peter nods.

“Not really that big on musical theory, but I’d buy it.”

Gwen grins.

“You just like the name of the song.”

“Whether or not it happens to contain my wife’s nickname for me is beside the point. It’s a good song and you guys worked hard on it. They’re gonna love it back in your world.”

“What do you think?”

“Thanks, Peter.”

Peter B. Parker smiles too.

“Any time, kid.”

324. Adopted

whoareyou

He is still nameless. He does not want a name. He wants to join his sisters.

His sisters are gone. His sisters are alive. He is here. He is dead.

(Is he dead? How does he know how to speak?)

The man trailing red behind him like wisps of smoke sighs.

afriend

atleastidliketobe

ithinkyouneedsomeaboutnow

whowasthat

(How does he know how to listen?)

He bunches his fists.

mysisters

theyrebackintheWeb

andicantgettothem

The red being—red like he is colourless—puts a comforting hand on his shoulder.

yourelikeme

yourOneisgone

sotheWebisyours

andsoisthatworld

He gestures to the glittering globe in the sky in front of them.

thatworld

The world he knew from the moment of his birth that he had to find.

yourworld

youfounditsoquickly

imalmostjealous

soyouvegottwochoicesnowkiddo

gothere

orstayhere

He blinks in disbelief.

whathappensifigo

The man in red shrugs.

idontknow

ithinktheworldclaimsyouforitsown

likeitwillwithme

youbecomepartofitsThreads

butiveneverseenithappenwithoneofus

someonefree

maybethatsworthdoing

buticanttellyouifitssafe

orifyoulleverbeabletocomeback

Not come back? But his sisters are here!

whataboutifistay

The man in red sits upon the Web. He looks tired.

wecanhelpyou

meandmyfamily

showyoutheropes

weknowwhatitsliketolosesomeone

youlostyoursisters

ilostmyson

maybewecanhelpeachother

andyoudbeclosetothem

Every strand of his being cries out for the world in front of him.

...but his heart does not.

whereareyourfamily

The man in red looks up.

huntingrightnow

tryingtofindtheirOneWorldsandtheirOnes

notlikeus

wehavealreadyinheritedtheiressence

doyouwanttomeetthem

Maybe they will know how to reach his sisters. Or can help bring them back to him.

yes

when

The man’s face twitches into a small smile.

soonithink

ihavetowatchthemwhiletheyhunt

butinthemeantime

whydontyougogetyourselfsomebreakfast

And he pulls on a thread—

no

notthatway

illfindsomewheretogo

itcantbefar

If his sisters are the Web, he will not hurt them. Even by accident.

okaythen

dontgotoofar

andremember

dontthink

theyrenotreal

He tears himself away from the black-and-white-and-grey world before him.

whatis

Solus smiles, sadly.

myLonelySearcher

farlessthanwewant

Lissar goes to find some breakfast.

[bisaster-energy]

Among Us in Camelot

Can y'all imagine Among Us with the Round Table + Merlin, Gwen, Morgana like bruh

Leon would be unexpectedly really into like he'd host every game and everyone just lets him bc he's their trusted host

And every time someone calls a meeting cos "fuck theres a dead body" he just

And Merlin is almost always Imposter but no one is willing to vote him out because look at him:

And even tho he's obvious as fuck about venting no one really suspects him til it's too late so yeah needless to say he's good at faking tasks cos hello he does that all the damn time

And Arthur wants to know why there's no option to fight the imposter one on one cos "this isn't even a fair fight! I have no weapons!! I'm just minding my business then i get cut in half? Outrageous!!" He dies cos he refuses to try and escape b4 the imposter can get him lmao

Everyone votes Gwaine out cos that man is sus bc he's running around instead of doing tasks cos he's either lost or doesn't want to

He'll follow ppl around to make them uneasy on purpose and act all surprised when they all agree he's sus

Gwaine will call an emergency meeting and be like: I missed merlin sorry for the inconvenience and meanwhile Merlin was just sabotaging the O2 lmao

If he and merlin are imposters at the same time?? Lord Have Mercy.

No one ever knows when Percy is the imposter because he acts exactly the same whether he's a crewmate or not so no one sees that shit coming until their screens say defeat most of the time

Lance would feel bad about lying about being imposter so if someone straight up asked he'd be like "yeah I shut down the med bay sorry :(" and he'd just much rather be a crew mate okay!! Like don't get me wrong if he's paired up with Merlin/Gwaine they'll go all out but if it's just him his conscious will kick in

Elyan just wants to finish his damn tasks in peace and loses his shit when someone dies cos he'll be about to connect his last wire and some asshole will call an emergency meeting cos some idiot got themself killed like damn let him work

Gwen and Morgana destroy the boys whenever they play cos they're too fucking powerful idk what else to say honestly (the only thing is given the chance morgana will absolutely risk getting voted out for the chance to off arthur just to piss him off) they're chaotic but they're in a completely different league bc say what you will about Evil!Morgana and Posessed!Gwen but they suited each other and planned shit out so of they're both imposter they win every time

Leon: there's a traitor in our midst

Merlin, who was just fucking up the reactor: idk red seems kinda sus :/

Arthur: Merlin you bastard we haven't crossed paths once this whole time

Merlin: that's what makes you so sus

Gwaine: lmao

Elyan: can someone explain why the FUCK WE'RE HERE COS I HAVE A TO DO LIST DAMN IT

Percy: ?

Arthur: someone killed lance and no one was at the scene except me so being the model citizen i am I reported it

Lance: I still can't believe I was killed me I thought we were all bros ;_;

Merlin: no one finds it weird that arthur here was the only one there?? No one?

Gwaine: yeah that's pretty sus dude

Arthur: okay but you don't have all the facts

Percy: ??

Arthur: im literally the coolest one here so you can kill me off but the game would lose it's zeal

Everyone:

Arthur:

...Red was not the imposter...

And god forbid they let Mordred play because Merlin would set him up constantly skkakskaka

Mordred will literally be in the middle of a task in storage while someone dies in electrical and the first thing Merlin says will be: Green is sus :/ and Mordred, who was promised an alliance, just:

So yeah that's my take on how it'd go

Additions are welcome please i want to laugh

[silvermyfanwy]

Thanks for sharing the Merlin ask game and for the questions! Here are a few for you: 5, 7, 8, and 15.

You're welcome!

5: Gwaine. Without hesitation. In my opinion, he and Merlin have the best friendship of the series- cough cough they fancy each other cough cough possibly head over heels in love cough cough- and I think it was a real shame Merlin didn't tell him. After all, it was Gwaine he went looking for in eye of the phoenix, not Lancelot.

7: Merlin giving Morgana something to do with magic, saying he found it somewhere and wanted her to have it or something. Spell book, crystal, charm/talisman. I think she'd really appreciate it.

8: Elyan is a secret prodigy at leading like drunken chanty folk songs or something like that, the kind where everyone starts stamping their feet and yelling and grinning at the fire and their friends, the sort where you all start to contemplate having an impromptu revolution and storming a castle.

15: The misogyny. This annoys me so much.

For starters, the lack of women. For ages it's just Gwen and Morgana and they are pretty much the only recurring female characters. Morgana's super sexualised at the start and it's awful. All the dresses seem to be is a way of showing off cleavage which is COMPLETELY IMPRACTICAL, rather than being actual clothes. And probably uncomfortable and VERY COLD.

There are far too few women and nearly all of them are villanized at some point! We all know about Morgana, Gwen got cursed to try and kill Arthur plus she got drugged to cheat on him, Alice was possessed, Elena was possessed, Morgause and Nimueh were vile, Sophia was awful, Mithian was seen as getting between Arthur and Gwen, Kara tried to kill Arthur, the witch at the start whose son was killed, the singing lady, Vivian was such a mess I can't put it into words, Annis was briefly at war with them and I think the druid lady did something iffy if I remember correctly, nevermind the woman Gwaine was sleeping with at the end who led to Arthur's death, then the troll lady and the snake one, Isolde travelled with a group that hated Camelot. Only Ygraine and Hunith did ok and Hunith was mainly in it when struck with misfortune and Ygraine was dead from the start.

The representation of women, when there, is awful. There are some great bits with some of them, but these are nearly all cancelled out by other happenings later on.

Then there's Elena, who's transformation post-fairy inhabitation was genuinely insulting. Suddenly she became prim, elegant, overly-mannered and her change in accent and speaking style was actually painful because of classism, prejudice based on accents and stereotypes.

My final point is Arthur and his misogynistic language. It goes on and on and on, no one ever calls him out on it, not even Merlin who calls him out on everything. Did the writers seriously think that Merlin- Hunith's son- would be ok with Arthur being so vile about women? And being beaten by them? Being angry about being SAVED BY THEM?

Argh. It just makes me really angry.

Plus Uther being horrid to Morgana about fighting and what she wants and stuff, then him ATTEMPTING TO KILL GWEN.

As you can see the misogyny upsets me a lot .

I have no interest in the arguments of 'women weren't allowed to do anything then' or anything like that because it's bull and also THEY LITERALLY HAVE POTATOES AND TOMATOS HUNDREDS OF YEARS BEFORE THEY CAME TO BRITAIN. If they can have that, I see absolutely no bloomin' reason why they can't have equality between men and women, which I genuinely think this place and part of history had because of

the strength of the Celtic tribal past at that point -where equality was present

the lack of terrible Biblical translations coz no one normal understood the Latin and I genuinely think the priests didn't really either

plus if Christianity isn't present that gets rid of a lot of historical Christian misogyny as well.

Thank you for listening to my TED talk. Sorry if this wasn't what you expected!

[tomcat-acaphe]

CPR Masterpost

Roughly 54% of Americans know CPR. That is shockingly low.

So, for those who don’t know, only half know, need a reminder or think they know but don’t, let ya boy educate you.

Pre-Physical CPR: Remember DRS (Doctors!)!

D: Danger. Is there danger nearby? Oftentimes people go into cardiac arrest due to, say for example, touching an electric fence and getting electrocuted. Following on from that example, are they still attached to the electric fence? Is the patient still in danger? If they’re in danger, leave them and don’t do CPR. Still call an ambulance though.

R: Response. Shake em, shout at em, call their name, anything! If they respond with words, don’t do CPR. They’re probably just out of it.

S: Shout for help. You’ll ideally want as many people who can do CPR around as possible. ALSO, CALL AN AMBULANCE.

