#really surprised abt this tbh
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things that don't make me dysphoric:
- having boobs and wider hips and just my body in general
- wearing makeup
- wearing most dresses
- using she/her pronouns
things that do make me dysphoric:
- having long hair
- being called feminine terms (with a few exceptions)
- having non black nail polish apparently????
#painted my nails with my aunt today#really surprised abt this tbh#like ive got some black and some very hot pink nails#and like hot pink is one of my fav colors#ive had my hair that color and loved it#love it for clothes#but as nail polish its just like AH! NO!#meat.txt#fuckin wild
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Another year, another outfit to die in! Happy birthday again Izuna!!!!!!
Like last year, I played with someone else's lines for these charming patterns, thank you so much Lena @elhnrt ! I had a ton of fun :D
Check the readmore for pattern references and explanations, there are some easter eggs in there :)
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My goal for this piece, in addition to playing with patterns and textures and adding some Naruto references, was to add as many death flags as possible.
The idea of having Izuna in a fireman's coat is obviously not from me. I've always like the idea of Uchihas in fire resistant clothes, and the opportunity for a thick texture alongside a reversible double pattern is very appealing. I used the image of the second reference as a base, with skulls on one side and stylized lightning patterns on the other (visible inside the sleeves and collar). Both were common immagery of firemen coats.
The actual skull pattern is taken from the third reference. I'd seen this one before and before even learning anything abt it it was too beautiful to pass up. Those white and navy gradients are absolutely delightful and I enjoyed using my gel pens for them very much.... This particular type of imagery with skulls and bones in a field is called Nozarashi, inspired by Buddhist representation of death and transience.
The lightning pattern itself is a reference to water and lightning dragons :) Like Tobirama's iconic jutsu, it's one of the hints of what's abt to happen to our little guy. The scabbard is also decorated with dragon motifs for the same reason.
The background pattern is taken from the first reference, another fireman's coat with an illustration of Raijin, the thunder god. He is often representated with drums decorated with tomoes. It works nicely as a standard looking sharingan illustration, with a reference to Tobirama's hiraishingiris with the thunder imagery, like the thunder patterns inside the coat.
If you're interested in this I recommend the book linked in the second reference! It is entirely about skeleton motifs in japanese clothing of the early 20th century.
#mine#mixed#wip#naruto#uchiha izuna#been looking at some many fun patters I really went all in for this one#I love borrowing people's lines bc I do not care much abt anatomy or even drawing clothes tbh but patterns and textures....#it's like I'm dressing up a little doll :)#you can tell I was feeling myself seriousposting bc I capizalized the names...#anyway this was a lot of fun and of course actually quite unserious#for exemple you'll notice all these are either from late 19th/early20th c. despite the warring states era being obviously sengoku coded#later designs were easier for me to find references from and information on since I do not know much abt the subject#I allowed myself these liberties bc the timeline (wether aesthetic or narrative) in naruto is hardly strict#also it's usually the senjus who are associated with Buddhism and the uchiha are more shinto leaning but well.#you can tell yourself this is a sign of early konoha corruption on our guy Izuna#if you have any more questions abt this feel free to ask! this was a surprise again so i haven't posted any wips#but i do have some pictures of the process and I always love to chat
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"You don't look queer" well, maybe if people stopped acting like there is a specific way you should dress to be gay it wouldnt be such a surprise that people who "dont look it" are, in fact, still queer
#the last girl i kissed said this to me and it sounded like she meant it as a compliment while she berated herself for looking obviously gay#and idk man. it just soured my mood entirely.#i dont wanna change the way i look. i like the way i look. but i really want people to stop acting so surprised when i kiss girls.#this website is pretty annoying abt this topic tbh. specially with wlw. but with gay men and trans people too.#it's always 'trans girls are beautiful and hot' till they don't fit into your idea of beauty#we gotta stop pretending there is one right way to be queer#lgbtqia+#queer
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hope everyone is doing well ^_^ ive been pretty non-zelda brained lately so its been a little tough wanting to keep drawing stuff from it LOL though i know it'll be back. Eventually. in the meantime its just a little difficult trying to figure out what id like to Draw and then the additional nuance of what id like to draw + what can i post on this blog
#i would like to open commissions up soonish or maybe around december for christmas time. keep it simple and stuff#probably mainly furry and anthro stuff cus im not super confident with people still LOL but we'll see#anyway its not an issue of like. i want to post only zelda stuff here bcus tbh i dont really care abt using sideblogs#just like. its difficult to draw if im not also slightly obsessed with that piece of media in one way or another#anyway if u start seeing stuff like warrior cats or pokemon here or whatever else in the future dont be surprised i guess#heart emoji. okay. yoshi is going to eat me and turn me into an egg now#personal.txt
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SPOILERS FOR S2E9 TD REBOOT
that elimination was so stupid i swear— I knew Caleb was gonna win immunity n all that but they did not need to do MK that dirty!!!
