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[sysig]

Light and darkness, but mostly darkness (Patreon)

[raehstats]

my biggest flex is that I read all aftg books without understanding exy for shit and I also know I don't need to because I'm pretty sure nora doesn't know either.

[maddyshome]

i can explain what i meant by saying the moonscorched form is the delusion of identity. its the lie we think we are turned into reality. rher's speciality.

let me just present my case with all of the fear & hunger termina characters:

levi - his form is the easiest to explain. his past as a child soldier and the background he has with the army made him believe that he is just a weapon. that he is just a number. his life and death are meaningless since he is an object. i have no doubts this was a mindset instilled by his superiors and his military background. levi lives with the illusion he does not matter. the lie that he tells to himself is that he is nothing but a weapon, easily discarded, just another solider sent to his death.

daan - the doctor does not have a moonscorched form. his so called moonscorched form is NOT a form specific to daan as a character. that is the pocketcat. this is the result of daan being born with a blank soul. think of daan like a pov character. the protagonist of the persona games. so why was he a suitable host for pocketcat? most likely because daan was a blank canvas (soul) for pocketcat. the pocketcat is a virus that corrupted the computer and this specific computer called daan has no antivirus. i think the blank soul is the closest soul to the truth since it has no identity that can be corrupted by rher's powers. you can say the delusion could not reach him since he has no perception of himself. daan focuses his life and individuality for others. like his dead wife or the baron.

karin - she is a valkyrie. the valkyrie is a female creature that guides the souls of dead soldiers to valhalla (paradise in the norse myths). but lets not forget, karin is also a journalist in search for the truth. she lives with the illusion she is a harbinger of truth that is burdened by the millions of people harmed by the war that she cannot help. they are dragging her down. the dead soldiers are a burden on her wings. karin has the illusion that she is a savior for these people.

marina - very easy. we get hints at the beginning of her story. marina was not born as a woman, but as a man. if her father knew since back then that she is a he and not a she then marina would become her father's shadow. marina lives with the illusions she is not a real woman and she is burned by her father's duty. she lives with the illusion she owes her father her life as his successor.

olivia - her sister is the machine god. olivia's moonscorched form is a machine-like creature. shes lives with the delusion that she is a failed or lesser version of her sister (she was envious of her sister we get this from her intro). olivia's entire body and ability for movement depends on her wheelchair so her wheelchair became a part of her turning her into a cyborg.

caligura - he was always extremely ugly. its very likely he was bullied as a child. and not just as a child. we see his monstrous side because caligura gave up on humanity. he turned to hatred since he was hated by others. caligura strikes me as a very insecure and hateful individual. his moonscorched form is disgusting because he lives with the illusion he is disgusting no matter what he does or how he acts. he is just a ballsack. no woman wants him. he looks atrocious. no man could ever respect him.

henryk - he wants to be respected. just like caligura, but the difference is that henryk wants to be loved not feared. the gentleman is the new mayor. he has a high position, has a butler, people are FORCED to respect him. henryk lives with the illusion he is someone important, people owe him respect. women should be flattered they were noticed by him. henryk lives with the illusion he has a right to a woman's body because he is the alpha man that pretends to be the nice guy. it's why he kidnaps marina.

marcoh - easy. he looks like a brute type of guy. most people think he is not very smart because he is really quiet and standoffish. his moonscorched form is his own lie. a beast like creature with no human head. he lives with the illusion he is not very bright just like some people say. just another brute.

o'saa - the opposite of marcoh. o'saa lives with the illusion he is smarter than everyone else. he is arrogant and treats people like they are dumb animals. he is a brain like creature that looks down on the other fools who simply try to live. (what's incredibly ironic about o'saa is that his own mindset is influenced by his association with nas'hrah)

THE WEIRDOS

samarie - i have explained it in depth in my last post, but samarie has illusions of grandeur. she thinks people do not see her greatness. she wants to be noticed by marina as someone special, shining like the sun. so her illusion is not accepting her reality and blaming others for not letting her shine.

