#THIS GOT SO LONG AND RAMBLEY IM SORRY!!!!

[skapediem]

2, 4, 7, 9 (this can include you know what 😏), 12, 15 B))

TY JEROME!! <3

2. favourite episode(s)? HI BOB!!! one of my favourite episodes of any show ever its such a comfort watch < absolutely SHOULD NOT be a comfort watch but it is im just such a sucker for bottle episodes.... also sands of ares for that same reason!! + bring it down for danny those are probably my top 3 but id also say prime crew and leningrad :)

4. favourite use of the alternate history timeline? kind of a basic answer cause its like. the conceit of the whole show but i really just love how far the fam universe has gone with space exploration and cold war tension like im suuuuch a massive nerd about that period of time as it is but its just so sick seeing how much progress can be fuelled by such petty competition like theres something just so human about it if that makes any sense at all. its just cool getting to draw the connections between things that happen in the show to what happened in reality just finding those parallels or places where things diverged its just a fun little layer of worldbuilding.

7. favourite earth moment? THERES SOOO MANY oh no how do i choose... god i feel like i should pick something to do with the space program but margo and aleidas one interaction in the grey.... everyone has worked so hard you cant say its over like its nothing who is this why is she speaking to me she apologises no i dont yes you do i like this one.... scene i obviously feel super normal and regular about. also molly chewing out ed and gordo like theyre kids whove been sent to the principal that was super fun :)

9. favourite non-canon ship? Oh You Know.... but an answer for the viewers at home who dont know Yet iii also quite like margomolly with wayne being fully aware and supportive i just think its a fun little dynamic. + i dont think they should be together EVER theyre so so so terrible for eachother but gorded does have a sneaky little nook in my brain just to contemplate

12. best bit of tech in the alternate timeline? THE SOLAR SAIL!!! i mean i know its a real thing but on the scale that they had on sojourner i just love it sooo much i love you operation jolly roger... also d-mailing i know its not like. a Bit of tech its just terminology but its funny to meee i laugh every time

15. wild mass guessing for season five? jimmy gets out of prison and starts an investigation into danny's neglect by helios command < very wishful thinking ummmmm genuine answer tensions with canada and their space program i feel like they haven't been mentioned much since the news reel.... australia comes into the mix somehow even though we still dont have much of a program in this universe by the looks of things (there is AN australian working for helios we can hear her accent when theyre all yelling at eachother but still. can we actually do something pretty please) and maybe javi and graciana get to do. idk. somthing. i feel like they need to establish the legacy/family characters more if theres gonna be 3 more seasons

[galacticlamps]

ok I have A Lot of thoughts about the staircase confession (well really about Edwin's whole character arc, but all roads lead to rome) but for now I just wanna say that, yes, I was bracing myself for something to go terribly wrong when I first watched it, and yes, part of me was initially worried its placement might be an uncharacteristically foolish choice made in the name of Drama or Pacing or Making a Compelling Episode of Television but at the expense of narrative sense--

But I wanna say that having taken all that into account, and watched it play out, and sat with it - and honestly become rather transfixed by it - I really think it's a beautifully crafted moment and truly the only way that arc could've arrived at such a satisfying conclusion.

And if I had to pinpoint why I not only buy it but also have come to really treasure it, I'd have to put it down to the fact that it genuinely is a confession, and nothing else.

That moment is an announcement of what Edwin has come to understand about himself, but because it takes the form of a character admitting romantic feelings for such a close friend, I think it can be very easy, when writing that kind of thing, to imbue it with other elements like a plea or a request or even the start of a new relationship that, intentionally or not, would change the shape of the moment and can quickly overshadow what a huge deal the telling is all on its own. But that's not the case here. Since it is only a confession, unaccompanied by anything else, and since we see afterward how it was enough, evidently, to fix the strangeness that had grown between him & Charles, we're forced to understand that it was never Edwin's feelings that were actually making things difficult for him - it was not being able to tell Charles about them. 'Terrified' as he's been of this, Edwin learns that his feelings don't need to either disappear completely or be totally reciprocated in order for him to be able to return to the peace, stability, and security of the relationship with which he defines his existence - and the scale of that relief a) tells us a hell of a lot about Edwin as a character and b) totally justifies the way his declaration just bursts out of him at what would otherwise be such a poorly chosen moment, in my opinion.

Whether or not they are or ever could be reciprocated, Edwin's feelings are definitively proven not to be the problem here - only his potential choice to bottle it up - his repression - is. And where that repression had once been mainly involuntary, a product of what he'd been through, now that he's got this new awareness of himself, if he still fails to admit what he's found either to himself or to the one person he's so unambiguously close with, then that repression will be by his own choice and actions.

And he won't do that. Among other things, he's coming into this scene having just (unknowingly) absolved the soul of his own school bully and accidental killer by pointing out a fact that is every bit as central to his self-discovery as anything about his sexuality or his attraction to Charles is: the idea that "If you punish yourself, everywhere becomes Hell"

So narratively speaking, of course it makes sense that Edwin literally cannot get out of Hell until he stops punishing himself - and right now, the thing that's torturing him is something he has control over. It's not who he is or what he feels, but what he chooses to do with those feelings that's hurting him, and he's even already made the conscious choice to tell Charles about them, he was just interrupted. But now that they're back together and he's literally in the middle of an attempt to escape Hell, there is absolutely no way he can so much as stop for breath without telling Charles the truth. Even the stopping for breath is so loaded - because they're ghosts, they don't need to breathe, but also they're in Hell, so the one thing they can feel is pain, however nonsensical. And Edwin certainly is in pain. But whether he knows what he's about to do or not when he says he 'just needs a tick,' a breather is absolutely not what's gonna give him enough relief to keep climbing - it's fixing that other hurt, though, that will.