Physical CPR: Remember ABC.

A: Airway. Lay their head back and open their mouth. Make sure the airway is clear.

B: Breathing. If they aren’t breathing, they’re in danger. Lay your head down on its side near their cheek. Use your eyes to also look if their chest is moving up and down. While doing that, if you can’t hear/feel the breath after ten seconds, they aren’t breathing.

Please note there is also a thing called Agonal breathing. If they’re gasping like a fish out of water or not breathing properly, THEY ARE DYING. It’s a brain reflex, they aren’t actually getting any oxygen.

C: Chest Compressions. Start 'em. Do them until you either physically can’t or the ambulance arrives. This is why shouting for help is important. Compressions are very exhausting and if you’re not physically fit you’ll tire quickly and need to alternate.

Extra Note:

Sometimes, if you’re really good and really lucky, the person may wake up. Often this is temporary. Still keep doing compressions. If they become verbal and tell you to, quote enquote ‘piss off, geroff me!’ There’s a good chance they’re alive now.

How To Do Compressions Properly:

Place the heel of the hand on the breast bone at the centre of the person’s chest. Place your other hand on top of your first hand and interlock your fingers.

Position yourself with your shoulders above your hands.

Using your body weight (not just your arms, trust me, if you just did your arms you’ll get very tired very fast,) press straight down by 5-6cm (2-2.5 inches) on their chest.

Keeping your hands on their chest, release the compression and allow the chest to return to its original position.

Repeat these compressions at a rate of 100-120 times in a minute until either: an ambulance, you get exhausted or you feel slightly tired and have a friend who can take over.

If all this is too complicated to remember, don’t worry. If you put your phone on speaker, the person on the other end will walk you through it in real time. If you can’t take away anything else from this, please take away this fact.

Misconceptions:

Q: Do I have to do mouth-to-mouth?

A: Nope! In fact, I’d advise against it. Mouth to mouth actually does little to help the patient and is arguably detrimental due to an exchange of germs. Just stick to chest compressions.

Q: Do I have to sing Nellie The Elephant?

A: Also nope! Any 100-120 BPM song is fine. There’ll be a list below.

Q: Am I pressing hard enough?

A: No. Unless you’re pressing 5-6cm or 2.5 inches down, you are not. It looks weird and wrong, but that’s because you’re literally acting as their heart for them. If you’re questioning if you’re pressing hard enough, you probably aren’t. If you think you are, push a little harder. It’s possible and very easy to not push hard enough, but there’s no such thing as too hard. Push them so hard they make a hole on the floor if you have to.

Q: Oh no! I heard a rib crack!

A: That’s good! Oftentimes, the ribs have to break in order for you to actually have any hope of successful CPR. Don’t stop because you heard a rib crack. There’s no such thing as pushing too hard. There is such a thing as not pushing enough. It’s better to have a friend alive with a few broken bones than your friend dead.

Q: The patient is a woman and I’m scared that if she wakes up she’ll sue me for touching her breasts. Should I risk it and perform CPR anyway?

A: Don’t worry. You’re protected by the Good Samaritan Law. I’m not a lawyer, so if any one who knows the law could possibly fact check me on this personally, but the Good Samaritan Law states:

“The Good Samaritan Law offers legal protection to people who give reasonable assistance to those who are, or whom they believe to be, injured, ill, in peril, or otherwise incapacitated.”

So even if the patient does wake up and your vital readings were wrong, the law should be on your side.

If you think someone needs CPR, don’t question the legal trouble it’ll get you in later. Just do it.

Q: Don’t I have to check for a pulse?

A: You could, but breathing is much more reliable. Locating a pulse can take a while. (Sometimes people can only feel it in their wrists, some people only feel it in their neck. There’s no one guaranteed location. Everyone is different. Unless you know that person extremely well and know their best pulse spots fir some reason, (I’m not judging your friendship,) chances are it’ll take at least 30 seconds to locate a spot. This is especially hard when someone doesn’t have a pulse.) Breathing, on the other hand, is much more reliable and quicker to do, (10 seconds check, let’s say you were slow and took 2 seconds positioning, that’s 12 seconds max.) Time management is extremely important during CPR and every second counts. I understand most American places recommend checking for a pulse, but everywhere in the UK, (including NHS.gov and the British Resuscitation Council (used by all nurses and doctors as gospel, pretty much unheard if outside of professionals apparently?) My mum also said so.

Songs that are 100-120 BPM to sing instead of Nellie The Elephant: (Feel Free to Add!)

Sweet Home Alabama (Lynyrd Skynyrd) (100bpm)

Tainted Love (Straight No Chaser) (100bpm)

Through The Fire And Flames (Dragonforce) (100bpm)

Breaking The Habit (Linkin Park) (100bpm)

This Ain’t A Scene, It’s An Arms Race (Fall Out Boy) (100bpm)

Dancing Queen (Abba) (100bpm)

Hips Don’t Lie (Shakira) (100bpm)

Gives You Hell (All American Rejects) (100bpm)

Icicles (The Scary Jokes) (100bpm)

Rock Your Body (Justin Timberlake) (101bpm)

Steppin’ Out (Joe Jackson) (101bpm)

Welcome To Tally Hall (Tally Hall) (101bpm)

Cecilia (Simon and Garfunkle) (102bpm)

Semi Charmed Life (Third Eye Blind) (102bpm)

99 Luftballons (DDR) (102bpm)

Stayin’ Alive (Bee Gees) (103bpm)

Stronger (Kanye West) (104bpm)

All Star (Smash Mouth) (104bpm)

Hard To Handle (The Black Crowes) (104bpm)

Rolling In The Deep (Adele) (105bpm)

Good Day (Tally Hall) (105bpm)

Are You Gonna Be My Girl (Jet) (105bpm)

Numb (Linkin Park) (107bpm)

Set Fire To The Rain (Adele) (108bpm)

Stronger (Britney Spears) (108bpm)

Eye Of The Tiger (Survivor) (109bpm)

Just The Way You Are (Bruno Mars) (109bpm)

Hollaback Girl (Gwen Stefani) (110bpm)

Another One Bites The Dust (Queen) (110bpm)

Till It’s Over (Tristam) (110bpm)

Grenade (Bruno Mars) (110bpm)

Never Gonna Give You Up (Rick Astley) (113bpm)

Under Pressure (Queen and David Bowie) (113bpm)

Banana Man (Tally Hall) (113bpm)

Two Trucks (Lemon Demon) (114bpm)

Uptown Funk (Mark Ronson and Bruno Mars) (115bpm)

What Doesn’t Kill You (Kelly Clarkson) (116bpm)

Once In A Lifetime (Talking Heads) (117bpm)

Call Me Maybe (Carly Rae Jepsen) (118bpm)

Don’t Stop Believing (Journey) (118bpm)

Bad Romance (Lady Gaga) (119bpm)

Just Dance (Lady Gaga) (119bpm)

Poker Face (Lady Gaga) (119bpm)

Tik Tok (Ke$ha) (120bpm)

Teenage Dream (Katy Perry) (120bpm)

DJ’s Got Us Falling In Love Again (Usher) (120bpm)

Revenge (Captain Sparklez) (120bpm)

If you want to check your favourite song is one you can use but it’s not here, go onto the website tunebat.com and type in the title. It will tell you the BPM and other fun facts like what key it’s in.

Sources:

http://www.nhs.uk/conditions/first-aid/cpr/

http://www.resus.org.uk

My Mum (Registered Band Six District Nurse (Going for Master’s Degree currently.)) (She read and fact checked this for me. Thanks, Mum!)

http://tunebat.com

My own knowledge having this drilled into me from a young age. (From sources above, especially ‘My Mum.’ You can’t find that website anymore.)

[ghostburs-blue]

Lost and Found

Part Nine

Summary: Aiden’s family is big mean (again), and the avengers are a great fam

Warnings: pretty much only fluff i think? angst if you squint

Word Count: 3.1k

The months leading up to Christmas were busy and stressful for both Peter and Aiden. Aiden trained every day for three hours after school with whoever was available (generally Bucky), then finished homework with Bruce, Tony, and Peter. Her and Peter were like the babies of the Avengers family; even Rocket cared about them.

Aiden and Peter both joined the academic decathlon team, and Aiden had decided to pursue photography for the school newspaper as well. Peter was still busy with Spider-Man, and would always come to Aiden when he had minor cuts and bruises.

Relationship wise, the two were doing extremely well. No matter how busy one or the other was, they would always make time for their Saturday night movie nights together, prefaced by dinner at their favorite Thai restaurant. 

Aiden would leave home at 7 in the morning and get home at 10, and she would have it no other way. She felt less and less connected to her parents, and many nights she even slept over at the tower. She could feel the tension rising between her and her parents, but didn’t think much of it. Their relationship was becoming strained, and Aiden simply couldn’t pinpoint why. It was like they were extremely stressed about something that they refused to acknowledge. Until one night, that is.

Aiden had just returned home from the tower, and she was exhausted. Peter and her hadn’t had much homework, so Natasha had them fight against each other for the better part of half an hour. Before that, Bucky had done a harder, longer training session on Aiden, and by the time she got home, it was close to midnight.

Her parents were sitting in the living room, watching the nightly news. It was strange; they never waited up for her and barely acknowledged her presence, so why were they here now?

Aiden dropped her bag on the ground next to the door and carefully slid off her shoes. Her parents turned at the sound, and her mother’s face broke into a frown. 

“Aiden, finally. It took you long enough, didn’t it?” Her mother said, her tone laced with anger. Aiden opened her mouth to say something, but was cut off by her mother lifting her hand. “No, it doesn’t matter now. We just wanted to tell you that you can’t go to the internship tomorrow; you must come home directly after school.” Aiden simply looked at her, confused. “Aiden, T-” she paused, taking a breath. “Tom is coming over tomorrow for dinner with his fiance. He told us the news a month ago. Now pick up your crap and go to your room,” she snapped, while Aiden stared in shock.

Tom? Tom was coming over tomorrow?

What kind of illogical bullshit is this? She thought to herself. Nevertheless, she shook herself out of her stupor and headed to her room, grabbing her backpack to take back with her.

Sitting down on her bed, she shot a quick text to the Avengers group chat.