tanaka - kind of a similar case as samarie. except he lives with the illusion he is just too weak and not a "true" man (maybe what his father wants him to be) that embodies masculine traits (confident, ambitious, strength of will etc)

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so maybe some of you wonder..

why do some characters's "lies" are based on their insecurities and others (like samarie and henryk) are not based on insecurities?

its because we, as people, most of the time think the worst of ourselves. we concentrate on these insecurities and we give them power because we think it is a TRUTH about our identity. sometimes we think its a truth that no one else can see except us.

samarie's and henryk's forms are, at their core, still based on their own insecurities. samarie hides from reality and lives in her lala world where she is radiating. and henryk does the same damn thing. but subconsciously they know their version of reality is a little off so that's how it turns into a insecurity.

OMG GUYS SO SORRY I FORGOT ABOUT ABELLA. GIRL forgive me.

abella - her form looks like a man creature wearing a skirt, not a woman. she lives with the illusion her job, her character and tastes (wears masculine clothing, she is a mechanic, not a feminine woman) turns her into a man. she could be insecure in her own femininity. just like tanaka is insecure because he doesnt think he is "real" man, abella doesnt think she is a "real" woman. i think her case is special since its very likely she was attacked by a parasite like the woodsman (and daan) and this could not be her moonscorched form.

[meemotin]

One thing I find really interesting in Dune (the book especially. I don’t think this was explored as much in any of the film adaptations), is the themes of identity and loss of it.

Especially with Paul there are a lot of moments where he thinks of himself almost as seperate people. He is Paul Atreides the son of Leto Atreides and the duke of Arrakis. He is also a Bene Gesserit, the Kiwisatz Haderach. He is also a Fremen, a messiah, a father, a son and a husband.

All of these different parts of him exist at the same time but are contrary to each other in motives. I think that incredible amount of inner conflict is what makes him into what he becomes at the end of the book.

[brighhton]

exam break for me really is just me studying for a couple hours then taking a break grabbing a snack and drink and thinking about gravity falls and then rinse and repeat over the course of a day

[ohtobearandomftblog]

you’re right about the not caring about canon anymore because 100 yrs quest fucking SUCKS man it’s just trash… like they’ve destroyed 90% of the good characters making them soooo OOC just to fit them into the str8 ships it makes me so mad especially because this manga was supposed to be about friendship but what ppl ONLY care about is romance and it’s not even good

i saw they royally fucked up natsu. somethin bout him not knowing what a library is even tho the first quest he and lucy go on is to break into duke everlue's LIBRARY. and that one ova and ending where natsu is in the fairy tail LIBRARY.

also something something laxus flirting with the fucking enemy something something laxus giving his COAT to the fucking ENEMY something something laxus KNEELING for the ENEMY bc her bullshit ass magic makes NO SENSE. look i know theyre tryina make laxus more "likable" or some bullshit so itll make sense when he gets with mirajane (bc lets face it its gonna be mira not cana or lisanna or whoever else unless hes getting with that eNEMY) but like. we've known he respects women. we know hes grown since the battle of ft. you dont need to show that hes a sub gentleman who'll kneel to more powerful women so itll make more sense when he gets with the she-devil. like at this point im wanting to boost laxus/freed art and fics even tho i really dont care for that ship. controversial opinion ik

my hyperfixations/special interests/somethin like that have rotated from one comfort media (ft) to another and that other is currently dbz so 1 thats why this has been even less active than before and 2

in dragon ball super they fucked up goku. apparently bitch doesnt know what a kiss is. HE HAS TWO KIDS. what the FUCK are you on about. i mean im 70% sure in db he didnt know what marriage was and thought it was food or somethin when chichi made him promise to marry her when they both grew up. but like. he was maybe 15, living in the wilderness, his grandpa having died some years ago, getting no education. THAT made sense. him not knowing what a kiss is??? I FEEL LIKE WE'VE SEEN HIM KISS HIS WIFE BEFORE. ON SCREEN. WHAT THE FUCK.

it looks like manga authors are in the era of beating more money out of their completed series to the point that theyre just beating a corpse now. theyre tryina squeeze more money and attention outta shit that was still pretty big without new "canon" content coming out.

