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"We are no longer on the eve of battle. Even so, I come to ask myself the same question that young soldier asked the general all those years ago: "How do I defeat fear?" The general's answer: "The only way to defeat fear is to tell it 'No'." No - we will not take shortcuts on the path to righteousness. No - we will not break the rules that protect us from our basest instincts. No - we will not allow desperation to destroy moral authority.
I am guilty of all these things. Some say that in life, there are no second chances. Experience tells me that this is true. But we can only look forward. We have to be torchbearers, casting the light so we may see our path to lasting peace. We will continue exploring, discovering new worlds, new civilizations. Yes - that is the United Federation of Planets⌠Yes - that is Starfleet⌠Yes, that is who we are⌠And who we will always be."
#rejecting the darkness#standing on principles#the only way to defeat fear is to tell it no#Star Trek Discovery#Boldly Go#Will You Take My Hand?#We will not cease from exploration#Rejecting Fear#Rejecting Cruelty#Rejecting Hatred#Rejecting the fear#Michael Burnham#United Federation of Planets#Starfleet Directives#Rejecting Desperation#Finding a new way forward
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I am loudly pushing the batdad agenda i am loudly pushing theâ DPxDC Prompt
âWoah. You look like shit."
Granted, thatâs probably not the first thing Danny should be saying to the guy that just bit the curb, but in his defense; heâs not running on 100% right now either.
The man -- tall, towering, and broader than Danny is tall -- whips around on his heel, black frayed cape flaring out impressively. Danny would've whistled in appreciation, but he takes the time instead to wipe the back of his hand across his mouth, smearing the blood running from his nose across his cheek.
"Sorry." He blinks widely, not even flinching as the man with the horns zeroes in on him. "That was rude of me. I have a really bad brain-to-mouth filter; Sam says its what always gets me into trouble."
And she's not wrong either, per say. His smart mouth is what landed him in this situation -- with blood blossom extract running through his veins and cannibalizing the ectoplasm in his bloodstream. Thanks Vlad.
The man grunts at him; a short, curt "hm" that shouldn't make Danny smile, but he does because he's somewhat delirious and probably concussed. The man keeps some kind of distance, sinking towards the shadows of Gotham's alleyway like he dares to melt right into it.
If it's supposed to scare Danny, it doesn't work. Danny's never been afraid of the dark; he's always been able to hide himself in it. He blinks slowly at the mass of shadows.
"You look hurt." The shadows says, blurring together around the edges. Danny squints, and licks his lips to get the blood dripping down his chin off. Ugh, he hates the taste of blood.
"I am." He says, "My godfather poisoned me. M'dying." The agony of the blood blossom eating him from the inside out looped back around to numbing a while ago, so all he feels is half-awake and dazed.
"Hey," Danny stumbles forward towards the man, a bloodied hand reaching out to him. "You-- you're a hero, right? You're not attacking me; which is more than I can say for most costumed people I've met." Maybe it's a poor bar to judge someone at, but he's already established that Danny's not in his right mind.
The man makes no change in expression, but Danny realizes blearily that it's hard to tell with the shadows on his face. He stays still long enough for Danny to latch onto the cape -- stretchy, but almost soft under his fingers.
He looks up blearily into the whites of the man's eyes. "Can you help me? I don't-- I don't wanna die." Again. He doesn't wanna die again. He blinks slow and lizard-like. "I mean- I'll probably get to see mom and dad again, but I told them I'd at least try and make it to adulthood."
There's a clatter down the street, and Danny's ghost sense chills up his spine and leaves a bitter, ashy taste in his mouth. He immediately knows who it belongs to even before the deceptively gentle; "Daniel?" echoes down the way.
"Daniel? Quit your games, badger, Gotham is dangerous for children."
Danny's mouth pulls back, and blood spills against his tongue. "Please." He rasps, and grabs onto the shadow's cape with both hands. "Please. He's going to kill me. Please--"
"Daniel? Is that you?"
His lips part, dragging in air to plead with the darkness again. He doesn't need to, the whites of his eyes narrow, and the cape whirls around him before Danny can blink. Soon swaddled in shadows, the Night lifts him up, and steals him away.
