#s do that why cant my brain just work like a normal brain why do i always have to be so lackluster next to everyone else when i used to be b

[phinjeet]

genuine question: but why do you have certain typing mannerisms? like I'm putting them down or saying "oooh weird = bad" just curious?

like why you put * at the beginning of a paragraph or use z instead of s

it's very interesting and i'm just curious why

* hmm ! well ! the asteriskz at the start of paragraphz are cuz of a past undertale hyperfixation lol (i enjoy feeling like every message i send iz a line of dialogue in a videogame hehe) , n the z just feelz natural ig ?? where u write an s but it Soundz like it should be a z . im just like hmmm . ykw . it WILL be a z (mayhapz this iz a non-native english speaker thing , we uze z a lot in latvian n itz a lot more phonetically consistent)

* therez also the shortening of wordz like love to lov , and spacez between text n punctuation which i just one day thought would look cool , so i started doing it n now itz uncomfortable Not to do it

* writing “normal” just feelz too .. serious ? formal ? not quite genuine ? and it feelz like im communicating som of my weirdness through the way i type , and it can kinda work az a test of like . will u accept that som ppl type (talk , behave) “Weird” ? will u think less of an autistic person for how it expressez itself or can u respect me and my opinionz even if u dont understand me ?

* but also i just like to hav fun , and this iz how i hav fun through typin stuff ! i mean itz not much different from ppl who type in all lowercase (which iz . lookz away . also smth i got from (sanz) undertale) , i just kept adding onto it lol ! it scratchez my brain , makez me happy . im kicking “if u do this ppl will think ur weird , no one will be ur friend” in the face cuz no i WILL be outwardly weird ! scare away the shallow ppl who cant look past simple differencez n attract the fellow neurodivergent weirdoz who are happy to talk to me typing quirkz and all !

* idk if this stuff makez a good enough answer , ultimately i just do it cuz it makez me happy ! like i put a bit of myself into my text !

[j2zara]

what if. j2 j3 and j4 all had uniquely terrible days due to a chain of events. j4 had to interact w porter for an extended period of time because j3 was busy helping jace (and jace spent the whole time yelling at j3 because. well. j3 is jace's least favorite.) because j2 could not get out of bed bc he was so miserable after his night being the jaceporter third. and theyre all so rattled and miserable that theyre like. should we fuck. it probably wont make it better but surely it cant make it worse

god j4 having to interact w/ Porter for an extended period of time b/c the other two are out of commission... her NIGHTMARE SCENARIO...

also i love that combined w/ my kinda Off Day im laughing bc im like i love that this is where ur heads at and i won't complain... so real tho like fucking won't fix the problem but it definitely wont make it WORSE.. something something its a bold strategy cotton lets see if they pull it off...

Just looking at this and this rly is the toxic cocktail day huh. And J2 doesn't even really get why he feels so miserable b/c he should be happy about this, right? He got what he wanted which was more than the other clones get. I do think even tho J3 had a bad fuckin day and he's typically kinda bad at taking initiative and his solution to literally everything in the world is like strip b/c its time to fuck or die, I do think he comes home and sees how miserable J2 is after he's done kinda snapping at him for sitting around and how he had to pick up the slack he's like oh. He's like. Really not on it today. In instead of his go to response being a little freak he just kinda holds J2 for a little while and it's really nice and it does make j2 feel better. It kinda surprises everyone that J3 knows how to pull out a massage for him while J2 just kinda lays there n groans (n tries to be normal abt it but honestly. Is maybe kinda turned on) n its like hey what i can put the work in sometimes.

and it's rly with no ulterior motive at all (b/c when j3 proposes other ppl take shit out on him he almost always does want to get something out of it too) when J3's like hey if you feel bad you can take it out on me. Its like. the only thing he knows so that's what he suggests. (and he literally he just got a fraction of what J2 gets on the regular so like he does feel bad. Jace is nastier to j3 than j2, like jace can be nice to j2 on occasion but he also doesn't deal w/ j3 as much so he is kinda spared from a lot of that). But he does try to make a joke abt it b/c that's what he always does like he's the one who can't keep it in his pants like. Do whatever you want to me I'll take it. Honestly it'll just turn me on. (N j2 doesn't really wanna take anything out on j3 but i do think a handy would get him out of his head a bit. And J3 is just excited to servicing someone else bc that means he doesn't have to think abt his own problems. who said that)

I know this is more of a like. Everyone Together situation (hello still thinking abt the j3 sandwich). and i DO think that happens n J3 is like REALLY excited bc it bc like he's in a bad fucking mood too and nobody rly acknowledges that he ends up being the bedrock in these situations like yes J2 takes on so much n j3 feels guilty he's not picking up the slack but j3 does end up kinda being the shoulder for everyone n its like. Damn i want something out to this too, i want out of my head too. So yeah the j3 sanwich is very exciting for him

But. This is such an indulgence on my part. i do legit think J4 dealing w/ Porter is her fucking limit in that. She kinda comes in slamming the door and J3 is expecting the worst from her (in a way that kinda excites him) n to his surprise she just kinda grabs him n starts taking off his shirt and pushes him against the wall n starts making out w him and is like no we're literally doing this right the FUCK now b/c i've had a long day. As is the fantasy high staple... she's getting her kisses in. And his brain is short circuiting b/c this is the first time she's ever initiated something with him without him being the whiny bored one like his weird like i definitely want you to fuck me but also im gonna be extremely coy abt what i want routine that drives her crazy but she usually caves to. Like holy fuck j4 is the one to initiate this time its not like i've been shaking over this n hoping this would happen and he doesn't know if its the day she had or if its him but he'll take it he doesn't care. After the day he had he deserves this too doesn't he?

[skapediem]

2, 4, 7, 9 (this can include you know what 😏), 12, 15 B))

TY JEROME!! <3

2. favourite episode(s)? HI BOB!!! one of my favourite episodes of any show ever its such a comfort watch < absolutely SHOULD NOT be a comfort watch but it is im just such a sucker for bottle episodes.... also sands of ares for that same reason!! + bring it down for danny those are probably my top 3 but id also say prime crew and leningrad :)

4. favourite use of the alternate history timeline? kind of a basic answer cause its like. the conceit of the whole show but i really just love how far the fam universe has gone with space exploration and cold war tension like im suuuuch a massive nerd about that period of time as it is but its just so sick seeing how much progress can be fuelled by such petty competition like theres something just so human about it if that makes any sense at all. its just cool getting to draw the connections between things that happen in the show to what happened in reality just finding those parallels or places where things diverged its just a fun little layer of worldbuilding.

7. favourite earth moment? THERES SOOO MANY oh no how do i choose... god i feel like i should pick something to do with the space program but margo and aleidas one interaction in the grey.... everyone has worked so hard you cant say its over like its nothing who is this why is she speaking to me she apologises no i dont yes you do i like this one.... scene i obviously feel super normal and regular about. also molly chewing out ed and gordo like theyre kids whove been sent to the principal that was super fun :)

9. favourite non-canon ship? Oh You Know.... but an answer for the viewers at home who dont know Yet iii also quite like margomolly with wayne being fully aware and supportive i just think its a fun little dynamic. + i dont think they should be together EVER theyre so so so terrible for eachother but gorded does have a sneaky little nook in my brain just to contemplate

12. best bit of tech in the alternate timeline? THE SOLAR SAIL!!! i mean i know its a real thing but on the scale that they had on sojourner i just love it sooo much i love you operation jolly roger... also d-mailing i know its not like. a Bit of tech its just terminology but its funny to meee i laugh every time

15. wild mass guessing for season five? jimmy gets out of prison and starts an investigation into danny's neglect by helios command < very wishful thinking ummmmm genuine answer tensions with canada and their space program i feel like they haven't been mentioned much since the news reel.... australia comes into the mix somehow even though we still dont have much of a program in this universe by the looks of things (there is AN australian working for helios we can hear her accent when theyre all yelling at eachother but still. can we actually do something pretty please) and maybe javi and graciana get to do. idk. somthing. i feel like they need to establish the legacy/family characters more if theres gonna be 3 more seasons

[rush-the-stars]

okay, so,,, I could be wrong,, but I just saw your most recent Ask on my dashboard, and Ithink. the anon who just left you a fuck-ton of nicknames for Knives might be @demxnscous ' 💗 Anon??? which,, if I'm right: this is INSANE timing cuz i just left dEm's inbox a few hours ago saying how much i loved 💗's ideas and how annoying it is that i cant bug 💗 on their own blog for more cuz i have so much brainrot cuz of their ideas. cuz, my guY, CIELO,, I AM BEING SO GAWD DAMN SERIOUS RN,,,,,,, THEIR IDEAS ARE SO GOOD,, YOU SHOULD READ THEM IF YOU HAVENT ALREADY. THEY OUTTED THEMSELVES AS ALL THESE PAST ANONS IN DEM'S INBOX JUST LAST NIGHT; AND APPARENTLY DEM IS DEDICATING HER KNIVES' IN HEAT FIC TO 💗 CUZ THEIR IDEAS INFLUENCED SO MANY OF HER IDEAS,, AND, SHIT, 💗 HAS SUCH A BIG BRAIN, I LOVE EVERY WORD THEYVE DROPPED INTO DEM'S INBOX

as for why i think your anon is them, before they renamed themselves as 💗, they had this long fuck name that was basically "anon who reads fanfics for fandoMS I'M NOT IN" AND LEAVES VARIOUS FIC REFERENCES IN DEM'S INBOX AS INSPIRATION FOR SOME OF THEIR KNIVES IDEAS?? I suppose it is perfectly normal for there to be like,,,, multiple reading fanfics for content they do not even consume tho, that's not like a thumb-print of an i.d. tag, buT STILL??? HELLO??? 💗, YOU BASTARD, IS THAT YOU, I LOVE YOU???

