#repetitive thoughts

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Autistic and Getting “Locked” in Repetitive Thoughts

Neurodivergent_lou

[kadampalife]

How to deal with difficult people

“You think 70,000 thoughts a day,  90% of them the same as the day before. You are stuck on loop repeating the same script over and over again. New thoughts are like a new trail in the forest – the more you walk it, the stronger it becomes. Old thoughts become automatic, repetitive, keeping you trapped, including in the past. If you want to change, you have to carve new neuronal pathways. You can…

[squirmydonnie]

'Sorry' and 'bad'

[lurking-loaf]

Drawing practice of Sun's faceplate and hands in the canon toon style

[free--therapy]

it's anon! thank you for helping, i think I can think about the compulsion and rationalising thing much better now.

I am sort of still confused as to what healthy or proper rationalising but does this work?

like recently I've been kind of remembering worries from 2020 and early 2021 because that's where my anxiety actually started or rather, got out of control due to covid and stuff. i just developed health anxiety on and off which led me to a habit of googling whatever I was worried about or joining forums and such and other stuff like that.

looking back, that googling habit or joining anxiety forums and stuff did give me a few "good" results but overall, it did more harm than good. it helped me in few ways but was also pretty destructive in other ways. but since I had no other way of knowing what was going on iwth me and how to get any help or reassurance, so looking online was the only way for me. i also visited the doctor quite a few times in a span of three months due to my worries about a specific symptom I was having and didn't know what it was. I did see one psychiatrist who said it was health anxiety. this lasted on and off for about six months until i got over it.

however in August 2021, i just randomly looked up something I was worried about and OCD came up which triggered me bad and I started looking at forums and support groups too but only for a month or so. Because after that I got a therapist for a few months who asked me that the forums were doing me more harm with minimal help so it was better to leave. And I did which was a great decision because after that, I never read anything online about any mental health disorder. Which works best for me.

Either way, all i know is it was health anxiety but beyond that, I'm not sure what disorder I had or what it was, etc. So i know assuming it was a symptom of xyz disorder is wrong since I can't say for sure.

These days, those memories are coming back and since I've been worried about OCD, thoughts like "was that googling habit a compulsion?" Or "was that xyz thing you did many times a compulsion?" "So was it OCD or obsessive disorder or any related disorder?" Etc.

But i also know, it's in the past and I can never know for sure. So no matter how many thoughts like "was it OCD? Was it this xyz disorder?" etc. come up, i always rationalise it by telling myself certain things.

So now when i remember it and find myself getting worried, no matter how many times the thoughts pop up, how i rationalise it is by telling myself things like:

"right now I'm worried about specific disorders so my mind is trying to bring up anything that sounds similar to trigger me"

"i don't need to know what it was because it's not going to change anything. it's not like it means I have that disorder again. besides what I do know for sure is it was health anxiety. beyond that, i don't need to guess or assume anything because it doesn't matter"

"it most probably wasn't any of those disorders I'm worried about but either way it's in the past and doesn't matter now"

"whatever it was doesn't affect me in anyway in the present. so whatever it was doesn't matter. I'm just overthinking and i know that in the present, I'm fine."

"right now I'm just anxious after a long time of being okay. so I'm having all sorts of worry thoughts but I know they are not true. and this includes thoughts about the past"

"I'm healthy and okay in the present. i don't need to take these what ifs seriously. I'm okay"

Is this a healthy way of rationalising? Am i doing it right?

Hey Anon, yes, it does look like you're on the right track to combatting these thoughts that keep coming up!

And yes, it's probably the best thing you did by leaving those forums because for the most part people on those kinds of forums are only just feeding each others' anxiety and making it way worse. While the internet can be a tool for good use, it can also be more harmful than good, like your therapist said.

When it comes to rationalizing your thoughts, the idea is to basically tell your mind that everything is okay because when these intrusive thoughts start to happen, your mind has been switched into survival mode and it will say and do everything to keep you out of danger, even if the "danger" is only something that is perceived, such as a thought.

[haliaiii]

I am once again thinking about persona 2

[sharkylass]

SPOILERS: Two Hats / Act 6 Encounter | [MASTERPOST] ---------------------------------------

This is REALLY early in Roboro joining the family. Like- A few days type of early.

I think they did this because they hated the insinuation that they were being ingenuine. That they're somehow lying about who they are, what they've been through- That they're lying about who they've become and somehow presenting a fake version of themselves, when in reality, this is some of the most genuine they've ever been.

Roboro remembers how to play their part well. Being silly, loud, abrasive- They practiced being that person for years, decades even, looking at a mirror. Learned what parts to keep loose, relaxed, how to express without a hint of hesitation, how to instill confidence in others.

They remember how to do it, but it no longer reflects who they are.

In contrast- I do think it's still a part of Isabeau, the loud, the silly, the joyous, I still think he's capable of it and feels comfortable in it.

It's kind of what upsets him about Roboro's little performance here? Insinuating that his loud and positive demeanor is somehow fake- Sure, he had to build it up himself- But it was still him! Just because it took active effort to get there, doesn't make it more fake or anything!

So Roboro showing his family just how much active effort went into it is- embarrassing! Now his family is going to think that he's somehow faking everything, and sure, he needs to let loose with some stuff- but it's not all for show!

And so Roboro, in trying to show that they are genuine, ended up implying that Isabeau is not.