The Fam With A Plan

The Godfather, Spidey-Boy, Fox Guy, America’s Ass, +29 more

Thing #1

Hey guys! I’m really sorry but I won’t be able

to make it to the tower tomorrow :(

The Godfather

Alright, that’s fine. But can we know

the reason you’re not coming?

Spidey-Boy

Yeah, why aren’t you coming?

Thing #1

Um, well

How do I say this

America’s Ass

Kid, you’re making me nervous

Thing #1

Tom’s coming over for dinner tomorrow, and my

parents want me home right after school

The Godfather, America’s Ass, Spidey-Boy, +29 more are typing…

Bird-Brain

Oh my god I’m so sorry

The Godfather

That’s it I’m adopting you

America’s Ass

Text us through it all!!

Spidey-Boy

Aww baby I’m so sorry, I know how hard it must be for you

I’m always here for you!

The Rubberband Man

For once, the other Peter is right. We’re all here for you!

Thing #1

Wow I don’t deserve you guys thank you <3

Spidey-Boy

Always

Aiden smiled at the last text, then plugged in her phone and got ready for bed. She quickly threw on a pair of pajamas (it’s worth mentioning that they were her ugliest pair, with a giant coffee stain on the shirt and a huge ice cream stain on the shorts), and brushed her teeth.

Sitting in bed, she finally let herself think about the events of the day. Tom. Dinner. Fiancé. Training. Newspaper. Everything swirled around in her head, and it was too much for her.

Aiden started to hyperventilate, and her head spun. She was getting dizzy, and couldn’t see straight. Hands getting clammy, she didn’t even notice the body she was being pushed against, the voice whispering comforting words.

Remembering what Gwen had told her, she focused on the warmth emanating from the body that was holding her close; it was then that she realized it was Adam, her brother. She was slowly calming down, and looked up at him.

“Why are you here?” she whispered. He just smiled in response and pulled her closer.

Kissing the top of her head, he murmured, “I’m sorry. I was never there for you when you needed me and I guess I’m trying to make up for it now.”

Aiden broke away from the hug and half-heartedly punched his shoulder. “Dickhead,” she muttered.

“Bitch,” he shot back. They smiled at each other, then hugged again. 

“I missed you, you know?” She muttered into his chest. 

“I know,” he whispered sadly into her ear.

--

The next morning, Aiden woke up surprisingly happy.

Smiling, she got up, brushed her teeth, did her hair and makeup, and packed her bag. She threw on a yellow, red, and blue striped sweater with a high waisted peach skirt and a denim jacket that almost hit the bottom of it. Slipping on some brown boots, she grabbed a granola bar on her way out the door and headed to school. Adam and her parents were already gone for the day, and it made Aiden a little sad that she couldn’t say goodbye to her brother.

Reaching school, she immediately headed off to find Peter. Luckily, his locker was close to hers’, and Aiden immediately spotted the familiar mop of brown hair. Running over, she hugged him from behind and placed her forehead on his shoulder.

Peter turned around and smiled at her, bringing her in for a quick kiss.

“Alright lovebirds, break it up!” They turned to see Flash, MJ, and Ned walking over. Flash pointed at where Aiden and Tom were still holding hands. “I want no contact at all. No eye contact, no touching, no hugging, and definitely no kissing! Is that clear?” He said in a stern voice, causing the couple to double over in laughter.

Aiden slowly straightened up again, wiping tears from her eyes. She pretended to salute Flash, saying, “Yes sir,” in the most monotone voice she could manage. He rolled his eyes and grabbed her, ruffling her hair before leaving to join his group again.

Aiden simply called, “FUCK YOU!” after his retreating body, trying to fix her hair.

Peter stopped her, grabbing her hands and kissing them, murmuring, “Stop. You’re beautiful no matter what, baby.” Aiden smiled, then turned to face MJ and Ned, who both had equally disgusted looks on their faces.

MJ just nodded at them, saying, “Let’s get to class before we’re late.” The rest agreed, and headed to their first period.

The rest of the school day flew by much too fast for Aiden’s liking. Before she knew it, the last bell of the day rang, and she was headed off to her home. She noticed Peter getting into the car she normally would get into; he caught her eye and gave a small wave, making a small “call me” motion with his hand.

She nodded and smiled, blowing him a kiss.

About an hour later, Aiden finally got home. The minute she stepped inside, her parents yelled at her to go to her room and clean it. Sighing, she trudged up to her room to find a welcome surprise.

Steve and Peter stood there with a slight smile on their faces. They were both in uniform, with Steve in his Captain America suit and Peter in his Spider- BoyMan suit. Aiden dropped her bag with a thud, running over to hug Steve and kiss Peter.

“Hey Aiden, I-,” the voice stopped, and Aiden turned to see her brother standing in the doorway, eyes wide with shock and mouth open. He slowly pointed to Steve, then Peter, who had quickly put his mask on, although Adam had already seen his face.

“What- What are you two doing here?” He asked, confused.

“Well, um. You know the Tony Stark internship that I have?” Aiden asked, a little nervous. Adam nods. “Uh- This is kinda it,” she muttered, rubbing the back of her neck.

If possible, Adam seems to get even more shocked. He holds up a finger. “One se- second. I’ll be right back,” he says as he runs out of the room. He comes back not even 10 seconds later, holding a pen and a piece of paper.

He hands it to Steve, muttering, “Uh- can you sign this please?”. Instantly, Aiden, Steve, and Peter burst out into laughter, clutching their sides.

“Adam, you can literally come to the compound if you’re Aiden’s immediate family. She has complete access to it 24/7, so she can bring you anytime you want to,” Steve said, still chuckling.

“Holy shit,” Adam muttered under his breath. Then, with a frown on his face, he turned to Peter. “Why was my sister about to kiss you as I walked in? And why does your face look so familiar?” He asked.

Peter shyly pulled off the mask and gave a little wave. “Uh- I’m your neighbor, Peter Parker. And, well, your sister and I have been, uh-” his nervous explanation was cut off by Aiden.

“We’ve been dating for a few months now, okay? And before you even say anything I’m not going to listen to you so you can just shut up,” She snapped. Adam frowned and crossed his arms.

“Fine. But I’m giving you the talk later, okay? And yes, you should be scared.” He addressed Peter, then walked out of the room.

Turning back to Steve and Peter, she smiled. “So, why are you guys here?” She wondered aloud.

Steve grinned back. “Well, we know the dinner is tonight, and we wanted to wish you luck! Everyone, literally everyone wanted to come but Tony wouldn’t let them. So, he sent us!” He finished.

Aiden pulled him into a hug, placing her head on his chest, listening to the steady beat of his heart. “Thank you, guys. It really means a lot, you know,” she said, voice muffled. Aiden felt another set of arms wrap around her, and she pulled back to grin at Peter. Wrapping her arms around his neck, she kissed him passionately and deeply, forgetting the world around them.

Peter’s tongue ran across her bottom lip, asking for entrance. She obliged, opening her mouth, and he pulled her closer into him. They stayed like that for a few moments, kissing with a burning passion and not a care in the world. That is, until Steve cleared his throat. They jumped apart, gasping for air.

“So, um, I think Peter and I are going to head out now, yeah? Text us throughout dinner, okay?” Steve asked, concerned. Aiden nodded, then stood and waved as they climbed out through her window.

As she watched Peter swing away, she whispered, “I love you Peter.”

Aiden spent the rest of the day until dinner getting ready. She cleaned her room and the living room, then put on some makeup and found an outfit. She threw on an emerald green floral maxi dress, taking a photo of her outfit and sending it to the avengers group chat, captioning it “does this look okay for dinner?” Almost instantly, she got responses from all the women (and Peter), telling her she looked absolutely gorgeous and beautiful. Tony and Steve both freaked out, telling her that she was too exposed and she should immediately go change into a pair of sweatpants and a hoodie. She laughed and ignored them, sending a quick thank you text to everyone who had complimented her. 

Before she knew it, the doorbell rang, and her parents were screaming at her to get it. Aiden texted “He’s here” to the chat, then grabbed her phone and made her way to the door.

She put on a bright smile and reached for the doorknob, hesitating slightly as she turned it. Then, she swung it open to find her brother and his fiancé standing outside. They were here.

Hoping that she didn’t look like she was grimacing, Aiden smiled wider, stepping back to let them in. “Hi guys! Come in!” She exclaimed, impossibly peppy. Taking the bouquet of flowers from his hand, she stepped into the kitchen, letting her smile drop for a second as she took a deep breath. Aiden raised her head when footsteps sounded close to her, realizing that it was her mom.

She offered a small smile, then gestured towards the bunch of flowers in her hand. “He brought roses, your favorite,” she said weakly. Her mother ducked her head, then raised it, looking equally sad.

“Yeah. Yeah, he did,” she said eventually, taking them from Aiden’s hand and placing them in a vase. It was then that Aiden noticed how tired her mother looked, though she tried to hide her dark circles with concealer. She had a worn out look in her eyes, replacing the normal burning passion for whatever she was doing that would give her a youthful appearance. Without a second thought, Aiden wrapped her in a hug, inhaling deeply. She felt like she was 7 again, free to live and laugh like she wanted. She wasn’t pressured about her future, and she had a loving family, with 2 brothers that doted after her.

Then her mother patted her back, and reality came crashing down on her. And it really, really sucked. They broke apart and took a second to compose themselves. Aiden smoothed her dress down, and her mother fixed her hair. They smiled at each other, then headed out to the dining room, where everyone was sitting and waiting for them to join. At the sight of the two women walking into the room, Tom and his fiancé quickly stood up, and he smiled.

“Uh M- Mom,” Aiden noticed her mother stiffen a bit beside her. “This is Carrie, the beautiful woman I’m soon to marry,” He finishes, giving her a quick kiss on the cheek. Their mother places a hand on her heart and smiles, then walks over and wraps Carrie in a hug.

“Sorry, we’re all huggers,” she says to Carrie, smiling. Adam promptly chokes on his dinner, causing Aiden to blow up her cheeks in an effort to not laugh. No one else seemed to notice, however, and continued conversing.

Slowly, they got about halfway through their dinner before they were interrupted by the doorbell ringing.

Dabbing at her mouth with the napkin that was in her lap, Aiden quickly folded it and placed it on the table, standing up. “I’ll get i-” She was cut off by her father shaking his head, and she slowly sat back down as he made his way over to the door.