anyway, again, youd probably love their conversations and 💗's brain too, gooD GAWD,, PLZ, you should go look if you didnt already see them like shIT,,, THEY HAVE SUCH A WRINKLY BRAIN AND IT IS SOOOO FUCKING UP YOUR ALLEY

oh damn i wouldn’t be surprised!!! that’d be very neat!!! and i have defs seen rumblings of such from @demxnscous /have seen anons talking ab many of these nai thoughts 👀👀 god esp the heat fic i’m 👀👀👀 IM LOOKING IM LISTENING IM HERE IM IN ATTENDANCE

💗 anon if you see this it seems like ppl appreciate your work friend <333 if this is all you!!! you’re a sleuth anon!!

man i appreciate writing community :,)) it’s a lot of fun to get an ask ab some juicy thoughts. i love to write a great deal and will always do it for a fandom or not but the riffing and brainstorming and just being goofy or fun or crazy w pals is also the reason i’m Here you know!

so if it is that is very fun we have this lil community!! :,)) <33

[lovergirl03]

okay so kinda back in my yapping silly mindset idk!! my head just needed to explode and talk and idk im just talking about nothing rnn but thisi s how my brain works bc everything feels so impoirtant but idk!!! im CONFUSED why do i talk smm but im also so awkward n shy its actually so confusing to me and probably people around me and it scares me i just want someone to baby me bc i think i lowkey talk a lot out of pressure but i also dont know bc even when im alone like this i dont stop YAPPING so uhm i guess i need someoen who i can talk too about silly thing but who doesnt just listen and returns equal if not more energy??? im not rlly sure bc when someone just listens i get rlly insecure and feel judged but that is what it is i guess anyways its christmas time and im craving like sugar star shaped cookies and i might try to make some actually thats a rlly good idea. im also needing new music i love the songs i listen to but i need something new to just make me feel magical rnn!! I still want to run across an empty meadow and just collapse into the fresh grass and yuh yuh yuh. currently strugglign to know what i want bc guys can be rlly cool but if they show any signs of brattyness or more femininity than masc i cant act normal aroudn them and start being kind of grumpy and idk i dont rlly like that. and im trying to tell myself i shouldnt feel bad for having that preference. but it does feel rlly shallow at the same time and im sorry :(( i just need someone who can handle me and balance me out and if i feel like a certain type of ppl makes me act worse then i shouldnt encourage myself or feel bad for that right?? idk maybe im just being weird rnn!! But ya blah blah blah i need to learn more strumming patterns <333

[the-s1lly-corner]

O! Okay! I just got a lil bit spooked since people have been mentioning how tumblr eats up asks and leaves no crumbs more frequently. i dont normally go out of my way to go to asks unless i am in the mood for socialization and even then i scurry away after sending it like i just sent a breakup text to a toxic gf in middle school, so my ass would Not be Exited if it was eaten.

Things not really changing can be Not Great, you just have to find the balance. It can get too much and just repetitive, i know. It's great that you have clear limits on such things:]

You know.. i would show some resistance just for the sake of keeping up a play, but who would i be kidding? Skeletons are hot as fu Itward is a very nice gentleman AND he's a mechanic!!! Dream man

Ye, that would be me. I know I AM annoying so vjhcgxgz-

I actually am a little writer myself, althrough my works are not full-out fics like i tried to once force myself to do, i really try to make them good, even when i am writing for myself. Just little oneshots and snippets for a bigger story.. i think i have at least somewhat nice way with words, plus always a few ideas cooking up, but something just keeps me from putting them out. Perfectionism and fear, mostly.

Multiple things!!

I totally get the sending stuff in and the socialization thing <\3 even with anon I get way way way too nervous to ask for stuff from other blogs 😭😭 as well as this I'm beating up tumblr for being hungry and eating stuff grrgrr

Second!! UEUEUE thank you!! Building my personal limits and boundaries has been a huge... thing.. for since I'm a total peoples pleaser, I think my TADC stuff is the first proper time I actually. Listened to myself eith my discomforts; because I have powered through requests that made me feel... ucuvjjvv... but I didnt wanna upset anyone <\3

That said I am more open to actually

Denying stuff that makes me uncomfy/I feel I cant do an idea justice

Third! Hehehe itward ♡♡

If he wasnt dream man material then why have I had a crush on him since the game released 7ish years ago (or has it been 8 years??? I've lost track)

Fourth!! You're not annoying at all, at least I dont thimk so! I know we've only spoken via asks but you seem nice and silly!!

Fifth

I really felt that too; even though I mostly write short lists of headcannons I feel that I need to keep adding to the list even if my brains gone to paste

Even with short stories, I feel that I need to blow it up into something larger it is. Either by adding more to it or by making several pieces connected to one other and then I fret and it just

Gets abandoned

It sucks, and I get that <\3

Perfectionism sucks, and although this is not something you have mentioned; I feel sometimes people are too mean or picky with their fanfic, and this leads to them being rather rude to a fic writer

I.E. demanding something, slamming the writing for not being to their tastes, complaining that theres nothing for their favorite character or media or an idea they want, ect ect I think that also feeds into perfectionism; at least for me.. makes it feel like I need to make it s tier material

[birdkittenn]

continuing with this once more

wrath layer fic bonus chapter 5 reaction

i didnt expect to write this one at all! that's why it's a bonus! i don't remember why i did but hey it exists now! it was originally going to be a vehicle for more gay shit but then the angst kind of took over and i really didn't have room for that

wow, what a surprise! i love it when giant structures and the environment itself is alive! even better if the layout is large, confusing, and ever-shifting!

(for people who didn't know me then, at some point before i got into ultrakill, i was writing my own pokemon mystery dungeon lore and the dungeons are alive, in a sense. and they're always changing too)

🫵gay people......v2 Immediately resigned btw the moment they had their own moment of realization and proceeds to pine and does ambiguously gay shit so he can go "nuh uh" if asked. compared to v1 who immediately goes "we have to get married right now. this instant. or im goin g to start biting people"

this is my explanation on robot kisses because they will Not stop. i open my docs. they immediately start making out sloppy style. help

not sure if unhinged is the right word but v2 has little qualms just removing body parts from itself. like yeah part of it doesn't want to do so but that gets outweighed if it thinks that just straight up hurting itself will help with the situation

this doesn't change! in fact, that trait gets a little worse over time!

"yeah im gonna do something you dont like and you cant stop me. whats that? you dont want me to do this anymore? fuck you. im not listening. i cant hear you"

im still workshopping and trying to nail down this trait, but, low empathy v2. the charge/ward thing just changes his priorities and that is the closest thing he can feel in terms of empathy

if v1 is removed as his charge/ward, he's actually quite fine with it being damaged, to a certain extent. like life-threatening stuff is a no go, no matter what, but he's fine if v1's bleeding, compared to having v1 assigned, where he will attempt to fix that as soon as possible

this was supposed to be a vehicle for gay shit </3 you know, trapping your faves in a small box

also i originally planned for an entire ass kabedon when they got out but you know. angst. can't do that anymore

i'm taking clingy not just in the normal sense of physical affection but clingy as in "you're not going anywhere without me"

like most people would try to rescue their loved ones from a near-death experience like this regardless but i just want you to know that was what was going on in my head

it's meant to be a little incomprehensible so i dont just Reveal Straight Up what the referenced event is

trying so hard not to hurt someone you once wanted dead

and that reminded me of a tumblr post so lookie

yay! that doesn't apply as much to them now because they're moving on from the enemies thing but before that? yeag

in an alternate universe i could write them being both lovers and enemies at the same time but that is very hard for me to write, so it's enemies to lovers here. works out for my brain because it keeps generating fluff scenarios all day every day

and that's the end of the wrath fic! i don't think i'll write anything more for it. maybe there will be a bonus 2 chapter idk but dont count on that

who wants to see me liveblog my reaction to my own fic

[one-way-dream]

oughg sorry

[mapleshmaple]

,

[star-bribery]

↖️↖️↖️↖️↖️ fool

[crossnamara]

OKAY OKAY SO

damien,,,,, as he is presented for like. in my head i classify them as seasons of both like. media and seasons of the year so lets go with that.

as he is presented for the first season, he is this sweet ghost guy who couldnt hurt a fly, and thats true! but as the story goes on, there are.. hints. he doesnt remember anything about his past. damien polter was just a name given to him after death, after he became a camper. no one knew him before then, before he died in around the 40s.

this next part is. a little thing i wrote. then i will get back into the Me Talking

D.P.: I.... Audio log, recording the research of Elysian counselor Damien Polter. I found a tape. I find a lot of tapes, normally old interview recordings from the 80's, but this looked so much older. Like from the time I first got here. Or, died, I guess. I guess that was why I wasn't shocked when I heard my own voice on here. The following-... The following is the tape recording labeled "AEO Staff Evaluation, Agent Tower 13"

"...: Please state your name and position into the recorder. 

D.P.: (cold, harsh monotone) Damani Percival, guard. 

