#reasons i left christianity
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One of the things that woke up me.
I was at an Wednesday Youth Group. The pastor said that some people come here just to cause problems and distrupt everyone else. Then told us to ask our selves why we where really coming to events.
It made me think about why I was actually going. I wasn't going for the right reasons. So that is when I started thinking for myself more.
I had been thinking about why I was going to youth church for a long time. Ironically that Pastor who was trying to discourage people from acting out. It gave me a big push to look inward as to why I was really going.
I was also getting to the age. Where the cutesy stories aren't told anymore. The harshness of the church's doctrine was starting to show.
I was also at the age of figuring myself out. Coming to terms with the fact that I might not be straight. That my understanding of the social parts of life was low. There where other things that happened around that time. Things that deserve there own post.
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the paradesi synagogue in kochi, kerala, india. the first synagogue on the site, built by the city's longstanding malabari jewish community, was destroyed by portugese who'd colonized the area in their persecution of locals. it was rebuilt in 1568 by spanish and portugese jews who fled persecution and later expulsion, hence the name "paradesi" ("foreign" in malayalam).
these sephardic jews and a community of jews of mixed african and european descent who were formerly enslaved ("meshuchrarim", "freedmen" in hebrew) joined the malabari jewish community of kochi and somewhat integrated. they were later joined by some iraqi, persian, yemenite, afghan, and dutch sephardic jews. the middle eastern and european jews were considered "white jews" and permitted malabari jews and meshuchrarim to worship in the synagogue. however, in what seems like a combination of local caste dynamics and racism, malabari jews were not allowed full membership. meshuchrarim weren't allowed in at all, but were instead made to sit outside during services and not allowed their own place of worship or other communal rights.
as the "white jews" tended to be rather wealthy from trade, this synagogue contains multiple antiquities. they include belgian glass chandeliers on its walls, hand-painted porcelain tiles from china on its floors, and an oriental rug that was gifted by ethiopian emperor haile selassie.
#india#architecture#interior#worship#jewish#sephardic#mizrahi#abrahamic kerala#my posts#this seems like a combo of european racism & s asian casteism but idk anything abt castes so idk how right i am#imo the attitude of the paradesi sephardim sort of echoes what went on w/ portugese & st thomas christians#though they were also influenced by ''jewish racism'' (someone not being an ''authentic'' jew or 100% jewish in lineage)#also its interesting that most paradesi jews who left india went to other commonwealth countries while most malabar jews went to occupied#palestine (for the same reason indian muslims went to pakistan more or less). something something the west's unwanted refugee dumping groun#also i'm not saying the portugese didn't persecute against locals who practiced other religions just that there was a Very Specific type of#persecution st thomas christians and malabari jews faced from them#one more thing: i think most americans dont know (and western europeans like to forget) that the transatlantic slave trade went into#western europe as well. even if most w euro countries outlawed slavery before the us did#and also that ‘white’ has never had a linear definition (yemenites are very not ‘white’-looking to the average american)
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i took sermons of self-sacrifice and putting god and others above yourself and not being "selfish" really seriously and when that burned me out and i learned it's not sustainable to pour from an empty cup all the time i brought it up to this highly respected xtian couple in the church and the first (and pretty much only) response i got was "the verse is 'love your neighbor AS YOURSELF'" as if it was my fault for not "reading the verse properly" when the reason i was like this in the first place is because the church puts so much fucking emphasis on not being "selfish" and viewing others as above you and taking care of others above yourself and glorification of self-sacrifice while never having a single sermon that even says "it's okay to take care of yourself too" and the people who told me that don't know it but their response (and noticing how others respond the same) helped me realize how much this is all just bullshit and is one of the reasons i left
#there are many many reason i've left xtianity#but xtians being so willing to dismiss and blame you for *checks notes* listening to what you have been taught is one of the biggest ones#also that 'it says 'as yourself'' is such bullshit anyway#bc after i left the pastor did a sermon about 'loving yourself' and it was literally#'you can't love yourself properly unless you sacrifice yourself for god and others'#'the world's view of “self love” is evil and unsustainable and horrible and selfish and you can only do it right through selflessness'#and shit like that#i knew people that sincerely believed loving yourself was a sin like i feel like it's weirder to believe it's not a sin with them#anyway!#ex cult#ex christian#religious trauma
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mind your own business queen
#answers#it's always the (what i'm assuming's the case here) american christians who have to shove it down your throat#there's a reason why i left the church (aside from the fact that i cannot and will not believe in it)
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Looking a bit more into the Dinaledi story, looks like the team excavating the site is vehemently defending that Homo Naledi did ritualistic burials, and it's a big deal because it challenges the idea of "human exceptionalism" and I understand that that's a big sticking point for Religious ReasonsTM, but oh my God, I personally find the idea so so so so ssssoooo stupid
Like, who CARES if humans aren't the only ones to do X? Or do Y? Who cares if humans are not nature's most special-est little guys? I can't imagine being so invested in wanting humans to be UNIQUE(TM). I for one would fucking love if we had evolved on a planet where we weren't the only fully sentient species. Can you imagine the kind of comparative studies we could do if there was even one other species as intelligent as us??