she didnt win because she tripped???? seriously?????? like no better reason than that, she just tripped over a rock and inhaled some of Chef's car, and she couldnt convince people JULIA, who placed 4TH last season btw, was the biggest threat out of all of them (bcs they werent gonna vote out Priya bcs theyre all friends)
im so sick of everything
#rambling rambling...#total drama 2023 spoilers#total drama#im not that surprised but i can still be pissed off abt it#tbh i hope julia wins just for that#(and maybe one of the hockey bros)#also i really want priyaleb gone. i love priya so much but her going this far after winning feels wrong
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Shinsou needs you to look at him so bad but also can't keep eye contact with you at all
Whore. Vying for your attention like a child only not being able to handle it cuz he's really just a baby deep down.
And you already know he can give the most dangerous pair of bedroom eyes if he really wants to, just has never liked someone as much as he likes you to actually want to use them seriously.
I feel like it's funny because, before you start dating, you think the reason he can't look you in the eye is just because he's aloof and doesn't care, but after you start, it's frustrating because it's so intimate and lovely and he still can't bring himself to do it! Despite always needing to be in your vicinity or up in your business, turning away the second you acknowledge him.
Getting-all-flustered-ass when you pay attention to him like he's not staring/glaring down everyone else... Yes, I would be kinda Pissed.
(It's really just because he's shy. Being all sexy and intimidating to keep people from thinking they can get all close to him.
The first time you go to the club together as a couple, you catch him giving sexy eyes to a guy chatting him up, and the second you walk over to confront him about it, he's melting under your gaze and ignoring the other person altogether... embarrassed and squirmy at the thought of you being mad at him but needing you to know it's just because he loves you so.
He just can't help it!!! And now the stranger is mad that you got him so easily... bamboozled.)
#shinso#I AM NOT DOING MY WORK THAT IS WHY I AM HERE#I AM SO NERVOUS OH MY GOD#anyway u know like#he's one of those guys where being intimate is kinda easy when he knows the person isnt gonna actually get anywhere#but the second youre touching his arm and looking him in the eyes and saying his given name he's like#OH SH*T !!!! I CAN'T DO THIS!!! //in a pos way cuz he loves u#and its weird bc u dont know whats happening?? u thought he likes u???#but he's just not used to such sweet affection#and it takes him a couple... months for him to get settled with u and be able to cuddle without getting shy#and yes he teases people with that#acting like he's gonna dom someone's *ss until you walk over and he's the sweetest man ever in the whole world#and blushes at ur every word#tbh idk if this makes sense i just have a particular vision of it + him that i want to portray#its really surprising how much ppl love shinso but don't talk abt it#sigh#caitie things#anon#gen
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im having thoughts about gay people again
#xxxholic#douwata#listen i have a lot to think about i always think abt them theres so much to discuss#if they had one confessional conversation it would all be over doumeki would die but not literally this time#i love the rarely discussed thing which is like 'sure watanuki is a blushing tsundere nerd loser BUT he could have the upper hand'#the element of surprise....the element of actually acting on all the boldness hes acrued but never actually committed to in canon#if he had any sort of healthy natural growth that wasnt affected by The Situation itd b over for that poor man#its like an explosion if either of them act on their feelings the other will just be like a human firework tbh#i love the idea of a potential relationship of theirs being just as much about revenge game 4d chess tactics#as much as it is goofy or serious or tender#then again im the type to view positive friendships in my real life that way so i naturally enjoy it in fictional relationships#but like#you have a tsundere who was trained in the art of being a seductress#and you have a more outspoken bolder type with strong conviction in his romantic feelings but also an expectation of it being unfulfilled#they have strengths and weaknesses that counteract each other greatly for the game of taking each other aback#they already do but in a relationship itd be tenfold#they also each have enough smugness in them to propel it to the next levek#imagine them constantly trying to one each other up#he who blushes first loses (but wins the consolation prize of a REALLY cute relationship)#heh ...all the excellent fic fuel if i could write fic without getting distracted panicking abt lore inconsistencies or cringing at myself#not for the act of writing fic i just find it tricky to like my own longform writing#but i wANNAAAAAAAA
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btw to filipino moots im gna be an arenean B) or iskolar ng bayan who knows!
