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detransition, baby - a review
apparently the “first book written by an openly trans woman to be published by a big 5 publishing house” but that was from a goodreads review so dont quote me on that
disclaimer im am? mostly cis at this point in time
i really enjoyed this book. i loved how unapologetically queer it was. i loved the writing style and overall tone (more on this later*). i cant imagine what the experience must be for the average cis person that has never thought about Gender in their life.
the one-line summary of the plot is that Ames (detransitioned trans woman) accidentally gets Katrina (his gf) pregnant and proposes that his ex gf Reese (trans woman) to be a coparent because he can’t stand the idea of being shoehorned into the role of a dad and all the gender fuckery that entails by virtue of Katrina’s cishetness.
the book follows the reese and amy in vignettes from various periods of their lives, as well as the ongoing story in the present with katrina’s pregnancy. the timeline is meandering as it frequently recounts memories from the present, but i didn’t find it hard to follow.
our lovely cast:
- Reese: cynical & confident as a self-described trans elder. she desperately wants a child of her own. she’s emotional and impulsive and has several toxic relationships with men prior to and after her long-term relationship with Amy. her view on womanhood is fucked up, but understandably so. A lot of people on Goodreads, at least half of them TERFs, took issue with this particular section (which is funny, because the author knew exactly what would happen).
After all, Every woman adores a Fascist. Reese spent a lifetime observing cis women confirm their genders through male violence.
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Liberal feminists — especially the trans-hating variety — would have a field day with her. ... But you know what? ... Why should the burden be on her to uphold impeccable feminist politics that barely served her? ... So yeah, Stanley, bring it on. Hit Reese. Show her what it means to be a lady.
- Amy/Ames: a baby trans when she initially got together with reese, who was as much of a mother to her as she was a partner. she has never been able to break the habit of using maleness as an emotional shield, and one resulting casualty is her sex life — the inability to make herself vulnerable makes sex unsatisfying for both her and Reese. ultimately, their relationship breaks down and in the aftermath, Amy detransitions to Ames.
- Katrina - late thirties, chinese/jewish, cishet, divorcee. this is her first venturing into queerness. she’s also Ames’ boss, but this dynamic is not explored at all tbh she might as well be his coworker.
*THE PROSE! As I said earlier, I loved the writing style. It’s easy to read but embellished and ‘literary’ enough to be fun. Not sure of the right word to describe the tone but something like blasé/snappy/honest/blunt? it is also very funny.
Ames pondered whether he ought to cancel his subscription to HBO in order to afford this sperm bank. He couldn’t fully comprehend the enormous weight of fatherhood and generational lineage, but he could easily comprehend how much he did not want to cancel HBO.
...she welcomes Reese with a hug that, in its unexpected affection, Reese would put somewhere between suddenly discovered long-lost relative and cult leader thanking you for your impending sacrifice.
is this a Queer Misery book? i don’t think so. all the Bad Things (transphobia, homophobia, dysphoria, and so on) feature insofar that it is a book about the messy lives of these trans women. i didn’t find it depressing.
are the characters likeable? storygraph says “it’s complicated”. personally, i was emotionally invested in them at around the 50% mark. as someone who has never wanted children or been interested in motherhood at all, and also never been particularly moved by those who were, i was really hoping that things would work out for reese.
the question of race. amy and reese are very white and this is underlined in the book in a sufficiently self-aware (on the part of the author) way. i dont think this detracted from the book. more thoughts on this here.
sEx? some people have said there was a lot of sex in this book but i personally didn’t really think so (by the standard of fanfic at least). i guess there’s a decent number of talk about sex but not that many sex scenes?
is co-sleeping with your baby bad? the science says yes! sleeping in the same room is not the same as sleeping in the same bed!! this is the most problematic part of the book
unfortunately, (MINOR SPOILERS)
I didn’t get the happy ending that I had desperately hoped for (though i probably should’ve clocked something when it ended at 12 weeks post conception). Instead, we got an ambiguous ending that I guess could be seen as hopeful. I’m the type of guy that wants closure in all my stories but alas.
#queer literature#queer fiction#book review#queer book rec#detransition baby#i did not intend for this to be this long#reading#reading time: 10 hours#read over 5 days
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“Those two things can exist at the same time. Like you said, it's all—it's all tangled up together, you and me.”
double page spread for one of my favorite luzo fics of all time, poly philtatos (the most beloved by far) by my good friend - @swordsmans!