[fifty-ten]

i thought splatfest was next week (& only found out it was this week because i happened to check splatnet) so i missed half of it … really disappointing

[lonniemachin]

Batman (1940) #489

'more training on the fly -- but this time i'm gonna play the pupil, and you're gonna seem like the teacher.'

[likehephaestionwhodied]

I'm still so upset about "Trans women of color throwing bricks at cops gave me my right to marry other men"

The conflation of Queer Liberation and the gay rights movement is so fucking annoying and it's mostly done by "know your history" assholes who don't know their history.

Stonewall was the catalyst for Queer Liberation. Over simplified queer lib is very "we're here, we're queer fuck you." Which is not to say that the queer liberation movement didn't care about the rights of queer folks. But in the 70s it was a lot of "gay people have the right to not be fired from their school teacher job." (that's history y'all need to know, Anita Bryant and the campaign to kick out gay people from schools) I'm not saying no one was floating the idea of gay marriage but it wasn't at the top of the docket.

And then the AIDS Crisis starts.

You'll see lots of people say that the fight for gay marriage came from the fact that people were dying and their life partners did not have the same legal rights granted to heterosexual couples. This is only part of the truth.

Being gay in the 70s was by no means easy. But if you're an upper middle class cis white gay man, it's doable, especially if you have a job that might not care as much. That means that these men essentially have all the rights and privileges of other upper middle class white guys, the world is built of them. Their whiteness and their maleness protects them.

But then when a bunch of them start dying, and the risk of death is linked to their being gay? They lose the protection of their white maleness. For the first time these men had to fight for themselves. And you get a very specific breed of gay men. Men who had not been involved in Queer Liberation are suddenly becoming activists. And they're VERY loud. Larry Kramer is one of these men.

Men like Larry Kramer and Randy Shilts blame gay men for AIDS, suggesting they should be more monogamous. They should be more like heterosexuals, and they should have spent less time fucking each other (they REALLY hated folks into fisting) and should have fought for their rights, things like gay marriage. Again these are men who were NOT activists before.

Some of the strongest and loudest activists for gay marriage early on were heteronormative gay men who were scared because their white privilege couldn't save them from AIDS. These men, along with the ongoing AIDS Crisis help put an end to the Queer Liberation movement. Instead of "you must accept us as we are" we see a shift in activism to "let us prove we are just like you" Randy Shilts goes on to push really hard for allowing gay folks in the armed forces.

I'm not saying gay marriage is a bad thing. I'm saying it's fucking telling that white gay men will point to trans women of color and say "they did the work" when in fact much of the work was done to distance white gay men from trans women of color.

[animeisforanimation]

Trigun fandom, dearest

i've finished volume 10

i thought i'd seen all the pages and 'd read all the meta and ‘d known everything in advance and thus was ready. hell, I was even afraid it won't affect me as much as yall say

oh well

guess jokes are on me

sitting here covered in tears and snot

looking at them in perfect sync

in protecting, in fighting - reaching for each other

and then this... ballet

a team

and then like a shot in the head - they say the same fucking words at the same fucking time

i need to lay down

...

"why? you of all people should know why"

can you imagine talking to a person who killed love of your life? whom the love of your life died to protect?

can you imagine the turmoil?

UPD an hour later: volume 11 addresses that too?! how is this story so so perfect?!

…

and why does this perfection has to hurt so?