Like everything else in that scene, there's a lot of layers to him promising Charles "You don't have to feel the same way, I just needed you to know" - but I don't think that means it isn't also true on a surface level. It's the act of telling Charles that matters so much more than whatever follows it, and while that might have gone unnoticed if anything else major had happened in the same conversation, now we're forced to acknowledge its staggering and singular importance for what it is. The moment is well-earned and properly built up to, but until we see it happen in all its wonderful simplicity, and we see the aftermath (or lack thereof, even), we couldn't properly anticipate how much of a weight off Edwin's shoulders merely getting to share the truth with Charles was going to be, why he couldn't wait for a better, safer opportunity before giving in to that desire, or how badly he needed to say it and nothing else - and I really, really love the weight that act of just being honest, seen, and known is given in their story/relationship.

[reel-fear]

Honestly, every single time the whole 'poppy playtime is a bendy rip-off' stuff ever shows up I find it all extremely unconvincing and silly.

For one thing, rip-off usually is meant to imply that it's a cheap lazy copy of a better more polished thing, and uh. Sorry but even from chapter 1? Poppy Playtime is a better game than Bendy, it has a simple but understandable story, the game manages to be thrilling, creepy, and very intense at times... I mean that Huggy chase in the vents ALONE puts it way above Batim for me.

I mean BATDR had the most slow stupid chase I've ever seen [and every other encounter with the ink demon is text telling u he's there and then a timer goes down and u get jumpscared] and batim's chases were either silly or just not nearly as theatric or terrifying as that.

When making the vent sequence I mean not only is it absolutely horrifying to realize how fast Huggy is in there but also it's so theatric and cool? The fact that you round a corner after thinking you escaped only to see a terrifying animation of that thing crawling toward you is awesome! I wish Bendy had stuff like that!

And all the stuff it shares with Bendy are generic things Bendy ripped from other horror games/media anyways. I'm not saying Poppy Playtime isn't inspired by Bendy I for sure think it is but Bendy is such a generic story that somehow fails to do tropes 100 other horror games have done any comparison only makes Poppy Playtime look better.

"It has employees being sacrificed for their company" That is not a concept Bendy invented, literally look at any of the sci-fi horror series Bendy is very inspired by. This is literally a twist in the original Alien.

"It has a scary woman forcing you to do tasks for her" Once again, not a concept Bendy invented, a scary mysterious person forcing you to do fetch-quests is a concept found in tons of horror media. And at least Poppy Playtime gave you a chase with her and let you defeat her, look at poor malice. She's barely on screen for more than 10 minutes before she gets stabbed.

"It has a cult worshipping the monster" This is something tons of horror games and media have done too. I mean In The Tall Grass has a guy who worships a giant magical rock in the middle of a grass maze, Bioshock [which Bendy has only been taking more and more direct inspiration from while failing to grab any of the compelling parts] also had a lot of themes of religion and cult-ish behavior, almost every horror media franchise has at one point done a cult thing.

Bendy couldn't even come up with a reason Sammy worships the ink demon, the best motivation we've ever gotten is just that 'he's crazzyyyy the ink made him insaneeee'. Who is the cheap rip-off here?

At least Poppy Playtime gave their cultist a motive for worshipping the monster + a proper boss fight that feels intense and looks awesome! Bendy didn't even let you kill Malice [she got stabbed in front of you and then just collapsed on the floor how thrilling] meanwhile you get to kill three of the villains in Poppy Playtime and the gameplay and action in those scenes have only gotten better as the game went on.

I mean Sammy walks into a room and goes "AAA SCARY I'M BEING MURDERED" then later shows up and for NO REASON sees a normal human man and assumes it's the ink demon before once again someone else kills him for you. In Poppy Playtime you defeat Catnap as he floods the world with this horrible nightmare-inducing gas that intensifies the color palette and his design. Fight off versions of him that are illusions that you need your flare gun for, then watch in a wonderful animation as he mistakes the monster for his savior before getting killed by it, in a brutal way I might add, which game are we accusing of being cheap, lazy garbage again?

I just find this argument to be people who Really Really need to find a reason to hate Poppy Playtime which I think is silly. The devs being weird, shady people is already enough reason to dislike the game, you don't need to invent reasons why secretly every part of the game is malicious or bad. But esp when I see Bendy fans saying they don't support Poppy Playtime or dislike it bc of its devs or even saying its cringe ummmm.

I have bad news about the fact Bendy's devs are worse and it took not one, but TWO over an hour long videos to cover it all. Plus the Bendy games are just the worse games in every aspect, if I could sell my batim copy for a copy of Poppy Playtime I wouldn't hesitate at all.

Saying this as a bendy fan, we have no right to be super judgy towards Poppy Playtime. If Poppy Playtime is embarrassing cringe, Bendy is too and is way more embarrassing of an interest. We shouldn't spread misinformation just because we all want to hate Poppy Playtime, you can dislike Poppy Playtime without making up a bunch of nonsense to justify it.

Honestly seeing people just blatantly be unfairly mean to Poppy Playtime only makes its critics look worse and makes it hard to take any backlash to the games seriously. Because surprise surprise if you spread misinformation to make a point people will quickly stop listening to Anything you have to say bc they won't trust you're telling the truth anymore.

[regularshcw]

i need to work on the bios soon buuuuuut

margaret is trans ( trans woman )

benson is trans ( trans man )

em is trans ( trans man )

fanny is trans ( trans woman )

penny is nonbinary ( genderfluid )

neu is nonbinary ( unlabeled )

rigby is trans ( trans man )

and pops' gender is ?????