Then, she hears an astonished gasp and a, “THE AVENGERS?!”. While Tom, Carrie, Adam, and their mother were freaking out, Aiden was trying her hardest not to roll her eyes. It was a stunt that was so completely Tony that Aiden should have seen it coming. She honestly wouldn’t have been surprised if he had flown to her building in a helicopter.

Speak of the devil. The Avengers (a/n - for the purpose of this situation, it’s only the original 6) strode around the corner, into her dining room, with Tony leading them.

“This son of a bitch,” she muttered to herself, quiet enough that only Adam, who was sitting next to her, could hear. For the second time that night, he found himself choking on his food.

Trailing behind the group was her father, who looked at Aiden. “They’re here for you…?” His voice trailed off, confused. Tony had already struck up a conversation with Aiden’s mother, and this time, Aiden couldn’t help but roll her eyes.

Standing up, she placed her napkin on the table and walked over to the group. She did her special handshake with Steve and Bruce, then hugged Clint and Natasha, smiling at them. She fist bumped Nat before turning to Thor, who unexpectedly wrapped her in a massive bear hug, practically engulfing her small frame. 

“Lady Aiden!” He roared, making her laugh.

“Hi, Thor,” Aiden said, grinning. Finally, she turned to Tony. She tried to look serious, crossing her arms and jutting out her hip. “Excuse me Tony, I didn’t invite you here.” She said, trying to sound bossy.

Instantly, she heard a gasp from her father and a sharp, “Aiden!” from her mother. Aiden couldn’t hold it together anymore, and she burst out laughing, clutching her stomach. She walked over to Tony and hugged him, still wheezing slightly. She turned to her parents and smiled. “Guys, I’m messing with you. Plus, all of these guys are practically family now with how much I see them.” She finished, playfully nudging Tony. Her parents still looked awestruck that their daughter was in such good terms with the saviors of Earth. Aiden just smirked, knowing that she had finally proven them wrong.

The rest of the dinner went well, and the Avengers left twenty or so minutes after they had arrived. Soon, Aiden was back in her room, changed into comfortable pajamas and lying in bed, scrolling through Twitter. She heard her window open and turned, seeing Peter crawl in.

He was dressed in his pajamas too; that meant no shirt and a pair of shorts. Aiden sat up, smiling, making grabby motions towards him. He laughed, climbing into bed next to her. She scooted closer to Peter, laying her head on his bare chest. He wrapped an arm around her, pulling her closer to him.

As she was drifting off to sleep, Aiden whispered, “I love you, Peter Parker.” She felt his body stiffen under her, and she raised her head.

He gave her a shy smile, pulling her up to his face to kiss her lips. “I love you too, baby,” he whispered, and they both relaxed.

Together, they fell asleep quickly, each wrapped in the other’s warmth and love.

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a/n - I decided to make this really fluffy because the next chapter is NOT going to be so please don’t hate me hehe <3 sorry for disappearing for (a little less than) a month! i was focused on other ficsss

[theghostofashton]

arthur pendragon: character analysis

i’ve been wanting to do this for so long, and a lot of people said they wanted it on that post i made about potentially doing it, so....here we go. strap in, y’all. this is gonna be a long ride.

i’ve had this thought in my mind since i watched the series for the first time through. arthur, canonically having depression, but it never being outright said, because, let’s be real, i don’t think they had a working understanding of depression as a mental health condition (i’m sure it did exist - the earliest accounts come from mesopotamia, but it definitely wasn’t thought of back then how we see it now). i think the episodes that really solidified it for me were 3x12 and 3x13. there were little hints leading up to it, like this, 

this is from excalibur (1x09), and you can see arthur’s face change when uther says this to him. you watch the surprise physically manifest on his face, because uther has never told him that. he’s gotten this:

and again, uther admits that it’s entirely his doing, and not arthur’s: 

and this is important because of something else that happens in the episode. 1x09 is arthur’s coming of age ceremony, where he officially takes the title of crown prince. i was reading someone else’s post about this - all credit to them for what i’m about to say here. they were talking about arthur being the best warrior in camelot, and how that’s....well, remember this?

so you mean to tell me that there are no older, long-standing knights? ones who’ve been training for longer than arthur’s been alive? he’s the best? or he’s been forced to be the best by his tyrant of a father who could do nothing but berate him his entire life, to the point where he genuinely believes he’s a disappointment and inadequate. what did arthur have to go through to get to a point of literally being the best warrior in the kingdom before he was even crown prince? 

most people headcanon arthur as around 20 in the first season, potentially turning 21 at his coming-of-age ceremony. and y’all, let’s be real. he’s still a kid. 20 is not a full-fledged adult, by any means. i’d argue that he barely had the chance to be a kid, before uther stepped in and begun to groom him to take over the throne. he didn’t have friends, aside from morgana. the men with him in the pilot are never seen after the first episode. as soon as merlin arrives, he latches onto him, again, because merlin is the first real friend he’s ever had. 

merlin is also the first person to completely and utterly refuse to treat him like a royal. we see it in the first episode. merlin wasn’t raised with a concept of royalty and class order the way arthur was, obvious from the way he speaks to arthur, even after learning he’s the king’s son. and arthur, as he’s been taught his whole life, is all “you can’t talk to me like that i’m the prince”, but really...he latches onto that, throughout the series. merlin treats him like an equal. like arthur. not the prince, not the future king, and i’d argue, given the whole destiny and “two sides of the same coin” thing, merlin would have all the more reason to treat arthur like he’s special. but he doesn’t. 

this is why arthur is so attached to merlin. this video is hilarious, but you realize, through watching it...arthur has people who could dress him, serve him, etc, in the kingdom. there are hundreds who would be happy to. but that isn’t good enough. he needs merlin. because merlin sees him. merlin sees arthur, underneath all of the princely royalty and formality. merlin makes fun of him and laughs at him and doesn’t take his crap, makes him feel normal, makes him feel human, i would absolutely argue. merlin makes him feel like he’s more than a representation of camelot. he’s a person, too.

in 3x06, when arthur almost marries elena, it’s merlin who gets him to stop the wedding. it’s merlin’s speech right before, merlin’s reaffirmation that no, he’s not just the future king of camelot, he’s a person, and the kingdom is shit if it means their ruler is unhappy. it’s about arthur’s royal duty, but it is equally about his happiness. merlin won’t let him forget that. 

arthur’s been raised to believe that his feelings don’t matter. his happiness doesn’t matter. it’s camelot, above all, and he just has to live with that. newsflash to uther: feelings don’t go away simply because you tell someone not to have them. arthur represses everything because he’s been taught to. he’s been told that’s what’s needed from him. being true to himself is selfish, because he can’t do that and lead a strong kingdom at the same time. it’s impossible. 

also worth mentioning that when he does try to do what he wants, make himself happy (i.e courting gwen), uther sentences the love of his life to death and forces him to deal with that. even though gwen ends up being fine (bless u merlin), that fear, that panic, that the person he loves most will be forcibly ripped from him because for the first time in his life, he’s doing something for arthur... again, it reinforces that what he wants doesn’t matter. his feelings and his happiness do not matter. 

and now we get into what really solidifies this for me. the end of season 3. morgana’s betrayal. more specifically, this scene:

and here, what’s really really interesting to me, is that even merlin evokes the “you’re the prince this is your royal duty” card, in trying to get through to arthur. he goes there, because he knows that this bad. arthur is the most defeated he’s ever seen him. 

the first time i watched this scene, with merlin bringing him food and trying to convince him to eat, it reminded me of how you’d treat a friend going through a depressive episode. try to lift them up, bring them something to eat, and promise them they can conquer what they’re dealing with.

and then we have this: 

that scene, with arthur slowly emerging from the cave, ready to fight again, just reminds me so uniquely of what i just said above. merlin, the concerned friend, trying to do something, when someone they love is dealing with stuff, and arthur, finally emerging from his depression and garnering the strength to try again. 

this is a little moment, but i’ve always thought it was so important:

you’re not tho. and merlin knows that. this is after merlin was hurt by the dorocha, after he and lancelot come back. the other knights are sleeping, and the camera pans out to show us merlin and arthur talking. specifically, arthur being vulnerable and scared and sad, about what’s to come. the thing is, he wouldn’t have opened up and talked about it to anyone, other than merlin. it’s like merlin has become his safe space to be honest about everything he represses around literally anyone else. merlin knows he’s not okay, and arthur knows he can’t convince merlin otherwise, so he just doesn’t. that like.....immediately after that scene of them welcoming merlin back, we cut to this. arthur starts to open up, speak his real feelings, because merlin is there and merlin is his Person, and he’s okay to do it. there’s no pretense. 

and then we have grief pt. II 

the end of season 4, agravaine betrays arthur, and then we have these scenes, more heart-wrenching every time i watch them. 

this is his inadequacy. his lack of self-esteem. arthur doesn’t believe in himself, like, at all. he hasn’t lived up to uther’s standards, he hasn’t been the “expectation” of a strong and powerful king, and that is reinforced by the people he loves constantly turning on him and betraying him, convincing him that they care about him and then turning on a dime and trying to destroy his kingdom. 

tristan tears him down so easily. too easily. if arthur really was arrogant, overconfident, self-obsessed, he wouldn’t sink this deep based on someone whose opinion has literally no impact on his life or power over him’s words. 

(there are def more scenes throughout season 4 that show this, but i’m realizing how genuinely long this post has gotten and i feel like i need to shut up soon so i’m just pulling the biggest scenes)

god, i just wanna wrap him up in the biggest hug and tell him he’s doing well. he’s doing the best he can, and it is enough. but arthur genuinely believes this. he believes he’s awful, and disappointment, and an unworthy, undeserving king. 

and then we have this, going back to what i said earlier about merlin being the concerned friend trying to help someone they love out of a depressive episode. arthur wants to go back to bed and wallow in his sadness and inevitably repress it, and allow himself to be defeated. merlin has other ideas. 

there are a lot of ways to read this scene. the way i see it, arthur needed this. he needed to feel this confidence and assurance in himself. he needed to feel worthy. merlin used magic to get the sword out of stone as a tangible, visual representation of arthur’s strength and power as king. 

