#really surprised abt this tbh
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things that don't make me dysphoric:
- having boobs and wider hips and just my body in general
- wearing makeup
- wearing most dresses
- using she/her pronouns
things that do make me dysphoric:
- having long hair
- being called feminine terms (with a few exceptions)
- having non black nail polish apparently????
#painted my nails with my aunt today#really surprised abt this tbh#like ive got some black and some very hot pink nails#and like hot pink is one of my fav colors#ive had my hair that color and loved it#love it for clothes#but as nail polish its just like AH! NO!#meat.txt#fuckin wild
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Another year, another outfit to die in! Happy birthday again Izuna!!!!!!
Like last year, I played with someone else's lines for these charming patterns, thank you so much Lena @elhnrt ! I had a ton of fun :D
Check the readmore for pattern references and explanations, there are some easter eggs in there :)
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My goal for this piece, in addition to playing with patterns and textures and adding some Naruto references, was to add as many death flags as possible.
The idea of having Izuna in a fireman's coat is obviously not from me. I've always like the idea of Uchihas in fire resistant clothes, and the opportunity for a thick texture alongside a reversible double pattern is very appealing. I used the image of the second reference as a base, with skulls on one side and stylized lightning patterns on the other (visible inside the sleeves and collar). Both were common immagery of firemen coats.
The actual skull pattern is taken from the third reference. I'd seen this one before and before even learning anything abt it it was too beautiful to pass up. Those white and navy gradients are absolutely delightful and I enjoyed using my gel pens for them very much.... This particular type of imagery with skulls and bones in a field is called Nozarashi, inspired by Buddhist representation of death and transience.
The lightning pattern itself is a reference to water and lightning dragons :) Like Tobirama's iconic jutsu, it's one of the hints of what's abt to happen to our little guy. The scabbard is also decorated with dragon motifs for the same reason.
The background pattern is taken from the first reference, another fireman's coat with an illustration of Raijin, the thunder god. He is often representated with drums decorated with tomoes. It works nicely as a standard looking sharingan illustration, with a reference to Tobirama's hiraishingiris with the thunder imagery, like the thunder patterns inside the coat.
If you're interested in this I recommend the book linked in the second reference! It is entirely about skeleton motifs in japanese clothing of the early 20th century.
#mine#mixed#wip#naruto#uchiha izuna#been looking at some many fun patters I really went all in for this one#I love borrowing people's lines bc I do not care much abt anatomy or even drawing clothes tbh but patterns and textures....#it's like I'm dressing up a little doll :)#you can tell I was feeling myself seriousposting bc I capizalized the names...#anyway this was a lot of fun and of course actually quite unserious#for exemple you'll notice all these are either from late 19th/early20th c. despite the warring states era being obviously sengoku coded#later designs were easier for me to find references from and information on since I do not know much abt the subject#I allowed myself these liberties bc the timeline (wether aesthetic or narrative) in naruto is hardly strict#also it's usually the senjus who are associated with Buddhism and the uchiha are more shinto leaning but well.#you can tell yourself this is a sign of early konoha corruption on our guy Izuna#if you have any more questions abt this feel free to ask! this was a surprise again so i haven't posted any wips#but i do have some pictures of the process and I always love to chat
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tee higgins 😮💨🤚
#ive realized ive never actually got to yap abt tees tiktoks really and that's such a shame bc he has such quality (of a sort 😭) content#beware i will be spamming tee tiktok content bc i have yet to yap abt any of them here its surprising tbh#god look at him look at his smile who the fuck looks like that#tee higgins#downloading w/o watermark btw but the link is right there :)
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"You don't look queer" well, maybe if people stopped acting like there is a specific way you should dress to be gay it wouldnt be such a surprise that people who "dont look it" are, in fact, still queer
#the last girl i kissed said this to me and it sounded like she meant it as a compliment while she berated herself for looking obviously gay#and idk man. it just soured my mood entirely.#i dont wanna change the way i look. i like the way i look. but i really want people to stop acting so surprised when i kiss girls.#this website is pretty annoying abt this topic tbh. specially with wlw. but with gay men and trans people too.#it's always 'trans girls are beautiful and hot' till they don't fit into your idea of beauty#we gotta stop pretending there is one right way to be queer#lgbtqia+#queer
