#made new friends

[allaboutbethsblog]

I made more friends at college today (yay!)

me and two girls (and a guy) got paired up for an activity. we talked a bit about books.

the two girls and I also walked to the bus stop and they were getting to know me.

i told them I'm not very interesting but after I said to them what I do in my free time. (things I make/do)

they said, and i quote, "you are not allowed to say that you're not very interesting. you are."

haha, wow... are you sure about that?

[dynjay]

Life update in the read more :]

My new job starts next week!!

It was nuts how quickly I got hired relative to the interview time; I interviewed a week ago and essentially got hired on the spot bc literally an hour later, I got a call saying I'm in!!

It's so wild... I feel extremely lucky about how it all happened (and just in time bc my savings was starting to run out). I feel so many different emotions about this.

Nervous.

Excited.

Relieved.

Exhausted.

Uneasy.

Validated.

Worried.

Uncertain.

Grateful.

Fortunate.

I've always been an anxious person, especially when it comes to performing tasks for others. Right now, I'm anxious whether I'll actually do well at this job and if I'll be able to keep my work-life balance in-check.

I'm very prone to burn out. Heck, I feel like I'm recovering from something adjacent to burn out right now, due to the past 3 months of stress-filled job hunting alone. Even if I end up deciding that this company and/or role isn't for me, I never want to get to the point where I desperately feel like I NEED to leave in order to become sane again. It feels like it might be easy to fall into the same trap in this job and I'm a little worried about that.

But worries aside? I'm legit overjoyed :)

Instead of letting my anxiety spoil my mood, I've really been trying to celebrate this, because if I don't make a conscious effort to commemorate the victories in my life, I'll only remember the negative feelings I've felt along the way.

So cheers if you've read this far and happy October :]

[c4tto626]

you got stabbed??

lol yeah~ pocket knife to the stomach, thankfully not too deep! it's not exactly a fun story (got sexually assaulted, went to the police, guy i took to court got off easy and then tried to stab me about it) but i was like 19, i've had twelve years to come to terms with it~ trauma, sure, but now it's mostly a fun story to shock people with, like when i almost drowned or the multiple times i've gotten arrested lol ✌️

[izayoichan]

He put down the teacup. 

Flynn: I wanted to help my twin as well, but my ultimate reason for being here is you.

Emil finally looked at him with a small gasp. They looked down at the cup and smiled a little. Flynn came for them.

Emil: You have no idea how much I wished for this... How I longed to see you again. How many times I stood there, where the realm felt weaker, and thought of tearing it open as I once did and just walking into and looking for you... But then... Then I thought about all I did, how little I am, how meaningless, how little I achieved and... I don't feel redeemed. I don't feel like I have been atoned. I was punished and let go. My crimes paid for... yet... I still feel heavy, guilty, and unworthy. And I thought, how could I put the weight of my burden on you when I am not worthy of you. What if you found happiness with someone else, could I walk into your world and destabilize it once more just because I longed for you?

Flynn listened, he had been at the beach spot many times himself, if only to just check. But he had also tried to move on. He had really attempted it, to move on, see what was out there, to let go of the dragon who wasn't magically coming back. 

Flynn: Isn't the one who decides if you are worthy of me, me? -he smiled softly at Emil. - And you achieved a lot. Syra really liked you, and she was worried about you after you left, you made an impact on all the kids here, and that is easily seen. 

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[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

bumblebees first day out of sublevel 50

[decay-as-a-life-form]

can’t believe i’ve been missing out on friends that cuddle w/ u this entire time.

[alfheimr]

mithrun 🌞

[inkskinned]

having good & true friends will literally save and protect you in a million unfathomable ways. like okay we have written so many times about lovers. but the way a platonic friend laughs and cries with you. the way they hold your hand at 14 years old and at 34. the way they keep a little silver tie to you, touching base over and over and over. how you can go years without talking, only to re-meet and discover: oh shit! you're still cool!

there are people who have been in my life for more than half of it, and i have loved every version of them. do you know how fucking beautiful that is. yeah love will save the world. but the way friends love you is gonna save the you.

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

[higgsbison]

can't keep a good trauma spelunker down

[ghosted-jazz]

Species Swap AU! Retired couple gets a fairy godchild to help repair their relationship

[time-woods]

so i finally watched good omens after years of putting it off. . .

this is how i cope with most things

[heavensickness]

[ashoss]

thought i'd post another cowboy duke wip :) might play around with the colours a bit? they look a bit weird on my other monitor but idk if thats just bc of my monitor lol. some details are subject to change :3

its only partway rendered :( forgive me