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sobbing and sniffling. I was there. I was in the pit with you. With the sterek and the malec. I was there
#i feel SICK#i feel Unwell!!!!#the sterek and the malec Nd the saphael and the darkpilot and the hannigram and the washlix and the reaper76 i was THERE
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two steps to the left | 6.4k | raphael santiago character study | canon divergence | dimension travel | saphael | asexual raphael | rosa & raphael | rated: t
After surviving the Soul Sword Massacre, Raphael Santiago is pulled into another world and forced to watch himself live a life as a mundane. This Raphael is a law professor in Melbourne, has a close relationship with Rosa and is married to Simon Lewis.
It is the life he has always craved. It is the life he can never have. Still, it makes him rethink some things, like the possibility that someone would marry him despite his disinterest in sex.
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This is my second fandom trumps hate gift for 2023 @fandomtrumpshate, this time for @myulalie, a character study of Raphael Santiago taking place after 2x10 in Melbourne. I appreciate her patience and I hope people enjoy this!
#fth23#myulalie#shadowhunters#raphael santiago#saphael#simon lewis#alec lightwood#rosa santiago#magnus bane#background malec#sibling feels#asexuality#greyromanticism#melbourne#canon divergence#dimension travel#writer things#my writing
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✨ Intro Post ✨
Hi everyone! I'm Andra Edevane, but you can call me Andrevane or Andy if you want. My pronouns are she/her. I'm pansexual. I don't care if a person is female, male or non-binary. As long as they can make me feel loved, their gender it's a secondary thing. I'm an adult, that's all you need to know about my age. So please, minors, don't talk to me in DMs. You can send me asks and interact with my posts, but that's all. I'm also open to roleplay if you want to! But again, not minors. And feel free to send me ask/DMs me for anything!
【 About me 】
🌸My mutuals: @mustangdemon @shoon200218-blog @generalallxsanjishipper @destroya2005 @fancychaostraveller @zearay @rexnanorum @salsalada @inkfowl @arrhythmicdesires
🌸 Bilingual. I speak English and Spanish.
🌸 Writer (I finally have an AO3 aacount! :D. The username is the same as here btw)
🌸 Artist (I draw sometimes, but I don't know if it's good or bad)
🌸 Music: I like all type of music genders, except reggaeton and trap. My favourite music gender is definitely BSO music. And symphonic metal. Symphonic metal it's... so beautiful for me.
🌸 Hobbies: Write, draw, read, listen to music, watch TV shows and movies.
🌸 Favourite season: Winter.
🌸 Favourite singer/group: Hidden Citizens
🌸 Favourite songs: Breathe ❣ Fleurie | Umbrella ❣ J2 | This Is Our War ❣ Halocene | Silent Night ❣ Dreamcatcher | Zero Eclipse ❣ Hiroyuki Sawano | To Feel Alive ❣ Tiff Randol | La Vida es Una ❣ Karol G | Here To Stay ❣ Sofia Coll | Mystery of the Invisible ❣ Veridia | All About Us ❣ t.A.T.u | Invisible ❣ Zara Larsson
🌸 Fics I like: Mostly hurt/comfort, because why not? Is there something more beautiful than a person who comforts another person when they need a shoulder to cry on? Crack fics too, because we need to laugh more in this life and be more happy. Villain redemption, because I believe in the innate goodness in people and I think that's what would make a better world. So you can recommend me hurt/comfort, crack, or villain redemption fics if you want.
🌸Fics I don't like: Rape/Non-con fics because I don't feel comfortable with those kind of things. Fics with toxic relationships because what I want in a fic is a happy ending for all the characters, and if there's a toxic relationship that's definitely not a happy ending to me. And I don't like fics with gore neither. So fics with toxic relationships, rape/non-con, or/and gore are a no-no for me.
【 My fandoms 】
⚡Harry Potter 🌌 Star Trek | Star Wars 🦸 Marvel | DC 🐺 Teen Wolf | Shadowhunters 🏥 Stranger Things 🐞 Miraculous Ladybug 🗡️ Trollhunters 👩 She-Ra and the Princesses of Power 🔥Avatar: The Last Airbender | Avatar: Legend of Korra 🦉 The Owl House 🛸Voltron: Legendary Defender
【 Ships I like 】 【 My OTP's 】
⚡Drarry | Jeverus | Jegulus | Snack | Wolfstar 🌌 Spirk | Kalluzeb | Skybridger | Skysolo | Kylux | Obimaul | Thranakin 🦸 Stony | Cherik | Spideyflash | Coldflash | Sladiver | Olivarry 🐺 Sterek | Sciles | Thiam | Briam | Allydia | Malydia | Malira | Malec | Clace | Jimon | Saphael | Clizzy 🏥 Steddie | Harringrove | Ronance | Byler | Elmax 🐞 Lukadrien | Kagaminette | Gabenath | Eminath | Gabenathilie | Movie Adrinette (don't talk to me about show Adrinette) 🗡️ Jeves | Hammerhunter | Jlaireby | Stelija | Stricklake | Stricklakerot | Strickrot 👩 Catradora | Glimbow | Entrapdak | Scorfuma | Glitra 🔥 Kataraang | Zutara | Zutaraang | Zukaang | Zukka | Jetko | Azutara | Makorra | Korrasami | Makorrasami 🦉 Lumity | Huntlow | Raeda | Veesha | Gustholomule | Guster 🛸 Klance | Lotura | Romura | Lancelot | Keitor | Jaith | Krolivan | Adashurtis
Yes, I rarely ship the canon couples. Why? Don't ask me that, I don't know why. I just can't avoid shipping non-canon couples. Maybe it's because all of the canon ships seem like the same to me and I'm tired of that. Or maybe it's because non-canon ships are more interesting to me and they could have an interesting story. Anyways, If you ship canon couples it's okay, but that's not for me.
【 DNI 】
♦️ LGBT+ phobes. I don't care if you are Homophobic, Biphobic, Acephobic or whatever you are, if you can't respect people for their sexual orientation, don't talk to me.
♦️ Transphobes. Everyone deserves to live a happy life. And if someone isn't living a happy life because society asigned them a wrong gender, they have the right to be their true self. If you don't support or accept that, block me or don't talk to me.
♦️ Xenophobes. Hating someone for not being of your country is dumb and it's wrong. So if you are like that, again, don't talk to me.
♦️ Racists. We're all humans, no matter the race. And if you can't respect people for being of another race, don't interact, thanks.
♦️ Sexists. Whether you are a misogynist or a misandrist, if you can't accept that no matter the gender we are all worthy of living in this world, don't talk to me.
♦️ Ableists. Despise or hate persons just for having a disability (If that term upsets some of you tell me) is something horrible and you shouldn't do that. So if you are an ableist, don't interact.
♦️ Radfems/TERF. You can support an ideology, but only as long as you aren't radical. So radfems, don't interact. And if you are a feminist that excludes trans-woman, don't do it neither.
♦️ Fascists. If you are antidemocratic, ultranationalist, right-wing or right-wing extremist, stay away from my blog. I don't want those people talking to me.
♦️ If you support censorship.
♦️ Zionists.
♦️ Islamophobes. If you hate a person just for being muslim, don't interact. Like I said before, I'm a respectful person and I only want to talk to respectful people who support human rights.
♦️ Killers, rapists, pedophiles, MAPs. I don't have to say why I don't want those people intecting, right?
【 Moral of this intro post 】
If you can't be able to admit that we're all humans and we're all worthy of live, and live without being harrassed or abused for our race, gender, sexual orientation, nationality, disability, or another reason, block me.
If you are the opposite, if you are good and kind, if you are respectful, you support LGBT+, and you believe in the equality of all humans, no matter race, gender, sexual orientation, nationality, disability, or other things, you are totally welcome!
I think that's all! So byeee!,
Andy 💐
#introduction#intro post#about me#lgbt supporter#pansexual#panromantic#drarry#jeverus#spirk#kalluzeb#skybridger#jeves#strickrot#stricklakerot#zutara#zukaang#zukka#azutara#klance#jaith#thranakin#cherik
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Hello I know this is a long shot , looking for a 20+ , How instersted in Shadowhunter ..almost Saphael ( Simon/Raphael ) and Malec ( Alec/Magnus ) I have a few idea and I am willing to hear anyone out …I prefer to rp on tumblr . If your instersed please feel free to message me .
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9 people you would like to get to know better
tagged by @incorrectcoldflashblog and @sophiainspace, thanks!!!!
3 ships; st smythe, forever and always <3 saphael and hartmon are also current brainrot
2. first ever ship; probably like some children's show like kim possible (we loved them ok) but actively is probably draco/luna from harry potter bc i've always liked rarepairs okAY
3. last song; eisblumen - subway to sally
4. last movie; batman & robin :D
5. currently reading; i just finished listening to achtsam morden am rande der welt yesterday and before that i finished flash fire by tj klune the day before!!! i'll probably start clockwork angel by cassandra clare next
6. currently watching; generally shadowhunters s2, right this second some docu about ancient egypt
7. currently consuming; uhhhhh nothing? air?
8. currently craving; a laptop that doesn't make it a pain in the ass to type
9 people to tag; uh i don't know 9 people but i'm forwarding this to @lalalenii, @moonisdead and @shingun if they feel like it
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I was wondering about something and I really would like your input, Dani.
You know how writers like to play with a lot of different ships, and some are really liked already like Clizzy and Jimon and Saphael. And fair, people can write what they like and feel more comfortable with.
But the thing is, in a lot of stories with those ships and Malec, Alec is still the one who suffers for being gay, even when his siblings are already out. He is either in the closet still or is the one who solely takes all the figurative punches from Maryse and Robert for his sexuality. It's like... Alec is the only one not allowed to be anything but straight. Do you think it's because of the first kid dilemma? The one to carry all the responsibilities and family legacy?
Furthermore, if his siblings were really not straight, even in canon, do you think he would be more acceptable of himself or it wouldn't matter and he would continue to be the grumpy boy too afraid of anything until one Magnus Bane?
Interesting question.
I think the first one is very much a writing choice. If it's a malec centric fic, then giving Alec more obstacles makes more sense. It could be for any of the reasons you mentioned. I do think things such as family dynamics and birth order play a role. For example, my mom lets me do things she never would've allowed my older sister (first born) to do because by the time I became a teenager, she was more exposed to things and her parenting style with me is different too. I also think Alec (to a certain extent) would have been passive to his parent's expectations/conditions, whereas I can see Izzy (not Jace though) fighting back against her parents if they tried to control her.