I knew I wanted to do a double page spread the second I finished this fic and I drafted abt a dozen ideas before landing on what would ultimately become this. There were so many snippets and moments I wanted to illustrate but I ended up doing more of an abstracted version of the fic as opposed to 1:1 drawings of scenes
funnily enough while the fic itself is told in zoros pov this spread is framed mostly through luffy’s eyes - his tears literally frame comp for their reunion, the moment he loses zoro, and the centerpiece of the first page which is this weird abstraction of him on the beach seeing zoros corpse-not-a-corpse in the waves just beyond his reach.
gyro put the crane wives’ never love an anchor on the playlist for this fic which i heavily used as inspiration in picking ornamental things for the spread (the anchor, the fleet of ships by luffy, and the nautical rope splitting the second page). also just like. overall really heartbreaking lyrics guys
there are smaller elements throughout the spread that are 1:1 references though (all i will say for these is if you know, you know hehe) i wish i had more time to do a lengthier piece for fanart for this fic bc it's one of the few luzo fics that have been rattling around in my brain forever now - once again please please please read poly philtatos if you haven't. gyro is a masterful writer and they deserve all the love! ok byeee
#i read this for the first time on a 18 hour flight and all i could do was pace the aisles and obsessively wipe at my eyes when i finished i#so i hope this conveys even 5% of that feeling#my design notes are like only 10% of what i want to say abt this fic. i am very ill#one piece#one piece fanart#luzo#zolu#zolu fic#monkey d. luffy#roronoa zoro#my art#one piece fanfiction#gear 5 luffy
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I went a little off the rails for a power-point-party, so I thought I'd share. Don't come at me about canonicity. Also yes, I spent hours using illustrator to make pose-able vector mando'ade.
Review from my friend: "I feel like I actually learned something?"
#star wars#starwarsblr#mandalorian#jaster mereel#Jango Fett#Boba Fett#star wars fanart#does anyone want or need this? no?#I spent maybe 10 hours on my powerpoint#after last time my friends gave me a hard 20-slide limit#also are you really going to tell me that “shabuir” ISN'T MOTHERF*CKER?#fictional language#it's not even canon anymore why am I like this#this was learned through reading enough fan fiction to be able to tell what words are accurate and infer what they mean
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I wanted a new icon
#nu carnival#nu: carnival#nuカーニバル#nukani#nucarnival#nu carnival dante#time will tell if I still like it in the morning#cause its not reading well at a small size rip#apologies if its deleted in 10 hours orz
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Arthur Morgan ▪︎○▪︎ Red Dead Redemption 2
#when you just wanna ride around & take your time reading his diary but then 10 hours go by & you've done everything but read the damn diary!#I don't know why but losing myself in this game and characters again is exactly what I needed right now and makes me so freaking happy#and here are just some shots and I can never decided between 'messy hair' arthur or slicked back arthur...both are so hot#red dead redemption 2#red dead redemption two#red dead redemption#rdr2#arthur#arthur morgan
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Dear Laika
#Medicine Pocket#Voyager#reverse 1999#reverse 1999 fanart#this is a very quick doodle i had this idea for a long time now#mp x voyager and mp x kb is both laika as hell…#read laika no hoshi btw#NOW#mochadoodles#10 minutes after this i got sad thinking abt laika#1 hour after im still sad about laika#a day after this it gets sadder im still thinking about laika god fuck help me#Medivoya#Voyapocket#nblnb#nblw
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first time getting arrested vs fiftieth
(don’t worry, ben will get used to it soon enough)
#ben 10#ben tennyson#kevin levin#bevin#ben 10 alien force#ben 10 ultimate alien#blue talks#fun fact! this took over 4 hours to do. most of that time was spent on ben. it was all done in mspaint using a mouse#fun easter egg! if u notice i changed the numbers on the signs to read as 10 and 11#another fun fact! i spent the most time on their hair. both of them. bens hair took forever and i could NOT get the shine on kevins right#i still am not satisfied with it honestly but im not honna spend any more time on it either lol#barbie
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There were 4 humans in the room. Where did 4 of the 5 upstairs big kids need to be?
On mom, of course.
(Emma is barely visible, just next to my hand on the left, behind Addy)
I have never felt more like Daine from Tamora Pierce's Tortall books.