#I AM LOUDLY PUSHING THE BATDAD AGENDA#anywaysâ add ons are encouraged i wanna talk more dpxdc with folks i just cant find any aus i really like enough to engage with#which is nobody's fault and its why im making my own content in order to reach more people#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dpdc#dc x dp#dpxdc prompts#i took a âwhich batfam member are you (except its personal)â quiz a few days ago#and got bruce wayne. and then was promptly read to filth why im most like him and it rudely but accurately explained why im the most like#him. it also consequently explained to me why i like him so much. whenever i see him in his kindest form i see a mirror looking back#anyways lots of âdanny rejecting bruce as a parentâ aus. may i present: bruce and danny finding family in each other aus. batdad aus pls.#dpxdc prompt#dcxdp#this prompt can take place at any point of Batkid accumulation but personally i was imagining this as before Bruce has any of his kids yet#eldest brother danny supremacy and also just that one on one bonding#danny being someone who was never afraid of the dark as a kid and even less so as he got older. taking solace in it as a ghost because you#cant hide in the dark when you glow. his enemies can't jump out at him. but he can jump out at them. how can he be afraid of the dark when#the dark is where the stars like to live? there's a comfort in the shadows. there might be something hiding in it. but he's hiding in it to#blood blossoms eat ghosts headcanon#wasn't sure where i was gonna go with this at the beginning and then i caught steam.#batman casually kidnaps an orphan upon kid's request. also the kid was Actively Dying Of Poison. What was he gonna do?? NOT help him?#mister 'keeps candy in his utility belt specifically for scared children'??? no way.
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Trigons Backup Plan
So! Trigon knew from the moment his Daughter was taken in by the Monks of Azarath that it would be difficult to turn her to his will. He wasn't stupid, he knew just how hard it would be to make his daughter turn on everything she has ever known in her (very short) life.
He can't really blame her, even he believed that indiscriminate mass murder was wrong until his mid-200's, he just needs to wait for her to grow out of it.
But until then he still needs a way into the DC Universe. And if his daughter wouldn't help, then he could always just make a 2nd one.
So, he searches and eventually finds a Couple of Scientists who seem to be good targets. They are researching Magic and Ghosts, so he makes a Demonic Pact with them. He will give them the secrets needed to complete their Research, and in exchange all he asks is that they help him bare a child.
They agree, and Danny Fenton is born.
Danny was supposed to become a Hellmouth when he turned 16, unlocking his Demonic Powers and opening the way for Trigon to enter the DC Universe so he could conquer it.
Instead he managed to get himself killed at 14. Then he managed to come back to life as a Halfa, he got himself adopted by Clockwork, and he usurped the Throne of the Infinite Realms in the span of 1 year, therefore putting himself on the same level as his Father on the cosmic scale.
So there goes his Backup Plan.
Dammit.
...
Meanwhile Raven is panicking. She had been messing around with her Friends when they asked about the Spells she could do, and she off-handedly mentioned that she could cast Family Tracking Spells.
One thing led to another, and they all wanted to know if they had secret family. Then they asked if she wanted to try as well, and for some reason she agreed.
And long story short, she has a little brother somehow. A little brother who is only a few weeks away from turning 16, who doesn't know the Azarathian Spells she learned to prevent his own transformation into a Hellmouth.
Oh shit...
#Dpxdc#Dp x dc#Dcxdp#Dc x dp#Danny Phantom#Dc#Dcu#Trigon#Raven#Rachel Roth#Trigon knew that Raven would probably reject him#So he had a 2nd child in secret#Danny was supposed to unlock his powers and let Trigon into their dimension at 16#But even Demon's aren't immune to Fenton Luck and he ended up dying and coming back as a Halfa#And not only that he overthrew Pariah Dark#Meaning Trigon can't even use him as a Portal anymore#Raven wants to find her little brother to save him#She doesn't know that the problem is solved already#Neither does Danny#âHey mom and dad who is that Demon looking guy in our old family photos?â#âOh that's just your Demon Dad! He gave us knowledge in exchange for a chance to have a son! And that's you!â#âWhat!?â#âIf that's surprising just wait till you see Jazz's secret Parent!â
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you. yes you, person with rejection sensitive dysphoria. this message is for you. your friends DON'T hate you. they aren't mad at you. they aren't talking behind your back or wished to cut their friendship with you. they love you and treasure you and they are good people who wouldn't hurt you like that! ok, that's all. have a nice day.