#I just think it would be fascinating#I really cannot imagine the kind of pettiness necessary to be UPSET that other hominid species did 'human things'#THOSE ARE YOUR COUSINS#BE NICE TO THEM.#This brought on by:#just read an article that was very interesting discussing the scientific evidence pro or against the Homo Naledi theories#and then it ended with 'But I don't think this disproves human exceptionalism and that we ALONE are made in God's image :)'#and I wanted to stab the entire article.#absolutely wild. how is this dude tackling on this braindead take on the end of an otherwise really good article?#I truly do not comprehend Christians' obsession with being the special-est little guys#that was the whole reason I left.
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i have observed that there are two divergent species of lotr fans: mentally unwell gay people and Goddamn Fucking Catholics.
#its always kinda a shock when im looking at lotr shit on tumblr#and i see catholicposting in between jokes about legolas and gimli sucking each other off or whatever#you do you i guess but im into LOTR for narrative reasons rather than theology related ones (even before i left christianity lmaooo)#lotr tag
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im actually disappointed christians ARENT socialist on average considering the ideals of their religion. like. how do you follow the words of jesus, a guy who i feel would VERY much hate today's capitalist society, and still be like "those commies are going to hell i hate poor people we shouldnt help them its their fault"
#sas says#this is one of the reasons i left christianity tbh#its clear that christians plug their ears and go ''nanananana'' when the bible is read to them half the time
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Radfems and Alt-right'ers aligning with each other is one of the most incredible things to come out of the 21st century lmao
#txt#the only reason they even pay attention to them is because radfems hate transgenders particularly the mtf's with a burning passion#you got radfems involved in right-wing circles and they actually get along with them#even the damn men and i don't know how the f*ck that can possible when radfems want all men to die#this is truly amazing#honestly though they still shouldn't associate with radfems because they don't get that their terf mentality doesn't come from anything els#but their insatiable hatred for men. it doesn't have anything to do with transgenderism itself#“you can be friends with somebody you don't agree with” there is that and there's being friends with somebody that wants you gone from this#damn planet man#but oh well#they are suddenly fine because they tell mft's that they will never be women or whatever#the fact that y'all have reached this level is all sorts of amazing to me#it's gotten to the point where the rw is really associating with a group of people that f*cking hate them and would personally kill them if#they had the chance to actually do it#i'm saying all of this as someone who isn't either left-leaning or right-leaning. screw both sides#on the radfems i don't get it don't you hate all men and think all of them are inherently evil? so why the F*CK are you aligning yourself#with a whole group that you explicitly hate distrust and can't even look in the eye without feeling disgust??? you are a part of something#that they created and that you have explicitly stated on numerous occasions that you find it to be patriarchal misogynistic and sexist#i don't get it???? specially if you are christian you should DEFINITELY not even align with them#if you have that mindset with the jews you should have it with them too. they have a hatred for god jesus christ and christianity because to#them christianity is at the core of women's “oppression” (i mean they direct that at religion as a concept but christianity has been their#scapegoat for over a hundred years at this point#i mean you can still have love for them but they reject jesus. all we can do is pray for them and hope that they embrace jesus christ as#their lord and savior. that's the only legitimate way they can be saved. there is no other way
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could i, an eighteen year old with zero experience running a d&d podcast and a patreon for said podcast, do better than the council who've had several years of experience and amassed a fan base who so willingly offer (sometimes constructive) criticism on all that's not working? well i don't know, because i don't have the resources or time or energy for a project like that, but i do still understand that their current system isn't working
#solutions i can think of:#1 - hire a team. multiple editors; sensitivity readers; pr people; etc. doesn't have to be loads at first. you could get even six more guys#and i promise it would help significantly. also not all guys. i know i said guys but hire some women and pocs please#2 - create a schedule and unless there's a very good reason (family emergency; mental/physical health stuff; important event; etc) don't#break this schedule. the schedule is your bible now. read it and learn it and follow it to a t or else christian god will get real mad#and so will your several thousand fans#3 - own up to mistakes you've made. this is possibly the easiest of all of them. admit the hiatus wasn't planned well. admit you're not sure#when riptide will come back. admit you probably should've started following#1 & 2 a lot earlier. people will forgive i promise. we want to forgive. we love the content and the vibes. otherwise we all would've left#4 - get more guests on. and broaden this beyond white men please#5 - sort out your patreon tiers and ensure the non patron supporters who still love your content have enough to live off#i can't stand getting one episode every two weeks much longer. the scraps of first episodes and one shots aren't enough#and boom. 5 relatively straightforward solutions to the problem. i have no experience in this field. idk how much this would cost#but it's not like the jrwi podcast is struggling#anyway rant over peace out#jrwi#jrwi crit
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listening to a bunch of arguments against the gospel rn and I'm kinda astonished by the fact that one of the main taking points that keeps coming up could be lifted verbatim from Kaamelott.