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#@ comment directed to me in a tag. i have not talked abt them anywhere publicly but if u were deep enough in the paint in 2020ish theyre#like not super surprising. i think i wanna get back around to the trolls in my reread (so itll b a while) before i say anthing solid#just so i can go in w intent to pay closer attention again but like#overall have a low opinion on most the troll boys insofar as i see that the narrative seems to also not care for them. they seem to exist#to serve narrative purposes & end up discarded when no longer relevant. ie they dont end up very interesting and thus i view#many fans with suspicion when they have 'boys disease' ie having an outsized focus on the boys of the story despite hs being by the end#an extremely female dominated text with a lot to say about masculinity as an opressive force#tavros and gamzee are the biggest bugbears here (only really beaten out in eyebrow raising by cronus and the male dancestors)#on account of fans of them often downplaying gamzee's misogyny that is core to his role as a charismatic cult leader (or worse#sending trans women death threats when they made the factual assesment that gamzee was written to be a weird misogynist calling it#character assassination etc. man 2020 was wild.) tavros mostly just ends up being an accessory to this crime tbh. though his genuinely#complicated relationship w vriska oft being flattened to villify vriska + an inability to actually read what tavros Says...#like. if you get rid of tavros' quirk. stammering and all. and read his lines. he's kind of fucking rude? and yeah its alternia they all ar#but i have my hesitancies wrt how people seem to infantilise him (a disabled character) to the point of ignoring his dialogue and flaws#when one of tavros' core conceits (u can argue if this is . like. something hussie should have stayed out of. like its not their lane) is#that shitty ppl online will be assholes but will be allowed to get away with it due to unrelated disability. which like. it was 2010 ig#but this is hit upon again with mituna being distinctly a 4 channer with real brain damage and speech issues & all his friends letting him#get away with shit he still clearly has the cognitive capacity to know is wrong. its very messily handled but. i dont rlly like tavros ig.#will b amazed if tumblr doesnt eat these tags i went on wayy too long. but im not putting this in plaintext for obvi reasons#lucabytereads
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somebody re-upload all my cc because 1) im never (never say never, but honestly more than likely never) going to do it, if i even try to do anything involving ts2 content/cc i will Explode and 2) when/if sfs ever blows up one day all my shit will be gone forever, because i don't even have like. half of it still in my downloads.
#chat#this isnt me saying someone do it just to do it but like.#if there is interest or some1 is mass archiving stuff feel free#i havent cared too much abt like. the general community of doing conversions or making cc in a long long long long time iykwim#if u couldnt tell from my icon. my mobile theme. my desktop theme. the ratio of sims to other stuff i started posting on here#though i really do need to go back and fix those bodyshop default room sorry guys i did like. three and quit#and upload the cc i did in like the past year??? to simblr.cc#anything else is more than likely not going to be tbh#which. tbh im surprised a lot of people still use my older stuff i mean back to the beginning Like.... its just not all that good#but i appreciate everyone who thinks so.. 🫶🏽#ok rambling done.
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hope everyone is doing well ^_^ ive been pretty non-zelda brained lately so its been a little tough wanting to keep drawing stuff from it LOL though i know it'll be back. Eventually. in the meantime its just a little difficult trying to figure out what id like to Draw and then the additional nuance of what id like to draw + what can i post on this blog
#i would like to open commissions up soonish or maybe around december for christmas time. keep it simple and stuff#probably mainly furry and anthro stuff cus im not super confident with people still LOL but we'll see#anyway its not an issue of like. i want to post only zelda stuff here bcus tbh i dont really care abt using sideblogs#just like. its difficult to draw if im not also slightly obsessed with that piece of media in one way or another#anyway if u start seeing stuff like warrior cats or pokemon here or whatever else in the future dont be surprised i guess#heart emoji. okay. yoshi is going to eat me and turn me into an egg now#personal.txt
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SPOILERS FOR S2E9 TD REBOOT
that elimination was so stupid i swear— I knew Caleb was gonna win immunity n all that but they did not need to do MK that dirty!!!