If Jace and Izzy were not straight....hm, I think it would've helped but not much. I think it would've made him come to them - because he knew they'd understand. He would've been open to having casual relationships and experimenting and all of that.
But Alec's position in the family and Clave are very different from that of Izzy and Jace, so I think those things still would've prevented him from coming out/accepting himself.
I personally don't believe that Alec would've been in the closet forever if it wasn't for Magnus because it reduces Alec's strength and fearlessness to Magnus and their relationship.
Alec came out because of Magnus. But he didn't come out for him. He did that for himself :)
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Saphael meets the Inverted Saphael!
Part of my Series; The Inverted Universe: Fanfic of Shadowhunter
I post it on A03-Rhyyc
! So as you should know my story, The Inverted world of Shadowhunter:Fanfic of Shadowhunter
Well Saphael is kind of turn-the-table.
Simon is the Vampire leader, while Raphael is cold-friendly like brother to Clary. (Hey I wouldn't include the original feelings and ship between Simon and Clary. Nope)
Inverted Raphael is asexual, I change something a little bit but he isn't nerd! He is a cold-shy type like that an Introvert, he only talks to Clary or he feel good to talk to. He wears a pants and a t-shirt, he sings and play a piano. Clary was her sister-bestfriend like! But less bossy, and mean.
Inverted Simon is pansexual, he is the Vampire clan but thanks to {In}Alec:Warlock and {In}Maia:Vampire they help him to think more mature and serious well he is Simon, he love star wars where star wars in...Private only, not in public he have a image to protect. He understand mundanes well, he 50/50 likes and dislikes them. (And Simon and Maia original relationship in the show will not applied to the storyline) well he is hatred towards Camille (Every villains are the same).
NOW AT THE STORY ENTERTAINMENT!
"Where are we?" Simon spoke looking around and he is holding Raphael arm shaking.
"Hey fledgling calm down. You are gonna destroy my cloth." He slightly shove his arm but he didn't removed it.
Then a flyer come into their place where are they currently right now, then Raphael picked it
"2016?!" He shouted out of nowhere then Simon come get closer and look at the flyer too.
"A wh..what?! I thought the year supposed to be is 2012?" He says but at the one second both of them feel something...
"Behind my back. Now" Raphael put his arms around his behind protection Simon and clenching his fist, well at Simon who clenched his fist and fangs are showing.
Then a man come up "Don't come near them!" A familiar voice goes in.
Simon spoke "Raphael...is..that you?" Raphael who stands up there and saw him version of himself "No." He replied shortly.
Then [IN]Raphael:Vampire goes forward to them then spoke "You not from this dimension are you?" He look at them, Raphael was fixed of what he is mention, while Simon who is shocked of what he says.
"Are you saying we are in a different dimension?!" Then [IN]Raphael nodded, then Raphael spoke "Where are we?" He ask and a another voice came behind them.
"At the another dimension where we change...Positions" [IN]Simon who is wear a fabulous clothes and coat who is looking a leader of the vampires.
"Wow you look so cool, my another me in another dimension is handsome." Simon praises himself.
"Stop chit-chating goddammit, We have a bad bloods morons here." [IN]Raphael spoke irritated.
[IN]Simon joins the fight, While Raphael was looking at both of them while his body was protecting Simon.
"Hey I know how to protect my self" Simon says when Raphael turn his head he saw Simon was on the bricks and he was squishing him a little.
"Sorry." He said then [IN]Raphael spoke "Run. Follow us" he says.
The four of them ran.
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**at the hotel dumort**
"Wow." Simon says
"Welcome to Hotel Dumort." [IN] Maia was shocked to found them and says "Come on! Another one really?" Looking at them, Raphael says "Aren't you a wolf?" Then Simon agrees.
[IN]Maia spoke "Different dimension remember? Come on in" she says. The two of them are in the hotel dumort, Simon let the grip out of Raphael clothes.
[IN] Simon walked in and seat at the leader chair "Seat. Feel free to ask, I call Alec, Our warlock in our universe." Then Simon ask "Do this always happen?" Seeing himself as a vampire clan is admiring but Raphael is a good clan leader.
"Nope. Just a few, it was the Ms.C fault." [IN]Simon spoke looking at the filies, Raphael never saw this side on Simon who is serious and mature but he was uncomfortable about this [IN]Simon who is not annoying.
Both of them looking around, [IN]Simon office was full of books of history, filies just like a office of a toxic clan. Then Simon ask "Are you not having fun? It was boring here." Raphael who looked at the [IN]Simon looking not good who is tired a suffocated when [IN]Raphael walked it.
"He isn't, he always here at his...demonized office. Even Maia want him to get out from here." He sat on the chair then Simon goes closer to him "Is he always tired?" And [IN]Raphael looked at him "Are you always this naughty?" Then Simon rolled his eyes "Wow I thought in the another dimension Raphael is nice but Raphael was still cold." Then Raphael looked at him.
When Scott came in, "Simon! We need you there." [IN]Simon uses his vampire speed same as the others. He rush without asking where.
They saw a full of blood at kitchen.
Raphael spoke "What did they do?" His vampire leader instinct come in.
Then [IN]Maia spoke "We don't know." She look at Simon who almost collapse but he held tighter at the round table, and he is holding [IN]Raphael hand.
"Woh, Simon are you fine? You need to go to the room now" [IN]Raphael spoke in some nice tone, looking at him worriedly. [IN]Simon disagree when his face was almost white-pale(ish) EVERYBODY saw him tired and Simon was sick of it seeing him (himself) being like that when Simon goes closer up to his [IN]Simon, "You need to wake up! You are tired and everybody knows it. Stop being a carebaby and go to the fªcking room! Simon." Simon voice wasn't now nice nor calm it was more ordering to his another self.
Raphael never saw this side of -Simon- he can be serious but not...This way, who he feels a overwhelming power come within Simon. But [IN]Raphael was almost..didn't flinched even [IN]Maia.
[IN]Simon follows [IN]Raphael to the room he assist him not to fall.
"Is he always like this?" Raphael ask going closer to [IN]Maia when she clean the blood that was spill.
"Yes he is. But thankful to Raphael...he somewhat bring his sun." Then [IN]Maia spoke to other vampires "Clean this up. And call Jocelyn we need some leads, it will be faster if wolf and vampire help this investigations, just call Me. Not Simon I will report that to Simon when he wakes up".
They follow [IN]Simon and Raphael >
Raphael and Simon saw [IN]Simon room full of ancient things, not star wars or comics no music. Bunch of clothes and [IN]Raphael goes up to his room sending some blood.
"Did I tell you, yoU need to get some sleep. But you never listen, what will the others say?" [IN]Raphael scolded him and Simon spoke "Why do I feel like your still the leader Rapha?.." then Raphael chuckled about what he saw. "Don't mind it. Your still a naughty fledgling." He says, Simon rolled his eyes.
After all some happend, Raphael come in to [IN]Simon room.
"Why you don't have any.." Raphael spoke while [IN]Simon says "I don't have any. Ok. You're still the same of Raphael such a old man." He said in a cold voice, that Raphael wasn't even comfortable but he feel like he is with simon appearance but it wasn't him.
"What?" [IN]Simon spoke, Raphael look at him "You are tired. Why didn't you take some rest and give it the rest to your secretary?" He ask sitting down beside [IN]Simon bed.
"It not I don't trust Maia. It just what Camille did " Raphael was grossed by that name but he continue to listen to [IN]Simon "She did some unbelievable and unbearable things. It just...I was the one who let her escape because of Rapha" Raphael was quite confused and he ask "What did he do?"
Then [IN]Simon says "I love him."
Which make Raphael shocked and if he is a human with skin color his red face would be shown.
"I did something...for _him_ and it goes far. Even Alec told me it was dangerous but I did because I **_Love him_** no matter what they say." Raphael now knows that Simon would do anything for him even thought he still feel amused about it.
Then Raphael ask "In this world what am I?" Then [IN]Simon was look confused at him and raised his eyebrows when he say "You are a boss of a boss. And I surrender to that. " he laughed "You are quiet man and I know your mood, when you need space I gave you a space. Everybody doesn't know you but I know you more that yourself." That make Raphael flustered about what he says when he come back to his own phase.
When [IN]Maia come in
"Are you alright now?" She ask giving a blood to him, Raphael stands up.
[IN]Simon drinks the blood and spoke "Where is _my_ Raphael?" He ask
Then [IN]Maia say "He is with...Your Simon" Pointing at Raphael.
"I would go to them. Where are they?" Raphael ask nicely in a calm voice.
"At Raphael room." Then Raphael was shock of the statement but he goes to the room.
"Simo--..." he open the door, Simon jumped back at the bed a little.
"Don't know how to knock or use the door to knock?" [IN] Raphael says he stands up and put his top on.
"Yeah he is righttt." Simon follows [IN]Raphael
When Raphael holds his arm "Let's talk." He says when [IN]Raphael holds his hands to.
The atmosphere was heated up by those three.
"Raphael. I would go to the bathroom for a second." Simon smiles at him and use his vampire speed to go to the bathroom (IN Raphael bathroom).
"What did you do?" Raphael ask to his [IN]Raphael
"I just did what **_you_** didn't did." [IN]Raphael say
"You shouldn't have done that. I will never let him have a hope when he knows I don't **_love_** him." Raphael says when [IN]Raphael look at him angry.
"You know. You are letting the love escape, the love you always wanted. He had done everything for me, and _You_ never did something for me." [IN]Raphael speak he meant that [IN]Simon did everything for him and Simon was just waiting to Raphael make a move.
When Raphael punch [IN]Raphael, Simon was out of the bathroom and [IN]Simon was out there. Both of them get the **own** Raphael's.
"Stop!" Simon shouts at him not Only him, Both of them.
"He took _My_ Simon, he kisses him. And Simon what did you do? Did you do some.." he stop when [IN]Raphael spoke "We did everything we both wanted."
Raphael look at him and Simon.
Then [IN]Simon look at [IN]Raphael _his_ Raphael.
"Both of you!" Simon shout he is beside with Raphael.
"Why would you trust what he says and not mine Raphael?" Then he added "I was at your side when you are at your worst, you made me comeback at the clan and give me hope. Why would you ask me to stay if you didn't even feel the same way?!" Simon was in the outraged for it, he can't cry because he doesn't want.
Simon leaves the room and ran out, Raphael followed him and [IN]Simon look at him.
"What did you do?" He ask which such a patient voice.
"We didn't do nothing, Simon. We didn't kissed and we didn't hook up, I take off my top clothes because he wanted to be embraced I am different to _his_ Raphael. I am sorry." Then [IN]Simon hugged him.