[tiptoptoad]

Tw for mentions of s/h, depression, and stuff ; nothing graphic just kinda sad stuff BUT THIS IS ABOUT SMTH GOOD HAPPENING

Sorry guys for being rambley emotional on here but like I only have two irls I can comfortably tell and I need to get it out 😇

Text below the cut if I did it correctly

So I finally told my dad about my problems over text. I’ve kinda been trying to for a while but getting words out is so stupid hard!,!,!,!

even worse that we are both just hanging out how am I a upposed to bring it up while we are both having a good time yk

So I send him a long winded text after I got upstairs to my room and it’s written in my voice that’s like “I don’t feel good I think about hurting myself all the time and I haven’t been able to bring it up bc it makes me feel sad and guilty sorry I love you”

And dawg sending that was so stupid difficult I sat on it for like 15 minutes before pressing the button

So we talked a bit and man I don’t even know

Anyways it went so well I’ve never asked for help and it’s just not the kind of person I am but I’m just really happy I did it. Like I asked for help from one of my older friend the other day and now I did this after like…a year.

Life is beautiful ; thank god my parents are good; Im proud of myself; uhhhhhhh yeahh

Might be going on anti depressants..?

[tfemflightinstructor]

Idk what to do got a commercial sel passed my foi and fia writtens and waiting for checkride decided I couldn’t stand to wait and live in denial anymore and got on hrt now don’t want to violate 61.53.a.2. My ame just gave me the form and said good luck. But my fucking pilot cert is in my dead name and trumps American and idk I think flying is a dead dream for me. Sorry to rant most people don’t get it though.

Okay so im not on hrt but! I know people who are

Hrt is Not aeromedically disqualifying, and doesnt require self grounding

1: if you have +6 months on your medical of Any Kind, you should be good, because its up to 6 months for you to get deferred worst case

2: start hrt, and get the papers, and submit it to the FAA for a deferral Yourself through the address on the GD form. Try avoiding talking to an ame at with one very specific exception

Gary Childers, in Denver Colorado. He works magic and if you can visit him, he’ll get you working perfectly fine

There is always hope. You will be fine. :)

What are they going to do about having Tits or a lower voice and increased muscle mass?

Nothing, unless you personally feel you violate IMSAFE. Kori Necker at the NGPA says they’re going to update the hrt guide as well.

As long as all your documents match letter for letter you’ll still pass through a multi checkride and such, you just gotta be open about who you really are when talking to people. The average person isnt a bad person, its just the people in charge desperately want you to believe they are.

This all is kinda rambley but i hope it helped

[lovesick-level-up]

shaking u guys im having another hsr hyperfix unfortunately eueueueueue would it be fine to request like. a feixiao stimboard? i dont mind any stims as long as its not slime. explodes. since hyv is selective you could also just do a stimboard based off the prsk nurse mafuyu card! i dont mind either way im just insane about both eueueueueueue. also if its alright, no f/o tags for both

gah i got rambley im so sorry jfieheiejeueud. you guys are just so cool to me. runs off to the sunset.

nice to see you!! its totally okay, this all made perfect sense lmao. we ended up doing both of these because we got excited lol, we hope you like them.

~ volt

[froghwon]

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[smileandasong]

6, 16, 23! 🌼

6. is there an artist whose solo career you prefer over their work with their bands?: br*ndon urie, of course <3333 so glad he dropped those talentless hacks and can finally write compelling, thought provoking lyrics like: ‘roll me like a blunt, i just wanna go home’ W O W, ryan ross could NEVER!! music u just wanna go wild to at the farmer’s market, am i right? 16. favorite album artwork: oooooh, this is hard! the first one that comes to mind rn is in love and death by the used. i know bert has said it too, but the imagery from that album has become so synonymous with the band and it really captures that 00s ‘emo’ aesthetic and scene so perfectly, too. it’s a great identity for the band and also kind of a nice little time capsule of the scene in 2004! 23. favorite singer only for voice and favorite drummer/guitar/bassist?: THIS IS ALSO HARD GTFDRFDESFRDE! okay, so for voice and voice alone? i know i just talked about them in the last question, but probably bert, especially on the earlier albums. the high notes that he hits on self-titled? i get chills every single time, especially when he can go from that to just straight up screams/dirty vocals. he is seriously so talented and i feel like his vocal talent gets overlooked a lot! and i’m not sure if i’m supposed to pick one or one of each, so i’ll just do one of each: drummer: ryan seaman, partially because of the way he can play completely stone-faced, serious and partially because he SHREDS. even when i (unfortunately) used to listen to falling in reverse, his drum work was so good!!! guitarist: ray toro, is that even a question? bassist: dallon fucking weekes!!! even on idkhow albums, i’m STILL picking up on his bass work and it’s so good. but also...pete...and gabe, omg!!! MIDTOWN! i just! so many good bassists, wahhhh <3! thank you, kace <33333 send me music asks so i can have the same basic emo takes over and over <3

[bluewinnerangel]

right back at ya cowboy

Omg ella I'm so sorry I was gonna do this "later" and then it got buried. OK. I clicked. EDIT: I JUST FOUND THIS IN MY DRAFTS IM DOUBLE SORRY lol imma expose my ramble draft

[So in case someone's reading this thinking ???? we sometimes throw a spinning wheel of songs at each other and then just go rambling yelling analysing whatever it gives back. I've kept track with this tag, feel free to copy any of them wheels links and go off or bug someone with it actually pls do]

Oh you mean that song I for some reason like some total idiot put on first thing in the morning and just bawl my eyes out, you know when its so early you're just so vulnerable and everything feels raw and there's no thoughts just something primal happens and it's me drowning myself in this song and then the day can start I guess am I fine nobody knows. It's now my Saturday morning ritual where before coffee I see some sun and I just bawl there's something therapeutic about it. I'd recommend it. Just some sun some coffee brewin some confused pet wondering if you're OK yeah.

