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I’m feeling diabolical so Soda and Steve Swap AU but Soda dies and Darry’s in his room staring at Sandy’s letter. Soda never found out about Sandy. It would’ve killed him if he wasn’t already dead.
#poptart’s general stuff#the outsiders#poptart speaks#se hinton#darry curtis#sodapop curtis#Soda and Steve AU#Sandy didn’t know if he would come back but she was forced to leave before she found out#so she assumes he’s still alive#maybe one day she’ll return and find out he’s dead#but for the moment Darry’s all alone#just thinking#ruminating
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How it feels when I'm stuck ruminating

#ocd#obsessive compulsive disorder#ruminating#actually ocd#real event ocd#pocd#zocd#tocd#actually obsessive#mental health memes
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shadownilla is slowly growing on me…like mold on a loaf a bread
#cookie run kingdom#shadownilla#shadow milk crk#pure vanilla crk#shadow milk cookie#pure vanilla cookie#shadow milk#pure vanilla#like…it’s just in the back of my mind#ruminating
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tennis discourse is soooo weird on both sides from the carlos-jiri match today because the majority of people can't even focus on jiri playing great and winning, which isn't totally surprising or anything considering he's quite under the radar for a top 25 player, but im pointing it out bc people were ignoring the win in favor of dissecting carlos' loss and what it means for his career (???) which is so funny bc like. its february. bro had a worse start last year when he didnt win anything till iw and then he won two slams in a row like...u literally have nothing to worry abt
but within the group of people talking exclusively abt carlos there are like two sub-factions, which are his fans and his...idk...weird straight dudes who appear to only watch tennis to drag down every young player ever lol. anyways the fans are oddly up in arms abt this when he didnt rlly play that badly, he just showed his normal inconsistencies like he does in lich rally every match but ok
and then the chronic ig commenters are like "JANNIK IS THE REAL NO 1" which...do we not know this????? look at the rankings dumbass! idk i don't like watching carlos but there is zero merit to comparing him to jannik, theyre so dissimilar and dont even have relevant career trajectories atm so i dont get this. carlos isnt even world no 2 with 10000 points, so he's not close to usurping the top ranking rn. not understanding this need to underline janniks dominance like this is new information
all this to say sports fandom is fawking insane to be a part of and i hope no player in the top 100 ever checks their phone LMAO
#i would be lying if i said i wasnt annoyed with how yt commenters keep saying carlos “was better” like no he literally was not#if you're better you win. if you're not you lose. that is how tennis works and you STATISTICALLY cannot be the best every time and thats#fine because players are human! but disingenuous to act like you can be “better” and still lose#and no i am not saying jiri is consistently better than carlos lol jiris never made a gd slam sf. butconsistency is not measured that simpl#and if youve lost you were the worse player IN THAT INSTANCE. jiri has a 250 title and a r16 slam appearance#while carlos has a 500 and a slam qf. carlos has won a slam every year since 2022 which is consistency#in one facet but he has also never made an ao sf and has lost in r2 in multiple tournaments#in the past year which indicates a streakiness that needs remedying.#tennis#carlos alcaraz#just outlining how fans and detractors share some interesting similarities sometimes in their logic#ok i have had these thoughts for a while but only came around to verbalizing them bc#jiri was the one to beat carlos LMAO i wouldve shut my mouth otherwise#ruminating
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left behind
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He'd spent an awful lot of time dwelling on the past, old hurts, old sins, but it was all in vain. There was no undoing them . . .
Lev Grossman, from The Bright Sword
#can't repeat the past#no going back#can't undo it#regret#regrets collect like old friends#stuck in the past#ruminating#can't let go#can't move on#futile#the worst feeling#personal#the past#quotes#lit#words#excerpts#quote#literature#lev grossman#the bright sword
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Thinking about this in a sort of rituals way.

You either honor your kill or degrade you kill. I think the base level superiority that vampires seem to have means they degrade their kill. Humans where humanity is a flaw, y’know. But Claudia, Claudia was a blossoming superior being, and then she became the enemy. Thus the degradation of putting her in the rat box.. less than Louis and Madeleine, less worthy of respect even though she is more vampire than any of them.