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#my only choices for college r the big 4 personally i'm so sorrey ... but minus ust tbh bcs i rlly dont want to be a thomasian LOL#IT'S JUST REALLY PERSONAL i don't like the culture of ust & etc . i have my reasons. dlsu is ok but ateneo or up is my Dream#may be a surprise but i've always been a straight a student and real smart :3 even in anything to do w filipino#but that is the one thing that drags my grades (slightly) down ..... but my math is so exemplary and i get perfect computer anything always#bs cs future major hereee but since i want ateneo i'm going for dual degree cs bs-dgdd#yeehaw i never talk abt really real life stuff like this but this is still okey#one day u might get a face revea but only for my eyes bcs im sorta obsessed w and unfortunately think im really cute. so#ANYWAY !!!!! excited for college tbh. scared. but yes!#i havent finished my admu app but it is due friday i am so crazy LMFAOOOOOOO but i have recos alr <3 yay <33#rlly confident in myself but i want to be careful and really get what i desevre. gna do my best and try to get top 15% AND MAYBE even 200#but that one specifically is sorta crazy but tbf i could achieve it if i study a bit more :P so ya#it's amazing bcs ... english is literally second nature to me BUT i am and have always been amazing at math & sci#always been a math kid and sci kid AND art kid AND eng kid and music too and computer#idk. just proud of myself. i love me lol#there's a lot to it but no need to get into specifics :3 im just happy w myself yay!
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seen both episodes of horizons now and holy fuck
#i was so used to being bored w jn tbh but this series already has me really hooked???#liko is a really well realized character and no scene feels wasted everything feels carefully set up#the tone is also so good like liko and am’s silent conversation when he finds her hiding on the ship???????#it was SO good and i like what theyre setting up with the new pokemon and i love the airship setting#i was nervous when eve told me it was another ‘’travel the world hub’’ deal but unlike jn#theres like an even spread of pokemon from other regions#and not only that but pokemon that havent gotten too much love in general like alolan muk snorunt and carkoal#speaking of which THIS WAS CARKOALS FIRST APPEARANCE???#its also still being good w all of the starters too like so far fuecoco’s been the latest to show up#and it still has adequate screentime and personality to it#literally the only thing im hmmm abt is more charizard favoritism but like. i can forgive it with how even everything is#and i love that pikachu is their boss AND IT HAS VOLT TACKLE. BABYGIRL I MISSED YOU#what i was also worried abt was that theyd try to make it as close to ash and pikachus journey as possible#like same dynamic same setup same pikachu character (not really but same personality)#but no!! its all totally shaken up and the stuff that DOES evoke the original is still clever#and stands on its own!! like oh my god i cannot say enough how pleasantly surprised i am with horizons#i wasn’t pessimistic but i was like ‘’ill like it bc its pokemon regardless but wont be going crazy over it’’#but im like. SO anxious for the next episode now bc SPRIG :(#but like oh my god it all stands out. the character design the characters themselves the pokemon the animation the artstyle the music#the story the tone the setup like EVERYTHING is so good here#echoed voice
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sometimes it’s so sad to like. remember people don’t think gayness is normal and regular 😭 like when i am just living my life and experiencing gay love and it’s so normal and good and perfect and etc and like. then i remember people are fucked about it for no gd reason and think it’s unnatural. ?????