[robot-riot]

Campaigning for Nick Valentine in advance. Bethesda are cowards for not putting a romance route in the game for him, the romance mod hardly changes anything but now you can kiss that toaster grandpa. Why would you make him flirt with the Sole Survivor if you can't even kiss him in the base game you MONSTERS.

This is either a rant you have memorized and ready to go at any point or you just copy pasted it from your submission some of this is word for word

[ellearts]

ELLEEEEEE THE NEW STROLLONSO PICS 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 THEY'RE SO CUTE 🥺🥺🥺🥺 I can't believe we finally got such good pics of them again!! And they were holding mics!!! Video together????????

Instantly,as I saw my tumblr notification about an ask, I KNEW IT WAS YOU!! ZHANKS YOU CATIE AND YSS IM ABSOLUTELY NORMAL !!! They are so adorbale I could write a million words on lance cute little bambi eyes !! As he is looking up!!! AND they are so joyous AND smiley AND happy UGH IM GONNA DIE !!!! WE ARE GETTING FED WITH 3 PICS IM SO FED BUT I NEED MORE OF THEM CUTIES!!!

YEASHH I INSTANTLY NOTICED THAT LANCE WAS HOLDING AN F1!!!! MIC LIKE??!?!?!??! WHAT ELSE COULD IT MEAN THAT VIDEO TOGETHER???like pleaseee f1 gods please please please we need.need another video its been 527722628282938 years and we are STARVED!!!

Cannot get over how happy and goody they looked,ANYONE who has said that they had a beef, NU-UH!!! Ofc they didn't,they love each other LOOKATEM

[bihastuff]

Damn girl all of that ?? That's crazy

[agirlnamedhagrid]

people to get to know better

tagged by @kaylithographica (I think!?) ages ago. I’m just hugely terrible at doing these things. I have over 200 “drafts” in my account and I keep meaning to add my thoughts and responses to things and here we are.

Last Song:  “Wait in the Truck” by HARDY

Last Show:  The Recruit? I’m terrible at tracking when I have finished watching what things!  It’s a good show, but oh dear holy god it was tense. I had a friend suggest it because it was “funny” and let me just say that I think very few people with military/intelligence backgrounds (or who were raised by someone in that line of work) would ever find it funny. It was excellent character work, but also terrifying because I have plenty of cause to believe that very little of the supposedly made-for-TV “exaggerations” were actually, well, exaggerations. Again, great and interesting show, but I could only watch an episode or two at a time. I could not physically tolerate binging it.

Currently Watching:  Titans season 4. Literally just watched the first episode of this (final) season.

Currently Reading:  The Wicked King by Holly Black. I don’t often read YA fantasy anymore and I truly forget how hard YA authors go on the politics/cruelty aspect. I think it’s because they can’t lean into the super hot sex/intimacy you get in a lot of adult fantasy nowadays? Regardless, the book is excellent but I had to take a breather and read some cotton-candy adult romance after The Cruel Prince to reset myself for this one, lol.

Tagging (if you wanna):  I never know who to tag because I really am just screaming into the void, so inevitably I get tagged by the people I know first :P

[fallinallincurls]

the absolute most perfect fic ever!! this has everything you could ever want and my heart is so full everything reading, it might just burst. they way nico is ready to help to make traveling a little less stressful was the cutest and i don’t have enough words to describe how much i loved this one!

[1.7k] travelling can be stressful, but it's a little easier when your swiss grizzly bear boyfriend is by your side.

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It was stupid. 

You were fully aware it’s stupid. People liked to remind you how stupid they found it. It was something so, so stupid and being so painfully aware just made it worse. Because logic didn’t work, despite what countless people tried to tell you. Their reassurances and rationality didn’t help the way your brain spiralled until it could latch on to every single possible thing that could go wrong.

And you knew, nine times out of ten, nothing would happen. In fact, you could count on one hand the times your spirals had played out and became a reality. But that didn’t stop you having the spirals, and it didn’t stop the way your brain processed everything. 