...: Thank you, Mr. Percival. Now, you have been exemplary in your performance in your current position, and the Annis Ebony Organization believes that you deserve a promotion. You will be transferred to a different department and a slight raise in salary. D.P.: (slightly less monotone) Thank you, sir, I accept the offer.

...: This was not as offer, Percival, it was an order. This was the very first branch of this organization, a humble little place called Camp Anomaly in the Uncanny Valley. Don't let the name fool you, though. The things there are vile, vicious creatures and- (heavy static)" 

D.P.: I... I know that was my voice. That's not my name, I don't remember that- I think I need a minute. (tape clicks off)

D.P.: God, I... I found more about this... Damani Percival. A diary entry, dated in March of 1939. I don't know if I can.... I will read it out, so I have an audio copy of this... File. I want to burn it. 

"March 3rd, 1939 Another one of those things attacked me today. I don't know why they insist that they are people, they are not even civilized enough to be considered animals. They are beasts, and deserve to be caged away from innocents. It is difficult to write now, as it bit my left hand, but I was able to put that thing in its place. The body was incinerated, a waste of energy if you ask me."

D.P.: I'm left-handed. I have a scar in the shape of a.... Human bite, on that hand. I want to believe that there is no way that this cruel man could have been me, but I don't know if I can deny it. I can't let the others find out. I don't want to lie to them, but... I don't want them to hate me, they can't hate me. (short pause) I'll do more research into this, but um. End of this recording, I guess. (tape clicks off)

yeag. so he used to work for the fukced up organization that ran the camp. called the peiople he now sees as friends monsters. animals.

damani did go rouge, technically. came to his senses about how fucked up this place was, showed some compassion to a kid. and you know what he got for it? a bullet to the brain, put down like a sick dog, and all his memories of that previous life erased, fated to live his eternity as what he once despised

damien goes into a superrrrrrrrrrr deep depression about this and feels like he cant tell anyone why and.ough he normally always has his hair up in some form. but like this he doesnt. and to get him back on his feet, lily just. sits down with him and braids his hair.

questions about your ocs!!

which one is your favorite?

which one did you have the most fun creating?

which one do you know the most about?

how did you have the idea for them?

AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!<333333333

lunar will always be my baby but i have a very soft place in my heart for mary

i had so much fun with damiens backstory (hes so sad). but lunar was the first one i made so. he is my baby

ough...... honestly. probably tammy. even though hes the hardest for me to write (since the person i used to make it with normally wrote his dialouge)

it was originally when i was big into camp here and there and was trying to get said (now ex) friend into it, he listened to the first episode and was like "lets make a podcast"

i dont think i want it to be a podcast anymore but thats where the characters came from

[hitmewithabusposts]

hiii i’ve been obsessed with your works and realized i didn’t even follow you 💔 saw you were looking for requests though so i’m here to deliver a few :D

the ever classic, bed sharing or maybe what the guys do when their s/o is having a bad day??

okay, love u n ur work <3

Thank you so much that means a lot to me because your writing is one of my FAVORITES 💓 Literally your blog is so so good and you are an amazing writer!

sharing a bed with the guys HC (fluff, not fully nsfw but suggestive???)

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Johnny

It was bound to happen at some point, you had assumed.

The past few weeks of filming, you and Knox had gotten significantly closer, and were constantly getting teased by the others on set.

“Take her to bed already man!” Steveo yelled at him one day, when you and Knox had ended up wrestling after he tried (and failed) to pull a prank on you.

Little did you know, that that is exactly where you’d end up. You were at a bar an hour ago with the rest of the guys, but now you and Johnny had found your way back to the hotel you were staying at, and were in the elevator to go upstairs.

When the doors opened, you didn’t walk in your room’s direction, instead you just grabbed Johnny’s sleeve, the alcohol in your system acting before your brain could.

“What’s wrong sweetheart?” He said, coming closer to you, and wrapping an arm around your waist.

“I wanna stay with you” is all you told him, and that cocky bastard just smiled at you, and pulled you behind him into his room.

He knew you both were too drunk to do anything besides sleeping, but he didn’t wanna leave you behind in that elevator either. So he threw you one of his tee shirts to change into as he climbed under the sheets.

When you joined him, your heart was racing and him scooting himself closer to you wasnt helping.

“Ya know you’re pretty, right?” He smiled at you, light from the TV glistening off his eyes as he stared at you.

“I could say the same thing about you, Mr.Clapp” you giggled, knowing he hated when you called him by his actual name.

He ended up pulling you closer to him, and you willingly obliged, laying your head on his bare chest. If you were sober you knew you’d be in your own hotel room, alone right now.

You woke up in the morning to Jeff banging on his door telling him to get up, but felt Knox’s arm tighten around your waist, and could feel something else pressing against you. The affects of the alcohol last night rang in your head, but you didn’t regret coming back here.

“Morning” he muttered, uncomfortably shifting his hips away from you, but still holding onto your torso.

You guys ended up talking that morning, among other things, and ended up confessing your feelings to each other, and when you told the rest of the guys that you two were together now, you were just shocked at how many of them placed bets on how long it would take.

Bam

You’d go back with Bam and Ryan to West Chester on break from filming, since you grew up with them as kids and haven’t seen April and Phil for a while.

When you get there, you plan on taking the couch but April tells you to take Bam’s bed or the guest bed from Ryan, which just results in Ryan locking himself in the guest room.

“It’s my bed tho mom” “I don’t care, let her sleep there you can sleep on the couch”

You feel bad kicking Bam out of his own bed, especially since he clearly doesn’t want to sleep on the couch. “Why don’t we just share? Just keep your hands to yourself” you proposed, and he agreed.

“Cant promise to keep on my side, what if I get cold?” He asked with a laugh, which just earned a slap to his shoulder from you as you climbed in next to him.

You guys just layed there and talked about random stuff like you normally did until you both fell asleep,

In the morning, you opened your eyes to the unfamiliar feeling of a head on your chest and an arm over your stomach.

Remembering where you fell asleep last night, you looked down and saw Bam with his head tucked against your chest, softly snoring away.

You found yourself blushing, especially when his hair fell on his face and he scrunched his nose up. He just looked so calm for once in his life.

He suddenly opened his eyes, and smiled widely at you, “see something you like?”

“Definitely not” you told him barely above a whisper, smiling as your cheeks burned red, but you found yourself raising a hand to run through his hair and he nestled back into your chest again, and closed his eyes.

Steveo

You don’t remember how you ended up here, but you know you woke up with a splitting headache, barely anything on, and in the same bed as an equally bare Steveo

You took a deep breath, looking around the room without sitting up, and remembered you were at a party at his apartment last night, you’d just never actually been in his room before now (or apparently last night)

“Steveo” you whispered, and poked his shoulder, holding his blanket around yourself.

He flung his hand over and swatted yours away, burying his head in his pillow.

“Steveo.” You said louder, this getting him to turn his head at you now, with a smirk on his face.

“Why the fuck am I in your bed right now?!?” You asked, wanting to knock that smirk off his face till you got some answers

“You don’t remember?” He asked, starting to laugh

“Obviously not dumbass!”

“We were all playing truth or dare, and Knox and Pontius dared you that you wouldn’t sleep with me, so you did! I was just as wasted as you were princess” he said, still laughing as your cheeks burned red as memories started to flood back.

You had stupidly decided to tell Chris that you thought Steveo was cute a couple weeks back when you guys were once again, drunk, and of course he decided to use that against you.

“You should see your face right now” he told you, now fully rolled over towards you and smiling.

“I hate them, and you” you told him, blushing again.

“Really didn’t seem like you hated me too much last night, wanna test that theory out again?” He questioned, raising an eyebrow.

If it wasn’t for your splitting headache, you know you would have said yes.

So you opted to say, “thanks to you assholes I feel like shit, but call me later” as you rolled out of bed, half covered up with one of his blankets and out of his door.

Ryan

You guys had been traveling for Jackass, and arrived at a new hotel.

You were in the middle of a prank war with Bam and Dave, and when you came out of your rooms bathroom, you found your room absolutely trashed, and your bed on the balcony of your hotel room, the mattress down on the ground below.

Knowing there was no way you were going to get that back upstairs, you went looking for Bam or Dave, but they had already barricaded themselves in their rooms. So you chose to pound on their doors.

“Y/n, you locked out or something?” Ryan said, opening his door which was next to Bams room, rubbing sleep from his eyes.

“No, your dumbass friend and Dave broke into my room when I was showering and threw my bed over the balcony, so I was gonna make one of them go get it” I chuckled, watching as he looked down at his feet and laughed too.

“Just come in here for tonight, it’s late and we’ve been traveling all day, no need to wake anyone else up with your knocking, I’ll help you get them back tomororw” he said, holding his hotel room door open wider

“You sure?” “I don’t have cooties, y/n” he joked, holding his arms up and spun around quickly pretending to let you check him for them.

You walked in his room, and flopped down on his bed, watching as he walked over and climbed in next to you. You always thought he was cute but suddenly being here alone with him in his room made it hard for you to find words

“I’m not gonna bite” he told you, nudging you in the shoulder as he could sense your tenseness. “I can sleep on the couch or something If you want” he added which made you feel guilty.

“No, I’m sorry, just I didn’t wanna impose” you blurred out before deciding to add some sort of joking factor to break the tension in the air, “besides who’d pass up the opportunity to sleep with the Ryan Dunn”

“I could say the same thing about you” he said, winking at you and reaching over the turn off the light, thankfully just in time to hide the blush that had appeared on your face.