Anyway. The song I can place extremely easily in like "1d ended and it sucked" context, but it works with a lot. whatever I can think of him, or anyone, writing about, whatever it means to me. (general Louis' songwriting ramble incoming:) I'm looking at FITF differently compared to Walls and previous work and he's approached it differently, I feel like what he's been saying about his discography fits that as well. I think (this is a mash of what i think to hear in his lyrics and in interviews, so heavy paraphrasing:) before he had this idea he should be writing where the whole thing makes sense to be about this one situation/idea and it has to be about him too and sure perhaps a context might have been written around it, but i think in the past hes been pretty perfectionist on having every single line fit the thing he was thinking of what that song is, and now thats no longer the case. Now it's whatever works, whatever hits, feels, does it. It doesn't matter one thought/situation flows into another.

I guess that was a long rambley way of saying I wanna do line by line lyric analyses of his stuff but I don't know how to make that work as it did previously, for me at least. But on the other by temporarily running with one interpretation and seeing what you can find in the lines can really help see more angles, bring more depth to the line, and consider other meanings and stuff so.. idk not much wrong with it. I wanna do that too I think. This is I guess A Promise I'll do a Holding On To Heartache lyric breakdown. At Some Point. :D

But I think his choices of words and soundscapes and perhaps all them being little references are just wonderful. I cherish it so much. I'm slightly afraid he did the same in Perfect Now (like after seeing a web of possible perfect now lyrical referencing that song did become one of my favs as I love that idea like it gives so much more body depth meaning whatever to a song to me even if not on purpose lol its not even relevant at that point anymore anyway) and long term didn't value it much so now I'm afraid my new little more poppy fav will be his new neglected child but time will tell. Just... have an itch. Rip. EDIT yeah that itch got worse because of the track by track we got now.. it's got that bit about HOTH being a poppy one and the way he's talking about it sigh i feel him but sigh also hes sigh i dont wannt start that discourse over that shit so no. but itch. I uh... luckily don't let how I interpret his reactions to his own songs affect the way I feel about his own songs haha brainpayne this.

ok ok ok last ramble it sounds so fucking liquid? so wet?? how do I explain this why does it sound w e t EDIT: help me he said the sound is like a guitar under water like he's drowning it's flooding we're in a puddle of tears this song, it's what makes me bawl I think, because the song sounds like bawling, and your cheeks are puffed up and we,t and you find a moment of quiet and stare up at the sky with your wet lashes exhausted defeated but you're still here you're still breathing. Also the bridge with the "space between us just comes FLOODING back" at the end of it, it's not the bit that hits the hardest in an obvious way, instead it kinda gets overlooked a way, theres no moment to sit and waddle in the SHIT FLOODING BACK RIGHT THERE it just goes right into the quiet bit again,there's no time given to recover from getting crushed by the wavesm and it just does something to me... I can't leave that bit as the little end of a big thought it sounds like, but the way its sung... time just keeps ticking and we're at the end. I'm almost sure that wasn't intentional and like @ me why focus on this of all the overwhelm that's in this song, but that just feels like a reflection of the feeling I get from this song, you're just fucking sitting there in the middle of this overwhelming ache these waves of hurt and shit just moves on and youre just there stuck there with but i wasn't done? But I guess I should be? Like there's no room for me drowning in this even more but I feel like I need to still?

ramble out.

[lustbile-archive]

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YangyangxReader

Word Count: 3.2k

Summary/Warning: Smut. Yangyang swears that tentacles are hot, just watch one video with him and you’ll see. He promises.… this was supposed to be a blurb but then I got very carried away. and because of that it might be a little rambley at some parts im so sorry

Requested

You’d be the first to admit that you and Yangyang had a weird friendship. Your other friends had clocked it, saying that even for best friends, you were way too open with each other.

And they weren’t technically wrong. Something about being around Yangyang deleted your filter, made you say shit that you never thought you’d say to another human being, but in your defense, he was exactly the same way.

It started with a few dirty jokes. It wasn’t anything serious or any different than ones you’d say with or without each other, but you two did encourage each other. It was as if anything one of you said, the other had something to add. It didn’t take long for things to begin to spiral and for your friends to decide that you two together were lethal.

After that day it was like you were attached at the hip. Something about your shared vulgarness made you click and it wasn’t very long after until it went a little far.

It was the first time you stayed over at his place, a bottle of liquor tucked in your bag. Tipsy off a half a bottle each, you both let it slip what turned you on the most. It wasn’t weird at the time, but the next morning there was a tension there.

That tension eventually faded, leading to another sleep over. And another. And another. Each of them somehow leading to some form of sexual conversation.

But the one that happened tonight was different.

Some joke about porn was made. You two sat side by side in your own chairs as you watched him play some game you quickly forgot the name of, and he had deemed it appropriate to mention that it would be kinda hot if the woman he played as were to get fucked by the tentacle monster that she fought.

You started by jokingly scolding him about how, though you weren’t sure exactly in what way, what he said was chauvinistic. But then you followed it with teasing about how he was a weirdo for being into tentacles.

“Oh come on,” he goes on, much louder than he needed to be, “you cannot tell me you’ve never looked at tentacle porn. Not even just because you were curious?”

“What porn I watch is none of your business Yang,” you retort as you push your finger in his face, a bratty giggle bursting from you when he smacks your hand away in irritation.

“So you’re not denying that you’ve seen tentacle porn,” he hums, nodding to himself, “if that’s the case I’m just gonna assume you have.”

You move to retort again, but he quickly interrupts, “actually I’m going to assume that you only watch tentacle porn and it’s something you get off to very often.”

“You think about me getting off a lot Yangyang?” you ask, but you quickly realize maybe the question was a step too far once the words are in the air.

Thankfully, he seems to ignore your question as he suddenly closed his game, the incognito tab he opens immediately after making your mouth run dry.