#fbw rambles#my pets#animal pics#Addy pup#Emma pup#springy pup#phoebe kitty#idk i don't think they like me much#i had all 4 of them for at least 10 to 15 minutes before spring moved next to Emma#and then left#phoebe stayed on me for at least half an hour#Addy and Emma didn't move until i was headed to bed#and even then they looked after me like 'but why did you leave :c'#also i desperately wanted to be Daine for years after first reading her books in high school#i still use Daine as my name in video games most of the time#living the dream
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Based off of this I wrote like, not that long ago in the timeline of things.
#danganronpa#danganronpa art#danganronpa fanart#danganronpa comic#READ FROM LEFT TO RIGHT!#danganronpa makoto#makoto naegi#danganronpa byakuya#byakuya togami#danganronpa kyoko#kyoko kirigiri#she's brief but she's here!#basically naegami-centric#naegamigiri#naegirigami#tonaegiri#first time doing a big comic like this#my fingers! AH!#Gosh... I worked on all of this for 6 freaking hours#it's technically not much though i've never made a comic like this that wasn't more than 10 panels soooooo yeah! i did it though!!#even if i did have to reuse just a FEW assets#to ensure i didn't go insane of course!#this is so silly though#i put way too much effort into this
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It has begun.
Everyone, be safe. We'll make it through this tough time.
#i think i downloaded enough ff for a month even though i know i won't have time to read today#i checked and i have 172k in ff tbr#should be enough for 10 hours. while i work.#ao3#ao3 down#fanfiction#fanfic#ff
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This is what I have been working on this week. A4 paper in gouache. It's a rather difficult medium to work with. I do like the consistency, and the matte finish. But I found it hard to make the colours come out bright (I suppose gouache is like that?). I used coloured pencils and what is supposed to be oil pastels (it was straight up chalk lol). I think it could still use more work, but I fear I would just ruin it if I work any further. Overall, I'm happy with the result! Next up will be acrylics! Progress shots under the cut:
#gouache#lioness#drawing lions is actually fun#Worked on this in evenings#after work#omg yes the employment life began. back to school. elementary#i'm basically that meme now that goes#oh no i'm late for school!!! wait i'm an adult now *goes back to sleep*#I'M A TEACHER!!!!!!!!!!!#I have 10 thousand hobbies and now they must be crammed into the evening and weekends#i want to draw and game and work on my story and bake and read and and and#oh my god so much#maybe if i get rid of my phone i can make time for all of it#won't be surprised if it turns out i spend a total of 2 hours doom scrolling in bed
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i leave the uk and jobs at the tate open up?????????????
#insert series of expletives here#i’ve got to get back to the uk so bad#also the british museum has openings and i’m not above working for the enemy idc idc idc idc#it’s so crazy wild reading uk job descriptions#27 paid vacation days to start out with ???? WHAT DO YOU MEAN ????? i get. 10. lmaoo#also full time is 35 hours at most places ?? scream! cry!
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may 10th. guess what day it is???
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KILLER SANS!!!!!
(my 1/3 pookie snookums baby fav squishy idiot) (he gets to go skydiving with his favorite buddies) (more under cut :3)
what happened after:
dust: oh... my... god.
horror: did i lose my eye? oh god, did it fall out?
killer: it's in your other socket.
horror: oh, it is? damn... hold on.
dust: ... i think that my soul left my body... i think i know what papyrus experiences everyday as a ghost now.
killer: oh, stop being so dramatic, dust. it's not that big of a deal, you fly around on your blasters all the time!
dust: wha- not that big of a deal? not that big of a deal?! it's different with my blasters because at least i have some form of ground to stand on, but skydiving is-
horror: okay, there we go, fixed. dust, shut the hell up. honestly, killer's idea was terrible in the moment, but now that i'm looking back at it... skydiving was kinda fun. so we're doing it again.
dust: what?! are you insane?! are both of you deranged and demented?? let- let go of me! no! no!!
horror: we are insane and demented. happy birthday killer. for once i'm actually glad you came up with this idea.
killer: aww, thanks horror, love ya too~
horror: nevermind.
okay that's it happy bday killer sans i love you so much you're one of my favorite characters and you're so interesting and cool hahaha i need you to stab me. (in a nice way) uhhhh who said that
more versions of that art below!!!!! btw i wrote a short oneshot for this little fellas bday 2 check it out :333
#killer sans#horror sans#dust sans#murder time trio#sans au#sans#utmv#tricule art#rare DIGITAL tricule art???#more likely than you think#btw the oneshot is more mttpoly esque than the art so if you're not a fan of goofy goobers then don't read#in disbelief that this art only took 7 hours to complete when my usual digital stuff is 10+ hours#stares at that one piece that has almost 300 hours to its name#im so glad i did this in april i would have missed killers bday if i did it any later
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I loved the cowboy comic so much that I wrote a oneshot for it. https://archiveofourown.org/works/50934235 🥺 your art is BEYOND amazing, ty for the food
INCREDIBLE!!!!!