she didnt win because she tripped???? seriously?????? like no better reason than that, she just tripped over a rock and inhaled some of Chef's car, and she couldnt convince people JULIA, who placed 4TH last season btw, was the biggest threat out of all of them (bcs they werent gonna vote out Priya bcs theyre all friends)
im so sick of everything
#rambling rambling...#total drama 2023 spoilers#total drama#im not that surprised but i can still be pissed off abt it#tbh i hope julia wins just for that#(and maybe one of the hockey bros)#also i really want priyaleb gone. i love priya so much but her going this far after winning feels wrong
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Shinsou needs you to look at him so bad but also can't keep eye contact with you at all
Whore. Vying for your attention like a child only not being able to handle it cuz he's really just a baby deep down.
And you already know he can give the most dangerous pair of bedroom eyes if he really wants to, just has never liked someone as much as he likes you to actually want to use them seriously.
I feel like it's funny because, before you start dating, you think the reason he can't look you in the eye is just because he's aloof and doesn't care, but after you start, it's frustrating because it's so intimate and lovely and he still can't bring himself to do it! Despite always needing to be in your vicinity or up in your business, turning away the second you acknowledge him.
Getting-all-flustered-ass when you pay attention to him like he's not staring/glaring down everyone else... Yes, I would be kinda Pissed.
(It's really just because he's shy. Being all sexy and intimidating to keep people from thinking they can get all close to him.
The first time you go to the club together as a couple, you catch him giving sexy eyes to a guy chatting him up, and the second you walk over to confront him about it, he's melting under your gaze and ignoring the other person altogether... embarrassed and squirmy at the thought of you being mad at him but needing you to know it's just because he loves you so.
He just can't help it!!! And now the stranger is mad that you got him so easily... bamboozled.)
#shinso#I AM NOT DOING MY WORK THAT IS WHY I AM HERE#I AM SO NERVOUS OH MY GOD#anyway u know like#he's one of those guys where being intimate is kinda easy when he knows the person isnt gonna actually get anywhere#but the second youre touching his arm and looking him in the eyes and saying his given name he's like#OH SH*T !!!! I CAN'T DO THIS!!! //in a pos way cuz he loves u#and its weird bc u dont know whats happening?? u thought he likes u???#but he's just not used to such sweet affection#and it takes him a couple... months for him to get settled with u and be able to cuddle without getting shy#and yes he teases people with that#acting like he's gonna dom someone's *ss until you walk over and he's the sweetest man ever in the whole world#and blushes at ur every word#tbh idk if this makes sense i just have a particular vision of it + him that i want to portray#its really surprising how much ppl love shinso but don't talk abt it#sigh#caitie things#anon#gen
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*telling a girl from the group abt my Situation™️ (depression suicidal tendencies etc)*
her: damn... i never would've guessed... you look so chill and happy all the time...