#iwtv spoilers#iwtv#claudia de pointe du lac#louis de pointe du lac#madeleine eparvier#tweet#ruminating#but also like the people on Twitter are saying the theatre des vampires is full up on misogynoir
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#trashy coquette#trailer park princess#coquette#deadontheweb#girlblogging#gaslight gatekeep girlblog#this is what makes us girls#ruminating#meme#female hysteria#female manipulator#the bell jar#the virgin suicides#e girl#femcel#girlhood#this is a girlblog#girlblogger
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Anyone else feel a little overwhelmed by how many fandoms just kind of consume your soul? Also laugh at how dyrastically different they are?
Like me for example, I like My Little Pony and Star Wars. Two very different genres and tones, but they both eat my soul a little. Also Netflix's Lost in Space, and Avatar the Last Airbender and it's a little funny. Like I feel like I shouldn't like all four of those shows because of how different they are but they all just hit different, and MLP was my first fandom, (well, I guess techniaclly Dinasour Train and Wild Kratts were the first--don't judge, I was smol- and both are hard to watch as an Adult) gotta respect it, and how much comfort it fills me with to watch six ponies learn about friendship. Like I'm not sure if this is just because of ADHD and hyperfixations but still.
it's weird how much mental real estate these four shows take up.
Like, does anyone else feel weird about the shows they like?
But also it's kinda nice because you can exist with other people who like that fandom and the more fandoms you like the more spaces you can exist in.
idk. My brain decided to ruminate on this for some reason, lol.
#Adhd#adhd brain#trauma#mlp#my little pony#lost in space 2018#lost in space netflix#avatar the last airbender#Star Wars#fandom things#fandom#depersonalization#ruminating#food for thought#hyperfixation#Dinasour Train PBS#wild kratts#I feel old
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It doesn't all come out poetically,
Elegant and intentional, words in perfect order,
Rhythmic, melodic, pretty.
Frayed ends entangled into hopeless knots.
It's enough to get it out at all, lifeless in a heap.
Overlapping, chaotic scribbles on the page.
Keeping note of the intrusive thoughts,
The self-doubt and confusion based fears,
Has helped maintain the mess.
Desperate attempts to manage the disorder
As best as possible.
Letting it go before it manifests into something
Much larger, with what litttle energy I have left
During the moments I feel somewhat like myself.
#poets on tumblr#writing#spilled thoughts#spilled ink#poetry#poem#spilled writing#original writing#spilled poem#tumblr is my diary#poets of tumblr#poems and poetry#someone told me to write for me#to make a mess and get it out#even one line at a time helps#ruminating#mental health#writing as a coping mechanism
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INFJ. I've been having a debate with my DBT therapist about whether some of my thought patterns count as rumination or as healthy planning or reflection. I'm a PhD student, and think a lot about which goals to set for myself. What do you think is the distinction between healthy use of Ni and Ti and rumination?
Not being able to tell the difference between reflection and rumination is a typical sign of Ti loop. A ruminating person believes they are "thinking" and perhaps even believes they are being quite analytical, but the "thoughts" are actually feelings/emotions in disguise. Being unable/unwilling to face negative feelings directly means they churn around endlessly, with no resolution. Thus, chronic rumination often makes you feel worse the more you do it, as the underlying negative feelings remain unaddressed and allowed to escalate.
This is why rumination is defined as "thinking" that does not produce any sound conclusions or tangible benefits. If you struggle to draw firm conclusions, let alone sound ones, or if you don't know what counts as a tangible benefit, then there's a good chance you're stuck in Ti loop and lacking the objectivity of healthy extraverted functions. Of course, some problems in life are difficult to handle and require a lot of thought. However, the analytical process should still be systematic and follow a clear line of reasoning that is: 1) easy enough to explain and outline verbally, and 2) incrementally and tangibly leading toward a solution.
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having two real episodes of realis to listen is making me feel greedy
#what four friends at the tableless months does to a person#looping them#ruminating#there is so much here……#im so excited
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