"He waited for so long. But what you did wasn't fair to the other one Rapha, you hurt your another self." And [IN]Raphael felt guilty he just hug the other Simon because Simon ask it.
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Simon was out of the hotel dumort, but not far away to the hotel dumort.
"Simon! Simon!!" He shout both of them are using there vampire speeds but unexpected thing happend, Simon runs faster than Raphael.
When Raphael stops and he is panting even thought vampires doesn't need to breath. When Simon feels it his sire, they are bond they know how each feelings, emotions.
"Raphael! Are you fine?" He goes to him, he help him to seat at the side street.
"Why did you do that?" Raphael ask
"Why did you chase me?" Simon say
Both of them chuckled, when suddenly Raphael look at him.
"Why...did you do that?" Then Simon look at him his eyebrows squint "What do you mean 'doing that' "
Raphael look at his eyes "Choosing me all over-and-over. Even you had a chance to another dimension self of me, you didn't." Raphael said
Then Simon laughed and he spoke in his serious tone but lovely "We didn't do anything. It just I smell his scent, it was the same as you. But I know you." Raphael have a flash back when Simon said the last line looking at his eyes, [IN]Raphael and [IN]Simon are definitely true of what they say.
Raphael thoughts of the lines what they said
>You are letting the love escape, the love you always wanted. He had done everything for me.-[IN]Raphael
>You are quiet man and I know your mood, when you need space I gave you a space. Everybody doesn't know you but I know you more that yourself.-[IN]Simon
"It's true. You know me more than myself fledgling" Raphael say
"Don't worry Rapha I will always be yours." As Simon whispered not Raphael hear that he stands up.
Raphael look at him confused "Where are you going?" Then Simon says "I think someone is calling us let's go back, in our world." He said.
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They go back to the hotel dumort finding Alec was there, they are shock about his appearance they never knew Alec would be a great warlock.
He send them to there dimension for a couple of minutes, The fight between the Inverted Raphael and the Original Raphael has been patched down. They say goodbye at each other and have some a clarification that [IN]Raphael and Simon DIDN'T DO ANYTHING. That makes Raphael heart relief Again.
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At there dimension-
Simon spoke "We are back." They are at Raphael room. When Simon was about to walk to go to his room he gets a back hug at Raphael.
"I want you." He whispered at him, he doesn't care if some vampires heard that he isn't now afraid of the love he is locking for years.
"You want me when I am already yours?" Simon said in a flirtyness voice.
"That's true. But I want you." Simon was shock and flustered about what he says.
When Simon moves his head to kiss Raphael, he kisses him passionately and caressing his hair.
Raphael was carrying him wrapping his arm to his waist.
Raphael goes deep on there kissing when he stop he ruin their clothes and...The rest are HISTORY!
Thank you for reading, I know it wasn't much more clean. But I will clean it precisely so thank you for reading this guys.
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Ship ask game! random letters: A H I S Y
A - Ships that you currently like a lot. (They don’t have to be OTPs because not everyone has OTPs.) Friendships, pairings, threesomes, etc. are allowed.
okay so i've been rewatching dawson's creek so pacey/joey is Big in my heart right now. i love them so much?? there's something about their relationship and love that just Hits!!! and then i've also been going through and organizing my writing and i read over some of my saphael stuff and just,,, i miss them,... oh! and with doctor who coming back donna and the doctor are the msot wonderful friendship i love them so much
H - What is your favorite source text for fandom stuff (e.g., TV shows, movies, books, anime, Western animation, etc.)?
probably TV? i do love reading but it's a bit harder now? and i tend to read a lot more nonfiction than i used to so yeah.
I - Has Tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why?
probably? but nothing is coming to mind right now. but i've been here so long that... gotta be? haha
S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon (prompts optional but encouraged)
okay so this is maybe slightly canon and just more expanding but there's an episode of strange new worlds where spock gets turned human and he's really struggling with it but also really enjoying it as well? and he's tried so so hard in the past to Not be human, to the point of literally having nightmares about it. but then he actually becomes human and, yeah, it's all the bad things he thought, those emotions too foreign and painful and unsure of what to do with them. but it's also freeing in a way he hadn't expected. so when he's turned back into a vulcan, he's not as afraid to be a little more human than he was. he actually allows himself (and takes the time) to think about how he's feeling and what that means. and he's not as emotional, obviously, but he still feels it and he sees the power that the emotions can have and it's. nice.
Y - What are your secondhand fandoms (i.e., fandoms you aren’t in personally but are tangentially familiar with because your friends/people on your dash are in them)?
for awhile that was a lot of dctv shows and then i finally broke down and watched them. this is probably the case with a lot of stuff that i watch. i don't know if there's much i could really pin point to right now since i haven't been back here for long enough.
send me questions
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Don’t Mistake What You Have With What You Hate
(s02e15 inspired fic) (Read on AO3)
Why did Raphael have to grow attached to such a monumental pain in his ass?
There isn’t a single part of him that believes Simon when he says that he doesn’t know how he became a Daylighter. That isn’t the sort of thing that just happens - there has to be one moment, one monumental shift that changed everything about Simon’s entire being. Not to mention the fact that he can read Simon, and knows him well enough to know when he’s lying. The poor guy couldn’t hide an emotion if he tried, and every time Raphael brings it up Simon’s nervousness and anxiety skyrocket.
The others might buy the ‘probably just something with the Soul Sword’ deflection, but not Raphael.
Raphael saw the bodies of his clan, of the Downworlders he considered not just friends but family, lined up to be identified that night. The sword didn’t give anyone extra life, it only ended life.
The thing about Simon is that he isn’t selfish. Raphael knows better than to think Simon’s trying to keep this to himself to be special - if he’s lying, it’s to protect someone else. Or a whole group of ‘someone else's’. Raphael hates that Simon’s loyalties lie so firmly with the Nephilim that he’d lie to Raphael’s face to protect them, and that’s the real reason he sends Simon away.
But Raphael doesn’t hate Simon.
It’d be easier if he hated Simon for lying to him about how he became a Daylighter. It’d be so much easier to watch Simon walk away and immediately stop caring about what happens to him when he runs back to the Shadowhunters, or the werewolves, or wherever it is he goes when he’s not where he should be: with his clan. With Raphael.
Raphael doesn’t just not hate Simon. He likes Simon, against all of his better judgment, and that’s the real problem here.
Because as much as Raphael likes Simon, that doesn’t stop the flare of jealousy over Simon’s ability to walk in the sun. The same jealousy that makes him send Simon away when it’s the last thing he actually wants to do. He reminds himself that he has to be cold and calculated to get what he wants, what he needs, from Simon. He’s lived enough years in the dark to deserve his last few moments in the sun with Rosa, and he’s going to get them no matter what the cost.
Even if that cost ends up pushing Simon away, no matter how much that hurts the both of them.
He doesn’t actually plan on leaving Simon to fend for himself in the face of a murder charge, though. He doesn’t believe for a second that Simon actually killed that girl, even if Simon doesn’t seem so certain himself.
No, Raphael’s sure that of all the bad decisions Simon made the night before, murder isn’t one of them. Hiding out will only get Simon so far, however, and the only way to really help him is to find out who did kill the girl. Maybe then Simon will be grateful enough, or at the very lead obligated enough, to tell Raphael about becoming a Daylighter. Then they can start over and fix everything Raphael’s broken to get the information he needs.
It doesn’t hurt that Raphael hates the bleeder dens. He always has, and this? This is why. This is the first mundane death he’s heard about but that doesn’t mean it’s the first mundane death ever from them, and that isn’t going to fly under his leadership.
At first Raphael assumes that he has some time, because time is a luxury that one takes for granted when they’re immortal. It’s only when Simon turns himself in to the police that Raphael has to face the reality of his situation: the fact that Simon is a good person is going to get him fucking killed. How did he not anticipate Simon’s perceived guilt getting the better of him? Simon’s self-preservation instincts are terrible on a good day, and today? Today isn’t a good day, not for Simon.
And not for Raphael, either, if he can’t figure out what really happened last night. So Raphael bends the rules. He calls in some favors. He makes a few promises and deals and exchanges, and when all else fails he makes threats instead. Raphael does what he has to do to get the answers he needs, the ones that lead him to Quinn.
And, if he’s lucky, the ones that will lead Simon back to him.
#saphael#simon lewis#raphael santiago#shadowhunters#i miss Saphael and was in my feels so here we are#keeping up with the codas eyyyyyy#elle writes a few deadbeat lines
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Simon/Raphael. (I will just send you all the shadowhunter ships)
Ship Bingo!
#asks!!!#ask game#stuckwithasnakeboy#shadowhunters#saphael#ive seen so much good content of them both romantically/platonically/qpr-wise with respect to raphael’s asexuality it’s insane#(in a good way)#that’s why I put the ‘I like it platonically’ box as well because either way it’s just really good for a rarepair#cause it’s a cool dynamic to fool around with#i have no feelings to either side as to whether I think I’d like it in canon but I very much love the energy and fics surrounding it
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I’m back to writing finally after months of being able to write only few (and very bad) sentences a month at best and it’s making me so happy!!!
#personal#it probably won’t remain this way for long#but I don’t give a shit#I’m happy right now#and that’s all that matters#my fics went without a proper input for too long#they feel neglected#and I missed writing them so much#but uni is so good at making me feel unmotivated and sad#and then writing fluff is like catching a butterfly#impossible for me#but I spent the better part of this day writing and I’m proud of myself#and that’s that#might finish my saphael fic before my geraskier kid fic though#it’s more practical that way#ramblings
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Do you think the polycule has any holiday traditions?