“Ryan?” “Yea?” “Do you care if I like, scoot closer to you? It’s cold in here and all my warmer clothes are back in my room and I’m scared they booby-trapped my room by now” you confessed, making him laugh again.

“Why would I say no to that?” He said, lifting the blanket up so you could wrap yourself closer to his side. “Thank you” you mumbled, feeling warm and sleepy, the anger from the whole bed-over-the-balcony situation fading

“Goodnight y/n” he mumbled, pressing a soft kiss to your forehead

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Let me know either in my asks or comments if I should do a part 2 of this with the rest of the guys‼️

[atherix]

ITS TIME TO SCREAM AGAIN I AM CRACKING MY FINGERS I AM TYPING IN A WORD DOC LETS GO. @ your lovely readers I need you all to know I read this at 7 in the morning and it is the sole reason I even woke up bc atherix SENT ME A DM BEING LIKE ‘You’re welcome’ WITH NO CONTEXT BUT I KNEW! I KNEW!!!

God the combination of the current agitation with the previous peace is such a good parallel to how Past worked as a little buffer between the previous parts of Midnight and now, how things are starting to really ramp up rapidly. But also – who did take the picture? Gem? The Beans? Grian or Mumbo? So many options. Well I guess it cant be Grian or Mumbo since he’s actively wondering who took the photo unless Mumbo was hanging around during the staff carving without Grian which I doubt. And it’s such a small thing too and yet it feels so normal in the middle of this just utter chaos that is the three of them almost dying. [The four of them, I saw how Scar looked. Well. Read. Saw. You get me.]

AND THEN THE SPLIT SECOND WHERE GRIAN THINKS SCAR MIGHT FOLLOW THE WATCHERS? DIRECTLY FOLLOWING GRIAN LOOKING AT THESE PEACEFUL PHOTOS?????/ THE PARALLELS AT PLAY HERE FHSKJFLK And that split second of Grian being like “No no no nononono-“ god I’m so happy they’re gonna talk next chapter, it’s a very good thing Grian didn’t act on his immediate instinct to panic and instead actually used his brain for longer than a second, but oh my god. It is a good thing they’re going to talk. I need them to talk. I need Grian to s p i l l because to some extent he’s spilt sure, but scar and mumbo have said SO much more than he’s said even to just mumbo or you know. Us. The readers. And lkgshfd I need them to TALK about it oh my god and then also the way grian goes ‘it doesn’t matter I trust scar’ and puts it back sadklgsd esp coupled with how he and Scar argue later in the story I am screaming. Also this part – “because he’s not an Observant anymore, either. Maybe in more ways than one, he thinks.” YEAH, GRIAN. YEAH. A LITTLE BIT. ‘Godling’. Whatever.

The way he’s compelled to look at this thing though, at the last page? I am FROTHING at the mouth for watcher stuff oh my god. That whole passage hit me right in the religious trauma. I may have made notes. Ahem. “to Judge and Weigh the hearts of those who threaten thy Chosen” So I’m gonna scream about this until you tell us what the chosen is. BTW. “This is what it means to be a Watcher, and this Pantheon shall not entertain the Wretched Gods who turn their backs on these Tenets” Grian ‘I don’t remember this part in the book/I don’t remember the watchers acting according to their tenets’ BABY WHY DO YOU THINK YOU KILLED THEM. ALSO. TERRIFIED FOR THE MULTIPLE IMPLICATIONS IN THE TENETS FOR GRIAN. BTW. I SEE YOU. “Observe that which does not belong to thee” I SEE YOU  and the way it tells him to find his PEOPLE and it seems to be speaking directly TO HIM IM!!!!!!! The fact that he answers his own question in a sense because he makes sure to point out they’re his family. His people. His place.

ALSO THE FACT THAT THIS THE FIRST TIME GRIAN HAS FLOWN SINCE HE WAS CLIPPED AND ITS TO GO DO SOMETHING TO IRREVOCABLY STUPID THAT I WANT TO SHAKE HIM LIKE A BAG OF DRIED BEANS!!!! GRIAN!!!! I DON’T WANT YOU TO DIE BUT FRANKLY THIS IS DUMB ENOUGH THAT YOU DESERVED THE ABSOLUTE SCARE ON YOUR LIFE BLONDIE FUCKING GAVE YOU TO BE HONEST!!!!!!! Oh and I love that while he’s doing this ridiculously dumb thing he’s also being smart about how he gets into the house IM GONNA THROTTLE HIM!!!! FRANKLY SCAR MIGHT ALSO THROTTLE HIM BASED ON HIS REACTION LATER ON-

Speaking of Scar, the little signs that he’s been in the manor more and more, that he’s *theirs* and they are *his* is so asladksh I am in love. Especially considering this whole chaotic day started with them trying to get the sunroom together to surprise Scar. I am emotional about it. AND THEY WAY IT LENDS HIMSELF TO GRIAN REALLY LEANING INTO HIS POSSESSIVE STREAK, WHICH I GESTURE ABOVE BACK TO THE TENETS ABOUT, MIND YOU.

ASDGFSH; Grian. Sweetie. I am throttling you personally. ‘Coming here alone was stupid’ YEAH IT WAS, TURN AROUND AND GO BACK OUT THE WINDOW, BUT NOOOOOOOOOOO NOOOOOOOOO WE GOTTA GO INTO THE KITCHEN AND FACE DOWN THE STARVING VAMPIRE WHO TOLD YOU YOU HAD GODLING BLOOD BC YOU WANT ANSWERS! Picture me absolutely shaking him. Speaking of the vampire, the way Blondie MANGLED their home as a reflection of how she mangled them too. Christ. She drives me insane in the worst way, that’s their HOME- [Mumbo get silver out of your HOME I AM ALSO THROTTLING HIM!!!!!]

This show down though is worth the absolute throttling I want to give Grian. The way he’s thinking about the blood she’s wasting of Mumbos, how he’s worried about his mates, their home, their son. Mm mm mm. Could he have done it better yes. 100% But the way Blondie wrecks him and threatens him and he doesn’t back down means so much to me. This bird drives me insane. And then also this little slip of this new instinct – the wrong wrong wrong [Between you and Mochi the way you have both utilized this is making me FROTH at the MOUTH I am an oversteamed LATTE SDKLGHSFD], the way he also tried to see Blondie without actually seeing her [im assuming that’s what the pressure in the back of his mind was] oh he is SO close to awakening you are going to drive me INSANE.

The way the scent of blood on Blondie makes Grian recoil because he’s seen her take it before without permission and knows that she is like, a nasty vampire, as opposed to Mumbo who has only ever taken blood he had permission for [And I assume isn’t so fucking MESSY] is such a great perpendicular image oh my god. Here are these two creatures who are the same creature and yet they are so different.

“But I will be” SENT SHIVERS DOWN MY SPINE! HE BOTH DOES AND DOES NOT KNOW WHAT HE’S SAYING. I WANT TO SHAKE HIM AGAIN!!!! “He doesn’t want to be a God. He just wants to be Grian.” Wheres that why not both gif. ESPECIALLY CONSIDERING THAT BLONDIE REVEALS THAT BC THERE’S ONLY ONE WAY GODLINGS ARE MADE GRIAN DID IT TO HIMSELF – SHE HAS NO IDEA [Or what little she does know I cant imagine it went that in depth] AND ITS DRIVING ME OVER A CLIFF!!!! OH MY GOD I cannot stress enough how happy I am that next ch they are TALKING bc yeah ‘I killed my gods mumbo’ happened but like I truly do not think that’s fully processed in the wet cat of a vampire.

And the fact that she got SO close to doing to Grian what she did to Scar but Mumbo is there to stop it this time makes me INSANE. Mumbo, who watched his wife die. Mumbo, who’s had Scar drank from, had Grian kidnapped because of his blood, had to deal with far too much of Blondie, showing up just a second before she really gets Grian proper. YEAH NO WONDER THE MAN IS LIVID, GRIAN I am shaking him again. Frankly. IT’S A GOOD THING MUMBO HAS BEEN PRACTICING HIS MAGIC. I MEAN. I KNOW HE PRACTICED IT BC HE KNEW HE NEEDED TO PROTECT HIS COVEN BUT HO BOY IT’S A GOOD THING HE PRACTICED HIS MAGIC.

What on earth is the book Tubbo is holding. I’m putting this here to hold on to this thought I’ll get back to this in a bit –

THE FACT THAT MUMBO FEELS GUILTY THAT HE DIDN’T WAKE UP TO HEAR GRIAN SLIPPING OUT TO DO HIS DUMBEST STUNT – YEAH. YEAH. GRIAN DESERVES THE GUILT EATING HIM UP A BIT FOR THIS ONE TBH. Like not to the point of self-deprecative destruction but just a little guilt eating. As a treat.