........and then it is completely torn away from him in 5x03. fuck uther. fuck him so hard. he deserves to burn. i’ll never forgive him for 5x03, for this:

the look on arthur’s face after uther says this absolutely kills me. this entire scene kills me.

uther calls out the knights, arthur says they’re some of the finest camelot has known, uther says that listening to others makes you look weak, and then arthur’s voice starts to waver as he says that listening to others is a sign of strength, not weakness. he’s trying so hard, to remember what merlin’s told him, what gwen’s told him, what everyone in the kingdom has loved him for for so long, and uther tears it down in seconds. 

arthur’s voice remains shaky through the rest of it, as uther criticizes gwen and arthur’s decision to marry for his own love and happiness, because again, what he feels and what he wants does not matter. even after his death, uther is still finding ways to destroy any sense of self-worth and self-esteem arthur’s worked so hard to build. god, it makes me fucking furious. 

arthur starts crying after uther tells him he’s destroying his legacy. he’s been trying so hard to be good, to be worthy, to be something, and it’s torn down, once again. 

he keeps trying to believe in himself and build that self-worth, but people keep tearing it down, reinforcing the things he already thinks of himself. 

let’s talk about gwen for a quick second. my girl. i love her so much. when arthur is doubting himself, feeling badly about a decision, she’s always there to remind him that he is good, he is strong, he is capable. 

this is 3x12. and in this scene, arthur still looks like a scared little boy, unsure of the future. and gwen says this, and you watch his face change, you watch her remind him that he has done good, he is good, and that she’s proud of him. finally. someone is proud of the decisions he makes. someone believes in him. 

when arthur is doubting himself, gwen is reminding him of how good he is. she always makes sure to say it. 

this is 5x12. episode before last, and arthur is still not sure of himself. he still doubts everything. this is not something his reign has fixed in him, because it’s not fixable. the things he’s endured, the abuse uther has put him through, has developed into depression, into this overwhelming self-loathing, because he constantly feels as though he isn’t enough. he constantly feels unworthy.

angel’s delivery in these scenes is always magnificent. you can hear the emotion in her voice, the vigor with which she’s trying to convince arthur that he’s more than he’s been told his entire life. she knows he struggles with this. she knows it’s hard for him to believe. she keeps telling him he’s good, because he hasn’t grown up hearing that. and he needs it, desperately. you know how they say your love language is something you were deprived of as a child? arthur’s is absolutely words of affirmation. he needs them.

merlin does it too:

arthur is a good king and a good person. he is strong, and brave, and every bit the king camelot deserves, if not so much more. this is another post entirely, but this is why it bothers me when people get angry at him for how he reacted to merlin’s magic. look at merlin’s place in his life. look how much he trusted merlin with, how much of himself and his soul he beared to the only person he could trust with his honest, vulnerable, raw feelings. i ship merthur, but even if you don’t, the actors have said that merlin and arthur had a bond that superceded everything. they were soulmates. imagine your other half lying to you for as long as merlin did. 

(this is not to say merlin isn’t valid for keeping it hidden for so long - i get that he had his reasons, i’m just saying that arthur’s reaction was justified). 

but yeah. arthur pendragon is a depressed, insecure angel who desperately needs all the love in the world and i will never shut up about it. he is a good, strong, self-less king, who led camelot to its true greatness. he made us so proud. 

[fyrapartnersearch]

Why can't I hold all these cool stories?

CURRENT CRAVINGS: Please see this GDoc, because I have some plots I’d like to try! I’m primarily interested in original plots and characters; setting them in original worlds or fandom worlds is fine. I am not interested in playing canons other than as side characters/world filler as of right now.

DISCORD: KYLO REN AT CHILI’S#8808

  PERSONAL PREFERENCES

I’m over eighteen, and would prefer my partners are, too. This doesn’t mean I’m interested in NSFW-heavy plots; I do not write smut. It just means I’m more comfortable writing and interacting with other adults.

I consider myself to be lit-adv. I tend to enjoy partners in the lit+ category, but as long as you’re an enthusiastic and engaging partner, I don’t care about perfect grammar. I would rather write with someone just as involved and excited as I am, than I would with someone who isn't very engaging but knows exactly what to do with obscure punctuation.

I’m not interested in playing only one type of character or playing against only one type of character. I typically don’t enjoy writing with people who are only interested in playing one type of relationship dynamic or one kind of character (such as only m/f, playing the female, or m/m, playing the “bottom��). I have no problem with these dynamics or characters at all, nor do I have an issue playing against them. I just prefer more variety, compromise, and opportunity.

 OOC chatter is really important to me. I can’t write with someone that I don’t feel like I can get to know. I’m looking for friends, not a faceless reply robot. I won’t communicate over any medium but Discord. I've tried Kik, Hangouts, etc.; they just don't stick for me. If you would prefer first contact be through email, you can shoot me a quick message and your handle to jordrps@gmail.com.

I’m fine with threading in a GDoc or a server, but I will not thread over DMs. It’s difficult to have OOC chatter and the thread over the top of each other.

If you're looking for a partner that writes a reply a day without fail, that's not me. I prefer that we don't have "posting schedules” or set posting times, because I find that it turns writing into a chore. It's great if you reply immediately, and it's totally okay if you need a week to figure something out! You’re absolutely free to poke me. I’m not always the most mindful. However, I’m not going to reply every day. Three to four times a week is my frequency.

  PLOT PREFERENCES

I’m interested in both fandom and original settings, and I’m down for playing both canon characters and OCs. I don’t necessarily prefer one or the other. 

I definitely prefer canon doubling from my partners in fandom plots; I mesh better with people who do a little give-and-take when it comes to that. If you only play one canon character or only play OCs against canons and won’t play canons, I don’t think we’ll work.

I can play as many characters as needed, whether it's just one or it's six. Whatever our story calls for, I can manage that. In fact, I would love to play multiple “main” pairings so we can both get what we want, versus a single main pairing (unless it’s a pairing/dynamic we both like equally well). I find more than one facet to a plot really interesting, and multiple characters helps flesh out a story’s dimensions.

I’m absolutely interested in joining groups, so please don’t be shy about asking me to participate in plots with more than two players. So long as they don’t involve me writing sexual NSFW, we’re Gucci; everyone else writing NSFW isn’t a deal breaker for me.

Multiple threads and plots at the same time are no issue for me. In fact, I love the idea that we click so well that we just can't stop coming up with good ideas! So definitely don't be afraid to pitch something new to me, whether it's because you want to switch gears (and drop a thread for another), or want to do everything at once.

Romance is a must for me! I prefer slow and agonizing journeys to get there, but my attention is best held by romantic chemistry between characters.

I can provide writing samples upon request, though I never require them from my partner. Additionally, I have some plots written out if you're interested in that sort of thing. Otherwise, we can brainstorm together!

  FANDOMS

I’m very much a fandom player. I’m always down for AUs, or inserting our own characters into the plots of fandoms! This is in no way a complete list; never be afraid to ask if I’m into something! I’ve probably forgotten a hundred things I love. 

Most of my fandoms will have favorite canon characters listed with them, both who I like playing and playing against; you’re always welcome to ask about others not listed.* There’s a good chance I’m pretty good with them!

*I will play OCs in every fandom, but I might not play canons in every fandom.

  ALWAYS

The Bartimaeus Trilogy (Nathaniel, Kitty Jones, and Bartimaeus), DC (any Titan, Jinx, Arthur Curry, Steve Trevor, Circe, and Diana Prince), Elder Scrolls (player canons and/or OCs preferred, but feel free to ask about canons), Fallout: New Vegas and 4 (Arcade Gannon, Paladin Danse, R.J. MacCready, Arthur Maxson, Veronica Santangelo, Cait, Rose of Sharon Cassidy, and player canons), Game of Thrones (Sansa Stark, Robb Stark, Jon Snow, Cersei Lannister, Jaime Lannister, Ramsay Bolton, and Willas Tyrell), His Dark Materials (OCs preferred), Hunger Games (OCs preferred), Inception (Arthur, and Eames, but OCs preferred), Marvel (Peter Parker, Scott Lang, Bucky Barnes, Miles Morales, Loki Laufeyson, Thor Odinson, Gwen Stacy, Jean Grey, Ororo Munroe, Kitty Pryde, and Megan Gwynn), Miraculous Ladybug (Marinette Dupain-Cheng and Adrien Agreste), The Mortal Instruments (Simon Lewis, Raphael Santiago, and Alec Lightwood), Percy Jackson and the Olympians (Percy Jackson, Nico di Angelo, Annabeth Chase, Will Solace, Piper McLean, and Leo Valdez), Star Trek (Jim Kirk, Leonard McCoy, S'chn T'gai Spock, and Pavel Chekov), Star Wars (Obi Wan Kenobi, Jacen Solo, Jaina Solo, Jagged Fel, Mara Jade Skywalker, Rey Skywalker, Poe Dameron, Luke Skywalker, Boba Fett, Sintas Vel, and Ahsoka Tano), The Walking Dead (Glenn Rhee, and Negan), Warriors (Firestar, Squirrelflight, Jayfeather, and Hawkfrost)

  SOMETIMES

Boku no Hero Academia (Bakugo Katsuki, Midoriya Izuku, Shinsou Hitoshi, Kaminari Denki, Kirishima Eijiro, Todoroki Shoto, and Uraraka Ochaco), Bungou Stray Dogs (OCs preferred, but feel free to ask about canons), Digimon (OCs preferred), Dragon Age (Fenris, Cullen Rutherford, Cassandra Pentaghast, and Dorian Pavus), Final Fantasy VII (Cloud Strife, Zack Fair, Reno, and Sephiroth), Harry Potter (Narcissa Malfoy, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, James Potter, Regulus Black, Draco Malfoy, Hermione Granger, and Luna Lovegood; play my favorite ship with me, and I'll do whatever you want, literally.), Mystic Messenger (Choi Saeyoung, Han Jumin, Kang Jaehee, and Choi Saeran), Naruto (Hatake Kakashi, Umino Iruka, Gaara, Hyuuga Hinata, and Uchiha Sasuke), Ouran High School Host Club (Ootori Kyouya, Hitachiin Hikaru, and Hitachiin Kaoru), Pokémon (Red, Blue, N, Guzma, and player canons)

  NOT SURE, BUT WILLING TO EXPLORE

Avatar: the Last Airbender (particularly Zutara), Eragon, Howl's Moving Castle, Kiznaiver, The Legend of Zelda, Soul Eater, Steven Universe, Tokyo Ghoul, Twilight, Yuri!!! on Ice

  GENRES

For the most part, I’ll genuinely play most any genre! Of course, everyone says that, but then they shoot down all your suggestions because everyone has stuff they don’t like doing. I’ll try to make this as brief as I can, and know that if something isn’t listed, but you’re pretty sure (based on everything else) that I’m into it, then definitely let me know what you’re thinking!