#idk its jarring sometimes#when u are in an almost 6 yr relationship its like this is just Life#and then ppl are strange abt it#also i think bcs im really open and confident abt it ppl are usually norma abt it too#or worst i get is like a 😳 oh u have a wife? when i tell ppl abt her#or like when they assume married = have husband#but still…#also its funny tbh to see ppl try to understand when i first mention her casually#the surprise & then tryjng to cover the surprise#yes u have been talking to a lesbian all this time 😃
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ahr results sure are something! why f!edelgard is on there despite the existence of 2 million counters is beyond me, and her presence cost embla a spot - who is, you know, actually good. i also hope s! edelgard doesn't make it to the banner bc people keep saying she's an amazing unit but she is honestly not that hard to counter and she doesn't fit my play style either, plus she doesn't have good fodder so i have no real use for her. and the way they put fomortiis and arcane grima against each other for the gauntlet like 💀 couldn't you have put the two edelgards up against each other instead of the two baddest bitches in the top 8. come on
#i already have duo!chrom and veronica#and i don't rly care abt ninja camilla but id rather her than f!edelgard#arcane ophelia is w/e tbh i dont rly have anyone who could use the fodder#maybe l!dimitri could use time's pulse 4 but that'd be kind of a waste i feel#anyway im supporting fomortiis he's the only one i really want to get#feh#fire emblem heroes#the fact that duo askr and duo duma fell out of the top 8 surprised me but im mostly shocked embla isn't on there
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putting the dog to sleep by the antlers to the tune of p2 grimmyarrow.....augh
#lays on the ground#it was originally a Grimm Song at first listen bc Dog Motif but then i was like. okay wait hold on actually it fits both of them#slightly more grimm still i suppose but#actually very pleasantly surprised i can listen to the antlers tbh i thought it would be covered in The Ooze#given how obsessed my shitass ex was with their hospice album and how there ARE artists i can't really listen to anymore#i just think they weren't to my tastes at the time so it they didn't make a significant impression on me then. which is great bc now#i can be mentally unwell abt my ocs to their music in the fun way#instead of being mentally unwell in the 'oh part of me is still 18 and being torn in two directions' way#like 'you can't keep running out. kicking yourself off the bed. kicking yourself in the head. because you're kicking me too' ??#hello??? okay yeah way to sum up 60% of grimm's issues there#rambles#grimmyarrow
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I have no idea how you manage to do extensive research if I was at your place I would do research and then be wrong about everything
OWDNWKDNWKD IM CURIOUS ABOUT WHAT THIS IS IN REFERENCE TO TBH.... but really its just about hunting down the right resources and doing a lot of cross-referencing for me!!! I really enjoy learning new stuff and highly value accuracy so i have a lot of fun fishing for scientific papers and going on research binges for information i can use in a story-- sometimes it takes a minute to sift through the academic language so i can understand what its saying, but usually i can get the gist of what im reading, which helps a lot when i start cross-referencing with more layman-friendly articles :]
#shouting speaks#asks#idk how extensive i'd call my research binges but they usually last abt 2-4 hrs whenever im really invested in smth#i know that au where i started researching different ways to make tattoo ink took a solid THREE DAYS tho that info was hard to find 😭😭😭#tbh the cross-referencing is v important to me bc there can be conflicting information out there#so i like to cast a really wide net at first and take notes on whats generally represented in all of the papers and articles i peruse#and then start really narrowing my searches to specific pieces of info#and then kinda piece the picture together with a variety of different sources#altho sometimes i have personal experience with stuff so i can just add my own knowledge to the mix skfnwkdjwkdj#random fun fact!!! ive watched cataract and ent surgeries before!!! you'd be surprised at how useful the info from that is#txt
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#so I think ep 12 is really good - does it have problems? yes.#do I think Atom should've apologized to Boston's face properly? yes#do I think boston should've apologized to top's face properly? yes#do I think Nick's interesting choice words for his last convo with Boston were def harsh? yes#do I wish they did the fire topmew scene a bit differently to make it more poignant esp since they've been shitting on top? yes#so many things! And that's just ep 12 bc jfc if u asked me abt the other eps?...we'd be here all night#basically it's this - they are characters meant to rep early 20 something students who are so messy and flawed and reckless#will they each recognize every mistake they've ever made? noooooo bc WHY WOULD THEY??? WHEN ITS ABT THEIR PAIN!?!?#THEY ARE THINKING OF YHEMSELVES#THATS HOW IT IS SOMETIMES - I DO THE FUCKING SAME THING#it feels v much like the end of edge of seventeen where you're with a character you've bonded over for an hour and a half and realize#NO ONE is going to apologize to them - not truthfully or fully or genuinely or etc and it's sad and heartbreaking and painful#but newsflash - it happens#and don't think you've done it right all the first time and apologized rightfully - and if u did?? It's bc that person mattered to you!#these 'friends'??? while yes they are - they also are not#im fucking surprised they all stayed friends tbh bc they don't truly make sense long-run but they have that business together so let's see#let's face it - it's the friendships it's the meanings it's the labels it's the community it's the assumptions it's the lack of words#ya'll saying you want toxic but can't handle when everything is not fair#and it isn't fair! there's exec decisions there's editing decisions there's casting decisions! bruh. it was set up from the start.#editing based on audience reaction? bruh. played right into their hands#blabber time#please ignore me#not even gon put the tags bc ya'll vicious as fuck when it comes to your characters while valid I'm tbh too tired to hear abt