#this is for everyone with RSD... except for me#my friends do hate me and do think i'm a burden in their lives and they do wish they had a way to let me know they don't wanna be friends#anymore but they feel pity so they never do#... this is a joke that turned too real and too dark too soon#it'll get better#anyhow this message will self destruct in-#i'm all over the place my brain is being mean to me i'll go to bed ugh#nic posts#and drowns in self pity for NO REASON#i'm going to kick my brain's butt#ok ok bye#rejection sensitive dysphoria#rsd is a bitch#rsd things
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He was already worthy.
#bg3#dark urge#astarion#gale dekarios#shadowheart#karlach#durgestarion#ipart#luke.txt#three days that last panel took#THREE DAYS#anyway i wish the party actually reacted to the fact durge fucking dies if they reject bhaal
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The only thing I have to say for myself is: Songs in podcasts my beloveds <3
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[ID: Front cover of a zine. In the middle of the page there is big red heart with text in it: âSongs in podcasts my belovedsâ.
Page 1. Text saying: âI love songs in podcasts! They are so cool and great and amazing and wonderful and fun and fabulous and excellent and brilliantâ
Page 2. On the top of the page there is text: âMe when there is song in podcast:â. Below there are three doodles of a person. First is singing dramatically, other two are dancing. There are colourful musical notes around.
Page 3. Text saying: âSome of my fav songs from podcasts with honest and totally not biased rating:
âDie Berliner Luftâ from The Amelia Project - 10/10
Songs from Roguemaker - 10/10
Theme song from Night Shift - 10/10
âMagistrateâs daughterâ Travelling light - 10/10â
Page 4. Text saying: âMusical episode of Mission rejected - 10/10
Folks songs in Camlann - 10/10
Songs from The Strange Case of Starship Iris - 10/10
âItâs all made up!â from Victoriocity - 10/10
Musical episode of The Bright Sessions - 10/10
Song in the last episode of Trice Forgotten - 10/10â
Page 5. Text saying: ââPoisoning Pigeons in the Parkâ from Midnight Burger - 10/10
Songs from Re: Dracula - 10/10
Cabaret Night at Cosmic Lounge from Stellar Firma - 69/10
Theme song from Dark Ages - 10/10
Songs from Welcome to the Brass Eagle - 10/10
The Ballad of Anne & Mary 1000/10â
Page 6. At the top of the page there is text saying: ââTo be an Undertakerâ from Wooden Overcoats - 100000000000000000000000/10â. Below there is doodle of a person playing on a mandolin.
Page 7. There is a doodle of a person holding a big sign with text: âYou should add song to your podcast!â. At the bottom of the page there is text saying: â#fiction podcast zine eventâ. End ID]
#I had to do it#songs in podcasts my beloveds#fiction podcast zine event#fiction podcast zine festival#the amelia project#roguemaker#night shift podcast#travelling light#mission rejected#camlann#tscosi#victoriocity#the bright sessions#trice forgotten#midnight burger#re: dracula#stellar firma#dark ages podcast#welcome to the brass eagle#the ballad of anne & mary#wooden overcoats
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Average Drama Enjoyer observes some peak drama.