SETTINGS

A/B/O (I will not play only alphas for only omegas, nor will I play overly trope-y, non-con, “boys love”/"yaoi" plots.), Age of Sail, alien worlds/alien invasions, celebrity, fairytales and mythology (including “inspired by” retellings), fantasy (including medieval, urban, and high fantasy), alt-historical and modern royalty, mutants/gifted, organized crime, science fiction (especially including aliens), some historical (excluding medieval, colonial, and the Roaring Twenties/Great Depression), supernatural, Victorian (especially the London ton), post-apocalyptic

PAIRING DYNAMICS

arranged marriage (I’m always down for slinging our characters together, whether or not they want to. It’s always a bonus if their families hate each other.), enemies to lovers (I love conflict of any sort, especially romantic!), human x not-human (The not-human must be sentient.), bad guy x good guy, intellectual x emotional, captive x captured (especially when the captured is willful, annoying, and full of fight), step-siblings (I don’t play step-parents x step-kids, so please don’t ask!), status/power imbalances (such as characters being from different socioeconomic strata or different ranks/positions in an organization), celebrity x bodyguard (I’m okay with the celebrity being the son/daughter/offspring of someone famous!), famous x not famous, rivals of any sort, unwilling traveling companions, unwilling soulmates

  If any of this interests you, please feel free to reach out to me however! I'm really looking forward to hearing from you!

[rp-dreamland]

Why can't I hold all these cool stories?

CURRENT CRAVINGS: Please see this GDoc, because I have some plots I’d like to try! I’m primarily interested in original plots and characters; setting them in original worlds or fandom worlds is fine. I am not interested in playing canons other than as side characters/world filler as of right now.

DISCORD: KYLO REN AT CHILI’S#8808

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PERSONAL PREFERENCES

I’m over eighteen, and would prefer my partners are, too. This doesn’t mean I’m interested in NSFW-heavy plots; I do not write smut. It just means I’m more comfortable writing and interacting with other adults. 

I consider myself to be lit-adv. I tend to enjoy partners in the lit+ category, but as long as you’re an enthusiastic and engaging partner, I don’t care about perfect grammar. I would rather write with someone just as involved and excited as I am, than I would with someone who isn’t very engaging but knows exactly what to do with obscure punctuation.

I’m not interested in playing only one type of character or playing against only one type of character. I typically don’t enjoy writing with people who are only interested in playing one type of relationship dynamic or one kind of character (such as only m/f, playing the female, or m/m, playing the “bottom”). I have no problem with these dynamics or characters at all, nor do I have an issue playing against them. I just prefer more variety, compromise, and opportunity.

 OOC chatter is really important to me. I can’t write with someone that I don’t feel like I can get to know. I’m looking for friends, not a faceless reply robot. I won’t communicate over any medium but Discord. I’ve tried Kik, Hangouts, etc.; they just don’t stick for me. If you would prefer first contact be through email, you can shoot me a quick message and your handle to jordrps@gmail.com.

I’m fine with threading in a GDoc or a server, but I will not thread over DMs. It’s difficult to have OOC chatter and the thread over the top of each other.

If you’re looking for a partner that writes a reply a day without fail, that’s not me. I prefer that we don’t have “posting schedules” or set posting times, because I find that it turns writing into a chore. It’s great if you reply immediately, and it’s totally okay if you need a week to figure something out! You’re absolutely free to poke me. I’m not always the most mindful. However, I’m not going to reply every day. Three to four times a week is my frequency.

PLOT PREFERENCES

I’m interested in both fandom and original settings, and I’m down for playing both canon characters and OCs. I don’t necessarily prefer one or the other. 

I definitely prefer canon doubling from my partners in fandom plots; I mesh better with people who do a little give-and-take when it comes to that. If you only play one canon character or only play OCs against canons and won’t play canons, I don’t think we’ll work.

I can play as many characters as needed, whether it’s just one or it’s six. Whatever our story calls for, I can manage that. In fact, I would love to play multiple “main” pairings so we can both get what we want, versus a single main pairing (unless it’s a pairing/dynamic we both like equally well). I find more than one facet to a plot really interesting, and multiple characters helps flesh out a story’s dimensions.

I’m absolutely interested in joining groups, so please don’t be shy about asking me to participate in plots with more than two players. So long as they don’t involve me writing sexual NSFW, we’re Gucci; everyone else writing NSFW isn’t a deal breaker for me.

Multiple threads and plots at the same time are no issue for me. In fact, I love the idea that we click so well that we just can’t stop coming up with good ideas! So definitely don’t be afraid to pitch something new to me, whether it’s because you want to switch gears (and drop a thread for another), or want to do everything at once.

Romance is a must for me! I prefer slow and agonizing journeys to get there, but my attention is best held by romantic chemistry between characters.

I can provide writing samples upon request, though I never require them from my partner. Additionally, I have some plots written out if you’re interested in that sort of thing. Otherwise, we can brainstorm together!

FANDOMS

I’m very much a fandom player. I’m always down for AUs, or inserting our own characters into the plots of fandoms! This is in no way a complete list; never be afraid to ask if I’m into something! I’ve probably forgotten a hundred things I love. 

Most of my fandoms will have favorite canon characters listed with them, both who I like playing and playing against; you’re always welcome to ask about others not listed.* There’s a good chance I’m pretty good with them!

*I will play OCs in every fandom, but I might not play canons in every fandom.

ALWAYS

The Bartimaeus Trilogy (Nathaniel, Kitty Jones, and Bartimaeus), DC (any Titan, Jinx, Arthur Curry, Steve Trevor, Circe, and Diana Prince), Elder Scrolls (player canons and/or OCs preferred, but feel free to ask about canons), Fallout: New Vegas and 4 (Arcade Gannon, Paladin Danse, R.J. MacCready, Arthur Maxson, Veronica Santangelo, Cait, Rose of Sharon Cassidy, and player canons), Game of Thrones (Sansa Stark, Robb Stark, Jon Snow, Cersei Lannister, Jaime Lannister, Ramsay Bolton, and Willas Tyrell), His Dark Materials (OCs preferred), Hunger Games (OCs preferred), Inception (Arthur, and Eames, but OCs preferred), Marvel (Peter Parker, Scott Lang, Bucky Barnes, Miles Morales, Loki Laufeyson, Thor Odinson, Gwen Stacy, Jean Grey, Ororo Munroe, Kitty Pryde, and Megan Gwynn), Miraculous Ladybug (Marinette Dupain-Cheng and Adrien Agreste), The Mortal Instruments (Simon Lewis, Raphael Santiago, and Alec Lightwood), Percy Jackson and the Olympians (Percy Jackson, Nico di Angelo, Annabeth Chase, Will Solace, Piper McLean, and Leo Valdez), Star Trek (Jim Kirk, Leonard McCoy, S'chn T'gai Spock, and Pavel Chekov), Star Wars (Obi Wan Kenobi, Jacen Solo, Jaina Solo, Jagged Fel, Mara Jade Skywalker, Rey Skywalker, Poe Dameron, Luke Skywalker, Boba Fett, Sintas Vel, and Ahsoka Tano), The Walking Dead (Glenn Rhee, and Negan), Warriors (Firestar, Squirrelflight, Jayfeather, and Hawkfrost)

SOMETIMES

Boku no Hero Academia (Bakugo Katsuki, Midoriya Izuku, Shinsou Hitoshi, Kaminari Denki, Kirishima Eijiro, Todoroki Shoto, and Uraraka Ochaco), Bungou Stray Dogs (OCs preferred, but feel free to ask about canons), Digimon (OCs preferred), Dragon Age (Fenris, Cullen Rutherford, Cassandra Pentaghast, and Dorian Pavus), Final Fantasy VII (Cloud Strife, Zack Fair, Reno, and Sephiroth), Harry Potter (Narcissa Malfoy, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, James Potter, Regulus Black, Draco Malfoy, Hermione Granger, and Luna Lovegood; play my favorite ship with me, and I’ll do whatever you want, literally.), Mystic Messenger (Choi Saeyoung, Han Jumin, Kang Jaehee, and Choi Saeran), Naruto (Hatake Kakashi, Umino Iruka, Gaara, Hyuuga Hinata, and Uchiha Sasuke), Ouran High School Host Club (Ootori Kyouya, Hitachiin Hikaru, and Hitachiin Kaoru), Pokémon (Red, Blue, N, Guzma, and player canons)

NOT SURE, BUT WILLING TO EXPLORE

Avatar: the Last Airbender (particularly Zutara), Eragon, Howl’s Moving Castle, Kiznaiver, The Legend of Zelda, Soul Eater, Steven Universe, Tokyo Ghoul, Twilight, Yuri!!! on Ice

GENRES

For the most part, I’ll genuinely play most any genre! Of course, everyone says that, but then they shoot down all your suggestions because everyone has stuff they don’t like doing. I’ll try to make this as brief as I can, and know that if something isn’t listed, but you’re pretty sure (based on everything else) that I’m into it, then definitely let me know what you’re thinking!

SETTINGS

A/B/O (I will not play only alphas for only omegas, nor will I play overly trope-y, non-con, “boys love”/"yaoi” plots.), Age of Sail, alien worlds/alien invasions, celebrity, fairytales and mythology (including “inspired by” retellings), fantasy (including medieval, urban, and high fantasy), alt-historical and modern royalty, mutants/gifted, organized crime, science fiction (especially including aliens), some historical (excluding medieval, colonial, and the Roaring Twenties/Great Depression), Southern gothic, supernatural, Victorian (especially the London ton), post-apocalyptic

PAIRING DYNAMICS

arranged marriage (I’m always down for slinging our characters together, whether or not they want to. It’s always a bonus if their families hate each other.), enemies to lovers (I love conflict of any sort, especially romantic!), human x not-human (The not-human must be sentient.), bad guy x good guy, intellectual x emotional, captive x captured (especially when the captured is willful, annoying, and full of fight), step-siblings (I don’t play step-parents x step-kids, so please don’t ask!), status/power imbalances (such as characters being from different socioeconomic strata or different ranks/positions in an organization), celebrity x bodyguard (I’m okay with the celebrity being the son/daughter/offspring of someone famous!), famous x not famous, rivals of any sort, unwilling traveling companions, unwilling soulmates

If any of this interests you, please feel free to reach out to me however! I’m really looking forward to hearing from you!