“How about this,” he starts, his fingers running across the keyboard as he types in the the link to a porn site. You divert your eyes quickly when you see the bars auto fill pop up, the idea of seeing whatever he looked at when he forgot to go incognito making your stomach flip, “let’s just take a little peek and we’ll see who’s right.”

“See who’s right about what?” your voice pitches and your back straightens as you ask.

“About whether or not tentacles are hot,” he turns to you briefly as if he’s explaining a math equation to you, “come on dude keep up.”

“Man I don’t know,” you hesitate, but you quickly notice he already has a video picked out and queued.

“I’m not gonna force you to watch it if you don’t want,” he reassures as he hovers his cursor over the play button, “but I also won’t judge you if you’re curious.”

You gnaw on your bottom lip for a moment as you think, your heart beating faster as the seconds pass, “okay fine just play it before I change my mind.”

And that’s how you got where you are now. You and Yangyang curled into your chairs, eyes wide and curious as a slender woman, with a disproportionately large chest, screams and whines while she’s brutally fucked by a weird tentacle monster.

You feel your face twist in fascination, first at the amount of detail and time that must have went into animating each frame, but then slowly but surely, just how weirdly hot you found yourself finding the video.

Something about the way the multiple tentacles cover her body as they suspend her in the air. One is shoved deep in her mouth, gross gagging noises added as a result, two attached to both of her nipples and another set fucking her open from both holes. It was easily one of the weirdest things you’ve ever seen, but you couldn’t ignore the growing wetness it caused in your underwear.

You try to not let it show in your body language, the idea of Yangyang noticing your arousal and then most likely making fun of you for it making you want to crawl in a hole.

You eyes dart over to him for a moment to try and gauge how he’s feeling. The first thing you notice immediately is the way he curls to block your view of his crotch, the second being the fact that he looks at you as well.

“So… what are you thinking?” he asks slowly.

“I don’t know what are you thinking?” you throw back almost too quickly.

“I… I think you know what I’m thinking,” his words continue to spill out like molasses, his head quickly nodding to the space between his legs with a embarrassed flush to his skin, “I’m asking how you’re feeling.”

“I don’t know,” you double down, your head shaking with a jerk, “I- I don’t know how I’m feeling.”

“It’s okay if you like it-“

“I don’t know if I like it,” you lie, your tone defensive and sharp.

“You do know that you’re not a bad person for liking it right?” He continues to reassure as he tries to keep his patience with you.

You only huff in response, the video still loudly playing as you talk. You try to shift in your seat to create distance between you, but it only makes you aware of how your arousal grows.

“Okay im not gonna lie,” he starts, a joking tone to his voice in the way that tells you he’s trying to ease the tension, “I think it’s hot, but you probably guessed that. I’m just saying I could totallly jack it to this.”

You know it’s a joke, but that doesn’t stop the words from making your face warm and your thighs flex. And even though you try and advert your eyes, you know he is analyzing every move you make.

“Do you maybe…” he trails off as he considers what to say next, “ack, no no it’s weird never mind.”

“What?” you dart up in panic, “is something im doing weird?”

“No no no,” he panics as well, “you’re fine… I was just gonna ask if you... if you maybe wanted to see how much you like it. Like see if you can get off to it?”

It was in this you found out that maybe your friends were right. Maybe you were lethal together, too comfortable and relaxed and willing to do and say the worst in front of each other. If that wasn’t the case there was no way in hell you’d end up where you were now.

If someone had told you that when you first met Yangyang that one night you two would be masturbating to tentacle porn together, you would have told them they lived in a fantasy, that they were just delusional perverts that don’t like people being just friends, but they would have been right.

You felt weirdly eager as you pushed your pajama shorts and underwear to his floor, the air of the room hitting your skin and making you come to the terms of how wet the video had gotten you.

And the fact that Yangyang seemed equally as eager as he pulled himself from the restrains of his sweatpants both put you at ease while putting you incredibly in edge.

You tried to ignore him as he sat next to you. Your eyes taking an iron lock onto his screen as a new video played. It was the same idea, pretty girl with literally any possible hole stuffed with a slimy tentacle getting pleasured in any way possible, the only difference was a slight change in art style.

It took you a moment to get into it, your fingers gently tapping against your clit as you tried to build the courage to touch yourself the same way you do in the safety of your own room, but after one particularly hard thrust from the monster and a desperate cry from the girl, you couldn’t hold back.

Your fingers dipped into your entrance gently as you coated the tips in your arousal, your hips jumping slightly at the friction.

Yangyang tried to ignore you as well, his fist moving slowly as he tried to focus on the scene in front of him, but the way you jerked next to him and the bubbles of noise that slipped unintentionally from your lips, he felt like a starving tiger being tempted with a steak.

You tried to bite your tongue to hold in any moans as your fingers started to roll circles gently on your clit, but with the way you grew wetter and wetter and the rising sensitivity in the bundle of nerves, you couldn’t help the quiet whimpering that rose from you chest.

It wasn’t that you could get off to it, it was actually much easier than you had anticipated. Something about the way the girls in the videos were being stimulated in every way possible had you hot and dripping in your arousal, and maybe your best friend pleasuring himself next to you was making it a million times sexier.

You weren’t alone though. It didn’t take long for Yangyang to lose his internal battle, his eyes straining to his side and his gaming chair rolling back slightly to allow him to watch you from the side. He knew he could crank one out easily to the videos in front of him, he had done it plenty of times before, but if he let the opportunity of watching your chest rise and fall with labored breaths while your fingers moved quickly over your dampened skin pass him by, he’d be kicking himself forever.

He was moving before he could even think, the finger of his free hand working with a mind of his own as they tap gently on the side of your chair. His heart beat sky rockets when you jump, but he only feels himself get harder when he sees it doesn’t stop your rapidly moving hand.