#dungeon meshi#toshiro nakamoto#laios touden#kabru#izutsumi#Before anyone mistakes this as mischaracterization: The joke here is that it's ambiguous what the hell he means.#Kabru does love getting into fights a bit more than average but he's mostly here for the drama.#I screenshot the scene of him going 'The dark arts!' with a little smile everytime I re-read dungeon meshi. He's so catty. I love him.#And shout out to Izutsumi for adding fire to the drama. Girl said 'I am the listener. I heard that shit.' and refused to apologize.#Joke two: the deep cut - Welcome to more propaganda for whatever the hell is going on between Laios & Shuro & Kabru.#Laios trusting Shuro with some *heavy* information because he admires him so much! And wants to be his friend so badly!#Kabru also has another great character moment when he immediatly clocks Laios as not being as malicious as expected.#We love a character who can put the clues together! It is such a good subversion of what role we think Kabru is to play in this story!#Now he's eager to befriend Laios - who is barely interested and currently trying to befriend Shuro - who is barely interested and...well.#The painful triangle of people trying to get to know the other person better and being rejected...Friendship triangle.#We have all had a friendship triangle situation before. Right? You guys have also struggled to read people. Right?#Laios is universally relatable. Right?
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18th april '24 â london
this was such a special trip for me. my first time travelling entirely on my own, discovering and falling in love with a city. i've been to london a few times growing up, but i've never had the chance to really explore and live in it until now. forever an experience i'll cherish <3
#shoutout to arĂ´me bakery for keeping me FED. i've been dreaming of that chocolate almond croissant every day since having it#this experience was so bittersweet because i had my oxford interview (and got accepted) only to have to reject them because i realise i#dont have the funds to relocate to london/oxford rn (many tears have been shed lmao)#regardless this trip to london was such a memorable and special experience for međĽš#photo diaries#photo diary#london#road trip#holiday#vacation#literature aesthetics#books#book#bookish#bookblr#bookworm#bookstagram#dark academia#booklover#daunt books#books and libraries#cafe#aesthetic#bakery#lana del rey vinyl#studyblr#study space#study hard#life update#city life
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Gates of Heaven
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#best cartoons#black humor#Cartoon#cartoons#dark humor#humor#New Yorker Cartoons#Rejected Cartoons#war and peas
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THEM AND I
A/N: I am so sorry for this improvised mess of a piece. F Hurricanes. F Florida. F my ADHD self that can't force ingenious masterpieces outta my anxious fatigued brain. How does anyone put out long ass pieces on a consistent basis? I'll never know.
SHORT đ DARK MATURE CONTENT DOWN BELOW.
Your very presence changed the foundation of the anime universe. They are the moths, and you are the flame. An anomaly like one. The dozens to hundreds of certain folk you crossed paths with immediately rewired their brains and tainted their cores.
Each one taking every chance to show off for you flexing their skills and pros to win your favor. Cheering on champion class soccer games. Taking motorcycle rides with fine delinquents. Treated to private tea parties with tier layered savory and sweets.
Having all this special treatment was flattering even though all those eyes on you was quite overwhelming, like the Six Eyes.
But of course, none are satisfied with having so many opponents standing in the way of you being with just themselves. All walks of life and death stalked you from every corner. Wizards gone overblot. Duelists who wacked their duel disks in others' faces. Apple- obsessed Shinigami employed shady tactics to derail everyone else's endeavors.
Cue the bloodbath.
Giant killer robot bears swarming the streets to laser eye and topple buildings on those from their masterâ hit list. Geass brainwashed many to take their own lives. One of your lovesick options wanted you to unalive yourself with his bandaged wrapped self right off a roof. Not even butler cutlery was safe as it clashed with holy loaded guns for ownership over your soul. The sword wielding slayers beheaded many in their path.
Devil hunters trembled, crybaby heroes broke down, rangers' smiles cracked in fury, and so many unfortunate hunters were crushed; literally. Sinful demons would relish in the chaos. For crimson enveloped their now shared world.
Love letters for you, smothered in bloody kisses and hand prints, fell from the sky. Bouquets of white roses splattered with crimons drops on the petals. You felt your stomach twist in knots, your chest suffocating from the various hands and arms wrapped around you, and your vision being flooded with the color red.
Basically âŚ
The fight for your love would result in WWIII.
But who would win in the end?
At that point, would it even matter?
Who's to say?