Sidenote I just got an idea for a monster that eats emotions

AND THEN! THE MOMENT IVE BEEN WAITING FOR! I feel like everyone needs to know that I have been referring to Blondie holding onto Tubbo as a meat shield and a beverage as ‘Capri Sunning’ him. AND IT WAS EVERYTHING. The way she teleports to a bunch of different places to disorient them. The way they have to VERY QUICKLY face the fact that yep. Yep. They see Tubbo as their son. He’s the coven child and she’s GOT him. SDLKFHWG. Very proud of both of them for realizing she was absolutely lying to them about exchanging Tubbo for anybody. Why give up her meat shield. Look at them using their brain cells. And then they immediately stop using their brain cells to dart after a woman who can teleport. I get it. Tubbo is in danger and distress. BUT ITS LIKE THE BRAINCELLS JUST FLEW OUT W THE SCREAMING. Which is what I deserve to be honest. ‘Looks too much like she took a literal bite out of him’ alskdgfdh

AND THEN SCAR, HAVING CLEARLY BEEN THROUGH SOME SHIT OF HIS OWN, READY TO TAKE ON SOME MORE SHIT BECAUSE THAT’S HIS SON. HIS CLAIM. GOD. YES. And the fact that she could have so easily just left with Tubbo or snapped his neck or twisted his head off or dropped him from the third story is not lost on me. Im sure that gonna lead to some absolutely god awful nightmares for Scar and Company.

I also desperately want to know what Scar and Tubbo said to each other. Give me the cruuuuuuumbs. But also “There's a dim Fairy light fluttering by Tubbo's foot, and Blondie doesn't notice it for the shadow blocking it from her view.” The COORDINATION IN THIS SCENE. LOOK AT THEM. LOOK AT THEM. THEY ARE MATES AND THAT’S THEIR SON!!!! ABLE TO COMMUNICATE ABSOLUTELY SILENTLY ASKDLFDSH And then the cool, calm, knows his son is okay with his magic that Scar presents as both Mumbo and Grian RUSH forward when Tubbo activates the fairy lights – THIS SCENE IS SO COOL! I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT IT! The visual alone is mesmerizing, but the way it plays into all the magic strengths available to them [obviously not grian bc. No magic yet.] dkflsg AND EVEN THE PENDANT!!! THE PROTECTIVE PENDANT SCAR GAVE HIM! AHHHHH

At this point I feel like we’ve asked how Blondie isn’t dead like 5 times in this series and EVERY time I am gobsmacked she got away in the best way oh she is INSANE and I LOVE it. But also the fact that Tubbo just fucking VAULTED over the handrail the whole family is so in tune with each other oh my god. And all of them gathered around, on the defensive now, scar’s wind picking up I am feeling things.

The explanation of how magic breakdown works is fascinating and I love how they even have time for a little banter about how slow Mumbo feeds but SLFKDG THE PARALLELS BETWEEN MUMBO AND OTHER VAMPIRES IS SO COOL And then the whole brief talk of turning and ‘why do you two care about turning??” these men are wet rats wearing a trenchcoat. “Scar pauses- as if he’s just realized something” I feel like this has to be about like, ways to slow Scar’s Core down from killing him or preventing it all together but SADLKFSH SCAR WHAT DID YOU REALIZE. I THOUGHT WE ALREADY TOOK TURNING OFF THE T – WAIT. WAIT. Other creatures other than vampires feed on blood according to mumbo. HEY ATHERIX – DOES THAT INCLUDE THE VEX??? I NEED TO KNOW FOR SCIENCE REASONS.

AND THEN THE ARGUMENT! OH BOY YOU CAN F E E L  THE ADRENALINE RUNNING THROUGH BOTH GRIAN AND SCAR BECAUSE IT GETS SO HEATED AND THEY’RE BOTH SO FREAKED OUT AHH I FEEL SO BAD FOR TUBBO FRANKLY HE DESERVED TO GO OFF. AND THEY WAY SCAR’S MAGIC MOVES WITHOUT HIM SEEMING TO NOTICE TO BE AROUND THEM SALDFKGDFSH And the fact that Grian in all his wisdom recognizes that its not anger its FEAR and he needs to APOLOGIZE lafdkga of all the things he did in this fic that’s gotta be the smartest one tbh. THEY’RE ALL SO POSSESSIVE OF EACH OTHER AUGH AND THE LIL SNIPPET YOU POSTED FOR YOUR ASKS GAME HAS ME GOING INSANE NOW FR.

GO OFF KING TUBBO! I AM SNAPPING MY FINGERS! GO GO GO GO! GO OFF TUBBO!!! CLAP FOR THE BOY EVERYONE CLAPS HE DESERVES THIS HOW WAS THE CATHARSIS TUBBO!!! Also I said it earlier but I will say it again THIS PART -

““And Grian!” Grian almost jolts up at the sound of his name, having never heard Tubbo use it, and even Scar looks surprised as Tubbo turns his ire on Grian, anger fear frustration written across his face. “That stunt you pulled! Leaving us behind to face Myrani by yourself!”

“You did what-” Scar starts, but Tubbo barrels on.”

- IF I WAS GRIAN I WOULD WANT TO BE SET ON FIRE. And you know what Tubbo also deserves to just yell into the night sky. Good for him. Good for you king. Get it out. Someone put Tubbo in a rage room and let him go insane he just got Capri Sun’d and his dads are all being incredibly dumb.

            Love also that they only just remembered about Blondie BEING IN THE DAMN MANOR while they’re having this conversation, INCREDIBLY smart on her part to be like “Oh huh uh the wind. Went away. They’re yelling at each other. Deuces.” Also I did NOT miss the fact that while tubbo is STILL going [good for HIM make them SIT DOWN and stop BEING STUPID] Mumbo was also like “Huh you know nows a great time to slide out of here and go. Look. For Blondie yep-“  BUT ALSO TUBBO USING THE PENDANT SCAR GAVE HIM AGAINST SCAR!!! CLAPPING!!!!!

GOD I AM SO READY FOR THEM TO TALK also for those playing along at home, on word we are at 7 PAGES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And 2449 words.

I am once again answering at almost 3 AM because I have no regard for a proper and healthy sleep schedule <3

I want everyone to know I am the worst and most cryptic friend you can ever have exactly because of stuff like this LMAO-

Haha yesss <3 A big reason I included Midnights Past (other than being super self-indulgent) was a breather episode cause shit has gotten REAL here <3 haha Scar and Mumbo definitely do spend time together alone (mainly when Grian's asleep hkfskjd) but you're right, he definitely wouldn't have been at the staff carving without Grian hjfdskj. I wonder who would be invited to see Tubbo carve his first staff... :) On a completely random aside you have no idea how much I'm looking forward to Grian and Mumbo being added to the wall too. (In b4 "vampires don't have reflections/show up in photos" that is only true if the mirror has a silver backing and photography in the Midnight universe has come far enough to no longer include silver <3) A small moment of peace, reminding Grian what he has to lose <3

HAHA YEAH IMAGINE IF HE HAD FOUND IT WHEN THEY VISITED AQUA TOWN HA HA HA <3 But at this point Grian and Scar have history and they love each other so much so he chooses to trust Scar and think of alternative reasons why Scar might have this thing <3 Because this could have gone very badly if it had happened at any other time lmaooo <3 Hm hm hmmmm we'll see what gets said in the next chapter. But you're definitely right, the next chapter is gonna be a huge Grian chapter bc between the three of them, we've seen the least of his history <3 They shall TALK FINALLY and it will be glorious <3 Well he didn't exactly put it back LMAO he was going to but then the whole uh whisper in his ear thing... and he takes it to the manor with him instead... but still, your point stands <3 YEAH LMAO I was giggling when I wrote that line <3

I love Watcher stuff and am itching to get to the meat of it jhfsdjkfdsjk. AH NO I'M SO SORRY ABOUT THE RELIGIOUS TRAUMA but it tracks I think, Grian too has the religious trauma. HA. What if I never confirm or deny what the chosen means. What if I let everyone just assume :) jk jk hjfsdjkfdhj HAHAHA oh yes, there's something there that I cannot WAIT to write about. :) But which I will not expand on here because- well, MAJOR spoilers jhkfdk <3 :) Heheheh yes, that last page.... that will be fun to discuss. I mean it's discussed next chapter but... something about that last page won't be revealed until a certain.. adventure. :) YESSSS I am happy you noticed his thoughts immediately calling back to the passage, as he was actively thinking about it and comparing his situation to it and just hjfdsjkfdskj-

YEAH LMAO I thought to myself "maybe when he catches Tubbo should be the first time he flies since being clipped" which would have been BEAUTIFUL and absolutely heartwarming. Buuuut I also thought "you know, it's totally him to finally fly because he's stubborn and his two braincells are splitting. Hm." hjkfhdskj YEAH he's so SMART and SNEAKY but such a one-track minded bird brain <3 HJFSKJDS LMAO everyone wants to throttle him for this stunt JKFSKLKAS-

Yessssssss makes me want to write a 5 + 1 that shows all the things he's left behind lmao. Cuz something I really loved writing over the course of Midnight is how Scar starts off having never stayed at the manor, instead being a frequent guest at the Inn, and then he stays at the manor when he's too injured to get home, and then he only stays occasionally when either Grian or Mumbo ask/demand he stay, and just starts staying more frequently until he just doesn't go to the Inn anymore (except maybe to say hi to Keralis). He has his own room at the manor now, even if it's unofficially and he doesn't use it anymore because now he's with Grian and Mumbo which means when he stays the night Grian absolutely grabby-hands him for sleepy cuddles, and. I just. I love the evolution of Scar going from having never stayed (willingly) in the manor to pretty much always staying at the manor when he's in Boatem and just hjfdsjkfdsk <3 ANYWAY TANGENT ASIDE but YES Grian leaning into his more possessive side, partly just because he's him and partly because he's trying to push himself... it doesn't work obviously, he has no idea what he's doing when it comes to his magic, BUT! jkfsdjkfdsjk!