POLYCULE ASK! POLYCULE ASK! POLYCULE ASK! YESSSSSSSSSS
that's actually a pretty interesting question because the polycule is very culturally diverse. like of course we have simon who's jewish, but the rest is kind of in a weird place. i'm pretty sure shadowhunters don't have holidays at all, and since clary was raised by a shadowhunter and a former shadowhunter, i'm pretty sure she would have been raised without any either? like maybe she'd celebrate the gregorian new year because you know, they have to pretend to be mundane after all, but i think that and birthdays were probably pretty much it for her. oh and halloween i guess which is also not religious-affiliated, are there any other holidays in the states? i guess there's the 4th of july and thanksgiving but both celebrate imperialism/colonialism and i don't want to write about that so i'm gonna pretend there aren't. plus i doubt shadowhunters celebrated those either
so ok we have izzy and clary with no holidays, we don't know whether or not maia is culturally christian and i don't wanna just say "yes" by default... and then there's meliorn whose holidays and traditions will be typical to seelie culture, which are gonna be... unique to them obviously. we don't know how they are celebrated, how long they last, what is the milestone, how or even IF they count time - like maybe they go by when a specific flower blooms and that only happens every 10 gregorian years or some shit. so that's a question mark i guess
and there's also the fact that the seelie realm is very politically closed which. i like to think changes once they get rid of the old queen! but it's still a slow process to just allow other people there. then again izzy was a shadowhunter and she used to hop by so it's probably not a huge deal for meliorn to bring their partners and metamours to seelie celebrations? or at least to the ones that aren't Super Sacred or anything. so like parties and dances and stuff like that? yeah. which i guess brings me back to the other "meta" i wrote about seelie dances (link) and what it would be like for the rest of the polycule to participate in those and shit
then... well obviously there's the gregorian new year which we have obviously just gone through (well, we had when i started answering this ask. it's march now so rip. update it's april now. i'm so sorry anon) so like! i think it was always kind of hell for both raphael and maia, autistic icons, because of all the explosion sounds that just made them feel really upset and feel really stupid for it. with raphael i think it was more bearable when he had rosa because she would spend the day with him and hug him and let him squeeze the stress out you know dauhdasuihda also she was always the one he felt the most comfortable stimming in front of. and then after he lost her it only got worse because on top of the fireworks there was the clear absence of rosa that he just FELT everywhere. you know?
and with maia there's the added trouble of her being AMAB and what with being raised to "black men" standarts of masculinity (to be clear, as in: due to racism black men are expected to be even more macho than white men, ESPECIALLY by nonblack ppl; not as in wow black ppl are so backwards or whatever. white ppl invented gender norms anyway so lmao), she was definitely shamed a lot for being so distressed by the fireworks when she was little methinks. we love that combination of transphobia, racism and ableism! so it was just hard and filled with bad memories. and then once she ran away from home it got marginally better without the constant telling her to "man up" and shit like that, but it still came with the added memories you know
and also with them (plus simon) being vampires/werewolves the hearing gets even more sensitive so that's... fun. meliorn realizes it stresses them out and makes up a special kind of spell that muffles their hearing of background noise, so they can feel more comfortable and for the first time there is not that added stress that comes with the new years and it feels so nice?? they even try watching the fireworks but it's kinda like eh, not that great, especially because even looking at them brings out memories you know doahdsaoh so instead meliorn shows them some magic and it's so much prettier with all the glowing lights and stuff, you know?
maybe after that the polycule starts spending the new years in the seelie realm instead, that'd be cute, just like. enjoying that pretty place with all the lights and shit. i think they would all prepare some kind of light show some way or another like using magic and witchlights and whatnot. that'd be cute
as for other holidays! i think their holiday traditions would start with simon's first yom kippur after he was able to eat solid foods again (shut up a potion WILL be created and i don't accept any other option). before that, with simon being unable to eat, he was also obviously unable to fast. he wouldn't feed during yom kippur but it's not like vampires need to drink blood every day so it's not really the same thing. and it felt particularly lonely that, besides being away from his family and community, he also couldn't fast
i mean obviously simon isn't the only jewish vampire in the world, or jewish downworlder for that matter, so i'm sure he makes jewish friends he would at least get together and pray with for yom kippur, and that's what matters the most, really, but being unable to fast when he wants to and also not being able to participate in the break-fast meal just. sucks djdnudhsus
and then he's able to eat and he can do all that again! but it's also kind of emotionally charged for all of the vampires to fast for the first time when for so long they associated not eating with feeling unhuman, you feel? so like it kind of hits all of them hard
so the polycule decides to make him a little surprise and cooks the break-fast meal for them. clary probably knows what simon and his family used to eat after yom kippur so they try to recreate that for him? and maia and raphael are lowkey nervous about it because they had never made stuff like noodle kugel before and while they could at least try it (yay potion!) they have no idea if it's tasting like it should, ya know what i mean? and it's kind of sweet that they are so worried about making this the best possible experience for simon and the closest to home it can get. and simon is super emotional about getting to eat that stuff for the first time, as well as the other vampires, so you know. it's very emotional all around. but in a good way? and i think after that it kind of becomes a tradition that they make him the break-fast meal after yom kippur too
and then the next years they lowkey fuss over him for the last meal before the fast too, which i'm not sure is something simon would do with other people so they would go ham, dude, particularly raphael because he is a worrier first and foremost. so catch his ass all lovingly planning a meal he can make with zero (0) salt whatsoever so simon doesn't get too thirsty during the fast for MONTHS, planning so he gets the most amount of sustenance, lots of fiber, etc., and simon is like "you know i don't even have to eat, right?" but rapha is just all "you know food still matters" and simon doesn't say anything because it does. it matters a lot
and raphael is all sweetly nervous because like... it is a simple meal, that is the point, but he still wants simon to enjoy it and simon can't stop smiling through the whole thing. raphael and the others also eat it with him too in solidarity before simon goes to the synagogue with his community and it's like a sweet send off you know?
also this is not exactly a celebration or a tradition for that matter but since YK is the day of forgiveness i like to think that eventually simon asks for raphael's forgiveness on YK for the whole rosa thing, and although that isn't religious for raphael, raphael asking for his forgiveness for how everything went down, too. and it's just a sweet moment where they leave this whole story behind and look for a better future - i imagine this happening before they get together, so again, it doesn't really count as an answer to your question, but i just thought i'd include it because i find it sweet
then after that there is sukkot and i just really loove the idea of them helping him build the sukkah (for those who don't know, the sukkah is a hut covered with vegetation under the open sky, where jewish ppl live in for the duration of the sukkot). i know that they could just buy a certified one but where is the fun in that when we could have shenanigans? also i think that that would have been part of simon's personal/family traditions because i bet him and becca loved to build the sukkah for their family. so like on that spirit it is a little sad that they can't help each other with that anymore since simon can't be seen by the rest of his family, but of course as soon as he mentions it and how fun it used to be the whole polycule is Immediately On Board. let's help simon build his sukkah!
first of all other than simon none of them have ever built a sukkah before and simon usually followed becca's lead tbh, also he's just not great to Lead And Control people in general, and the polycule is already messy as all fuck. so it's a disaster, especially with raphael and simon's superspeed and strength thrown into the mix, and meliorn's almost impossible to hold back mischievous nature. izzy is lowkey responsible for keeping them in check and okay now that i think about it clary might have helped simon's family build it before, especially when she was a kid because kids just love that shit, but i don't know if she would remember the steps tbh (read: she wouldn't remember the steps) so yeah all in all the sukkah falls down more often than not and they might have to replace a few materials when simon and raphael accidentally snap their bamboo poles in half. rip
meliorn is probably all like "you are all weak and pathetic, i am a seelie, i can literally control living things. simon needs a vegetable covering? watch me get all the nearby trees to form a beautiful roof" and simon is like "actually the sechach cannot be alive" and meliorn slowly dies because they have no power over dead nature. also simon forbids magic usage in general because this needs to be an authentic building experience for him, so meliorn is left as the most useless one since they only have experience building these things using magic and the help of the trees or whatever
also i bet they would love to go EXTREMELY hard on the lights and decorations. i know that hassidic and to my understanding general orthodox jewish communities don't decorate the sukkah but i don't hc simon as part of those communities so i think he would want to decorate the sukkah. like even if it isn't fully covered in decorations, he would want what few he has to be well done, you know what i mean? like he would want to make the holiday posters himself (i dont know if it would be appropriate for clary to help make these but if it would, she totally would and i like the idea of simon giving her a very specific prompt to make the posters and clary doing it for him, you know? and maybe them all helping paint it with colorful themes), making decorations, and okay, at the very least fairy lightning? please? come on. it's another whole ass dramatic experience to get electricity in there so that's fun for sure, but i think meliorn and maia in particular would be all over the idea of making a pretty lightning system, and simon is definitely not gonna complain because he loves pretty things and the idea sounds rad. raphael smiles fondly through it all and basically saves the day by being the only one with organizational skills who is actually able to help them make a working plan for the sukkah
(catch these idiots making a blueprint. TRY and tell me they wouldn't)
(every year they make a new blueprint and the sukkah has different designs and proportions - always following the requirements like having four at least 32 inches tall walls, of course - and they start completely anew. the sechach must always be new but not the general structure, but they redo the structure anyway because again, it's fun)
and then of course they have meals together in the sukkah for the duration of sukkot and just idk i really dig the idea of the lot of them holding trays of food wearing oven mitts as they get inside and turn on the lights and it feels really nice and sweet you know? and then of course promptly turns kind of messy because it's their way but that's what they want. also, at least once a year they manage to sneak becca in for a meal with simon in the sukkah and they are just both so happy and aaaaa :')
and that's how "kidnapping" becca so she can see simon and his sukkah becomes another tradition lmao. they do it in the most dramatic full of flair way they possibly can while still not being found out and then promptly tell simon all about it in the most dramatic and exaggerated retelling during the meal, which always makes both simon and becca laugh (reality: becca just told her parents she would be off for a few hours to do some school thing or something and then they picked her up and she got a superspeed piggyback ride so she and simon wouldn't miss a minute. their story: "it all began with a carefully planted lie,")
there's also pesach which many (reform) jewish friends of mine have told me they like to do with goyim because the whole point of that holiday is to welcome strangers and share jewish history, so i think simon would like to do that as well. so yeah i think simon would enjoy having them with him during the Pesach Seder - again i think simon would want to be with his other jewish friends but it would be fun because they all could bring their pet goyim that they know would be respectful and nice to have around, run the Seder, and celebrate with them. also for their first one i think simon would have gotten excited about explaining the order/15 steps to them, so like cue lots of fond looks as simon tells them everything about it, how this is the first time he'll be able to have the feast, the four cups of wine, and how he's excited even to have the bitter herbs again. and then over the years they all become pretty much used to the 15 steps, they come naturally, they know what to expect, they already know the story of the Exodus after retelling it every year, and it's nice both when it's new and he gets to share and when it starts to be something in their element because it became their tradition and they want to be there with simon for the holidays, you know what i mean?
then there's purim!!!!!!!! god they would sure have so much fun on purim it gets me really excited to think about. purim might be the one that they get to participate the most in from what i've seen, and i have lots of thoughts about it, like:
first of all, making hamantaschen!! they each make a batch with a different stuffing and it's lowkey a competition and lowkey a surprise and as always with cooking together it is very fun and homey. and also kind of silly as they usually are, but purim is a holiday that is kind of supposed to be silly and for ppl to let go so it matches that mood, you know what i mean? like they're all covered in flour and "stop trying to LOOK at what i'm making!" and blind testing and stuff
then, food gifts! so from what i've seen it is preferable that the food gifts jewish ppl send each other on purim are sent by a third party, which is usually a kid, but they don't know many kids and i really like the idea of the polycule serving as simon's messengers for the day lmao. going everywhere round the shadow world and beyond ("hey mel since you can portal i have this friend in argentina-") and then bringing him the other gifts people send simon in return :)
dressing up in costumes! there is absolutely no way simon doesn't dress up for purim and the whole polycule is absolutely dragged into it, including an absolutely reluctant raphael. it quickly becomes a tradition tho that they change costumes every year and try to make them funnier and more outrageous (as you do) as time goes by. trust the polycule to turn pretty much everything into a competition. and simon always laughs with so much glee and joy when he gets to see what everyone dresses up as so really, how could they say no?