#yandere yuukoku no moriarty#yandere yugioh#yandere my hero academia#yandere jujutsu kaisen#yandere demon slayer#yandere death note#yandere code geass#yandere solo leveling#yandere ranger reject#yandere tokyo revengers#yandere blue lock#yandere black butler#yandere hellsing#yandere danganronpa#yandere chainsaw man#yandere bungou stray dogs#yandere twisted wonderland#yandere obey me#yandere persona#yandere x y/n#yandere x you#yandere x reader#yandere x yandere#yandere x darling#yandere au#anime au#various x reader#anime x reader#tw dark content#halloween
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CESARE BORGIA â´ causing hurt to his siblings while observing their shocked reactions (inspired by @borgiatargaryen's post)
#cesare's face flashing with overwhelming guilt after he stabbed juan was so crazyyyy#and the way he rejected lucrezia was so????#the character that he is...the show's promos didn't fuck around when they called him the dark prince cus woahhh#cesare is truly destined to torment his siblings and determine their fates#i love you doomed siblings#the borgias#the borgia siblings#cesare borgia#lucrezia borgia#juan borgia#perioddramaedit#smallscreensource#tvedit#perioddramasource#filmtvtoday#tvgifs#tvarchive#cinemapix#dailytvgifs#by jen
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"Lotta true crime" palette for the butcher gang member(s) if you draw them? (both toons OR corrupted)
decided to do both sets :P i think it came out pretty good!
the butcher gang with lotta true crime
#bendy and the ink machine#batim#bendy and the dark revival#batdr#the butcher gang#charley#barley#edgar#carley#piper#fisher#striker#slicer#doodle dump#palette#whew thatâs a lot of tags#itâs a mirror floor or something i dunno#donât mind my personal headcanon that carley WANTS to be in the butcher gang but keeps getting rejected#dialogue dump
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thinking about if they got out
#charlie and ranboo that is#hhhmmm#like in universe implications and also themes#like for them to truly get out they'd need to a) break ranboo's mask and b) leave all the cameras behind#if they got out it would've just ended#they shoot the camera man or something#ough actually that's so sick#imagine that fight sequence#the thought of going off the grid#leaving everyone in the dark forever and ever#in order to be free#yeah#showfall media isn't defeated tho#ranboo and charlie are out#but there are other actors#other protagonists#other heros#the show must go on#the content machine doesn't stop just because a few rejected it#it's immortal up until the point that it runs out of participants#and everyone's eager for a little fame#yeah...#generation loss#buggy thoughts#connecting the dots#silver screen
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The Villains Daughter
So! Years ago, back when the Justice League was only just starting out, only a year or two after their initial team-up, they had one of their biggest battles to date. A group of Extra-Dimensional Beings had burst into their reality, hellbent on destroying a Government Facility and the nearby small town in Illinois.
They barely managed to beat the Invading Army back, although the Government Facility and a part of the nearby Town had been destroyed in the battle.
Later, they would learn about what had happened. Apparently the Government Base, called a GIW Facility, had managed to finally Crack the secret to Interdimensional Travel a few days earlier. Unfortunately, they had opened a Portal into a Dimension known as the Ghost Zone, ruled over by a Tyrant King who wanted to enslaved all world under him. Their Breaching of the GZ had alerted the Tyrant King to the existence of their Dimension, and he had launched an immediate Invasion to try and take it over.
And the evidence supported this.
Wonder Woman shared Legends of her People, telling that their Founding Ancestor had fled the rule of a Tyrant King when she passed into the Afterlife.
Zatara shared his Magic Tomes, showing them passages detailing the horrific Rule of the Tyrant King of the Infinite Realms.
They even asked Boston Brand, the Deadman and resident Ghost about it. He hadn't been the the Ghost Zone in Years, but even he told them that he had personally fled the Tyrant King.
And they also learned that when the Tyrant King set his eyes on something, he did not falter on his Warpath to acquire it. The Tyrant King, Pariah Dark, would be back for their World, again and again.
And they needed to be prepared. This Battle was what kickstarted their true Commitment to the idea of a Team. They knew they could not defeat Pariah Dark alone, so they needed to remain as a Team.
But there was another thing that came about from the Battle.
While the JLA had been helping clean up, Wonder Woman came across a strange sight. A Baby had been left in the rubble of the GIW Building.