[adecila]

Game of Thrones – A Knight of the Seven Kingdoms - 8x02 episode analysis (kind of)

…or the episode we should have gotten last week.

And we’re back! I am not here to shit on last week’s episode I actually enjoyed it very much, if you just take it for what it was, but! I cannot help but remark how much better episode 2 has been to us… the writing was very very good and rich, and in character, and it finally feels like GoT and… I honestly don’t know what happened in episode 1. But moving on…

As you can already tell, this is going to my personal summary, thoughts and analysis of episode 02 of season 8. Going to put it all under a cut – spoilers, you have been warned.

Are you an Oathkeeper or on Oathbreaker? Or the Jaime Fucking Lannister Fest

Listen I am not calling this a trial, because it is not. Yes I know they call it a trial in the BTS and Inside the episode.

Dany’s speech about Jaime’s deeds against House Targaryen is very good. As I have mentioned in my preview analysis, this is the first time (third time is a charm ha) that Jaime and Dany speak to one another. She doesn’t know this man. This man tried to kill her and he killed her father.

I got right half of the stuff at least, for what it’s worth. Tyrion looks soooo sooo bad. LIKE YOU KNEW YOUR SISTER? Oh the glare!!! If looks could kill, Tyrion would be dust. LiStEn, Tyrion, honey. Sit down. Jeez, read the room, you are not making it better. Dany is right - why should she trust this man? And Sansa is right there with her… until Brienne speaks. 

Gwen called Brienne’s speech something “almost like a declaration of love” and I think that is so beautiful it hurts. Not a Braime fan, but hey you got fed fam, I am happy for you! I already mentioned in my live blogging that it was either incoherent or just plain retcon to forget that Sansa sent Brienne to KL because she thought Brienne would kill her if it meant a showdown with Arya. But I digress. 

I find it very interesting how Jaime didn’t apologise and his cojones to say so because “we were at war” - and I get it, my dude, Ser Hot Stuff, we all know all is fair in love and war, but I guess it would be ooc for him to apologise. Great delivery, I don’t particularly like NCW but this scene? Top notch. I rate it one doggy style fuck out of one, but so good your legs are wobbly and you can barely find the energy to plop on your bed afterwards. 

The things we do for love… and Bran is back with the fucking shit stirring drama. We stan Bran Starkashian. 

I find it interesting since this is also Dany’s chance to show how she rules - Lady Sansa says her opinion, which surprises Dany. Then she turns to Jon, who the entire time has been very very quiet. Like the kind of quiet you are when you have the biggest hangover and you are stuck in class and you just want it to be over with. So Jon says what he could say to get the fuck out of there. “We need every man we can get.” So Jaime is given his sword back after Grey Worm literally gives him the I AM WATCHING YOU BITCH glare. 

But Jon’s chair is not facing forward, it is slightly oriented towards Dany’s. Notice how he doesn’t look at her, even when she addresses him directly. She gets up and everyone does so afterwards FINALLY SOME FUCKING RESPECT and she turns to Jon… and he doesn’t even look at her… and my baby looks heartbroken because he just ignores her *coughs* As soon as the meeting ended, he rushed out, not giving her a chance to say a word. *coughs*

In defence of Jon… Know what, we’ll talk about Jon later, when we get to the reveal. 

Oh and Bran totes doesn’t care about Jaime enough to expose him in front of the entire Great Hall. Because ya know, he is a drama queen, but he keeps his cards close, he either already has a plan for Jaime or as he said, and as I have predicted from the preview, it serves no purpose to expose Jaime for what he did to Bran. Like just click on it and read it. Good that Bran called him out on his apology naaah bitch you don’t get to go holier than thou here. It is what it is. 

Me at Bran this episode:

Jaime and Tyrion’s conversation is very interesting, not only about Dany in general whether she is worthy or not, and Tyrion seems to be team Dany. Was it just me or Tyrion more like whispered the part where he talks about Cersei’s baby. Also also listen Jaime, unless you’re suddenly a gynaecologist how the fuck do you know she is not lying? I loved how Tyrion called Jaime out on the fact that he loved Cersei despite knowing full well what and who she was. Dude let’s call it what it was. Don’t play coy now. 

Ding ding ding Tyrion mentions marching to KL and killing Cersei … and that’s all I am gonna say about it.

Jaime x Brienne wow this ship is getting so fed - enjoy babies ! And I loved how Brienne was suddenly WHY ARENT YOU INSULTING ME I DONT KNOW HOW TO INTERACT TO YOU !!!! Brienne is leading the left flank and Jaime wants to be led by her. Keep in mind for next week’s episode! I am so proud of my son Pod, I am basically proudmom!Brienne tbh. 

The episode in which Dany gets a lot of counsel - because that’s also the type of ruler she is 

Tyrion x Varys x Jorah vs Dany - Dany gives the best scolding ever tbh. Moms, take notes, because look at Tyrion’s face. He knows this Christmas when the NK comes he will only get coal. No whores and wine for Tyrion. He was naughty boy.  

KHALESSI - Listen. I don’t like Jorah in the books, and my impression of show!Jorah has always been tainted by it. But this Jorah is redeemed and deserves to live I WILL RIOT IF HE DIES. The scene he has with Dany is one of my favourites because it just shows how much history they have together. I will sob if he dies because he is the only one left from S1E01 with her.  Jorah tells her to forgive Tyrion and seek out S.ansa to smooth things over. MY BEAR

S.ansa x Daenerys - First time I thought it was going well, they were bonding… and then S.ansa leaned forward and the hand placing seemed a bit too deliberate to me, too Margaery. What I am trying to say is that it is very hard to know if S.ansa is being genuine. It is a very good scene and it holds a lot of importance later on, more on that when I talk about the reveal in the last scene (and I this is what I wanted from episode 1 - cold but courteous.) 

S.ansa tells Dany Jon loves her and that “men do stupid things for the women they love, they’re easily manipulated” - which, fair point; she saw Cersei and Margaery do it. Buuuut she also had the counter-argument: she saw how Littlefinger manipulated her aunt. So it goes both ways, bby. 

“All my life I have known one goal: the Iron Throne […] until I met Jon 

INTERRUPTING THIS PROGRAMME TO FLAIL BECAUSE HOLY SHIT WE FINALLY HEAR DANY CALL HIM “JON” ON SCREEN YES YES FUCKING FINALLY THANK YOU BABY JESUS AND MARY AND THE ENTIRE TEAM OF 12 APOSTLES  

“Now I am here, half a world away, fighting Jon’s war alongside him. Tell me, who manipulated whom?”  - I love how Dany turns the tables here, because she is right; if Dany was manipulating Jon, then how come she is the one here, fighting with all her men and resources and dragons? Who gains from this more? SEE S.ANSA IT MAKES NO FUCKING SENSE IF YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN- 

FINALLY SOME GOOD FUCKING CONTENT. 

Then S.ansa goes for that smile ugh and agaaaain I am having soooo much trouble taking it for genuine. 

“I am here because I love your brother and I trust him and I know he is true to his word […]” I AM DEAD DEAD DEAD 

And then it goes to shite because S.ansa is now clearly drawing inspiration from Theresa fucking May since she has no fucking skills to bring up Brexit - is it Nexit? Dany retreating her hands tho - she feels played LIKE REALLY BITCH I WAS SPEAKING FROM MY HEART AND YOU WERE JUST BUYING TIME HERE. 

Theonsa everywhere - or the ship you never thought would happen in this show yet you can’t help but ship it 

That hug!!!! Wow I loved it!!! Sophie and Alfie killed it. Also watch Dany in the background - my baby!!! Do you know how hard it is being around people with big families when you’re… alone? It’s fucking depressing, and I just want to hug Dany and carry her to safety. 

We got 3 Theonsa moments (and one was a Jonerys parallel so you know the romantic undertones are strong) in this episode soooo yeah! Enjoy! I am afraid they are setting Theon up to die, especially since it would be poetic cinema.jpeg for him to die defending Bran after he took WF from him.

Also also feels like book!Theon and show!Theon are colliding again. 

The Merry Men and the Night’s Watch leftovers ; and Ghost for 3 seconds - you’re welcome ; the Hound and Beric; Missandei and Grey Worm

Tormund calling Jon “little crow” was fucking everything! did you catch Jon’s smile??? Precious baby!!! And then asking about Brienne!!!! But did you catch Jon’s face when he saw Sam was also there - like ugh you again - BYE 

Missandei x Grey - one of them is totally dead BYE I AM GONNA FLUNG MYSELF OUT THE WINDOW 

Sam x Jon on the battlements - ugh Sam really you are looking soooooo bad right now. Jon’s face is again precious. He is so over Sam atm and he is just like WHEN WILL THE NK COME FOR ME BECAUSE IF I HAVE TO STAY ONE MORE SECOND WITH THIS BITCH ISTG– Then I got emo when Edd came up. Damn. Watch Edd die too… I feel it in mah bones. That’s how the last of the NW dies. 

Arya x The Hound - I get soooo many dad feels from the Hound tbh and I love it. My guess the Hound makes it. Beric tho??? hmmm Idk about that. 

Tormund is fucking insane and I love him

THE BRIENNE KNIGHTING WAS EVERYTHING AND I CANT EVEN LOOK AT THE GIFS WITHOUT SOBBING MAH HEART - also!!! Dunk and Egg reference - Brienne parallel?? And the title of the episode! ugh Summerhall references? BRIENNE DO NOT DIE 

Sam gives Jorah Heartsbane - Good. It’s what Jorah deserves. *pushes Sam out of the shot*

Pod singing Jenny’s Song is tearing me apart and making me sob harder I FUCKING LOST IT AND I AM STILL GETTING CHILLS YALL THIS WAS FUN. SEEMS EVERYONE DIES. No, I jest. But I love how they paired up the couples for a tragic love song - Brienne x Jaime, Sam x Gilly, S.ansa x Theon, Arya x Gendry, Missandei x Greyworm, Jon x Dany. I wouldn’t look too much into the song choice tbh, since in Inside the episode they say they knew they wanted a song and they just picked this one and added more verses since it was incomplete. I know this is the second Summerhall reference, but ya know, I personally wouldn’t look too much into it.  Edit: I should have never trusted D&D - now go read these amazing posts made by @tomakeitbeautifultolive in which she explains the song and the significance for Jonerys. Also Ramin Djawadi spoke about the song and fed our fandom just today (April 25th).