[ryescapades-archived]

going to a post-match celebratory party with sae and as he's about to leave for a moment to get you two drinks, he sends a particular look over your shoulder.

peering behind, you then throw an incredulous look at your boyfriend, "what? you're assigning me a guard dog now?" you sigh from where you lounge on the couch, gesturing to the man who's strutting over to where you sit with both hands shoved in his pockets.

shidou looks at you right in the eyes and grins lopsidedly, "woof."

[petsemataries]

did you know: only a few mammals actively hunt humans AND I'M ONE OF THEM GET SCARED GET SCARED GET SCARED GET SCARED GET SCARED

[uolarieclosed]

lee heeseung ☆ ! if you let me

━━━ in which you make quite the impression on lee heeseung who became head over heels in love with you …

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who first fell in love with you when you punched him in the face for being rude.

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who couldn’t stop smiling while his friends took him to the infirmary. despite getting his shit rocked, he remembered your pretty face.

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who really confirmed his feelings after you apologized with a pack of frozen peas upon seeing the large bruise forming around his eye.

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who started pestering you everyday to go on a date with him.

“it’s just ice cream, jongseob told me you liked pistachio and i know a really good place.” heeseung followed you around the classroom. “you mean the same jongseob you were being an asshole to?” you halt, facing heeseung with a scowl—and he swore he felt his heart explode.

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who finally got you on a date and was beyond ecstatic. however he’s never been more nervous; pacing around his room looking for the perfect outfit and standing in front of the mirror practicing his greeting to you.

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who had to resist the urge to not kiss you after walking you to your door, but he was even more shocked when you kissed him on the cheek, running into your house.

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who met you at your locker the next morning, handing you the latte he argued with a freshman over.

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who writes down every little thing you tell him. ranging from your favorite foods to your sibling’s birthdays.

“you remembered?” you open the gift box that held your favorite lipstick inside—knowing it had been discontinued. “i listen to everything you say.” you wrap your arms around him, muttering a thank you.

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who keeps his hand in your back pocket wherever you two go out and when he wants your attention, he spins you around by your belt hoop.

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who holds your things over his head to get you riled up.

“you’re gonna have to jump higher than that angel.” he laughs while standing on his tippy toes.

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who will embarrass himself for your entertainment. such as dancing to your favorite songs in public, letting you try your new makeup products on him, and allowing you recite all of the texts he sends you to your friends.

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who gets more affectionate and clingy when he drinks too much at a party he shouldn’t have been at.

“have you always looked this beautiful?” “i can’t believe you’re all mine.” “i think i want you to have all of my children.” “shut up heeseung.”

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who wraps his embroidered uniform tie around you so no one even thinks of approaching you when he isn’t around.

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who falls asleep with you in class so both of you get in trouble and he can sneak a couple kisses in detention.

“it’s just us angel, the teacher left a while ago.” heeseung tightens his hold around your waist, keeping you on his lap while he leans in with a cocky smirk.

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who shows up at your house in the middle of the night with bloodied knuckles and a torn lip. he jokes about how it reminds him of the day you punched him, to which you scold him.

SCHOOL BOYFRIEND HEESEUNG who knows he’s a pain in the ass but he would do anything for you.

© 2024 uolarie

[keferon]

Can Golem Prowl have his parts separated? Like if like his arm is pulled hard enough does it just leave his shoulder, since he’s technically empty armor held together by magic. Could he get blasted by magic or hit hard enough that he splits into his pieces? Head over there, arm over there, so on. I figure it’d be fairly disorienting but he’d still probably be able to move the pieces since the magic bound all the parts together in his creation. Probably annoying for him to put himself back together though- near impossible? Much easier with help. Since it seems as long as his artifact’s intact he’d be fine right? That’s the implication I was getting at least. I’m imagining him taking a hit for Optimus and then people panicking bc Prowl just fell apart, meanwhile Prowl just wants someone to move his head so he’s not face down in the dirt anymore.

Yep yep yep hahah you could basically tear him apart and he’d be fine as long as his head is intact. Since both the Wisdom artefact and his chevron are attached to his head.

Everything else can be damaged to whatever extent without “killing” him.

I imagine he pulled his canon move and took a hit for Orion at least a couple of times~

Also…not gonna lie I was originally going for “all detached limbs just stop working” but you made me consider how funny it could be if Jazz could like. Steal Prowl’s hand and play with it or something haha

[psychology-department]

i'm starting to feel less and less safe in this site as a fictionkin, so i just wanted to call out (factkin dni please):

INTERACT WITH THIS POST IF YOU'RE FICTIONKIN

INTERACT IF YOU RESPECT ALL KINTYPES REGARDLESS OF MEDIA

[mssoapart]

Total drama genderbend post got some attention lately (cough . . . . a month ago).

So I thought to do a collage of silly sketches.

Apparently, I am unable to do either of those things and ended up with chopped arts that don't look like sketches.

[neuro-cry-entist]

myth dispelled

take these what ye will

Believing you’ll find the curethinking you’re so surecollapsing in the armsover and over againtake the sensation out of my headpumped faster and fasterout of reachi’d pray for the curebut there is no one to listen to my orationFool to the endCome to wreck all my hopesthat will never be~Take me as your vesselconduit of dreamsrepetition is the drugfor which I screamwill I enraptureor obliterate…