She asked around, investigated, and did all she could to find the babies parents. At first she thought that one of the GIW Agents had brought their kid to work that day, but their records indicated that none of the Agents had children of that Age. And Neither did any of the other workers who worked on the base, like the Janitors or the Kitchen Staff. And of they did, all of their children were accounted for.
She eventually came to the conclusion that the Baby must belong to somebody in the nearby Town, but that lead led nowhere either.
She finally came to the conclusion that the Baby's parents must have died in the Invasion, a very unfortunate but very real possibility. She was going to place her into the System, but over the course of her investigation she had grown fond of the Child.
She decided to Adopt the baby herself. She didn't know the child's name, so she had to come up with a new one.
"How do you like the name, Stella?"
The baby gurgled in delight.
...
Over the next decade of their Teams Existence, the Justice League had to fend off the Legions of the Ghost King's Army many more times. It seemed that Pariah had grown wise to the fact that they were the ones defending the Human Realm, as almost all of the later attacks were directed on them personally.
It made sense, they were the First Line of Defense against his Armies, if he managed to defeat them, their World would soon fall.
But they dealt with the attacks as they came. They had made it their mission to defend their Home from the Forced of Pariah Darks Army, and they would not falter now, or ever.
In the case of Wonder Woman, he Daughter had grown to be a fine little lady. Stella had eventually developed Powers similar to her mother, in that she could fly and had super strength, and had begged to be trained as a Hero.
And who was Diana to deny her Daughter her greatest wish? Over the next 5 years, Diana trained Stella in the ways of the Amazon's. Then, when Stella was 15, she had her join the newly formed Young Justice.
She made a great group of friends on that Team, and even started going by Ellie as a Nickname. Her best friend was by far Conner, though she didn't know why she felt such a strong connection to him? It felt like she could relate to him, but her situation was completely different?
Ah well, her Mom wouldn't mind having another kid, would she? She always wanted a Brother!
...
Meanwhile in the Ghost Zone, the Ghost King was getting anxious. After 15 years, his Agents in the Human Realm had finally managed to set up the Ritual needed to Summon Him into the Human Realm.
Who knew that accepting the Ghost King's Throne would bar him from entering the Human Realm through normal Means? He couldn't even use the Portal, he needed to be summoned or he simply wouldn't be able to leave his new home dimension.
But now, it was almost time. Just another year or two, and he would finally be able to enter the Human Realm. He would finally be able to Find Her. His Daugther.
Danny would finally be able to reunite with his daughter, Ellie.
#Dpxdc#Dp x dc#Dcxdp#Dc x dp#Danny Phantom#Dc#Dcu#Justice League#Wonder Woman#Diana adopts Ellie#Ellie was kidnapped by the GIW#Ellie was deaged so her Core would be able to grow alongside her Body#She doesn't know she even has powers aside from her flight and strength#They all just think that he is an unregistered classification of Metahuman and that's why her blood work didn't come back with a Meta Gene#Ellie Joins Young Justice#She is extremely uncomfortable when Superman rejects Connor but she doesn't know why#The Justice League thinks that Danny is a Villain#They think that he is Pariah Dark#Just under a new name#The whole world thinks that Danny is the greatest Supervillain to ever live#Including Ellie#She does not react well when she finds out that the World Greatest Evil is her Dad#Especially since she doesn't have the context#Danny attacked the JLA because she could sense that they had his daughter#He thought they were working with the GIW
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As much as I adore the idea of Alan being like a dad to the Color Gang, I am absolutely feral for interpretations where thatâs not really the case.
Or, more specifically, when those feelings are very one sided.
The CG look up to him and adore him as a parental/guardian figure, loving him almost like a father, especially Orange in particular who 110% sees and loves Alan as a father figure, while Alan himself sees himself more as a tolerant friendly landlord; just a dude whoâs letting five stick figures live on his computer and not really interacting with them (except for Orange) very much beyond playing a few games for them or sparring with them. And even with Orange, itâs more of a friendship relationship than a parent-child one. Just generally pretty emotionally detached/distant towards them, not really feeling very strongly about any of them. Sort of how IRL Alan speaks about them as characters; fond, but not loving*. He still largely just sees them as stick figures. Like smart little living desktop pets.