(maia "wins", like, every year. she is totally huge on costumes and her and simon are very attuned in that sense, so, you know. catch her dressing up as memes and just generally making the most creative costumes. she may or may not think them months and months ahead of time)
maybe they hold purim meals with particularly themed costumes every once in a while when they want to spice it up, but i think generally it's more of a freestyle thing
simon also loves reading the purim torah tbh, it's just fun. and then of course there's the megillah and booing when haman's name is mentioned. they are all banned from using graggers because half of them have superstrength and the other half doesn't technically have superstrength but is still super strong and they destroyed the poor thing on accident after the first ten seconds when they tried
food yay! and the very long meal. they usually get pretty drunk, tbh, at least the ones that can. and just generally i think it's one of their favorite celebrations to do together and more often than not ends in them all curled up together in the couch so u know, that's sweet uwu
and then of course rosh hashanah, which is the holiest joyous day in jewish tradition, so of course it's a huge deal for them all. and i just think they would all be super excited about making the evening (especially the meal ofc) the most incredible for simon it could possibly be. again i think simon would want to spend it with his downworlder jewish friends and community, and they probably have their own synagogue they go to together and everything, so obviously they are all involved in making preparations for rosh hashanah, but i like to think the polcyule and simon's friends' pet goyim would help with what they can as well (provided it's not something that should be done by a jewish person like baking the challah; but if not with cooking, they would at least want to help with stuff like decorations and the like. honestly i imagine all of simon's partners sitting together very seriously with a paper in front of them writing down all the stuff they can do to help with rosh hashanah preparations and everything. especially once they learn that like being happy/joyous is a mitzvah so they're just like "we want to make u as happy as possible then :)" and it's sweet and simon may or may not tear up a little)
and then we have other holidays that aren't associated with religion like halloween, which was kind of implied to be the official downworld holiday, so i'm pretty sure they go big on that too. not dressing up because again, one day where they can all afford to be themselves, but definitely meeting up at the hunter's moon, getting spectacularly drunk, roasting the mundane's costumes, and then once they get back to whichever of them's homes, watching some shitty movies and throwing stuff at the screen together
i'm on the fence about día de muertos. i know it's not exactly a sad holiday but i feel like it is for raphael because it kind of represents everything he's lost - his culture and his family, and he can't even go to the parade during the day, you know, although i'm not sure that would have been his thing, but i do think he would have loved to watch the arrival of the monarchs when he was a kid but he'd have to be in méxico for that. and particularly after he lost rosa i just feel like it would have been so emotionally charged for him, you know? he would definitely make her an altar every year and it would be just... big and well thought-out and something really emotional and important for him, welcoming his little sister back the best he can. and i feel like that's something he'd want to do alone because my boy loves to punish himself
but there are little things i think they would have wanted to do with him, and that they might push a little to be able to, like being with him while he eats by the altar and hearing him tell stories about rosita. and i think they would help him "undo" (?) the altar once día de muertos is over, which is always extra emotional for him and aaa. and then the next day they kind of just get to be with him and cuddle a little bit as he recovers emotionally, you know?
also it has just occured to me that raphael is christian shit fuck fart bitch cock. so okay i guess that puts xmas and easter somewhat on the map? again mostly for food. us latinos celebrate xmas on the eve, not on xmas day, and raphael is totally the insufferable xmas meal obsessed bitch who's on the kitchen all day and refuses to let anyone help (he can't pull that particular stunt for the meals they have for simon's holidays obviously but he can on xmas soo). but it's worth it because it is always a great one. and he also gives a lot of thought into getting everyone presents so that is sweet and it earns him lots of kisses on the cheek and stuff. and that's pretty much it for latino xmas, we don't really do stuff i'm still not convinced gringos haven't made up like the socks and the eggnog and xmas music (????) so it's more lowkey. and i think raphael would keep the more religious aspects of it to the stuff he does at church (again, there are downworlder religious communities idk what to tell u) and for the nursery home. which is not to say that like... oh wow xmas is totally not a xtian holiday! or whatever, just that the version the polycule does is more lowkey on the religious aspects and the things they do together on that day are more about being together with raphael on a day that matters to him, you know, especially since again, he is the only xtian and that's gonna be a sensitive thing for simon especially
and i think for easter it is mostly something they do to shower maia in sweets lmao. again she misses chocolate and i'm sure they spend a lot of their time trying to figure out how to get around that, either be by like trying to make special chocolate that doesn't make her sick or sweets that really really resemble chocolate or that are so good she doesn't even mind that she can't eat chocolate anymore. so that's their tradition for easter (and raphael goes to church ofc)
oh yeah and i forgot valentine's day! i have this funny little idea just for the shits where they have this little thing where they setup one-on-one dates for all the parts that are actually together and each of them lasts, like, 10 minutes (poor maia who dates everyone is just running around town) and it's more about the fun of running around from one day to the other like this is a bad romcom where some bastard is trying to juggle having two (monog) girlfriends at once. but then they actually get all together at the end of the day and trade presents and funny cards both among their dates and metamours ("roses are red, violets are blue, you're my girlfriend's girlfriend, and i love you platonically"). usually ending up with them drunk and debating how exactly they got to this overly complicated arrangement and trying to figure out the best way to explain this to an outsider and trying to make, like, fluxograms that explain all of their different relationships visually and they all look so messy it just leaves them more confused lmao. so yeah it's fun
and i think that's all i've got? i say, as if this answer isn't longer than anyone will have the time to read and took me over 4 months to write. but anyway
a special thanks to "a group where non-jews can ask questions about judaism and jews can answer" on facebook and all my jewish friends for helping me write about the jewish holidays and customs. i also used the following sources: Rosh Hashanah (link), how to build the sukkah (link), more on the sukkah (link), how to celebrate purim (link), more on purim (link), how to celebrate passover (link), what is a passover seder like (link), laws of yom tov (link), yom kippur (link), what to eat before and after yom kippur (link), a classic yom kippur breakfast menu (link), menus for the pre yom kippur meal (link). if there's anything inaccurate or disrespectful, however, please let me know, and feel free to add more ideas as well if you're jewish :)
#sh#shadowhunters#simon lewis#raphael santiago#maia roberts#izzy lightwood#clary fray#saphael#The Polycule™#saia#siliorn#im not tagging all of them ok i feel like these are the most important ones that came up#oh and i guess#maiaphael#mailiorn#claiabelle#claia#maiabelle#long post#like so long#ask#anonymous#isabeliorn#autistic maia roberts#autistic raphael santiago#trans maia roberts#nonbinary meliorn#brotp: they are the same stars in mexico
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#saphael#saphael gif#shadowhunters#aesthetic#photography#saphael pics#heronstairs#feel the saphael#raphael santiago#raphael#simon#simon lewis#hotel dumort#help we ship
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When you're sick of everyone's shit
#byeler#grindeldore#byler#grizzam#malec#sabriel#saia#saphael#sizzy#clizzy#destiel#rick x daryl#oof thats a new one#feel free to add more#fanfic#fanfiction
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Shadowhunters Ships
I love how in the shadowhunters fandom and especially in fanfics there are such an absurd amount of ship pairings
Like I’ve read every possible combination of Izzy/Simon, Izzy/Raphael, Simon/Raphael, Izzy/Simon/Raphael, Ragnor/Catarina, Ragnor/Raphael, Luke/Catarina, Maia/Raphael, Maia/Jordan, Maia/Jace, Clary/Jace, Simon/Jace, Simon/Jace/Raphael, Jace/Meliorn, Jace/ Lydia, Jace/Lydia/Clary, Simon/Clary, Clary/Maia, Clary/Lydia, Simon/Maia, Izzy/Maia, Izzy/Clary, Izzy/Lydia, Izzy/Tessa, Izzy/Meliorn, Izzy/Meliorn/Simon, Izzy/Clary/Meliorn (clearly there is absolutely no consensus on who we ship with Izzy), Luke/Maryse, Robert/Maryse, and even ones with Hodge/Robert and Jace/Raj
Though, of course, the one thing we can all agree on is Malec
#im just going to keep updating this#as i find more#feel free to add any i missed#shadowhunters#shadowhunters fanfiction#fanfiction#shadowhunters ships#malec#clace#clizzy#sizzy#jimon#saphael#im not writing out all these ship names#isabelle lightwood#magnus bane#alec lightwood#jace herondale#clary morgenstern#clary fray#simon lewis#raphael santiago
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Saphael Fanfic Rec!
Here are the works I’ve been saving throughout last year since the show first aired and up until this point. Amazing works that show this wonderful pairing and each characterization. All the love to the authors!
As usual, I couldn’t find some authors’ user names. So, if someone knows the user and tag them, that would be very appreciated
87. Careful is my middle name by tveckling
"And where exactly do you think you're going?"
Raphael's voice came from behind him. Simon hoped his twitching hadn't been too noticeable and turned around with a bright smile that he hoped wasn't too fake. "Just going out."
A Holiday Encounter by @demiromanticmickey
Admittedly, Simon volunteered to help Raphael to try to talk to him, get to know him better. Unfortunately, that wasn't working out so well. It turned out that managing a food drive was a lot harder than Simon had anticipated. And whenever he did try to engage Raphael, he was met with short one word responses before ordering Simon with another task.
A Word Between Two Friends by ofEmeraldStars
“You love him.” It wasn’t a question and Magnus’ voice almost sounded awed by what he said, what he realized, when he looked at his friend at his side whose head snapped to look at him, no longer watching his fledgling.
Answer me (please) by all_their_intricacies
To Simon <3 (3:02 AM): i love you
To Simon <3 (3:03 AM): so fucking much
Appreciation of art by @fangtasticsaphael
He managed to sit on the bench for at least ten minutes before his phone was in his hand and he started browsing Twitter for anything entertaining before updating his account with a Clary abandoned me in the art museum once again message with a sad emoji before he decided to take a silly selfie for Instagram to kill some more time. Just when he took the photo and the camera sound went off - of course, he forgot to mute his damn phone when he went into the museum, fuck - a shadow fell on his form.