Grian, looking at a wall of fire: Yeah I can walk through that UFHSHFKJS he is so. There were so many better ways to get answers. Scar is a history/legends nerd, man, he probably KNOWS. (I say as the author of this story, knowing exactly what Scar does and doesn't know hjkfdsjkfdk) I love Blondie because she's despicable <3 AND YEAH MUMBO with his passive self destruction just. jhkfdslkfdk-

Grian just being like "what a waste" and just jhfdsjkfds their home, their stuff and so much damage, things are ruined and they need to fix it but also there are more important things than fixing broken tile and just hjfdsjkfdkj- He is a reckless and brave bird who doesn't realize he's getting plaid until it's too late because Blondie is a biiiit hard to read, she's such a shit person that he can't tell if the deception and amusement is just her general expression or a sign of something dangerous hjfsdjfdsjk- LOOK I LOVE THE wrong wrong wrong thing, I love the triple repetition of an action or feeling that emphasizes the severity of the action or feeling and just jkfsdjkfkdsj. Idk it just spikes the eerie nervousness, it's so much more tense than just saying "something feels wrong about this situation" and just fhjkdsjkfdskj- YEAH YOU CAUGHT IT he was absolutely trying to pull on his Watcher magic now that he's pretty confident that's what he is. He fails because it's not awakened yet buuuut <3

You act as if Mumbo having blood on his fangs and lips wouldn't drive Grian absolutely wild hkfdJKDJKDSJK but yes, Mumbo is absolutely a much more ethical and neater Vampire than Blondie, who is. Well. She's something else alright. HJfjkdshjfdsjk-

YEAH HE KNOWS BUT HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT ANY OF THIS MEANS HE HAS NO IDEA AND BLONDIE DOESN'T REALLY EITHER BUT SHE HAS MORE OF AN IDEA THAN HE DOES AND IJUST HJDSJHDJKS- Both is good yes LMAO. Grian's gonna have to figure out how to be both at the same time, though <3 AND YEA GRIAN DID IT TO HIMSELF AND WE ALL KNOW HOW BUT HE ISN'T 100% SURE HIMSELF AND JUST JHFSJKDS yes oh man and to think I almost ended this fic without a good and honest talk. They need to figure this out bc oooo man <3 AND YEAH Mumbo has heard those words but has not really realized what it means, in the grander scheme of things. For him he just thinks "Grian can never go back because the Watchers will kill him for what he did" LMAO-

YES. This time Mumbo is there to stop her, he is able to save Grian just in time, and MAN YES MUMBO PRACTICING HIS MAGIC FINALLY IS GONNA BE SUCH A LIFE SAVER HUH. :) Haha I haven't written this certain fic yet (the one that explores Mumbo and Scar's relationship before Grian got involved) but Mumbo is often described by other Vampires as the man who "loses and loses again," besides his general distance he keeps from everyone there is a reason Scar tried so hard to make Mumbo actively dislike him so he'd never hurt him...... :) Which is a feeling that gets properly confronted next chapter by the way <3

Hold onto that thought :)

MUMBO FEELS RESPONSIBLE FOR THEM ALL, they're HIS Coven and he's THEIR Lord he should be able to protect them </3 (which we of course know isn't how it fully works but Mumbo is new to these emotions/instincts of his and just hjfsdjkkfds) Grian deserves a tiny bit of gnawing guilt about this yes-

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HAHAHAHA you have FINALLY gotten the capri-sun scene JKFHSJKFS dear readers I talked about/described this scene to them ONCE and they have been eagerly waiting for it and I am so happy to finally deliver HJKFHSKJ <3 YESSSS Blondie being able to teleport is so fun because unlike Mumbo's shadow-walking, you don't know where Blondie is going. AND YEAH Blondie even calls him a Coven child jkfdjkfsd if that don't spell it out. (and later on Tubbo even talks about the whole Lord and Coven thing and uses the words we so-) Having no time to process that yes, this child (who is a legal adult but ya know-) is their child now too and AW SHIT fhjjfkgdsjk the moment he gets bitten all logical thought goes out the window and Grian almost faceplants painfully into a few different things hfgdsjkgfdjk but they just want to save him and just. KJDHSJKDS <3

SCAR WILL SQUARE UP FOR HIS SON'S SAKE. He is injured himself, tired and possibly low on magic :) :) but damn, his kid's in trouble and he activated the teleportation glyph in Tubbo's bee glyph SO FAST. Possibly the moment he got a chance- YEAH trust me the nightmares from this are gonna be terrible haha makes a certain future scene :) That you are the only one who knows about :)) a little more :) :) Hm hmm-

hjfgdjkgfdkj it was something very simple, like "Is the pendant charged?" "Not fully, needs magic" jkfsdjkfdjk YEAH Mumbo didn't know what Scar was planning but the moment he saw that Fairy light he knew he needed to hide it from Blondie <3 Once again thank goodness he's been practicing with his magic hjfdsjk BUT YESSSSSS THE COHESIVENESS, THE FLAWLESS WORKING TOGETHER I AM JUST HKFSKJSD YESSS Scar being calm and collected while Mumbo and Grian are like "WAIT A MINUTE WHAT THE HECK THAT'S RAW MAGIC" jkfhsdkjhgk let me tell you, I have ALWAYS imagined this scene going that way- with Tubbo using Scar's Fairy light to activate the protection glyph he has <3 jkfsdfdjk AND YES THE SHOWCASE OF ALL THE MAGIC I love it. One day Grian will join in <3 AND YESSS THE MVP PROTECTION PENDANT HHHAHHDS-

At least now we have a bit of an answer <3 kfdsjkfdkj YEAH Tubbo vaulted over like he was so confident that ONE of them would catch him cuz he jumped from the THIRD FLOOR and just hjfjdskfgds he knew at least Scar wouldn't let him hit the ground <3 So much trust in this family I love them <3 They're a FAMILY your honor-

Yessss from the moment I established how Vampires actually feed (off the inherent magic found in blood) I knew I'd need to talk about this eventually, because establishing that magic cannot actually mix or be absorbed by 99% of the Supernatural population, because of how it conflicts with their own magic... I knew I'd have to explain eventually how Vampires are able to use other people's magic jkfgfdlk And yes. I specified Supernaturals on purpose. Because there is a group of Natural that is very well known for absorbing foreign magic into their own core :) They will ALWAYS find time to banter <3 HFJKSHKFDSJK Mumbo is just <3 My beloved hkjglfdkgdf LMAO WET RATS IN TRENCH COATS pretty much <3 Mumbo is sus immediately and Scar barely even gives the conversation a first thought, nevermind a second- HJFKSHJKFDSK :) I cannot say about that :)

YEAH THE ARGUMENT WAS FUN TO WRITE but it made me nervous just writing it so <3 But I am also anxiety personified so uh- BUT YEAH I agree Tubbo 1000% deserved to go off after this </3 But they're both freaked out and worried and afraid and they just need to talk <3 HA let me tell you magic responding to a person's emotions is one of my weaknesses I am WEAK for it AND YES Grian's little emotion-reading power comes in clutch, Scar is scared because he just found out he was so close to losing Grian and Mumbo and Tubbo and just jkfjkfdl <3 <3 He loves Scar and doesn't want to hurt him in any way and just <3<3 HAHA YESSSSSS <3

I AM CLAPPING FOR HIM. THE CATHARSIS, THE JUST SCREAMING, PROBABLY SOME THINGS HE'S BEEN THINKING FOR A WHILE, SCAR. FHJSKFJLKS that is the epitome of "it was at this moment Grian knew, he fucked up." JUST JKFSKLJS Tubbo, who was raised to not use people's real names (even though he is not Fae and would only be able to compel a Fae with their name, and not a non-Fae kjfsdkj), using Grian's real name. That's like- calling someone's first, middle and last name in the house HJKFDHJLKFS Tubbo needs a rage room. He needs time to just vent and rant because he's gotten custody of the shared Coven braincell this chapter jkfdslofdskj

LMAO YEAH she just peaced out. To be fair to her, though (which I hate doing, really)- she's injured and weak and in a very primal state, and they're yelling and Scar's magic is flaring and who knows what Grian's might have been doing at that moment and just hjfdshgjkdhjkfgds she chooses to fight another day when it's less likely Scar's magic will explode and Grian's magic will violently awaken LMAO- hfkjdshgjklds I thought it was funny when I wrote it, too- Tubbo going off on his dad while Scar apologizes, because an apology isn't gonna magically fix everything, and Mumbo just. Listening. While he tries to get the door locked again and searches the manor with his shadows. Just. Hjkfsdklfds And yes the pendant. Tubbo knows a little about the pendant's history and the way it made Scar feel, it's his way of saying tell them. Let them in. Let yourself trust them with the most fragile parts of you, because that's what you do with people you love. And the pendant- the symbol of Scar's father's love for him, his desire to protect him, which became the symbol of Scar's love and desire to protect his son, something inherently so powerful yet gentle and fragile, something that needs to be taken care of and tended to but which can save your life with such a grand display of power....... do you see the metaphor here-

I AM ALSO READY FOR THEM TO TALK I HAVE BEEN WAITING TO WRITE SOME OF THIS CONVERSATION I AM. SO EXCITED. I've already got ~2600 words written and we're not even halfway through the first third of the conversation HJKFHSJKS-