#billdip#I honestly loved this story start to finish with the ambience and quick pace#hadn't considered the possibility of Bill and Dipper actually working *together* but it's always a good time when they do ❤️#sorry it took so long to reblog 🥲#I read it like- Right when you posted. But I had to catch a plane and then drive an extra hour home and immediately get on zoom for class#and today i was just all around exhausted so i slept roughly 70% of the entire day dndsjdndnd#all that to say that I had your fic in the back of my mind and I very much wanted to set some time aside and re-read it when I got the chan#honestly with how well you set things up I would've loved to see your own rendition of their first kiss#You established their relationship really well at the start and brought them together by the end after outsmsrtong those bandits#it feels like you have a better understanding of who they are to each other than even i do 😌 very much a fan#i love when stories incorporate those sort of 'habits' that the love interests fall into#that confuses character A while character B is so clearly using it as an excuse to get close and spend more time with them#i squealed like a maniac when Bill was like oooph lemme walk you home 😏🤠#sir i am going to wrangle you up if you don't compose yourself#and Dipper's just wary of him because people as handsome as bill used to pick on him 😢#little does he know he's grown into a 10/10 cutie patootie that any cowboy would be stupid NOT to smooch#I'm a simple man. I read oblivious low-confidence cowboy being pursued by a hottie on a horse. I lose my shit#Awesome wonderful writing!!! so happy to have caught your eye and i hope to continue pumping out content for this wonderfully weird ship
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hello jade nation i just woke up with one sock on, my hair messy like a bird nest, my eyeliner smudged to my jawline, my dress is half on half off, and im also in my girlfriends bed 🤷♀️ what a night ! i wish i could remember it - oh wait ! i have 40 videos on my phone !!!!!!!! thank you drunk jade!!!!!
#its 10:30 am and i dont know where my gf went#im so tired#i woke up at like 9 and i was so confused i had to stare at my hands for about half an hour#thankfully i didnt drunk too much im not that hungover#i had so much fun last night if anyone cares#dare i say best birthday ever question mark#♡ . jade rambles#but like really rambles this time#they were onto something when they named it a headache#like yeah my head IS aching actually#noise complaint im coming for you talk it out im coming for you#eggy i read the first paragraph of ur angstober kiyoko fic and teared up immediately#idk if i can handle that it hits a little too close to home#will try to read it later.. maybe
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Tomorrow is my birthday! I had quite literally the worst week of my career hours wise last week, and am really struggling to pay all my bills for the week.
If anyone would perchance like to grab a silly little one page ttrpg that features mice and puns and the power of friendship, please consider my two mouse games! They're both free+ so any sale, even $1, will help - and those small sales really add up!!
If you've had a really great month so far, and just so happen to have extra dosh laying around, please consider helping out a queer disabled autistic creator?
If you are a fan of my silly little art, please consider grabbing a drawing or a card or some stationery with some silly fun designs or one of my OCs, or one of yours, just hmu and I'd be glad to make you something for a few buckeroonies! @rosie-lav-art to see my style!
If you aren't able to help, thanks for taking the time to read all this, and I hope that you have a great rest of your week, and that something nice and unexpected happens that brings you joy :)
(other ways to support -
cashapp/venmo/PayPal = rosielav)
(PS if you've been here since my Game Gruno days, I'll gladly write you a ficlet or something silly, been a while since I flexed the ol fan fic muscle but I'd be happy to do it again to help with bills!!!)
#ttrpg#ttrpgs#indie ttrpg#ttrpg community#lasers and feelings#Mutual aid#birthday#i need help#I should be OK literally every other week I jjst got 25 hours over 6 days and it's really not enough for all the bills#I have to pay electric and one of my credit cards but tbh the electric is my main priority because it's the biggest bill I have#This is the highest electric bill I've had all year as well xause it's been brutally hot so it's a big chunk of change for me#Normally it's very easy for my work work into my budget but I made less than the bill itself last week a d live paycheck to paycheck so :')#Literally anything helps I make like $7 for every $10 sent cause of fees basically but it adds up#And literary any amount is more than what I have sl I am incredibly grateful for anything#Thank you for taking the time to read all of this I hope you have a very nice day today and smile and laugh with someone you love
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