me in my head: omg. i'm so blorbo coded. tumblrinas would love me
me out loud: guess that's why i'm an actor then haha 😎😎😎
#it sure was a Conversation. hm#(we often talk abt our issues and such bc i mean. we all know why we're there. but i don't normally open up abt my actual feelings or past)#(so ig this tends to take ppl by surprise lmao 😭😭😭 i really am mostly chill and silly irl tbh. when i'm comfortable at least)
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im having thoughts about gay people again
#xxxholic#douwata#listen i have a lot to think about i always think abt them theres so much to discuss#if they had one confessional conversation it would all be over doumeki would die but not literally this time#i love the rarely discussed thing which is like 'sure watanuki is a blushing tsundere nerd loser BUT he could have the upper hand'#the element of surprise....the element of actually acting on all the boldness hes acrued but never actually committed to in canon#if he had any sort of healthy natural growth that wasnt affected by The Situation itd b over for that poor man#its like an explosion if either of them act on their feelings the other will just be like a human firework tbh#i love the idea of a potential relationship of theirs being just as much about revenge game 4d chess tactics#as much as it is goofy or serious or tender#then again im the type to view positive friendships in my real life that way so i naturally enjoy it in fictional relationships#but like#you have a tsundere who was trained in the art of being a seductress#and you have a more outspoken bolder type with strong conviction in his romantic feelings but also an expectation of it being unfulfilled#they have strengths and weaknesses that counteract each other greatly for the game of taking each other aback#they already do but in a relationship itd be tenfold#they also each have enough smugness in them to propel it to the next levek#imagine them constantly trying to one each other up#he who blushes first loses (but wins the consolation prize of a REALLY cute relationship)#heh ...all the excellent fic fuel if i could write fic without getting distracted panicking abt lore inconsistencies or cringing at myself#not for the act of writing fic i just find it tricky to like my own longform writing#but i wANNAAAAAAAA
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oh my god i just finished the dark forest finally. 7/10 i suppose, i went through the first half or so of the book being really annoyed by luo ji but also enjoying the chapters where he shows up because unfortunately he was entertaining. still don't understand the imaginary girlfriend thing, it just feels like he needs someone to protect from the world which like ??? ok sure i guess, it just rubs me the wrong way personally. for the second half and especially the end i became luo ji's number one defender it's fine. for the rest, holy crap—the droplet, the microcosm of the universe on those runaway ships, the wallfacer project, luo ji drawing from rey diaz's plan, the attitude of the world towards him, the entire theory... wow
#i dont even know my brain's exploding#i don't think it's an incredibly great plot per se but it's enough to keep me interested and the concepts are interesting and thats enough#again shi qiang the mandatory emotional support. i was so touched when he said goodbye to luo ji even tho it was just a false alarm#also dongfang yanxu (btw her name??? homophone for 'the east lives on'??) and those two other captains using just their eyes to#communicate just like zhuang yan imagined... ough and then all that destruction#三体#tbh was reminded of the trisolarians when zhang beihai started waxing on about the new morals the new humanity might have#make judgements without feeling and yet it killed him in the end#generally the moment luo ji wakes up and is almost killed 6 times (kind of funny tbh) shit literally just kept happening#also @ great depression 2. like the great ravine or smth? idk it felt close to cultural rev 2. greenpeace as a 人奸 organization💀💀💀💀💀💀#the aesthetics of trisolarians are great tho. first the droplet then the giant signaling device they send#so beautiful its something humans can't even imagine is a nice description. reminds me illogically of eschers art#王明军 the audiobook reader needs like 10 million awards actually. i feel like i didn't really think abt it when listening to book 1#but his voice and narration is really good he reads with feeling which is incredible for when i dont want to keep reading#my post#i was very touched at the end tho he really said i'll become an alcoholic#the wallfacer project and its tolls on the saviors of the world or something#also a surprising amount of christianity references i feel#idk tho#three body problem#main gripes were that the switching of perspectives bored me lol the three retired old grandpas were alright#but i was bored out of my mind at zhang beihai's pov before shit started going down sorry dude#it annoys me how grandpas + chang weisi and all those other people kind of just get written out but i suppose this is not the target f#for science fiction anyways??
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btw to filipino moots im gna be an arenean B) or iskolar ng bayan who knows!