Baby, I'm not made of stone by izzyasavestheday (stilessexual)
“Did I ever tell you that we feel everything? The clan, I mean. If I focus enough, I can tell you who’s sad and who’s angry and who hasn’t been sleeping properly. I can tell you who’s been having nightmares. There are no secrets here.”
(Fix-it fic)
Baby's First Steps by Luuna (you_know_them_trees)
Simon wasn't flustered, he really wasn't. And Raphael checking up on him all the time wasn't a big deal. It wasn't like he had a crush or something.
It might have been true... if only Raphael stopped calling him baby.
Before I ever met you by izzyasavestheday (stilessexual)
“You know that moment,” he said “when you wake up and turn over to put your arms around someone –someone you love, someone who means everything to you.” Magnus’ expressive eyes were soft, soft, soft. “Oh, Simon.” “I feel so alone,” Simon whispered. “Not in the post-Clary sort of way, either. In the way that I’m supposed to wake up to someone and they’re not there.” “I’m missing something,” Simon went on, voice cracking. “I’m missing someone but no matter how hard I try I just can’t fucking remember.”
Bitter Sweet by @abluelightinthedark
“I… I’m sorry. You just looked like the typ of person who drinks their coffee black.“ Simon stutters and rubs his neck, trying to hide the shaking of his hands. “What do you want then?“
The guy actually smirks at him and lets his eyes wander over Simon for a moment, before he answers.
“What I want from you would be really inappropriate to say out loud in here…“ he trails of for a moment, letting the words sink in and then smirks even wider when Simon flushes bright red in the matter of seconds. “But for the coffee, I would like a caramel macchiato.“
Or
The one where everybody thinks that Simon has a sweet tooth and Raphael loves the bitter stuff, but it's actually vise versa.
Bleed out in my veins by @eversall
How do you stop loving someone? How do you separate your world from theirs, when you’ve been on a collision course since you were six and sharing crayons, your smiles so intertwined that death doesn’t separate you? How do you say goodbye? You don’t, Simon thinks dizzily, dropping to his knees in front of Raphael. You say hello to someone else.
Breathing Is A Side Effect Of Being Alive by booksandanime
When you're alive, your heart beats, your breath catches and comes in gasps, you age and fall in love and die.
When you're undead, your heart pantomimes beating, you gasp for air that isn't needed, you never age, you fall in love, you stay together if you decide to.
This is a story of how Simon Lewis let go of normalcy and thoughts of being a monster in favor of falling in love with Raphael Santiago. (It's not a bad trade, really.)
Brooklyn, brooklyn, take me in by psyches
Honestly, no matter which way you put it, telling anyone you live in a hotel is pretty fucking weird, and it’s not like Raphael has the excuse of a twin brother or a singer mother who works there or the wacky hijinks that ensue.
Or: a brief look at Raphael in a world where Shadowhunters no longer need to exist.
Call me, maybe? by @fangtasticsaphael
"You're not planning on giving him a plain black shirt for a few hundred bucks, right?" Raphael asked when his best friend was about to enter one of the fancier clothing stores the mall had to offer and the other raised an eyebrow at him.
"I'm not planning on buying him a black shirt at all."
"All he ever wears is black. The most colourful your boy gets is wearing grey," he commented dryly and his lips curled into a smirk when Magnus huffed, unable to disagree because Alec really didn't wear any other colours. If black and grey could even be considered a colour.
"Well, that's why I brought you because you always wear clothes as dark as your soul and might actually be helpful in this case," Magnus replied sweetly and glanced at the store before looking back at his shorter friend questioningly.
Candy Kisses by @abluelightinthedark
Three times Raphael doesn't enjoy Simon's kisses + the one time he craves more
Coffee & Spanish by ofEmeraldStars
Simon's eyes land on his good looking guy at the table next to him and when he and his table partner start talking in Spanish Simon find this as the perfect opportunity to test out his Spanish knowledge.
Cookin' up love by @moonlightmaia
“Simon! Dios mío, what the hell?” Simon dropped the fire extinguisher, a sheepish look on his face. The stove behind him covered in smoke and fire extinguisher gas. “Uh, I was just, uh, trying to make dinner?” Sure, Simon wasn’t a great cook, but he certainly wouldn’t consider himself a horrible cook, Raphael’s kitchen was just… very different from what Simon was used to using. Raphael was a professional and so was his kitchen.
Devotion’s desire. by @saphaeldaily
a character study of raphael santiago and how nothing goes the way he wants.
side of simon/raphael.
Disasters that lead to pretty boys (are worth it) by gayinsight
"My friend is out of town and I’m supposed to be taking care of her pet fish but it died and you work at the pet store help me find one that looks the same so she won’t notice!"
Don't just leave it all up to chance by @accordingtomel
“Shut up, Jace,” Izzy commands, glaring at him before turning her attention back to Simon. “Okay, so you know how Clary and I are in charge of the Senior Prom Fundraiser?”
“Oh yeah, sure?”
“And you know how we told you we had everything totally covered?” Clary adds.
Simon glances over at Jace in confusion, but Jace just shrugs.
“Well, we kind of need some help now,” Izzy says.
“What kind of help?” Simon asks slowly.
Magnus snorts like he can’t help himself, which means that he must know what's going on too.
Silence falls over the table for a moment too long before Clary finally comes out with it. “We need you to take a shift at the kissing booth.”
***
Simon gets roped into working at a kissing booth. The consequences, however, are much better than he could've ever expected.
Fight Me On That by @themadtilde
"Well, someone must tell you the straight fact that Gandfalf beats that old wimp Dumbledore so hard that Dumbledore wouldn't even have a chance if they were to duel."
Simon's anger, that slowly had stopped boiling, quickly flamed up again.
"Oh yeah?" he hissed heatedly, slamming his cup down on the table and standing up to be eye-to-eye with Raphael. "Well, fight me on that!"
And then, before Simon could really comprehend what he just had said, he was lying on the floor with Raphael hovering over him, and he felt a throbbing pain in his skull.
(inspired by the tumblr post one day im gonna say "fight me!" and someone's just gonna fuckin deck me
Fire and Gasoline by @degrassi-fanatic
“Those two are like fire and gasoline.”
That’s what everyone said about them.Raphael Santiago was a fire and, Simon Lewis was the gasoline that only further fueled the other. ---- “I’m in love with you.” he came out as barely a whisper.If Simon didn’t have vampire enhanced hearing, he might’ve not heard that.
Forever isn't too long, when i'm right where i belong by moriartyscupoftea
Raphael sat on the living room chair, the cup of tea Magnus had practically forced on him balanced on his knee, while Magnus himself was slouched on the sofa, laughing. "You," he wheezed in between hysterical fits of giggles, "are going to propose? ToSimon?" Raphael pursed his lips, praying for strength from anyone.
Gazing into your eyes, I know I'm home by ofEmeraldStars
Simon didn't expect for Raphael to corner him in the abandoned building, but yet there he was pinning him on the spot with his intense gaze.
How to make your local clan leader blush by scalira
Simon realizes vampires are capable of blushing after he sees Raphael getting flustered, and after that it becomes his mission to get Raphael to blush again.
I dont understand Quidditch (or Love) by @slytherinsimon
Simon Lewis is a Hufflepuff that seriously needs to pay more attention around him. Especially the part where he thinks that his best friend, Hufflepuff seeker Clary Fairchild is secretly dating his Slytherin chaser crush, Raphael Santiago.
I Hope So Too by @bathildahotshot
Simon's not in love with Raphael.
I know what you are (say it) bisexual by thankyouforexisting
Simon tells himself,
It’s not gay, it’s not gay, I’m totally not checking him out, he just had that stain on his right trouser leg….
Raphael is, apparently, a rich as fuck vampire, because the suit shop they go in is fancy as hell. They park in the basement, because, uh, sunlight, and even though dusk has fallen it’s better to be safe than sorry (sorry meaning dead). Raphael keeps smirking, which does nothing to help Simon’s inner mantra that consists of
I’m straight, I’m straight holy fuck is he licking his lip- I’m straight..
“This,” the vampire announces as they walk into the shop, smiling faintly, looking, almost for the first time since Simon’s met him, as if he’s relaxed, “is the greatest place in the world, Simon Lewis.”
He looks at him then, grinning, eyes dark, shining, looking more polished than ever but somehow oddly vulnerable, and Simon’s breath hitches, his insides turning to goo.
His mantra becomes
Let me not jump him, or, at least, not in public..
I Watch It All From A Far (heaven help me) by @geckette
Clary took a sip from her coffee before putting it back down, her face slipping from confused to serious. “Simon. Are you serious? You didn’t know?”
Simon sputtered, his fancy pastry that cost him a pretty penny of 5.78$ flying everywhere from his mouth. Of course, the one time he decides to spend money it gets wasted. “Clary. Oh my god. Clary, I’m dating Raphael."
Based Off This Prompt: Saphael, College roommates AU who find that they have been totally boyfriends for months and hadn´t even realized. Brownie points for cuddling!
If i ever had your number, i think i would use it by @eversall
“Er.” Simon says, but that seems to be enough. “Simon?” Raphael asks. “The one and only.” He says weakly, making jazz hands even though he knows Raphael can’t see them. “Heyyy, Raphael.” “You – why is your number in the Pandemonium bathroom?” . It starts because Jace and Simon get drunk together one night without Clary, and since Clary serves as about eighty-five percent of their impulse control they’re hammered within two hours and ready to implement all of their Very Bad Ideas, the ones that are horrifying enough to make Alec grind his teeth and potentially slap them upside the head.
If you wanna find love then you know where the city is by @eversall
Simon comes back to them immediately. He’s pounding on the door the next night, and Raphael stiffens as he smells the scent of the fledgling. “I’ll go get him.” Lily says, and runs off, her face harsh with anger. She appears a second later, hauling the boy by his collar. His face is ashen with fear – Simon is no good at hiding his feelings. What was it he’s said before? He was born afraid? And his eyes are dark and beautiful, just like always, and Raphael wants to shake him until he understands what heartbreak feels like. . Of course Simon comes back, and of course Raphael is still unbearably in love with him.
In all that's left of you and me by igniteyourbones
how the saphael reunion really went down.
--
“You look awful.”
“Thank you, Raphael, really. This is truly the touching reunion I had imagined for us,” Simon says, ignoring the fact that he’d imagined several possibilities but all of them had ended in Raphael ripping him to pieces.