It's this idea that 'condemning people on the basis of their unbelief in the cross is really unfair' (depending on who you ask, either because God could have simply not had Jesus die on the cross and/or because eternal condamnation is a really disproportionate punishment for something as neutral as mere unbelief or belief in something else). I'm bringing up Kaamelott because at his most depressed, Arthur says something I've always found fascinating but completely wrong:
"What do you call someone who suffers and spills his blood on the ground so that everybody be found guilty? All those who commit suicide are the Christ."
To me that quote and the argument against the fairness of the gospel come from the exact same place of profound misunderstanding. We are not condemned 'just' for not believing, and God didn't send Jesus into the world as a sort of twisted test for most people to fail. The very premise of the sacrifice for redemption (not suicide, not something Jesus could just not do and then we'd have all been fine) is that we are all condemned before the cross. If there was no cross to believe in, then guess what? The message would be that we are condemned, period.
The overarching story of the Bible is that we are already deserving of punishment for all that we do (all the hate and contempt we have for one another, all the good we should be doing and don't do, all the selfishness, all the hurt we cause...) and it's not lack of belief in what Jesus did on the cross that condemns us - lack of belief is what keeps us in our state of condemnation. We are not guilty because Jesus' blood was spilled (although that too is added to our sins if we remain in them), Jesus' blood is spilled because we are guilty. People asking 'so just because I don't believe in your God he's going to punish me?' as a gotcha to try and prove that God is malevolent are getting the most utterly basic cause and effect of the Gospel reversed.
This is how Jesus himself explains it in John 3! (which, btw, I saw some people quote as 'evidence' for this weird take)
16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. 18 Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because they have not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son. 19 This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but people loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil.
Whoever does not believe stands condemned already. And of course, people who reject the light remain lost in the darkness because they 'have not believed in [the light],' but the darkness was already there before the light came (duh).
It's expected that a tragicomic take on King Arthur in a wacky show that very deliberately has myth as its essence above even internal consistancy would have some wonky theological takes (by the way, that line is not even something Arthur believes, it's something from a dream that he had in his near comatose state after a suicide attempt, and he's recounting the dream to someone - which I wouldn't take as indicative that the line was meant as a bold philosophical epiphany reached through full clarity of mind) but it's baffling that people who want to seriously deconstruct the New Testament, the cross, the gospels or the concept of a redemptive offering for sin would be satisfied with something so shallow. Criticism of a belief system should get its fundamentals right to be meaningful, not be virtually indistinguishable from the angsty musings of some French polymath's Arthurian self insert.
#kaamelott#arthur pendragon#jesus christ#gospel#bible#salvation#king arthur#alexandre astier#hey I was deliberately watching videos of ex-christians giving their reasons for leaving and I was ready to have to think deeply#and they hit me with that??#they left because they never knew what they supposedly believed in the first place not because they 'deconstructed it'
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WAIT ARE YOU A NINJAGO FAN
I keep up with it! I've written a few fics for it too, though they were all from a while ago so they aren't the best. I used to be more active in the fandom actually, but there were some jerks and I kinda drifted away. Still watch the show though :)
#answers from the floor#anon#you'll never guess what the biggest reason was for why I left!!! It's because I'm Christian and I got hate for it!!!#isn't it funny how this happens in every internet space I end up in? isn't that interesting.#...sorry. that's a sore spot.#anyways DR has been interesting#kinda weird... but interesting#it's always fun seeing where they take the show every season#and how different it is lol
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Omg shut the fuck up and get out of the ex Christian and religious trauma tags.