Guess what it's past 4 AM now. It took me an hour to respond. ~2500 words HAHA WORTH IT-

[suguruverse]

hi mimi! i, really, really, REALLY love your "being best friend with..." series and i was hoping that you could do for tsukishima and yamaguchi? 🥺 thank you in advance, love! <3

— BEING BEST FRIENDS WITH TSUKISHIMA AND YAMAGUCHI

includes - tsukishima kei and yamaguchi tadashi

a/n - hehe i hope you liked this one <33

published date - 29/03/21

- this friendship is definitely not for the weak

- shit talking 24/7

- don’t be decieved, yamaguchi isn’t all that innocent

- yall he’s literally been best friends with tsukishima all his life plus he’s a scorpio sooo nuff said

- he definitely has tea on EVERYONE

- yamaguchi is also the type of friend who lets you copy all of his work

- on the other hand, tsukishima thinks you’re insufferable

- you always insist on coming to their games and practices

- tsukishima just says that he doesn’t want you there in general (spoiler alert!! he actually does)

- but yamaguchi only says that because he thinks that he’s not going to be on court that much and that he’s probably gonna do bad anyways so he doesn’t wanna waste your time by making you watch him fail

- but when you go to their games, tsukishima does a peace sign at you after he scores a point, like he does with his brother

- when they’re feeling particularly unmotivated, you do aggressive pep talks for them

- it makes them scared but also a lil happy

- but the rest of the team is definitely scared because they just see this random girl yelling at two of their teammates but they’re enjoying being yelled at??

- masochist vibes

- omfg i literally cant deal w myself holy shit okay

- you guys have sleepovers every weekend. no questions asked.

- most because you and yams come over to tsukishima’s house all the time and unannounced and he ‘can’t be bothered kicking you guys out’ so he lets yall stay

- it’s always late nights whenever you guys get to have deep conversations

- these conversations are super important in the friendship!!

- they both struggle with insecurities and issues of their own, and since the normally don’t voice out their feelings, you try to be as supportive as possible

- but they never make you feel as if you should carry all of their burdens

- they (mostly yamaguchi) always encourages you to be more open but never forces you to

- i feel like trust and communication is vital for this friendship to last

- tsukishima is way too attentive for his own good

- if you’re having a bad day, tsukishima never really does anything but he lets yamaguchi go crazy on food, snacks and your favourite things in general

- tsukishima know that you like hugs so on special occasions, he’ll let you hold onto him longer than usual

- THEY BOTH LOVE BACK HUGS it makes them feel safe and secure

- pls you initiate most of the physical affection and they love it so much

- tsukishima acts like he hates it, but if you don’t greet him with a good morning hug or kiss on the forehead/cheek, he’s gonna be grumpy for the entire day

- i feel like for this friendship to have happened, yall would have had to grown up together 

- also yamaguchi worries over you almost too much

- his brain is 50% worrying about you, 25% volleyball and 25% school

- yall eat lunches together everyday

- sometimes yamaguchi will make you and tsukishima lunches or just little snacks like cookies

- on birthdays, they go full out

- they bring party hats, ALL of your favourite foods with serving sizes that could feed their team and a cake (strawberry shortcake of course because tsukishima was being stingy and chose the cake that he wanted)

- they insist on walking you home every single night

- and when you’re up at 2am wanting to get snacks, tsukishima acts as if you’re crazy and should be sleeping but he still walks with you to the store because ‘only a dumbass would go out alone this late and he didn’t want to hear yamaguchi cry everyday if you got kidnapped’

- yamaguchi leaves motivational notes on your desk and locker

- tsukishima has made you cry while trying to tutor you multiple times

- and yamaguchi yells at him every time he makes you cry

- also yamaguchi can be hella intimidating when he tries

- so don’t worry if anyone is bothering you bc they’re your biggest protectors

- the LITTLEST things you do for them will get them flustered and happy

gc name: y/n’s sluts 🤑🤑

you: KEI

you: KEI ANSWER

you: CODE RED EMERGENCY

tsukishima: jesus i’m here what happened

you: TADASHI

tsukishima: what’s wrong with him

you: I THINK HES BEING ASKED OUT

you: HE LOOKS UNCOMFORTABLE

tsukishima: omw where r u

you: SECOND FLOOR RIGHT IN FRONT OF OUR CLASSROOM

yamaguchi: hi guys

you: TADASHIIIII :((

yamaguchi: hehe i’m alright :)

yamaguchi: they were actually trying to confess to tsukki, they thought he would be with me

you: aww babes are you okay ??

yamaguchi: mhm!! just a little embarrassed, that’s all

you: i’ll come over to u

you: plus why are they confessing to kei, he’s an asshole 😒 tadashi is way more boyfriend material

tsukishima: i’m right here you brat

you: 🤪🤪

tsukishima: anyways, let’s go already, we need to get snacks for movie night at yamaguchi s

yamaguchi: mine?? i thought we normally go to urs

tsukishima: shut up, deal with it

you: don’t be rude to my lovely tadashi!!

you: we’re doing movie night at urs bc keis doesn’t want akiteru to interrupt the movie

yamaguchi: oh okay!! i’m picking the movie this time

[yikesharringrove]

Okay. Dear billy.

Main argument: hoppers storyline is becoming my favorite. Putting himself through all this shit to go back is excellent, and the grittiness and gore of it all has me tickled. I love Steve being a lil dumb dumb as much as the next guy, but does him being Stupid need to be the punchline of every scene he’s in? Last season they gave him figuring out the horse music and the Russians in the mall but he’s gotten dumber every season and I don’t have much hope. Max’s storyline is where the most tension is. I really haven’t seen spoilers so idk if she’ll survive. They love getting us attached and then killing people with no warning so idk. I know hopper is gonna make it home but they really could fuck over max here so it’s sketchy.

THAT SCENE WITH HER RUNNING THROGUH VECNAS MIND WHILE RUNNING UP THAT HILL PLAYS AND THEN IT GOES INTO THE INSTRUMENTAL

Max’s letter to billy is fucking sad especially because we could’ve fucking HAD IT if there were better writers working on this shit.

Thots:

Bubbles is being super annoying in his cage behind my head rn he’s digging his stupid little holes I love him.

Steve’s reaction to Max admitting she’s been having headaches like that’s his bf’s little sister he’s shitting himself.

Steve Harrington will literally grab anything and use it as a weapon. Don’t you carry your bat in the trunk of your car everywhere like you do in fics? You know, because of the trauma-fueled anxiety you have? No?

Nobody ever listens to steve and the way he pissed himself and curled up when he saw Lucas is why

“I COULDVE TAKEN YOU OUT WITH THIS LAMP” darling. everyone knows that is very much Not True. #incompetent

Erica painting her miniatures PLEASE I miss mr clark

“Another week of this and he’s buying me a GOTDAMN Nintendo. With duck hunt.” Erica I love you p l e a s e

Ah, yes. The season-annual stupidification of Steve Harrington. At least last season he figured out that the Russians were in the mall. This season they really said No Thoughts Head Empty.

“If a gate didn’t exist in the fifties, how did he get through?” THATS WHAT IM SAYING. He just lives in the upside down. He pays rent but he wasn’t born there. He’s a gentrifier.

Steve just gave Dustin the bitchiest little look ever and then crossed his legs like they’re made of rope. FRUIT.

Bro where are they??? Is this mikes basement???

“Where’s mine” Steve you are NOT coming with omg he thought he was gonna be able to pose as a psych student he literally can’t pose as someone who is good at reading

Baby boy no

“OMG YOU HAVE A TOM CRUISE POSTER. omg you have a Tom cruise poster.”

“Maybe I could turn on my pap pap pap my charm” STEVEN

Robin going through Nancys shit and Steve doing nothing to stop her the way she rummages through his entire house every time she comes over

“Not the kind of charm we need” Nancy he’s literally gonna seduce the guy. They’ll fuck while you and Robin sneak in. Win-win.

THISE UGLY FUCKING CLOTHES ARE FROM NANCYS CLOSET???? Bro I literally SAID Nancy’s wardrobe is the devil. Did I NOT??

Not hop out here with his BROKEN ANKLE

“Of course not. She saves your life because of friendship.” This fucking GUY

I really forget about mike will and Jonathan when they’re not actively on screen. I think my brain is trying to block out the haircut travesty that is that group.

Argyle is literally The Most he’s amazing

Max: I know that you guys are staring at me

Lucas: what? Sorry?

Steve: Jus hangin out

Dustin: you said you needed something?

These three literally can’t be normal ever

Max: you can look at me now

Dustin: thank you

Lucas: sorry

Steve: sorry

No they CANT ever be normal. What freaks I love them.

MAX WHAT THE FUCK GIRL NOT THESE LETTERS that’s so fucking sad

THEY WERE IN MIKES BASEMENT why Nancy wasn’t even fucking there for most of that ?????

“I swear to god Steve, I will prosecute” VIOLENCE when will this man know peace

Robin freaking out in that outfit like she wasn’t in the ugliest band uniform in the world. Complaining about itchy tight clothes and an uncomfy bra and saying she can’t breathe. Neurodivergent.

Robin monologuing rn she’s incredible

Natalia must have pissed off someone in the hair and makeup department bc this season and last season she spent with hair that looks dry and crispy while also being limp, sweaty, and flat, and makeup that looks like it’s in the process of being cried and also sweat off. It’s rough. She’s so pretty but ouch

“If things go south I should mention I’m a black belt in karate now.”