It Seemed Like A Good Idea At The Time by heartsdesire456
Simon ends up in the ER after a drunken dare and meets the potential love of his life.
It's a small crime and I've got no excuse by mostlikelydefinentlymad
Raphael's other half is sat across from a beautiful girl with auburn curls and a copy of Jane Eyre on the table.
He's gesturing at a gray box and giving away a smile that once belonged to mid-afternoons spent tracing the contours of Simon's body, laughter seeping into the halls of the hotel.
Kindred by White_Marker
Once, hidden in the dark and uncharacteristically intimate for both of them, Raphael had mimicked Simon’s movement in bed, inch by inch, like a game. Simon burst out laughing, pulling an outlandish face, and gripped Raphael’s chin. Raphael reached out and pinched his chin in return.
They lifted each other’s faces, moving it left and right, leaned in and pressed their foreheads together. They let go and traced a finger slowly from their collarbone to their belly button.
Like a challenge, they held each other’s eyes, all traces of humor gone.
For a little while, Simon and Raphael felt as if they were mirrors of some kind. Opposite, but the same.
Soon after, though Simon hadn’t made the connection, the first flicker of blue had appeared.
a.k.a.
Soulmate AU where you slowly start seeing color. Let the angst begin!
Like a halo in reverse by @gilmarverdes
The feeling began to become home. More of a home than vampirism would ever be. He'd stand alone, attempt God, and feel the pain. This is how it is, this is what I deserve, this is what I have become. I am this now. I will always be this. I deserve to hurt—
Until the day that God finally left his lips and remained in his throat, no choking, no burning. Just Raphael and God, severed.
Simon, on the other hand...
"Raphael," he whispers, "I'm so sorry. I thought—"
Raphael feels a twist in his stomach. It is a feeling that he hasn't experienced in a very long time. He needs to lead the clan, he needs to give them justice, but he's alone with Simon, most secure room in the Hotel DuMort like a past life, and all that he can feel is want, hunger, need. There is no room for justice in human want. It's sick. Raphael is very, very sick; this is the only explanation for the humanness, the only explanation for the twists.
"Do it again," Raphael says, his entire being turning into a betrayal right against Simon's body. "I need you."
Livin' just to find emotion by @joanthangroff
When Simon has to transfer to another school - the DuMort Academy -, the only thing that could save him from going mad would be to join the school's Glee club. Of course, life is not as easy as it could be, and he is denied to join just yet. He somehow manages to persuade the club's leader, Raphael, to prepare him so he can join in the next semester.
Mail for Ezekiel by @fangtasticsaphael
"Hey, buddy," Simon greeted the animal and reached out, gently scratching behind the dog's ear. Ezekiel tilted his head, playfully nudging the man's lower arm and stared up at him in clear anticipation. He huffed out a soft laugh and reached into the pocket of his light jacket, presenting the dog with a thin postcard with the message "Mail for Ezekiel" with two hearts scrawled next to it and beneath it he had written "have a dog-tastic day". Ezekiel seemed pleased as usual and ran off with his delivery while the off-duty-postman turned around to leave.
Master of pillow forts by @fangtasticsaphael
"What do you think you're doing, idiota?" Raphael asked wearily and frowned at the other's surprised yelp, followed by a pained sound when Simon dropped the heavy book right on his sock-clad foot. He quickly picked the book up again before directing his wide-eyed gaze at the clan leader who stared back at him with the most unimpressed expression possible.
"You're back already?"
"Obviously." Raphael's expression was a mix of disinterest and boredom but his gaze swept over the things strewn across the room in a silent order to answer his question instead of stating the obvious.
Never just that simple by @fangtasticsaphael
"It's not fake concern. I...I know I've been preoccupied with my own problems and that I didn't...that I didn't think much of the consequences or of...of the position you're in," Simon mumbled sheepishly, hands pushed into the pockets of his hoodie and head lowered while trying to keep up with Raphael's quick steps. It was actually pretty difficult to stick close to the clan leader despite the vampire speed because Simon still wasn't fully used to it and he could more quickly but not as smoothly and effortlessly looking as Raphael.
"The position you put me in," Raphael bit out, correcting Simon's statement with a bitterness that seemed to cut right through the slightly foggy air.
Not Actually Homophobic by @mymalecshinesbright
Raphael was extremely confused. Extremely. He didn’t understand this. He had never felt this before, and yet here he was, feeling it and he didn’t know where it was coming from. But it was here and now he had to deal with the fact that he was apparently homophobic because the sight of seeing his roommate kissing another boy made him want to vomit.
Not Like I Care by ChangeForTheBetter
Simon gets sexiled and seeks refuge in Raphael's room. (Again.)
But maybe Raphael doesn't mind so much.
Of all of the faces, you were the one next to me by mostlikelydefinentlymad
//if I love you // is that a fact // or a weapon
Of Sleep Deprivation And First Kisses (Or, How Tea Solves Problems) by PossiblyNobody
“You’re my roommate who’s super cute and it’s the middle of the night and you’re cramming for your exams in your flannel pajamas and disheveled hair and it’s becoming increasingly hard for me not to kiss you” AU.
Saphael Tumblr Prompt
On the List of Things (Read: People) Simon Thought He’d Never Do by @rainybookshop
Obviously Simon had missed the memo about his sexual orientation, but he can’t help thinking there might have been smarter ways to find out than by letting himself be seduced by someone who sort of scares the shit out of him.
One cup of coffee (is all it takes to fall in love) by @abluelightinthedark
Simon walks into the Starbucks in only a thin shirt, because he’s an idiot and forgot to take his jacket with him in the middle of november, and opens his mouth to greet his friends, but they are not there. Instead there’s another dude standing behind the counter, his green apron doing nothing to hide his beautiful body and sadly neither his grumpy expression.
Paved paradise by @simonxraph
Not only has Raphael stolen his parking spot and infiltrated his friend group, now he knows that Simon thinks he’s attractive.
Please Daddy by TrickyVicky3
Simon wilts under the pressure, but needing to have the last word he replies sarcastically, “Sure thing Dad”.
Raphael’s eyes widen “What did you just call me?” Simon looks up at him, placing the now empty glass back on the table in front of him as he licks fresh blood off his lips, “Dad, y’know, Daddy, cos like you’re making me –“
Raphael waves his hands in front of Simon “Please stop” he looks around uncomfortably before speeding away.
Professor knows it all! by @shadowhunterships
I saw a prompt on tumblr : I usually talk to my friends through sign language in class but… apparently you know sign language too… and now you know I think your butt is cute.Simon secretly loves Professor Raphael's butt and accidentally spills his secret to the professor himself!
Rhododendrons by @gilmarverdes
Part of him was hoping that he would never have to see Simon again; you rip the bandage off fast so it's less painful, you stitch up the wound quick so it's less painful, you let it heal slowly. These things take time.
But - who was he kidding, he's going to be entwined with Simon until the end of time, it seems. Quite literally.
Set me free by @fangtasticsaphael
His dark hair stuck against his forehead in wet, messy curls and every annoyed huff showed in form of a little white cloud leaving his lips and disappearing into the sky. He was a supernatural being but it was obviously too much to ask for some kind of immunity against the temperatures. Sure, he had to appear human but that didn't mean he basically had to be human.
"Just find the target, make the guy fall in love with the girl and the freezing is over," Raphael mumbled to himself through chattering teeth and pushed his hands deeper into the pockets of his hoody. At least he couldn't get sick but this didn't make the weather any more comfortable. His whole body seemed to be slowed down and stinging from the cold, icy wind pulling at the material of his jeans and the hoody he wore over his t-shirt, his boots kicking up snow with every step.
Shattered hearts by @fangtasticsaphael
"You can't say it back. Why haven't you said so earlier? All the other times I said it? I thought you just weren't ready yet but if you already know you can't love me, why not say it outright instead of leading me on?!" Raphael tried to hide the pain and anger swirling in his chest, masking his emotions with a cold mask.
Magnus had warned him, told him it was a bad choice to start something with Simon because the guy had almost managed to two-time and even if he had been 16 at the time, he still seemed so very undecided when it came to his love life. He clearly couldn't make up his mind about what he wanted, not back then and not now. Raphael had known it was a risk and he had to fight down the urge to place the blame on himself - to revert back to the thinking that maybe him being asexual and aromantic was the reason why Simon couldn't commit to this.
The one person he developed romantic feelings for, the one person he actually fell in love with, and here they were, apparently about to break up on Valentine's Day. It felt like a big, cosmic joke and Raphael suddenly felt so damn tired.
Shelter by @fangtasticsaphael
"I know you're about to close but maybe I could get a coffee?" Simon asked and his voice almost broke on a few words. He squinted a little because of the beads of water on his glasses that probably blurred his sight but Raphael could see that his dark eyes were mostly unfocused behind the smudged spectacles.
"You look like you rather need some tea and a bed," he commented dryly and rounded the counter to walk up to the door, flip the sign and then the lock as well. Raphael didn't care that they were supposed to be open for 20 more minutes. Nobody came in at this hour anyway and Simon's current state was a more pressing matter anyway.
"So, that's a no? You do realise I can't leave when you lock the door, though, right?"
Simon was fidgeting and raised his arm to hide a cough in the crook of his elbow, the sound muffled by the wet material of the hoodie he was wearing - not exactly the right choice of clothing for October if you asked Raphael.
Sign of the times by @joanthangroff
When Raphael is hit by a mysterious spell, Simon has to teach him how to be human.
Simon la Exploradora by RaphaelSantiago
Five Spanish words Simon learnt from watching Dora the Explorer, and the times he said them to Raphael.
Strange crossings. by @sadlyamundane
The universe works in strange ways, maybe that's why Magnus cancelled dinner with Raphael, maybe that's why Simon's blind date doesn't go as planned.
What ever it was, this was definitely the universe crossing their paths.
Sweetheart by @fangtasticsaphael
"It's Valentine's Day, someone probably just wanted to lighten the mood," Lily commented with a shrug and it might have been a slightly weird thing to do so with almost insulting messages on pastel coloured candy hearts but most clan members did think they were funny and a few had actually started a competition about who could find the most hearts - and the ones with the best messages.
"There's one with lol no balanced on top of the picture frame in the main hall. I have no idea how they even got it up there," Elliott informed them while strolling into the room and he stopped behind the couch, right next to Simon's shoulder who tilted his head back and blinked up at the other vampire frowning at him.
"You have one stuck in your hood," the other informed him and before Simon could react he had already snatched it up, eyebrows rising when his eyes read the message on the piece of candy.
