#regained sanity

[dynjay]

Life update in the read more :]

My new job starts next week!!

It was nuts how quickly I got hired relative to the interview time; I interviewed a week ago and essentially got hired on the spot bc literally an hour later, I got a call saying I'm in!!

It's so wild... I feel extremely lucky about how it all happened (and just in time bc my savings was starting to run out). I feel so many different emotions about this.

Nervous.

Excited.

Relieved.

Exhausted.

Uneasy.

Validated.

Worried.

Uncertain.

Grateful.

Fortunate.

I've always been an anxious person, especially when it comes to performing tasks for others. Right now, I'm anxious whether I'll actually do well at this job and if I'll be able to keep my work-life balance in-check.

I'm very prone to burn out. Heck, I feel like I'm recovering from something adjacent to burn out right now, due to the past 3 months of stress-filled job hunting alone. Even if I end up deciding that this company and/or role isn't for me, I never want to get to the point where I desperately feel like I NEED to leave in order to become sane again. It feels like it might be easy to fall into the same trap in this job and I'm a little worried about that.

But worries aside? I'm legit overjoyed :)

Instead of letting my anxiety spoil my mood, I've really been trying to celebrate this, because if I don't make a conscious effort to commemorate the victories in my life, I'll only remember the negative feelings I've felt along the way.

So cheers if you've read this far and happy October :]

[clownforsale]

watched beyond evil and the devil judge back to back in one week... i need to see my therapist right now

[exdeputysonso]

Blue Velvet (1986) Press Photos

[shurikkai]

Signalis doodles 2 electric boogaloo!!

Adler always seemed dennis from iasip coded to me idk cant explain it

[riotvandemofan]

Don’t get the wrong idea, I am forever a devoted hater of the GQ France mag photoshoot, but I need to stop lying to myself about the impact that the Alex with a rifle and a cowboy coat pic has had on my little brain chemicals. 

[aurosoul]

wheeeee

[warriormoustache]

Some McGuckets for your consideration.

[bettyhofstadtdraper]

slept better last night. still woke up in the middle of the night but it was brief at least it didn’t turn into a 3-4 hour long toss n turn sesh

[happyk44]

The youngers: *fighting and screaming at each other*

Hestia: We should do something.

Hades: Yes. What though?

Hestia:

Hestia: Let's leave.

Hades, grabbing the go bags he packed for them months ago: Good idea.

[ashmp3]

ive been so stressed out and i had to do this stupid thing that i’ve been putting off and it’s not even hard i just need to Go There and my aqua bestie just texted me telling me she did it for me… 😞🥺🥹

[skelwolf]

after getting the platinum trophy in bloodborne earlier this week i wanted to draw fan art of my absolute favorite boss in the whole game.

[shokupanda]

one of my favorite parts of baldurs gate 3 is wheever i see a trader, i halt whatever my party's doing to get astarion to loot their entire stock of arrows and scrolls and potions. resulting in a cacophony of sound effects. all while hes constantly spouting one-liners.

[himecommunism]

im developing my own high brow theory. (drawing in a cycle of mecha (historical materialism) -> women (popular support) -> mecha (historical materialism))

[psychesmoon]

CHEWING ON DRYWALL GNAWING AT THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE WHERE THE HELL IS YURI ON ICE!!!!!!

[bardengarde]

I just can't get over how soft his expression looks here I'm wailing

[stromuprisahat]

02×01: No Shelter but Me- the rest

Where did Malina get the money for crossing? They really are paying with the pins... Shame Sasha’s busy rn...

Crows can fake believable papers on a ship!

How does Alina know about the Sea whip? Well, she does, and she’s looking for it to become more powerful. So she can destroy the Fold... because she didn’t try to do it, so she obviously needs more power for it.

Kudos to Freddy for Kaz’s panic attack in the carriage.

Alina's blamed for the Fold, does it mean they've decided to skip the Sun Saint Cult? No! Some people still adore her for no reason at all. When she needs it most...

Good thing ancient maps in perfect condition are just lying around in the first library Alina visits... and naturally the one she’s looking at contains a clue only she can read...

Tante's dead? Well, Inej had no mental issues to deal with regarding her, so why not?

Malina kisses score: 2