“Say no,” he whispers regardless of his growing need to touch you, “say no cause I cannot ruin this friendship.”

“No offense Yang,” he almost collapses at how winded you sound, but also at the promise that you’re still comfortable enough to shorten his name, “but if what we’re doing now didn’t ruin it, I don’t think anything will.”

“Thank fuck,” he speaks too loudly again as he moves his chair next to yours, his hand brushing against the side of your bare leg as it leans against the arm of your chair, “cause I wanna touch you so bad dude.”

“Hmmmm,” you hum out as his words swirl your brain like a blender, your heart rapidly pumping against your chest. You’d be a liar if you tried to act like the idea didn’t cause a new wave of arousal run over your body. Your answer comes before you can even think of the consequences.

“Please,” the word being your only verbal response before you rip your hand away from your body, your legs falling wider apart as an invitation. Your body jumps in protest as you deny yourself the orgasm that was slowly building, and Yangyang immediately jumps into action to compensate.

The first touch of his fingers is unsure, a hesitation in his muscles as he tries to convince himself that what’s happening is real. He isn’t sure what’s hotter to him in that moment, the way you whimper with a slight pout to your lips when he finally presses his digits to your swollen clit, or the way your eyes remain locked on the animated porn.

He’s battling between the two, when you show him something better. Your hand moves wildly in the air for only a moment, before you're pushing it under his arm. It doesn’t take you much exploring before you find where his hand slowly moves against his length. Your hand swats gently at his in a way that weirdly reminds him of the way you swat at him when he does something he’s not supposed to, and after his brain catches up with your motions, he lets go.

He thinks his heart probably stops when your hand wraps around him, your wrist immediately moving at the same pace as his fingers. His eyes slam shut for a second, a desperate attempt to hold off his orgasm, before they open slightly again.

He tries to do the same as you and keep his eyes trained on the video, and it works a few times, but as you gush and twitch against his unrelentingly moving fingers. He feels like one of his biggest fantasies has come to life in front of him, the whining sound of his name from your lips music to his ears.

You babble and squirm, your orgasm approaching you much faster than it has ever before. There’s something so jarring and new about the video that flashes in front of your eyes, and combining that with your best friend playing you not much differently than he’d played his game not long before made you feel like you were losing your grip on reality.

You’re vaguely aware that your hand flexes around his length, and fear that maybe your hold may be too rough immediately leaving your mind when you hear him let out a pleased groan. The sound also momentarily replaces the fear that filled you from actually looking at the boy that sits next to you, and you feel your head jerking to look at his face scrunched in pleasure.

The wind is knocked from your lungs when your eyes meet his again, neither of your stares faltering like you assumed they would. Instead the eye contact encourages you both, and you feel your hands pick up their pace.

You thank the universe for Yangyang’s reflexes as he finds no trouble in following your antsy jerking hips, his fingers never shifting away from your buzzing clit. He’s also completely unfazed as your thighs clamp around his wrist, and instead his now free hand moves to grab at your knee that’s closest to him, and pull harshly to hold your legs spread.

The angle his body is now turned leaves him leaning on his side, and he shows no hesitation to using the new position to his advantage as he begins thrusting his hips to fuck your fist.

You feel as if there’s another force around you that forces you to stare at one another, your hands and hips becoming frantic as you both inch closer and closer to your finish.

The video had ended moments before, but neither of you move to choose another. Too distracted by the other bodies, both of your breaths pick up right before the point of hyperventilating.

You feel yourself right on the edge, the beginning of your orgasm making your toes curl and your back arch off the back of the chair. Just from the stimulation on your clit, you can feel yourself falling, but when he notices that you’re starting to crumble, his fingers slip down until they push into you making you gasp loudly.

With his middle and ring finger pistoning in you at the same pace as his hips and the heel of his hand digging and rubbing into your clit, you finally start to come. If it wasn’t for his determined pace, your fluttering walls would push him out, but he fights against your body with a deep grunt as he curls the digits to pull against the nerve inside you that makes your eyes roll back into your skull.

With your mouth hanging open, silent moans and squeaking whimpers popping from your throat, he’s sure he stares at a defiled angel. He knew he always found you attractive, even more attractive when you first took his raunchy jokes in stride, but as you come so beautifully around his fingers, he decides you’re the prettiest thing he’s ever seen.

Just watching your come is enough to push him over the edge, but as it makes your muscles tense, your hand flexes and shakes as you hold him. With a few more pulses of his hips, he’s coming with his lip tucked between his teeth and his eyes trained on where you wrap around his fingers, your noise of surprise at the feeling of his come shooting across your hand only making his orgasm stronger.

With shaking legs, he falls back into his chair, his hand pulling from your sensitive skin, and his softening length slipping from your fingers.

Silence falls over the room, the only sound being the angry sound of his computer's fan and your evening breaths. You pull your limbs into your body as you try to get more comfortable in the seat, and as you try to wrap your arms around yourself, you notice the evidence of his orgasm that sticks to the side of your hand.

You’re moving before you can even think about your actions or how weird they could be to the boy next to you, your hand lifting up to your face and you tongue peaking out to lick at the sticky substance. You jerk slightly at the taste, but in a thought of self challenge and a simple ‘fuck it,’ you slide the flat of your tongue up the side of your hand, collecting everything he left behind, before swallowing deeply.

You hear a muffled sound of surprise to your side, the sound making your head whip to the side as you remembered your possible audience. Your heart beats fast as you panic at the idea of him finding your action gross, but as you look you see him in a very similar position.

Yangyang grins around his fingers that were once drenched in your orgasm, but now sit licked clean in his teasing mouth. There’s a slight popping noise as he pulls them hesitantly from his lips, and his devious smile only grows before he speaks.

“Oh so we’re both like gross, gross huh?”