Te Extraño (I Miss You) by andy_ros3
To Clary: I don’t think I can do this Clary. Is this even a good idea?? From Clary: Simon you have to do this. For yourself. Don’t worry, no matter what happens I’m here for you. To Clary: You’re right, thanks Clary. Omg we just pulled up outside the club. From Clary: Go inside and stop freaking out. To Clary: I’m not freaking out To Clary: I know your eyebrows are raised. Okay, yes, I’m freaking out. I miss him and I want him and I don’t know why he invited me here. It’s been 3months and 16 days Clary. Why now? Why would he wait so long to contact me for whatever reason? Why was I such an idiot? Oh god what if it’s just to return something I left at his or what if he tells me he’s met someone new and he’s moved on. From Clary: Simon stop. Stop overthinking this and go inside. Simon is about to text back to delay entering PanDEMONium but Clary beats him to it. She knows him too well. From Clary: You’re going to be fine, just go. Simon enters PanDEMONium expecting it to be the usual vibrant, enthralled and booming place but it’s empty apart from a grand black piano where Raphael sits playing a few notes. Simon knows he does that when he’s nervous.
Tendons too torn to beg (for you to let me back in) by @gilmarverdes
What hurts the most, the thing that makes him really ache, is how familiar he is with Simon. He knows the way that Simon smells; sickly, because every fledgling smells sickly, but with Simon it’s all different. Simon smells like – life, like something sick coming back to life. Like hope crawling out of its grave.
He knows the way that Simon sounds; the unnecessary breaths, the way that his voice mumbles when he talks because he still hasn’t gotten used to his fangs, the wrong thing in his mouth, and the way that he taps his fingers, the exact sound that he makes when he wakes up in the morning. A yawn like a wolf’s howl.
But worst of all, he knows the way that Simon feels.
The Game of Life by raphaelsontiago
“Why is school so damn expensive?” He grumbled, putting his money back in the bank.
“Maybe it’s because you have six cars full of kids, mi sol?” Raphael smirked and Simon wanted to throw the board across the room.
“It’s not my fault I got stuck with such a big family!” He protested. Raphael chuckled quietly and bit his lip.
“You know, a big family wouldn’t be all bad. Six cars of kids would be a bit of a hassle, but I think four or five kids would be nice.” Raphael’s gaze dropped to the floor and Simon nearly choked.
Raphael was asking to have a family with him.
or, the one where simon and raphael play life but they spend more time talking than playing the game
The Morning After by simonsantiago
Simon sits up and stares at Raphael’s back. “Are we…uh…dating now?”
“No,” Raphael says and Simon’s stomach sinks. “I don't date people who don’t let me sleep.”
The Path To Self-Discovery by @killjoyrow
Simon is the kind of bright, happy guy who needs everyone to be frends with him. Raphael would prefer to have no friends and save himself the headache.
In theory, they're far better off as distant colleagues - the contrast between them akin to day and night.
In reality, despite claiming to hate each other, the two couldn't be more perfect. It might just take them a little while to realise it.
The Punishment Fits The Crime by Hailhydration
When daylighter Raphael Santiago is forced to kill a rogue Warlock, the warlock's deranged lover curses him to never have a happy ending. Whoever falls in love with the vampire is destined to die if they touch him. To Raphael, who has long viewed himself as unlovable, this seemed like nothing. Of course, he didn't count on the persistent idiot known as Simon Lewis.
The Thing Is by foggynelson
The thing is: Raphael doesn’t want to love Simon. The thing is: he does anyway.
There is in it, the idea of the fall by scalira
“Angels touched by man cannot stay divine, Raphael. I thought I was very clear on that matter.”
And Raphael knows. He knows. But when he thinks about letting Simon touch him, about his lips pressing down on his, about his fingers tracing his skin, Raphael does not feel doomed. He does not feel tainted.
He feels infinite. He feels bigger than himself.
He feels… he feels human.
This is not what I dreamt it would be by @flying-on-the-wind
Raphael Santiago had always known that his soulmate would not be anything like what his mother had dreamt for him. Simon Lewis, on the other hand, had always dreamt of a soulmate that was nothing like what he got. But are dreams all that important? When real life is a thing that happens, and that you get to actually live?
This is the second part of a series in which soulmates are found upon the touch of skin. Each part will have a different pairing at it's centre, though all three are linked and together they form a fuller story.
Through Hell or High Water by @shadowcastershq
When Clary drags Simon to his local pool, he’s immediately smitten with the gorgeous but completely unapproachable lifeguard.
Till the sun comes up by @aleclwb
Simon takes a deep breath. “71.”
Clary gapes at him. “71?”
“Yes,” Simon snaps, “Yes, Clary, my number is 71. It’s right there,” he waves her wrist around, a little too aggressively, so it’s actually impossible to read. “The seven and the one. 71. My soulmate’s going to be 71 when we meet.”
Or, everyone has a number on their wrist that indicates how old their soulmate will be when they meet. Simon is trying to deal with the fact that his is abnormally high. It turns out not to be such a bad thing, after all.
Turnabout is Fair Play by @accordingtomel
“Uh, Raph?”
Raphael glances over at Simon with raised brows, using a finger to hold the place in the book he’s reading and shifting his attention towards him.
“Is there a reason that Magnus is sending you pictures of him and Alec kissing?”
Simon turns the phone around to show Raphael said picture.
“I think the better question is why you’re reading my text messages in the first place,” Raphael says, and reaches his free hand out, gesturing for the phone.
***
In an attempt to annoy Raphael, Magnus starts sending increasingly adorable pictures of him and Alec kissing. However, it's Simon who comes up with the perfect solution to get him back.
Until We Say "I Do" by heartsdesire456
When they had become engaged, it had been like a switch had flipped with their mothers. They were still very happy for them and they both were waiting with open arms to welcome the other into the family. No, the problem was not dislike.
The problem was that for some reason, the minute a ring came into the picture, both Raphael’s mother and Simon’s mother somehow immediately and independently became obsessed with their son’s future husband converting to their religion.
Upheaval by crystalclark94
Simon, well, he has the most unusual / off the beaten path twist of words etched across his ribs that he’s ever heard of. The font is an elegant black crawl with perfectly dainty pretty loops and swirls, and it says “Dios, I’m going to eat you if you don’t shut up!”
Variation on the word (sleep) by mostlikelydefinentlymad
"You can stare at me later you complete sap, come'ere." Simon pats the bed, awaiting the slight dip of the mattress. Raphael remains where he is, adoring.
Simon grumbles into his pillow about romantic vampires and kicking Raphael out to sleep on the sofa if he doesn't get his ass in bed.
Warmth & Light by foggynelson
“I’m cute, huh?”
“Oh shut up,” Simon says, lifting his heading up and looking at Raphael. “You’re absolutely gorgeous and you fucking know it.”
Wear my heart a little louder by @eversall
Raphael sucks in a sharp, unnecessary breath, eyes snapping up to meet Simon’s gaze, and he sounds, for the first time, the way Simon feels; like he’s coming apart at the seams with no hope of being pulled back together. Simon looks away, wants to backtrack and erase his temporary moment of weakness, because he’s not allowed to have that. . It always comes back to this - Simon trying to run away but being rooted to the spot by everything that lies between them.
When “You mean nothing“ turns into “You mean everything“ by @abluelightinthedark
There are two ways someone can whisper into your ear with their lips against your neck.
For one, it can be sweet, gentle, soft, hot, pleasant. A warmth, the feeling of being loved, someone taking care of you, kisses, relationships, compliments.
And then there are the times it’s threatening. A knife against your throat, death so close in front of you, fear. You feel scared, uncomfortable, want to cry. Screaming, kicking, then staying still, shaking, hurting, hoping, praying.
Simon unfortunately had to experience both ways in his rather short period of living.
The thing is, it was the same person every time.
Where my heart and future lies by scalira
Raphael hasn't been home for the holidays in years. Still being haunted by a tragedy that happened years ago, he isn't planning on visiting this year either. Until he gets a very persuasive email from a very angry man named Simon Lewis.
Where There is Fire by CastingMoonlight
Raphael is patient when Simon spirals into despair.
Because Raphael knows, and now Simon knows, and Fairchild will never understand what she did to him in the name of love.
Words of the prophets are written on the subway walls by @joanthangroff
After a fight with his current roommate Raphael Santiago is left with moving in with his old friend Magnus Bane. Naturally, this means lots of headaches for him and weird people stepping into his life.
You were always gold to me by mostlikelydefinentlymad
They take away the good in Raphael and reduce him to teeth like talons, a heart of stone. They don't even have to say the words when his name comes up - "He's a monster."
No, Simon wants to say. You've never witnessed him stripped bare, armor lying at his feet with a softness in his eyes that makes Simon want to turn away. But they were present when the high walls around his heart became a weapon. They heard the words "Kill them" and glossed over what wasn't being said - 'Of all the people, why did it have to be you? I wanted you to stay.' Nor did they hear the full extent of Simon's betrayal, how it cut straight into tendons where it bled the most - 'Is it too late to go back?'
They cannot see the gold in him.
You’re an asshole, Mr Santiago! by @fangtasticsaphael
He heard the sound again and it made his hair stand on end because the creaky wood noise sounded like someone walking very slowly, dragging their feet with every step and it was like right out of a horror movie. Simon suppressed the ridiculous urge to go knock on the door to his mother’s and sister’s room but he also felt like these sounds were far from normal and what if ghosts were real after all?! It was the middle of the night, he was still tired and his brain did not function properly - he was allowed to think stupid shit!
Simon couldn’t tell why it seemed like a good idea to snatch up his key and leave his room but that was exactly what he did. Not to investigate the creepy sounds, he knew how such things turned out and he didn’t have a death wish, but to get further away from the noises. The dimmed lights in the hallway made the old hotel look even eerier and a few steps away from his door he severely regretted the decision to leave his room. He turned around to head back, saw a dark silhouette at the other end of the hallway that definitely moved and…he bolted. No.fucking.way!
You're in the right place by ghostfacers
Simon Lewis is an average high school teacher just trying to make sure the future generation gets there. He never asked to get his room moved next to the one guy in the whole school who probably hates him the most. That's all Luke's fault.
You're the one that I want by @sadlyamundane
“Hypothetically” Simon said pushing his Spanish text book away, he leaned back in his hair and watched as Raphael chewed on the bottom of his pen in concentration. “Hypothetically” Raphael repeated, propping his head up on his hand to show that he was listening. “If I liked someone, but I don’t” Simon hastily said when Raphael quirked an eyebrow “but if I did and I wanted to know if that person likes me back, what do I do?”
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