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do u ever see comments on posts and artwork full of effort and thought and passion etc and like. think about that post that talks about how people have the darndest time interacting with art without trying to crack a joke about it. is it really so boring to take someone's art seriously? is it necessary to demean someone's efforts, however unintended, for a 'joke' that consists of you being like "ooOOoOh how weird lol!!" like i don't want or mean to be a killjoy. but i think about that post a lot. like y do u need to add a punchline to something that doesn't need one. who asked u. why does it need to be funny. and u don't even have the decency to acknowledge its merit ;/
#wynn speaks#don't get me wrong i love being silly it's 1 of my most valued traits#but like. idk.#imagine seeing a genuinely cool animation of how a feathered dinosaur might look in a jurassic park-esque movie#and you comment that it looks like a big bird creepypasta. like rlly u couldn't keep that to urself?#sorry it's probably not that serious. i'm just extremely petty and that comment annoyed me and now i am in my petty mode#i went to check the artist out (they're on twitter @wobblyworks) and turns out dinosaurs is their Whole Thing#tbh the feathered dino animation reminds me of like#so i went to this science museum to chaperone my little sister n her classmates and they had this fun li'l thing#where a guy was in basically a full-body puppet which was a feathered t-rex#and they treated it like a 'real' t-rex while talking abt dino facts#they let kids throw a light ball at it to 'play' w it it was very cute#and like you could See the puppetteer u could see their legs and shoes and stuff#but even middle schoolers were able to look past that and see how genuinely fucking cool that was!#like yes they made jokes abt the sneakers and how a human crawled out the rex when the show was over and they had to put the suit away#but they were in so much genuine aw it was rlly cute. and it makes sense bc the suit was really well made! it had a moving mouth/jaw#and i wouldn't be surprised if it had a mechanism to blink its eyes#but i digress#i'm not saying that u can Only interact with art with complete seriousness. like jokes r fine#but idk. becomes a problem when that is the only way u interact with art. and also if you're unfunny and personally annoy me#and i'm not saying that person is the kind of person to do that. bc idk them. i'm just like#kind of annoyed with seeing repeat instances of comments that r like 'hmm this art... what if i made it about how funny i am!''#i say kind of but then i look up and there is an entire wall of tags that r just me griping about it and a detour about a dino puppet suit#sorry besties i just needed to get that out of my system ily <3#btw the dude's part of a project/kickstarter called 'forgotten bloodlines'#and it seems to be an animated documentary about prehistoric creatures#i recommend u check out the trailer it looks soo cool
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OMG I am such a madarame hater but you draw him so blorbo so I gotta rb 😭 what do you see in him!!
MWAHAHAHA thank you for rbing despite hating him! n thamk u for liknig my art heeheheheh
abt what i see in him. ok i think i kinda ansered an ask b4 abt what i think of him but i lvoe talking abt him so ill jsut talk sgain HOPE THATS OK BSBDJ IDK IF THIS WAS A RHETORICAL QUESTION but i rly do love him. its rly funny bcs im liek Well yeah hes kind of a manipulative asshole who kidnapped towa n chained him to a wall HOWEVER.....
sjfhshhs anyway all that aside, he was jsut more chill tham i expected (expected some mink/shiki stuff going in) hes hilarious and silly (blows up a building for the bit. shows up in the true route for two secodns jsut to beat up fujieda n disappears forever. beat up100 ppl on his own once). and i think i just liked how he doesnt have any greed/ulterior motives n hes jsut an honest person with no hidden desires he jsut is what he saysss and i love that he can live in the present n move forward w confidence itbwas cool to me :^) and i rly do enjoy his dynamic w towa atleast during the second half of his route+post good end stuff ^_^ I JSUTNTHINK HES NEAT i feel like he does genuinley care abt towa n hes v straightforward i jsut luv him. sighs
#i think part of its def bcs i was expecting him to be WAY worse so when he would show genuine care for towa i was v surprised#like vhecking up on him asking if hes ok w the silence n shit like that and also#how he kidna missed towa n he held onto that lighter n photo for so long despite not looking back on the past#and andand. theres sm tbh i jsutnreally like him a lot#i rly like that hes not hiding any desires m theres nothing to psychoanalyse bcs hes jsut a simple guy#n i like how hes nicento animals :)#and his convos w towa jsut abt like the past n stuff like that#sighs dreamily#its ok not everyone interprets his route n char/rs w towa this way but this is how i see it so i love him ehe#ALSO THAMK UUU I TRY TO DRAW HIM EXTRS BLORBO N MAKE HIS HAIR REALLY FLUFF im glad u like my drawings :))#ask
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