Unfortunately, even your own common sense lacked in the battle between your brain and the anxiety travelling brought you. 

It was something you were mostly mocked for and, truthfully, you could understand their perspectives. It did sound silly when you tried to explain to your coworker the fact you couldn’t sleep the night before a journey, even if you had done it a million times before. It did sound dramatic when you tried to explain the fear a new destination brought you, regardless of how much research you did. But they didn’t get it, they don’t understand that voice in the back of your head whispering away. 

What if this is the one time something goes wrong? What if there is an accident?  What if something gets cancelled?  What if the traffic is worse than usual and you’re late? 

Random but burdening questions rattled in your head on the days coming up to a big trip. It’s why you hated booking them in the first place, because you knew exactly how you would react. And you told yourself it would be different, that you wouldn’t be so dramatic this time, that you could handle it.

And, without fail, you would find yourself sick to your stomach the morning of the trip, unable to stomach anything beyond a piece of toast (if you were lucky).

“Do you think you would know if I was replaced by an alien?” 

You blinked, taking a few moments to process the question before you turned to find Nico already looking at you, a contemplative look on his face. 

“What?” 

“Like, I’m sure you would notice but how long do you think it would take you to figure it out?” He questioned, his hand resting on your knee and lightly squeezing as he spoke. 

You stared at him for a few moments, trying to wrap your head around his question before you let out a breathless laugh. “What are you going on about?” 

“You looked lost in your thoughts,” he said, keeping his voice low so he couldn’t be heard above the music the taxi driver was playing through the radio. “I can see inside that pretty head of yours. You were spiralling.”

Your cheeks flushed in response. “I’m sorry—”

But Nico cut you off with another squeeze to your knee and a kind smile on his face. “You don’t have to apologise for it,” he reassured you. “I just wanted to help.”

Something in your chest tightened at his words. 

“For the record,” he continued, saving you once again when he could see emotions overwhelming your ability to speak. “I think it would take me five minutes tops if you got replaced by an alien.” 

You snorted. “What? Five minutes? There’s no way.”

“I know you, schatz,” Nico shrugged in response. “I would be able to tell.”

“Aliens could have crazy technology far too advanced for humans to comprehend,” you argued back and, for the first time since you went to bed last night, your brain was thinking about something other than long security lines, overpriced airport snacks and cancelled flights. “I could have been replaced by an alien months ago and you wouldn’t have realised.” 

“I would know,” Nico said, sounding far too sure of himself as he flashed you a smile. “I doubt aliens would know that you make a little sound whenever I–”

“Nico!” You hissed, your eyes widening as you glanced at the taxi driver with worry. 

And the fucker had the audacity to giggle in response as he wrapped his arm around your shoulders, tugging you against his side as much as your seatbelt would allow. 

“I was just going to say when I tickle you,” he said with a shameless grin. “I don’t know what dirty thoughts are in your head, schatz.” 

You huffed, nuzzling further into his side. “You’re evil.”

“And you love me anyways.”

You rolled your eyes, but Nico knew from the smile on your face that he was right. 

You knew exactly what he was doing and, truthfully, you couldn’t even find it in yourself to call him out on it. Because it was working. Because he was Nico and he would deny it but he wouldn’t stop, even if you did call him out. Because there was a warm feeling in your stomach at the idea that someone—that Nico—cared enough to go out of his way to make you more comfortable.

Because he was Nico Hischier and he was just the kind of guy that went out of his way to make his loved ones more relaxed, to take on that captain role beyond the ice.

You barely got a chance to climb out of the taxi before Nico was already reaching for the bags in the boot of the car, pulling them out and only giving you the lightest ones he couldn’t physically carry whilst also holding your hand. You didn’t bother to hide your smile.

It was a feeling you didn’t have with many people. Or at all, usually. Especially when you were travelling. Your brain was working on overdrive, your eyes constantly looking around like some unexpected variable was going to throw your plans off. You couldn’t physically stop how wired and on edge travelling made you.