#don't harrass OP i covered their name for a reason#religious trauma#ex christian#OP is literally that asshole whose thinks just because they left and came back therefore everyone should#and that they know better than us UwU poor broken people who left for good#fuck off#shut up#will likely delete later
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being the only autistic kid in a small town school was probably the worst experience a person can ever have
#i live in the middle of nowhere and i went to a school that had like 20 other people in my grade#and iwas the only one who didn’t fit the mold of cishet neurotypical christian whatever whatever#i also had anger issues from having my home life be fucking awful n people loved to use that to their advantage#imagine having a whole school constantly gang up on you for literally just existing#why does my existence make you want to fucking murder me i dont understand#i still feel to this day as if i shouldn’t be allowed to live and that everyone on the planet hates me#thank god high school was a better experience for me even tho some ppl had issues with me i ended up finding true friends#bc i left there lmao#im literally going to change my legal name one day bc im afraid of being known as that one weird girl in middle school.#why do i have to live this life?#i never share my face online for this reason too#what if one of my bullies finds out abt me and starts going off in the comments about how i was weird in middle school???? it’s fucking ……#i don’t go out bc im afraid of ppl recognizing me. for existing.#actually autistic#cptsd#bullying#so fun……………….
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trigun (talking original anime not stampede/manga here as I can’t comment on those yet) is actually genuinely really solid in terms of themes and repeating imagery. the way the very setting of a desert with the associated resource scarcity plays into it all. you get monopolies over water where one family holds everything whilst the surrounding areas are left to rot. but then you have small patches of greenery that could have amounted to nothing but due to years of nurturing they’ve grown up into forests. it’s about what you do with what you’re given and what you choose to pass on to others.
#trigun#trigun spoilers#<- is it spoilers if the series came out over two decades ago. eh. let's play it safe#keep thinking about rem -> vash -> wolfwood and rem/vash vs knives in the whole debate about sacrificing one to save the many#because honestly both rem and knives' opposing philosophies are extremes and the only reason vash survived by rem's philosophy for so long#was because he wasn't human. rem and wolfwood don't have that and so the price they pay for moral purity is steep#(and honestly sometimes you do get scenarios where by choosing not to interfere it means more people suffer and vash is called out on this)#there's a reason why vash decides to carve his own path in the end and that's because both of the extremes are untenable#but he can still hold what he's been taught dear and move forward. people make mistakes and all they can do is try to be better#and that's all humanity as a whole can do. water and resources can be taken advantage of. but they can also be shared communally#and so in the series there is the hope that with water and nurturing eden will return and this desert planet will turn green#(also the christian imagery cracks me up but unlike with death note and eva I can't really call it faux symbolism because it kinda fits)#(and the gunpoint dilemma + cross scenes (rem -> wolfwood -> meryl) are so lovely if painful to watch#because the only time we know the 'right' choice was made is the last instance. the others are left to speculation)
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Throughout all of this, I never thought about the potential for my family members to also deconstruct/leave fundamentalist christianity, even if they remained a more progressive christian in the end
#I came out to my dad this weekend and he took it like#scarily well#specifically as trans. I'm still figuring out sexuality and also he doesn't need to know all that lol#this man used to punish me for *not* wanting to spend his money on clothes and hair styling#he pulled up his bible app on his ipad and told me my deceased mother would be disappointed when I tried to come out nearly 10 years ago#and we didn't really talk about it after that until now#He's still a christian but he hasn't gone to our church since the pandemic started since we moved houses#then I left for college#so he didn't really have a reason to travel 45 mins to keep going to that specific church#his father still does though and is as extreme as he always was#if not more since he sees more/is getting sick so he's holding onto religion more#We lived with his father for a few years and I think we both started to see how extreme that life was there#cause that's also where I started deconstructing#I don't think he's ever going to leave christianity completely like I did#and I'm willing to pretend to be one for him#but he's significantly calmer now#and said he honestly just wants me to be able to survive and be happy even after he's gone#he even knew when pride month was and helps decorate at work#though that's not really by choice since it's a part of his job#but yea I came out to him as trans and he's okay with it. he just wants me to be happy. we aren't gonna tell his father tho#or his mother for that matter though she has the gentler calm nature that my dad inherited#it's been a journey seeing him reconcile with that from my end since it was usually something with me that made him rethink things#he's at a point where he cares much more about seeing me happy than being 100% perfect for Jesus. He doesn't need to be perfect either#I'm still processing all of it ngl. He even accepted the little resource bag I made for him#n e ways thanks for reading my little ramble about coming out and seeing my dad leave fundamentalism for a gentler christianity#that makes both of us happier both now and in the long run#I never really considered the possibility of that happening#next step: coming out to my mom's side of the family. tho I might just let them figure it out like the rest of my dad's side
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i am not fucking enjoying the recent increase in street preachers at transit centres over here.
#like man. i left christianity for a reason and it’s lowkey triggering to hear 'turn or burn' sermons screamed at me while waiting for my bus#blah blah blah
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