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#my only choices for college r the big 4 personally i'm so sorrey ... but minus ust tbh bcs i rlly dont want to be a thomasian LOL#IT'S JUST REALLY PERSONAL i don't like the culture of ust & etc . i have my reasons. dlsu is ok but ateneo or up is my Dream#may be a surprise but i've always been a straight a student and real smart :3 even in anything to do w filipino#but that is the one thing that drags my grades (slightly) down ..... but my math is so exemplary and i get perfect computer anything always#bs cs future major hereee but since i want ateneo i'm going for dual degree cs bs-dgdd#yeehaw i never talk abt really real life stuff like this but this is still okey#one day u might get a face revea but only for my eyes bcs im sorta obsessed w and unfortunately think im really cute. so#ANYWAY !!!!! excited for college tbh. scared. but yes!#i havent finished my admu app but it is due friday i am so crazy LMFAOOOOOOO but i have recos alr <3 yay <33#rlly confident in myself but i want to be careful and really get what i desevre. gna do my best and try to get top 15% AND MAYBE even 200#but that one specifically is sorta crazy but tbf i could achieve it if i study a bit more :P so ya#it's amazing bcs ... english is literally second nature to me BUT i am and have always been amazing at math & sci#always been a math kid and sci kid AND art kid AND eng kid and music too and computer#idk. just proud of myself. i love me lol#there's a lot to it but no need to get into specifics :3 im just happy w myself yay!
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sometimes it’s so sad to like. remember people don’t think gayness is normal and regular 😭 like when i am just living my life and experiencing gay love and it’s so normal and good and perfect and etc and like. then i remember people are fucked about it for no gd reason and think it’s unnatural. ?????
#idk its jarring sometimes#when u are in an almost 6 yr relationship its like this is just Life#and then ppl are strange abt it#also i think bcs im really open and confident abt it ppl are usually norma abt it too#or worst i get is like a 😳 oh u have a wife? when i tell ppl abt her#or like when they assume married = have husband#but still…#also its funny tbh to see ppl try to understand when i first mention her casually#the surprise & then tryjng to cover the surprise#yes u have been talking to a lesbian all this time 😃
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ahr results sure are something! why f!edelgard is on there despite the existence of 2 million counters is beyond me, and her presence cost embla a spot - who is, you know, actually good. i also hope s! edelgard doesn't make it to the banner bc people keep saying she's an amazing unit but she is honestly not that hard to counter and she doesn't fit my play style either, plus she doesn't have good fodder so i have no real use for her. and the way they put fomortiis and arcane grima against each other for the gauntlet like 💀 couldn't you have put the two edelgards up against each other instead of the two baddest bitches in the top 8. come on
#i already have duo!chrom and veronica#and i don't rly care abt ninja camilla but id rather her than f!edelgard#arcane ophelia is w/e tbh i dont rly have anyone who could use the fodder#maybe l!dimitri could use time's pulse 4 but that'd be kind of a waste i feel#anyway im supporting fomortiis he's the only one i really want to get#feh#fire emblem heroes#the fact that duo askr and duo duma fell out of the top 8 surprised me but im mostly shocked embla isn't on there
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I have no idea how you manage to do extensive research if I was at your place I would do research and then be wrong about everything
OWDNWKDNWKD IM CURIOUS ABOUT WHAT THIS IS IN REFERENCE TO TBH.... but really its just about hunting down the right resources and doing a lot of cross-referencing for me!!! I really enjoy learning new stuff and highly value accuracy so i have a lot of fun fishing for scientific papers and going on research binges for information i can use in a story-- sometimes it takes a minute to sift through the academic language so i can understand what its saying, but usually i can get the gist of what im reading, which helps a lot when i start cross-referencing with more layman-friendly articles :]
#shouting speaks#asks#idk how extensive i'd call my research binges but they usually last abt 2-4 hrs whenever im really invested in smth#i know that au where i started researching different ways to make tattoo ink took a solid THREE DAYS tho that info was hard to find 😭😭😭#tbh the cross-referencing is v important to me bc there can be conflicting information out there#so i like to cast a really wide net at first and take notes on whats generally represented in all of the papers and articles i peruse#and then start really narrowing my searches to specific pieces of info#and then kinda piece the picture together with a variety of different sources#altho sometimes i have personal experience with stuff so i can just add my own knowledge to the mix skfnwkdjwkdj#random fun fact!!! ive watched cataract and ent surgeries before!!! you'd be surprised at how useful the info from that is#txt
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