But something about travelling with Nico made it easy to just let your brain switch off. 

You were far too focused on ogling the way he casually carried more bags than one person should, carrying them with such ease that made your head spin a little. Far too focused on the way he guided you through the bustling airport, so sure of himself and so in control as he led you towards the front desk where you could check your luggage in and grab your boarding passes. 

You didn’t even get a chance to reach for your hand luggage before Nico took the smaller suitcase in his hand, his other hand on the small of your back as he led you towards security with no sight of the panicked rushing that you were used to. 

“Do you think aliens could make it past airport security?” 

You snorted. “Do not start this again.”

Nico’s smile widened in response. 

Security passed as quickly as one would expect for such a busy airport (meaning not very fast at all) but it was easy to not think too long about it when Nico was chatting your ear off with a million different topics. The possibility of missing your flight (despite being over three hours early) didn’t cross your mind as Nico scrolled through the endless TikToks Jack had sent him, or pictures Jonas had sent, already back home in Switzerland earlier than Nico.

“Here,” Nico called out to get your attention. 

You turned around, finding him reaching into his backpack before pulling out a bundle of fabric. You raised your brows in questioning but took it from him without second thought. It took you a few moments before you realised it was one of his hoodies. 

“You brought two hoodies?” You questioned. 

“No, one is for you,” he answered like it was obvious. “It’s your favourite one, too. I made sure not to pack it away in the big case.”

Your face softened in seconds. “Nico.” 

“None of that,” he murmured as he stepped forward, taking your face in his hands as his thumbs lightly skimmed along the apples of your cheeks. “I want my girl to be as comfortable as possible, okay? So, you’re gonna put that hoodie on, we are gonna get some food in you and then we can relax by the gate. I have card games and playlists and your kindle in my bag too, because you almost forgot to pack it last night. I made sure it was charged too.” 

Your eyes welled up with tears before you could stop yourself. “I love you.”

He beamed in response. “I love you too,” he answered before leaning down to press a lingering kiss against your lips. “And I cannot wait to kick your ass at the new card game Timo taught me on the way back from LA.”

“Oh?” You raised your brows. “You’re so sure you’ll win?”

“I always win,” he murmured against your lips, kissing you again before he pulled away. “I won you, didn’t I?”

You scoffed, rolling your eyes. “You’re so cheesy today.”

“You’re going to be stuck on a plane with me for the next few hours, better get used to it.” 

“I should have taken Jack up on his offer to go to the lakehouse instead,” you grumbled, but there was unwritten relief on your face as you wrapped your arms around his waist, leaning against him as he squeezed you closer. 

“You’ll love Switzerland far more than you would have liked Michigan,” Nico assures you, lips brushing against the top of your head. “The food is better. And so are the views. And it has something Michigan doesn’t have.”

Your curiosity peaked. “Hm?” 

Nico’s head shifted down a bit, his lips brushing against your ear as his voice dropped until it was a whisper only you could hear. “A cabin I booked away for the week, just for me and you. No city, no people. Just us, a lake and so many surfaces I can’t wait to fuck you on.”

Your cheeks burned as you pulled back, glaring at his smug expression. “Nico!”

“What?” He looked giddy, dimples popping and making your stomach twist in desire. “I saw those little dresses you packed, baby. Don’t think I won’t be taking full advantage of it.”

“You’re a menace.” 

“And this menace loves to make you come,” he retorted, quickly leaning down to kiss you again before you could reply. “Now, c’mon. We have plenty of time to kill and I even downloaded some movies Nina recommended. Everything is going to be fine, baby.”

And you were just so inclined to believe him. 

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[jeju-tangerine]

the sad thing is i cant even read a street racing au because it feels too unethical to me because im just thinking about how it must be so dangerous. im that twitter guy type that only likes stories with no conflict or moral ambiguity sorryyyyyyyy