The War Council or let’s gather around Bran Starkashian so he can spill some tea on the NK

Plan sounds basic imo, not that I had expected much about that, but in Miguel we trust and we know he will absolutely crash this battle in episode 3. 

Interesting how the casually dropped that apparently the NK’s goal is to destroy Bran. And the mention of the mark - so now basically Bran is chipped. Cool beans. Sam’s remark about “death is forgetting, being forgotten is very interesting. Memories don’t come from books, your stories aren’t just stories.” - interesting take here. I Sam writing the book about Jonerys? If so I am afraid he has A FUCKING BIAS OMG I AM GETTING HEATED AGAIN. Also my friend @iane-casey  was totally annoyed how much screen time Sam got which honestly same dude I am still pissed at you *joins Jon to brood and glare at Sam*

Dany publicly makes a point in that she still needs Tyrion aka he is forgiven so that there is no bad blood between them. 

Lmao my friend @zavocado says we should totes just tape Bran to Drogon’s belly and lure the NK away from WF *grabs the duct-tape* 

FINALLY A MAP: listen, they are outnumbered as fuuuuck… besides that it is clear that Dany’s forces will get the most hit since they are in the vanguard, Birenne on the left with the Knights of the Vale and some Stark forces, on the right we get the rest of the North, and the Mormonts are inside the gates! 

Jon walks on Dany a second time - Dany stops as the room clears out (Qhono and Jorah and Varys behind her), looks expectandly at Jon, he doesn’t look at her (MY BABY BOY HE LOOKS SO ROUGH DID HE EVEN SLEEP?), falters “Your Grace”, and bolts. She falters, her face is all WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING and she clears the room too. More on that at the end.

Gendrya or the OTP you did not know you need and why you fucking need it

First of all, this fandom is so pure. I loooooved all the Gendrya on my dash from episode 1 and then this episode I got flooded and I am here for it bitch. Give me all the feels.

I cannot wait to see Arya with her new weapon!!! 

GENDRY IS SO SHOOKETH BY ARYA AND I LOVED THAT SHE TOPPED HIM

I HAVE A SON YOU HAVE A DAUGHTER LET’S JOIN OUR HOUSES

The gendrya - jonerys parallels??? EVERYTHING JUST WOW

Jonerys parentage reveal 2.0 or the reveal Jon also deserved not the travesty he got

I will do a play by play of the scene, but first. Why does Jon avoid Dany? Simple. He is hurting. Since we get the Jaime vs Bran stare down and then we get the Jaime trial, it is safe to assume that happens the morning after Sam blurted the truth to Jon about his mom and dad. 

So at Jaime’s fake trial, Jon had what? A few hours at best to process everything - and by that I mean: Dany is his aunt; Ned lied to him his entire life (no matter the reason, Jon has been raised a certain way and to hear the man who was so honourable was capable of the biggest lie in the realm… das huge! so this is shocking his entire moral compass and belief system built upon the education his dad gave him); his dad actually loved his mom and married her so he is no longer a bastard - ya know aka the thing that affected his entire life and the thing he wanted most; his mom died giving birth to him and she managed to think of him in her last moments, enough to make Ned promise her he will take care of her son; the fact that if Robert even caught a whiff of it, he would have been dead. SO that is a LOT LOT. 

Which explains why Jon was so out of it when he is asked about Jaime. Also explains why he bolts out of the room without looking at Dany - I think if he had even so much as looked at her he would have broken down. He isn’t ready for it.

Oh the stuff I mentioned he had to come to terms with? On top of all of it we must add the stress of finding a way of telling all of this to Dany in a way that he doesn’t hurt her. Also I bet your ass he thought there was a chance she may not believe him (he himself did not in the beginning)… and a chance she may think he wants the throne since Sam drilled this into his head so now he is afraid of that too. 

So when Jon is in the war room he had what? around 12 hours in total since Sam told him? 15? 20? Do you think that’s enough? Because I don’t. But this time he is doing much better. So he is still not looking at Dany, but he addressed her “Your Grace” and leaves - which means he is already in a better place than where he was in the morning, but not quite there yet. 

This is good angst. We should rejoice, it will hurt before it gets better. 

Moving on. Why didn’t he just directly go to Dany? I honestly don’t think it’s in Jon’s character to seek out comfort. This is a kid who had no one to go to when he would hurt himself. That shit stays with you. You don’t just flip a switch and start seeking out your other half. No, in moments of stress the brain reverts to things it knows bets, to muscle memory and old habits; it uses the energy to overthink itself to death so ain’t nobody got time for that new behaviours shit. At this point jonerys have been together for how long? 3? 4 weeks? That’s not that much. They are used to each other, but not enough to break old habits and past traumas. 

Now, the reveal: 

Dany stops, silently asking permission before she approaches Jon. Poor bean must be a bit hurt that he avoided her twice, so better make sure he actually wants her company. Jon actually smiles at her, even if it is a sad smile. It kills me how he is just staring at him mom’s statue. KILLS ME. Only then, she approaches him (look at her face, brief relief!). She stops next to him, he turns to her and nods, and only THEN SHE EMBRACES HIS SIDE, HOLDING HIS HANDS, CHIN TO HIS SHOULDER.

“Who is that?”

“Lyanna Stark.” Jon eventually says

Dany looks a bit like oh… shit, again my family yikes… I would say she looks apologetic. “My brother Rhaegar, everyone told me he was decent and kind. He liked to sing. Gave money to poor children. And he raped her” - ok but this is big, because Dany just in S7 recognised her own rape… So no wonder her opinion on Rhaegar is not that good atm. 

“He didn’t” 

Dany looks shook, but she is still holding onto Jon. Notice how his hand is on hers? 

“He loved her.” 

She doesn’t interrupt. Jon almost looks like he is feeling brave, so he keeps her hand into his and turns to face her. 

“They were married in secret. After Rhaegar fell on the Trident, she had a son. Robert would have murdered the baby if he ever found out and Lyanna knew it.”

Dany is surpised, but so far so good. Jon stares into her eyes.

“So the last thing she did as she bled to death on her birthing bed was give the boy to her brother” – camera on Emilia — oh shit for a split second it starts to show that she is putting two and two together – “Ned Stark” – her eyes widen and she blinks – “to raise as his bastard” – she exhales, breathing accelerates – “My name,” – breathing heavily on her part –  “my real name” -- she looks incredulous and nods a smal no – “is Aegon Targaryen” – she blinks, exhales, puls away her hand and turn halfway away from Jon. 

She looks away, then at him, he is almost leaning over her but still too far. “That’s impossible.”

Camera on Jonerys

“I wish it were.” (SEE THIS IS WHAT I AM SAYING MY POOR SON)

“Who told you this?”

“Bran. He was it.”

“He SAW it?” She sound clipped, the ARE YOU KIDDING ME tone clipped 

“And Samwell confirmed it.”He read about their marriage at the CItadel” – camera on Emilia —”without even knowing what it meant” (OK BUT FUCK OFF SAM GILLY READ THAT) - Dany’s face her, she is clearly restraining herself because this sounds insane.

“A secret no one in the world knew, except your brother and your best friend, doesn’t seem strange to you?” she shakes her head and it breaks my heart how you can see the wheels turning in her head going fuck here we go again, I laid my heart bare and that’s it. Yet another betrayal. 

Camera on Kit. He looks at her, takes a step forward “It’s true, Dany.” – camera on Emilia – “I know it is.” (UM HELLO DANY I AM HYPERVENTILATING BITCH)

Dany shakes her head, her face looks full with distrust. Then it goes to despair - her voice shaky “If it were true, it would make you the last male heir of the House Targaryen.” – camera on Kit HE FUCKING FROWNS LIKE WHAT – camera on Emilia – “You’d have a claim to the Iron Throne” – camera on Kit and his face goes again WHA— 

THEN THE FUCKING HORN SOUNDS. Jon turns his head towards the door, but Dany keeps staring at him and she looks heartbroken.

They go out and it’s all business. He nods to her and she leaves. Interesting though - she comes out first. Jon turned back towards the sound so if they were just running out he should have come out first. Either he remembered to be courteous or there is another small exchange we didn’t get to see. Or maybe I am reading way into things and it was a lame ass decision hahah. 

Ok so the reveal to Dany - you better fucking take notes Sam cuz this is how you do a reveal: being calm, level headed, explaining to the person as much as you can, answering questions.

On Dany’s reaction: my friend @oadara said it so so well in this post here. So, building on that, we need to put her reaction in context, just like I did with Jon’s cold shoulder. Dany’s discussion with S.asnsa is fresh in her mind, not just the part about who is manipulating whom, and that must drive her nuts now, but also the part in which S.asnsa did a 180 on her just when she thought she was making progress, so feeling like she was being manipulated. One of course must start asking questions. Has Jon just found out? Has he always known? Did he seduce her to take her armies and her dragons her her throne?? Moreover, Dany specifically tells S.ansa that her only goal in life has been the Iron Throne. Imagine that - having one goal in life, and suddenly someone comes in and can just rip it all away from you, poof just like that, they just need to say the word. Moreover, males have preference… and so many would rather follow a male than a female. And that’s a fact.  

Moreover… she still thinks herself barren… 

Like I am not saying Dany suddenly hates Jon or will cast him away (ok maybe she will initially I have a prediction/theory I will explain in a different post). I am saying… JUST GIVE DANY TIME. She just found out and now she gotta go save everyone’s ass. Let the girl breathe.

I was asking myself but why would Jon tell her now? If he himself wishes she had never known? I think it may be a very Ned Stark thing - he genuinely thinks he will fall, and he wanted to tell her the truth, because Rhaegar Targaryen may be his dad but Ned Stark is his daddy. 

What do you think? As always, dms and asks are open! 

Will make a preview post and another about my jonerys theory. 

All in all, this episode was incredible and I loved it. I am so not ready for the fight fuuuuuuuuuuuu-