[bicyclepainting]

I didn't want to clog your post up with my replies but I wanted to know what's your favorite & least favorite cards (tarot and/or oracle) & what deck(s?) are they from? In the sense that I have a card that I tend to get lot & go, "oh...you again" so it's not my favorite lol doesn't help that more times than not it's not in my favor when I get it

omg im so excited u asked abt this, i already know its going to be a long, rambley post lol sorry

First i want to establish that i am a Super amateur tarot reader, and dont know too much about other kinds of card reading or anything like that

BUT with that being said, the deck i use is raider-waite inspired, im fairly sure. i got it in london on a school trip so dont know too much abt it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ but it is a renaissance-themed deck and absolutely gorgeous. but one thing i know for sure about my deck is that it is very dramatic lol it Loves to throw around the tower at situations that dont deem quite that level of flair. so besides the actual intimidating nature of the tower itself, im kind of wary when i see my deck use it because i kind of have to take it with a grain of salt. other than that, i really dont practice as regularly as i should but i use an app to track my spreads and stuff and it says i pull a lot of major arcana, which tracks with my analysis of my deck being dramatic <3 i say with love, of course

as for favorite cards, as the local astrology enthusiast, i would be remiss to say that the star isnt one of my favorites because it is the card representing aquarius. but like actually, im very partial to the nine of cups. in my deck its a very beautiful card, and has a very pretty purple on it, which is my favorite color at the moment. its also a card representing hope and wishes coming true. Plus nine is my favorite number. my deck likes to show me this card too, but its comforting <3

i hope that answers ur question lol

[monstersandmaw]

Hi. Im the anon with the big soft boi of a Quinari. I would love to share his backstory! Thank you for opening these flood gates.

So his backstory starts with his parents. Two Quinari who ran away from home to be together and to have him. He was often told this story as a child which has caused him to be a big hopeless romantic and believer in freedom. His parents settled in a similar place as where the game starts actually. A large log cabin nestled in a large valley.

His dad was a talented archer and hunted a lot of the food while his mother exchanged unused furs for dried foods, herbs or cloth to anyone who passes by. His dad tried to tech him how to shoot a bow and arrow but he was, to put it lightly, abysmal at it. He was better at digging up edible roots and plants or helping his mother salt and preserve meats for the long winters their chosen home often had.

The very peaceful family had two unused rooms they gave out to passing travelers and hunters who were willing to board with three Quinari for a time. It was through these hunters and travelers that he learned how to read and about small bits of history which only fed his curiosity about the greater world around him.

Once he became more independent and capable he left his home to explore the world on his own. The only problem was that he didn't know anything about money because his parents traded for everything. Luckly a local mercenary group took pity on this very young and confused looking Quinari and took him in. He learned how to read and write better, he learned about the different people and nations and their histories. He learned how to fight and he learned about the Fade and the Veil and was always enthralled with any new stories he came across. And then his group was hired to help/protect Divine Justinia at the peace talks between the templars and the mages and... well we all know how that went.

Sorry if this was rambley or unclear. I have a lot of thoughts that want to become words all at once so it can be hard to keep them orderly or clear. Also thank you for taking an interest in my boy. I never really get to talk about this stuff so it always just sits in my head until written down or forgotten.

I love him! Thank you for sharing him with everyone! He sounds like an absolute sweetheart and id give him my own in a second!!

I always welcome Dragon Age talk on here (though I’ve only ever got to Ostegar in Origins, and i’ve never played II, so inquisition is all I have really).

[silkylious]

Oh I love ask games like this, how about maroon, cardinal and blood?😁

(Btw I hope you're having a nice day!!😊)

ooh thank you for dropping by V!!

maroon: what role do you play in your group of friends?

honestly depends on the friend group. with my childhood friends, probably mean older sister that looks out for her dumbass younger sisters (even tho im not the oldest 🙄) + full-time unpaid therapist. with my friends from my old school, teasing but generally doting friend. in all cases im loud and insufferable.

cardinal: what is the first song that made you cry?

dude i have no clue 😭 i can tell you the most recent song that made me cry tho, forget not by ne obliviscaris

blood: which of your family members is your favourite?

it sounds really basic but i swear i don't have favorites 💀 i love my family very dearly, but i guess im closest to my mom and oldest brother. though to make things fair here's what i adore about each of them (gets rambley under the cut)

my mom is just absolutely perfect (im pretty sure ive mentioned that before on this blog lmaoo) but i truly think she's the perfect parent in all aspects, like im genuinely scared that i ever have kids i won't be able to raise them as well as she raised me. she's incredible. we do have our differences when it comes to beliefs and that's usually a point of contention between us but that's just natural doesn't change how great of a person and mother she is.

i am forever grateful for my dad for being my number one teacher. he taught me how to think for myself and build my own beliefs in a very conservative, traditionalist culture and i can't thank him enough for that. legit could listen to him talk for hours on end and learn something new each time. we do believe in very different things (after all, no matter how open-minded he is, he still grew up in a strict religious middle eastern environment and those deep-rooted fundamentalist ideals won't go away over night) but he respects me and trusts that i'll do the right thing. there is definitely a lack of emotional connection between us, but considering his upbringing that's understandable and i don't blame him for it.

my brother (the one in the middle) is literally one of my best friends, i can spend all day with him and not get bored at all. no one can make me smile or laugh as easily as he does. we do argue a lot but we just as quickly make up and cool off by watching anime or reading manga together lmao. he brightens my day just by being there and im so glad I get to see him again :))

my oldest brother is probably the most similar to me in terms of personality and yet we're still so different. he's just, all i could ask for in an older brother. he's not the best with words or outwardly expressing himself but he's been so unconditionally supportive of me for so long. it's really weird how for most of my childhood I barely knew him (he was really distant, understandable given the six year difference between us) but when he traveled back to egypt for uni we got really close and found out we have a lot in common. he's just great :") my number one supporter even if he would never say it out loud <3

LMAO THAT WAS A LOT IM SO SORRY 💀

[disabled-queen-hc-blog]

maylor where rog has manic depression and bri is clinically depressed and the tension of rogers manic moods clashing with bris and roger feeling sad because he knows how brian feels but isnt sure what to do to help or reassure him since rogers been in a manic episode for a long while.. this is rambley im very sad and need this because im struggling im sorry 🦇

This would be a circus to say the least. 