Which makes all of the potential scenarios where they meet on more equal grounds (Stick!Alan AUs and IRL!Sticks/Human!Sticks AUs) potentially very juicy.
The CG and Orange in particular are always very excited to meet and actually interact with Alan, and Alan just feels overwhelmed and awkward by all the affection/attention. Or perhaps even confused about why they seem to like him so much.
Which can very quickly turn into a situation where the Gang notices that Alan doesnât seem very comfortable around them, that heâs not nearly as excited and enthusiastic about finally being able to touch and hug them as they are with him. That he seemed to be kind of distant from them, withdrawing away from them. Oh, heâs friendly and polite, and heâll talk to them, heâs not being mean or ignoring them or anything, but itâs not really like how they always imagined meeting him would be. Itâs not as happy and joyous. He doesnât interact/engage with them on his own. Doesnât offer hugs or pats or much affection at all. Heâll do it if they initiate or ask, but he never gives anything of the sort freely.
Perhaps they think itâs because everything is so new and fresh, that maybe heâs feeling a bit overwhelmed. Maybe he just needs a little time to get used to them.
But when they give him that timeâŚnothing seems to change. And theyâre just left even more confused and concerned. Why was he acting like this? He was never like this before⌠(or so they think.)
Or perhaps a situation occurs where itâs revealed that Orange sees him like a father, or perhaps Orange even calls him his father, and Alan denies it. Corrects him. Tells Orange that heâs not his parental figure, that he always thought they were just friends. That all of them were just a bunch of sticks he was letting live on his computer. He wasnât their dad, where in the world did they get THAT weird idea from? He was just Alan, the owner of the computer they made their home on. He barely even knew them.
And the Gang is both shocked and heartbroken. They hadnât known Alan felt that way, just as Alan hadnât been aware of how they felt. It was so easy for misunderstandings and misinterpretations to happen between them when they couldnât really communicate very well.
But Orange, Orange is devastated. It hurts, so bad, because Alan literally created him. Alan was his creator, the closest thing to an actual parent he had. And yet Alan didnât want to fill that role towards him, didnât want to be his father. He could have seen and understood Alan not considering himself the othersâ parent, since Alan hadnât made them, but Orange was undeniably his.
But Alan didnât want him like that. Didnât see him like that.
He was just a stick figure who frequently helped him animate and lived on his computer. The fact that Alan made him appeared to be irrelevant.
So Orange puts on a smile and accepts it, apologizing for misunderstanding. But inside, heâs raw. The rejection feels so awful.
And it stings just how relieved Alan looked after his apology, like he was grateful that they werenât arguing about it.
Because they donât. What more was there to say? Alan had made his feelings on the matter very clear, and who were they to try argue against that? To challenge him, and demand he change his feelings towards them? To demand he love them? No, thatâs not how things worked. That wasnât how love worked.
You canât try to force someone who doesnât love you to love you.
Instead, Orange goes to his room, and sobs. It hurts so much. It feels like a chunk of his heart has been ripped out, leaving a giant empty gap where it had been. He canât stop thinking about why Alan didnât love him even though he made him. He canât help but wonder if itâs because somehow he wasnât good enough. Or if heâd done something wrong.
Or if it was because he was just a stick figure. Not human. Not a ârealâ person in Alanâs eyes.
He doesnât know, but it hurts all the same.
The others, too, mourn the loss of the only parent-like figure theyâve ever known. They never knew their own creator, whoever the person who actually made them even was, they only ever knew Alan. It stings, how all of his weird recent behavior now makes sense. He hadnât needed time. He had never loved them as much as they, apparently mistakenly, thought he did in the first place. It leaves them feeling empty and bereft, at a loss for what to do with themselves now.
And Alan is left totally oblivious to just how badly heâs just hurt them all.
And totally oblivious to what he himself has just lost, the potential for what could have been.