Stranger things’s hot take is that Russians are just Weird.

JOYCE WINKING BACK AT YURI WHILE ALSO LOOKING LIKE SHE HAS NO IDEA WHAT SHES DOING

Hoppers storyline is so so good

This moment between Susan and max is gonna make me lose my marbles. She’s trying to warn her mom and she’s so scared I’m Freaking Out.

Christ. Should’ve known it was too good to be true.

Robin and Nancy gaslighting the shit out of this creepy fucking guy right now.

NOT THE SILENCE OF THE LAMBS DUNGEON. This isn’t Anthony Hopkins :/

ROBIN BUCKLEY HELL YEAH TOTALLY CONFIRMED LAST NAME

OH SHIT YES BODY HORROR YES EYELESS MAN

Alright. Well now I see how they’re going to end up in Utah. Doesn’t mean I don’t fucking hate it.

WILL HAS A LITTLE SHOP OF HORRORS POSTER IN HIS ROOM I’m going feral I’m froenchfrounch frothing at the mouth.

I’ve never given a shit enough to ship byler but will CLEARLY has a crush on mike and I’m. Feeling very gay about it.

Oh I CANNOT with this shaky cam right now ffs.

Seasons 3/4 Byers’s house getting fucked up classic

Hopper has a broken ankle and also isn’t wearing SHOES.

Never been so happy to watch a man cry while eating peanut butter off his fingers

The Elvira poster is making me also gay.

Christ alive these people can NEVER get a fucking break.

We’re getting so much Steve’s Beamer content this season lmao

Max just fucking TALK TO LUCAS I’m begging I’m begging

I’m getting a lot of Doom Patrol season 1 from victor’s story I’m pretty hear for it. It’s also giving early Supernatural vibes. Like the Bloody Mary episode where she kills people with fatal secrets.

HE CUT HIS OWN EYES OUT WHAT WHAT WHAT

Love this fucking guy

William Hargrove. Gone but not forgotten ✊😔

Also the way I’m gonna ignore Billy’s canon birthday literally forever.

I do NOT fucking believe neil “couldn’t stand being here without you” no he was fucking missing his gotdamn punching bag you can say it

THIS is the redemption arc the thought billy deserved???? Bitch he deserved so much fucking MORE.

Steve is a nail biter #canon

Also I already saw Dacre’s post so I know he comes back as a flashback but I heard that fucking laugh and I LOST IT

STEVE SAYING “time to giddy up, yeah?” IM CRYING HES SUCH A LOSER OMG THE SHOW PONY OF IT ALL

Vecna Billy stomping out of the mist to fuck with Max meanwhile I’m YELLING

I’m sorry but Dacre is the best actor that’s been on this fucking show and they really just killed him the fuck off

ROBIN MADE THE MUSIC CONNECTION GOOD THING MAX HAS HER WALKMAN AND HER KATE BUSH TAPEim so fucking stressed I’m so fucking stressed

Lol how long do you think dacre was in makeup for just to have thirty seconds on screen.

PICK A SONG FASTER YOU IDIOTS

THE KATE BUSH BEING HER FAVORITE WAS A JOKE I MADE TO THE TV STOP STOP

(No shade I love Kate bush it’s just funny I don’t see max being into her)

Running up that hill really can save lives

Shit. The power of friendship really pulled through for max here

[byronictrash]

so I was thinking about the whole hbo supernatural thing and all I could think was how it would fit in my major spn interpretation which is TRANSFEM SAM WINCHESTER!!!!

• changed her name to samantha for pure praticity

• is a lesbian, so all the romantic part is pretty similar to the canon, monsterfucking and all

• in which dean got a little confused about the distinction of gender ≠ sexuality at first like “wait but why did you become a girl if you like girls?” (he doesn’t know a lot of queer people, give him some time)

• AND SPEAKING OF DEAN! the biggest ally of all times. at first he doesn’t understand lots of stuff that seems obvious to sam (“why are you putting on a suit?” “dean we’re going to a small town, the case will be way harder if everyone is staring at me”), asks indiscrety questions (“can i ask you something?” “it depends” “you wanna chop your dick off?” “NO YOU CANT ASK IT”) but over time he starts to get it more naturally

• despite his numerous hook-ups, dean has never spent so much time in his life in a company of a woman so even the smallest things are extraterrestrial to him (“hey whats that bowl in the microwave?” “depilatory wax” “OH CMON SAMMY I WAS GOING TO HEAT UP MY DINNER THERE”)

• of course, there would be a scene where they met some hunter friend of john who says shit about sam, misgender her etc and dean goes FERAL, fist fighting with the guy and stuff. later sam yells at dean, saying she doesn't need dean to protect her and the argument would escalate to all the times that dean treated her in a condescending way, dean yelling back that dad said it was his job to take care of her and sam yelling even louder that dad would probably dead by now (in this moment all the lamps in their room (and in the street) simply explode, but they ignore. it was probably some short circuit…. right?)

• ok lets talk about john. still the same asshole, still gave a gun to kid who was afraid of the boogeyman, still tried to summon azazel when his son was in comma in 02X01 BUT now he also has a whole series of microaggressions with sam. she’s not stupid, she know the dad she has so doesn’t come out until she’s in stanford, SO john finds out sam is trans in 01X16 when john see sam after two years wearing a skirt and holding a .45 gun. he looks at her up and down and doesn’t say anything however, suddenly stops calling sam sam and starts calling her strictly samuel.

• it got worse after s1 season finale with the whole azazel possessed john > sam had the opportunity of killing azazel/her dad > couldn’t do it > azazel escaped > the winchesters get hit by a truck. when sam questions her father about being worried about the colt while his own son is dying, john explodes with her “you know samuel this is all your fault, once again you couldn’t just man up and pull the fucking trigger, kill the thing, you had to be same old sissy and chicken off, if your brother dies its his blood in your hands”

• aaaaaanyway, lets go back to our girl :D

• her style is kinda a mess. makeup done in a hurry, most of her clothes are mid skirts, hoodies and long dresses but now and then she spends a week wearing baggy jeans and band t-shirts, like dean’s, and no makeup at all. when he asks her “where is the whole angry teen outfit?” sam would simply respond its “because of the praticity, it’s tough to fight with a vampire in a dress lol” dean knows its because sometimes sam’s internalized transphobia ft repression gets loud

• her music taste is mostly grunge, punk and some alt bands she discover in stanford but dean call all of it emo “oh fuck off sammy, i let you drive once and you already put this emo shit” “dean this is literally nirvana, you cant call everything made after the 80’s emo”

• when she came out to bobby his reaction was literally “so now you’re a girl?” “uh… yeah” “gonna change your name or something?” “now is samantha but sam is still fine” “okay, now look this sigil... (and went back to the lore they were searching)”

• sam’s catholicism being more portrained on screen and how the dilemma of being a Christian and queer filled sam with religious guilty

• her paranormal powers also showed up sooner and since the beginning she knew something was wrong. her throat felt sore every time she recited the rituale romanus and holy water made her skin itchy. the older she got, the harder those “symptoms” became and with her denial, desire to be normal combined with religious guilt, it was easier to just convince herself that all this was just god punishing her for living in sin.

• surprisingly, all the demons and angels (and most of the monsters) even being assholes treats sam with the right pronouns

• which make sam and cas fist encounter even more interesting because cas literally turns to dean and go “is this your sister, samantha winchester?” “yeah” “ABOMINATION”’

• samruby second (cause the real first was ruby killing the seven deadly sins and stuff) encounter on the other side was a little more like "why are you following me?” “because youre tall and tall women are sexy as fuck” (then sam’s brain was short circuited for a sec because her height make usually makes her dysphoric)

• between s3-s4, dean still in hell, there would be a scene of one of the first times that sam drank blood to exorcise a demon with her mind. so here they are, demon tied in a chair and trapped in a trap, sam with blood all over her chin and ruby looking at her all heart eyes. Sam tries to do the exorcism but it doesnt work so ruby says sam needs more blood. Sam responds that shes nauseous and if takes any more shes gonna puke (cause you know voluntary vampirism came too natural in canon and that disturbs me) so the demon, who's wearing a cheerleader as a vessel, laughs and says "you know sammy, for real women blood tends to be a natural thing". ruby kills her on the spot.

• speaking of the catholicism (and the blood drinking) again, sam prays every single time before/after drinking demon blood, ruby mocks her for it but she doesnt care. its a weird feeling because even thinking that what shes doing is right, that she needs to get strong to kill lilith, it still feels bad, unholy in some sense.

• of course lucifer tempted her in s5 not only appearing as jess but also saying things like "why samantha, after all, are you willing to sacrifice yourself for a society that treats you like scum, that looks at you like a freak?"

• no need to say that in 05x04 "The End" episode when dean faces lucifer using sam as his vessel, she's wearing an outfit way cooler than that abbey-road-john-lennon-white-suit (to know what i mean search amanda seyfried 2018 met gala look THATS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT!!!!!)

• even after being clean of blood drinking, sam still has some of her paranormal powers. she can't do exorcises with her mind anymore but she can move small objects with telekinesis (she doesn't do it in front of dean cause she knows it would scares the fuck out of him)

i also had a list of some episodes rewritten in this au but this list is already long, guess i'll post later