Roger is up at all times of day and night, doing basically anything that catches his attention. He’s blasting music, playing his drums, making bad decisions with the stuff he buys on those QVC channels, making a mess in the kitchen, dying his hair- you get the point.

And Brian all the while is in their room, sleeping or staring at the ceiling. He barely showers. Barely eats. Barely even leaves the room.

They are on two complete different levels and neither of them know how to help the other.

Roger feels bad knowing behind that closed door is his boyfriend languishing away. And he’s doing nothing about it.

And Brian feels bad knowing outside, Roger is getting himself into trouble doing stupid reckless things. And he’s doing nothing about it. 

The straw that breaks the camels back would be with Roger. He started a fire in the kitchen because why not? Looks fun! Can’t think about the consequences so let’s go for it. 

And it spreads. And he has no idea what to do. But it’s kinda pretty? All the flames.

Once the fire alarm goes on, Brian gets out of their room and looks for Roger, just to see him sitting in front of the stove that is on fire and is spreading, like it’s some type of bonfire and grabs him. 

They wait outside for the fire fighters and Brian is sobbing. Not because their kitchen is destroyed but because they’re destroying themselves and just watching like Roger was watching the flames.

Roger doesn’t get it. He’s like, I was fine! I would’ve put it out! This isn’t a big deal! You’re no fun! Oh look the fire fighters are here! You think I can get them to honk at us? Brian! Brian! Do you? Huh?

Brian’s just crying all the while because he’s so fucking depressed and has no idea what to do. They are both too out of control to help each other.

Once news spreads, Freddie and John are there.

Freddie basically takes care of Roger while John takes care of Brian. 

Freddie gets Roger a therapy appointment while also helping him fix whatever messes he made with purchases and god knows what else. (Besides, you know, the burnt down kitchen)

John gets Brian cleaned up and also makes an appointment for therapy. He helps him sort things he’s been ignoring and helps him do some chores.

Freddie and John deal with the kitchen themselves. Rog and Bri won’t be in any position for months to deal with it, so they’ll take care of it themselves.

Brian is first to make headway in his recovery and he’s in awe of his friends taking on their health but also distraught at how bad him and Roger got.

Roger doesn’t come back down for a while, but once he’s level headed, he too feels the same.

The first thing they do as a recovering couple is thank Freddie and John by taking them out to dinner.

The second thing they do is make sure this never happens again. They go to couples therapy alongside being very involved in each other’s health. Reminding each other of therapy appointments, to take their pills, calling out potentially bad behaviors, etc.

They never want to be in a position like that again. Especially because Freddie redesigned their kitchen when they were incapacitated and he made it pink.

[busanbunnie]

ooc; okay, first things first, this isn’t weird in the slightest and you are such a sweetheart, dear nonnie!! thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to send me this and i’m so honoured you think this way. after a good few days feeling uneasy on this blog, you really have brightened my day and i truly feel somewhat eased by your kind words. ahhh, i wish you had spoken to me and never felt too shy to follow! if you ever need to chat or need a friend my ims/ask are always open and upon request i’ll happily give you my discord even tho i’m slow af on there!! i’m crying that you think i’m good?! like ahhh, i’m just a potato behind the screen who loves creating stories & shoving my character into different situations. tbh you need to thank all my writing partners (yourself included because i hope we either write together or will do soon) for giving me the inspiration, support and love to plot and come up with such incredible plot lines, etc!! 

ohmygosh, really?! i think i’ve had hana for like 2 and half years now? but my tifa blog i’ve had over 8. i get super attached to a character & end up pouring everything that i have into them. i always have other ideas but i always come back to my babies. i have numerous other characters i wanna write (including minhwan, i will get back to you bab, i’m so sorry) but i’m so invested in hana (and tifa) that i always go back to them. they’re the two characters that mean SO much to me and even tho i get paranoia within the community sometimes and my occasional worries, i genuinely don’t think i could get rid of the two of them.

a positive impact on the community?! t-that’s such a huge honour!! omg, i’m actually tearing up at such words. THANK YOU????!? i’m a huge believer in making people realise that this is just a hobby and we shouldn’t be spreading negativity (even tho i get upset myself sometimes). you write who you wanna write, you create a character how and what you want them to be like and don’t let anybody else tell you what to do! as long as you’re not hurting anybody and you’re having fun and love your character so much, then that is the main thing. i’m slowly learning to take my own advice too. hana is who she is & i’m not changing her and i love her so so so much. and i adore the people in this community who are so supportive and loving of others! there is no need for hatred and to bring others down. 

i’m grateful to the following i have, still in shock that so many actually do follow me tbh. but even if we don’t write or talk, if i follow you/vice versa--just thank you. thank you for all the support you show with this little derp. i’ve been focusing a lot on my gaming to be in a more positive mindset these past few days and it’s helping me slowly but surely!! forgive me for the negative posts i have put out but they’re about to stop & i’m just gonna keep doing what i’m doing. so many people have reached out to me and expressed their love for my girl and i can’t tell you just how much it means to me, it truly has helped more than you know!! thank you again for sending this message & sorry it got a smidge rambley!! >//-//< i have a lot of passion for d.va and even now while i’m on a smol break, i’m itching to write her so, good signs, good signs!! ♥