âŚAt least, until he goes through some Character Development and inevitably has some Realizations that âOh shit, those actually ARE my kids, oh fuck what have I done?!â And he needs to claw back the gangsâ love and affection and trust theyâd since given up on.
* - [Or at least thatâs how it always felt for me, watching AvG reactions, though that could just be because IRL Alan just sounds kinda bland and introverted in most of his commentary on his own animations lmao âI mean I like Orange.â Bro that is your main character that has been spearheading your entire career for a literal decade, why do you sound about as enthusiastic about him as if someone just asked you about your favorite weather type lmao jk jk]
#alan becker#ava#animator vs animation#ava alan becker#ava color gang#headcanons#This headcanon is accentuated by the fact that I see Character!Alan as single and childless#Dude goes from a loner Animator to single dad of five and doesn't realize it for years#I love when characters are dragged kicking and screaming into Dadhood#Side note: If Chosen discovered Alan rejected Orange he would be VERY pissed off at Alan#Chosen doesn't much care that Alan doesn't care for him as a child since he's long since accepted the lack of care from his creator#But Orange? ORANGE? Chosen will not stand for Alan hurting Orange; in ANY way#Alan's face would very quickly become intimately acquainted with Chosen's fist#Also Side Note: A secret reason why Dark hates Alan so much is that he's still really bitter that Alan never loved him.#And he still secretly yearns for his affection and acceptance but hates himself for it. Sees it as childish weak feelings#Headcanon that the Hollow-Heads mockingly sling the title of âCreatorâ at Alan to hurt him; to forcefully remind him that he made them#Green Yellow Red and Blue are just happy to be there tbh#The FSF: This is our adopted dad! We love him very much :) Alan: UHHHHH???
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Francis, i think it's hard to take ur world seriously when ur cradling my face so lovingly but maybe it's just me
Saying 'i love you' it's so embarrassing, plus when you're a nation, that kind of words can be quite a heavy burden for both parties since they need to put their people first over their existence and feelings as a 'human.' At least that's what Scotland believed. He called himself Alasdair for fuck sake, he mean to protect his people.
But proclaiming 'you're willing to die for them' was a different story especially if you're a nation. Well, even humans sometimes wouldn't really mean it and take said words as figures of speech anyway. Not every human would be in a dangerous scenario where they need to sacrifice themself for their beloved.
Nation can't die.
And so Scotland thinks, there's nothing wrong to proclaim his feelings in such a way, especially to a boy who already has many suitors who have said the same thing and even had themselves really died just for him.
Yet when he finally gathered his courage to confess, rather than being basked with a warm laugh, he was faced with a scowl.
(ScotFra is honestly probably the only France ship (that I incredibly adore) that I can't entirely ruin with horrible toxic relationships. So anyway, they're very in love but have no idea how to properly communicate. Well, they're just teenagers after all. It's expected for them to be clumsy, especially when the two of them were quite aware how different they were. Alasdair was intimidated by Francis' beauty and his experience with people and love. While he wanted to be more than just an 'alliance' in politics, he feared he couldn't really reach Francis in a way he wanted it to be. Because of how easily Francis would come and go with his lover, he feared that if he ever finally stepped into the boundaries, he would never be able to mend everything back together and even ruin it. Francis thought Alasdair never really liked him, at least not in a way Francis wanted him to. As a nation, he seemingly always put his people first than himself, so he thought the alliance was simply just another political shit the humans want them to have. After all, as sweet Alasdair can be, it seems the he is always keeping distance between them. What does he really mean to 'die for him?' Did Alasdair think he's way too weak to be a proper ally?? Is it why he seemingly always acts quiet when he's with him? Did he think he's that repulsive that death would be an only escape?)
#scotfra#aph france#aph scotland#francis bonnefoy#alasdair kirkland#hetalia#hws#Francis fear of rejection is real and it make him very defensive lol#Drawing scotland as noting but redhead give me physic damage you can't force me to make his hair dark or i will die#anyway there's still another strip of them but my hands were so tired and this take me forever so idk if that one will ever get finished#yea it's the one where Francis were covered in blood#kopifuran
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